00:00Where did we last leave off? Oh yeah, Mount Fuji. I took what I would consider to be
00:08one of the best solo trips I've ever taken in my life and that was to Mount Fuji.
00:13I was looking for quiet and peace and that's exactly what I got.
00:18But as soon as I got back to the city, it all hit me again. That panic, that stress of
00:23how am I going to visit 54 countries this year? How am I going to finish my goal of visiting
00:29every country in the world? How, how, how? It's not working. My plans are not working. What
00:35am I doing? What's happening? I'm not fundraising enough. I'm not, I have to book these many flights.
00:40I have to, and I was like, wait a minute, Mary Jane, we've been here before.
00:45I thought back to when I first ever came to this side of the world. I had just freshly dropped out
00:55of college and I came to Asia and I had no idea what I was doing with my life. I was in an insane
01:03level of stress and I feel like God picked me up, threw me on the other side of the world and told me
01:09to relax. And I realized something like, Mary Jane, you are getting way too caught up in everything.
01:18You're way too stressed. And that's not why God put me on the planet. He did not put me here to
01:24panic. He did not put me here to stress. He didn't give me dreams so I could stress about him. He didn't
01:29give me goals so I could stress about him. And that's not how I wanted to do my dreams or do anything.
01:36Cause what is it worth? So I completely shut down you guys. I mean, totally. I turned my phone off.
01:44I said, I'm not going to think about traveling. I'm not going to think about posting. I'm not going
01:49to think about flights. I'm not going to think about visas. I'm not going to think about hotels. I'm not
01:54going to think about any of it. I'm going to enjoy where I'm at now. Like at this very moment,
02:02whether things are going my way or they're going not my way, whether things are happening exactly
02:07the way I want them to happen or they're not, I'm enjoying this moment I have in front of me,
02:13just this one. I shut everything down. I didn't go on social media and I tried to remember the reason
02:22that I started traveling in the first place. And it's because I love to explore. That's why I started
02:28this. I love exploring and I love sharing with you guys. That's the core of everything.
02:36I had to refocus about what this all is about. Even though I'm trying to visit every country in
02:42the world, I'm trying to visit 54 countries this year. I want to be super woman and I want to
02:47jump out of planes and I want to solo travel the world, but none of that matters if I'm not living in
02:53the moment. None of that matters if I'm not having fun. None of that matters if I'm just going to be
02:58stressed the whole time. So for 10 days, that's exactly what I did. I enjoyed the exact moment that was
03:07happening in front of me and that's all I thought about. You guys, I can't tell you what this break has
03:14done for me. I feel like my mind is re-centered. I feel like my fight or flight is gone. I feel like I can
03:21think straight and appreciate things again from a fresh, childish perspective.
03:29You guys, I don't want to apologize for the break because I needed it.
03:34I needed to literally drop everything and just look at what I had directly in front of me and
03:40appreciate it, soak it up and re-center myself. I just ate and I journaled and I enjoyed nature and
03:50I went to some beautiful museums and I reconnected with the Mary Jane that started all of this. The
03:56explorer, the one who wanted to do things differently and have fun doing it and sharing it with you guys.
04:04So am I still on a mission to visit every country in the world? Of course I am. But yes, I still am in
04:10Japan. I pushed everything away a month so I will be here for another month just enjoying what's in
04:20front of me, trying to slow down, trying not to stress. I'm back. I got the reset that I was looking
04:27for, desperately looking for, so I'm back you guys. I feel like I have a brand new energy. I have a brand
04:34new tenacity to go finish everything I've tried to finish, but just from a different place. My two goals
04:42now for the rest of the month are to bring you guys content from Japan just for the rest of the month
04:48before I leave and to fundraise. I have a GoFundMe that I've been trying to raise to help me finish
04:55these countries I'm trying to finish this year, mainly in Africa and the Middle East. There are 54
05:01countries that I need to get to. Until then, I will be showing you guys around Japan. If you can donate,
05:07please do. I'll be showing you guys everything around Japan because we've got a little bit more
05:13time, which makes actually, it makes me so much less stressed and not feel so rushed with everything.
05:19We're going to have a lot of fun with this goal, guys. And I'll always be here even if I take little
05:24breaks to show you guys a fun adventure. So I'm so happy to be back and thanks for sticking
05:31around. Love you guys.
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