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00:13I was in my 20s when I first came out to the Hamptons now I'm 43 back then I didn't
00:20think
00:20this would be what my life would look like all these years later I might actually lose Amanda
00:28and everything that matters to me this is a glimpse into what my future could look like
00:33and it's lonely is this what I want like I don't I don't know
00:58I can't imagine my life without Kyle in it but no matter how badly I want to fix this
01:04relationship I'm just not sure that I can something has to change and I'm hoping that
01:11by me taking some time to myself and not going home with him he'll realize like how serious I am
01:17about
01:17this bombshell news summer houses Kyle and Amanda have broken up who do you think will be the first of
01:40the two of you to start dating me what was your reaction to the West and Amanda rumors no I
01:46don't
01:47think there's any merit to it what was your reaction to the rumors of you and Amanda that's a friend
01:51okay that's a friend this news rocked the Bravo sphere rumors are true confirmed Amanda and West are
02:13together
02:14hey hi still got that key years huh yeah well miss writer hi how's Reese they're chillin you eating you're
02:25looking skinny I mean what do you think I'm worried about you I'm worried about me too
02:33can you sit on your couch yeah my back's been bugging me I'm gonna sit over there you're 43
02:40no I pulled it I joined a new gym so this week we had to do deadlifts oh but I
02:47know we've been
02:47able to like somewhat keep in touch throughout all this yeah and like I want to be there for you
02:52but I also want to take an opportunity to like clear things up because I look back at the summer
02:58and you looked like you were done with me and that's what's so frustrating is like I gave our
03:03relationship everything I had because I wanted the relationship to work so badly and like the idea of
03:10like not existing with you in my life was so impossible for me to wrap my head around and it's
03:16what made it so hard to like call it quits which is why I got so messy because I was
03:23so afraid that
03:24once we ended things like we would just be out of each other's lives forever and like I couldn't handle
03:29that but I'm gonna be honest I can pinpoint these instances during the summer and fall where I'm like
03:36damn she wasn't just one foot out she was fully out the door like that's how it looked I was
03:41done to
03:42an extent I was tired I had nothing left in me to fight but I was still trying to give
03:48it everything
03:49I had can you honestly say though that like right through thanksgiving for that matter even if it was
03:57an emotional affair with West nothing was happening but I hear things I was so committed to you
04:02throughout the whole thing and all I wanted was for it to make it work and for you to even
04:06question
04:08my like faithfulness in any capacity just like really hurts because that's not the type of person
04:14that I am like I would step out on you or cheat like I've been cheated on by you I
04:19had a one night
04:19stand Kyle you made out with someone when we were married says who there's a video okay my point is
04:27I would never do that to someone else I know you're not a bad person I think you were reckless
04:32and
04:32thoughtless if I'm being honest but in all of this I'm still trying to be a good friend to you
04:39and I appreciate that I mean I worry about you I worry about your mental health I worry about you
04:43yeah I mean it's not your responsibility but I appreciate that
04:48just know that like everything that happens here forward is because I care about you
04:55it's not because I'm like oh maybe we rekindle things it's because I care I know
05:03and I care about you in the same way we love each other because there's a version of each of
05:11us
05:11that we both fell in love with for a reason
05:17it just makes me so upset
05:27like someone else gets like the version that I fell in love with
05:30ahh
05:31haven't heard about you
05:48I MEAN
05:53ZOROT
05:55ZOROT
05:56ZOROT
05:57ZOROT
05:57ZOROT
06:02oh my god hi baby hi angel hi angel since becoming a mom my life has been chaos
06:14i know baby there is no question that this is my daughter are you stress eating
06:26when like i give a death stare to someone like jimma gives a death stare like i cloned myself
06:32and then gave birds we gotta change your girl my friends and i are all entering a new chapter of
06:39adulthood and dealing with the big questions but what i'm worried about is if i'm ever gonna
06:45have sex again i haven't had sex in nine months okay i used to shoot like rainbows and butterflies
06:51out of my vagina can you me oh my god you can call me nurse hard palpitations this is so
07:05hot
07:05i probably would have had sex when i got the all clear from my doctor six weeks after giving birth
07:12you're like wrestling an alligator girl but then i got broken up with
07:17and so it's been a while a long while we did it i love being a mom but i would
07:26not have been able
07:27to get through this last year without my support system
07:39i have my nanny liz and i have my girlfriends hi hi is this brunch i thought we were going
07:47to like
07:49run some kind of fun i mean this is fun but
07:52i think yvonne and i have been best friends for 13 years the minute me and my ex broke up
08:00i went
08:00to yvonne's house and she was like milking my tits into a bowl while drinking tequila
08:06she forgot her portable breast pump at home and i'm like sitting there milking her boob and i like
08:12called nick i was like babe don't come home right now it's not a good time me and nick we
08:17went out to
08:17dinner the wine was flowing one of the best parts about being a parent is that you have to be
08:23a
08:23parent even when you're hungover georgina is one of my mom friends when i got pregnant georgina was
08:29the first person i called didn't call all my happily married friends i'm gonna call a girl who had up
08:34life my life is a disaster when i was 32 weeks pregnant with a toddler a dog and a broken
08:42ankle in
08:43york city in the cold my ex left and i went a little crazy let's be honest oh cuckoo
08:51i'm surprised i'm not on snapped the world would end if men had to have babies the world would
08:55actually end it's important for me to show jemma what a strong female role model looks like and to
09:01pave your own way and not rely on men because clearly we can't
09:16where were the baby where are the baby needs i don't know oh maybe down here are you grocery shopping
09:22with that she loves the groceries does she just jemma ever eat this stuff oh i haven't tried any of
09:30these my dog should love them beef in a bag yeah blended beef is she getting a snack yeah she
09:38gets
09:38snack i don't know about all that what are you hungry for yeah that's my cute girl yeah i haven't
09:46seen you in a couple weeks since we left the house yeah you seemed like a little off that weekend
09:51was a little nuts yeah it was kind of crazy i like didn't know what to say um but i
10:00ended up staying
10:01in a hotel like two nights what yeah dude yeah i didn't want to fall into the routine of going
10:13back
10:14to the apartment diving into the same old business nothing ever gets discussed now that i'm back home
10:20obviously we're going to couples counseling right now but she made a comment to us in therapy where
10:25she was like you guys hate each other she said that yeah i want some fruit after therapy we just
10:35like
10:35talked in the park and he like made a comment to me like maybe i should get my own place
10:43i feel stupid for wanting someone to change who's showed no hope and still doesn't understand
10:48what my issues are with that i can't be around in our home around you if it continues how it's
10:55going
10:55your solution is that i should move out what did you say when he was like you should get another
11:02apartment sierra had mentioned what if we spent some time apart would it be a crazy idea if you guys
11:08physically just separated for a month have you talked to her about us taking some time away from
11:15each other yeah i know jimma has a lot to say about this he does you guys haven't been partners
11:24for a
11:25very long time i don't know if you've ever been partners but he has strong resentment that has built
11:29over so many years and you guys are just now tackling that in couples therapy but it might be too
11:34late
11:39coming up in order for you to move across the entire country without a commitment such as a ring
11:45it's a very big deal i'm getting i hate venn guys
12:03it's like the perfect day for this i'm going to like remember the first time we came here i mean
12:08it must
12:09have been like first start dating right yeah in the beginning call me romantic you know i love love
12:17my love i'm just shocked how cute this outfit is oh my god yeah you know when is the right
12:25one and
12:25clearly lexi she's a princess she is the the real deal out of a fairy tale
12:32i always dreamed of like having my own prince charming
12:39like i could be with andrea every second of the day
12:42and i would never get tired of him i think we're like one person sometimes
12:50like we come do this stuff it's a reminder of like why i love this city yeah and i always
12:57forget
12:57how beautiful it is before i met andrea i always told my mom that i wanted to get married in
13:04disney
13:04world at the castle and it's just funny because i ended up getting married in a castle what a real
13:10one in italy it was so magical we had so many of our friends coming to see us we had
13:16lindsay we had
13:17kyle kyle was there by himself baby jemma was there yeah i was there we found out after but you
13:24know
13:24there was a rumor danielle got the bouquet so you never know she might be next
13:38you're not holding the right grip go go over your shoulder over your shoulder over your shoulder
13:47oh home run i quit look good though i am not a tennis player you're doing this you leave your
13:55palms up like that it needs to be down it's an expensive sport so to get a coach this good
14:00like
14:00wrap it around your shoulder don't just stop here okay for free for free
14:08owen is an amazing tennis player and also my boyfriend still love me we met nine years ago
14:15and then life happened we went our separate ways had other relationships we moved in different ways
14:20and jan rekindled you could say you slid back into my dms i slid back in your dms i'm like
14:25sweating
14:26in places that one shouldn't sweat i'm getting into the tennis you have to get into my stuff too
14:31so i'll try and get more baseball games with you be nice to do a lot more things to do
14:36before we
14:37you know try to have babies
14:41i'm turning 37 in december i would love to have a baby by 38. i'd love to do it with
14:46you and i want
14:47to do it with you i definitely want to be engaged as well before
14:52owen and i have been together for six months and living together for one
14:57what about the basil we're going in there too no no you like it just with the basil don't go
15:02rogue
15:03okay i'm saying basil now it's fast but i feel like you know it doesn't feel fast or once you
15:08feel
15:08like it's it it's like you just fly head first in that direction and biologically i probably should rush
15:15you know i'm so excited about you but with lindsey you know it sucks because like she doesn't even know
15:20she doesn't even know about you and like that's so weird like i would love to be able to share
15:25that with
15:26her the last time i spoke to her was maybe four months ago that's weird for us because we go
15:32back
15:32so so many years listen you're crushing it at work you're sexy as you're right you're right
15:39your amh level came back at 3.8 oh my god i mean i took glass to the chest for
15:46her
15:52i just like what did i do i mean i met her baby jemma like right at the beginning and
15:57then i feel
15:58like she just kind of ghosted on our friendship it just sucks that we have like such big things going
16:03on yeah in in like our worlds and i hate that it's yeah awkward now
16:32like the outside yep you got the
16:38black shirt you got the black on black it's new york kenny and i met in a very stereotypical new
16:45york
16:45way like we had a lot of different mutual friends if i were to guess it's been at least 10
16:49years kenny
16:50is smart he's driven he's connected he is the epitome of work hard play hard guy i think we we
16:57relate
16:57we're both building businesses we both also like to go out and have a drink and enjoy the city
17:05wait what are you smirking about he's a bit of a lush but he's outspoken and he's fun it's hard
17:11to
17:11like tame that you know what i mean it's just part of his personality so what's going on with lover
17:16boy
17:16the last real financial update that i got was october of last year yeah i've been dragging my feet
17:22there's been so many moving parts changes i had to lay off five people last week i put 500k of
17:29my own
17:29money in i literally needed to keep the lights on for a lot of years kenny worked on wall street
17:35did
17:35really really well for himself growing up in the midwest i could have never imagined the life
17:40that i'm living now i was never supposed to be the black guy from michigan working at the investment
17:45bank but eventually 15 years later you start to believe that you do belong six years ago um i ended
17:52up leaving wall street to start venture capital investing i invested in lover boy on the very first
17:57raise there was a point where i'm like to sell the company like punt it trust me if i could
18:02have sold
18:02the business two years ago i would have i took money from friends and family like at one point i
18:07was
18:07gonna give everyone a 25x return on their money 25 times their money now i'm basically on the
18:14financial brink of disaster oh by the way like i stopped paying myself a salary at lover boy i don't
18:21think i realized you weren't taking the salary that's one of the reasons why i started djing to pay the
18:25bills if i don't find a partner either to buy lover boy or take on our operations we will go
18:31out of
18:31business by the end of this year i get it you're backs against the wall and you've gone all in
18:36on this
18:36but you know talk to me let's talk through the debt let's talk through you know the downsizing look i
18:41appreciate your your patience it's good advice my communication skills across the board could
18:48improve professionally personally it's been kind of a rough summer between my business and my marriage
18:54it's a bit of a perfect storm what's the latest with with amanda when we came home from the hamptons
18:58amanda spent a couple nights in the hotel like we've no matter what kind of stuff we've been through
19:04we always go home together i went home solo and our four-year wedding anniversary is literally next week
19:10i feel like we're living very different lives yeah and we want very different things i love amanda
19:16i think she's a great person but i don't think she's ever really been able to meet you on an
19:20energetic level where you're at think about friendsgiving three years ago you gave me a
19:27similar update yeah because i come solo to everything you come to her you always show up solo doesn't go
19:31unnoticed you have to ask the question like if we met right now today the person that i am now
19:37and the person that she is now would we be together whitney wakes up the girl's happy let's go
19:45she has a love for life she's a breath of fresh air she's just got really good energy i'm just
19:49gonna
19:50know whitney but she seems awesome i know the cobblestone streets of new york bud whitney's my girlfriend
19:56we've been dating officially for six months unofficially for about a year she is a sweet sweet angel from the
20:04heavens
20:06hold on oh we're gonna poop in the middle of the street that's lovely
20:12this is a massive milestone she's moving across the country to move in with me you're a city boy now
20:18i'm originally from minnesota midwest girl i'm just a sucker for love my parents were high school
20:23sweethearts and like i'm somebody who is meant to be a mom and a wife that's why i did the
20:28bachelor but i
20:30think i was eight out of 30 girls i lasted i just really wanted to find love let's go buddy
20:35this is
20:36the first time i've moved across the country for somebody it's definitely a little scary but like
20:41i wouldn't be doing it if i didn't think kenny was my person i'm honestly like excited for you guys
20:47she
20:48seems like an absolute doll she's just always happy always you know positive but like my biggest fear is
20:54like hurting her in some kind of way or like it not working out in some kind of way and
20:59there's
20:59concerns right like i go up like you know sometimes you you go in a relationship and you feel this
21:04spark
21:04and this buzz and this fire where you're like this is my person i'm gonna marry you yeah and it's
21:10hard
21:11to know for me like is the like this is the one and i know it for sure spark there
21:16yeah and so i'm trying
21:19to figure that out it's tricky coming up no i don't need negative energy in my life
22:12it's a speakeasy you have to walk through a burger shop to get there
22:19i love the gear and i'm not just saying that because my best friend owns it and i maybe drink
22:23for free hi guys that spray tan looks sexy on you it does i see you i used to have
22:31on my phone
22:32access to the video the surveillance you're allowed to say that
22:39it's creepy okay okay i did not used to have access to the surveillance camera to like see if it
22:47was like
22:47good vibe and then i'd pop over and it was like hey like is there hot girls there
22:53hi do you bring gemma no just kidding so it's my baby daddy you have a night off do you
22:58want to
22:58drink yeah water and a margarita skinny spicy yeah okay how'd you know i know i need somebody to do
23:07my botox in new york i'm sure you got a lot of clientele in tribeca yeah for people who are
23:11too
23:11rates for the upper east side we're all past our first year of marriage oh yes we did a little
23:20bit over a year so far so good in our friend group there are people in all sorts of different
23:25situations which is amazing we met andrea and lexi through lindsey our lives are very similar like
23:32we got married within a few months of each other we're both talking about starting all four of us
23:36are supermodels
23:40you already told me you wanted spicy skinny thank you so much destiny you're the man cheers cheers cheers
23:48where's kyle
24:02i know the therapist was like let's meet tomorrow probably not the greatest sign
24:06no we're moving backwards her words
24:13i'm just feeling like almost like more confused no it was very evident because you're just negative
24:18the whole time like everything was a but this but that like we're supposed to be doing things that
24:23are moving us in the right direction and you have a dj event that ends at two you go out
24:27after and
24:28you'll come home at four o'clock in the morning last night the night before therapy here i am at
24:33therapy trying to make it work because i don't want to call it quits but you're not giving me any
24:37hope
24:41i'm like sweating i'm like sweating i need to go you're wearing a summer it's not a raincoat
24:55i just like i don't know what you want
24:59amanda what look you're struggling in your ways i'm struggling in mine like i just want to be happy
25:05and i want to feel like you want to be with me i'm in therapy with you i'm making efforts
25:10i'm doing
25:11things i'm i'm not going backwards can we just can we what can we get going i don't think i'm
25:19meeting you guys out why not i'm exhausted i don't want to put on a face with all of our
25:24friends i'm
25:25going home okay
25:34you know what's funny growing up in minnesota i always thought like new york felt so intimidating and
25:40people are actually like way more open and nice here it's the best it's exciting i love it here
25:44i feel like it's also like kind of romantic to move to new york with your boyfriend i'm very excited
25:50about them like she's a doll she brings the best out in him like we've traveled a bunch they don't
25:54fight how long have you been dating uh we our first date was around a year ago okay but then
26:02we slow played it for a while kenny was playing around being a playboy with me
26:09he was hold on let me be very clear my mother was passing i went through a very challenging time
26:14i maybe wasn't the best version of myself to come out of that and it's thank you i appreciate that
26:19what what what stage of grief is the boy stage that's the stages of grief anger pain around
26:33honestly though we're just kind of like seeing where this goes like we love each other she's a doll
26:40she moved across the country before the ring i think from a girl's perspective right it is a lot
26:47i'll sit with you come join us come join us oh we're just grilling kenny or mean meaning i'm i'm
26:54going oh my gosh i'm saying it's a big commitment to move across the country for a guy this is
27:00now a panel
27:00this is a panel no you stay you stay you stay stay over there they're grilling me on you moving
27:09in
27:10like our relationship i said to kenny that in order for you to move across the entire country without
27:17a commitment such as a ring it's a very big deal you can't around with this like at all i'm
27:24getting
27:24i hate men vibes i'm just allergic to like annoying men i'm getting i hate men vibes i'm just allergic
27:33to like annoying men you don't have to be engaged moving together like newsflash that's not what i
27:40was saying i'm saying it's a big commitment to move across the country if you love each other it feels
27:45small i only know of kenny socially through gavin and kyle so i'm just trying to get to know you
27:52if
27:53you feel like i'm pressing you and i'm asking very generic questions that sounds like a you
27:58problem in this expansive chapter of a lot happening it's nice to not do everything at once we know what
28:04we're doing we're not rushing it are you feeling attacked right now well there's a panel of people
28:16what's up where's the wife here she's not coming tonight no no no she um she is laying low you
28:25want to
28:25grab a drink yeah yeah sorry my mom tells me i have great nail beds you do have good nail
28:30beds how are you
28:32i mean i haven't seen you since we left the house it's been just like a whirlwind of like mixed
28:37emotions
28:37amanda told me that she stayed in a hotel for a couple of days yeah
28:44how does that make you feel despite all the ups and downs we've never not left the
28:48end of this together yeah i get more and more confused the further we get into this couple's
28:53therapy therapy is very confusing because you're all of a sudden unpacking years and years and years of
28:59things that you have not addressed she clearly is able to express herself in those moments i'll
29:12admit i struggled all summer oh my god i have to pee i love you she likes vodka or tequila
29:26both both buddy how are you how are things oh peachy yeah what did you get well like basically
29:37probably like a tequila margarita vibe danielle blocked it are you going to talk to her no i'm just
29:42going to avoid her i can't give any more passes i don't need negative competitive energy in my life
29:50i want people around you that are celebrating you when exciting things happen yeah i'm certainly
29:57not going to create space in my life for somebody who just like on me every chance that
30:01they get every year it's something let me just pull it up
30:06do you have it in your phone
30:12yeah i have it in my phone season four carl and i try to date you need to stop yelling
30:18at me you're
30:19insulting me talking to me like a human didn't work out he breaks up with me one week later she's
30:25giving him a hand job in the back of an uber and then do i really need to talk about
30:30the engagement
30:31just splash back at this very moment carl's probably down on one knee opposing lindsay that's so up for
30:39everything that i've done for that friendship you're a monster jesus christ well you won't be invited
30:45no i know and then i'm pregnant and she's making all these comments i mean we don't even live
30:52together you don't live together and now you guys put a baby inside you yeah i just don't want it
30:57to
30:57feel like you're single momming this up stop on me because like there's a new home right i don't look
31:07like there in my life that i feel like it's such a big deal and i'm like not sharing it
31:11and telling me
31:12what's best i don't even know daniel's guy's name owen on on this thing with honor on oh let's see
31:22this
31:22say hi you two should say hi i i want to say hi but um i was wondering if maybe
31:29you might be open to like a lunch or a coffee next week or something whenever you're free
31:36can i think about it i'm a little busy these days with a newborn yeah yeah i get it bye
31:46love you all
31:48i don't get it if i can be honest there's been so many things carl and i got engaged she
31:54had a freak
31:54out before carl and i got engaged she gave him a hand job in the back of an uber a
31:59week after we
32:00broke up like that's first of all hand jobs just suck in general no fine i'm just saying i bet
32:06you
32:07wish you had anything oh i would i would i should be a lot of money for a hand job
32:11right now
32:14true
32:31georgina hi hello you guys look so nice we're going to steal you are you coming out with us
32:40just come out in your scrubs no she needs to change do you even have anything here have you
32:45not seen this no welcome to my humble abode
32:51what makeup bag casual clothes black tie could be with heels and in the little sterile package draws it
33:00underwears it's so helpful having mom friends like georgina she just gets it she has a full
33:07dermatology practice in tribecca all right i'm gonna have you scrunch first actually good you okay
33:12yeah a lot of the days i'm like look how cool i am try back up derm raising kids look
33:19at me i'm doing
33:19it all you change we'll be outside i need four minutes and then the other day my daughter eloise
33:26she looks me dead in the eye and then ate dog food so you know what i did i looked
33:31at the nutrition
33:32facts on the dog food pure protein so i was like you know what hun go nuts really oh my
33:39god oh my god
33:40you look you look like a princess oh my gosh i'm going out with the milfs tonight milk city tonight
33:55here we are okay let me just tell amanda that we are on the roof in the back um i
34:03feel so bad for
34:04amanda and kyle like it's not good they have very separate lives amanda didn't pay rent for the last
34:10three years he didn't care no so then he tallied it all up and charged her last week no no
34:17it's just
34:18charged her last week so then she had to pay him he has a spreadsheet of like all this money
34:23that i
34:23owed him so now you have like three years back date i already paid it no sweat off my back
34:30yeah last week
34:30okay now i know where the resentment's coming from
34:39these freaking bangs hey guys wait but they look great i don't look at us we're color
34:44coordinated oh are we i love that hi guys i'm not gonna lie to you i was catching them up
34:50a little
34:51bit we were we were talking about you we were talking about you okay as long as we're not in
34:54a
34:54bad way okay i'm one repressed no more talking about me for the rest of the night okay i want
35:01to
35:01hear about your problems i'm gonna hear gossip i need the tea i need the drama can we talk about
35:05my
35:05plans with nick well he decided he's not ready in this moment to be a dad is he nervous or
35:12just not
35:12ready yeah i think he's nervous he's a great dog dad nick and i have a great relationship but when
35:18we first
35:19got married we definitely hit like a few bumps in the road i was under the impression that we were
35:26gonna start trying to have a family but every time i brought it up to him it felt like he
35:30was pushing
35:31off the conversation i was so annoyed with him i was like you know what i'm just gonna go to
35:36san
35:36diego and not tell him i hopped on a plane then like a few days go by how was your
35:46day and this guy
35:47hasn't even noticed that i'm not there where's your mom i had to show him like a few true crime
35:55docs after that because i was like if something did happen to me you would be the first person
36:00that would be under investigation i'm telling you men are always the problem always the problem and
36:07they can have babies till they're like 100. very respectful it's not you it's not you just start
36:13trying how long does semen live in your body for like 72 hours just start turkey basting put it on
36:20ice
36:23what else can we fill amanda in on like what happened at the garret okay so danielle showed up last
36:29night
36:29oh yeah oh my god so this is what i heard from katie she's moving in with this man who's
36:35still married
36:37what that's why that thing went up like that blind item what what she was talking about having
36:44kids with him in the fall no you're blowing my mind right now i need you to stop she's hypocritical
36:50who does that not a girl's girl
37:09oh yes thank you thank you perfect all right happy anniversary happy anniversary four years
37:19oh that's nice in spite of everything that's been going down recently it is our wedding anniversary
37:27i don't care if maybe the last time we went on an actual date was a year ago
37:31so guess what there's no way we're not doing something you guys ready to order yes remind me
37:36the um mozzarella stick with caviar the cheese and caviar the fancy mozzarella stick absolutely
37:42oysters and escargot for sure thank you so much i actually feel like we're in a decent place heading
37:48into this anniversary just because we've gotten some of the things off our chest i would say we're both
37:54optimistic which is great because that's not the case just a couple weeks ago what do you guys have
38:00to celebrate we're celebrating the fact that anyone that said we get divorced within three years was wrong
38:06we made it to four i know therapy hasn't been a walk in the park but i appreciate you doing
38:13it with me
38:14yeah i want to be feeling like we're moving forward in therapy do you feel like we're moving forward in
38:21therapy because i don't after therapy i've felt lower than i've ever felt in a really long time
38:32and it's it's difficult to go back to the apartment and just like you happen to call let's go walk
38:39the
38:39dogs time to do this like it hasn't been easy but like for me like that i struggle with that
38:48a lot
38:49it's not going the way that i really want it to
38:54i'm gonna move out
39:03i know it's our anniversary like i'm not bringing this up like i'm out i'm leaving and this isn't
39:08like a permanent this is like a month this is not to end the relationship this is what something i
39:15think that needs to be done to help us i want to like date again i want to get together
39:20and like spend
39:21time like this and it's it's difficult to explain i'm not doing this to run away i'm doing this because
39:30i want this to work out i'm not saying this is like we can't see each other for a month
39:35this is like
39:36you come to my place i go to your place we have movie nights and date nights it's still spending
39:41time together
39:44it's it's a lot to swallow but like i'm trying to be like open-minded and i appreciate that
39:50can you just promise me that if i agree to separate it's not an agreement thing that's my
39:55it's a decision i'm making if i give you my it's not your blessing if i'm here i'm doing it
40:03it's all you i don't know if there's a playbook i don't know how i'm supposed to feel or act
40:10so i'm
40:10just trying to embrace this idea and be supportive it feels extreme and i'm not sold on this being the
40:18solution i've never heard of a couple physically separating but not separating and using that as a
40:25tool to get back together but maybe this is what we need how we doing guys great we're just out
40:35for
40:35an anniversary dinner anniversary yeah these are the apps four years we're going to a restaurant
40:40i promise congrats thank you thank you it's been smooth sailing
40:49no bumps in this road i'll tell you that
40:56this season on in the city that guy just burp on me somewhere should be fun even in the fall
41:04i could faint over botox in my ass in your butt it's called buttocks i can't believe my stuff's
41:10gonna be here this week i don't need anybody questioning our relationship sorry that you don't
41:14like to hear the truth i got you a little something you know what that's called manipulation
41:20you can only get pregnant for 12 hours i thought about our conversations around having a baby
41:28something that i've wanted my entire life a family that was taken away from me i'm choosing
41:34partners that continue to abandon me i've never been happier in my entire life lindsay gets the
41:40internet sleuth on my man you're right i'm also still mad that you wore a white dress at my wedding
41:46it's thank you everyone bows down to lindsay and i'm sick of watching it you're supposed to be my best
41:52friend and you treat me like stop running your mouth i'm gonna leave right now because you're
41:56talking to a wall i'm not a wall you've moved your whole life here for him i will move it
42:01right back
42:01out have you been lying to me for years you're the bernie made off of hospitality who was in our
42:08apartment last night while i'm asleep you know how many times you cheated on me i think it's wrong lay
42:14off me dude i'm in tears watching my friends demolish their relationships you don't have a
42:21prenup but if you come for me i'll come for you that would be a losing battle are you threatening
42:26me