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00:02of course not why not because she'd start screaming at me or cry when else have you
00:11chosen not to express your feelings so that someone wouldn't start screaming at you or cry
00:19you mean like with my dad yeah and my sister mm-hmm and oh and Leonard
00:29so pretty much everyone Andrea would it be so bad if someone screamed or cried yes horrible
00:39really worse than feeling isolated and invisible like an empty gaping hole in the universe
00:52sometimes you talk about your life in a way that makes me feel sort of bad
01:01okay like you make a lot of money your house is a palace and you wear a size four when
01:09you're bloated
01:09so when you get upset because you gain a few pounds or you complain about how high your taxes are
01:16with
01:17no comment on how much worse those situations are for me makes me feel like I'm not a real person
01:34well I am I am so sorry I guess I just get wrapped up in my own drama or something
01:42and
01:42I am so glad you finally said something
01:49I'm just asking you to think about how what you say might feel to me sometimes
02:00when you tell me that you only want to hear good news
02:04it makes me feel like you'll only sort of love me if I get engaged or promoted at work
02:13and that makes me really not want to call you when I don't have good news
02:17which is you know most of the time
02:31God that is so not true
02:33I'm just telling you how I feel
02:35that I never think about your feelings
02:38I shower you with gifts
02:40I mean God Andrea look at this apartment look at all the beautiful things I've given you
02:45that antique mirror the Italian gondola ashtrays the Queen Anne brass and irons
02:50honey I don't smoke I don't have a fireplace and I don't like antiques
02:56you like antiques I like modern decor which you know
03:00your modern stuff just isn't as nice
03:01I like it but it doesn't matter what I like
03:05okay fine you know what I'll take it all back then
03:09Leonard it's not about the things
03:12it's not even about your reaction it's about me
03:14being able to express my truth
03:16give me the chair get up
03:17what are you doing
03:17you hate it so much give it back
03:19no I'm just trying to tell you how I feel
03:21Leonard
03:24Andrea
03:27Andrea
03:38oh Jesus
03:41Andrea don't do this to me
03:43oh God
03:45oh Jesus
03:46now what am I going to do
03:58so how do you feel
04:05alive so glad about that
04:08can you get this to stay on
04:15this pin is defective it won't prick
04:17looks like Nate may have to get married without a prick
04:22what do you think Maya got any advice
04:25advice
04:26oh Claire I don't know
04:29don't give up
04:31even when things get hard
04:32and I always do eventually
04:35never stop trying
04:38oh my God I nearly got killed on the way out here
04:40some crazy old lap dog lady almost ran me off the road with her
04:43Lexus SUV
04:44Claire where's David I need the rings
04:46oh um I think he's over there
04:49David
04:50we're starting we're starting the twins need to get the rings on the floor
04:53fine I just want them to get lost
04:55okay Steve come on
05:00stand here waiting for a moment for a moment
05:02get it
05:04how do you feel
05:05like
05:07everyone from my life has led up to this one
05:09like all of it makes sense
05:11like
05:12this is the destiny that's been waiting for me
05:15I know it's stupid to think in terms of happily ever after but
05:18that's what it feels like right now
05:29okay let's do this thing
05:30let's do this thing
05:33wait
05:34no analyzing
05:35I'm not analyzing
05:36I'm loving
05:38thanks
05:40oh coffee I can't even smell it
05:43sorry
05:50we come together on this beautiful day
05:53to witness and celebrate the union of Nate and Lisa
06:00I'll skip the vows
06:02no no no you can watch the vows
06:03no no watch them later
06:05so have you learned all kinds of interesting things
06:08I just wanted to see it you know
06:10so that I didn't do the same thing in some weird way
06:13make everyone uncomfortable
06:17hey I was actually the first one to shoot this location
06:19we used it in uh
06:21pack up your sorrows a mini Farina story
06:23isn't it gorgeous
06:24it's gonna be totally different Bray
06:25I want it to be perfect
06:27well it's already perfect
06:29even if it rains
06:29everybody gets soaked
06:30that's why I got the tent
06:31even if the band sucks
06:33and the food is rancid
06:34well that's why we're only having more derives
06:37I love how weddings just erase the past
06:39like a coat of white cracker
06:41slap a veil on her
06:43and make a slut bag on the planet
06:44becomes a fresh-faced ingenue
06:45no
06:46I'm gonna puke
06:47oh sorry
06:48is it the coffee
06:49and that
07:05you okay Brad
07:15ow
07:16damn it
07:26yeah well
07:27that's not what she told me
07:30who wanted tuna fish
07:34hold the mercury
07:36well you're an idiot
07:38George
07:39you want mercury
07:39I'll need mercury
07:40well the bloodstream's already full of it
07:43it's in all the water
07:44the river's a poison
07:45the ocean's poison
07:54George
07:55no
07:56no
07:57no
07:58no
07:59no
08:00no
08:00no
08:02no
08:02no
08:03no
08:03no
08:04no
08:04no
08:08I just don't know
08:10how this could have happened
08:12I mean they had such a good relationship
08:14I thought
08:16they never fought
08:20I just don't understand
08:23some things in life
08:25we can never understand exactly why they happened
08:28but it's so unfair
08:30she was just starting to really be herself for the first time in her life
08:33yeah that's rough
08:36people are just starting over
08:37I know
08:38I know
08:43your husband is suffering from a condition called depressive psychosis
08:47the hallucinations, paranoia, and delusions are all characteristic
08:51and we generally get good results from a combination of tricyclic antidepressants
08:55and antipsychotic medications
08:57how did this happen?
08:59any kind of stress can trigger this type of condition
09:01you know
09:02death in the family
09:03pressures at work
09:04marital conflicts
09:08but
09:09he was fine when we met
09:10he was so
09:12lovely
09:13it can come and go throughout one's lifetime
09:15and
09:16according to his daughter
09:17your husband has had a long history of mental illness
09:20so what I'd like to do
09:21is get him started on the meds right away
09:23and we'll keep him here for observation for a couple of days
09:25and see how he takes to it
09:35I like that girl, Janine
09:36what do you think?
09:39about what?
09:40my sister
09:41she was nice, I thought
09:43I guess she was nice
09:44she was in shock
09:45so it's a little hard to tell what she'd be like on a date
09:47if that's what you're asking
09:50jeez
09:50man, what did he do?
09:51stab her in the eye?
09:53that's what happens to couples who never learn how to fight
09:58Ricky, are you there?
09:59uh, Ricky
10:00oh, shit
10:01I gotta deal with this girl
10:02what girl?
10:04that's someone I dated a few times
10:06really?
10:07yeah
10:08I signed up on match.com just to
10:11you know, get out there a little
10:13good for you, dude
10:14yeah, well I gotta break up with her now
10:15on an instant message?
10:17yeah
10:17I don't want to lead her on
10:21what do you think?
10:23I'm looking for someone with a more positive attitude about life
10:26that's a little harsh, dude
10:27she should know for her other dates
10:29she was a downer, man
10:30that's very thoughtful
10:32Ricky
10:55we're not getting the response to the medications I was hoping for
10:58George and I discussed it
11:00and we agreed our best option is to move on to ECT
11:03ECT?
11:04what's
11:05electroconvulsive therapy
11:06shock treatments?
11:07it sounds much worse than it is
11:09we administer a slight shock to the brain to
11:11reboot the circuits as it were
11:13but isn't that
11:14it's a very effective treatment for this type of depression
11:20nothing else is working
11:40George
11:46how's he doing?
11:47much better
11:48I think he'll only need a few more sessions
11:56tonight
11:57are you still sleeping?
11:58well he should wake up in about a half an hour
11:59he may have some
12:01nausea or mild confusion
12:02but he'll be fine to go home tonight
12:03are you sure?
12:04it's fine
12:05in the worst case scenario
12:06he'll have some short term memory loss
12:08but nothing too severe
12:08then I think he should be observed
12:10for at least one more night
12:11it's really not necessary
12:12I am not bringing him home tonight
12:17he's not ready
12:21all right
12:22one night more
12:23but tomorrow
12:24he has to go home
12:25we need bed
12:32fuck
12:32I forgot to buy wine
12:35maybe it's rude to bring wine to a pregnant house
12:38maybe we should just pick up some ice cream
12:39no we should definitely buy wine
12:42in case they forgot that other people still drink
12:44I wear this
12:46let everyone think I'm a total indigent
12:49what about that purple thing in the closet?
12:51that's here?
12:52yeah
12:52good I totally thought that was lost
12:57maybe you should just move in
13:02really?
13:05you mean like totally?
13:07wouldn't it just be easier?
13:08you're in my dark room all day long
13:10and you sleep over every night
13:11is that annoying?
13:12yeah it's annoying
13:13that's why I want you to move in
13:14because I'm a total masochist
13:19yeah but how would we both work in here?
13:22well it's been fine so far
13:23yeah because I totally took over your space
13:25I could use my studio at school
13:27if I ever get inspired to make anything again
13:29oh come on
13:34it would be a relief to never have to see my mother again
13:37you're going to have to see her tonight
13:41would you be terribly disappointed
13:43if I couldn't make it tonight dear?
13:45uh no is everything alright?
13:48I'm just feeling a little tired
13:51is George okay?
13:52well he's coming home tomorrow
13:54oh that's great
13:55is he going to be able to make it to the wedding?
13:56make it to the wedding?
13:58do you have any idea what kind of state he's in?
14:01look I'm sorry
14:01I thought he was better
14:03he is better
14:04but he's just
14:06not himself yet
14:08well
14:08you sure you don't want to join us?
14:11yes
14:13I just need one last quiet night
14:16alright well I'll be in by 9 tomorrow
14:18if you need help with anything alright?
14:20alright bye
14:25hey
14:25hey
14:26hey
14:26you look great
14:27thank you
14:28I feel like shit
14:29hey welcome
14:30mwah
14:31thank you
14:31non-alcoholic sparkling cider
14:33thank you very much
14:34so mom's not coming
14:35hey
14:36why not?
14:37because she hates me
14:38she doesn't hate you anymore
14:39now she hates Claire
14:40why does she hate Claire?
14:42mom thinks she's flushing her life down the toilet
14:44because she's taking the semester off
14:46not because she's dating my brother?
14:49oh no
14:50just the school thing
14:51because she's taking off one semester?
14:54I think she's terrified that Claire won't go back
14:57and mom's biggest regret in life is that she never went to college
15:00so if Claire doesn't graduate it's like she failed twice or something
15:05okay
15:08it's time for somebody to take a bath
15:09ah I'll do it
15:11you sure?
15:11yeah
15:12I gotta pee anyway
15:13oh for the billionth time today
15:16I guess it all comes from
15:17ow
15:18bye
15:20yes
15:21yes
15:21yes
15:22sorry
15:23no it's okay
15:26she knows we all think Billy's a bomb waiting to go off
15:28what does she think?
15:29oh she thinks he's fine when he's on his medication
15:31and he's been taking it for a long time
15:33so whatever
15:33I could almost deal with the guy who wasn't fucking my little sister
15:36no he's better than Gabe
15:38come on he was a drug crazed killer
15:40he didn't kill the guy he just shot at him
15:42she should have just stayed with her nice gay boyfriend
15:44yeah that guy was a total asshole
15:45she really knows how to pick him
15:47oh they're here
15:49hey Billy
15:50come on in
15:52how you doing Billy?
15:53good
15:55hello
15:55hey
15:56hey guys
15:57hey
16:00where's mom?
16:01she's not coming
16:08so do your parents still live in Ohio?
16:10Columbus yeah
16:11and where did you grow up?
16:13LA
16:13West Adams area and where I work
16:15oh
16:18I don't know LA that well
16:19how long have you been here?
16:21four years
16:21but it's so big
16:23and my hours are crazy at the dentist
16:24because people have to schedule their appointments
16:26before and after regular work hours
16:28and on weekends too so
16:29yeah my business too
16:30you're never off
16:32you could always get a call
16:35that must be convenient for dating
16:37uh what?
16:38like if you want to get out of a date
16:39you can have a friend call and pretend to be a dead person or whatever
16:44come on I wouldn't do that
16:47so how's it going with the adoption thing?
16:50we have two interviews left for the home study
16:53then we just have to wait for a referral
16:56what's a referral?
16:58a kid
16:58wow
16:59how long will you have to wait?
17:01anywhere from a week to many years
17:03oh man that's gotta be hard
17:05yeah but
17:06they all say
17:07sometimes being gay
17:08helps you get chosen faster
17:09in this backward country?
17:11the birth mothers have to look at
17:12thousands of pictures of
17:13straight white people
17:15so we kind of pop out
17:16so weird to imagine
17:18going through all that
17:19nine months
17:20and a delivery
17:21you don't even want the kid
17:22I mean who would do that?
17:24Christians
17:25no not only
17:26some women just
17:27can't deal with making a decision
17:29well they leave it too long
17:31they don't even get money right?
17:32we'll probably have to pay the hospital bills
17:35but that's where they can scam you
17:36if they change their mind
17:37you're left with the bill
17:38that rarely happens
17:39it really makes you see the appeal of a surrogate
17:42it does?
17:45yeah
17:45that and
17:46wanting to have your own kid
17:48yeah but there are so many kids
17:49who already exist
17:50who need homes
17:51why would we want to make another one?
17:53the same reason straight people do
17:55but given that it's not quite as easy for us
17:58why would we do something so extreme
18:01as to hire us?
18:02why should we be the ones
18:03who don't get to have our own kids?
18:04just because we're gay?
18:07it's not because we're gay
18:12I just don't think a child
18:13has to have my genes
18:14for me to feel like it's mine
18:17I'm sure people love adopted kids
18:18as much as their own
18:19I mean obviously
18:21maybe
18:22it's easy to say
18:23when you have your own
18:25I love Maya
18:26and you still wanted one of your own
18:31you just think you don't deserve to have
18:33what everyone else has
18:44would anybody have more wine
18:45if I open another bottle?
18:46yes sir
18:46yeah
18:49you know you think you're the only one with dreams
18:51that don't work out?
18:52we both got what we settled for
18:54I think maybe you just don't love me anymore
18:56no I do love you
18:57hello
18:59you're home really?
19:01yeah
19:01well
19:02first date
19:03you know
19:03how was it?
19:05it was okay
19:07well
19:08goodnight
19:09would you like some Sambuca?
19:12uh
19:13sure
19:14unless
19:15I don't want to disturb you
19:16I know
19:17I don't want to hear about
19:21was this the dental hygienist
19:23or the investment banker?
19:24uh
19:24the hygienist
19:25Sharon
19:28yeah
19:28the banker was too
19:29uh
19:29shiny
19:32you know
19:33it may have just been
19:34an unfortunate lotion
19:37let's hear about Sharon
19:44well
19:44uh
19:45she was nice
19:47I liked her
19:48I guess
19:50did you get a
19:51sense of what kind of person she was?
19:53does she seem solid?
19:55mm-hmm
19:56yeah
19:57definitely solid
19:57it's so important
19:59to feel you could rely on someone
20:01yeah
20:02it's interesting
20:03this whole dating thing
20:04you know
20:05I never really did it before Vanessa
20:07enjoy it dear
20:09but try not to be blinded by lust
20:11if you can
20:20do you guys
20:21want to get high?
20:24I could get high
20:26that's a really good pot
20:27I'm gonna have that's up
20:28I actually have some in my jacket
20:31you do?
20:31it's leftover from when we went to the Hollywood Bowl
20:34that's too old
20:35I just got this
20:36no mine cost 200 bucks for an A
20:39let's smoke that
20:41it's inside
20:43don't tell Keith we're smoking
20:45he gets really annoying when he's high
20:46yeah I don't want to make a big deal about it in front of Brandy
20:48I know what you mean
20:50Billy can't smoke
20:50because of all his medications
20:59so how's mom?
21:02when was the last time you talked to her?
21:06you might want to call her tomorrow before the wedding
21:08so it's not tense
21:10she can call me
21:16here you go
21:21so um
21:21what do you guys think about Billy?
21:23he's in a really good place
21:24you think?
21:27yeah definitely
21:29good place
21:30what does that mean?
21:31she said he's doing really well
21:33well it just meant I'm not gonna lay awake at night
21:34worrying about the fact that you're in that guy's bed
21:36that's a nice thing to say about your wife's brother
21:38well she knows how I feel
21:44it is so unfair to hold things that happened like years ago against someone
21:48I mean that's basically saying that people can't change
21:50I mean you changed
21:53yeah I've changed
21:54but I'm not totally fucking insane Claire
21:57I didn't try and carve a tattoo off of somebody's ass
21:58shut up
22:00here
22:14what?
22:17I don't know
22:19why don't you have a bad dream?
22:21maybe
22:22maybe
22:24yeah
22:26what?
22:27oh god I'm bleeding
22:31ah
22:32okay okay okay it's okay
22:35it's okay
22:35it's okay
22:36I'm gonna try to schedule the DNC for tomorrow morning
22:39we can't do it tomorrow
22:42and we're getting married
22:44oh
22:45congratulations
22:47thank you
22:51Brent we can cancel
22:52we have to do it today
22:54I can't get an anesthesiologist today
22:59we have to do it tomorrow Brent
23:04oh fuck
23:07can I wait till Monday?
23:09sure
23:09Monday's fine
23:12then we'll do it Monday
23:28hey how's it going?
23:30good
23:32is that me?
23:34no it's Nate
23:36no these pieces
23:37that's Brenda
23:39narcissist
23:41oh it looks like Nate
23:43oh my god
23:44it's a wedding present
23:45why would I have you in there?
23:47well because she can marry Nate
23:48but she'll always love me
23:49she is me
23:54no!
23:57hey
24:00are you upset with me?
24:02no
24:02I was just concentrating
24:05alright
24:07I'll leave you alone
24:24I'm sorry
24:27how do I get to my room?
24:30you mean our room?
24:31our bedroom?
24:35if that's what it is
24:38come on upstairs now
24:41we'll get you unpacked
24:54you made it clear
24:56we're only considering
24:57a surrogate right?
24:58yeah
24:58now what about Tamara?
24:59she's got your forehead
25:00an IQ of 120
25:02she's 5'2
25:03and she weighs 160 pounds
25:04ah
25:06maybe that's why
25:07she costs less than
25:07the other ones
25:08it's not like I wouldn't
25:09love an obese child
25:10but I'd rather not sign up
25:11for a lifetime of body issues
25:12especially if we get a girl
25:14if we get a girl
25:15you better hope she's obese
25:16I'm not having some
25:1812 year old hottie
25:19running around Sunset Boulevard
25:20with her ass crack showing
25:26hey Raj
25:27what's up?
25:30uh
25:31yeah
25:32I can do a couple of nights
25:34next week
25:34let me get my calendar
25:37what nights were you thinking of?
25:39I know I'm free to
25:40are you ready to meet the bachelorettes?
25:47hi
25:49uh
25:49I guess so
25:51ladies
25:54hi
25:54I'm Sierra
25:57I'm 20
25:57I have a combined SAT score
25:59of 675
26:01and I want to be your
26:02egg donor surrogate
26:03because although I'm not ready
26:04to start a family of my own
26:06I want to put as many versions
26:07of myself on the planet
26:08as I possibly can
26:11hi
26:12I'm Didi from San Pedro
26:14I'm 27 years old
26:15I love outdoor sports
26:17and I'm your dream surrogate
26:18because I've given birth
26:19to 9 healthy babies
26:21and it's my personal mission
26:22to have children
26:23for bourgeois narcissists
26:24who can't conceive
26:24on their own
26:26hi
26:28I'm Lindsay
26:30I've got a degree
26:30in applied science from Yale
26:31a master's from MIT
26:33and $60,000
26:34of school loans to repay
26:35I'm hoping you pick me
26:36so I won't have to resort
26:37to more obvious forms
26:38of prostitution
26:39to get out of debt
26:40so
26:41have you found her?
26:44I can't do this Keith
26:45I'm sorry
26:47I can't just rent out
26:48some woman's uterus
26:49like it's a storage locker
26:54okay
26:59hi guys
27:00daddy got us a gamecube
27:02you could say hello
27:03hi
27:04share with your brother Julio
27:06you're spoiling them
27:07oh can you take me
27:08tomorrow afternoon
27:09for a couple of hours?
27:10I can't
27:11it's Nate's wedding
27:11oh that's right
27:13I forgot
27:14what are you bringing?
27:16no one
27:17you want to come?
27:18no thank you
27:19I'm happy for Nate
27:20but I have a week of errands
27:21to do
27:25you should bring a real date
27:26you should bring a real date
27:26to a wedding?
27:27isn't that weird?
27:29no you should bring someone
27:30so it won't be boring
27:30what happened with that
27:31makeup artist Dana
27:32she sounded nice
27:33yeah she was too
27:35I don't know
27:36cheerful or something
27:37nobody's perfect
27:38you have to give people
27:39a chance to grow on you
27:40yeah
27:42don't take this the wrong way
27:43but
27:45no one's you
27:47that's sweet
27:47but I was never me either
27:48yes you were
27:49no
27:50if you were this picky
27:51when we were going out
27:51you never would have married me
27:53you just have to find
27:54someone you like
27:55and be nice to them
27:57is that how it is
27:57with Kenny?
27:59oh
28:00yeah that didn't work out
28:01really?
28:03what happened?
28:04he's a pig
28:04I don't even want to talk about it
28:05but I'm too busy
28:06for all that now anyway
28:07it's okay for me
28:08I don't need someone
28:09as much as you do
28:11oh really?
28:12it's not a bad thing Rico
28:14you're just
28:15a person who
28:16does better with someone
28:23so tomorrow
28:24while I'm at the wedding
28:25I'm going to have
28:26a home aide
28:27come stay with you
28:27so you won't be alone
28:28alright?
28:31whose wedding?
28:33Nate's
28:34my son
28:35I know who Nate is
28:38who's he marrying?
28:40Brenda
28:41his girlfriend
28:44oh
28:46oh
28:47that's wonderful
28:49of course I'll be there
28:51I mean
28:52this is an important passage
28:53for Nate
28:54from being a widower
28:55to starting again
28:56as a householder
28:57I want to support him
28:58if you don't think
28:59it's too much for you
29:00too much?
29:01my only son
29:02is getting married
29:07well why don't
29:08we see how you feel
29:10tomorrow
29:10I wouldn't miss it
29:11for the world
29:15the splendid young man
29:17who came to the throne
29:18in 1509
29:19by 1547
29:21had become
29:21a revolting
29:22swollen mass
29:23of putrefying flesh
29:24you want the vicodin
29:25or some naproxen?
29:26vicodin
29:27please
29:37cramps are pretty bad
29:38huh?
29:38yeah I just want to get
29:39a hold of that number
29:46god this is so not
29:48the vision I had
29:48the night before my wedding
29:53where's the stripper?
29:56you know it'd be so easy
29:57to postpone this
29:58for a couple weeks
30:00it would not be easy
30:02and it would cost a fortune
30:04well so what
30:05it's just money
30:05I'd rather just not
30:06even have a wedding
30:07than have to deal with
30:09rescheduling everything
30:10yeah
30:13let's just
30:14you know we could
30:15run off to Vegas
30:16yeah right
30:18come on you love that idea
30:19yeah that was before
30:20I spent six months
30:20planning my stupid
30:21fucking dream wedding
30:23that's why I think
30:24we should reschedule
30:25look it's only gonna
30:26be depressing
30:27for you
30:28yeah for me
30:29and it's gonna be
30:30depressing for you too
30:31I think
30:31it's not as depressing
30:32as calling a hundred people
30:34and telling them
30:35that it's cancelled
30:36because I lost
30:37my fucking baby
30:37which I just
30:38told the whole world
30:39I was having
30:40why did you let me
30:41tell so many
30:41fucking people
30:45look I just
30:45I don't think
30:46that you
30:48I just don't think
30:49you realize
30:50how upset you are
30:50don't tell me
30:51how I feel
30:51I think I know
30:52how fucking upset
30:52I am
30:53then why are we
30:53going through
30:54with this
30:54because when I
30:55think about
30:55not doing it
30:56I just want
30:56to throw myself
30:57under a bus
30:58I just
30:59I want to swallow
30:59razor blades
31:00I would have
31:00to take
31:01every painkiller
31:02in the house
31:02just so that
31:03I could pick up
31:03the phone
31:03and cancel
31:04the caterer
31:08then fuck it
31:10let's get married
31:11okay
31:14it'll be a great day
31:17yeah
31:22you can have one
31:22of my Vicodin if you want
31:24thank you
31:25just make sure
31:26you leave enough for tomorrow
31:41are these big granny panties
31:43you're something old
31:43because they really
31:44kill the mood
31:45you can't see them
31:46through the dress
31:47can you
31:47no
31:48but they're hideous
31:49sweetie
31:49would it kill you
31:51to wear a thong
31:51these are fine
31:54what's the matter
31:55nothing's the matter
31:56I just don't want
31:57to wear a thong
32:01did something happen
32:03is it the baby
32:06what is it
32:07what happened
32:15I don't want to fuck up
32:16my makeup
32:18honey
32:18we'll just clean you up
32:19with a good powder
32:20here
32:20I've got some Chanel
32:21in my purse
32:23I don't want to be late
32:24honey
32:24you don't have to worry
32:25about everything
32:26going right anymore
32:28that boat has sailed
32:31you know
32:31it happens all the time
32:33so many of my friends
32:35Joni
32:36Celia
32:36Aunt Mary
32:38before she had Deb
32:38even Teresa Hines
32:40Carrie
32:41had one
32:42and God knows
32:43she looks terrific
32:47Aunt Mary did?
32:48I'm telling you
32:49more women
32:50have miscarried
32:51than they have
32:51masturbated with a dildo
32:52they just don't talk
32:53about it
32:55and then
32:56they have a baby
32:57and
32:58and they're fine
32:59sweetie
33:07better
33:09change this fucking
33:10pad
33:10if I get blood
33:11on this dress
33:12I'm gonna kill myself
33:17I'm so sorry
33:18Nate
33:19yeah
33:20well
33:23just don't tell anybody
33:23I want to keep today
33:24kind of nice
33:25you know
33:29are you gonna try again?
33:31yeah
33:31of course
33:31as soon as we can
33:34you might want to
33:34give it some time
33:35no no no
33:36I don't want to wait
33:39I mean
33:39to grieve
33:42you know
33:42with all the fucked up
33:43shit that's happened
33:44in my life
33:44I don't want to grieve
33:45anymore
33:45I can't
33:46I can't
33:46I don't have it in me
33:50well maybe
33:50Brenda needs
33:51you know
33:51what Brenda needs
33:52to do is to
33:52get pregnant again
33:54soon
33:54because you know
33:55it's not like
33:55she's 20
33:56yeah
33:58I mean
33:59with all the stuff
33:59Keith and I
34:00have been reading
34:00it seems
34:01psychological stress
34:02can really affect
34:03a woman's chance
34:03David
34:03it's the only thing
34:04that's gonna make
34:05her feel better
34:05why should I wait?
34:06I put it off
34:07because some bad shit
34:08happened and we need
34:08to feel really bad
34:09about it
34:09I mean bad shit
34:10it happens every day
34:11I mean you of all
34:12people should know that
34:14move fucking on
34:15you know
34:19anyway I've already
34:20got Maya
34:20so it's not for me
34:23but it'll be
34:24your child
34:25your flesh and blood
34:26how could it not
34:27be for you?
34:28because it's what
34:28Brenda wants
34:28more than anything
34:29in the world
34:29and I can make
34:30that happen for
34:33let's see the
34:34justice of the peace
34:34is here
34:57I take you Nate
34:58with all your
35:00strengths and faults
35:01as I offer myself
35:02to you
35:03with all my
35:04strengths
35:06and faults
35:09from this day forward
35:10I will be there
35:11when you need help
35:14and turn to you
35:15when I need help
35:20I promise myself
35:22to you
35:22forever
35:26I vow
35:27to trust
35:28to honor
35:30and to cherish
35:32to share
35:33and support
35:34your hopes
35:34your thoughts
35:35and your dreams
35:37as long as we both
35:39shall live
35:51by the power vested
35:53in me
35:53from the state
35:54of California
35:55I now pronounce you
35:56husband and wife
35:58you may kiss the bride
36:18and I thank you
36:31so is it weird to see brenda get married weird that's great yeah but i mean because
36:37you guys used to be so close i'm really happy
36:44i'm happy we're both in healthy relationships with siblings
36:51it's funny how you both ended up with another set of siblings
36:56yeah yeah it's funny it's a jew and they did too god what do you think it means
37:08it was a nice ceremony it was you got a little choked up didn't you
37:15yeah i love weddings don't you sure if it's right the last one i went to the people hated
37:24each other so it's kind of depressing it's just so frustrating to not be able to help her
37:29but you did help her you helped her as much as anyone could through the circumstances
37:34i don't know i really believe in marriage
37:37a lot of guys today don't even know how to make a commitment but i was married 11 years
37:42what kind of person is better with someone someone special i mean
37:49that's sweet
37:55looks beautiful
37:58all right that's enough of that one all right lovely a family portrait with two new fishers
38:13okay what's next uh how about mom and george
38:16okay i'm just gonna fresh up okay mom you guys want to get over here in the light
38:26let me take that glass no it's fine
38:37what are you doing what have a little respect
38:43oh my god
38:45it's not funny
38:48oh my
38:54some saucer please no ice yes mom mom are you okay i'm fine what just happened with claire she's in
39:00such a terrible terrible phase nate she's just so out of control in her life she doesn't care about
39:04anyone else's feelings at all what did she do she took a very rude picture of george and an extremely
39:08compromised steve this iceness sorry i am sure she didn't mean it that way she's always trying
39:13to make some sort of statement yes this is her way of saying i'm the fool who has to take
39:17care
39:17of a crazy person for the rest of my life come on i don't think she's trying to say that
39:20well
39:20i don't need a photograph to see that i don't need to have my face shoved in a
39:23mom get you some help a nurse or something no i'm still the one who has to be there all
39:28day
39:28and every night why do you because there's no one else
39:37excuse me dear i have to clean the stain on his jacket before it sets
39:48oh thank you who's the third one for it's to put under our pillow
39:54so who do you dream of if you're already married you dream of a future love oh you mean our
40:00second
40:00husbands no we could dream of our child we'll just get frosting in our ears
40:06i think we should go forward with the surrogate
40:11really why because you want your own child
40:16i don't want to be the one who denies you that i want to be the one who helps you
40:19to have what you want
40:22what about the kids who need homes we can do both i think we should do both
40:29one of each which one comes first whichever shows up first
40:36what if they both show up at the same time then we'll be really busy you're serious
40:45all right then
41:18you don't have to worry about it being like my wedding
41:21i had a three-month-old baby when i got married so it was a much happier event obviously really
41:26joyful it all came very naturally to me but i was always maternal unlike you i'm
41:32fucking maternal oh come on i mean look at your past what about my past you're a
41:37slut bag you were what's got nothing to do with it of course it does all the moments of your
41:42life
41:42have led to this one you're being punished i don't believe in that your insides must have gotten
41:49damaged from all that anonymous cop oh come on that's why this happened to you i mean look at
41:55that nice woman over there she's got her baby everybody treated her like a princess for the whole nine
42:00months there's a pregnant goddess due in six weeks she has two at home she doesn't know it
42:07yet she's pregnant she wasn't even trying oh boy she's gonna be thrilled twins they'll be here in june
42:14i'm gonna get my baby you bitch like a pregnant the fourth time i tried i didn't have to try
42:21but i never partied like you did oh it's a miracle you even conceived
42:27a lot of women have miscarriages they don't talk about it so people don't realize
42:31none of the women at this wedding have except you of course you're just bitter because you had
42:36to get pregnant to get me to marry you i'm bitter who's drunk and yelling at a dead woman and
42:40she might not even be his daughter you were having an affair with your sister's husband
42:44that was purely a spiritual thing nate is maya's father he's my husband and he always will be you
42:51will never feel his arms around you again you'll never feel the air on your skin or wake up in
42:56a warm
42:57bed you're done you don't get the chance to try again for anything so what so i can oh please
43:04every time you try to have a nice normal life you it up you're never going to have your little
43:09happily ever after moment no matter how many white veils you put on honey you're just too
43:13fucked up for all that maybe you should just accept that instead of trying to be something you're not
43:33hey are you okay
43:37friend you were right i should never have tried to have this stupid fucking dead
43:41this idiotic tent dumb ass wedding band it's such a fucking cliche just to prove
43:47that i deserve my own special fucking day which i don't
43:51brenda the only reason the only reason why i want no come on you knew it was a pathetic attempt
43:57to become something that i'm not that we're not brenda i just thought that you might be too upset to
44:02enjoy the day no but it's so perfect this way it's so perfect the only way that i get to
44:06get married in
44:07a long white gown is to have my dead baby leaking out of me all day that's me that's what
44:13i get for
44:13my wedding you know what you're really upset maybe you shouldn't be drinking are you kidding me this
44:17glass of champagne is the only thing in my universe right now yeah you have me
44:25you don't really fucking want me
44:29not that i blame you who would i do well then you're a very disturbed person maybe don't be nice
44:39to me what do you want me to do you want me to hit you yes yeah that would feel
44:44fantastic
44:59oh i thought you were gonna hit me oh disturb and the violence oh where when you see you ring
45:06at me oh
45:11i'm glad today sucked because i would want the happiest day of our life to be over already would you
45:20it's coming right it's coming fucking better be
45:39it's coming right
45:45so
46:50Rhonda?
46:55Oh, I'm sorry. You can't come in for this.
47:03Can you hold this?
47:34Rhonda?
47:36Rhonda?
47:37You