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مسلسل New Amsterdam مترجم - Episode 4
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00:25Hello, my old heart.
00:41Hello, my old heart.
00:59I don't want to be alone.
01:01I want to find a home.
01:04I want to share it with you.
01:07Good morning, sir.
01:10A cruel person wrote these.
01:13A cruel person is going to put you back in bed.
01:21Do you remember how much I loved this bed when we got it?
01:24I do.
01:25Now I want to set it on fire and laugh while it burns.
01:28That sounds dangerous.
01:29And bed rest is important.
01:31It prevents the cervix from having a life.
01:34Max, my cervix is so bored.
01:40Thank you for doing this.
01:43All of it.
01:48How's the couch?
01:51Really good.
01:52Yeah.
01:52So the better than the bed, to be honest.
01:58I want to be ready, Max.
02:01I want to want you back.
02:04I'm just...
02:05I'm not...
02:09I got all the time in the world.
02:23I got all the time in the world.
02:47Do you mind if I ask how long your foot's been hurting?
02:50It's...
02:51Well, then I'm fine.
02:54Because I'm a doctorate.
02:55New Amsterdam, right across the street.
02:58Maybe you could take a walk with me.
02:59I could have a look at that.
03:01Maybe you could leave me alone.
03:03Your foot is badly infected.
03:04If you don't do something about it, it's going to get a lot worse.
03:06Hey, get away from me!
03:18I love soil.
03:20Do you want to know why?
03:21I am at the edge of my metaphorical seat.
03:24Because it contains mycobacterium bacchaeus,
03:26which has been proven to promote serotonin production,
03:28which acts as a natural antidepressant.
03:30And so does that hat.
03:32Can't bring me down, my friend.
03:33Not today.
03:34The HCC has funded my proposal.
03:37After two years, they funded it!
03:38For the community gardens?
03:40Yes, exactly.
03:41You know, horticultural therapy dates back to ancient Mesopotamia.
03:43And, uh, oh my gosh, are those your little homemade Indian donuts?
03:46They are not donuts.
03:48They are laddus.
03:49Well, you don't mind if I laddus.
03:50They are not for you.
03:51They are for someone else.
03:54Not the girl from the coffee shop, though.
03:56Her name is Ella.
03:58It's my gesture of gratitude for someone who showed me kindness.
04:01Okay.
04:01Let me see if I got this straight.
04:02You're going to give pastries to someone who works in a pastry shop.
04:05Laddus are not pastries.
04:06They are sweets.
04:08Well, that doesn't make it any less weird.
04:19Gladys?
04:21Gladys, what is this?
04:23Well, pull a swag.
04:24A gift from the new sponsor.
04:26What new sponsor?
04:28For your community garden.
04:37Hello?
04:39What's the urgent page?
04:40Uh, got an EMS notification asking to have thoracic standing by.
04:44You okay?
04:45Headache.
04:4845-year-old man, acute onset, tearing chest pain, heart rate 110, 140 over 56 right arm,
04:54100 over palp left, respiration's 18, gave him nitro.
04:57Dissecting aortic aneurysm.
05:01Mateo?
05:03Hope you're on your game today, Floyd.
05:08Who's...
05:08Mateo Fernandez.
05:10Cardiothoracic from Baptist?
05:12Yeah.
05:13Isn't this week...
05:14Yeah.
05:15Hey, get Max down here now.
05:16Oh.
05:18Okay, as I fit you for the radiation mask, remember you have to keep absolutely still.
05:24I always found stillness to be a highly overrated human ability.
05:27Consider it practice.
05:29For when we aim high-energy external beam radiation at the cancer in your throat.
05:34If you move them, you die.
05:37Has anyone ever told you you would make a great James Bond villain?
05:41Uh, Max, you cannot move.
05:44Right.
05:45So, uh, come here often.
05:48That includes your mouse.
05:50All of that because...
05:51Do I have to remind you that you need a throat to make jokes?
05:58Relax.
06:00You can close your eyes if you like.
06:03Stay still, Max.
06:05Max.
06:15I think it's fair to say that was torture for both of us.
06:20If my cancer gets anyone else killed besides me, then I'm really going to be upset.
06:25I got the 911.
06:27This week's the annual conference of cardiothoracic surgeons in San Diego.
06:30Everyone goes.
06:31All of my attendings are there.
06:32One unlucky surgeon stays behind at each hospital to cover.
06:35It's me here.
06:36It's Fernandez at Baptist, but only one of us has a dissecting aortic aneurysm.
06:39And since he's here, I'm guessing no one's covering Baptist.
06:42They still have general surgeons, transplant surgeons.
06:44Yeah, they can't cover for Fernandez.
06:45You want a gynecologist tagging in on your heart surgery?
06:50How can Baptist run their hospital without a cardiothoracic surgeon?
06:53They can't, which means they're no longer a level one trauma center.
06:56Without cardiothoracic backup, they can't treat myocardio infarctions, car accidents,
07:00GSWs.
07:00They can't accept ambulances.
07:02Guys, we're going to have to pick up Baptist's full ambulance line.
07:04I knew you were going to say that.
07:05They'd do it for us.
07:06Would they?
07:06We're short staffed, too.
07:07What about their network hospitals?
07:08They'll pick up the elective admits, but emergency patients will die waiting in crosstown traffic.
07:12We're the closest.
07:13It's on us.
07:13You really think we can shoulder their full ED plus all the cardiothoracic surgeries?
07:17Just ones that need to be done today.
07:19Yeah, just those.
07:20Guys, this is what we do.
07:21We help everyone.
07:22Floyd, I trust you and I believe in you.
07:24So I'm only going to do this if you tell me you can handle it.
07:27I can handle it.
07:28Okay, good.
07:28Because if something goes wrong, we are both on the hook.
07:31Nothing will go wrong, all right?
07:32I'll make sure of it.
07:35Okay.
07:41Bloom, we're going to live or die today based on our ED loads.
07:44So any doc or nurse standing still in any part of this hospital needs to go down and pitch in.
07:48I'll take it.
07:49I already hear sirens, so unfortunately, you're going to have to miss the rest of my big pep talk.
07:52Oh, so sad.
07:53Iggy, psych wait times are the longest, so make sure you get your patients up to your ward early and
07:57often.
07:57All right.
07:58Good thing psych patients are so compliant.
08:00Kapoor, neurology wait times are second, so I need you to move double time today.
08:03This is my double time.
08:04Noted.
08:05Sharp.
08:05This is a bad idea.
08:07So is sending every cardiothoracic surgeon in America to San Diego at the same time, but they do it every
08:11year.
08:11Last year was Barcelona.
08:13I do love sangria.
08:14This is a bad idea.
08:15So are you telling me that you wouldn't have taken the extra patients?
08:17No, I wouldn't have.
08:18I try to make things simple, easy.
08:21You know, like a normal person.
08:23Why do you keep choosing the hardest road at every opportunity?
08:26Better views.
08:33How person, how long have you been with Reynolds?
08:35Three years.
08:36And it's Nottingham.
08:38BG1-6.
08:39Okay, today is not the day where I'm going to be polite and remember your names.
08:42When patients come in, I'm going to point and yell.
08:45Don't take it personally.
08:46You move on my orders only.
08:56What'd you bring us?
08:56Adeline Simon, 53-year-old female, had a parodicist on the books at Baptist.
09:00Tall person, take Mrs. Simon to any empty bed and get a preface for surgery.
09:04This is Mr. Gold, 47-year-old male in need of a bath procedure.
09:07KCM Brown-haired woman, any open bay.
09:10Name is Sherry Fletcher, 68-year-old female.
09:11She requires immediate stenoscopy.
09:13Stay with me.
09:14Okay, let's get her inside.
09:18Okay, Mrs. Fletcher in bay 23.
09:22Has anybody seen my ibuprofen?
09:23Tell a nurse to grab you a bottle.
09:25What I need is for people to stop taking my stuff.
09:30Incoming!
09:34Rips spreader?
09:35Rips spreader.
09:36Fair warning, this is being recorded so that Dr. Fernandez can see my technique when he's awake.
09:41Um, Dr. Reynolds?
09:45Uh, Dr. Bloom asked me to, um...
09:49Start with the subject, then the verb, and see where the sentence goes from there.
09:53The cases from Baptist are crowding the ED.
09:56There's a pleurodesis.
09:57With your permission, I was thinking I could grab a general attending to supervise and handle it myself.
10:01I appreciate the enthusiasm, but prep the patient and wait for me.
10:04It's just the ED is awfully full and I really think I can help out.
10:07You have a very promising future.
10:08I don't want you to hand over your head when I'm too busy to bail you out.
10:11A mistake like that can derail your entire career.
10:13So go ahead and prep the patient, and I'll get there when I'm done.
10:17Yes, sir.
10:23Baptist surgeons are on a flight back from San Diego.
10:25Lands in five hours.
10:26You got this, right?
10:27Oh, do I have a choice?
10:29Could warp the space-time continuum.
10:31Hey, what patient is that for?
10:33Homeless woman outside.
10:34You couldn't find a patient inside to help?
10:36If I don't help her, she's going to lose her foot.
10:38Send an intern.
10:39She's skeptical of doctors and so am I, so we have an understanding.
10:42I'll be back in five minutes.
10:43What?
10:45Sorry, Doc.
10:50You and Ella have an asymmetric power structure.
10:52Giving her a gift can be misinterpreted as a deliberate extraction of reciprocal favors, sexual or otherwise.
10:58I see you, Dr. Dr. Fromm.
11:02Mrs. Monaghan, I'm Dr. Vijay Kapoor, and this is Dr.
11:06How?
11:06Dr. Cow.
11:08I'm dizzy.
11:09I'm so sorry to hear that.
11:11Dizzy can be awful.
11:13Can you explain to me what do you mean by dizzy?
11:16You don't know dizzy?
11:18I do, I do, but I also know that it means different things to different people.
11:22Well, at Baptist, they understand dizzy.
11:24That may be true, but here in New Amsterdam, I want you to think about what exactly dizzy means to
11:29you.
11:30It means dizzy.
11:34The good news is that your CT scans are negative and preliminary lab tests all look fine.
11:39She's a good doctor.
11:41Yes, she is.
11:43So, while I examine my other patients, I want you to think about your kind of dizzy.
11:53Tell me you're admitting dizzy, Jack.
11:54I cannot admit anyone without a proper diagnosis, but I don't have any yet.
12:01Maybe we should make it a multiple choice question.
12:03We cannot give our choices.
12:04It will influence our answers.
12:06We just need to know what dizzy means to her, and we will get our diagnosis.
12:12So, then I call HCC, and they say, I take the money from Volt Cola, or I can kiss my
12:16garden goodbye.
12:18More than half of the sugar kids consume comes directly from soda.
12:21I know.
12:22Volt Cola spend millions each year to defeat public health legislation that could actually help.
12:26I know.
12:27So, unless you want to hurry along the epidemic of childhood obesity, then there's no way you can take their
12:31money.
12:32I know.
12:33Great.
12:33Now you can focus on the epidemic of overcrowding in my ED.
12:36Your psych patients are in bays 2, 8, rooms 12, 22, and 28.
12:42Get them out of here.
12:43Okie doke, Doc.
12:47Okay, I'm just going to check if the numbing medication has worked, Tiana.
12:50Can you feel this?
12:51No.
12:52How about this?
12:53She was in pain, so we called 911.
12:56We didn't want to take any chances.
12:58Should we have just driven her to Baptist?
13:00No, no.
13:01You did the right thing.
13:02I've read Tiana's file and we'll pull it up.
13:04Mommy, you're not watching.
13:06I am, sweetheart.
13:06Oh, don't move, Tiana.
13:08I'm just gathering the cells I need for the biopsy right now.
13:11Those are going to tell you if my cancer's back?
13:13That's right.
13:19What's it like when you die?
13:27Baby, you don't need to know that.
13:29That's not going to happen for a long, long time.
13:32All right, baby girl?
13:34Right, Dr. Sharp?
13:37Do you want the elephant or the tiger band-aid?
13:42Nobody tells me anything.
13:53Miss me?
13:54Nope, nope, nope, nope.
13:56I can't afford your help.
13:57My help is free.
14:01Not taking it is going to cost you your foot,
14:03so either way, you're going to have to deal with me.
14:07You're relentless.
14:09I'm Max.
14:14I'm Faye.
14:15It's nice to meet you, Faye.
14:18Okay, take one of these a day until the bottle is gone.
14:23I have to go, but I'll come back to check on them.
14:30I have a brother who's very sick.
14:36He will go to the hospital.
14:40Can you help him, too?
14:43I have a hospital full of patients who need me.
15:03How can I help?
15:10Faye, I really can't go far.
15:12We're close.
15:13I promise.
15:15You have to see him.
15:28This way.
15:40Okay, how much longer?
15:41I'm backing up downstairs.
15:42I'm holding this men's aorta together with string and scotch tape.
15:44I'm doing everything I can.
15:45Well, your seven surgeries waiting in my ED would disagree.
15:48Take it up with Max.
15:49I would if I could find him.
15:51I'm going as fast as I can.
15:52I'm the only cardiothoracic here.
15:53Well, what about one of your residents?
15:55I mean, the tall one looked semi-competent.
15:56Nottingham, and look, for all of these patients, this is the scariest day of their lives.
16:00They woke up needing major surgery, then they were thrown into an ambulance and dragged
16:03across town so that a doctor they don't know can cut open their hearts.
16:06They're trusting me.
16:07Just saying.
16:08Max is trusting me, and I'm not putting that kind of pressure on a first-year resident
16:10straight out of med school.
16:12We got a bleeder.
16:14Are the patients downstairs stable?
16:15Yeah.
16:16Then they can wait.
16:17I am giving you one hour, and then I am sending them somewhere else.
16:20Here we go.
16:23Sucks you.
16:24Mrs. Monaghan, can you describe your symptoms now?
16:29Disease.
16:32Are you even a real doctor?
16:33Yes, and I'm trying to help you.
16:35Good.
16:36Then give me something for Dizzy so I can go home.
16:38I would love to do that, but I want to give you the right something.
16:44I'll give you more time.
16:45Here.
16:48She's going to be here all day.
16:49Maybe, but fast and wrong is not a service to her or to anyone else.
16:59Dr. Bloom, what are you looking for?
17:02Are you getting her out of my ED?
17:05Not as yet.
17:06Can you get some other patients out of here?
17:08Something's got to give.
17:11Oh, and you should totally give Ella your pastry.
17:14So you do understand it was a harmless gesture?
17:16No, I think it's a huge mistake, but I want to see you suffer.
17:21Oh!
17:23Let those are not pastries.
17:25It's like my colleague's sitting day.
17:27Every chair occupied, so people just lie on the floor.
17:31Almost on tilt and four hours to go.
17:36Go steal the chemo chairs from Locke.
17:39Grab and go.
17:40Also like my college days.
17:42On it.
17:52Gemma.
17:53Gemma, wait.
17:53Hey, whoa, whoa.
17:54Are you okay?
17:55No, I'm not okay.
17:56No, no, this is okay.
17:57No, Gemma, hang on.
17:58We're trying our best here.
17:59Okay?
18:00It's an uphill battle.
18:01What?
18:02What's this?
18:03What's happening here?
18:04Transfers from the ED.
18:05No.
18:06No, uh-uh.
18:06No, no vacancies.
18:07We're all full up.
18:08So is the ED.
18:09I'm not their safety valve.
18:10I just...
18:12Yeah, come in.
18:14This is exactly why we needed the community garden.
18:16What happened to the garden?
18:17I have to kill it.
18:19You have been wanting that garden for years.
18:21Yeah, just not with Volt Cola attached.
18:23In India, Volt Cola builds playgrounds, football fields, cricket pitches for kids to play on.
18:28It means land which takes money.
18:30Would a garden make a difference to these kids too?
18:33Yeah.
18:36Yeah, it would.
18:44Tiana's cancer's back.
18:49Ewing's sarcoma.
18:53It's extremely aggressive.
18:57I'm very sorry.
19:03What about something experimental?
19:07Unfortunately, there are no clinical trials for kids her age.
19:11There has to be more out there.
19:14Other countries.
19:16Um...
19:17There has to be something else.
19:22I think that we should discuss palliative care options.
19:34How do we tell her?
19:36We don't.
19:39We can't.
19:41Tiana is smart.
19:43She is asking questions.
19:45She's looking for answers.
19:48The best course of action.
19:50I can't tell her.
19:56Can you?
20:09Who are you?
20:10What did you bring this guy here for?
20:10He's a doctor.
20:11His name is Max.
20:12You brought a doctor to our house?
20:14Hey, hey, hey.
20:15He can help.
20:15We don't need his kind of help.
20:17Give him a chance, Paul.
20:24Just...
20:27It's okay.
20:38Where are you from?
20:41Are you from the Midwest?
20:43Hamilton, Ohio.
20:44Born and raised.
20:46Why?
20:51Vance, you may have a fungal infection.
20:53And if it's the kind that I think it is,
20:55we need to get you to New Amsterdam right now.
20:57No, man.
20:59No hospital.
21:00All right, what you got to do now is just get the hell out of here.
21:02I don't know what you have against hospitals,
21:03but if we don't take your brother to New Amsterdam right now,
21:06he is going to die.
21:07That's exactly what the other doctor said when Mom was sick.
21:10Except rather than help, they just kept bringing bills.
21:13We lost our apartment.
21:15The debt collectors took the rest.
21:19I promise you will never see a single bill from New Amsterdam.
21:24What do you say, Vance?
21:26I took a gamble on you coming here, leaving my own hospital.
21:30You want to take a gamble on me?
21:35Go away, man.
21:39You heard him.
21:41Get out of here.
22:02The grass pulling taut is too damn small.
22:06Get out of here.
22:09Get out of here.
22:11Get out of here.
22:12Everyone is prepped, so I thought I'd scrub in.
22:14No.
22:16I've watched you do the surgery four times.
22:18I know to ligate the internal mammary before transecting the intercostal.
22:21No.
22:21I don't need you in here.
22:22I need you out there.
22:24Go!
22:24Go!
22:25If you remain standing.
22:26Such a.
22:28Such a.
22:30Confirm pal.
22:37Excuse me.
22:39Excuse me!
22:40That's my chair!
22:47Sit, I ain't moving.
22:48You're not doing dumbass anything.
22:49Hey!
22:52Fight!
22:53Fight!
22:53Fight!
22:54Fight!
22:55Over there.
23:03Goodwin!
23:03Where the hell have you been?
23:05It's like a damn mass shooting at me.
23:07Dean, I had to take care of him.
23:08What were you thinking?
23:09Blue.
23:10Get all the department.
23:11Everyone heads down here.
23:12Now.
23:12Now it's paramedic out.
23:14There you go, Dr.
23:15Uh, great.
23:17Are they up front?
23:18Yeah, we're good.
23:18Okay.
23:19I'll make this quick and clear.
23:22I screwed up.
23:23All this chaos, it's on me.
23:25I overcommitted us and then went out looking for more.
23:27I thought I could help everyone and ended up helping.
23:30No.
23:30I'm not asking for understanding or forgiveness, but I am asking you to help me fix this.
23:36So, here's the plan.
23:38Reynolds, I'm sorry that I put so much pressure on you.
23:40How can I take some of it off?
23:42Are any of the surgeries waiting in the ED stable enough to go to Mount Zion?
23:45Two.
23:45I'll send them.
23:46Bloom, anywhere there's an open bed, admit a patient to it.
23:48Admit everyone you can.
23:49And what if we don't get reimbursed for the beds?
23:51I'll send Baptist the bill.
23:53Iggy.
23:53Captain.
23:54Take your patients to the cafeteria, to the roof, for a walk, anywhere to keep them busy,
23:58and out of the ward.
23:59Aye, aye.
23:59Sharp.
24:00I know what I have to do.
24:01Great.
24:02Any questions?
24:04Any questions not about Kapoor's Ledoux situation?
24:08No.
24:08Go.
24:14Knox?
24:16I don't know how you're going to pull this off.
24:18We are all going to work together, including you.
24:22I could really use your help.
24:24Dr. Fulton.
24:31The flat metal part goes on the patient's chest.
24:49How are you holding up?
24:53I thought getting the news would be the hard part, but telling Tiana's a million times harder.
25:04You shouldn't have to. You be her mum. I'll be her doctor. I'll tell her.
25:21In for a little treat here. Come on. Come on out.
25:27Okay. So, it's not a garden, but, you know, it's outside. It's fresh air therapy.
25:32We've got a wonderful view of the city, so, you know, spread out. Feel the space. Find your own spot,
25:38all right?
25:40Gemma, hi. What's going on? Talk to me.
25:44Something to say.
25:47Well, I heard that Blanca's background check came through clean. That's good news, right?
25:54Yeah. Yeah.
25:58But, like, the site visit keeps getting pushed back. It isn't for months. And there's, like, a hundred other things
26:04that could go wrong before I get out of here.
26:07Hey. Are those facts or those feelings?
26:11Those feelings.
26:13Right. They're feelings. So, why don't we try sticking to the facts? Okay? I'll make some phone calls. We're gonna
26:19get you the home you deserve. I promise.
26:44I promise.
26:46Dr. Froome?
26:54Don't we have wheelchairs for that?
26:56We're all taken, but don't need one. This is how we did in Afghanistan. My man right here is on
27:00his way to x-ray.
27:01Got a lateral malialist fracture playing indoor soccer, but he's gonna be fine. Right, Candy?
27:05Did you take my ibuprofen?
27:07Yeah. Thanks.
27:16Ah, Dr. Kapoor.
27:17Oh, Dean.
27:19Mrs. Monaghan has been telling me a very interesting story.
27:23How you don't seem to understand the word dizzy.
27:27I do understand. Do you?
27:30Do you see what I mean? I should have walked out of here an hour ago.
27:34Why didn't you?
27:35Because when I try to stand up, I feel like I'm going to fall over. Like my feet aren't even
27:41there.
27:43Mrs. Monaghan, you have Guillain-Barre syndrome.
27:47Excuse me?
27:48The antibodies your sister made to fight your cold are attacking the nerves in your feet. That's why you can't
27:53feel them.
27:56I can now officially admit you and get you taken care of.
28:05Help! We need help!
28:09Max! Max! Max said he would help him! Max! Max!
28:13We've got an arterial bleed. Radiant intubation tray and page Max to trauma one. Now!
28:19Come on, stay with us. Come on.
28:20Come on.
28:24Insult presents like blood trauma.
28:26Class one in a way. Get 20mg endomidate and 100mg succinylcholine. Let's start a propofol drip.
28:31All right. Get in.
28:33I need 7.5 with a hockey stick.
28:367.5 with a hockey stick.
28:41Positive for LDLF.
28:43Come in. Come in.
28:59Now we find the bleeder.
29:10There it is. The bleeding is coming from that bronchial.
29:16Don't say it.
29:17We need Reynolds.
29:22John, elbow deep in a tricky closure.
29:24A man's bleeding out in the ED.
29:26Is this your idea of relieving pressure?
29:27I know, Floyd. I'm sorry. I don't know what else to do. I don't know who else to ask.
29:30Well, I can't be at two places at once.
29:32Well, I hope you can figure out how, or someone is going to die.
29:47Flood pressure's dropping.
29:48Push my foot.
29:49Got two meters open wide.
29:51That's not enough.
29:52Grab a bag of O-negative out of the trauma fridge.
29:54There's too much blood. I can't see anything.
29:56There's a bumper in there somewhere. I just can't find it.
29:58Suction?
30:01Will you get the Richardson and lift up the metal load, please?
30:06There it is.
30:07I got that bad boy.
30:08Hey, Max, can you give me a little light over here?
30:12There we go.
30:13Trick.
30:17Bleeding stopped.
30:20Heart rate steady.
30:22Oxygenation stabilizing.
30:24Nice work, boys.
30:27So what, you just let Dr. Fernandez just bleed out in the OR?
30:31I left him in the hands of a top-notch surgeon.
30:37Half and BP are adequate.
30:39He's hemodynamically stable.
30:41One more running suture.
30:43Respiration is spontaneous.
30:46That should hold.
30:47All right.
30:49All right.
31:11Surgeons landed at JFK an hour ago.
31:13Baptist is up and running.
31:15Did it, Max.
31:16It was fun.
31:18Being back in the trenches.
31:21Hey, Max.
31:24Don't ever do that again.
31:33Good news.
31:35Vance will be in the ICU a few days, and of course the pills,
31:37then he should make a full recovery.
31:40What's wrong with him?
31:42He's still plasmosis.
31:43It's a fungal infection we see in the soil around Ohio.
31:45Must have been dormant in Vance his whole life.
31:48And I'm sure living on the streets weakened his immune system.
31:51The fungus reemerged and attacked his lungs and his liver.
31:54I would like to test you both as well.
31:56We can't possibly pay for all this.
31:59You don't have to.
32:00This is why public hospitals exist.
32:03This is why I work here.
32:04This is why all these doctors work here.
32:07I don't say no to anyone.
32:11I don't know how.
32:24Casey.
32:25Hydrate.
32:26Why?
32:27Because water plays a vital role in nearly every bodily function.
32:31I needed that.
32:34Okay, my ibuprofen wasn't ibuprofen.
32:36It was Adderall.
32:39That explains why I thought I was covered in lice,
32:41and my headache never went away.
32:43I have ADHD.
32:44You don't have to.
32:45I've had it my whole life.
32:47Adderall got me through med school, through my residency.
32:49I mean, I couldn't do this job without it.
32:51So why do you keep it in an ibuprofen bottle?
32:56You're killing yourself for this job.
32:58Everyone here is.
33:02Everyone looks sad.
33:06Sweetheart.
33:08Your cancer is back.
33:16Tiana.
33:18You asked what it's like when you die.
33:22I think that it's like this.
33:38Come.
33:45You're leaving.
33:45It's like a baby.
33:46So...
33:46You're leaving.
33:48Press your sleeves.
33:54So...
33:54When it happens...
33:57You won't be able to see your mum and dad.
34:01And they won't be able to see you.
34:03but they will always be there.
34:11And I'll always be here?
34:15Yes.
34:18You'll never stop thinking of each other.
34:22You'll never stop talking to each other.
34:27You'll just be on a different side of the room.
34:36Mommy, can you hear me?
34:40Yes, baby doll.
34:42We can hear you, little one.
34:44I can hear you, too.
35:05I can hear you.
35:10Hello.
35:13Hello, my old home.
35:16Have you been?
35:19Are you still there inside my chest?
35:24I've been so worried.
35:26You've been so still, you'll barely be in.
35:34You okay?
35:40I took the hard road.
35:45Good.
35:48Better views.
35:56Good.
36:31You know, my attending wouldn't even let me look in the OR the first three months of my residency.
36:36I can still hear them in my head.
36:39Reynolds, you're more likely to cut yourself than the patient.
36:43I don't know, old habits die hard, I guess.
36:46Well, the difference is, you train these residents.
36:49Yeah, well, but, I don't know, if something had gone wrong...
36:54Okay, do you know what feels even better than being in control?
36:58Letting go of it.
37:19Don't start where you can't finish.
37:30Well, on the bright side, I can finally take up fencing.
37:39In a few weeks, we'll start chemo in the mornings and radiation at night.
37:43By a few weeks, you mean...
37:45Two.
37:45Because sometimes, if you can mean...
37:46Two.
37:47Right.
37:53There's so much to do.
37:57You're going to have to prioritize.
38:01You mean start saying no?
38:04I mean start saying yes.
38:08To you.
38:12What do you need, Max?
38:32I've got a fear
38:36Hold my blood
38:39Cold
38:43She's
38:46Always my love
38:50I am
38:51Searching high
38:53Searching low
38:55In the night
38:58Ooh, does she know that we play the same?
39:07Ooh, don't want to cry but I play that way
39:16Did she run away, did she run away, did she run away, I don't know
39:25If she ran away, if she ran away, come back home
39:44It's 9.30, you're going to be late
39:50No, I'm not
39:52Oh my god
39:53Oh my god
39:54Did you get fired?
39:56That was fast, even for you
39:59I'm taking the day off
40:04I had to spend the day here
40:08With you
40:21I've been talking to her
40:22After her
40:22I'm not
40:22I'm not
40:22I'm not
40:24I'm not
40:25I'm not
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