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The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives - Season 4 - Episode 10: The Book of Thorns and Roses
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00:17¡SuscrÃbete al canal!
00:31And this has just reconfirmed to me why I have kept my distance.
00:36Kayla, will you just talk to me and just, did I do something, like, genuinely?
00:41What happened?
00:41If so, I don't know.
00:42She was upset because Jen didn't say congrats on her getting Chicago.
00:46Therapy's expensive.
00:48I'm going to send Whitney my bill after this conversation.
00:52When did she tell you?
00:54Zach told me last week when you were filming.
00:56And you just haven't said anything.
00:57And I just haven't texted her.
00:58I've told her in person, but she's upset that I didn't tell her when I knew.
01:03If someone posts, I'm literally terrified to not comment on somebody's post.
01:06Because I feel like we have this expectation now.
01:08Like, if I'm not, like, showing complete...
01:10And it's probably that.
01:11I mean, I don't want to hear it.
01:13Like, it's my fault.
01:14This Whitney and Jen drama definitely makes me feel like I'm back at the CMA drama from last year.
01:19I posted about my CMAs.
01:22Not a single one of my friends from MomTalk said a single thing about it or commented to hear nothing.
01:27Like, what the fuck?
01:28I think all the cool opportunities we're getting are great.
01:31But I also think it has potential to pull us away from why we're in MomTalk to begin with and
01:35make us lose sight of the genuine friendships.
01:38It's hard to balance it all.
01:40But if we don't have our friendships, what is this all for?
01:44I see where Whitney's upset.
01:46But to be honest, I don't feel like our friendship has been genuine.
01:49To be honest, I think it's very much been transactional and fake.
01:53And I feel like in order to protect my energy, I've been just being cordial this whole time because I
01:59don't have the time.
02:00And none of us do.
02:02There's a lot of competition and jealousy between Whitney and Jen right now.
02:05And that's where this is all stemming from.
02:06But MomTalk does not need to be dealing with this right now.
02:09As we kind of grow in popularity, we're getting more and more offers like Taylor with The Bachelorette coming up.
02:15And when we start getting more exposure and more opportunities, I do worry it may drive us apart.
02:20It's all transactional.
02:22She's saying, like, I don't care about her.
02:24I'm like, you don't care about any of us either.
02:26You only came back for Dancing with the Stars.
02:28I am feeling, like, so heated right now.
02:32I don't even know if people are backing me up or people backing Jen up.
02:36But if there is one thing that I have learned being a part of this group is that something is
02:41bound to happen.
02:43But the show must go on.
02:52I don't care about it.
02:54I don't care about it.
02:56Listen up.
03:00I'm the one you've been dreaming of.
03:03I got everything you could ever want.
03:07Try me in your sleep.
03:09I'll bring you to your knees.
03:11Baby, you're gonna believe.
03:12Baby, you're gonna believe it.
03:20For me, I'll bring you to my heaven.
03:23Baby, you're gonna believe it.
03:28I'm the one you've been dreaming of.
04:00¡SuscrÃbete al canal!
04:00No, me too, dude.
04:05After finding out about Dakota and Shania, I feel completely fucked over.
04:10And not only that, but I am on empty.
04:12This is not the headspace I wanted to be walking into The Bachelorette.
04:15I think it was very deliberate.
04:16I need to start packing, though, so I'm going to grab my suitcases.
04:20I mean, Dakota knew what this would do.
04:21He's not fucking stupid.
04:23It's just, it's, yeah, it sucks.
04:28Hey!
04:30Oh, yep, get on in.
04:31You're going with me, huh?
04:33What's your expectations?
04:35Are you nervous?
04:36It's okay to be nervous.
04:38I'm nervous for you.
04:39I don't have any.
04:41I don't have any going in that way.
04:43It's like, whatever happens is going to happen.
04:45There's a part of me that even wonders if I'm capable of doing this, given the recent events.
04:50And then there's another part of me that's like, well, you already said you're going to do it.
04:53You need to do it.
04:53So pull through.
04:54So kind of very chaotic in the head for sure, which is no secret to anybody, I guess, at this
05:00point.
05:00I'm so excited for you.
05:02This is going to be something, like, so fun and challenging and emotional, too.
05:08And I just hope that you can, like, handle all of it.
05:10Yeah, you're going to be able to handle all of it.
05:12Honestly, like, I can't imagine more chaos than I'm already living.
05:16So we'll never say that.
05:19Wow.
05:19Thank you.
05:23Thank you.
05:25Thank you.
05:27I've been walking around this town
05:29With my head up in the ground
05:31Scared I might never get out
05:33And I want to be where the flowers grow
05:37Somebody take me, take me home
05:41Before the study said he takes my soul
05:45My soul
05:47Good morning
05:48Good morning
05:50What's up?
05:51How are you feeling?
05:52I need to stay off my phone
05:53Yeah, you really need to stay off social media right now
05:57Yeah
05:57I know you've cried most of the night
06:02Last night I got eliminated
06:04And to be honest, I am devastated
06:07And very much surprised
06:09The couple going home is
06:15Jen and Yan
06:19Just like, it's like a pit in my stomach
06:21Like, dreamt of this moment
06:24Like, my whole life
06:26And the fact that it's, like, over just like that
06:28It just
06:31It feels just, like, weird
06:33Yeah
06:33Like, the positives even hurt more
06:35Because it's like those memories
06:36Yeah
06:38You can be sad
06:39But you also
06:40You have to be proud of yourself
06:42Because you wanted to inspire people
06:44And you accomplished that
06:46You did this eight weeks postpartum
06:48I'll never forget, like
06:51Finishing my dance
06:53And looking over
06:55Looking over at you and Nora
06:59And just saying how proud you were
07:02I really gave it my all
07:03Yeah, you gave your heart to it
07:05And you have to be proud of that
07:08Oh, man
07:10I think I'm still trying to process
07:12You should be really proud of yourself
07:15Thank you
07:16Yeah, for sure
07:18Thank you
07:19Thank you
07:20You made it to, what, week seven?
07:22You're right
07:23I should be proud of myself
07:25So proud of yourself, Jen
07:29Whitney has been blowing up my phone
07:32Apparently she wants to have conversation
07:34Which is
07:35You think she wants to apologize
07:36For how she yelled and screamed at you, or?
07:39No
07:40You think she wants to apologize for laughing
07:42When you got eliminated?
07:44No
07:44Okay, fam
07:45It looks like Whitney is laughing
07:47When Jen gets kicked off
07:48Do you think that she's happy she's safe?
07:50Or do we think that she's actually happy
07:53To see Jen going home?
07:54Hit me up in the comments
07:55Let me know what you think
07:56I think she's worried about
07:59She's thinking about her and being in the competition
08:02And she didn't like what I had to say on live
08:04And so
08:06I'm sure she
08:06Oh, about you not voting for her?
08:08Yeah
08:08And I would be rooting for a former mom talk person
08:13But we won't get into it
08:14Okay, we'll end this live now
08:17Oh, I'm out of this set
08:19Whitney only cares about Whitney
08:20And her not getting eliminated
08:22And she knows that I hold power
08:24When it comes to that
08:25Just because if I say anything more
08:27It could hurt her
08:29Hello
08:30Um
08:31I just want to apologize for overreacting
08:33And yelling
08:35So I'm going to say hi to you
08:36When I see you at the studio
08:38And watch you look
08:39Um
08:39But yeah
08:40I just wanted to say sorry
08:42For treating you that way
08:43She knows she effed up
08:45You want to act like everything's okay
08:46I'm tired of being fake
08:48And I've done that a lot
08:49And I'm tired of doing that
08:50And I'm not doing that anymore
08:51And if that means the whole group is against me
08:53Because I'm not friends with Whitney
08:56Who's currently popular
08:57And that's the cool thing to do right now
08:59I don't care
09:00And I think it would be good
09:01I mean
09:02Just to have like a cordial conversation
09:04And just like
09:05Hey, this is my perspective
09:07That's her perspective
09:08And you guys can just talk it out
09:09You think I should go talk to her?
09:11Yeah, I think someone needs to hold her accountable
09:15I know you feel like
09:16This is the end of the world
09:18But this is just the beginning
09:19I know it doesn't feel that way
09:20But you're going to go do way bigger things
09:23This journey of Dancing with the Stars
09:24Jen was gone all the time
09:26And so like our marriage did get neglected
09:28At the same time
09:29Like it was one of the coolest
09:31Happiest fun experiences
09:32And I feel like pretty sad for her
09:34But I also feel really grateful
09:35That she got as far as she did
09:36I've really learned
09:37I have to cherish
09:38Every second I get with her
09:39And it's also helped me realize
09:40Like I have a lot more respect
09:42For stay-at-home parents
09:43Getting away from Whitney
09:44And going back with some of your other friends
09:46Could be good too
09:48If you don't have a lot of friends
09:49If Whitney's down here
09:50I should probably get out of here
09:53But hey, she's going to be in Chicago
09:56New York
09:56It's New York
09:58Fifth place called Chicago
10:02I'm dead
10:03It's where I shine, shine
10:06Love it, yes, I love it all the time
10:09Time
10:10Hello
10:12Hi, Gorge
10:13Gorge
10:14You're here
10:15Wait, this is new?
10:16That's cute
10:16So much
10:17Love her
10:17Did you get that in New York?
10:20Slay
10:20Love her
10:21Slayla
10:22With all of the Shania and Dakota
10:24And Taylor drama going on
10:26I haven't really had a chance
10:27To check in with Layla
10:29And see how she's doing
10:30And I'm so excited to see
10:31How her meeting went with Ford Models
10:32Because I know this is a huge opportunity for her
10:35And it's a dream of hers
10:36Kate, so you haven't told me any update on Ford?
10:39Ugh, yeah
10:40Oh, yeah
10:41What did
10:42How did that go?
10:43Didn't find me
10:45So just calling to give you a little bit of an update
10:47Yeah
10:48So I've spoken with my team here in New York
10:51Unfortunately, not everyone is really aligned
10:53Or on the same page
10:55So we're going to have to pass at this time
10:57Okay
10:58So I'm just like embarrassed
10:59I feel like I'm like
11:00Don't be
11:00Like you're going to get yeses
11:01And you're going to get no
11:02And every supermodel
11:04Literally will tell you
11:05Has had no
11:05Literally
11:06Plenty of noes
11:07I don't think you guys
11:08Like getting rejected by modeling
11:10Agency
11:10Like that means there's something wrong with me
11:12That they didn't choose me
11:13So I feel like I've been like
11:14The last couple days
11:15I've been like struggling so hard
11:16With like confidence
11:18And I'm like
11:18I weigh too much
11:19Or my face isn't symmetrical
11:21And I'm like
11:22I'm literally the ugliest person ever
11:23You're not at all
11:24I know
11:25But I think it just like
11:25Stems back to like
11:26Just like me never feeling like
11:27I'm like enough
11:28If that makes sense
11:30And just like
11:30I don't know
11:30Just like having someone like
11:32Look at you
11:32And like look at your face
11:33And be like
11:33Yeah like
11:34We don't want you
11:35You know
11:36Like it just kind of like
11:37It sucks
11:38And I feel like
11:38Everyone's always told me
11:39Like you should pursue modeling
11:40Like you're built for it
11:41You're built for it
11:41And like maybe I'm not
11:43I've struggled with
11:45Body image issues
11:46And an eating disorder
11:48Since I was in high school
11:49I used to have anorexia
11:51And then
11:52I got pregnant
11:53With my first son
11:54When I was 19
11:54And naturally
11:56I mean
11:57There's a baby inside of me
11:58That I have to care for
11:59So I feel like
12:00I kind of healed
12:00For a little bit
12:01And then I got pregnant again
12:02And I didn't spiral then
12:05But after
12:06Me and my ex separated
12:07That's when I feel like
12:08I started to
12:09Go back into those old ways
12:10And those old habits
12:11And I feel like
12:13I've been battling it
12:14For the last
12:15Four years now
12:16Silently
12:17You know that
12:18That's not true
12:19Because
12:20First of all
12:21You have a mirror
12:21That you can look in
12:22And you have eyes at work
12:23But also
12:24I also have a brain
12:24That tricks me
12:25And says
12:26Yeah true
12:26But you also have booked
12:28So many other
12:29Modeling deals
12:30I just feel like
12:30Every girl is getting
12:31Such awesome opportunities
12:33And I'm so proud of them
12:34But I definitely
12:35You know
12:36You get a little hard
12:36On yourself
12:37And you hope that
12:37You know
12:38You can achieve things
12:39Outside of mom talk
12:40As well
12:40And rejection hurts
12:41You wouldn't even have
12:43You wouldn't have
12:44Made it in the door
12:45At Ford
12:45If you weren't
12:46A beautiful
12:46Like accomplished
12:48Person that had
12:49A lot of potential
12:51I feel like
12:52I'm trying to look
12:52At positives
12:53In the situation
12:54That if I did get it
12:55I would have to move
12:56To New York
12:56For three months
12:57And that would
12:57Definitely be hard
12:58With my babies
12:59And with Mason
13:00And figuring all of that out
13:02But it's just a hard toss up
13:03Because it's something
13:04That I want so badly
13:04It's not the only
13:06Big agency
13:07No
13:07Like there are others
13:08I don't think I mentally
13:09Can handle another now
13:10No
13:11I think I just wanted it
13:12Like so bad
13:33I felt really bad
13:34The way that I handled
13:35Jen and I's argument
13:36No matter what's happened
13:37No one deserves
13:38To be yelled to
13:39Like that
13:39So I don't want
13:40Things to be awkward
13:41With us
13:42I've asked her
13:42To meet up with me
13:43And hopefully
13:45We can move past this
13:52What the fuck
13:53Why is Zach here
13:54And where is Jen
14:05Hello
14:05Hi Whit
14:06How you doing
14:07Good
14:11I'm going to be
14:12Filling in today
14:13Filling in for Jen
14:15I decided to go
14:16Talk to Whitney
14:17Because Jen asks me to
14:18I wanted to go
14:19Kind of just
14:21Defend Jen
14:22I don't care
14:23Whitney screams
14:24Or yell at me
14:24Like I'm not scared
14:25Of Whitney
14:26She didn't want
14:27To come
14:28Why
14:29I mean the truth
14:30Is she's hurting
14:31Right now
14:31She's sad
14:32She's grieving
14:32I think just like
14:33You would be
14:34Yeah of course
14:35Yeah I'm so sorry
14:36She got eliminated
14:36It would suck
14:37I don't know
14:38If you are
14:39I hope you are
14:40I think she's just
14:41I think she needs time
14:42To process her journey
14:44And to be honest
14:44I think she's probably
14:45Scared to come here
14:46And get yelled at
14:48By you
14:49You do that a lot
14:50Yeah you know
14:50What else I did
14:52I voice memoed her
14:53An apology
14:54For yelling at her
14:55Yeah
14:55Whitney
14:56It was a
14:57Bullshit fake apology
14:58I heard it myself
15:00You know what
15:01It wasn't a bullshit apology
15:02I really did feel bad
15:03For yelling
15:03And I said
15:04I'm so sorry
15:05And then you said
15:05Let's be friends again
15:06Because I don't want
15:06This exposed to the media
15:07Because I'm going to
15:08Get voted off
15:09Because I'm a mean girl
15:12That's the truth
15:13Whitney
15:14Whitney
15:14I'm not even
15:14I'm not even going to
15:15Defend myself for that
15:16She said she didn't
15:17Want to be friends
15:17And I didn't know that
15:18That hurt my feelings
15:19And I overreacted
15:20I apologize
15:21I love the transparency
15:22But you know
15:23I will not stand
15:24Is for you to go on live
15:26After you get eliminated
15:28To then say
15:29I'm not voting for Whitney
15:31What's the objective there
15:32I'm in a competition
15:33I think the objective is
15:35She thinks there's people
15:36Who deserve it
15:37More than you
15:39That's fine
15:40You could have said
15:40Who you were voting for
15:41Not who you're not voting for
15:43You know what
15:44That to me
15:45Is cruel
15:47And it's mean
15:47Because what do I have
15:49To deal with now
15:49This hate online
15:51It's overwhelming
15:52And then on top of it
15:53All of the news media
15:54Outlets saying
15:55Oh my gosh
15:56Jen's not voting for you
15:57Whitney's not Montauk
15:58Because I have that narrative
15:59That's manipulation
16:00That's an objective
16:01That's counterfeit
16:02And that's critique
16:03Why do you think
16:03The whole world
16:04All of social media
16:05Thinks that about you
16:07Because people can see
16:08Your true colors
16:08If you had gotten eliminated
16:10Would you be voting for Jen
16:11Absolutely
16:12And that is complete bullshit
16:14I don't even believe that
16:15One percent
16:16And you know what Zach
16:17You don't have to
16:18Because even when I had
16:19A conversation with Jen
16:20The way that she thinks
16:22Is she thinks
16:22Everybody's calculating
16:23Everyone's strategic
16:24And the world's up
16:25No she thinks you and me are
16:26It's weird that you two
16:27Happen to be best friends
16:29First of all
16:30I don't appreciate that
16:31Because I know who I am
16:33I am a great fucking person
16:35And I put in so much effort
16:36In that relationship
16:37The difference between
16:38Me and Jen
16:39Is I'm going to be
16:40Straight up and honest
16:41And Jen isn't
16:42That actually is probably
16:42The biggest lie
16:43That's come out of your mouth
16:44Jen is actually
16:45The least calculated person
16:47And therefore she gets herself
16:48In bad situations
16:48Yeah that's not true
16:49This isn't easy for anyone Zach
16:50No
16:51All of us
16:51All of us are mentally unwell
16:53I can tell
16:56And I don't think
16:56She should have said that online
16:57But I think there's a part of Jen
16:59That wants the world
16:59To see your true colors
17:00Because she's sick of it
17:02She's sick of you being fake to her
17:04On camera
17:05For the show
17:06For your own gain
17:07And then in real life
17:08She knows you're not a genuine friend
17:10This is the most delusional woman
17:11I've ever met
17:14Whitney's friendship
17:15With Jen has been fake
17:16From the beginning
17:17Anytime Whitney's been frustrated
17:19Or things haven't gone her way
17:20She screams
17:21Or she runs away from mom talk
17:22She's hurt you
17:23I've never hurt Whitney
17:24And then runs away
17:26I'm going to start
17:27My own mom talk
17:29I'm sorry
17:30They're like
17:31Oh Whitney's only back
17:32Filming because she wants
17:33Dancing with the Stars
17:35They're not wrong
17:36I just think it was
17:36A very transactional friendship
17:38If she's not the main star
17:39Whitney is not interested in it
17:42When someone goes on a live
17:43And decides to create
17:45More shit for me
17:46To deal with
17:47That's fucked up
17:48And I'm sorry for that
17:50You're not
17:50I don't want to hear your apology
17:52I want to hear Jen's
17:53But guess what
17:54She doesn't think
17:55She did anything wrong
17:56No I don't think
17:57She thinks she
17:58I don't think she cares
17:59To give you an apology
18:00Of course she doesn't care
18:01Thank you
18:02Shout it to the rooftops
18:04Of course she doesn't care
18:06Okay
18:07Do you have anything else
18:09You want to say
18:10I don't want to talk
18:10About it anymore
18:11That's fine
18:12I'm sorry
18:13I wish you guys the best
18:14Thank you
18:15I'm not going to sit here
18:16And try to convince you
18:18The perspective that I have
18:19I'm not going to sit here
18:20And try to convince you
18:22That what your wife did
18:23Was unwarranted
18:24How she's treated me
18:25Is unwarranted
18:26You are not my friend
18:27You are not in my circle
18:28And I do not trust you
18:30Okay
18:31Say
18:31Oh no
18:34Whitney
18:35Zach showed up
18:36Instead of Jen
18:37Oh my god
18:39They're just
18:41Every time I talk to them
18:42I just feel
18:44I feel so manipulated
18:46And then I hate
18:47Fucking crying
18:47Because then the world
18:48Is like
18:49Oh she's being the victim
18:50I like
18:51I can't ever fucking win
18:53And then for you
18:54To sit there
18:54And be like
18:55Jen has done nothing wrong
18:56It's you
18:57That's not a good friend
18:58I'm like
18:58What the fuck
18:59And then he's saying
18:59Like basically
19:01That I deserve
19:01All the hate
19:02I'm getting
19:02It's like
19:03Go fuck yourself
19:05I'm gonna rip
19:06That man's head off
19:07My biggest
19:08Fucking pet peeve
19:09With me
19:09Is when men
19:10Try and make women
19:12Feel fucking small
19:13Well guess what
19:14I feel that way
19:15And I hate
19:16So fucking much
19:17That like
19:17I let it get to me
19:18I don't know
19:19Where I'm at
19:20After this
19:21But what I
19:21Can control
19:22Is not having
19:24Jen and Zach
19:25A part of my life
19:25A part of my circle
19:26And that's what
19:28I'm deciding
19:28She wanted you
19:29To feel like shit
19:30Mission accomplished
19:31Zach
19:31I hope you feel
19:32Like a big strong
19:33Fucking man right now
19:34What a fucking loser
19:49Hello
19:51How are you?
19:51Good how are you?
19:52Oh
19:53Good to see you
19:54I know you too
19:55I'm excited for this
19:55Me too
19:56You guys look so cozy
19:58And cute
19:58I know I'm so glad
19:59We all went
20:00Like lounging
20:01Because I was like
20:01Am I gonna look homeless?
20:03Never
20:03You're carrying your
20:04$6,000 product
20:05Homeless
20:06Mom talk
20:07Has a lot going on
20:08Right now
20:08And Taylor's leaving
20:09For the bachelorette
20:10In a few days
20:11And then after that
20:12I'm hosting my
20:13Annual Halloween party
20:14We should talk about
20:15The guest list though
20:16Because with Taylor gone
20:17I'm like okay
20:18Who are we inviting?
20:19We can actually have alcohol
20:20Because Taylor's gone
20:21Which will be fun
20:22Open bar
20:23Okay so I have mom talk
20:24On the list obviously
20:25Who's left of it
20:26Dakota
20:27I think Shania has been invited
20:28Because Jordan invited
20:29Everyone at Red West
20:30But I don't know
20:31If she would actually show up
20:33We've been so busy lately
20:34And I'm so excited
20:35To just go and have fun
20:36And relax today
20:37With Miranda and Layla
20:38At the spa
20:39Okay we can do anything
20:41For 30 seconds
20:41No I will be the burpee then
20:43You were married to Chase
20:43You can do it
20:44That was a frozen tundra
20:56Straight out
20:58Like ice cap
20:59Frigid temperatures
21:01This is what I've ever experienced
21:05I thought it was supposed to be relaxing
21:07I'm not relaxed
21:09Yeah
21:10Good
21:11How are you feeling
21:12About all the modeling stuff?
21:13I don't know
21:13I feel like I'm trying to like
21:14Keep my expectations low
21:16I feel like I put a lot
21:17Of my self-worth
21:18Into my image
21:20Having someone say that
21:21Like they didn't want
21:22To take me on
21:22Even though they didn't say
21:23Anything physically
21:24Was wrong with me
21:25I feel like my brain
21:25Automatically was like
21:26I felt like
21:27I'm not small enough
21:28Or I'm not pretty enough
21:29But I think more of it
21:30Was just like
21:31I feel like I weighed too much
21:33I'm sure your sample size
21:34Is not smaller
21:35I don't look at myself
21:37That way though
21:37I weighed myself like
21:38Two days ago
21:39When I was 99
21:43And you're like 5'10
21:455'9
21:48I mean
21:48Do you know that
21:50That's not super healthy
21:51And when I say healthy
21:53Like it doesn't mean
21:55Big
21:55You know
21:56Like healthy is strong
21:57Yeah
21:59No I
22:02I just feel like
22:03I can't
22:04I don't know
22:05I just feel like
22:05I just don't
22:06I don't think I'll ever
22:07Be like small
22:08In my head
22:08And I know
22:09That it's affecting me
22:10And like
22:10I'm so exhausted
22:11All the time
22:12Because I don't eat
22:13And my body hurts
22:14Every night
22:15When I go to bed
22:15What do you mean?
22:17Like I like
22:17Literally
22:18When I lay down
22:19Like
22:19If my knees
22:20Are touching each other
22:21It like hurts
22:22Because I don't have
22:22Any fat on my body
22:23Like cushion it
22:24Like I know
22:25That it's going too far
22:26And I'm taking it too far
22:27But I can't stop
22:28Do you think
22:29Are you open
22:30To stopping
22:31Trisepaté?
22:33Nope
22:34I have been using
22:36Weight loss drugs
22:37GLP-1s now
22:39For about
22:40A year
22:41I would say
22:42I initially got on them
22:44Because I feel like
22:44I just had stubborn weight
22:45That I couldn't get off
22:47But
22:47The thing is
22:48That people don't talk about
22:49How addicting
22:49This is
22:50And how
22:51Hard it is to get off
22:53And it's just this
22:54Ever living
22:55Thing
22:56That's so negative
22:57And especially negative
22:58Here in Utah
22:59People are obsessed
23:00With how they look
23:01It's a very negative part
23:03Of the Utah culture
23:04I can't even count
23:05On both hands
23:06How many people I know
23:07Abuse GLP-1s
23:08Like myself
23:09And it's a real
23:10Problem for sure
23:12When's the last time
23:13You did it?
23:14Last week
23:16That's what scares me
23:17Is I don't think
23:17You need to be actively losing
23:18It's hard
23:19And I feel like
23:20Everyone
23:20Like obviously
23:21Everyone's starting to notice
23:22What it looks like
23:23In my comments
23:24Like I can't post
23:25A single video right now
23:26With like
23:26Every single person
23:27Saying something
23:28About like
23:29You need to eat
23:29Or you're not gonna be able
23:30To show up to your kids
23:31Like you're being a bad mom
23:32Blah blah blah
23:33Like always say something
23:34I'm not trying to
23:35Like I
23:35Yeah
23:36It's not like
23:37Well I've noticed
23:38Your comments have switched
23:39From like
23:39You're so thin
23:40Your arms are so long
23:41To now like
23:42Are you okay?
23:43And I think that's
23:44Kind of the sentiment
23:45We're all thinking
23:46Is that like
23:47Just are you okay?
23:48I feel like
23:49For a long time there
23:50People calling me ill
23:52Or saying that I look sick
23:53Or too thin
23:54It was almost
23:54A dopamine rush for me
23:56Because I feel like
23:56With an eating disorder
23:58Okay someone's noticing
23:59All this work
24:00That I'm putting in
24:00To look this way
24:01And like it's paying off
24:02In a way
24:03But now I can't even
24:04Post a simple ad
24:05To make money
24:06To support my family
24:07Without there being
24:09A bunch of comments
24:10On and it's actually
24:11Starting to get a lot
24:12That I don't even
24:13Want to post right now
24:14Because I can't
24:15Run away from it
24:18And I don't know
24:19Like how to stop
24:20But obviously
24:21Like you've always
24:22Had to have such
24:22A strong friend
24:23Growing up
24:24The way that you grew up
24:25And I think
24:26When so much
24:26Is out of control
24:28It's easy for you
24:29To cling on to
24:30One thing you can't control
24:31Yeah
24:32And I want you to know
24:33That like you do love
24:34You don't have to
24:35Family yet
24:37Okay
24:38We're here for you
24:39And we love you
24:41Okay
24:42God bless
24:43Help you
24:44And you don't like
24:45We can help you
24:46Be in control
24:47Like you don't have
24:47To do it by yourself
24:48Speak
24:49Like a threat
24:50That starts
24:51And I believe
24:55And all the pieces
24:57Never seem to fit
25:00When you feel
25:04You can't breathe
25:07When you're lost in the dark
25:10I'll be here
25:10In your hearts
25:11Hi buddy
25:21This is Taylor's last night
25:22Before she flies out
25:23For the Bachelorette
25:24And I'm just dropping
25:26Ever off
25:27This is kind of like
25:27The last
25:28Like our
25:29Our last time
25:30Like actually kind of
25:31Seeing each other
25:32Before she goes away
25:34And yeah
25:35It kind of feels
25:36Surreal
25:38There's part of me
25:38Obviously where I want
25:39To go over there
25:40Because like
25:40I know she's leaving
25:41Like and I'm not
25:42Going to talk to her
25:43I think for like
25:43Two months
25:45So yeah
25:46I'd be lying
25:46If I didn't think
25:47There was a piece of me
25:48That just kind of
25:48Wanted to go
25:50I don't know
25:50Like see her
25:51Be with her
25:52Like possibly
25:54The last time
25:55Like I don't know
26:34Taylor's leaving
26:41Taylor's leaving for the
26:50Aspen and I are at Taylor's house
26:52Getting ready to leave
26:54To California
26:55For the Bachelorette
26:56And we're supposed to leave
26:58In two hours
26:59Taylor
27:04It's 840
27:07She is not ready
27:09She is still in bed
27:11And she is not feeling well
27:14What do you think we should do?
27:16We're supposed to be leaving here
27:17Like any minute
27:19By 9
27:20She's still sleeping
27:21You're her mom
27:22No you can talk too
27:23Because I'm always the one
27:24That's like a
27:25The B
27:26Can you talk to Taylor?
27:26Yeah
27:27What'd she say?
27:28She says she just doesn't feel like
27:29She's just not feeling well
27:31She says she can't get on the plane
27:32And that you guys can go
27:35And she'll just have to meet me there
27:37She's just
27:38She's like
27:38There's just no way
27:39I can get up right now
27:40And go
27:42This is ridiculous
27:45I'm very frustrated
27:46Right now
27:47With Taylor
27:48She has this huge opportunity
27:50And I feel like
27:51A part of me is like
27:52She's not going to go
27:53I know that you have anxiety
27:55I know that there's a lot going on
27:56That's not why
27:57I know you're sick
27:58I know
27:59You've been running like
28:00The same mad woman
28:01The same
28:03This is a commitment that you made
28:04I don't want her to blow this opportunity
28:07To possibly find love
28:09And also to get on with her life
28:12Aspen and I
28:13Are going to get on this plane
28:14And I'm hoping that Taylor
28:16Will meet us there in California
28:18I expect you to be there tonight
28:20It's just because I don't want to
28:24Okay, you two are sitting
28:27In the very back right here
28:28Yeah, oh my gosh
28:30Do we have everything?
28:33We're going to miss our flight
28:38On our way for the first week
28:40Of Bachelorette
28:41Who's not even coming with us?
28:43Who's a no-show?
28:44Mom
28:44You're crazy, huh?
29:02Come on
29:05Me and the girls are at the airport
29:06Ready to surprise Taylor
29:07We decided to make signs
29:09For her new adventure
29:10She's been through so much
29:11Kind of send her off
29:12On her little mission
29:13To The Bachelorette
29:14Because in our church
29:15When someone goes on a mission
29:16Usually when they come home
29:17People have signs
29:18Welcoming them back
29:19So you'll see that a lot
29:20At Salt Lake Airport
29:21So we're sending her off
29:22To her mission
29:23To The Bachelorette
29:24And we're ready for her
29:25To be away from Dakota
29:25And find her real man
29:27We're already getting close
29:40It's great
29:41This morning Jordan
29:43Heard from Dakota
29:44Taylor slept with Dakota
29:45Again last night
29:46Go self-sabotage
29:48Jessie tells us
29:49That Jordan told her
29:50That Dakota slept with Taylor
29:52Last night
29:53Oh my god
29:54I thought I couldn't
29:55Get more disappointed
29:56Right when we're like
29:57Yes
29:58She sees it
29:59She sees her worth
30:00It's like
30:01She's going to The Bachelorette
30:02She's ready to start
30:03This new journey
30:03We're so excited for her
30:04She's back sleeping
30:05With Dakota again
30:06And I'm so disappointed
30:07I'm so disappointed
30:08I'm definitely disappointed
30:10In Taylor
30:10I don't think that
30:11This was a smart move
30:11To do right before
30:12The Bachelorette
30:13To be frank
30:13If I was one of these guys
30:14And I found out that she
30:16F'd her baby daddy
30:16The day before meeting me
30:18I would be extremely upset
30:20And pissed
30:21Dakota's trying to pull out
30:22All of his cards
30:22Because he's desperate
30:24Like he's doing anything
30:25He can to get her to not go
30:27Like I'm shocked
30:28But I'm not shocked
30:29At the same time
30:29I'm just tired
30:30I'm so over this
30:31I'm just hoping Dakota
30:32Doesn't sneak there at some point
30:33Dakota's in the check luggage
30:35Let's be honest
30:36Is that Ben
30:37That's not Ben
30:38Weird
30:39No that's Ben
30:40Shut the fuck up
30:41Do you like my sexy socks
30:42I was just gonna comment
30:44On your sexy socks
30:47Wait
30:47That's not Ben
30:48That's not
30:50Oh
30:51It looks exactly like him
30:52I about died you guys
30:54She only has 40 minutes
30:5640 minutes until boarding ends
30:57Wait she's right there
30:58Coming down
30:59She's right there
31:01I can see that rat's neck
31:02For a mile away
31:03You guys wait
31:03Oh that's Aspen
31:04Okay
31:05I'm gonna yell
31:06Okay that's her mom
31:07That's her mom
31:08There's Aspen
31:08Wait where's Taylor
31:09She's right there
31:10Wait where is she
31:13But that's Aspen and her mom
31:15Where's Taylor
31:16Taylor's not even there
31:17What the hell
31:18Where's Taylor
31:19Aspen's gonna be the bachelorette
31:21Oh my gosh
31:22Look at that
31:23Wait where's Taylor
31:25Oh my gosh
31:26Where's Taylor
31:27She's not coming
31:29She's not
31:29For real
31:31She's not coming
31:33You're joking
31:34No I'm being dead
31:35I heard about this
31:37Is it because of Dakota
31:39Oh no we don't know
31:40Why what's going on
31:41She slept with him last night
31:42No sir
31:43For real
31:45No sir
31:46You guys are freaking
31:46You're kidding me
31:47You're joking right
31:48No
31:49No
31:49No
31:50I got a literal
31:52For real
31:52Now why the hell
31:53Are we going and doing all of this
31:54Oh my gosh
31:55It makes me actually very sick
31:57That she would put this whole deal in jeopardy
32:01Why isn't she here
32:01She wouldn't get up
32:03We could not get her up
32:05And she's like
32:05I'm not going right now
32:06I can't do it
32:07You guys
32:08And then she's like
32:09You guys get on the flight and go
32:10Okay no
32:11She's gonna send you without going
32:13Like what's the point of that
32:14Hey I need you to call me like ASAP
32:16I fucking hate Dakota
32:18And Taylor
32:19I'm like I love my sister
32:20But I'm like
32:21We're both like
32:22Pull it out of your ass
32:23And you can't be this mad at Shania
32:24And then give him a pass
32:25And like I'm so
32:26Ew
32:26I cannot
32:27Ew
32:27Ew
32:27Ew
32:28Does ABC have a backup plan
32:29I freaking hate him
32:31For real
32:31I know
32:32Don't forget to drop your baggage
32:34Yeah
32:35She's allowing it
32:36I know
32:36I'm sorry
32:37Ew
32:37I'm sorry Leanne
32:38Come here give me a hug
32:39I'm sorry
32:40I know
32:41This is so bad you guys
32:43Taylor not showing up at the airport
32:45Is not only a bad sign for her
32:47And her journey in the Bachelorette
32:49But also for MomTalk
32:50Like she's gonna choose Dakota
32:51Who's been kind of ruining her life
32:52For the last three years
32:53Over something that is a fresh start
32:56Like all of us in MomTalk
32:57We've all tried so hard to help her
32:59And we've all been there for her
33:01But I think it backfired on us
33:03I'm like so frustrated
33:04I'm so pissed
33:05I don't even want to get on the plane
33:06No this is
33:07Well you guys shouldn't
33:07You can get on the plane
33:08If she's not coming
33:09She has to go
33:10She has to
33:10She's already announced it
33:11I'm gonna go
33:12This flight
33:13And she better be there today
33:14Or I'm cutting her freaking off
33:16Do you want us to go to her house
33:18And drag her out of bed
33:19Tell her she better get there
33:20We gotta rebook a flight
33:20Well you could go ahead
33:21And tell her
33:22If she doesn't get up and go
33:23That she's losing
33:24Everybody her help
33:25I'm done
33:26She'll be done
33:27And I'll be done too
33:28I'll be done
33:30This is so bad
33:31Taylor is like an addict
33:32When it comes to Dakota
33:33We're just trying to help her
33:35We spent hours making these signs
33:37We showed up early at the airport
33:38To be there
33:38And send her off
33:39But seeing her mom and kids
33:41Come to the airport
33:41Without her
33:42And saying she's not coming
33:43I'm like great
33:44My worst fears have come true
33:46She's gonna sabotage
33:47This entire experience
33:48For Dakota
33:48And she's never gonna get better
33:50I love you
33:51I'm sorry
33:51I'm so heated
33:52I'm sorry
33:53So don't worry
33:54Yeah go to her house
33:55Okay
33:55Go to her house
33:56We need to go take these
33:57To her door
33:58And be like
33:58Look we were here
33:59To support you
34:00We stomp him
34:10She's not gonna let us in
34:11You guys
34:11I don't give a shit
34:12I'm gonna break her damn window
34:14By her bed
34:14And jump in
34:15It's a Sunday
34:16I should be in church
34:17Praising the Lord
34:18And here I am
34:20Does anyone know her doorstep?
34:22I don't care
34:22But I know there's a big rock
34:24By her window
34:24We can slap this
34:25I'm just not sure
34:26How to approach this yet
34:27Let's approach it
34:27I don't know if we approach it angry
34:28Or like
34:29I just don't know
34:31She's not gonna answer you guys
34:33Do you have a text sent out?
34:35Almost
34:35Oh it's locked
34:36Let's turn on the next day
34:37That's probably there
34:38You guys
34:39Should we go around back?
34:40Yeah let's go
34:42Tap on the window
34:45Oh
34:45Hey what about this one?
34:46No it's locked
34:46I thought it wasn't
34:48Oh
34:48Wait it got in
34:49But there's something there
34:49Is it Dakota?
34:51Oh my gosh
34:52What do you think about this?
34:53Now that we've successfully
34:54Broken into Taylor's house
34:55I think we can officially
34:56Add breaking and entering
34:57To our resumes
34:59Should I wink?
35:01I can't wink
35:03I've been working on it
35:05Is she gonna be so mad at us?
35:07Well Leanne told us to do this
35:08There's her bag like half packed
35:11It's half packed?
35:12Yeah
35:13Oh my hell Taylor
35:15I think it looks like
35:16She didn't fully go
35:16You guys what do I do?
35:18We're already in here guys
35:19Now we can't leave
35:20So we have to just sit
35:21We're already in here
35:22Just like pop your head in
35:23Just don't like
35:24Don't say anything
35:24Unless she's awake
35:25Cause I don't wanna wake her up
35:29Taylor
35:31Yeah
35:33I'm just here
35:35Mom talk
35:35Your mom sent us
35:37I mean why are you here?
35:41I'm so sick
35:43And no one will leave me alone
35:44Taylor you have a responsibility
35:46Why aren't you on the plane?
35:47Because I'm so fucking sick
35:49What the fuck do I want me to do?
35:50I'm so sick
35:50Why won't anyone be alone?
35:53I mean you were with Dakota last night
35:54You weren't that sick
35:55What the fuck do I was with?
35:56I was with my babies all night
35:57I'm so fucking sick
36:00I mean if you don't want help
36:01We'll leave
36:01But we're just trying to
36:03Get you on top
36:05Because you said yes to Bachelorette
36:07You should have said no
36:08You're not well
36:10I'm feeling definitely sick
36:13Exhausted
36:14Drained
36:14My friends want the best for me
36:15And they're you know
36:16In my house
36:17Trying to get me to go
36:17And I really appreciate it
36:18I'm just to a point
36:19Where it's like so low
36:20That I don't even want them
36:21To help me
36:22Like I'm sorry
36:23But I'm just sick of supporting you
36:24When you keep doing this
36:25Your mom's pissed
36:26Your sister's pissed
36:27Like you're sending them to LA
36:28With your kids
36:28And you can't show up
36:30Like just say no
36:31To the Bachelorette
36:32Sucks that we woke up
36:33At 6am to be there for you
36:35So over it
36:37All of us girls
36:38Are honestly going through
36:39A lot right now
36:40Mikaela and Jace's marriage
36:42Is going through
36:42A really hard time
36:43Jessie's contemplating
36:44Divorce every day
36:45I'm dealing with
36:46My eating disorder
36:47And the last thing
36:48That we need
36:49Is our leader Taylor
36:50To be falling apart as well
36:51I just feel like
36:53She's kind of the glue
36:54To this group
36:54And if she's not doing well
36:56Then mom talk
36:57Is not doing well either
36:58Let's just go
36:59And let her
37:00Deconstruct on her own
37:01Okay we'll leave Taylor
37:03But we hope that you make
37:04One of the later flights today
37:06Go talk to Dakota
37:07Because you can talk to him
37:07And not us
37:25Thank you for talking
37:26To Whitney for me
37:26Yesterday
37:27Are you eventually
37:28Interested in talking to her
37:29Are you just done
37:30With this friendship
37:32I don't owe her anything
37:33I literally told her
37:35I said Whitney
37:35If anything
37:36Jen's the least
37:37Manipulative
37:38Calculated person I know
37:39In fact she's so
37:40Not calculated
37:41That like she gets
37:42Herself in trouble
37:42Jen wasn't planning
37:43On doing a live
37:44If she wanted to expose you
37:45For the way you've treated her
37:46She would have already done it
37:47I mean watch the live
37:48It was very much
37:49Should I have said that
37:50No
37:51Someone asked me
37:52If I'm rooting for her
37:53And I say no
37:54And now I owe her
37:55An apology
37:56That's what I told her
37:57I said wait
37:57I'm sorry I'm not
37:58Rooting for you
37:59Were you not just
38:00Saying F you to me
38:02Last week
38:04Do you see yourself
38:05Ever being friends
38:06With Whitney again
38:10Holy shit
38:11Fuck you
38:14Well I mean
38:16Whitney's to me
38:172.0
38:18Like I have no interest
38:19In being friends
38:22Interacting
38:23I'll always be cordial
38:25But like
38:26Feels like Whitney
38:28Ruined enough
38:28Of the experience
38:29And it's sad to me
38:30That now that it's over
38:31We're still talking about it
38:32And it feels like
38:33It feels like she's
38:34Like a parasite
38:35And no matter what
38:35Thing we do
38:36It always
38:37Like we can never
38:38Just enjoy the experience
38:39For what it is
38:40And take the positives
38:41And I just want to like
38:42Focus on what you
38:43Accomplished
38:43And the positives
38:44You took away
38:45You becoming a better
38:46Dancer
38:46You growing as a person
38:47Like that's what
38:48I wish we were talking
38:48About not Whitney
38:49And her drama
38:50Yeah
38:52When I got eliminated
38:53Honestly I was
38:55So sad
38:59Gosh
39:00I think the hardest part
39:02About leaving Dancing
39:02With the Stars
39:05Was how much it
39:07Brought back
39:07My authentic self
39:10And so when that
39:11Journey was over
39:13I felt like it was
39:14Almost stripped from me
39:15And so I just
39:16Remember praying to God
39:17Just being like
39:18Oh please don't
39:19Let that version
39:21Of myself go away
39:22Things are ever
39:23Going to go wrong
39:24Whenever talking to Whitney
39:27To be honest
39:28I think that's why
39:29I want to go back
39:30To Utah
39:30Is I want to regroup
39:31Go back to my family
39:33And friends
39:34And just really figure out
39:35What it is that I want
39:37I think we need to go
39:38Do something fun
39:38We need to get out
39:39Of the house
39:39And just go
39:40Going to go to the beach
39:41Yeah we need to go
39:42To the beach
39:58This is the thing
39:59With being a part
40:00Of mom talk
40:01Is there are going
40:02To be relationships
40:02That ebb and flow
40:04But which I'm not
40:05Even bothering to show up
40:06It seems that my friendship
40:07With her is officially
40:09Coming to an end
40:10Can I still be in this group
40:11And have Jen in the group
40:12Absolutely
40:12Because I'm actually
40:14A mature adult
40:15Right now my focus
40:16Is on bringing home
40:17That mirror ball
40:18And then I need to
40:19Pack for New York City
40:23And what's in New York City?
40:25Roxy Hart
40:28It's official
40:30I booked the lead role
40:31In Chicago
40:32And I'm heading to Broadway
40:50I am scared to find a guy
40:53That will love me back
40:55And also
40:56Be willing to deal
40:57With a couple baby daddies
40:58And kids
41:00But I think if I don't
41:02Take this step
41:02I do stay stagnant
41:03And where I'm at
41:04This is not only
41:05Like an opportunity
41:06I think for just
41:07Finding someone
41:08This is an opportunity
41:09To get away from
41:09The toxicity
41:11I'm in here
41:12And I want out of it
41:16Stop
41:17If you're running
41:19All wanting
41:20That American dream
41:22Stop
41:23If you're wild wanting
41:25The sweet nothing
41:27Honey
41:28I got a later flight
41:31I am in LA
41:33I am exhausted
41:34But I'm here
41:35And I'm happy
41:36That I made it
41:37I am in LA
41:40I am in LA
41:41I am in LA
41:42I am in LA
41:44I am in LA
41:46I am in LA
41:47Hi
41:48Hi
41:49Hi
41:50Hi
41:50Did you make it?
41:52I did
41:53How was it?
41:55Good
41:55Just really tired
41:58Yeah I bet
41:59So Taylor just landed
42:01And I feel like this is the last chance
42:03We'll be able to kind of
42:05I don't know
42:06Even like express to her
42:07How I feel
42:08Essentially just the fact of
42:10I've always wanted you
42:11I um
42:13I do just want to say sorry
42:16For everything that I did
42:18I know that that caused a lot of problems
42:21Um not only
42:22Can you be more specific
42:23What you're talking about?
42:24With Shania
42:25Um
42:26For doing what?
42:26What did you do?
42:27Even with you
42:27For you know what I did
42:29For hooking up with her
42:30Well be specific
42:31If you're going to apologize about
42:32Well I think
42:33I think everybody knows that
42:34I want to hear it
42:36Yes
42:36I want to hear how sorry you are
42:38For what you did
42:38I know I am
42:39Taylor
42:40I'm sorry for what I did
42:42I'm sorry for hooking up with Shania
42:43I think
42:44Was it dumb of me?
42:45Yes
42:46Well could I pick someone else?
42:48Yes
42:48Like who it was matters
42:50And that's where I think I went wrong
42:52And I picked somebody that
42:55I mean obviously yeah
42:57It was going to come with problems
42:58And um
43:00I think that was like
43:01Very shitty of me to do
43:03Thank you
43:04And it put you in a shitty spot
43:05And I know that hurt you really bad
43:07The apology is just words like it always is
43:10How many times can he do this
43:12Where you believe it
43:13And you suck back into it
43:14And it's not true
43:15Wake up
43:16I think there's a lot of pain
43:17I think there's a lot of things
43:18We've done to hurt each other
43:20But overall I still think we love each other
43:23It's toxic
43:24That's the issue
43:24I know it is toxic
43:25I agree
43:26But that's the thing
43:27Is I also
43:28It doesn't have to be this way
43:30We make it toxic
43:31It doesn't have to be that way
43:33This would be the best thing for us
43:34Regardless of like what happens
43:36Yeah I agree
43:37For you and me
43:37Like this would be the best like
43:39Break and break off of like our cycles
43:41And I think you could do a lot of healing
43:42But it's up to you
43:43Really
43:44What you do
43:45I just feel like
43:47I don't know
43:48Like I am
43:48I'm happy for you
43:49Like I want you to be happy
43:50And if you
43:51And that's what I'm saying
43:51If you do find someone
43:52Like great
43:53But all I'm going to say
43:57Save a rose for me
43:58Okay
44:00Like if you don't find someone
44:02Like I know I've been acting
44:03Like such a dumbass
44:05And I've kind of just like
44:06Fell completely away
44:07From who I am
44:09And
44:10Like that's
44:11That's why I love you
44:12It's like
44:15Like you're the only person
44:16That could help me
44:17See that sometimes
44:17Of just like
44:19Hey
44:20Like this isn't who you are
44:22Hey just not
44:24I think that's not secret
44:25To anybody
44:26Dakota
44:27What?
44:29Say it
44:31That there's feelings there
44:32Obviously
44:34Can you just admit
44:35That you still love me?
44:37I love you
44:38And I hate you
44:39I think talking to Dakota
44:41Is not a good idea
44:43But it's a hard pill to swallow
44:44That it's done
44:45And I need to move on
44:46It hurts
44:47Just say it
44:48Like
44:48Oh
44:50At the end of the day
44:51I do think it's an opportunity
44:52To get away from him
44:53Absolutely
44:53It's like a dream come true
44:54Okay
44:55They're about to film me
44:56Getting away from him
45:03So just let me know
45:06Okay bye
45:23The night is finally here
45:25It's my annual Halloween party
45:26Last year at the Halloween party
45:28There was a lot of rowdiness
45:29I have no idea
45:30How this is gonna go down
45:31But this year
45:31I'm hoping that tonight
45:32We can just have a chance
45:34To relax
45:34And maybe have one night of fun
45:38I am so happy to hear
45:39That Taylor finally caught
45:40A flight to LA
45:41For The Bachelorette
45:42Things with Taylor and MomTalk
45:43Feel a little unresolved right now
45:45But I feel like
45:46The Bachelorette
45:47Is gonna be like
45:48An eight week detox
45:49Where she can't talk to Dakota
45:50And it couldn't be coming
45:52At a better time
45:53Are you Blair?
45:54I'm the new Queen Bee
45:55Obviously
45:56I should have known
45:57Thank you
46:00Look at
46:01She's Blair
46:01You look so hot
46:05No I'm like obsessed
46:06Thank you
46:07Where's Jace though?
46:09I have no idea
46:10What?
46:11I'm like I think he's coming
46:12Oh okay
46:12You just drove separate?
46:14Yeah
46:14Okay
46:14It's still kind of awkward
46:16Because I still haven't told
46:17The other girls
46:17Kind of the state of
46:19Where Jace and I are at
46:20And they don't know
46:21That the two of us
46:21Are living separately currently
46:23And Macy's the only one that knows
46:26I like my alone time for sure
46:28But also I'm like
46:29I don't like being alone
46:31At the same time
46:31I'm just hoping
46:32It gets better
46:34And I just don't want
46:36This information
46:36In someone's hand
46:37Like Jordan
46:38Who has a big mouth
46:39Jeff Bass is here
46:40Whoa
46:41Whoa
46:42Hi
46:43I think it's definitely
46:45Hitting me
46:45The gravity of
46:46Being separated
46:48And what that looks like
46:49I think there's part of me
46:50That is definitely scared
46:51To lose him
46:53Because I don't know
46:54How long it's going to take
46:55And I don't know
46:56How long he can be patient for
47:00Yeah
47:00I don't know
47:01I don't know how to feel about it
47:02Just feeling super nice
47:04You can touch me all the time
47:06Dan Humphrey
47:08You're hot
47:09You're hot
47:10You're hot
47:10You're hot
47:10Yes
47:11You guys get so good
47:13You are so good
47:15I like love this vibe on you
47:17Naughty schoolgirl
47:19He liked it
47:20It's so good
47:22I'm upset
47:23It's a running day
47:25Golden to the rhythm of my own
47:26Big girl
47:27Oh
47:28Are you drunk?
47:30Yes
47:30Are you kidding?
47:32Oh my gosh
47:33Leave it down for me
47:34Layla
47:35I'm very grateful for
47:36Jesse and Miranda
47:37And how supportive
47:38They've been for me
47:38Throughout this
47:39Hard time
47:41Sometimes when you're
47:42In the midst of
47:43An eating disorder
47:43It feels
47:45Like you're never
47:46Gonna
47:47Be better
47:48And you're never gonna
47:49Like overcome it
47:51However
47:51Jesse found
47:52One of the number one
47:53Eating disorder facilities
47:54Here in the U.S.
47:55Which is amazing
47:57Hey
47:57Guys
47:58Hello
47:59Hi Layla
48:00Thank you so much for coming
48:01See you
48:02I'm a little nervous
48:03Definitely
48:03I feel like I don't know
48:05What to expect
48:05Okay
48:05We have all options
48:06We have 24 hour care
48:08We have outpatient
48:09So we'll just kind of see
48:10What kind of fits your needs
48:11What you're looking for
48:12I was definitely anxious
48:13Going into the center
48:14And they kept telling me
48:15That they weren't gonna
48:16Check me in
48:17And have me be impatient
48:18But that didn't happen
48:19So that's good
48:20Are you guys
48:21Are you all schoolgirls?
48:22I was like what's going on
48:23Hey
48:23How are you?
48:24I've listened to your book
48:25Okay
48:26I'm like I'm an hour left
48:27It's fucking so good
48:29Yeah
48:29I'm actually shocked
48:30To hear that Mason
48:31Read my book
48:32And he was saying
48:32How much he loved it
48:33Which I was like
48:34Wait what?
48:34I like
48:35Sorry I didn't know
48:36Guys like read books
48:37Maybe that's so horrible
48:38Of me to say
48:39But like
48:39Despite everything going on
48:40In MomTalk right now
48:41The reason why I wrote this book
48:43Was to inspire
48:44I think that's what
48:45Keeps me fighting
48:46To save my friend group
48:47To save MomTalk
48:48And keep them away
48:49From all these toxic men
48:50Because I've been through
48:51A lot of challenges
48:52Heartbreaks
48:52Hardships
48:53And I just want my friends
48:54To be happy
48:54I just want us to thrive
48:55And that's a big purpose
48:57Behind what I do
49:05It looks like his type
49:06So
49:07We're like
49:07We're like
49:08We're trying to figure it out
49:11Hi
49:13You came here
49:15You're crazy
49:16You're crazy
49:17I'm not crazy
49:18I cannot believe you're here
49:21Wait wait wait
49:22Hold on
49:24So Shania shows up
49:26And damn
49:28This is a tough spot
49:30So it feels a little awkward
49:32Obviously like seeing her
49:33And the last thing I want
49:34Is for us to have some
49:36Shit show happened
49:37Like the last Halloween
49:38Why is he talking to Shania?
49:41They're back together
49:43He's so dumb
49:43For doing this right now
49:44I'm glad we made a sex pack
49:45For sure
49:46That was cool
49:46Yeah that was badass
49:48Huh
49:48To be fair
49:50I also thought
49:51It was going to last
49:51A lot longer
49:52Than what it did
49:53You broke it
49:55Not me
49:55I know
49:55But hang on
49:56Wait I know
49:57No no no no
49:58Oh my gosh
49:59Okay
50:00Technically
50:01Okay
50:01Oh fuck
50:03Dakota
50:05I didn't even
50:06Well I never got the chance
50:07To even tell you this
50:08So
50:10Yeah you're going to
50:11Fucking hate it
50:12But
50:13You already know
50:15Probably
50:16It was freaking Taylor
50:19The truth is
50:21This right now
50:22Okay
50:23This is what I am right now
50:24I'm like
50:25I'm just emotionally
50:26Like
50:26I think a little bit more
50:28Messed up than I thought
50:29I thought I could maybe do it
50:31I would love to be with Taylor
50:32I would love that opportunity
50:34And maybe there's a chance
50:35That this could be something
50:36That she needs
50:37If she goes out
50:38And dates like
50:3830 handpicked men for her
50:40And
50:41Ends up choosing me at the end
50:42I feel like that's also
50:43Maybe like a
50:44Good sign
50:45For her
50:45Like
50:46Maybe that would help her
50:47Yeah but I'm also
50:49Again
50:49I'm in a position
50:50To where
50:51I don't think I can sit
50:52And rely on that either
50:53Of having that hope
50:55I do want you to know
50:56I really did care
50:58A lot about
50:59Like how everything went down
51:00And that was really hard to watch
51:02Oh I'm sorry
51:03I don't know
51:04I'm like sorry
51:04You had to go through that
51:05I just don't ever
51:06Wanted to come back on brand
51:08And that's my only thing
51:09That I care about
51:10Being back in MomTalk
51:11It's no secret
51:12That Taylor and I
51:14Have kind of been through hell
51:16I mean it's been
51:17One thing after the next
51:19It seems
51:19You think Taylor
51:20Should still be leading MomTalk
51:23Personally
51:23You know
51:25Maybe we just raw dog
51:26MomTalk
51:27No leader
51:34We have come so far
51:36In just the last few years
51:37Especially here
51:38In the Utah Mormon culture
51:39Because MomTalk
51:40Has flipped
51:40Typical gender roles
51:41We're breadwinners
51:42Not trad wives
51:43With Taylor being bachelorette
51:45Whitney and Jen
51:46Doing Dancing with the Stars
51:47Macy and her book event
51:48Layla and modeling
51:49We all have so many
51:50Cool things happening for us
51:52Oh I love it
51:53It really is true
51:54That in life
51:55What you do doesn't matter
51:56It's who you spend your time with
51:57So having a good supportive
51:59Group of friends
51:59Makes your accomplishments
52:01Even better
52:02I'm not here
52:03Because I need to pray
52:04Okay
52:06I needed to talk to somebody
52:07About this
52:08Because like
52:08It's kind of been
52:09Freaking me out
52:10A little bit
52:10But like Taylor told me
52:11Like
52:13The last time that we did it
52:15That she was like
52:16Ovulating
52:21So she could be pregnant
52:22Like Taylor
52:23Randomly in bed
52:24She goes
52:25She's like
52:25I haven't had my period yet
52:26And I was like
52:27I was like
52:28From like
52:28When?
52:29Like
52:29And then she told me
52:30I was like
52:31Whoa hang on
52:32Is she going to be
52:33A pregnant bachelorette?
52:35That's what I'm freaking
52:36But because
52:36They took her damn phone
52:38Before I could ask her
52:39And say
52:39Hey have you
52:40Did you start your period
52:41Or what's going on here?
52:42This is a movie
52:43Like
52:44Deep down
52:44Like you have symptoms
52:45You know if you're pregnant
52:46Like especially
52:47What's weird too
52:47Is like
52:48Then I was starting to think
52:48About like
52:49How emotional
52:49Kind of she's been lately
52:50She's been a little erratic
52:52Yeah like
52:52A little bit more
52:53To where I was like
52:54God Dakota
52:54This is so bad
52:55And then she was like
52:55Sick a few times
52:56Like I remember
52:57Telling me she felt sick
52:57A little bit
52:58To where I was like
52:58Holy
52:59But I just don't
53:00I don't know anything
53:02Can you fucking imagine
53:03You guys
53:04Like she's the bachelorette
53:05And she's pregnant
53:06Like that's never happened
53:07I don't feel like
53:08They could keep her on for that
53:09I'm scared to death
53:10I don't know if she's pregnant
53:11Oh Taylor
53:18What are you feeling?
53:19Is there a possibility
53:21That you know
53:22You could be pregnant?
53:44Feel the beat of my heart
53:47Only you can make it stop
53:52At the final part
53:55Can you feel the beat of my heart?
54:00Can you feel the beat of my heart?
54:04Beat of my heart?
54:06Beat of my heart?
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