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00:01I just remembered, I owe you money.
00:04Well, thank you for sparing me the awkward confrontation.
00:07I'm starting to feel exploited.
00:09Yeah, but in a good way.
00:12Go ahead.
00:16Are you looking at my balance?
00:18Eh, it's okay. Size isn't everything.
00:21It's funny.
00:23Hey, so does bad music make people deaf,
00:25or do deaf people just have really bad taste in music?
00:28Well, there is Beethoven.
00:30Hey, come on, let's go.
00:31What the fuck is that shit?
00:32Hey, hurry up.
00:33Come on, that's all right, just me.
00:35Look, it's all yours.
00:36Do you think you can do that kind of offensive shit like that in public?
00:40No, man. We're sorry. We're sorry, huh?
00:45Okay, let's go.
00:47Hey, fuck you, man.
00:48Fuck you.
00:49Run!
00:51Run!
00:52Help!
01:01Run!
01:02Run!
01:02I got away.
01:06Fuck you.
01:08Fucking pervert.
01:09Read a fucking sign, will you, pervert?
01:11We're dying, come on.
01:12Come on, let's go, come on.
01:29Okay, here we go, Uncle Nate.
01:31You got him?
01:31Just about.
01:32Just about.
01:32Yep, yep, yep.
01:33Put your hand under there.
01:33All right, I got him.
01:34There we go.
01:34Woo!
01:35Yes!
01:36Okay, but don't hold him like he's a football.
01:39It's more like you're carrying a watermelon.
01:41All right.
01:41See?
01:42Okay.
01:43Adjust, adjust.
01:43There you go.
01:46Look at that little guy.
01:47He looks just like his dad.
01:49They say when a baby is born, it always looks more like its father, which is nature's way
01:52of establishing paternity.
01:54Mm, we're hoping he grows out of it.
01:56Oh, don't worry.
01:58I'm sure he will.
01:59Oh, yes, yes.
02:01David, come in Augusto.
02:03I just have to get Mr. Perlmutter dressed for his viewing.
02:07All right, David, please.
02:07Come take one look at him.
02:09Nate was an extremely gassy baby, always crying.
02:12David, on the other hand, hardly ever made a peep.
02:17Hey, when are you guys going to grow up around here and make this woman a grandmame?
02:23Well, certainly not until after Mr. Perlmutter's got some clothes on.
02:40You know, it's kind of funny me coming back to school in a hearse.
02:47It's hilarious.
02:51This sucks.
02:53Does everybody know?
02:56I don't know.
02:57Who'd you tell?
02:58No, I mean, like, they make an announcement or something.
03:04Do you think you would have gotten, like, a couple cards or something that they had?
03:08No.
03:09It's not cool to OD.
03:12Freaks people out.
03:13Who gives a fuck what these people think?
03:15Everyone is too obsessed with what everyone else thinks about them to think about anyone else.
03:22You're a freak.
03:23Yeah, what's over you?
03:28Is that supposed to make me feel better?
03:31It's the guy who OD you.
03:33What the fuck are you looking at?
03:35Yeah.
03:42So what?
03:43Call me over here to show me a picture of you in the grave digger?
03:46I need your key back.
03:47Because you've crossed a line and I don't feel like I can trust you anymore.
03:53You think I took that picture?
03:55I will not play this game with you!
04:01I'm not going to deal with you when you're off your meds, Billy, because I don't even know who you
04:04are.
04:05You know, for someone with so much animosity towards the psychiatric profession, you sure do love to push those pharmaceuticals.
04:10Makes sense, as you're obviously no stranger to medication yourself.
04:13You're sick, Billy, you're sick, and you have to stay on your fucking medication or you get scary, okay?
04:19You're not scared of me.
04:21I would never hurt you.
04:23You're the most important person in my life.
04:24Yeah, well, did you ever stop to think that maybe that's fucked up?
04:32I'm sorry.
04:33Don't be sorry.
04:35Just...
04:36Just take the meds.
04:39Okay.
04:41I promise.
04:44Now give me the key.
04:48I just told you I'd take the medication, Brandon.
04:51I just...
04:52Look, I just told you I'd take the medication!
04:54Jesus Christ, you don't have to be such a bitch!
04:56When did you turn into mom?
05:01Okay.
05:02I don't give a shit.
05:03You want the fucking key?
05:05Right?
05:06Here, take all the fucking keys.
05:08I could always have an extra copy at home.
05:10I could always change the locks.
05:12Do you know how easy it would be to break into this place?
05:17I'd like you to go now.
05:19Your wetsuit, clothing, robes, take them.
05:29I just told you I'd take the medication, Brenda!
05:31I told you I would take the medication, please!
05:36You have to take care of yourself now.
05:39I can't do it.
05:40Not anymore.
05:41Please!
05:42But you're the only person I can talk to.
05:43You're the only one that hears me, Brenda.
05:46Billy, you have to get a life of your own, okay?
05:50Please.
06:07You probably read about it.
06:08It was all over the news.
06:10What happened, Damar?
06:11Yes.
06:14The coroner still has his...
06:17They still have him.
06:20In situations like this, when there's been violence,
06:24the family may prefer a closed casket.
06:28No.
06:29I think he looks pretty bad.
06:31I have to see him.
06:36I brought some pictures.
06:37So, you know what he looks like.
06:46Wasn't he such a beautiful boy?
06:52Why does a thing like this happen?
06:57Come on, now.
06:58We all know why this happened.
06:59That is not a reason.
07:03It's the only reason.
07:05If he wasn't...
07:10He'll be alive today.
07:13You know what?
07:14I was always so worried about AIDS.
07:16I never even thought that just being out on the street...
07:21What is wrong with people?
07:23I could have told him this kind of thing happens.
07:24I would have, too, if he'd ever just talked to us about it,
07:27ever come out and told us what he was.
07:31Well, what do you expect, Marcus?
07:33Guys, you can't even say it to him.
07:42Here's the champion of Papi.
07:45Oh, man, you got a big one.
07:50Hey, Dave.
07:52I'll be right with you.
07:57Come on, Papi.
07:59Come on, Papi.
08:00Okay.
08:01Okay.
08:06Jesus.
08:06Oh, boy.
08:08Okay, Cinderella.
08:09We're going to have to work overtime to get you ready for the ball.
08:12Because men don't make passes at girls with big cashes.
08:17It was funny, right?
08:18Daddy's Mr. Funner Man.
08:20Let me just turn our ghost door upstairs,
08:22and I'll be right back down to do them.
08:25I can handle this, Federico.
08:27Why don't you take the rest of the day off?
08:28It's a pretty tough job, Dave.
08:31And the skull's all shattered up there,
08:33and you might have to completely rebuild the tissue on his cheek.
08:35I can do it.
08:38Hey, thanks, man.
08:40I'm so damn tired, I could barely see straight.
08:43Get some rest.
08:44You bet.
08:45Good luck.
08:47Let's go, Marty.
08:48Let's go, Marty.
08:49Let's go.
08:53And I told him not to come around for a while.
08:58That's it?
08:59Oh, what else could I do, Nate?
09:00You could talk to the police.
09:02You could get a restraining order.
09:03I don't need you to tell me how to handle this.
09:05That is so arrogant and patronizing.
09:07I just need you to listen to me.
09:09Brenda, you can't just sit around waiting for the next fucked up thing Billy does.
09:12You need to do something now.
09:14Do you think that was easy for me, just cutting him off like that?
09:18Do you even comprehend what it's like to be responsible for someone your whole life?
09:22Did you even get the concept of loving somebody that much?
09:27Yes, I get that concept.
09:35He's sick.
09:37He's not just sick.
09:38He's dangerous.
09:39He built a bomb.
09:41He broke into our hotel room and took pictures of us in bed.
09:43What's he going to do next time?
09:45I took his key away from him.
09:47Yeah, well, he didn't have a key in Vegas.
09:48That didn't keep him out.
09:50I'm sorry.
09:52I know you don't trust your parents, but I really think they're right on this.
09:54He needs to be somewhere.
10:01This is so not how I need you to be right now.
10:11What are you doing?
10:12I don't want to discuss this with you anymore.
10:15In fact, you know what?
10:16Why don't we just take some time off?
10:19What is this?
10:20Oh, you dumped Billy, so now you've got to dump me?
10:21Don't you fucking analyze me.
10:24You might as well throw away your key, because I changed the lock.
10:41Where's Claire?
10:43Well, she claims to be at a movie.
10:45What do I know?
10:46Nobody ever tells me what's really going on.
10:53That boy who got beat up on the street.
10:58Was he doing something?
11:02He was getting cashed.
11:03Didn't you read the paper?
11:05Yes, I just thought you might know more about it.
11:10Do you like the hen?
11:12No, very much.
11:13What did you stuff it with?
11:16Chestnuts, breadcrumbs, celery.
11:17Do you want to know all the ingredients?
11:20No.
11:21Thanks.
11:26Are you going out tonight?
11:28No, not tonight.
11:31Are you?
11:33Me?
11:34No.
11:37But, you know, sometimes I do see Hiram on occasion.
11:43And I know you don't like that.
11:45But I also know you love me, no matter who I see in my private life.
11:54Well, that's good, Mom.
12:05So, why did, uh, you drop jazz vocals sophomore year?
12:10Because the music teacher was a crackhead.
12:12I'm serious, Claire.
12:14So am I.
12:15He got busted and fired, and then jazz vocals was discontinued.
12:18Do your homework.
12:23What happened with the, uh, literary magazine?
12:27Censorship.
12:27I wrote this totally, like, harmless, like, cartoon story about this girl who can make people's heads explode.
12:34And apparently it was too disturbing to publish.
12:38The debate team?
12:39They debated what the prom theme should be.
12:42I mean, God, the people in this school, they have the mentality of teenagers.
12:46You are a teenager.
12:47Yes.
12:48But I actually think about things besides trying to figure out how to puke after lunch without anyone noticing.
12:56So, what do you do for fun?
12:59I don't know.
13:00What do you do for fun?
13:02I, uh, go bowling with my friends.
13:05I take hikes with my girlfriend.
13:07Uh, I bake.
13:09You bake.
13:11Uh-huh.
13:11Your turn.
13:13I read.
13:17I go online and make up freaky cyber identities.
13:22You know, sometimes I'm a Scientologist.
13:24Sometimes I'm a young Christian wife.
13:27What about friendships that are, uh, based on the truth?
13:29Any of those?
13:34Um, sometimes I hang out with Parker McKenna.
13:37I kind of like her.
13:38Even though she's pretty much a split personality freak.
13:42Dating anyone?
13:45Dating?
13:46You mean like getting drunk and screwing?
13:49If that's what it is?
13:51Yeah, if that's what it is.
13:52No, I'm not.
13:56Keith, got a minute?
13:57Yeah, sure.
13:59What's up?
14:00I want to put you on security for the Mark Foster funeral on Thursday.
14:04Okay, why?
14:05Because all the wackos turn off these things.
14:08Why me?
14:09Well, come on, Keith.
14:10Because you're a good, smart cop and you use your head before you use your gun, all right?
14:15So it has nothing to do with the fact that I'm gay, right?
14:19Hey, what do you want to do, man?
14:20Sue me for discrimination or show up and protect this kid's family?
14:31Oh, God.
14:33I look like something Chef Boyardee makes.
14:36So you never told your parents you were gay either?
14:39Oh, please.
14:40They knew.
14:41I just didn't want my dad making me feel guilty about it all the time.
14:45Well, maybe he could have accepted it if you'd given him a chance.
14:49You heard him.
14:50He thinks it's my fault I'm dead.
14:53That's not what he was saying.
14:54He was saying it's a sick world.
14:56I'm the one who was sick.
14:57Shut up.
14:59So I liked men.
15:01I never should have given into it.
15:03It's not what God intended.
15:05I could have had a family.
15:06I could have had a normal life.
15:08You could have, too.
15:09That life would have been a lie and completely unfair to your wife and children who would have hated you.
15:14Not if I never looked back.
15:17Not if I had faith.
15:19God challenges us like this.
15:20So we'll choose good.
15:22So we'll triumph over evil.
15:25Only thing is, so few of us do.
15:28It's not a choice.
15:30God already made the choice for you.
15:32That's just liberal propaganda to justify your own depravity.
15:35Jim.
15:39No matter how nice you fix me up, I'm still going to hell.
15:42You know it.
15:44Because you're going there, too.
16:02Ready to pick up the phone?
16:05Don't just lay there and say, fuck you.
16:09Okay, look, I'm sorry I pissed you off.
16:10I know you're under a lot of pressure, but so am I.
16:14So let's talk about it, okay?
16:16Call me.
16:25Hey.
16:29Yes, this is Fisher and Sons.
16:30Can I help you?
16:32I'm terribly sorry.
16:36Uh, yes, we can pick up the body.
16:37Uh, the deceased?
16:39Which morgue?
16:41Uh, residence, okay.
16:43What's the address?
16:52Robby.
16:52Oh, I'm sorry.
16:53Did my tree hit you?
16:55Do you have a moment?
16:56Well, I don't know, Ruth.
16:58I got a whole big bunch of ferns out back.
17:00I got to cut up so you can make some more of those beautiful, one-of-a-kind arrangements.
17:04How did you tell your parents you were...
17:08Into flowers?
17:09Well, it was obvious from the beginning.
17:11My first word was perennial.
17:15How did you tell them you were...
17:18Gay?
17:19What makes you think I am gay?
17:21Just because I have a refined aesthetic, you think you can make assumptions about my personal life?
17:26I'm so sorry.
17:27You're not gay?
17:28Yes, I'm gay.
17:31But I certainly don't see how that's any of your business.
17:34Do I ask you about your intimate sexual life, even though it is on full display,
17:38in the workplace?
17:39No, I do not.
17:40I tolerate the repercussions, but I don't pry.
17:44I'm sorry.
17:45I'm asking because my son, I think...
17:47Oh, dear Lord.
17:49Save it for Geraldo.
17:52Someone in the family shows signs of homosexuality, and suddenly it's a national crisis coming out
17:58to my parents.
17:59Honestly, why don't you tell me the most horrible moment from your intimate past?
18:05It was horrible?
18:05It's none of your business.
18:10I'm sorry I offended you, Robbie.
18:19That is a shitty place for the lily.
18:28Kobe?
18:30Kobe?
18:31Kobe?
18:32Kobe?
18:33Kobe?
18:34Kobe?
18:34Kobe?
18:35Kobe?
18:37Kobe?
18:48Kobe?
18:49Kobe?
18:50Kobe?
18:52Kobe?
18:54Kobe?
18:55Kobe?
18:56Kobe?
18:56Kobe?
18:57Kobe?
18:57Kobe?
18:57Kobe?
18:57Kobe?
19:09I don't know.
19:42I don't know.
20:01I don't know.
20:06I don't know.
20:08I don't know.
20:09I don't know.
20:20I don't know.
20:20Oh, fuck.
20:22Jesus, Billy, you fucking psycho.
20:24I don't know.
20:36I don't know.
20:48Oh, come on, man.
20:51It's big.
20:52Why aren't you laughing?
20:53I don't think it's funny.
20:55Oh, no.
20:55It's just plain fun.
20:57You know, if you mix up the letters in funeral, you get real fun.
21:00How much do you love that?
21:07You stay away from my sister.
21:08She's just a kid.
21:09That's kind of ironic.
21:10Don't you think you're telling me that?
21:18What did they tell you?
21:24They tell you I made a bomb?
21:28They tell you who it was for?
21:30Look, I know you wrote things about your family.
21:33Liar!
21:35Don't fucking lie to me.
21:39He thought he was such a genius.
21:41Everybody thought.
21:41He was supposed...
21:42He even had Brenda fooled, which blows my mind.
21:44Well, okay, she was young.
21:48Are you talking about Dr. Feinberg?
21:49No, Trevor, you fucking moron.
21:51Trevor.
21:52Perfect fucking Trevor.
21:55He thought he was the king of Brenda, which is such adolescent shit.
21:59As if you could know somebody for, what, a few months and just replace their whole life?
22:02Their family?
22:05Brenda's not allowed to love anyone as much as she loves you?
22:08Abel.
22:11She's not Abel.
22:15You know what? You're right.
22:21Brenda never even told me about Trevor.
22:23She obviously doesn't trust me.
22:24You don't get to call her that.
22:25You call her Brenda.
22:27Unless she broke up with me today.
22:30Really?
22:31Yep.
22:33Took away my key.
22:51Well, that's probably for the best.
22:55And you and Brenda.
22:58It's never a good idea.
23:02Yeah, tell me about it.
23:05Listen, I gotta go. So, uh, you take care.
23:24Hey.
23:27Hey.
23:29You ready to go?
23:30Yeah.
23:32Just...
23:34Give me a second to recover.
23:36Still bad, huh?
23:38It's just fucking tiring trying to act normal all day.
23:43I know what you mean.
23:48So what's the stupidest thing anyone said to you today?
23:52Um...
23:53Oh.
23:55Packy Walker told me that
23:56he once had to get his stomach pumped
23:58because he ate his dog's deworming pills.
24:01He thought they were lewds.
24:06Well...
24:06Isn't it comforting to know that being miserable
24:08is still better than being an idiot?
24:33All right.
24:35You want to hear the most horrible moment from my intimate past?
24:38You want to hear the most horrible moment from my intimate past?
24:39Uh, no.
24:40Sister, I do not.
24:43I was married to my husband for 30 years.
24:46And I never slept with another man until I started having sex with my hairdresser.
24:57And the first time my hairdresser friend and I had intercourse,
25:03he asked me to pleasure myself so he would know, you know, how I did that.
25:11And...
25:13I couldn't.
25:16Because I had never pleasured myself in my life.
25:20I was 52 years old.
25:23And I had to learn how to...
25:27Masturbate.
25:28From a hairdresser.
25:32Oh, my.
25:34Oh, my.
25:36Oh, my.
25:39Well...
25:41Ruth...
25:42Thank you for sharing that.
25:45But...
25:46I'm still not going to tell you about coming out to my parents.
25:49Why not?
25:50Because I never did, Cupcake.
25:53My daddy would have never spoken another word to me,
25:55and my mother would have just gone...
25:57insane right there on the spot.
25:59How do you know?
26:00Well, a child knows what his parents need him to be.
26:04My mother is one of those women that never did anything but raise children.
26:09So, if you came out wrong, like in the opposite of what she was trying to make you into,
26:13then, you know, her whole life is a failure.
26:18I'm not like that.
26:26Did he ever actually threaten you?
26:29Uh, telling the new boyfriend you wanted the old boyfriend dead while you're playing with a fucking knife,
26:32yeah, that seems like a threat to me.
26:43How come you never told me about Trevor?
26:46It's a change in history.
26:48You said you'd never been serious about anyone.
26:51I was 18.
26:54Did you love him?
26:56Yes.
26:57So what happened?
27:01Billy got sick.
27:03Trevor went to you without me.
27:05Billy got rid of him because he was jealous.
27:07Everyone was jealous of Trevor.
27:09He was ridiculously gifted.
27:12One of those people everybody secretly hates because he's good at everything and...
27:16always gets what he wants.
27:19I didn't get you.
27:19No, please.
27:21You could do better.
27:23He did, actually.
27:24The woman he married won the National Book Award last year.
27:28You know, you're ridiculously gifted too.
27:32You could be one of those people who has everything.
27:45I don't know, Brent.
27:46If you don't want to deal with this, I think I might have to want to call your parents.
27:48Well, you might have to want to call my parents, but unfortunately they happen to be in South Africa at
27:52the moment.
27:53I have absolutely no idea how to contact them.
27:55Would you stop fucking around?
27:58I love you and I'm sure that whatever you feel about me, you don't want to see me dead.
28:09Are you okay?
28:12No.
28:14You want me to take you to a doctor?
28:19What, now you think I'm crazy too?
28:22No, no.
28:25God damn it, why are you shutting me out?
28:30I just want to be alone, okay?
28:32I just want to go to sleep.
28:40Oh, good night.
29:22Mom, I just want to believe tonight.
29:27Why didn't you tell me about your relationship with Gabriel Demas?
29:31Uh, I guess I just wasn't in the mood for a lecture on inappropriate friends.
29:35What makes you think I would do that?
29:37Well, some people don't think he's the greatest influence.
29:41And what do you think?
29:43Uh, I think that I'm as much of an influence on him as he is on me, so it's not
29:48like it only goes one way.
29:51Right. Relating to another person is a way that we relate to a part of ourselves.
29:59It's like, he's like an extreme version of me, you know?
30:03I can see that.
30:06But what he's going through, it's so much more.
30:10But I understand, you know?
30:14Feeling like you've got this shadow over you all the time.
30:20What's your shadow?
30:23Um, death, I guess.
30:29Death and silence.
30:35Is that crazy?
30:37What's the silence?
30:41I don't know.
30:43It's like sadness or fear, maybe.
30:50It's like, you know, everybody's so scared that they're going to say the wrong thing.
30:55Because, like, you know, when you bury someone, it's like the most sensitive time in a person's life.
31:02So it's like my family, they're just so careful.
31:05It's like they almost become invisible.
31:11That was heavy.
31:21What's going on?
31:24Nothing.
31:25I'm just being a freak.
31:29You don't have to be afraid that you'll say the wrong thing.
31:32That's just it.
31:33I'm not.
31:36I mean, I do say the wrong thing.
31:39But it's like, this is going to sound stupid, but like, I talk so much shit all the time, you
31:44know?
31:44And that's just another way to not say whatever.
31:53To not say what?
32:03I'm not here for the school or for your mom.
32:06I'm just here for you.
32:10This is confidential, right?
32:21Gabe didn't OD by accident.
32:26He did it on purpose, I think.
32:29Most ODs aren't really just accidents.
32:32Right, so what can I do as a friend of a person who would do something like that?
32:36Like, I know all the I can't save him stuff, and I went to the websites, and it's all like,
32:42what you can't do, so what can I do?
32:47Try not to make yourself invisible.
32:50This isn't about me.
32:52That's not a very good start, is it?
33:03At least my tie can be straight, right?
33:08You should have left me the way I was.
33:10Let the world see me for who I really am.
33:13An abomination of nature.
33:15Shut up.
33:18Who you are is nothing to be ashamed of.
33:20That's a little hard to buy, coming from somebody who cruises for dick on the internet and has unsafe sex
33:25with prostitutes.
33:27You know, they made a shrine at the place where you died, with pictures of you and flowers.
33:33People go there and hold candles in your honor.
33:35What people?
33:37Your friends.
33:38Your community.
33:39Bleeding-heart faggots with nothing better to do.
33:41Guys who fucked me when they were drunk and they never called me back.
33:44There are people who love you.
33:46But not as many as hate me.
33:49And you.
33:58Nice job.
34:01Man, that is the best work you've ever done, David.
34:05Thanks.
34:06Nice.
34:06Nice.
34:07Very nice.
34:13Hey, there's like 200 homos outside.
34:17Oh, shit.
34:18Already?
34:19It's only a quarter of.
34:21You'd think the family wouldn't want all of that coming in here, you know?
34:25All of what?
34:26There's this one guy.
34:27He's dressed like Jackie Kennedy.
34:30You think this guy's mother really needs to see that today?
34:35Why'd you get those abrasions on his cheek so smooth-looking?
34:38I used diaper rash cream.
34:40You left some.
34:41Wow.
34:45You know, Rico, I'm a homo.
34:50I may not dress like Jackie Kennedy, but I have sex with men.
35:02Don't.
35:03Don't talk to me about that.
35:06All right?
35:07Why should I have to hide it from you?
35:09You'd change your baby's diaper in my house.
35:11You'd show me a videotape of your wife giving birth?
35:13Where I come from, if men need to do that sometimes, they don't talk about it.
35:22They don't leave their wife and kids.
35:24They're still men.
35:25I am a man!
35:33So I took the height of tree A and divided it by the length of shadow B.
35:37So, you see where I got to tangency?
35:42Since when were you such a trick bitch?
35:45Don't get me wrong.
35:46I know it's totally pointless.
35:48Just somehow teaching you makes it seem more interesting.
35:52It must be the power.
35:56Well, you are a very stimulating teacher.
36:04I love your grasp of the material.
36:11Well, maybe we should grasp the next one.
36:14Which one?
36:15Number five.
36:20Okay.
36:32What is it?
36:33Oh, nothing.
36:36Allergies.
36:38Hey, come on.
36:44I'm scared.
36:50It's okay.
36:53I'm scared, too.
36:57I'm scared you're going to disappear.
37:02I'm not going to disappear.
37:09What are you scared of?
37:15I'm scared I'm not going to finish my math homework.
37:19Hey, I told you.
37:25I'm scared that you are too good for me.
37:32Oh, you're crazy.
37:43I finally find a woman I want to commit to, and she makes it totally impossible.
37:47You think that's a coincidence?
37:50How's that supposed to mean?
37:52Maybe if she made it easier, you wouldn't be so eager.
37:58I need more garlic.
38:01You've always been bored with the girls you could have.
38:04Fascinated with the ones you couldn't.
38:08Yeah, well, whose fault is that?
38:20Your brother's gay, isn't he?
38:25I think that's a question for him.
38:28Has he told you?
38:31No, he's not told me.
38:32But it's obvious.
38:33Everyone knows.
38:35Am I supposed to say something to him?
38:36I tried.
38:37I tried to discuss it.
38:37He wouldn't let me.
38:38I guess he doesn't want to talk about it, Mom.
38:40But it's not good for a person to skulk around like that.
38:42He's very tense.
38:43It's not good for him.
38:44Breathe, Mom.
38:45I know how to breathe.
38:47And I don't appreciate you blaming me for all your problems.
38:49Thank you very much.
38:53Carrots are burning.
38:56Have you seen a little girl called Bunny?
39:00About your age?
39:02A new girl.
39:04With a dress just like yours.
39:05No, there's no point in questioning the children.
39:07What do you mean, don't call it?
39:09It's my child, my little...
39:13I don't need your advice.
39:15I want my child.
39:17Who's in charge of this madhouse?
39:23What are you doing here?
39:27I know what to do.
39:30I know how to fix it.
39:31Yeah?
39:32Fix what?
39:33Oh, it was a big mistake.
39:37I'm going to fix it, okay?
39:40Oh, my God.
39:41Billy, what have you...
39:43Did you hurt him?
39:44No, no, no.
39:45I fixed it.
39:47Oh, God.
39:49I can't be him anymore.
39:50He's somebody else now.
39:51I did it for you.
39:52And now we can bury him.
39:53Oh, and the best part is now the nurse won't ever be able to find him.
39:57We've lost a lot of blood.
39:59Let me get a towel.
40:00We just have to get yours now.
40:04Well, this way you'll be safe from her, too, for like the first time ever.
40:07And then we can bury them and you and I can be new people.
40:09And we can forget about everything bad that they wrote.
40:13I don't want us to be new people.
40:16I like us the way we are.
40:18Well, I already did it, Brenda, so you have to do it, too.
40:23Okay.
40:25All right.
40:26Give me the knife.
40:29I'm going to do it.
40:30No, you did yours.
40:31I should do mine.
40:31Nathaniel saved Isabel once on the sailboat in the store.
40:34It's a book. It's fiction.
40:35And he gave her mouth-to-mouth and saved her for the first time because she had always saved him.
40:38Nathaniel and Isabel are not real.
40:49I need to do it.
40:56Billy, get off me!
41:03I'm warning you.
41:04This is going to hurt.
41:12Yes, hello.
41:13Oh, I need an ambulance.
41:18Oh, I need an ambulance.
42:13It's in the Bible.
42:13These people alone are so helpful.
42:15It's my right to be here.
42:15Yeah, this is America.
42:16It's my right to tell the truth.
42:18God killed Mark Foster, and I'm here to celebrate.
42:21David!
42:21God, you shoved your stomach into your lungs, and I'm here to celebrate.
42:24What?
42:25Hey!
42:26Look, God just got you in the face!
42:28What was wrong with you?
42:29He started it.
42:31You all right, sir?
42:32That man ought to be arrested.
42:33Listen, we'll take care of you.
42:34Just watch yourself.
42:34I demand that that man be arrested.
42:36This is a funeral.
42:37Show some respect.
42:41What happened?
42:41Did something happen?
42:42No, nothing happened.
42:56I'm sorry.
42:57Oh, don't apologize to me.
42:59Damn, you messed that guy up.
43:04No, I'm sorry for how I've been.
43:07I'm just...
43:10I'm sorry.
43:13You know, I have to work not to be worrying about you all the time.
43:17You could get yourself killed if...
43:20If what?
43:21If that's what you want.
43:25That's not what I want.
43:26Are you sure?
43:28Yes.
43:31I'm sorry for how I was with you when we were together.
43:37I don't know why it's so hard for me.
43:39It's hard for all of us.
43:44But you know that you're right, that you're a good man.
43:46For me, it's like...
43:47I agree with them, you know?
43:49Like, it is my fault.
43:50I should be able to fix it.
43:52There's nothing to fix.
43:53But it's not who I want to be.
43:57I want to be like the guy at my church with the kid on his knee.
43:59You can have a kid on your knee, David.
44:01That guy probably hasn't slept with his wife in five years.
44:09I feel like my father would hate me if he knew.
44:13You told me he did know.
44:14And he never said anything.
44:16Did you?
44:26My girl's name's Claire.
44:27She likes it clean.
44:29She's got orange hair and smells like tangerines.
44:32She's got orange hair and smells like benzadrine.
44:34Did you shut up?
44:35Mother's going to fry her balls for breakfast if she catches you in here.
44:39Nice.
44:40So is that pretty much what you eat in the funeral home?
44:43Yeah.
44:44Why?
44:46Why?
45:58I had Billy Kim in it.
46:26I have a terrible headache.
46:32Well, maybe we can talk later.
46:33What?
46:35What?
46:38I'm gay.
46:41Why didn't you ever tell me?
46:43I am telling you.
46:45Before, before.
46:46Don't you trust me?
46:47What do you mean, I'm telling you?
46:49But I've tried to discuss it with you several times.
46:52Look, I just wasn't comfortable, okay?
46:54What does it matter now?
46:55Why not?
46:56When I was clearly trying to be open.
46:59You know, Mom, you may be trying to be open now.
47:06And that's great.
47:07But that's not how you've been for all my life.
47:11You and Dad, no one talked about anything.
47:14None of us are like that.
47:15Except Nate.
47:15And that's just because he has no other way to distinguish himself.
47:20I've always loved you.
47:22I know you love the part of me that's your son.
47:25What part of you isn't my son?
47:28You're all my son.
47:29I don't think you know me very well.
47:31Well, whose fault is that?
47:35I'm sorry.
47:44And you know, when you've tried to bring it up before, or now even,
47:48it's like you've decided you should know who I am.
47:51Like you're willing to see me the way you make yourself look at something horrible.
47:54Like a corpse.
47:55Because it's your job, your duty.
47:57It revults you, but you make yourself bear it.
48:00You're wrong.
48:00You don't revolt me.
48:02I don't choose which part of you I love, like some kind of chicken.
48:10It was just so much easier when you were little, and you would tell me everything.
48:18And when you were upset, I could always fix it.
48:23I don't know how to take care of you anymore.
48:27Just let me, just let me take care of myself.
48:32But do you?
48:33I'm afraid that you don't.
48:35I do.
48:36I will.
48:44Well, that's all that I wanted to say.
48:51All right.
48:53We're having a feel.
49:06Well, mommy still loves you.
49:10Does that make everything better?
49:14Yeah, I didn't think it would.
49:16What are you still doing here?
49:18I could have come out to every mother in the world, and I'd still be dead.
49:33Oh, what?
49:34You're going to interrupt him and his matching love stud?
49:36Both of them will be in hell with us, by the way.
49:39But something tells me they're going to have a lot more fun.
49:42Stop.
49:43Stop.
49:44Make me.
49:52Please, God, help me.
49:54Take this pain away.
49:55Please fill this loneliness with your love.
50:00Help me, God.
50:01Please help me.
50:01Take this pain away.
50:04Take this pain away.
50:05Take this pain away.
50:08Take this pain away.
50:09Take this pain away.
50:09Take this pain away.