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00:00:13I
00:00:14Excited very excited. I've been waiting for this forever
00:00:21I
00:00:26Haven't really felt like this about anyone. I am 38 years, you know
00:00:34I am
00:00:3722 trying to roll with that whole age is just a number thing
00:00:42I really don't know if you're ready for this one. You ready? I'm 60
00:00:50Oh
00:00:50My gosh
00:00:5230 40 56. Yeah, he's 33 years older than me
00:00:57Jorge's literally the same age as my parents
00:01:03I never want to be surprised about something you've done. I came here with you not to feel alone
00:01:10I feel like you're not attracted to me
00:01:14We're kind of in a friend zone right now
00:01:16Okay
00:01:18Is he the right person? Did I pick the right person?
00:01:22Okay, I'm really done talking. Okay
00:01:25Can I get this mic off please?
00:01:27This connection is not gonna be easy to find
00:01:31And I know I won't find this again
00:01:38Starting tomorrow you are getting visitors your friends your families
00:01:43Sarah
00:01:44Hi, I'm Sarah
00:01:46I've never dated anyone this much older
00:01:49I hope it works out well for them, but it's weird. It's weird
00:01:52Being 23 and potentially having two immediate children
00:01:58Yeah, I'm leaving everybody and everything I've worked for
00:02:03What the fuck am I doing?
00:02:05I'm just exhausted and I'm overwhelmed because I feel like I can't be myself with you
00:02:13Integrating a 22 year old girl into my life is definitely concerning
00:02:19Is there a future with us?
00:02:21I play my desire
00:02:22I play my desire
00:02:23It's decision time
00:02:24Do you commit to taking this leap together?
00:02:27I play my desire
00:02:29Or do you choose a different path
00:02:31Alone
00:02:32It sucks
00:02:52Did you get everything out of the bathroom?
00:02:55But I'll check the other rooms
00:02:57You work on your
00:02:59I think you need to get a garment bag
00:03:01Yeah
00:03:02I feel
00:03:04Nervous anxious this is the last time i'm going to see her before the commitment ceremony
00:03:09Everything I can do I did
00:03:11I'm super nervous about
00:03:14My alone time and you know what is that alone time going to lead me to
00:03:18think
00:03:20Part of me wants to commit to vanessa and then part of me is like is this right is this
00:03:27up and down too much
00:03:28for us to handle you know and my fear of commitment continues to be my fear of commitment right and
00:03:36so that's
00:03:39Scary thought
00:03:41How you doing i got all your stuff ready for you thank you
00:03:45How you feeling okay how are you good
00:03:50I'm sad i don't want you to leave
00:03:52I don't even know what to say i know the last few days with you has been like
00:03:57Better than i could ever dream of i mean
00:04:01You're one of the most amazing girls i've ever met in my entire life
00:04:04Thank you
00:04:05It's hard to put it into words right but
00:04:08I think it was one of the most amazing beautiful things i've ever experienced and
00:04:13You know it's weird kind of closing this chapter and
00:04:17I feel like we're breaking off this is like a breakup
00:04:23I don't know what to say
00:04:25What if i cry
00:04:29Don't
00:04:30Don't cry
00:04:30No
00:04:31Okay
00:04:32You'll be okay
00:04:34You look amazing
00:04:35Thanks
00:04:38No
00:04:42Okay
00:04:43Okay
00:04:44Okay
00:04:45You okay
00:04:45Mm-hmm
00:04:46You okay
00:04:47Yeah
00:04:48Promise
00:04:48Mm-hmm
00:04:51I'm here for you
00:04:53Yeah
00:04:55Okay
00:04:57I just have ptsd i think
00:05:00What
00:05:00I don't know just with like the history of my relationships not working out you know and i feel like
00:05:07This is just another
00:05:09Failed attempt you know
00:05:12Like it's not you i don't want to project it on you
00:05:14It's not you at all it's just
00:05:17I've just put myself out there before and
00:05:20Only to get hurt and i just hope like this doesn't have the same outcome
00:05:25That's scary
00:05:27Something inside me is way too scared to
00:05:31Care about you like this
00:05:34Coming into this with logan i had so many reservations because i had been so hurt before
00:05:40So there is this guard up like i'll be okay i'll be okay you know and maybe i won't be
00:05:45okay
00:05:46I just hope i chose right this time and i
00:05:49Picked the right person and i feel like you are and
00:05:53I hope that you feel the same about me
00:05:56Yeah i mean i do
00:05:59It's really scary to
00:06:01Not put yourself out there for this many years get this close to someone
00:06:06Only for
00:06:08Yourself to be devastated all over again and for the whole world to see
00:06:14Let's see ya okay okay take care of yourself to see an older woman
00:06:18With a man 20 years younger like that's rare it's very rare and it's like am i delusional to think
00:06:25that it would even work
00:06:26You know am i delusional to put my heart out there
00:06:31I mean he's like in the prime of his life right now honestly
00:06:35I've been here before darling i don't think you'll stay
00:06:40And why would he give that up for someone 20 years older than him
00:06:59You're leaving i know i'm just trying to make sure i don't forget anything but you're forgetting me
00:07:06I think that we need this little bit of separation because we haven't had it
00:07:10And this is the first time that i think i'm going to be able to look at this from the
00:07:14outside make a clear decision
00:07:17Clearly me and leah have had ups and downs since we moved in together
00:07:20But at the same time there's been much blessings from this relationship
00:07:24Even during the difficult times the care and the love for each other has always been constant and
00:07:29I think that it's very clear that i care so much for her
00:07:35So the question is is that does the good outweigh the bad and and are these good moments enough to
00:07:41continue in this relationship
00:07:42Give me a hug
00:07:48Thank you for being you thank you for making me a better person you're welcome
00:07:54You're seriously
00:07:58Why are you looking at me like that because you're leaving
00:08:03We didn't even get to dance yet
00:08:10Yeah
00:08:12We have a lot of thinking we both have a lot of thinking to do
00:08:14I know
00:08:15I
00:08:17Oh
00:08:18Mm
00:08:22I'm gonna miss
00:08:24I'm gonna miss you a little bit
00:08:25I might miss you too
00:08:26I think more than you think
00:08:28You think?
00:08:29Mm-hmm
00:08:30You're not going to sleep now because you're thinking about me
00:08:32Maybe maybe i don't know about that
00:08:34What?
00:08:35I might be able to sleep
00:08:36No, you won't
00:08:38Give me my kiss
00:08:42It's like bittersweet this morning
00:08:43All right i'll see you
00:08:45I'll see you
00:08:45With the commitment ceremony coming up it's going to be difficult
00:08:48We're still debating on how we're even going to make it work here right let alone commit to each other
00:08:54I know he likes me and we're leaving off in a great space right now but yeah
00:09:00I don't want to put any pressure on it because i don't know i don't know what the future holds
00:09:05for us
00:09:05Because the words won't buffer anymore
00:09:10How are you feeling about what what do you think
00:09:14Mm-hmm i feel like i've been the one that brings up
00:09:18You know some of the more challenging things and we don't know how
00:09:23Yeah
00:09:23We're going to communicate after this like we've only
00:09:27Ever been in this bubble so like we don't know what it's like to text or call or
00:09:32I've never done long distance before so those things naturally i feel like are are things that i'm thinking about
00:09:39Yeah i'm glad you brought it
00:09:42Um up because i just wasn't even thinking about it that way at all
00:09:47I think i'm just someone that is very realistic and
00:09:51You know yeah no i understand that this has to end at some point and
00:09:56Just
00:09:57You know like i mean i wish we could stay in this little
00:10:01bubble forever but
00:10:03You know we have to say goodbye
00:10:05The fact that the next time i am going to see andrew is a commitment ceremony gives me a little
00:10:12bit of anxiety honestly
00:10:13um
00:10:14i know he's in his head and i don't blame him too much because those doubts were in the back
00:10:19of my mind
00:10:20i just wasn't really vocalizing them there is a part of me that's afraid that
00:10:25the age gap between andrew and i will just be too much and
00:10:30And yeah i have a fear that ultimately that will just be too overwhelming for both of us
00:10:43Okay
00:10:46Bye-bye see ya see ya
00:11:18Bye-bye
00:11:27Bye-bye
00:11:27More back
00:11:29Aww
00:11:43Is there a vehicle?
00:11:44Mm-hmm
00:11:46Well i will think of you every time i look at them
00:11:50i was thinking about that this time away
00:11:55i love supporting you and i love being here for you when
00:12:03you're going through some so i'll be thinking about you
00:12:09Um i'm gonna have some time just to like think and get myself like
00:12:15more centered um
00:12:17and i'm gonna miss you for sure we've gotten so close and
00:12:22such a short period of time and living together was amazing um i'm gonna miss that for sure
00:12:30but i think this time apart is gonna be good for us even though i hate saying goodbye
00:12:36um
00:12:38so i'm glad i have these
00:12:42i'm there with you okay
00:12:49well thanks for being everything for me and
00:12:55don't miss me too much impossible
00:13:00i am in love with teresa
00:13:02the way she's allowed me to open up and be vulnerable and
00:13:06not put on a facade which i've done in the past and just the joy she brings me like when
00:13:11i wake up
00:13:12and i see her and like that sense of home it feels good
00:13:18am i hoping that we come out on the same page and even a little stronger yeah and i think
00:13:24that's a
00:13:25possibility
00:13:29but there's a chance that it's gonna be weird you know
00:13:36she just gets way too in her head and she might be a different person when i see her again
00:13:45bye okay goodbye
00:13:57I have a huge, huge decision to make.
00:14:03There's no denying that we had a true and real connection
00:14:07from the beginning.
00:14:11Time is gonna let you down.
00:14:15However, I still have some doubts.
00:14:26It's a huge commitment to say that this person, who's 27 years younger than me, is my boyfriend.
00:14:38And that I'm going to commit to going forward with this and opening this up to the world.
00:14:48I don't know if I have the strength to see this through.
00:15:02It's cheers to this journey that we've had.
00:15:05Cheers to a big decision.
00:15:06It's a very big decision coming.
00:15:15How do you feel?
00:15:19All right.
00:15:20You know, I know how I feel about you.
00:15:22I know that that doesn't always make everything A-okay and easy.
00:15:27I do understand the logistics of where we are in life.
00:15:32Geographical challenges, other challenges as well.
00:15:35So, you know, it's time to take all that into consideration.
00:15:40Yeah.
00:15:41You know, this whole time we've kind of been like, oh, we're in a fairy tale and everything
00:15:45is perfectly smooth and we're having no challenges, which was true.
00:15:49It was true up until these last few days.
00:15:52So, the fact that we're taking this time apart now has me a little bit unsure about my decision.
00:16:06And a lot of questions have come up that I just have been ignoring.
00:16:10And I think I've been putting them off because I didn't want to ruin anything or have anything be different
00:16:15than what it was.
00:16:16So, like, while it is confusing and it's scary, I know that this time apart will end up benefiting both
00:16:27of us.
00:16:29Because my decision will be grounded and, like, it will be thoughtful.
00:16:36Yeah.
00:16:37And I respect that.
00:16:41I definitely think her concerns are valid.
00:16:44But one thing that I've done the last few days is try to truly focus on her feelings and her
00:16:51emotions.
00:16:52And I've taken myself out of it a little bit.
00:16:56And, obviously, we're going to have some time apart to where, you know, I'm going to have to think that
00:17:02through on my side as well.
00:17:03And what does that look like?
00:17:05Because it's a big commitment.
00:17:08And can she handle it?
00:17:09See?
00:17:11We're probably just at different stages in life.
00:17:13I have my boys.
00:17:15How will that match?
00:17:16There's so many question marks.
00:17:19I'd be lying to you if I didn't say I was a little bit nervous.
00:17:23If it's not too late.
00:17:29If it's not too late.
00:17:33If it's not too late.
00:17:34If it's not too late.
00:17:39If it's not too late.
00:17:39If it's not too late.
00:17:40If it's not too late.
00:17:42If it's not too late.
00:17:51If it's not too late.
00:17:57so today is the commitment ceremony i feel confident but i don't know how she's been
00:18:05feeling i don't know if she let the thoughts get to her or the stress of her kids get to
00:18:10her
00:18:14you know i support her and i'm here for her and my family supports you know our
00:18:20relationship but i'm worried that teresa hasn't bought in because of a lot of factors that i can't
00:18:27control i'm fully committed to teresa
00:18:44and i hope she's ready to take that leap with me
00:19:01my feelings are getting much stronger every day for john i have to admit that you know i am
00:19:07falling for him it's almost been too good to be true but there's also a piece of me that still
00:19:14has doubts
00:19:22this age gap difference is huge and yeah i'm scared
00:19:31i have the option of walking away today and
00:19:36you know i'd be walking away from a lot i know that i will regret not having him in my
00:19:44life
00:19:45but i don't know if it's going to be too much should we just
00:19:53take the easy route and go our separate ways and go back to our lives the way they were
00:20:00i don't know if i don't know if i'm ready for this
00:20:33okay we've gone through a lot of hard stuff early on that i'm thankful for we had to be there
00:20:40for
00:20:40each other and that says something i've never been able to be there for someone i was never in the
00:20:47way to receive this and to support someone like i've supported you i feel lucky that i get to show
00:20:55up for you
00:20:56i'm confident in this i'm confident in what we've built i know what we have and it's the feeling
00:21:04it's the immediate sense of calmness you bring me whenever i see you us being able to laugh in most
00:21:15serious moments most intimate moments i'm looking forward to
00:21:24that next step and we'll get there with the age thing i need you to believe that age is just
00:21:33a
00:21:33number but also believe in me that every day i'm going to show up and work on this together
00:21:44when i decided to take this journey to find someone to share my life with
00:21:52i said to myself that i was ready when i met you you drew me in with your smile
00:22:01your energy and your steadiness
00:22:06you made me laugh
00:22:09and you made me feel better than i ever had in the past
00:22:16but for whatever reason there was still something holding me back
00:22:23you made me laugh
00:22:24when you met my kids and i didn't tell them your age
00:22:27it wasn't because i was ashamed it was because i was scared
00:22:33scared because if i spoke it it would be real
00:22:38scared because
00:22:39it was because of the things we might face from the world
00:22:45knowing that the world is not fair and that there is a double standard against women who date younger men
00:22:54so it got me thinking maybe it would be better if i walked away before it got to be too
00:23:02difficult
00:23:04and
00:23:08too real
00:23:10you're kidding
00:23:15it's a lot
00:23:20really scary thing for me
00:23:23if i let myself
00:23:29be totally vulnerable
00:23:32with you
00:23:34and the world
00:23:36it's the hugest risk i will ever have taken
00:23:45i just didn't see this coming
00:23:55just a tall 180 from what we were feeling
00:24:01i mean we've shared some amazing times together
00:24:06and you've been really patient and very understanding
00:24:14but i just worry that it's too much
00:24:20you're not up for the fight
00:24:23i mean i'm a fighter
00:24:26i'm also just trying to protect myself
00:24:30and to protect you
00:24:34a lot to say
00:24:36there's a letter that my kids wrote to you that i want to read
00:24:49all right dear john it was really nice meeting you and watching you and our mom together
00:25:00she just seemed so happy and we haven't seen her like that in a while
00:25:14we don't know exactly what the age difference is but it doesn't matter to us
00:25:20after seeing youtube together we just want her to be happy
00:25:26and you clearly do that so we support your relationship and are excited for whatever comes next
00:25:34love lauren richard and michael
00:25:45i just need to know if you believe that if you're up for that challenge
00:25:52and you believe and trust your kids that they support you
00:26:00i need you to wake up every morning and see and believe and trust trust that your kids support
00:26:09this and that whatever comes after that we can
00:26:13you know i'd go to battle but it's up to you i've said the whole time if the ball's in
00:26:20your court on if
00:26:23you believe that i mean it makes me feel a lot more confident and happy to know that
00:26:33they wrote that to you um i had no idea what it said and so i don't want to walk
00:26:40away
00:26:43in fact i want to walk towards something with you and i don't know exactly what that will be or
00:26:51what that
00:26:51will look like but i think together you know we can navigate it and i think if you are able
00:27:00to support
00:27:01me and my crazy anxiety you know we can make this into something really special i think so too
00:27:16and i will be able at some point to maybe scream it from the mountaintop
00:27:24mm-hmm but right now i'm just going to promise you and commit to you to continue to build our
00:27:38relationship into something real and something really great
00:27:48i accept hilarious i'm excited for whatever's next and i'm thankful for this experience and
00:28:03i want to continue falling in love with you so do i i love you i love you too
00:28:13i love you too much to let you go i'm good because you don't have to good answer
00:28:34all your dreams and all your fears you think those worlds collide
00:28:47i'm feeling a little nervous i have confidence in derek and i have confidence in our relationship
00:28:54but i still have a lot of fears about my own future
00:28:58bring it on the bell i just want to help i just want to know i mean i'm 23 i
00:29:07never imagined that
00:29:08i would be moving across the country moving for a man who has children and i think the fear is
00:29:15just
00:29:15coming from a place of not having experience in being in that sort of relationship or being with
00:29:22somebody who has kids
00:29:26this is a big decision
00:29:30essentially i either walk away without derek and i go back to my life in seattle or i leave
00:29:36with derek and i get something extremely different than anything i could have ever imagined
00:29:43when you let the love inside i'm conflicted it's like do i risk it all and change everything i know
00:29:51for a man and for a relationship or do i make the hard decision to end it but you can't
00:29:57find a way to let me in
00:30:02not in a million years did i ever think that i would come into this experience and find such a
00:30:09real
00:30:09genuine authentic connection and you say oh i don't wanna know it feels like i'm getting married honestly
00:30:20there's a lot weighing on it you know there's a whole life change that she has to consider
00:30:25the last conversation we had she definitely has some question marks and the nerves are there she's
00:30:31scared and giving up her life possibly changing her career i know that's a lot
00:30:37i'm wanting to be sympathetic and empathetic to that but i want her in dallas with me but i'm not
00:30:43sure that our relationship at this time is strong enough for her to make that change
00:30:49i just wanna know why you can't find a way to let me in
00:30:58you look amazing thank you
00:31:02from the first date i didn't know exactly what it was but i knew i was extremely comfortable with it
00:31:07i felt at ease at peace from just a quick conversation like honestly that moment i knew like deep down
00:31:16that
00:31:17i didn't want to even explore any other options at the retreat and you know we continued on moved in
00:31:29and you know yeah there were some nerves it's not easy to think i'm gonna move in with someone that
00:31:35i
00:31:35just met but through that process i thought that it would be great but i was wrong like it was
00:31:40much
00:31:41better than i could have even imagined so for me you know the journey all the last and all the
00:31:49good times
00:31:50the challenges and tough conversations were just as important i feel that we've grown every point
00:31:57alone is right
00:32:00from the first day i knew that you were special
00:32:04so despite our 20-year age gap i'm certain that my greatest blessing was meeting you
00:32:13i've always thought about and dreamed about the man i would end up with but you are far better
00:32:23than anybody i could have imagined
00:32:28and now i can't imagine a future without you in it
00:32:38i've been confident in your character since our first date but after moving in
00:32:46i'm certain that you were one of the best men that i've ever met
00:32:59it's been an honor to share this journey with you and the closer we get
00:33:07the more i know and the more i see just how great of a man that you are
00:33:20you are a phenomenal person sometimes it seems too good to be true but it really is just who you
00:33:29are
00:33:30and i feel like i'm the luckiest girl in the whole world to have found you here
00:33:38many people spend their whole lives looking for what we found here
00:33:45if i were to leave here without you i may regret it for the rest of my life
00:33:52but if we were to stay together
00:33:56my life would look wildly different than i ever anticipated
00:34:04i would be sacrificing my entire life in seattle
00:34:09my friends my support and everything i've built over the last four years
00:34:22but today i'm putting the unknowns aside and i'm trusting my heart so i am 100 percent committed
00:34:34to moving to dallas and starting our journey together outside of all of this
00:34:49that was a lot
00:34:52but i promise i'm always going to put in the work
00:34:57i'm always going to try
00:34:59i'll always protect you and i'll always protect your heart pfeiffer i truly love you
00:35:06so this is my gift to you
00:35:12it's a key to our place that's been my place thank you that means the world to me absolutely
00:35:21i don't want you to be alone and i don't want you in dallas in a separate place literally my
00:35:25place
00:35:25is our place i feel like the luckiest person in the whole world and i have this whole time
00:35:32we're next to all of us babe
00:35:35i want to shine
00:35:58i think i just got one more breath broken heart is beating out of my chest
00:36:09i came here to be able to open my heart up to find someone that i want to spend my
00:36:15life with you
00:36:15know when i think about my future i just want to be happily married to a wonderful guy and despite
00:36:22all
00:36:22of her ups and downs i think it could be chris i'm like a hopeless romantic you know so i
00:36:35would like
00:36:35for this to work out with chris we have something here we are finally in a great space but this
00:36:42step
00:36:42is big i'm 41 he's 26 you know so is he really ready i'm not sure i can't give up
00:36:51hope regardless
00:36:53don't have any blood
00:36:56i feel very uneasy clearly me and leah have love for each other because we have been on an emotional
00:37:01roller coaster we didn't have love for each other as soon as it got really dark we wouldn't be here
00:37:05anymore the question was and still is are we in love leah is somebody that i have built such a
00:37:15connection with and a care for that i want to look past what we've dealt with and try to move
00:37:22forward
00:37:23at the same time i'm trying to figure out am i ready for this or am i not because it's
00:37:30a decision
00:37:30that will affect me forever logic emotions my head my gut which one do i listen to and there's so
00:37:38many
00:37:39voices whether it's outside or in our own heads that are telling us to do a certain thing and i'm
00:37:44trying to just ignore everything that society says should happen and listen to
00:37:50what i know is true which is the the voice in my heart telling me what is right
00:38:00you look good you look beautiful i mean
00:38:09prior to this retreat i was praying that god would send me my person and i was really hoping well
00:38:17maybe
00:38:17they'll be at this retreat and then i met you and then from our first conversation i knew we had
00:38:25something special and our first gift was fire you lit something inside of me that i thought was gone
00:38:35i know we've had our fair share of ups and downs but for me the good times outweigh the bad
00:38:49you challenged me to do and be better and i thank you for that thank you for hearing seeing and
00:39:01always
00:39:01telling me to just be me thank you
00:39:07from day one we've talked about being honest and being open and i think that
00:39:14the most important thing i want to highlight is just how honest and open you've allowed me to feel
00:39:20you've challenged me you've helped me grow and i hope i've done the same i
00:39:26i can't thank you enough for the experiences that we have lived
00:39:37we've had ups and downs and there's no doubting that there's been difficult times and there's been
00:39:43beautiful times and i want to remember both
00:39:50i think that we do need to continue to be honest with each other and you know we've talked about
00:39:58our age difference many times and maybe the age gap was harder than we thought but here we are and
00:40:10i
00:40:10think we've both made a decision that will impact our lives and our families and i just hope and pray
00:40:16that's the right one i think i just wanted you to be able to see what i see and i
00:40:24wanted to show you
00:40:25the world i want to see more with you and i want to get you out of your comfort zone
00:40:31you know and i do
00:40:33want to challenge you in all the ways that i can and i love it when you challenge me too
00:40:37i can see myself
00:40:40growing with you building with you um i know it's not easy i understand that we weren't at our best
00:40:50and it's like i want to see you be at your best and me at my best and see how
00:40:54we can be our best
00:40:54together i would like to commit to you excuse me so wow
00:41:20so we've talked about our differences and we laid out what we want out of a partner from day one
00:41:27i think we both want to have a family i think we both want to settle down i think maybe
00:41:31we wanted
00:41:31at different paces i do think that the age difference did cause an unnecessary pressure on
00:41:36both of us and put us in a situation where for the first time in my life i felt like
00:41:44it was hard
00:41:45for me to be myself
00:41:57and that's why ultimately i feel that this partnership is not right
00:42:16and ultimately i can't move forward with something that i don't feel is 100 right
00:42:22and i don't feel like that's fair to you i don't feel like that's fair to your family or mine
00:42:27so i i am deciding to end this relationship here
00:42:39honestly i will cherish every single freaking moment and experience
00:42:44and i hope that this isn't the end of a friendship that i truly value
00:42:51so seriously thank you you're welcome
00:42:54and you are a beautiful person inside and out
00:42:58have a hug
00:43:10it's nice meeting you
00:43:23it's nice meeting you
00:43:28it's nice meeting you're welcome to be with you and they'll fight
00:43:31that's why i was willing to give us a shot and see if we really could get it together but
00:43:36he wasn't
00:43:38i've always want to be chosen but i wasn't going to beg someone to choose me
00:43:42i also can't turn a boy into a man either
00:43:44at least i gave my all
00:43:48i was hoping to find my love here at the retreat but i didn't
00:43:54overall i think i've just learned who i am and i'm a very strong intelligent beautiful woman and
00:44:01my future partner will be happy to be with me and i'm excited for him
00:44:06no words left to say cause i'll be okay i'm strong now
00:44:27i'm definitely a little bit unsure
00:44:33you know the last few days i've definitely been in my head i mean there's so much fear there
00:44:40that the age gap will be too much where we're at in our lives will be too much the timing
00:44:45the distance
00:44:52are we too far away from where the other person is in life and i would be lying if i
00:45:00said that that
00:45:01still doesn't cross my mind every single day with libby
00:45:06there's definitely two sides going back and forth that's like it's not going to work one's going
00:45:13off of previous experiences and all of the things that haven't worked and then the other side of it
00:45:19is like my heart can you see the shoes worn out of my feet i'm a bit nervous going into
00:45:30this
00:45:30me and andrew have been so solid this entire experience i don't think i expected to get to
00:45:36this point this morning and be questioning things
00:45:41but the past couple days he's brought up the thing about him worrying about taking from my life
00:45:48and the distance between us so i'm smiling a little bit too andrew's doubts are putting
00:45:57more ideas in my head i'm i'm like wait is he right is this gonna work
00:46:04his doubts have now become my doubts and i think all of this is really starting to freak me out
00:46:17i don't know how he's feeling and i don't know if he's decided that the age difference it's too much
00:46:25so i think it's very possible that andrew's going to break my heart on this mountain today
00:46:51i came here hoping to find something but i don't think i truly believe
00:46:59that i would find something real there's a part of me that wonders if this works
00:47:07when we're outside of the bubble that we've been living in
00:47:11you're 22 i'm 38 that's a big gap
00:47:18your life is just getting started you're figuring out who you are what you want where you're going
00:47:28and i'm settled in the life that i've already built
00:47:33the biggest fear for me is keeping you from your dreams even though you're a part of mine
00:47:47i understand what you mean and obviously i've been thinking about that too you know that sometimes
00:47:54it's hard for me to really express how i'm feeling with my words and sometimes
00:48:02it's better and easier for me to write it out so i wrote you something
00:48:15coming into this experience i hoped for the best but i truly never thought that i'd meet someone like
00:48:21you you have everything that i've ever wanted in a guy which is incredibly rare because that includes
00:48:27some outrageous things like someone who will sing taylor swift with me and manifest
00:48:33you challenged me to open up in ways i never have before and brought out a side of me that
00:48:39not
00:48:39many people get to see i love the way you talk and care about your daughters and the way you
00:48:45protect
00:48:45them in every aspect shows what a great dad you are hearing about your experiences as a father has
00:48:51been one of the many things that drew me to you with that being said i know that that comes
00:48:57with a lot
00:48:57of weight and it's something that i don't take lightly and i know that you're worried about our age gap
00:49:04and the fact that i'm 22 and you think that there's a possibility that you could be taking too much
00:49:11from
00:49:12my life and it has me thinking the last couple days about what it is that i really want
00:49:21and i really feel like it'll only be an addition to my life i've had a lot of time to
00:49:36think
00:49:37as well and the truth is
00:49:45no matter how much i doubt the age gap the distance the timing i don't doubt the way i feel
00:49:56when i'm with
00:49:57you when we first got here you asked me if i ever thought i could fall in love before the
00:50:11end of this
00:50:13and i remember saying
00:50:17i think someone could but i didn't think i would be that someone
00:50:25i was wrong
00:50:29because i have and i do love you
00:50:36you have opened up things in me i thought were shut down for good i've been waiting a long time
00:50:46for
00:50:47something like this
00:50:49a really long time and i feel like it's finally my turn
00:50:55like this might actually be my rom-com
00:51:01happy ending i know i'm so cheesy
00:51:04no i love it
00:51:08i've been thinking a lot about
00:51:12what happens after this
00:51:15and i don't know what your generation calls it these days
00:51:22hard launch
00:51:26soft launch
00:51:28probably something way cooler than what i'm about to say
00:51:34but i would really love to leave here with you as my girlfriend
00:51:40do you want to heart launch me i'm gonna need you to answer before i continue okay okay
00:51:50i want to commit to you and i want a relationship with you outside of here because
00:51:56i also love you too
00:51:59i want to commit to you and i want to commit to you and i want to commit to you
00:52:28so
00:52:29that box again and i would really love for you to come to baltimore for you to meet my daughters
00:52:39because i do see you in my future forever that means the world coming from you
00:52:48that's really sweet i think that i know how important your daughters are to you and i want you
00:52:57to know that i think that that's something that's equally important to me and i think that if you
00:53:06were willing to open that part of your life to me i would be happy to be a part of
00:53:13it
00:53:15i really do love you
00:53:20i really do love you too
00:53:41i'm in a really good place in my life i'm getting ready to turn 50 years old i've never felt
00:53:48more
00:53:48comfortable in my body financially spiritually everything and the one thing that is missing is love
00:53:59i thought i was never gonna find love again but logan makes my heart feel full and he gives me
00:54:06hope and he
00:54:08makes me feel alive
00:54:17logan and i have had a lot of ups and downs we're finally at a really good place except for
00:54:23the
00:54:23question mark is he ready for a commitment is logan gonna take a step forward and be ready for a
00:54:29commitment or is he ready to go back to his party boy lifestyle in dallas and i'll go back to
00:54:37ohio and
00:54:37start over from square one
00:54:46the thought of going home alone would just be devastating i don't want this to end
00:54:54there's been days when i lost myself i've obviously fallen in love with vanessa our love feels
00:55:03so in sync it feels like something that i really i to be honest i didn't think i would find
00:55:08if i could ride what feels my ball she loves me in a way that i haven't been loved before
00:55:21it's crazy that she's 20 years older than me but regardless of age i don't know if i'm gonna find
00:55:27anybody else like vanessa
00:55:32going into the commitment ceremony the unknown is am i going to be able to give her what she truly
00:55:37wants
00:55:38there's a chance that you know i get up there and see this woman that i've fallen in love with
00:55:43and
00:55:44it's picture perfect and there's a chance that i might not be able to meet those expectations there's
00:55:50a chance that we walk away without each other
00:56:00hi hey you look so cute good to see you i'm so nervous yeah right yeah
00:56:10can i hold your hands that helps me with our nerves
00:56:16logan when i first met you you were such a gentleman we had an amazing conversation and then
00:56:24we go out on our date and you tell me you're worried about the optics of dating an older woman
00:56:29and i'm like what is up with this guy i can't figure him out so i was like forget it
00:56:35you know but
00:56:38you did a few things that were really important to me
00:56:44you apologized and you took accountability for your actions
00:56:48and that meant a lot to me so i decided i really want to give this guy a chance
00:56:58um yeah i feel that with you i opened up more than anyone else i've ever opened up to in
00:57:07my life
00:57:08i feel safe with you and that's something that's so important to me
00:57:13i was really in a dark time before i came here you know i lost my mom and it's been
00:57:19almost a year and
00:57:20being with you you brought light back into my life and i'm happy that you're here i'm happy to be
00:57:27here
00:57:31yeah i mean our journey has been everything but picture perfect despite the whirlwind we found a
00:57:41connection and i think you know you challenged me and you asked me the tough questions and
00:57:49and wondered if i was ready for a commitment ready for something serious or i was just another flame
00:57:57for you yeah yeah but the reality is you have made me into a better man and going on this
00:58:06process with
00:58:07you it was like nothing i could imagine i'm glad after all those hardships that we landed in this place
00:58:15of peace and love and there's no more fighting and i don't want to go back to my old life
00:58:21without you in
00:58:22it so that being said i would like to bring you into my world and meet my family meet my
00:58:31friends and be
00:58:35move forward i'm hoping you would do the same for me and allow me to meet your friends and your
00:58:40family
00:58:41and be a part of your world because i really want you to be a part of my world
00:58:56is this part you break up with me
00:59:03here's the thing
00:59:11our journey has had a lot of ups and downs
00:59:15and the chaos that we've found is it's
00:59:23you know is that toxic or was it healthy right and it's really made me question
00:59:35whether or not it's it's it's good for us right
00:59:41the time alone has made me realize that maybe i'm not the man for you
00:59:51you maybe i'm not good enough for you it's really questioning that
01:00:02it's it's it has been difficult and i don't want to make promises that i can't
01:00:11so
01:00:12so
01:00:18i need the promise ring back
01:00:53it's been a tough journey
01:00:57my first instinct is always the correct instinct and i should stick with my first gut instinct on someone
01:01:05and maybe i was just trying to fit a square peg into a round hole
01:01:10and my picker was wrong once again
01:01:15yeah but
01:01:20during my alone time i've also realized that maybe i don't have to be the perfect man
01:01:31maybe i just needed to be the guy that was there for you throughout all the good times highs and
01:01:39lows
01:01:40somebody that you could talk to and count on somebody that would always be there for you just like your
01:01:45mom was before she left
01:01:49and i think spending time with you enjoying you not realizing there was an age gap
01:01:59has made me want to commit
01:02:04so let it go
01:02:06what is happening
01:02:09what
01:02:11i don't want this journey to end oh my god what is happening and you know
01:02:19it's been a crazy roller coaster of a ride
01:02:24but
01:02:24i'm not getting off anytime soon hey
01:02:28i love the shit out of you
01:02:30and uh
01:02:32you know i want to make a promise and a commitment
01:02:37you're someone who deserves everything
01:02:40what is happening
01:02:42and someone who deserves the kobe ring
01:02:45stop it no
01:02:48is this really
01:02:54i'm not ready to get off anytime soon
01:02:59so
01:03:01you want to continue this journey and do life together
01:03:11yes
01:03:15oh my god i'm shaking
01:03:20oh my god
01:03:21oh my god
01:03:22oh my god
01:03:23it's so pretty
01:03:24so let's do it
01:03:25oh my gosh i fucking love you
01:03:31oh my god
01:03:34oh my goodness
01:03:35you got red lipstick on you
01:03:37yeah i know
01:03:39oh my god i'm shaking
01:03:41you tricked me so
01:03:45when you started attacking me i was like oh
01:03:47oh my god
01:03:51oh my god
01:03:57age doesn't matter for us
01:03:59as as crazy as it is to
01:04:03get engaged to somebody that's 20 years older than me it's it's vanessa
01:04:10she's
01:04:11the one that has changed me and she's the one that's made me feel ways that i haven't felt before
01:04:17so
01:04:17you know at the end of the day
01:04:20it's what i wanted
01:04:21i ran every scenario of what could happen when i was coming here but the one scenario i didn't think
01:04:27of was
01:04:28finding the love of my life
01:04:29i came into this experience with a complete open mind and i'm really super happy with how it ended
01:04:44i did not think i was going to come into this experience and completely change my life
01:04:50what was your name derek derek i'm pfeiffer i love your eyes thank you me too
01:04:57it's so rare that you find somebody that you connect with like this and i never would have
01:05:01expected it to go this way but i'm so grateful that it has
01:05:07you want to get me
01:05:09pfeiffer's definitely a person i've been looking for she's humble she's loving all of those are like
01:05:16something that i've definitely wanted but i honestly didn't know that it existed i've always
01:05:22thought age was just a number and damn yeah this experience really proves that it's just that
01:05:28i came here to try something completely unorthodox to meet people from all different ages and if
01:05:38anyone said you're gonna come here and you're gonna fall for a guy that's 20 years younger than you
01:05:42i'd be like you're absolutely crazy romeo romeo okay is this supposed to be the opposite way like
01:05:52i think you're supposed to be up here with your hair but what logan and i have is something really
01:05:56special so i am 49. i was gonna guess 29.
01:06:08why vanessa i mean i could have connected with anybody else there were 19 other women at the
01:06:14retreat some closer in age to me but i don't think i would love anybody else like the way i
01:06:20love vanessa
01:06:20she's one in a million where do we go from here you know snacks be enjoying the night
01:06:27i thought i was going to go into the last years of my life alone and now here i am
01:06:34turning 50 and i'm in love
01:06:44i got more than everything i've ever wanted out of this experience i met somebody i never thought
01:06:51i would meet one go andrew does see me for the real me and not my age he sees parts
01:06:58of me that a lot
01:06:59of people don't and he just recognizes it and he appreciates it i don't think i've ever had that
01:07:05before i'm enjoying what we have right now i'm waking up to you yeah well it's probably the nicest thing
01:07:10i'll ever say to you but like the more i get to know you the more i like you more
01:07:15i really do feel
01:07:16like i got my rom-com happy ending and i don't think i could have scripted it any better
01:07:25i absolutely believe age just as a number because i never would have thought that i could connect with
01:07:32somebody that is 27 years old on this level i'm gonna go for it i love sarissa i love how
01:07:42she makes me feel right and for seeing me for who i am and loving me and accepting me for
01:07:51the 27
01:07:52year old is a little more mature it's the connection that counts not the candles on the cake should i
01:07:58grab your
01:08:21i'll see you guys
01:08:26i see it in the
01:08:28I see it in a new light
01:08:32I see it in a new light
01:08:40I see it in a new light
01:08:46I see it in a new light
01:08:49Again with fresh eyes
01:08:51Honey for the best light
01:09:23I see it in a new light
01:09:27When I see it in a new light
01:09:27Baby I see it in a new light
01:09:27It became the new light
01:09:33It's been a new light
01:09:34It's got a new light
01:09:34I was also going to configure it
01:09:37We used to see it in the أوρω membrane
01:09:37We want to awake a few dogs
01:09:38We will be coming on a new light
01:09:38Very promising
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