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00:00Puddle coming, Wishes!
00:02Previously on My Big, Fat, Fabulous Life,
00:05I met two amazing women, Sabrina and Corinne.
00:08They live in Salem, and we've just become really close.
00:12I see travel, I see loyalty, and I see love.
00:15And it's going to happen.
00:17You think she would really move up here, then?
00:18I don't know.
00:19Whitney has vacation goggles on,
00:22and that makes me a little nervous.
00:25If I have a baby, I'm probably going to stay in Greensboro.
00:26If I can't have a baby, then I want something different in life.
00:29My first at-home insemination attempt failed,
00:33so I'm going to have my second vial of sperm
00:36sent directly to my doctor
00:38so a professional can inseminate me.
00:40So you are going to go to the doctor?
00:41I'll go to the doctor, yeah.
00:42Well, let me know when. I want to go.
00:44Oh, big sister!
00:46I want to go!
00:47I'm very aware that my time is running out.
00:59Whitney?
01:01Aw!
01:03Hello!
01:05Oh, my God!
01:06What's happening?
01:08We caught us!
01:09Do you guys need a moment?
01:10We were just in the middle of a cuddle!
01:13You sweet girl!
01:14You want to have three cuddles?
01:16She wants Goosey Sandwich.
01:17Okay, Goosey Sandwich it is.
01:18You want Goosey Sandwich?
01:19Goosey Sandwich it is.
01:20Look at her, those little legs.
01:21Yeah!
01:22Hi, honey.
01:23My trip to Massachusetts, and Salem specifically,
01:25was transformative for me, honestly.
01:27She sweet girl.
01:28Now that I'm back in Greensboro, I do have that same old like...
01:30like the feeling, but I feel like I've got renewed purpose.
01:35Yeah!
01:36Good girl!
01:37All right, girl.
01:38You got to have three?
01:39You want to have three?
01:40You wanna have three cuddle?
01:41She wants Goosey Sandwich.
01:41Okay.
01:42Goosey Sandwich it is.
01:43You want Goosey Sandwich?
01:44Goosey Sandwich it is!
01:45Look at her, those little legs.
01:46Yeah!
01:47Hi, honey!
01:48My trip to Massachusetts, and Salem specifically,
01:52was transformative for me, honestly.
01:54Sweet girl.
01:55Her spoiled.
01:56Hey, I'm here! We're in the bedroom. We're just in the middle of a call session.
02:06Lovely to see you. When I told Angie that I was going to the doctor for my second insemination,
02:12she immediately was like, I'll be there. So she's in town, Jessica's coming too, and I'm
02:17really thankful that both of them understand how important this is for me and that they
02:22want to be here to support me through it. How was your flight? It was great.
02:26It was good. Long. I know, right? It was long. I feel like we're having a sleepover.
02:31I know. Well, I'm glad you're here, Ann. Good sleep, girl.
02:34The last time me and Jess were in the bed was when we were getting our wombs prepped.
02:37Lord. And that didn't work. Maybe the womb prep
02:40just needed more time to work, so maybe the womb prep will be working for this one.
02:45Is that what you're trying to convince yourself of? Well, and as you'll see, I have leaned in
02:50to the metaphysical and the spiritual. Oh. I do see. What is all of this?
02:54It's all stuff from my altar. Corinne and Sabrina suggested that I build an altar.
03:00I was really inspired by the things that I learned in Salem from Corinne and Sabrina and
03:06Leanne, the psychic who read my tea leaves. And since I am in no way ready to give up on
03:11my dreams of finding romantic love and becoming a mother, I am going all in with the love altar
03:17so that I can manifest my dream life. Okay, let me show you everything I got.
03:22So obviously there are like elements of spirituality and like whatever, so that's why I have my Buddha, of course.
03:27Okay. Then this is one of my favorite prayers, just a serenity prayer. Okay.
03:31This is like that ancient artifact they found, some fertility goddess or something, and she looks a lot like me.
03:37Wow. This is my rose quartz for love. Right next to the fertility. Perfect.
03:43Yes. This I got in Spain, and I thought it symbolized like a partnership.
03:49Oh, okay. Right? With a man. Yeah.
03:51Now, I've got my Turkish broom. Jessica, if you will come stand. Okay.
03:55So the Turkish broom. What's happening?
04:03Ah! My skin's sensitive.
04:07This is just brushing off everything that no longer needs to be.
04:15Oh, I love that. On the body. A nighttime ritual.
04:17Give me good. A nighttime ritual. Give me good.
04:19Honestly, I don't know how this Turkish broom is supposed to help Whitney,
04:23but right now I am totally not in the space to question it.
04:27Brushing it off. Okay. Thank you.
04:29Like, it feels a little crazy, but whatever it's gonna take for my girl to find love,
04:33I'm 100% in support of it.
04:35Now, does anyone want to consult the rods? One question each and that's it.
04:39Is Whitney's insemination gonna work this time?
04:43Dowsing rods are kind of like a spiritual metal detector.
04:49You can ask dowsing rods questions and they will move according to whatever the answer is.
04:55They may cross to indicate yes.
05:01Oh!
05:05So you're... Yes. Okay.
05:07Oh my gosh.
05:11I'm really not superstitious. I'm not.
05:13I say I'm not, but...
05:17I'm the first one to say, don't say that out loud.
05:21You're talking into existence.
05:23So I guess I am a little superstitious.
05:25At this point, I just feel like anything can help to get Whitney a man and a baby.
05:33You're really diving into this.
05:35Everything you need to be a witch lives inside of you, Jessica.
05:37Oh, okay.
05:38I thought you would have known that.
05:39Well, if that's all it takes, then...
05:41Oh, by the way...
05:43Did I tell you about Ma Bell?
05:44That she was your best friend?
05:45But... No.
05:46But whatever.
05:47No, no.
05:48But whatever.
05:49No, no.
05:50She was my British BFF.
05:52I'm not jealous or anything.
05:53So, anyway, she's gonna come and...
05:56I wanna do, like, something fun.
05:57My friend Ma Bell is coming to Greensboro to visit me.
06:00I met her when I was in London.
06:02Like on my highs everywhere.
06:04We had so much fun just hanging out.
06:06So, I'm really excited to show her Greensboro.
06:09She's hilarious.
06:10She thinks she's gonna get a date.
06:11And I was like, girl...
06:12Well, she probably could if she wanted to, but the quality...
06:14Well, that's what I'm saying.
06:15She's so funny.
06:16She's like, can I go ahead and set my location to Greensboro?
06:18Cause she's actually coming from Chicago.
06:19She went to London, to Chicago.
06:21I was like, girl, don't get excited.
06:22Cause there's nothing here.
06:23Yeah.
06:24Don't you have to be at the gym?
06:25What time is it?
06:26I think it's time for your client.
06:27Um, yes.
06:28I absolutely need to go to the gym.
06:30Okay, so tomorrow is the appointment.
06:33So, are you still gonna come?
06:34Of course I'm gonna come.
06:35Yeah.
06:36Meet me here.
06:37I'm so excited.
06:38I will be sending all the good vibes to your vagine.
06:41The weirdness of actively inseminating while also building the love altar in order to somehow
06:47find a man.
06:48It's not lost on me, but I am 40 years old, soon to be 41, and I want what I want.
06:55So, I don't have any time to waste and I have to just stay open to everything.
07:00All right.
07:01I'll see y'all tomorrow.
07:02Okay.
07:03Hello.
07:04Hey.
07:05Whew.
07:06Goodness.
07:07It's raining.
07:08I remember why bell bottoms went out of style.
07:09Yeah.
07:10But the bottoms of your pants get so wet.
07:11Oh, they did get wet.
07:12Hey, girl.
07:13Hey.
07:14What's up?
07:15How are you?
07:16How are you?
07:17Thanks.
07:18You guys are in the cool sweater gang.
07:19Oh, they did get wet.
07:20Hey, girl.
07:21Hey.
07:22What's up?
07:23How are you?
07:24How are you?
07:25Thanks.
07:26You guys are in the cool sweater gang.
07:27How are you feeling?
07:28I'm good.
07:29Are you?
07:30Yeah.
07:31To say that I'm stressed about this doctor's visit for my second insemination would definitely
07:34be an understatement.
07:35Make a run for it.
07:36Your womb is not supposed to be cold on insemination day.
07:40Is that for real?
07:41Yeah.
07:42They do say that rain is good luck on your wedding day.
07:43I don't know what they say about insemination day.
07:47I don't know if that's a thing.
07:48It is in my life.
07:49And I am going to pretend that this is lucky.
07:52Oh.
07:53Oh.
07:54Oh.
07:55Oh.
07:56God bless it.
07:57Quit looking at me like that.
07:58I just can't believe we're doing this.
07:59Whitney's trying to act really calm, but it's very obvious that she's freaking out right
08:01now.
08:02Oh.
08:03Oh.
08:04Oh.
08:05Oh.
08:06Oh.
08:07Oh.
08:08Oh.
08:09Oh.
08:10Oh.
08:11Oh.
08:12Oh.
08:13Oh.
08:14Oh.
08:15Oh.
08:16Oh.
08:17Oh.
08:18Oh.
08:19Oh.
08:20Oh.
08:21Oh.
08:22Oh.
08:23Oh.
08:24Oh.
08:25Oh.
08:26Oh.
08:27Oh.
08:28Oh.
08:29Oh my God.
08:30That's for fertility.
08:31Why do I feel like you're going to be the most dramatic pregnant woman ever?
08:34Because I'm already the most dramatic non-pregnant woman.
08:36I know Whitney was really upset when the first insemination didn't take.
08:41And I know firsthand that that can be devastating, feeling like you've tried really hard and failed.
08:46So I'm really hoping that today the doctors can help her, because I want this really bad
08:51for her.
08:53I hope it works this time.
08:54Maybe you were doing something wrong.
08:55Maybe you just need a professional to inseminate for you.
08:57Yeah.
08:58That could be.
08:59I won't even tell y'all what I dreamed last night.
09:00What?
09:01Please do.
09:02Please do.
09:03Well, I know.
09:04You can't say that and not tell us.
09:05Did you dream you were pregnant?
09:06I dreamed.
09:07I was in like, it reminded me of kind of Morocco, like kind of like this open, airy, desertish,
09:13like clay kind of place.
09:16Okay.
09:17And I was walking around alone and I could hear a baby crying.
09:21And there was nobody around.
09:22And I thought, oh my God, I gotta go.
09:24I gotta find this baby.
09:25And then all of a sudden I realized it was my baby.
09:28Oh, and I was panicked.
09:31I'm searching.
09:32I'm searching.
09:33I'm searching.
09:34I find the child wrapped in a white cloth, laying on this slab.
09:38I approached the child and it's dead.
09:42Whitney.
09:43I was like, oh my God, I can't believe I forgot that I had this child.
09:47Like this child was depending on me and I forgot that it even existed.
09:54Hmm.
09:55But then I held it to my breast and then I felt her start to like, I felt her attach.
10:02And I was like, I'll breastfeed it.
10:04I'll bring it back to life.
10:06And it came back to life.
10:07Oh my God.
10:09Yeah.
10:10You brought her back is what it sounds like.
10:12It's called love.
10:13I feel like there's so much to unpack in that dream.
10:16To me, that feels like a good omen.
10:18So you're definitely going to get pregnant today.
10:20That has to be what that means.
10:22Yes.
10:23You go in with good vibes.
10:24Here, eat some more pineapple.
10:26We gonna make sure this happens.
10:30That's a horrible dream.
10:32That's really a nightmare.
10:33But I think it's her subconscious scared.
10:36Just because you don't get pregnant the first time doesn't mean you're not going to get pregnant.
10:41So you just have to just trust.
10:43You just have to believe you will get pregnant one day.
10:47God makes it happen when it's gonna happen.
10:49It is what it is.
10:50Why am I so nervous?
10:53God, I've been here so many times to do so many things.
10:55And here we are to do a baby.
10:57My gut's like, I don't know.
10:59There can never be too much pineapple, right?
11:01Mm-hmm.
11:02It's really hard to keep the negative thoughts out of my head because I'm almost 41 and I only have one more vial of donor sperm left after this.
11:18And now I am like really, really, really running out of time.
11:23Try not to stress out.
11:25Should we say a prayer?
11:26We should.
11:27Oh, okay.
11:30Please, Lord, look over Whitney and please let this doctor do correct so we get a baby.
11:37Thank you, Lord.
11:40All right.
11:41Amen.
11:42Amen.
11:43Okay.
11:44You ready?
11:45I'm gonna think I'm just gonna go in by myself.
11:46What?
11:47You don't want us to go?
11:48Why?
11:49I just wanna...
11:50I don't know.
11:51I'm really grateful that Angie and Jess are with me, but suddenly I'm feeling super vulnerable.
11:58Oh, God.
11:59Don't be nervous.
12:00You got this.
12:01Positive energy.
12:02Come on, girl.
12:03Let's do it.
12:04Channel your inner mommy.
12:05Okay.
12:06I kind of just want to get in and get out and be alone.
12:11Text us.
12:12Okay.
12:13My heart is beating out of my chest.
12:16I'm so excited and happy and scared all at the same time.
12:21I just really want this to work.
12:26You know I got artificially inseminated yesterday.
12:31Dad?
12:32You're supposed to be excited.
12:34What do you mean?
12:35It's not what she wants to stay here.
12:36She wants you to...
12:37She wants to hear you say, I'm happy.
12:40I wonder how long it's gonna take.
12:41I know.
12:42I can't believe she didn't want us to go with her.
12:45I know.
12:46Like...
12:47We just rode all the way up here.
12:48I know.
12:49Why are we here?
12:50We came to go inside.
12:51I guess you would think that I would probably be upset that I flew all the way here to go with her to the doctor and she didn't let me go in the room.
12:58But I could tell that Whitney's nervous.
12:59I know she has a lot riding on this.
13:00I know she has a lot riding on this so I just want her to know that I'm here.
13:05I got her.
13:06I got her.
13:07The procedure was pretty wild.
13:08And I feel hopeful because not only did we do an ultrasound to confirm 100% that I'm ovulating,
13:14but then that sperm got all the way where it needed to be.
13:17Are you done?
13:39Yeah.
13:40it needed to be are you done yeah oh my gosh that was fast i don't know in the past if the sperm has
14:02ever really been where it needed to be if you feel me so i'm driving out of here feeling excited and
14:10more confident than i do on just any old friday night are you okay you don't look okay
14:20are you gonna cry this is supposed to be happy and keep the juju good okay
14:29i can't explain it but i feel like i just got pregnant
14:40all right now it looks wonderful we'll see look you cooked it i'm all good well you're the one
14:55that's good at the breakfast food yeah but it's the the the thought that counts it's a thought that you
15:01got until you eat it and you don't like it i will love it wish you could stay longer i do too
15:07but i made it in time to go with you to the doctor to sit in my car i know right but it's okay yes
15:15thank you with all the stress of trying to get pregnant i am so grateful that i have a sister
15:21it's just really comforting to have such a supportive person here in a family full of dudes
15:26angie is a godsend i love eggs i love a hard-boiled egg i love a fertilized egg
15:33yeah i bet you do good girl so how you feeling i feel fine do you feel pregnant when you've been
15:41pregnant did you know you were pregnant not like that not like immediately no i would never have
15:46known like my mom said she knew i guess the morning after okay that's a little weird i know
15:53so what is it with this dream you had like i don't know that's so the thing is i didn't like
16:01the timing of it dreams do mean things i'm not sure exactly what they mean but they do they have
16:06meanings something like i'm afraid that i can't take care of a vulnerable something or keep it alive
16:13sometimes i wonder if i was not meant to be a mother i feel that you know that maybe that's coming
16:17from not being able to get pregnant no but i don't feel incredibly maternal even though okay hold up
16:25i've seen you with children you are good with children and children are drawn to you
16:29because maddie maddie doesn't just go to anyone and y'all had a connection we had a connection so i don't
16:37care who what your child everyone loves their own child i'm calling god
16:45hello question when i was born and when hunter was born did you just love us automatically or what
16:53if we had been ugly well when you guys came along we said wow it changed everything and you were never
17:01afraid that you weren't going to love us because dad what happens if i have a baby and i don't like it
17:06no it's not gonna happen you'll love it exactly if you have a baby well you know i got artificially
17:14inseminated yesterday oh no no that's good you're supposed to say yay you're sitting here being
17:24encouraging you'll love your child well i got artificially inseminated oh no i don't understand
17:29what is that oh no that means you might have another grandbaby well yeah
17:39dad you're supposed to be excited well
17:47well i am if you are
17:48what do you mean that is not what she wants to stay here she wants you to she wants to hear you say
17:57i'm happy men sometimes just don't understand what women want all right well thanks for the talk
18:06that was depressing wasn't it i think he worries for you because you don't have a husband
18:20and someone to help you because it is a lot i mean it's a lot for two people much less for one
18:28he just doesn't have a good delivery in what he says it's like i've been choosing to be single i
18:34don't want to be single i would love to meet a man who like loved me and like cared about me and
18:39treated me well and that i could have stayed with to be married of course i would have wanted that
18:43so then if i want to like have children and fulfill my lifelong dreams i'm still and then dad wants
18:50to go like why would he be so unsupportive like that but i don't think he's not supportive i do think
18:56he is it's like what am i supposed to do just sit around and like just be depressed and stupid and
19:00wait for a a man and never have a child then is that what i'm supposed to do no absolutely not i'm
19:05about to lose my chance to have a child for the rest of my life biologically it's it's it's yeah you
19:11are in the window you need to make i'm almost 41. yeah i still want to believe that finding a life
19:18partner is possible for me but my biological clock is ticking and i'm not going to let it run out
19:24and for sure not get a child just because i don't have a husband
19:33penny how are you oh my god my friend ma belle from london is visiting me in greensboro
19:39welcome to downtown greensboro this is a city right this is a city it's more like a big town look
19:44there's a hot dog truck
19:54a lot of different vehicles in front of the terminal will be ticketed
20:13hey how are you oh my god my friend ma belle from london is visiting me in greensboro we met when i was
20:20teaching dance at pineapple studios and we hit it off immediately she's so fantastic and we've
20:25kept in touch and i'm so excited to see her again i'm gonna take you on a little tour if you want yes
20:30yeah yeah okay well i have to warn you it's nothing like london and it's nothing like chicago
20:36that's fine okay see you all right okay ma belle is well traveled and she's been to places in the states
20:42but they've all been much bigger cities than greensboro like she literally just came from chicago
20:47so greensboro is going to be a culture shock to say the least so how far are we away from your house
20:54oh like four minutes oh okay but i'll just take you by a few bits oh my god now i'm being british bits
21:02so i'll take you by a few bits um on the way home that are the landmarks like the tour okay of
21:09greensboro i can't wait oh don't go away don't get too excited really it's fun well your excitement
21:16what about the guys here the cute uh i'll let you decide when we get when we get home pull up your
21:23apps and we'll see what we got going on whitney and i met in london the connection we had was crazy
21:30we just we have so much in common you know we both suffer with the whole dating scene and we just have
21:35this really genuine authentic friendship so i know that we're gonna have fun together in greensboro
21:42so how are you great my son's now he's doing his own thing in holland i know it's so funny i always
21:49feel like you don't have a kid because he's already grown and gone and like it's so funny then i remember
21:54i'm like oh my god ma belle had a child as a single mother when she was 15. obviously when you're 15
22:01you don't necessarily think that's an ideal situation but she loves motherhood and knowing
22:06like she did it in a very non-traditional way made me feel empowered to pursue motherhood on my own
22:12okay now we're going down oh this is so fun oh my god so this neighborhood this is the neighborhood i
22:16grew up in and you know what it's called it's called british woods oh right now we're on downing
22:22street oh okay yeah very different downing street now here we're coming now we used to pronounce
22:27this glouchester but i think you would say gloucester gloucester gloucester this was my little
22:32neighborhood i did really love growing up here i've always said that greensboro is like a nice place
22:39to raise a family and i still think that's true i don't currently have a family um and as a single
22:4540 year old woman who was born and raised here it's not really the vibe for me but that's not to
22:53say that greensboro does not obviously have a very special place in my heart because it does
22:59so this is the house that i lived in when i was a kid until i was like 15. that's my bedroom window
23:04right there the left one on the top and then right next to it that's my mom and dad's bedroom window and
23:09i used to climb out and sit on the roof and that was like i thought it was cool you know yeah and
23:15this right here this is the pivotal points of my upbringing what did you do this was my bus stop
23:23it was your hair yes oh that's so cute so the big yellow bus came and picked me up right here
23:30and i'd have on my little backpack and my little lunch box it holds a place where it's very nostalgic
23:36the bus stop my family didn't move into the current like thor house until i was 16 years
23:43old and my brother was already in college so when i think about my childhood it's not there it's here
23:49in this neighborhood okay on to destination number two if i am pregnant greensboro is exactly the type of
23:55place where i would love to raise a child i had an idyllic childhood myself but if i'm not pregnant
24:03i'm looking for something different entirely oh downtown greensboro this is down this is it town
24:11downtown there it is welcome to downtown greensboro we are really in it now this is a city right this
24:19is a city it's more like a big town i'd say rather than like a city oh yeah i just get that vibe
24:26okay where's the theater district um is it further up or um triad stage that's a theater place that's
24:34got theater there it looks closed oh no did they go out of business it looks like it oh my god i didn't
24:43even know well and then oh here's the train tracks okay but see look train tracks
24:50do you have a metro no no now this little park i mean you ever seen a park that cute look at that
24:58look there's a hot dog truck or actually that's that's the italian ice one if you need like a clown
25:03costume they have them there at that place okay you must have like a little chinatown now i don't
25:09think we have a chinatown and maybe you have a china chinese restaurant oh definitely just i don't
25:15think any downtown yeah when i had looked read about greensboro i read that it was quite a big city so
25:23i expected there to be a lot going on you know like in london it's not as crazy as i thought it was
25:30it's a really beautiful city but i don't think there's a lot it doesn't have a lot to offer i guess
25:38i mean yeah it's not a whole lot to do i guess we can literally walk it in 10 minutes definitely not
25:43chicago or new york or london no it's definitely not when you're like i don't know trying to think
25:52of things to show things of note to show someone who's never been here you really realize like oh
25:58lord help me jesus not a whole lot going on in greensboro yeah we'll be back home to my house in a
26:06future well thank you for showing me it's very cute you're so welcome it is cute
26:14out of all the american cities that you've been to would you agree for these dating apps greensboro's
26:18the worst one yes not one guy has said let me take you out on a date this is a vibe oh this is cute
26:24we need to find whitney a man tonight might be your night where you miss i i don't do you feel good about
26:29it no i'm joking i'm being sarcastic
26:43what is it you guys don't have those big tanks in england no i've never seen anything like it oh
27:11what is it it's um it's a nitrogen tank for sperm i ordered this is news to me
27:22sperm for what so i ordered some sperm off the internet okay so that i could try artificial
27:28insemination yeah so i inseminated once at home and it didn't work and then i went to the doctor and
27:36they inseminated me and now i'm just waiting to see so i could i could be pregnant you could be
27:42oh my god i didn't want to overload mabel as soon as she arrived in greensboro with my fertility journey
27:49and story but i am really excited to get her take on the whole thing because hearing her talk about
27:55her experience as a single mother when we were in london is something that really gave me the push to feel
28:00like i would be able to do this on my own how do you feel i mean i'd never tried to get pregnant before
28:06so i kind of thought well if i'm intentionally trying to get pregnant then i just will but it's
28:09so weird to think like i could just be becoming a mom now you'd be amazing mother you'd be amazing can
28:16you imagine though having a baby now since your kid's already all the way grown up not at my age
28:20so obviously i had jamal when i was 15. so now it's like no not for me but this is something you've
28:27always what you've always naturally you've wanted to be a mom you're very maternal so i know you can
28:33do it if i can do it at 15 you'll be fine having my son at 15 was obviously very challenging i was
28:42young i wasn't emotionally developed and i think for whitney she's 40 and she's more responsible you
28:50know at that age you are more mature and i don't think there are any issues with her having a child at
28:54her age if anything it's the best time for her so the artificial insemination if it doesn't work
29:01then i'm gonna just hang it up we just have to keep trying with these dating apps and girl and hope
29:08for the best oh i didn't tell you i actually went on a date hey hi daddy hi glenn what's going on you
29:17guys having a good time we are you know i told you i went on that blind date with jessica and isaiah
29:22yeah like i was fine there's nothing wrong with him but i just i had no interest in him and i'm
29:27sure he had no interest in me when you met mom you just knew didn't you you knew yeah exactly when
29:35i've met anyone that i've fallen in love with i've immediately at least known huh i'm interested in
29:40this person you know that initial connection you know immediately i think there are some people who
29:44kind of grow into love i just said it's not just instant i haven't spoken to my dad specifically
29:52about his reaction to my doing artificial insemination i'm still really hurt by it honestly um
30:00i guess i want him to know that i am still open obviously to finding a man and that's my ideal too
30:08but the dating pool in greensboro like it's just not my fault now model will back me up out of all
30:17the american cities that you've been to which are a lot yes would you agree for these dating apps
30:21greensboro is the worst one so far yes i've been very active i've had like three dating apps up
30:27and not one guy has said let me take you out on a date i don't get it it's so it's so bleak i mean
30:35honestly i'm sad that it's that bleak for you too but it it's very validating for you to say that
30:41that this is the worst dating scene you've ever encountered it's sad it's like are we ugly are we
30:46like are we unattractive like you would think i i have felt like that since i've been here and
30:51i've never felt like that but you might find that needle in a haystack i mean yeah we just need time
30:58i guess i'm glad dad finds it so funny whitney says that the dating options here are really bad
31:05and with ma bell agreeing with her uh that adds some validity to her observation but that doesn't
31:11negate the fact that she needs to put some more effort into it bye bye-bye i certainly don't want
31:16whitney to give up looking for her husband i'd much prefer her to have uh someone in her life so that she
31:24won't have to rely on this insemination process to get pregnant we should just go i was about to say
31:32we should just go out and meet some men but i doubt that'll happen but we should definitely go out
31:36we should i'll invite jessica karen and we should definitely just like go out and have a girls night
31:42and maybe hope to run into some men yep we'll have fun either way let's do it i could just sit here and
31:48complain to ma bell about the lack of men on the dating apps of course but i think the better thing
31:53to do is to go experience the nightlife in greensboro in person what are we gonna wear i don't know
31:59right now i'm wearing a picnic blanket so i mean i'm not gonna wear this no it needs to be something
32:04sexual come on goose goosey needs sexy outfit
32:08the restaurant is nice this is it look at the cute wall oh it's cute what about here do we need a
32:22photo here absolutely oh yeah like this yeah here go go okay wait you're not gonna get in it would
32:28y'all just be normal okay i can't y'all might meet some men tonight who y'all oh right you're in a
32:34relationship when was the last time i went to the club i have no idea when was the last time i went
32:41to a bar i mean we don't have a whole lot in greensboro mostly more like family friendly stuff
32:48this is a vibe oh this is cute even though i'm not feeling super hopeful about my prospects i did make
32:54a promise to myself and to ma bell that we would stay open to love and we would go out and experience
33:00things so i'm gonna give it a chance and i don't know i mean maybe greensboro will surprise me
33:07can i get one of these please can i have a diet coke i'll just get a mojito after finally meeting my
33:15bill i can see why whitney likes her she's gorgeous she's fun she seems like a really cool girl and
33:21let's be honest she got whitney out of the house so that's a huge plus
33:24oh i'm feeling the salsa vibes upstairs oh they are dancing up there okay i guess that means we're
33:31all dancing all of us yeah you are gonna dance right whitney do you feel moved not yet but maybe
33:40when we walk up the stairs probably they don't have to take a rest we'll see i'm sure once we sit
33:45down i'm sure there's gonna be a cute guy i mean dating apps okay we know that doesn't work here we
33:51need to find whitney a man yeah but we need to try are you too yeah tonight might be the night
33:58do you feel good about it no i'm joking i'm being sarcastic i'm sorry i'm just trying to get your
34:03hopes up for a few moments but you never know who's upstairs you might find your latino greensboro king
34:11here you know he might be upstairs waiting for you if he's not from greensboro baby
34:17oh you never know girl greensboro ran through we have to stay optimistic yes yes see what the
34:24options are yeah because if not then i'm taking her with me to london take me yeah i feel like i
34:31will die if i spend one more day here winnie i think we should go see what's upstairs yeah let's see
34:36like i think it's time the situation now i've got my heels on y'all so we gotta go slow are they
34:42heels a short heel it identifies as a heel god it looks like the mount everest when i came out here
34:53tonight i did not bank on there being stairs or else i would not have worn these stilettos and so
34:59if i get up there in one piece and if it's not a man up there i will not be happy nice and slow now
35:06step by step oh god i'm gonna swing back it's gonna come off oh the guy with the hat is cute to
35:15my surprise i do think that there is an attractive man here tonight i would talk to the guy in the
35:21hat but would he talk to me there's somebody watching her
35:27i like how it's black beige black beige
35:57this is actually a really cool scene it feels like a moment where maybe whitney could beat a guy
36:03so hopefully she'll step out of her comfort zone and just dance and feel the music and have some fun
36:09how does that dress stay in place the guy with the hat is cute yes yeah what do you think whitney yeah
36:18he's cute to my surprise i do think that there is an attractive man here tonight
36:24i would talk to the guy in the hat but would he talk to me do you know how to sell something
36:29technically yes but i don't feel confident in my abilities
36:33bitch i saw you flamingo dance in spain it's flamingo karen oh my god
36:38i just wish i could do that maybe we should get up and dance with one another should we just try and
36:47copy them no why you go ahead my bell you're starting i guarantee if you get up some man will
36:52snatch you up all right quick salsa lesson quick salsa lesson you all have to get out this is latin night
36:59you got to get up everybody come on come on come on so everybody start on the left foot okay and
37:06everyone left foot we're going forward five six seven and one two pause then the right foot we're
37:14going backwards five six pause let's put it together ready five six seven eight one two pause five six
37:23again one two pause one more time one two pause five six again one two pause five six one more time i know
37:36you can do this turn one two three yes we dance this salsa that's how you do it baby it's taking me a
37:46little bit of time to warm up but when the music hits the music hits
37:54and as i'm watching the cute guy in the hat i love that he's out in an event where you're dancing and
37:58so he's obviously not self-conscious and i feel like he is making eyes at me is there's somebody
38:06watching her yeah he has his eye on her i'm not a bashful woman you know what i mean oh yeah like
38:13this come on whitney and i'm in a situation where i feel my most confident right we're dancing jessica
38:22don't mind if i do and so i am trying for flirtation
38:29oh hi and then the next thing i know he asks karen to dance
38:48i wish i could say that i'm surprised as to how this is going down but i'm not
38:59this happens to me all the time when i'm in a group of women because in greensboro i think there's
39:06a total of like five available men so what are the chances that these five available men are going
39:11to choose me basically zero i'm just not the type of person that needs to be sitting down and not salsa
39:18dancing like i imagine this is that complex of like being the last kid to get picked on the playground
39:31i'm thinking everyone's having a great time but i look over at whitney and she seems really down
39:36and that's when i kind of realized that she might be feeling left out like no one's asked her to dance
39:40and you know i just i want her to have a good time like the rest of us thank you
39:45here's your drink do you need help no i got it yeah it's getting hot
39:51what's going on you seem all down i just hate going places to dance because no one ever dances
40:00great i really do hate to see whitney missing out on an opportunity to dance because i know how much
40:09she really loves to dance well this was lovely it was lovely i had fun but i'm starting to see what
40:16she's saying like if she's in this environment and no one's asking her to dance and this is a common
40:22theme here like maybe greensboro isn't the place for her to find love i think that man was in love with
40:27you well he better get in line isn't that the truth it's a nice problem to have he just liked
40:33the way my hips moved or didn't move did you have fun at least oh no but it wasn't the worst time you
40:41know okay i mean they were great i just i didn't yeah i don't know yeah nobody had partners and i was
40:45ready to dance not a single person approached me and then everybody approached y'all and it happens
40:49all the time and i was like okay but it's not a reflection of who you are though it's just the
40:54situation where you're in well i know that i don't care i i know i'm i know what i know about
40:58myself i just need someone else to know it you know what i mean if nobody else if a tree falls
41:02in the forest and nobody's here to hear it right right if i'm a badass bitch but nobody's here to
41:06tell me right then am i a badass bitch i'm telling you you need to get the out of here i'm sorry i'm
41:11just being honest with you as your friend yeah you need to get out of here like now i know when my
41:17extremely polite british friend is using the f word and telling me to get out of greensboro i think it's time
41:23to listen i feel like she's got a really good perspective because we've all been here too long
41:27we're like used to it it's time you've been here long enough let's be real i have one foot out of the
41:34door already i just don't know how much longer i can stay in greensboro waiting around and just
41:39hoping things are going to get better y'all hungry i'm sorry can we get some wings yeah ice cream yeah ice
41:46cream and chicken oh my god yes talk to me does it work for you to come up this weekend we want you
41:53to record a podcast episode yes hell yes next time on my big fat fabulous life the invitation to go back
42:00to salem and be on the podcast is so exciting i looked up on the realtor website so you really are
42:06considering moving i was just looking i've got stupid and i know you i actually have to take a
42:13pregnancy test should we all just pee on a stick should we do pregnancy roulette oh my god can we
42:17do pregnancy roulette i love that pregnancy roulette is when a bunch of girls get together they all take
42:22a pregnancy test to see if anyone is pregnant look what wait what
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