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00:00Previously on My Big, Fat, Fabulous Life.
00:04I'm going into a new decade.
00:07I'm turning 40, and on the highway of life, I am stalled.
00:12The only thing that scares me about being 40 is not having a partner.
00:17Also knowing, like, I'm probably not going to have kids because I'm still single.
00:20Everyone else in my life is Zooming past me.
00:23I'm a childless woman in the midst of a midlife crisis,
00:25and I'm only making it a joke because if I don't laugh, I'll cry.
00:28Even my brother of all people has now entered into a serious relationship.
00:32Have you told her you love her?
00:34Yes.
00:35So I have got to change my gears to get headed in a positive direction.
00:40I want to do a big trip. We're all going to go to Spain.
00:42Oh!
00:43Cheers.
00:44Lordy Lordy, Whitney and Toddy are 40.
00:47Woo!
00:48I would love to be able to see you and Karen get married.
00:52The pressure is intense.
00:54You love my life.
00:56Seeing my brother this happy, it makes me hopeful for me, you know?
01:00Like, maybe it doesn't all go downhill from here.
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01:54This is honestly one of the most exciting days of my life.
01:57I have somehow secured an opportunity to teach
02:01at the world-renowned Pineapple Dance Studios in London.
02:04And, of course, I had to bring Todd with me.
02:06And our arms are going to go swing right, swing left.
02:10Okay?
02:11And you see this is a little bit of an undulation.
02:14They're a little bit kind of hanging behind your body,
02:16even if you have a big old dump truck, as I do.
02:19These are the studios where some of the most famous pop stars in the world
02:25rehearse for their shows and their concerts,
02:28like Madonna, Beyoncé, all the actors and dancers from the West End.
02:32One, two, three, four.
02:34This is a big deal.
02:36Oh, I have chills.
02:37Roll and roll and roll and roll.
02:41I see you, girl. Don't play with me.
02:44She said...
02:48Uh-huh.
02:48Ten years ago was the first time that I actually stayed in Covent Garden.
02:52And I would pass Pineapple, and they have this iconic window in the front.
02:56And I was fat as s***.
02:58And I would just stand there watching these beautiful, amazing dancers inside.
03:03And I thought to myself, I should sign up for a class.
03:06Six, seven, where are we on eight?
03:08But I didn't have the gumption to do it.
03:12So, fast forward ten years later, and I looked up Pineapple.
03:16And I thought, I'm gonna slide in the DMs.
03:19So I did.
03:20And I'm thinking, how can I scheme so that I can bring, like, a big girl dance class
03:24to Pineapple Dance Studio?
03:25And the person wrote back, and they were like,
03:27Yeah, like, you just have to pay, like, for a studio.
03:29And I was like, oh, s***, okay.
03:32Okay.
03:32The studio manager said, we've never had a class sell out this fast.
03:51Would you consider doing another one the next day?
03:53And I was like, yes!
03:55Pop it.
03:55So, moral of the story, just do it.
03:59Just slide in the DMs.
04:02I've never been to a dance class here.
04:05I always thought it was for skinny girls.
04:06So it's been really just joyful because it's so inclusive.
04:10You don't feel like you stick out like a sore thumb.
04:12It's made me remember how much I miss clubbing.
04:16I usually hate the mirrors, but I don't feel self-conscious.
04:20So I'm actually being in touch with my body and actually feeling quite sensuous.
04:23I'm seeing my boyfriend later tonight, so he might be in for a right old time.
04:30Yay!
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04:35The Brits have a reputation for being, like, prim and proper,
04:38but that's clearly not the case.
04:41The big girl dance circle has never been freakier.
04:47Woo!
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04:50At this point, I wish I had packed about five more suitcases
04:59and brought the cats because I don't know what's keeping me
05:02from just staying here indefinitely.
05:04Bye, girl!
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05:22Hi.
05:23Welcome home.
05:25Woo!
05:25I'm so happy to see you.
05:27Woo!
05:29I'm finally back home after being in London for three weeks, and it was so amazing.
05:35The culture— it's so full of life and excitement.
05:40and I took more dance classes.
05:42I hung out with the owner of Pineapple Debbie.
05:44I made friends.
05:46Where are we?
05:46In COVID Village.
05:48There you go.
05:48Like this girl, Ma Bell.
05:50Where's your lens?
05:51We had a blast.
05:52I truly had the time of my life.
05:54I just didn't expect it to be this transformative experience,
05:59but it's really got me thinking
06:00about the bigger things that I want in my life.
06:05The trip looked amazing on social media.
06:07I was so jealous.
06:08It was actually so good.
06:13Did you see the video of the dance class I posted?
06:15Yes.
06:15It was so good.
06:17And that little girl was absolutely precious.
06:20I'm dead over her.
06:21Her name was Penelope.
06:22Oh my God.
06:23And you know it made my ovaries just ache.
06:28One of my favorite students in London
06:30was this little girl named Penelope.
06:32She was everything.
06:33The confidence, the sass.
06:35Penelope, are you my best and most favorite student?
06:39Yes.
06:40When I looked at Penelope,
06:43I just thought about what it would be like
06:46to have a child of my own.
06:49It made me think about like
06:50putting my daughter in dance lessons
06:53or like, you know, stuff like that.
06:56So you're thinking about motherhood again?
06:57My gosh.
06:58Is it time to revisit?
07:00Yeah, but of course.
07:01I just wish I could meet someone naturally
07:03and it just happened naturally.
07:05Yeah.
07:05But if you want something,
07:07I mean, sometimes you have to work really hard for it,
07:09even if there are obstacles.
07:10I know.
07:12Since I turned 40,
07:14I have been taking major stock of my life
07:16and I never imagined
07:19that I would still be single with no children.
07:21And I think I've come to accept
07:23that that traditional way of motherhood
07:25is not going to happen for me.
07:28I was talking with my British friend,
07:30Ma-Belle in London.
07:31She has a child who she describes
07:33as the love of her life.
07:35She had him as a single mother
07:37and listening to her story
07:38really kind of gave me the kick in my ass
07:41that I think I needed.
07:42I'm running out of time
07:44and if I want a child,
07:45I have got to take this by the reins
07:47and do it myself.
07:48Would you revisit adoption?
07:52I don't know that I have a choice.
07:53I mean, I'm certainly just as crazy
07:56and just as single and just as fat.
07:58Actually, I'm not quite as fat,
08:00but I'm still too fat.
08:01Before this, I looked into adoption,
08:04which unfortunately I was told
08:05I was not a good candidate for.
08:07I also froze my eggs,
08:09which would leave me with two options,
08:10one being surrogacy and the other being IVF.
08:13Both are super expensive and big commitments
08:16and don't really feel like great options for me.
08:19So I was researching artificial insemination.
08:25For real, like, have you thought about it?
08:28Mm-hmm.
08:29Oh, my God.
08:29Yep.
08:31I'm shocked to hear Whitney talk about insemination,
08:33but I think she has always clung
08:35to the idea of motherhood on and off
08:37throughout the years,
08:38and now that she's turned 40,
08:40if she's going to do this,
08:41I think it's kind of now or never.
08:43How does that work?
08:45I mean, I have to source the...
08:48The material?
08:50The materials.
08:51I have to source the materials.
08:53Would you source them naturally?
08:54I've thought about this.
08:55Like, of all of my male friends
08:57who I could ask for their source material.
09:00Mm-hmm.
09:01And don't take offense.
09:02Well, I've...
09:03If you say Todd over me, I will,
09:05but if it's anybody else...
09:06No!
09:07...don't say buddy.
09:07No, never!
09:09Ugh!
09:09Whenever, please.
09:11No, but I honestly think I would rather
09:12it be someone I don't know.
09:14It could be special with someone that you know,
09:16but I also think...
09:17And you get in with the dynamics of, like,
09:19oh, this is actually your child,
09:21and are you Uncle Tal or are you Daddy?
09:23Exactly.
09:23You know, like, I think it would just be better
09:25to, like, be more detached,
09:27and I do know that you can shop for it online.
09:30I've had friends that have done that,
09:31a lesbian couple.
09:32Oh, really?
09:33I remember, like, looking at profiles with them.
09:34Oh, my God, it's like dating,
09:36but for...
09:37I'm so relieved that Tal's being supportive.
09:43Of course, I know that having had PCOS for 25 years,
09:46that greatly impacts my fertility
09:48and my ability to get pregnant.
09:49However, in the last five years,
09:51I have started getting a cycle,
09:53and it's semi-regular,
09:54so I feel like artificial insemination might work.
09:59Oh!
09:59Daddy!
10:00Hey!
10:01Hey!
10:01Oh!
10:02Oh, you had a great time.
10:06I just told Tal,
10:07I said I barely talked to Dad while I was gone.
10:09Well, how did your dance class go?
10:11It was amazing.
10:11It was everything.
10:13I'll tell you all about it.
10:14Where are you going?
10:15Going to the gym.
10:15Good for you.
10:17I'm not gonna be gone long.
10:18Hours or so.
10:19Good to see you, Glenn.
10:20See you, Tal.
10:21Come on, baby girl!
10:23My father has lived with me full-time
10:25since my mom died,
10:26and it's working out great for both of us.
10:28Oh, by the way,
10:28I ordered us food on the way.
10:30Oh, thank you.
10:31I renovated the downstairs bedroom at his house
10:33because I wanted him to feel like
10:34he could move there if he wanted to.
10:37Wow.
10:38But I just think he's happier living with me
10:40and with Todd living upstairs
10:41and all of the animals.
10:43We really have some semblance of, like,
10:44a big, crazy, chaotic, happy family.
10:48So fill me in.
10:49Okay.
10:49I just want to hear about your trip.
10:50Yeah.
10:50It was absolutely amazing, invigorating,
10:55affirming, the British men.
10:57Were they into you?
10:58Talk to me.
10:59Did you, like, meet or connect with anybody?
11:01I, I mean, I had a little, I don't know.
11:05I guess it was, like, a little fling.
11:06That's for us to share.
11:07That's gimpop.
11:09Um, here's yours.
11:10Thank you so much.
11:11You're so welcome.
11:12I did have, like, a real-life meet-cute
11:15when I was in London.
11:16I was in a pub, and this guy just approached,
11:19and I thought, oh, my God,
11:20this is the first time this has happened to me
11:22in so many years
11:23that some man in the wild just approached.
11:26So we had a nice evening together,
11:28and it was fun,
11:30and it made me feel like,
11:31okay, all hope is not lost.
11:33Maybe I just have to move to London
11:34to find a man.
11:34No, no big deal.
11:36I mean, it looked like you were thriving over there.
11:38It was really fun,
11:39and everybody was so great.
11:40Like, I went out to dinner with the students,
11:42had an amazing time.
11:43And you, like, hardly ever socialize here.
11:45Exactly.
11:46And just to even, like, get up
11:47and go into Pineapple
11:48and just be around the energy
11:49and all the artists and the creativity,
11:51I just felt like I was living.
11:53That's what your life should be.
11:54Yeah.
11:55Are you thinking about moving there?
11:56I just, I don't know.
12:02My time in London
12:03just made it really clear to me
12:04that I am in a rut here in Greensboro,
12:07and I'm not happy.
12:09I feel like I have two very distinct paths
12:12in front of me,
12:13and they're very different.
12:14I can stay put,
12:16try to start a family,
12:18or pick up, start somewhere new,
12:20recalibrate all my expectations in life.
12:23Either one of these paths require action,
12:26and I need to make a decision
12:27because I'm not getting any younger,
12:29and something has to change.
12:32Hi, big boy.
12:33Mommy loves you, Hinch.
12:38You come see Uncle Tao?
12:40Hi.
12:40Why is he wheezing?
12:42Hinch, are you okay, honey?
12:44Honey?
12:45Honey?
12:45Why is he doing that?
12:51Why does he feel so skinny?
12:54See?
12:55You feel him?
12:55He feels skinny.
12:56Yeah.
12:58Oh, no.
12:59I need to take him to the vet, I think.
13:03Oh, gosh.
13:03He's not breathing right,
13:04and he seems too skinny to me.
13:07Like, he's breathing heavy.
13:09It's labored, and it's scary to me.
13:12Y'all, can we stop?
13:13I need to take Hinchy to the vet.
13:15Yeah.
13:18There's an emergency vet on Battleground.
13:20Yeah.
13:20Just, he's not, he's being weird.
13:23Okay.
13:24I've had this cat for 17 years,
13:26and I know when something is wrong with him,
13:28something's wrong.
13:30It's okay.
13:32Honey.
13:39I'm going to pursue artificial insemination.
13:45Ugh.
13:50You miss brother?
14:06Yeah.
14:08You miss big boy?
14:10I know.
14:14After I dropped Hinchy off at the vet,
14:17the doctor called me with his test results
14:21and said that he was in congestive heart failure.
14:26And I asked if there was a chance
14:29that he wasn't going to make it through the night.
14:31He was on oxygen, and she said yes.
14:34So my dad and Todd and I jumped up and ran over there.
14:39And, um, I held him the whole time,
14:43and we, you know, stayed with him a long time
14:48just to say goodbye to him.
14:51And he died in my arms.
14:59And I just told him how much I loved him.
15:02And I just told him thank you for being with me
15:06for 17 years.
15:08Sweet girl!
15:31Oh.
15:32Whitney's here.
15:33Sweet girl!
15:34Hey.
15:35My God!
15:37I'm sorry.
15:38I'm not Hinchy.
15:39I can't even.
15:40I'm, I'm, I'm dead over it.
15:42Hi, Karen!
15:44Hi, Whitney!
15:44I didn't know you were here.
15:46Yeah, so sorry to hear about Hinchy.
15:48I know.
15:49I got your flowers.
15:50Thank you so much.
15:51I know how much that hurts.
15:52It's the, it's the worst.
15:54I feel like my brother
15:55is always on the phone with Karen.
15:57I bet they're, like, middle schoolers
15:59who fall asleep on the phone together.
16:00I personally think it's gross.
16:02And the weirdest thing about my brother's relationship with Karen
16:06is that it's actually a thruple.
16:08And the third person is my dad.
16:11Well, I have some, uh, interesting news.
16:14I guess Karen and I have some interesting news.
16:16Oh.
16:17Does that mean you guys are getting engaged?
16:19No.
16:23No.
16:24You're pregnant?
16:25Oh, my God!
16:26Oh, no.
16:28Uh, no, we are, we're, we're gonna move in together.
16:31That is the least exciting option of those three.
16:34It's all I can handle.
16:35It's a good step in the right direction, though.
16:36If we can live together,
16:37if we can handle each other 24-7,
16:39I think it's a good...
16:40She's trying to domesticate me.
16:41It's just...
16:42Someone has to.
16:43He loves a vacuum now.
16:45I, I do like that vacuum.
16:46Well, you know, when we were in Spain,
16:49I, I was hoping for a proposal.
16:51Really?
16:51I didn't get that.
16:53You didn't?
16:53No.
16:54Went right over my head.
16:55I did not propose to Karen in Spain
16:57because I think that I was feeling
17:00a little pressure from my father.
17:02And it would have been, like, a really nice moment.
17:04But, you know, we're gonna live together first.
17:06You know, make sure we don't kill each other.
17:08I don't think we will.
17:09And we both are sure
17:11that we are going to get married one day.
17:14But we're not gonna do it
17:15on anybody else's timetable but ours.
17:18Well, I was hoping that, you know,
17:21we'd have a short romance,
17:25a quick engagement,
17:27and grandchild on the way.
17:30So you're telling me that you're living in sin?
17:31Not officially yet.
17:33Yeah.
17:33Yeah, not yet.
17:35How long is that gonna last?
17:36As long as the lease is?
17:38Well, one can hope.
17:40At least.
17:41Nobody can decide if you want to renew, you know?
17:43Karen, I will not let you renew a lease
17:46without a ring on your finger.
17:48Hold on.
17:48Ashley's calling.
17:50And I'm so glad you called.
17:53Oh, oh, well, I'm glad you're glad.
17:55I just saw your post.
17:56Oh, my God.
17:57Todd was crying.
17:58Dad was crying.
18:00Who would have ever thought
18:01we would get to the point
18:01where Todd's crying over a cat?
18:03I know.
18:04Hi, Ashley.
18:05Hey, who is it?
18:06That's Daddy.
18:07Oh, hey.
18:08Yeah, we're here with Whitney and...
18:11Thank you, Dad.
18:13Hunter.
18:13And Hunter's girlfriend is also on FaceTime,
18:15so you're on speaker.
18:16And don't forget, we're here with Whitney.
18:18Hey, yo, Whitney.
18:21I haven't actually seen Ashley
18:22in probably over a year,
18:25which might sound crazy,
18:27but there's no bad blood between us.
18:29We text, we keep up with each other,
18:31we send voice memos,
18:32but Ashley has two small children,
18:34a full-time job
18:35and a part-time job with No BS Active.
18:37She's busy, I'm busy,
18:39so I'm glad she called.
18:41Do you want to get together?
18:42I mean, I would love to get together.
18:44Let's just hang out and catch up in person
18:45instead of talking about No BS Active.
18:48We got more things to talk about.
18:50Just text me.
18:50Okay.
18:51Bye, everyone.
18:52Bye.
18:52Love you, Whitney.
18:53Bye.
18:53Bye.
18:55So how was London?
18:56It was actually amazing.
18:58I felt alive.
18:59And I came to several realizations in life,
19:04one of them being
19:05there's more that exists
19:06outside of Greensboro.
19:08Yes, there is.
19:09Number two is
19:10I feel like I have this one thing
19:13that I need to sort out
19:14and either do it
19:15or put it to bed forever.
19:17And what is that?
19:19Well, I'm going to
19:21pursue artificial insemination.
19:25Oh.
19:29Well, I was kind of hoping
19:36that you would do
19:37the traditional method.
19:40Well, that involves a man, though.
19:42I know.
19:42That's what I mean.
19:44Obviously, I'm not
19:45I'm not going to find a man.
19:47I'm coming up on my 41st birthday.
19:48There's no more time to wait here.
19:50You've got to have somebody
19:51to help you raise a child.
19:52I mean, it's better.
19:53No, you don't.
19:53Well, I mean, it's better.
19:55You had a kid, Daddy.
19:57Yeah.
19:57Life puts you in a position
19:58where you couldn't raise that child.
20:00And look who we got.
20:00Angie.
20:02I think a love about Dad
20:04is the hypocrisy.
20:08Look, everybody's laughing.
20:10No, I'm not.
20:13I would like for Whitney
20:14to take the more traditional
20:16approach is to
20:17have a man get married
20:19and have a child.
20:20Even though Whitney
20:21keeps throwing it up in my face
20:23that I didn't exactly
20:25do that myself.
20:25Are you sure
20:27you really want to have
20:28a baby all by yourself
20:30with nobody to help you?
20:31Well, you live with me.
20:32Well, I know, but I mean, it's...
20:35Two men and a baby.
20:36Yeah.
20:37No, I'm serious.
20:38This is something
20:39I need to do for myself.
20:40Until I intentionally
20:41try to get pregnant,
20:42I am not going to be able
20:43to move on in life.
20:43You should definitely do it.
20:44You should definitely
20:45try to have a kid.
20:46I don't see why not.
20:47And that way,
20:4710 years from now,
20:48you say I did try that.
20:49It didn't work out.
20:49See?
20:50At least I tried.
20:50Thank you, Karen.
20:51Yeah.
20:52Because this is the thing.
20:53I don't want this to be like,
20:55oh, I never found a man.
20:56Well, you need something
20:57from the man, so...
20:58Well, yeah, you get it online.
20:59You get a catalog?
21:00You can get sperm,
21:02and then you inseminate.
21:04How are you going to go
21:05about that?
21:05Well, since I don't have a...
21:06Since you're going to go
21:06to like a clinic or something?
21:08Can we change the subject?
21:09I know that I have to do
21:12what I need to do for myself
21:14with the support of my family
21:16or without it.
21:19I want a baby.
21:20I'm going to take someone's sperm,
21:21and we're going to make it happen.
21:23Goodbye, Daddy.
21:25You're hypocritical, Daddy.
21:28This is artificial...
21:30What do you mean?
21:33I just thought we could do
21:34like the turkey baster method.
21:35I've never had a money shot
21:40like that.
22:02Hey.
22:05I miss you.
22:08You think I did that?
22:12When I was in London,
22:14my trainer, mentor,
22:17and Jessica's dad, Will,
22:19died after a long battle with cancer.
22:24Don't you want to go sit down?
22:25Yeah.
22:26Talk?
22:29I'm hurting so much for her.
22:31You know, Will was such
22:32an important figure in my life,
22:33and he was her father.
22:35So there just aren't any words.
22:40Your dad was a special person.
22:43He gave me so much strength
22:45and confidence and power,
22:47and he also made me do some dumb
22:49like the sled again.
22:51We'd be working out,
22:52and he'd be like,
22:52all right, the sled,
22:53and I'd go sled again,
22:54and he would go sled again,
22:56and he could never count my reps.
22:58It was always 12.
22:58It was always 12.
22:59My relationship with Will
23:01has been very impactful for me.
23:04I've known him since 2011.
23:07We started working out together.
23:08I lost 100 pounds in eight months.
23:10I gained it all back,
23:11but, you know.
23:12Prior to meeting Will,
23:13I didn't think I was literally capable
23:15of doing anything,
23:16and he told me
23:18that I was an athlete.
23:19He made me run up them stairs downtown.
23:28I was about to say,
23:29I think that would be traumatizing.
23:31Do you know that I couldn't do that now?
23:33He always pushed me
23:34outside of my comfort zone.
23:35Just hang in there.
23:37Deep step.
23:38Deep step.
23:38I don't know how on earth
23:40I let that man talk me
23:41into the things that he did.
23:42No, I feel the exact same way about it.
23:44You know?
23:44Remember when we were doing the song?
23:46Yeah.
23:46Jessica?
23:47You're trying to push it and tell it.
23:48I swear, I'm barely even touching it.
23:50Go easy, easy.
23:50I'm barely touching it.
23:51Easy, easy.
23:53You guys got the drags
23:54to the tip of your teeth.
23:55Not everything in life
23:56gets powered through.
23:58Some things you have to finesse through.
24:00You gotta kind of gouging the law, though.
24:02Oh, my God.
24:03Dad, seriously.
24:04Not everything in life
24:05can be powered through.
24:07Some things have to be finessed.
24:10One thing that I love the most about Will
24:12is the way he empowered me,
24:14and he didn't just see me
24:15for my size.
24:17He saw me for me.
24:21The first thing he said
24:23after the oncologist told him
24:24that there wasn't anything left
24:27that they could do,
24:28he asked what was gonna happen
24:29to the gym
24:29and if I'd train his clients.
24:32So, obviously, you know,
24:34it was definitely important to me
24:35to get back in here,
24:37and maybe it just hasn't hit me yet,
24:39but every time I wanna talk to him
24:41and I realize I can't,
24:43it really messes me up pretty bad.
24:45Yeah.
24:48Next, we're gonna have
24:49the father daughter dance.
24:52My dad was just a really special person.
24:55Not just because he was my dad,
24:59he just,
25:01I've just never met anybody like him.
25:07He asked if I would train his clients for him,
25:09and I told him
25:11it would be my biggest honor in life.
25:13It's gonna be really hard
25:15to inspire people
25:16the way that he inspired people,
25:18but if he believed
25:20that I could do it,
25:21then I must be able to do it, right?
25:23I wish we had more time.
25:30I know.
25:30I love you so much.
25:31I'll see you again
25:32in a couple days, I'm sure.
25:33Oh, yeah, stop.
25:34I love you.
25:37I know that Jessica
25:37is gonna be grieving
25:38for a long time.
25:40I'm still grieving my mother
25:42after two years,
25:43and I think the hole
25:45that Will is leaving
25:46is huge.
25:47I'll see you soon.
25:48So, I'm gonna do everything I can
25:50to support her
25:50in every way possible.
25:53Hello?
26:05Hello.
26:06Hi.
26:06Hi.
26:07Goosey!
26:08That's Uncle Ted.
26:09Oh, look,
26:10she's got her champagne.
26:12She thinks you're gonna take her out.
26:13Look at her.
26:13She's sweet girl.
26:14I brought some things
26:15that might cheer you up.
26:16Is it food?
26:17No, unfortunately not.
26:19Since we were talking about
26:20artificial insemination,
26:22I thought we could do
26:23a little, like,
26:24rehearsal test drive.
26:26Whitney seems very hesitant
26:28about the idea
26:29of just going for it
26:30and trying to get pregnant
26:31on her own,
26:32so I'm here
26:33to try and give her
26:34all the confidence
26:35and support she needs
26:36to motivate her.
26:37Are we simulating
26:38insemination?
26:40What are we doing?
26:41The turkey baster method, right?
26:43Yeah, I don't think
26:43you actually use
26:44a turkey baster.
26:45Tal didn't come up
26:46in here
26:46with all of these
26:48at-home insemination
26:50contraptions.
26:52I also brought
26:53some condensed milk
26:54and then this is
26:55artificial
26:56off.
26:58What are you...
26:59I don't claim
27:01to be, like,
27:03a reproductive expert
27:05by any means,
27:07but I didn't know
27:07there were so many
27:08accouterments involved.
27:11Tal!
27:13Tal!
27:13That won't get you
27:14pregnant,
27:15but it's a lot of fun.
27:16It's going in my nipples.
27:18Tal!
27:19Ew.
27:22Wait, wait,
27:26put that on the spot.
27:32I've never had
27:33a money shot like that!
27:39Go see,
27:39you shouldn't be here
27:40for this.
27:40I do appreciate
27:43what Tal
27:45is attempting to do.
27:47Normally,
27:48you'd be going
27:48into the process
27:49of baby making
27:49with a partner
27:51of some kind
27:52and hopefully
27:53some excitement.
27:54Hold on,
27:55I'm just going
27:55to my bathroom.
27:56But I am going
27:57into this process
27:59alone
28:00with a lot
28:01of fear,
28:02anxiety,
28:03and I think
28:04that Tal
28:05is just
28:06trying to help
28:08me find
28:09the joy.
28:10We've taken
28:11our friendship
28:11to a whole new level.
28:12And I thought
28:13it couldn't get
28:13any weirder,
28:14closer,
28:14or more disgusting.
28:15And then it did.
28:16And then it did.
28:17Ashley's going to die.
28:19Wait,
28:19you're talking
28:20to Ashley?
28:22Well,
28:23I mean,
28:23I haven't seen her
28:24in a year and a half,
28:25probably.
28:26I mean,
28:27we talk,
28:27like...
28:28Things are just,
28:29like,
28:30super awkward
28:30because we had
28:31that huge blow-up
28:32and we've had,
28:34like,
28:35nothing to do
28:35with each other
28:36since then.
28:36I didn't know
28:37that y'all were
28:37still in touch.
28:41Ashley and I
28:42had an interaction
28:43that really spiraled
28:45out of control.
28:46We were in public
28:47together
28:47and she waved
28:50at me
28:50and I didn't see her,
28:52so I didn't wave back.
28:53And she texted me
28:55to confront me
28:55about this
28:56and it escalated
28:58into a very
28:59nasty disagreement
29:00to the point where
29:01we both said
29:03some pretty ugly
29:03things to each other
29:04and made some
29:05pretty personal attacks.
29:07I know it was stupid,
29:09but this was not
29:10the first time
29:10Ashley and I
29:11have had a big
29:12blow-up fight,
29:13so maybe there were
29:14tensions from the past
29:15that had built
29:16and built
29:17and just created
29:18this explosion.
29:20And now,
29:21we don't speak,
29:22we don't communicate,
29:23we have blocked
29:24each other,
29:24we have had
29:25zero points of connection
29:27in almost two years.
29:30I don't know,
29:31it just makes me
29:31a little uncomfortable
29:32thinking about y'all
29:33like hanging out
29:35or talking to each other
29:36after what happened.
29:38I should probably go.
29:40Don't go.
29:41I'm feeling pretty pissed off.
29:44I'm feeling hurt.
29:45I guess Whitney
29:46has the right
29:47to carry on with Ashley
29:48however she wants to.
29:49I just thought
29:50she was on my team.
29:51I have known
30:00that Tal and Ashley,
30:02they're not just on the house,
30:04it's game over
30:05for their relationship.
30:06But I would never
30:07cut off my relationship
30:08with Ashley
30:09completely
30:11because of their conflict.
30:13And I hope
30:13that's not something
30:14that he would want.
30:16Tal and I are going to
30:16have to talk about this.
30:21Tal and I had
30:22slight ficus
30:23the other day.
30:23Why?
30:24Basically I just mentioned
30:25that we were going to
30:25hang out or something
30:26and he said he was
30:27uncomfortable.
30:28Uncomfortable?
30:29I was like,
30:29am I not supposed
30:30to be talking to Ashley?
30:31One of my boundaries
30:32needs to be
30:33not being
30:34in the same space
30:35as Tal.
30:36This is exciting.
30:55I love online shopping.
30:58I know you do.
30:59Sperm donors
30:59with pictures.
31:01I am beginning
31:01my journey
31:03into artificial insemination
31:05and this will be
31:06my first foray
31:07into the world
31:07of purchasing sperm
31:08online.
31:10I have been thinking
31:11about this so much.
31:13I'm ready
31:14to take the next steps.
31:16I don't have to
31:16take this person
31:17to dinner first.
31:18I just buy your sperm
31:19and then I just use it.
31:21All the sperm donors
31:22I know to do it
31:22because they need the money.
31:23How many sperm donors
31:24do you know?
31:25Six.
31:26All of my male friends
31:28that are in my orbit,
31:30they all have
31:30some characteristics
31:31that I would love
31:32for my child to have.
31:33Like your,
31:34like physical attractiveness,
31:35your athletic ability,
31:36your intelligence,
31:37your humor.
31:37That child would be
31:38the best dancer
31:39on the face of the earth
31:40and have the bluest eyes.
31:41I don't want to be involved
31:42in the creating of that.
31:43You wouldn't give me
31:43your sperm?
31:45How are we going to go
31:45up through this again?
31:48We've moved on from that.
31:50All right.
31:51So,
31:51find a donor.
31:53Okay.
31:57Look at you.
31:58Where's the rest of you?
31:59It's all here.
32:00No,
32:01it's not.
32:01Not from last time
32:02I saw you.
32:04You got my coffee.
32:04It is.
32:05We used your members.
32:06No,
32:07but we did not get her strong.
32:08I don't know how to do that.
32:10Nothing's changed.
32:11Correct.
32:12I invited Ashley
32:13because I don't know,
32:15honestly,
32:15why I invited Todd.
32:16Like,
32:16why is Todd here?
32:19Now,
32:19that's the question
32:20I don't have an answer to.
32:21If anyone's going to help me,
32:22like,
32:23look for sperm,
32:23I mean,
32:24I definitely need a female
32:25to do it.
32:26And since Ashley
32:26and I haven't caught up
32:27in so long,
32:28I figured this was
32:29as good an opportunity
32:30as any.
32:33Where's Harpy?
32:33Can we FaceTime her?
32:34She's at school.
32:35Oh.
32:35Oh, right.
32:36It is the middle of the day.
32:38Let's see pictures
32:39of the babes.
32:40There they are.
32:41Gosh,
32:42look at Augie.
32:43So tall.
32:45But Augie's 97th
32:46percentile for height
32:47and Harper is, like,
32:4822nd,
32:49so, like,
32:49they're about to cut her up.
32:50Ashley's definitely
32:51one of those friends for me.
32:52Like,
32:52it doesn't matter
32:53how much time has passed
32:54since we last saw each other,
32:56once we're together,
32:57it's like,
32:58everything is the same,
32:59nothing's changed,
33:00I might as well
33:00have seen her yesterday.
33:01I wish I'd gotten
33:02to see Henshi
33:03one more time.
33:04And always sweet.
33:05Are you gonna get
33:06another kitten?
33:07Probably.
33:08Yeah.
33:08I feel like.
33:09Oh, I wanna help
33:09you pick out a kitten.
33:10Yeah, well,
33:11what I really need you
33:11to help me pick out
33:12first is some sperm.
33:14Like, human sperm
33:15or cat sperm?
33:17Human.
33:18I had been pretty much
33:19convinced that I ought
33:20to try
33:20artificial insemination.
33:22Artificial insemination?
33:24Yes.
33:24Okay, wow,
33:27like,
33:27this is a little bit crazy.
33:29But knowing Whitney,
33:30I'm also, like,
33:31not totally surprised.
33:34Like, are you about
33:35to, like,
33:35buy it online?
33:36Yeah.
33:36Okay.
33:37I'm just looking.
33:38Like, it's not like
33:38I'm gonna be pregnant tomorrow.
33:39They don't have
33:39overnight shipping?
33:41Oh!
33:43Okay,
33:43let's see if we can
33:44just search.
33:45Find donor.
33:45If she wants
33:47to have a baby
33:47and pick out
33:48sperm on a website
33:50and have it
33:51delivered to her house
33:52and inseminate
33:53herself,
33:54I support that.
33:56Let's pick out sperm.
33:58Okay, filter by
33:58personal preferences.
34:00Okay, hair color.
34:01Anything but red.
34:02I feel like not red.
34:04Actually,
34:04I dated a redhead.
34:06I remember.
34:07Look, I'm not gonna be picky.
34:09Red's fine.
34:10My criteria
34:11for a donor
34:13I feel like
34:14is pretty
34:14straightforward and simple.
34:16Okay, race.
34:18Um,
34:19I'll just select all.
34:20I absolutely do not care
34:21what color this child is,
34:23what color the eyes are,
34:24the hair is.
34:25Obviously,
34:26I want the person
34:27to be healthy
34:28with no genetic diseases.
34:31Okay, now,
34:32this is important.
34:33Height.
34:33We're going 5'7 and up.
34:35The only thing is that
34:36I'm only 5'2
34:37and I just don't want
34:39to bring
34:39a child into this world
34:41that is, like,
34:41as short as me
34:42because it's hard
34:42being this short.
34:44Okay,
34:45let's look at donor number one.
34:46Picking a sperm donor
34:47is absolutely
34:49the most overwhelming thing
34:51that I have ever experienced.
34:53It is like a dating app
34:54on steroids.
34:56Derek has spent
34:56a total of
34:57three years on education.
34:59Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
35:01Allergies.
35:02Pollen
35:03and cats.
35:05Oh, no.
35:06He's out.
35:06He's out.
35:07I'm picking
35:08literally the father
35:10of my child, right,
35:11and not just a guy
35:12for a one-night stand.
35:13And so,
35:14more than the physical,
35:16I really want to know,
35:16do they have a high IQ?
35:18You know,
35:18is this the brain
35:20of somebody
35:20that I would pick
35:21in the wild?
35:21How many books
35:22does he read?
35:22He doesn't read?
35:24Oh, my God.
35:25I have never been
35:26more discouraged
35:27in my life.
35:29I think I have
35:32a cursed womb.
35:33Whitney Thor
35:34in the cursed womb.
35:35I have to reevaluate.
35:36I thought this was
35:37going to be super easy.
35:38Like, click,
35:38add to cart.
35:39I mean,
35:40you have guy friends.
35:41Would one of them
35:41not, like,
35:43maybe be down
35:44for that kind of situation
35:45for you?
35:46Let's go through them.
35:47Buddy, no.
35:48Todd, no.
35:50Tal, no.
35:51How is Tal?
35:52Oh, God bless him.
35:53Tal and I had
35:53slight ficus the other day.
35:55Why?
35:55Basically,
35:56I just mentioned
35:56that I had spoken to you
35:57or that we were
35:58going to hang out
35:59or something,
35:59and he just had,
36:00like, a big reaction,
36:01and I think he said
36:02he was uncomfortable.
36:03Uncomfortable?
36:04It's never been an issue,
36:05so I was like,
36:05am I not supposed
36:06to be talking to Ashley?
36:07And then he left my house,
36:08like, in a way.
36:10About that?
36:11Mm-hmm.
36:12I haven't talked
36:13to him since.
36:13I have no desire
36:15to, like,
36:16rekindle a friendship,
36:17but I hate that he feels
36:18that way or that
36:18it affects you.
36:19Like, I don't want
36:20bad things for him.
36:21I didn't know
36:22that he would react
36:24that way.
36:26I don't think
36:26it's a secret
36:27that Tal and I
36:28had a falling out.
36:30I mean,
36:30he really blew up
36:31on me.
36:33His reaction
36:33caused irreparable
36:35damage to our friendship.
36:38I think maybe
36:39one day Tal and I
36:40will get to the point
36:41where we can, like,
36:43be in the same room.
36:45But I just think
36:46for now,
36:47one of my boundaries
36:48needs to be
36:50not being
36:51in the same space
36:52as Tal.
36:53I think it's hard
36:55because it's like
36:55in some capacity
36:56we all have been
36:57connected for 25 years,
36:58but we also have not
36:59always been
37:00really close,
37:01like,
37:01everybody in this
37:02friend group.
37:02If Tal and I
37:03didn't have mutual
37:04friends,
37:05we both would have
37:05just gone our
37:06separate ways
37:06and never thought
37:07about it again,
37:07but it's, like,
37:09just a little more
37:10sticky because
37:11we have mutual
37:12friends,
37:13but, like,
37:13that's really it.
37:14I'll talk to him.
37:14I'm sure we'll
37:15work it out.
37:17The friendship group
37:19has,
37:21honestly,
37:21it's not.
37:22It's not a group
37:23anymore.
37:24We've been friends
37:24for over 20 years.
37:26Things are going
37:27to change.
37:28Relationships are
37:29going to evolve.
37:30Some of them
37:30are going to end.
37:31Tal and Ashley
37:32had this falling out.
37:34Buddy's married
37:34and lives out of town.
37:35Like,
37:36just the way
37:37things were,
37:39I don't think
37:39it's ever going
37:39to be again.
37:41I do feel like,
37:42though,
37:42this thing
37:43that, like,
37:43tethered me
37:44to Greensboro,
37:45to home,
37:47um,
37:47it's just not
37:49really there anymore.
37:53Ashley really hurt me
37:54and you knew that.
37:55It just feels like
37:56you're not on my team.
37:57No, there's no teams,
37:58Tal.
37:59I know that you...
38:00That's the...
38:00I've never been
38:01caught in an argument
38:02between Tal and someone else
38:04and it is messy.
38:05Maybe I'm not the friend
38:06that you need right now.
38:14You ready?
38:23So,
38:23because if we're
38:23going to teach this,
38:25then we need
38:25to have it down.
38:26Teaching at Pineapple
38:27Dance Studios
38:28in London
38:28had me feeling
38:29so inspired
38:30and excited
38:30with Dance Again.
38:31So I feel like
38:33I really need to be
38:34on my choreography game.
38:36And roll slow
38:37and sentient.
38:38And roll slow
38:39and sentient.
38:40It just reminds me
38:41that there is
38:41an entire world
38:42of opportunity
38:43out there
38:43outside of Greensboro.
38:46All right.
38:46Come towards me
38:47on the floor like.
38:48On the floor?
38:49Yeah.
38:50Like sentient?
38:50Just like...
38:51No, not sentient.
38:52Wait, do an
38:53interpretive sperm dance.
38:54You're the sperm.
38:55I'm the egg.
38:56Well, there'll be a lot of...
38:58Hold on, Lord Jesus.
39:01It's Tal.
39:02Hello?
39:04Hey.
39:05Hey.
39:09I've been trying
39:10to call you,
39:10text you.
39:12I know.
39:12I haven't really
39:13wanted to talk.
39:14Well, I figured that.
39:16I have been trying
39:17to get a hold of Tal
39:18since he stormed out
39:19the other night,
39:19but he has not
39:20answered my calls.
39:21He hasn't texted me back.
39:23And I know he's pissed,
39:25but I truly
39:26do not understand
39:28why that is directed
39:29towards me.
39:31I'm just still
39:32really upset
39:32because Ashley
39:33really hurt me
39:34and you knew that.
39:35I feel like
39:36you're taking sides here
39:37and that it's not mine.
39:39I'm not taking any sides.
39:40I didn't understand
39:42that there was
39:42an expectation
39:43that I would never
39:44communicate
39:44or see Ashley again.
39:47Just because
39:48I'm still in communication
39:49with Ashley,
39:50which I have been
39:50this entire time,
39:52does not mean
39:52that I'm not a friend
39:53to him.
39:54And the implication
39:55otherwise
39:56is frankly
39:57pretty insulting to me.
39:59You know
40:00how she came at me
40:02out of nowhere.
40:03You know,
40:04from what she said
40:05and from what you said
40:06is that it was
40:07a dumb misunderstanding.
40:09And I know
40:10you felt
40:10attacked basically
40:12for her even
40:13questioning
40:14whether or not
40:15you purposely
40:15ignored her.
40:16I understand that.
40:18But at the same time,
40:19you told me yourself
40:20that it spiraled
40:21out of control
40:22and you said
40:22a bunch of s***
40:22that you would
40:23probably not say again
40:24if you had
40:25the chance
40:25to do it over.
40:26And I'm not saying
40:27who's right and wrong
40:28or whatever,
40:29but maybe this is
40:30you've got a lot of anger
40:31that's been built up
40:32for a long time
40:33over things
40:34between you and Ashley
40:35and I just want
40:36to make sure
40:36you're not
40:37misplacing it
40:39on me.
40:40And I did see Ashley
40:41and she really did say
40:42that she wished you well.
40:44Well, I don't want
40:45to talk about her.
40:47I'm not misplacing anything.
40:49It just feels like
40:49you're not on my team.
40:50No, there's no teams, Tal.
40:52I know that you...
40:53That's bulls***.
40:54Maybe I'm not the friend
40:55that you need right now.
40:56Well, no, Tal,
40:57that is so drastic.
40:58I don't think it's
40:59that I'm not the friend
40:59that you...
41:00I cannot believe
41:07he just hung up on me.
41:10I've never been caught
41:12in an argument
41:12between Tal and someone else
41:14and I don't like it.
41:16It is messy.
41:18Something is seriously wrong here.
41:21Todd!
41:21Todd!
41:22This season
41:34on My Big Fat Fabulous Life.
41:36What is that?
41:36A cooler?
41:37It's...
41:38Look at how big it is!
41:40I've never tried
41:41to get pregnant
41:42ever in my life.
41:43I'm 40 years old
41:43and now I'm trying.
41:45What is that?
41:46Got it ready
41:47for the newcoming baby.
41:49Three, two, one.
41:52When I found out
41:54that you were still
41:55in communication
41:55with Ashley,
41:56I felt really betrayed.
41:58What if I was there
41:58and I mediated it
41:59so nothing went sideways?
42:01I don't want
42:02to have a conversation.
42:04I know you're just jealous
42:05because you're crazy.
42:07off for the rest
42:08of my life.
42:08I don't care.
42:09Honestly,
42:10the friend group
42:10is in shambles.
42:12Did I tell you
42:13about my bell?
42:13My friend from England?
42:14Welcome to downtown Greensboro.
42:16This is a city, right?
42:17This is a city.
42:18It's more like
42:19a big town.
42:20I've always said
42:20that Greensboro
42:21is like a nice place
42:22to raise a family.
42:23However,
42:23as a single
42:2440-year-old woman,
42:25it's not really
42:26the vibe for me.
42:27You need to get out
42:27with her, like now.
42:28I know, I know.
42:29You can really
42:30find yourself here.
42:31I love all of this.
42:32I made new friends,
42:34Sabrina and Corinne.
42:35They live in Salem.
42:36They're like
42:37two kindreds.
42:38You're just gonna
42:38uproot and go
42:39with your fun
42:40new friends.
42:41I'm asking you
42:42are you leaving?
42:42I have no idea.
42:44I just don't want you
42:45to make a decision
42:46you regret.
42:47Whitney moving away
42:48from Glenn?
42:49I don't see that happening.
42:51She wants to take
42:52care of Glenn.
42:53Have you talked to daddy?
42:54I've been calling him
42:55all day.
42:55He hasn't answered me.
42:56I'll just go into
42:57the security camera.
42:58Oh my God!
42:59Call 911.
43:00Call 911.
43:01Daddy?
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