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00:12Stop talking and listen.
00:15No, I am listening.
00:16I said be a mom.
00:17You just told me to ask.
00:18Didn't you just ask me to explain it to you?
00:20Now you're telling me to listen.
00:22So which one do you want?
00:23Do you want me to listen or do you want me to tell you?
00:26Both.
00:27Communicate.
00:27No, you just told me to stop and listen.
00:29So I'm listening.
00:30Well, you had your trip.
00:30I'm listening.
00:31My mom and I just landed in Colorado.
00:33I'm hoping that this trip gives me a little bit of information, answers about my biological dad.
00:38But this trip is already hell because I don't want to be in the car anymore with my mom.
00:44No, it's just very toxic.
00:46Why didn't you ask him?
00:47Dakota, why the fuck are you a fucking liar?
00:49Why wasn't anyone asking him that?
00:51I don't know.
00:52We didn't ask him.
00:53That's why I'm asking.
00:53We don't know.
00:54I just told you an answer.
00:55Oh, you don't know.
00:56We don't know.
00:56You shouldn't be with him.
00:57That's the whole point.
00:58Sometimes I just want to be heard.
01:00Like, just listen to.
01:02And, like, there's always an opinion or advice.
01:04And then maybe I just need to be more clear.
01:06Just listen and say nothing.
01:07I'm sick of talking about Dakota.
01:10This isn't just about Dakota.
01:11No, that's all it is.
01:13You're still hooked up on him.
01:15No, you are.
01:16I hate him.
01:16No, you're hooked up on him.
01:17You're still in love with him.
01:19You are.
01:19You want me to have respect for you.
01:22I don't ask for respect.
01:24Okay, but you want us to back you up, but you can't even respect me.
01:27No, I don't want you to back me.
01:28Don't back me up.
01:29No, then why are you pissed?
01:30Huh?
01:31Why are you pissed then?
01:32I'm asking you.
01:32If you don't want us to back you up.
01:34You can answer.
01:34You haven't answered my goddamn question.
01:35Stop using the Lord's name in vain, please.
01:40I want to go home.
01:41So I'm going back to the airport.
01:43I don't want to do this anymore.
01:46Come ye saints and come ye sinners.
01:53Alleluia.
01:55Listener, I'm the one you've been dreaming of.
02:00I've got everything you could ever want.
02:03Trying to see you out, bring you to your knees.
02:07Baby, you're going to believe.
02:09Baby, you're going to believe.
02:16Baby, you're going to believe.
02:20Baby, you're going to believe.
02:24Baby, you're going to believe.
02:27Baby, you're going to believe.
02:28Baby, you're going to believe.
02:29Baby, you're going to believe.
02:30Baby, you're going to believe.
02:32Baby, you're going to believe.
02:36Baby, you're going to believe.
02:52oh it's busy today i'm not gonna lie i feel like i would have a blast here
02:56i know this is one of those times where i'm like yeah i'll just go play with the kids then
03:00you're like climbing by myself climbing up that thing dating as a single mom is incredibly
03:05challenging my boys are my whole world but things are going really good between me and mason we've
03:10been together five months officially and i'm really happy i let mason see my kids maybe once a
03:18week i just feel like until i know that he truly is in this for the right reasons he's not
03:23in the
03:23place yet to be a father figure around them what happened to your arms you have you look like an
03:28elephant with your trunk right here okay go over there go play go on fun bro do the slide this
03:36slide in the back do the rainbow slide
03:41your child needs some milk good job are you excited for new york yes it's gonna be fun i'm super
03:50excited
03:51because i'm going to new york tomorrow to pursue some things with modeling mason's also coming
03:54along with me to new york and i'm really excited to have them come support me i've been modeling
03:59since i was a little girl and i've done small shows and modeled for boutiques and things like
04:03that but i had to put a big hold on it being a mom but i am excited to be
04:08able to put myself
04:09first for a second i mean i don't have these legs for no reason you know they need to be
04:13on a runway
04:15i have a meeting lined up with ford like the modeling agency series yeah are you nervous i'm excited
04:22but nervous just being able to get like a meeting with them is like a big deal so is it
04:27like one
04:27of the bigger ones like in the world that's sick i'm excited you're gonna be there it's gonna be a
04:33fun trip five more minutes okay okay five minutes all its girls are getting such cool opportunities
04:40like the girls dancing the stars and taylor got charrette yeah and i kind of get my chance now
04:47just because i've been dreaming of doing modeling since i was little
04:51gotta get dinner soon we should for sure go on five
04:57they can have like ten they're fine
05:00i did say five minutes a few seconds yeah but this is so
05:07what
05:09they're having fun dinner can wait maybe we should compromise called seven
05:15no ten i just feel like with the kids sometimes they can have another five minutes another five
05:21minutes another five minutes you know like i feel like they just like push you and see how far they
05:26can get away with you sometimes and they just kind of get away with a lot it's like who's controlling
05:33who a little bit
05:38yeah i guess i just feel like you should put your foot down a little bit more there definitely has
05:42been a few times in the past that mason seems very annoyed with my boys i'm definitely scared to
05:48bring up these things with mason i'm afraid it would potentially scare him off or i would come off too
05:53strong and he wouldn't know how to handle it i just i don't want to ruin the relationship before
06:00new york and i just don't want things to be awkward or heated or feel contention so i just
06:04don't think right now is the time to bring it up
06:25let's just try to get along while we're here we came all this way
06:32even though i did want to go home i still want to learn more about my biological father brian so
06:37i want to sweep everything with my mom that just happened under the rug so we can actually be present
06:41here and get the most out of what we came for hi thank you for having us taylor nice to
06:48meet you
06:48you look nice i've known steve since i was in high school he knew brian throughout his life and he
06:58was probably the best resource for taylor to ask any questions that she might have
07:05let me start from the top or yeah go for it all right so brian was just a great person
07:09super super
07:10super super intelligent that's what everyone says about him super intelligent he was a tough kid
07:15was also a taurus i don't know if that matters so for us i don't know much about like the
07:18taurus
07:19ones i don't like have a bull headed i guess yeah like a bull yeah just kind of like you
07:24know
07:24show them red and then they go crazy i don't know oh maybe that's where i get half of that
07:27problem maybe and the other half of me i guess he used to fight a lot all the fights he
07:33got into the
07:34they started it with him oh really yeah why i don't know that's how i feel everyone just starts
07:39friends with me and i have to fight he ends up going to the marines after the basic training
07:44he comes back because that's two years before you're born and he gets in a horrible car accident
07:49and so he breaks his neck and that just changes everything he just never recovered so we see
07:56like pretty normal before that like super so you he didn't even do drugs before that no thing would
08:01have been different he was like really happy and like in high school like that jock nothing super
08:05cool straight like yeah football healthy smart strong how old so when was the car accident how old was
08:12he um probably 19 brian and i met when i was 15 the car accident he was in changed him
08:18completely
08:19but i stayed with him i felt like i was in love with him brian had that hold on me
08:24that i i feel
08:25like dakota has on taylor brian got the worst of it he was in the backseat broke his neck um
08:3093 rolls around
08:31and he discovered cocaine yeah and well then crystal meth comes in at some point in the late 90s just
08:40never it's
08:40just it breaks my heart it always did and i always try to like help him out i just know
08:45he had an
08:46overdose in 2015. oh wow i don't know i think that just sends him down because he was gone about
08:52a year
08:52later it's wild it's a lot to take in yeah um i don't know how is this for you it's
09:02just like a kind
09:02of a blur no i know i feel like you don't remember like anything about him i remember him but
09:07i mean
09:07they're just i remember fighting most of the time yeah and not so maybe it's not something you like to
09:12talk about i don't i don't know i just remember one incident i'm not going to say that on camera
09:17though
09:17but what what was it yeah the reservoir he was just kind of bad temper oh yeah i'll just say
09:25that
09:25i think he like kicked you in the stomach yeah like in front of everyone yeah that was a really
09:33toxic relationship i was very jealous very jealous he dragged me out of a club one time hearing that
09:40my biological father he would like kick her in front of everyone you know it was really sad i just
09:45didn't know it was that extent so it makes me actually feel for her um because i think she just
09:49gets triggered and when she sees any toxicity in like my life or my relationship i think i need to
09:55give her that grace because i don't think she's ever been heard when i found out i was pregnant with
09:59taylor we had just broken up and then i find out i'm pregnant with her i didn't want anything to
10:05do
10:05with him and then after i had the baby we kind of got back together and then i'm like oh
10:09no because
10:10that's what he started doing so i do recall like drugs you met jeremy and then jeremy ended up
10:15adopting you right yeah brian just i think at that point was just so far gone he was just like
10:20i'm
10:20just going to stay over let's kind of stay out of it jeremy came into our lives like at the
10:26lowest
10:27time of my life taylor was just a little over a year old and i feel that he saved me
10:34and i feel like
10:36that he saved taylor i brought some pictures here i brought you a handful of them that's so cool
10:43that's his senior picture you can kind of see i have his little smirk i do know that he reminds
10:49me a lot of my son that's crazy like my youngest which is yeah it's interesting it would be his
10:55like little mini if he was here he walks like him too his same oh yeah it's weird i would
11:00always
11:00have dreams about him like even when i moved to utah that he was going to show up on our
11:04doorstep
11:05like for both of us but he never did i didn't know my mom feared brian um in that way
11:13there is a part of me that like wonders what else she hasn't told me what else was going on
11:18what
11:18else happened that you're not saying or maybe never will i think if he was still around he would
11:23have made peace with you by now or i just attempted to reach out um just wasn't his right mind
11:28this is a great guy i'm going to take it personal for sure
11:41oh would you look at this what looks good so far now i'm trying to be festive
11:52i can't even pick these up these are so heavy jordan and i have just been really stuck i'm just
11:57trying to keep my head above water trying not to make any drastic moves right now while we figure
12:02it out but it is getting exhausting and i genuinely don't know what the right decision is
12:06how you talked to dakota lately yeah i went over to his and saw his new house did you help
12:11him like
12:11decorate or anything uh no it's pretty much a bachelor's path i mean he did tell me he's
12:17seeing somebody really he told me that it's someone that we know but we don't but he won't
12:22tell me who it is huh so this girl you're seeing exclusively i've been playing a little bit with fire
12:28is she in taylor's circle well this isn't yeah yeah he's like he won't tell you who it is he's
12:35being weird about it and it's someone we know is he serious yeah dakota's single and he can do
12:40whatever he wants but what worries me is taylor's mindset when she hears about him doing things
12:45because we all saw what happened when she heard about the dad talk trip to england i just want to
12:50know if you like enjoyed it taylor so i'm freaking so sad he just says okay did he think that
12:58whoever it is would cause a problem with taylor i said on a scale of one to ten like how
13:04bad is it
13:05and he said a nine are you kidding yeah maybe it's miranda it's not shut up it's not miranda i
13:14don't
13:15know but shania that was my first reaction was like is it shania and then he said no shania and
13:22taylor
13:22are incredibly close but they are close enough for shania to know that dakota's off limits because we
13:27were all just hanging out with shania at pickleball shania confided in taylor about the guy she was
13:32seeing and taylor consoled her and hugged her and was giving her advice update me what what's the
13:36verdict he got back with his wife they moved back in together because he found god i really hope it's
13:43not shania it would rattle so many friendships within mom talk do you have any other clues i mean
13:48i the other day we were going to the gym and i was seeing where he was because we're supposed
13:52to meet
13:53there and i saw that he was at this apartment complex and you have this location yeah we all
13:57have each other's location what do you mean all like me and all my friends have each other's
14:00locations that is so weird i don't have anything to hide so i saw that he was coming from this
14:05apartment complex in lehigh and he was like oh it's just you know just this girl shania lives in lehigh
14:10i'm pretty sure and if it's someone in the friend group that's miranda's best friend and she's been
14:16around taylor a lot and she comments on taylor's stuff and taylor comments on her stuff i just don't know
14:20who else
14:20it would be i'm starting to feel like the girl dakota's seeing could very well be shania i didn't
14:26think dakota would do something like this to piss taylor off but i'm also not surprised because
14:31everyone dakota chooses is someone that would piss taylor off how dumb is he like why does he keep doing
14:37shit like this
14:46all the love go out i'm the new girl that you're talking about i don't care for clout and i'm
14:53what
14:53your man still dreams about
15:01hey brett amazing okay perfect thank you i'm meeting with the agency for today
15:08to talk about my potential of signing with them this is a very cutthroat industry to be a part of
15:12modeling agencies are looking at you up and down and judging you if you're good enough for them or
15:17not and it's very hard but it's something i really want for myself super badly and being signed with one
15:22of the biggest agencies in the world would just be such an honor hello layla hi how are you nice
15:28to
15:28meet you nice to meet you i'm brett hi nice to meet you nice to meet you as well hi
15:31nice to meet you
15:32guys welcome to ford thank you for meeting with me absolutely absolutely do you want to come on in
15:36yeah of course so welcome to ford yeah so i'm from la i'm in the ford la team i'm the
15:42director over there
15:42i'm brett so i'm work here on the women's board here at ford i've been here for like 10 years
15:47now
15:47amazing yeah it's almost a decade tell us a little bit about you i'm a mom of two little boys
15:53they're four and three they're like my whole world um in terms of like modeling and those
15:57type of things i've been freelance modeling for probably like five issues now just like things
16:02here and there smaller boutiques here in utah but i've always had like a love for modeling ever since
16:06i was little i've always had like a dream of like being on a runway but i feel like i'm
16:10in the place
16:11right now that like i've done a lot of things booking things on my own and getting things started
16:15for myself but now i just feel like i need like guidance in this world it's just such a big
16:19world to
16:19navigate how is your book do you have like good images i have some good digitals that i have gotten
16:24yeah i haven't put together like an official book yet but i have a couple sets of digital so
16:28that would be another thing that we would want to do we have to test you work with different
16:31photographers and put together a book that then we would show clients okay is me coming out once
16:36a month to new york like a good amount or do you think i would need i'll be honest with
16:40you
16:40we really would need a commitment from you of three or four months here on the ground where
16:45you're able to run to test shoots go on castings really get your foot in the door but it just
16:50takes
16:51a little bit of time to break into it and i feel like if you just come here once a
16:55month it's you're
16:56going to go back and you're just going to kind of reverse everything that you just have to start over
17:00hearing that i would have to move to new york for three months to complete my portfolio i would love
17:05to
17:05actually see your walk if you don't mind i don't know how i would do it with my boys and
17:09my relationship
17:09with mason but i'm also kind of like excited at the thought of it i think it'd be worth it
17:13in the end
17:13moving forward uh we're going to get together with the other agents and then figure out
17:17you know if we see you as a good fit for ford um and then we'll be in touch well
17:22it was so great
17:23meeting you thank you so much for coming in so much signing with ford would be life-changing for me
17:28with my modeling career i feel good about this and i don't know just fingers crossed that this goes
17:33a good way all right thank you so much for coming in thank you look like a real man honey
17:47i think it's perfect i'm coming for whitney's job on the farm on the farm oh look at you dude
17:52you look
17:53cool you look hella straight with that off hella straight straight
17:59today is the first day of the red west festival which is a country concert in utah jacob helped
18:06with the marketing so he got us all these tickets kota vip passed and i yelled at him for it
18:11i'm like
18:12but taylor is in colorado right now i'm really looking forward to listening to some music having
18:17some fun without any drama hey you guys look at dakota nice to meet you i'm dakota nice to meet
18:24you nice to meet you on the way over jordan was like yeah dakota has like a roster of girls
18:28jordan
18:28said there's one in particular that like i think would pause an issue and i was like what do you
18:33mean and he's like i can't say yeah let's ask him ask jordan not dakota why not ask dakota because
18:38i
18:38don't want jordan to get mad jordan hasn't told me who this mystery person that dakota's talking to is
18:43and i feel like he's trying to protect dakota so for the sake of my marriage i shouldn't be saying
18:48anything but this is something that really could shake up taylor and how do i just keep this a
18:52secret so i said that there was like girls who's the girl to talk to so who's the girl that
18:58who's
19:05dakota's finally told me who he's been seeing and after the aftermath of the villa we can't tell
19:10you should because you will tell her that she does every time i'm keeping my hands out of this
19:16and keeping my mouth shut so who's the girl that's gonna cause issues issues but taylor they're trying
19:22to figure out who another girl is dakota hooked up with or is dating or something so it must be
19:27someone
19:27consequential then are you lying no i mean like there's like we don't care i have to be clear i
19:34don't
19:34know if dakota is trying to play coy keeping the secret or if he's genuinely just terrified of us as
19:39he
19:39should be but clearly he's hiding something it's not like us to let that just slip under the radar
19:45it's time to go full fbi on this bitch full fbi so we're 100 going to get to the bottom
19:52of it
19:52you guys know how jordan is jordan be safe look at him look at him right now he's over there
19:57probably
19:57gossiping right now about something about what about shania i feel like i have reason to believe
20:04it's shania i just don't know who else it would be i feel like as i start talking to dakota
20:09i'm just
20:09going to pretend i know and call him out and see what happens okay so who is it no i'm
20:15not i'm not
20:16going to i don't really want to i didn't say any like i know it's going to come out so
20:20i just i don't
20:21want to be the one i don't want to be the one i'll just say how i feel like honestly
20:24it's been like
20:25kind of cool actually so i'm kind of just like riding with it i don't want to say no to
20:30be fair
20:30it actually happened very like it doesn't matter how it happened this is a safe environment it is not
20:39it's not jesse you're gonna tell us jessie just saying can i say it no
20:46shania
20:53i knew it i knew it
21:20right when i think dakota couldn't get any dumber he gets dumber
21:26i do think dakota is doing this just to get back at taylor and to make her jealous and have
21:30her come running back to him
21:34randa knows
21:38because she's friends with taylor no she's not
21:51i just didn't want this to come out
21:53before taylor
21:54i agree taylor could fly off the handle over that and i think she would
21:58yeah and that's why i was scared am i scared for taylor to find out of course
22:04um i'm afraid of taylor finding out anything it doesn't matter what it is if i'm trying to talk to
22:09where we're wrong i'm scared of taylor finding that out
22:11i just think you're not doing anything wrong you're single well there is something else that comes
22:44out down the road
22:46now i'm nervous what is it i have two years and four months
22:49things over
23:03oh
23:06oh my gosh this is so weird
23:10oh this is just so wild it's been what 12 15 years for me that's nuts
23:15where do you want to go where other places do you want to visit should we go where i met
23:20brian
23:20for the first time yeah we can i kind of just want to see if anything will pop up in
23:25my head
23:26i did initially meet my biological father once when i was four at this restaurant
23:30you know that was the one time i had met him i don't really know necessarily what i'm looking
23:33for here but i think it's just let's just go and see you know what happens
23:42oh wow it's like it just looks so different yeah i guess it's not the same blue building i thought
23:50it was gonna be it even looks different from the outside it does yeah
23:57yeah so weird huh yeah does that bring back any memories for you or no what that this place did
24:04you knew you were gonna see him no so you didn't know he worked no oh my gosh so when
24:08you saw him
24:09what did you say to him i asked him if he wanted to meet you and he said yeah so
24:14that's why i called
24:14you over i remember like hi what's up yeah that was pretty much it that's probably like a huge thing
24:20to meet your kid that you haven't really talked to was that weird for you yeah it was
24:26different what did you think that day i don't know going back to the place that taylor first met
24:33brian i see him meeting her i have this beautiful little four-year-old i want to introduce and i
24:40would
24:40want him to feel the same feelings that i have have for this person but he he never did you
24:47don't like
24:47to talk about him okay i just yeah i don't i don't i don't know i don't know do you
24:52like kind of get
24:53embarrassed no i just i don't know it's just a long time ago wasn't in a good part of my
25:04life it's not
25:04something like that i like to talk about taylor keeps asking questions about brian and i feel a
25:13little bit uneasy i don't want her to hurt anymore i guess i kept things from her because i want
25:19to
25:19protect her but i'm curious about it like i don't know i know but maybe i'm not ready for that
25:26i i
25:27would hope that you would respect that
25:31yeah like disrespect whenever you're ready to talk about it or if you ever will be i know i might
25:36not
25:36ever be the fact that he's like kicked you in front of people is very i've gotten pulled yeah there's
25:41just a lot of stuff concerning i just don't want to talk about it i think i need to take
25:48a walk
25:50it is frustrating to have my mom say she might not ever be able to open up to me but
25:55i do think
25:56it's healthy to do it and so that's why i'm encouraging her to because i just want her to feel
26:00hurt as well that's all
26:11one two three all eyes on me when i walk in the room like what you see
26:20i make it look easy
26:23one two three all eyes on me
26:29hello hello how are you i'm so good how are you good how's dancing with the stars i'm not gonna
26:37lie i think this is this has been one of the hardest things we've ever done i mean really yeah
26:42i mean
26:43think about it having to you know do late night feedings breastfeeding while i'm gone dancing five
26:50to eight hours a day dancing with the stars has been one of the greatest experience for me it's
26:55also been one of the hardest oh my gosh i'm having a mental breakdown you know there's been a lot
27:00of
27:00times where i have felt inadequate
27:12and i do have to remember that i just had a baby
27:19but i can't help but you know be hard on myself when this is everything to me how do you
27:24feel like
27:25yours and whitney's relationship has been doing dancing with the stars together you know what it's
27:30been it's been cordial i think the thing that i'm struggling with the most is you know how like
27:36things were left at the reunion um yeah i do feel like whitney's still in denise corner she continues
27:45to call me a liar when she hasn't taken accountability i think you both played a role
27:50in where you are today i was defending myself i never went out of my way intentionally to hurt her
27:56it just feels like we're kind of putting on a fake yeah front for for the sake of not having
28:04drama and
28:05trying to focus on our journey so jen tells me that there's a little bit of tension between her and
28:10whitney mom talk is at a good place right now and i don't want it to affect the state of
28:15mom talk i just
28:16hope that they can sit down have a conversation and work out whatever issues they're having just like
28:20whitney and i did i miss you and honestly i'm excited to reunite once all of this craziness is is
28:29we need a good coming tonight okay i love you i love you
28:38you hungry starving yeah i mean can i get a glass of pina grigia of course yeah
28:43that's true yeah you got it thank you okay tell me about the forward interview i feel like the
28:48meeting overall went good they had me take some digitals and they filmed me doing my walk and stuff
28:52if they were to side me i would have to be here for like three months to like get things
28:58started
28:58taking digitals every day doing shoots every day i feel like i could make it work but it's still kind
29:03of scary just because what if i have like something important and then also still like mom talk at the
29:10end of the day like i still love all those girls and i want to be able to show up
29:12for them and all
29:13the things that they have going on i feel like that would be kind of like hard on our relationship
29:16too so it's definitely something i need to like think about long term but new york is like my dream
29:22i want to do high fashion i want to do like the bigger names and things like that so i
29:28don't want to
29:28get my hopes up definitely there's a lot of anxiety around it three months away that's a long time
29:34would you like come and visit me as much as you could yeah oh yeah oh yeah or would you
29:43have to
29:43like stay behind to like be a step daddy i'm just kidding no your kids are cute as far i'll
29:50for sure
29:50watch them i don't know if i'm ready for that like all jokes aside i don't know i think the
29:57thought of
29:57having to move away for three months when i'm just at the start of my relationship with mason is really
30:01hard and i feel like right now we're in the state that we're still trying to get to know each
30:04other
30:05and kind of in the honeymoon phase however i definitely think i would need mason's support
30:09to make this work and this makes me feel like i need to talk to him about him and the
30:13kids
30:13relationship like when my boys get crazy sometimes i feel like your patience is like
30:18smaller sometimes yeah i try not to overstep my bounds because like i know they're not mine
30:23they're yours like i love being around them i like don't want to like be that one that's like
30:28cracking the whip either because you're not comfortable with it because i'm like they're
30:31not mine and it's your call no frankly if you were to discipline them i would tell you no i
30:35just feel
30:35like sometimes around you they just get away with like murder but i see them like this not disrespecting
30:41you but they throw at you sometimes and i'm like hey four years they're four years old i know but
30:45like
30:45i also you'll say don't do that and they'll like hit you and i'm just like hey we don't hit
30:50mom
30:50and i just want to like voice that from a place that comes with a little bit of like
30:54i'm a little protective of you i've seen it i'm not saying they're like bad at all they're kids
31:00i think mason is completely overstepping right now with what he's saying you're not a parent you're
31:04an uncle and you get to say bye when the kids start being annoying so when you actually are a
31:09parent and
31:09you have to do it full-time 24 7 then you can talk on it i'm their mom i don't
31:13want you to be there
31:14i know you're their dad and like that's not something that i would want you to even take on until
31:19we were far far far far down the line
31:35i'm never going to be the parent that like screams at my kids and like i'm not saying screaming's the
31:39answer yeah i'm just saying sometimes it's like you ask them to do things yeah they're always going
31:44to say no if you ask them to go to bed you feel like i don't discipline them that well
31:48i think
31:48already i carry a lot of guilt around the fact that like i couldn't why am i like emotional
31:54like that like i couldn't keep my family together for them and like i don't know i feel like coming
32:00from like a broken household like i thought that i would give my kids the opposite one day
32:04so i feel like i'm like almost trying to like make up for the fact that like
32:08i couldn't give them what like they deserve i just carry a lot of guilt so i feel like i
32:12just
32:12need to like give them the best life that i can i think growing up in a broken household with
32:17parents that don't coexist very well and fight all the time and can't be in the same room without
32:22bickering and glaring at each other i know the impact that that can have on you as a little kid
32:27and now kind of having a co-parenting relationship with my ex where we don't really get along that
32:32well i'm very very very particular about who i bring around my kids and the negative energy that
32:37they possibly could bring into our family unit i don't even know that's how you like looked at it
32:43like i've never thought about the guilt you have for them it's not obviously your fault and you know
32:49that why am i not getting emotional they're just like little innocent babies like they just want to
32:54be like loved and like and i don't want my kids i don't want to feel like my kids are
32:58a burden and i feel
32:59like that's what sometimes it feels like sometimes i just will like look at you sometimes and you just
33:04seem like so pissed off and like they're three years old like they're babies you know so okay
33:11well i'm sorry i don't mean to be it's a new scene for me i'm learning like how i am
33:15with kids too
33:15that are that age so i'm sorry to make you feel like they're a burden because they're not do you
33:19want to be around your kids it's so fun yeah so you're such a good mom
33:27i appreciate you telling me this i had no idea i was giving off those vibes in the first place
33:34person thanks for being understanding and understanding them coming from me and my
33:42relationship with men is definitely very hard i grew up around verbal abuse so it's really hard
33:49and challenging for me to let down my barriers i'm just really lucky to be able to have mason's support
33:53as i continue to pursue my dreams just having someone in your corner that's rooting for you
33:57and cheering you on is just a really nice feeling and i'm just super grateful for him
34:07it's the wine it's making me emotional it is
34:13i know right it's dakota what the
34:38fuck it's like who let you out of your cage dakota and i are back today for day two of
34:44the red west
34:45music festival the reason that we're here solo is the girls are at a photo shoot today and we're
34:50unable to make it so is uh shania coming today or what yeah are you at all worried about it
34:56am i
34:56worried about it yeah bro i'm worried about it are you kidding me why do you think i've been freaking
35:01out hey where's the vip at shania is coming today and all of mom talk knows now as well so
35:08i feel
35:09like i just need to have a conversation with her and maybe try to figure that out
35:18howdy everyone hi oh my gosh how are you are you sick how did you know i'm not feeling my
35:29best both
35:30my kids are sick oh really i got i came down with it but i could be feeling worse right
35:34i am attending
35:36red west with two of my closest friends latia and shania i am sick as a dog the weather is
35:42horrible
35:43we decided to go to the vip lounge and just kind of hang out turns out the storm followed us
35:50inside
35:50that storm being dakota
35:57there's a shelter in place oh out here yeah for the concerts i mean i guess like a storm or
36:03something
36:08dude that's crazy
36:12so now that everyone knows like what your thoughts on the whole thing i think it's
36:17bullshit you think it's bullshit i told her this is a horrible idea yeah taylor like it's gonna go be
36:25the vettorette and like clearly they're still toxic it just feels very calculated it feels like you're
36:30intentionally picking someone that's in the group to like keep like this like perpetuate yes he wanted
36:37people to know that's what i'm saying yeah he wants taylor to know to piss her off because she's
36:41about to go be the bachelorette and it's it's calculated and it's gross he is an addict through
36:47and through anyone who else is an addict taylor taylor's an addict to chaos and an addict to dakota period
36:53it's so unfortunate
36:57cheers after i found out about shania dakota i made it very clear this will end badly i thought that
37:05they
37:06would make it a one-time thing and it would be done obviously that didn't happen
37:11i'm very much a person where i can just like be in the moment with things and like i feel
37:16like that's
37:16kind of what was happening i was like i'm just gonna like let this ride and see so dakota when
37:21were you
37:21guys uh gonna tell me about your little escapades what i've heard brief talks i mean i probably was
37:33never gonna tell you but i was hoping she would tell you i just wish if you were gonna do
37:38this you would
37:38have done a hell of a lot better job at hiding it truthfully i mean we tried not to like
37:44i wasn't
37:45trying to like freaking be out in public like uh with shania somewhere but you're telling him that you're
37:50seeing someone that's in proximity to taylor whoa you know she's gonna be detective mode immediately
37:57i'm praying for both of you anyway i wish you both the best um it's been actually so nice knowing
38:03you i will i will write your eulogy hey hold on nah i think you guys should do what you
38:08guys want to
38:08do is to consenting i really feel like you should just realize like that there may be repercussions
38:14that's all
38:16it's gonna be okay we might be a little bumpy i have to pee
38:22well
38:26dakota wanted this to come out immediately you can't convince me otherwise he like tries to make it
38:31sound like oh has to be so hot no absolutely not absolutely not it's all manipulation it's all a ploy
38:39it's all game it feels so wrong what i'm doing of course but like it's working
38:46of course you like him because he's been love bombing the out of you
38:49love bombing is gross though if you don't like the guy
38:56every guy does that it's still gross if you like him yeah miranda was pretty hot and heavy about it
39:01and i yeah bro she was way hot and heavy about it i wanted everyone to know about this he
39:07doesn't
39:08care about you like that he's not looking out for your best interest you need to do that does
39:12he maybe have like a little bit of an interest in you for sure but the thing is it's like
39:16he does
39:16not know you i know you could do a hell of a lot better than you don't know okay you're
39:23sorry
39:23actually you're sorry like chill out miranda you know exactly how fucking taylor is you've seen
39:28it literally happen a million times i am always somehow the one that is always in wrong taylor
39:34thought she would get to seek dakota's potential guess what she had he had a baby with her and like
39:39he never looked up to it he can prove everyone wrong if he wants to that's up to him that's
39:43not
39:43your problem i have a great idea let's wrap that up and move on being friends with taylor you know
39:52being long-standing friends with shania it puts me in the middle and obviously she knew
39:58everything that went on in the past between taylor and i and that a man getting between our
40:03friendship like that's a sensitive thing for the both of us and subjecting us both to that is just
40:10disappointing can we talk yeah are you okay i don't know i just genuinely i just want to make this
40:20very
40:20clear to you i have been enjoying hanging out with you and i mean that i just feel like taylor
40:27kind of
40:28still can get to me it's just so intense like i just wish i didn't have to always deal with
40:34that
40:35why would you bring me into this show that's so cool i don't know if he should be dating yet
40:42i i i want to like i i think my issue is is i am just in a shitty position
40:48in general like i want to
40:50like move on i want to try to move forward with everything okay like i want to make that very
40:54clear
40:55because i don't want you know like miranda or anybody to like convince you otherwise everyone
41:01that's what everyone says i know i'm i'm look i'm so sorry i really am i'm so sorry
41:07what do you want to do now my mom is taking a walk to clear her head and she hasn't
41:27been answering
41:27her phone so i drive towards our childhood home to see if that's where she was because i had a
41:32feeling
41:32that she would you know gravitate towards that found you you doing okay yeah what are you trying
41:44to go back to your old house yeah i want to go by there yeah yeah okay we can go
41:50over there i'm
41:50actually want to go see it too are you okay yeah this is hard yeah i know i'm sorry this
42:00just brings
42:01back so many memories it's wild oh my gosh that's oh look at these trees your dad planted they're
42:09huge oh my gosh this is so weird oh my god that's not do you know who lives here i
42:17don't remember
42:17their names i don't know if it's the same people that i sold it to we're about to find out
42:21they took
42:22out the trees right here too you should stay with the mormon missionaries can we have five minutes of
42:26your time okay this is probably they're probably so creeped out oh my gosh yeah this is so weird
42:32ladies yes um okay so this used to be our old house i grew up in um till i was
42:3815 16. i'm leanne i
42:40don't know if you were at muldoon i okay don't we met by yes because was it like 15 years
42:45ago 16 16
42:46has it been that long it's wild can we do a lot around the house like outside okay thank you
42:51so much i
42:52appreciate you cute this is so crazy is it so sad for you sentimental huh your dad just like planted
43:02every tree in here remember you used to take pictures on this like rock and dad would put helmets
43:08on us and he would be like okay ready and he'd throw balls at our heads yeah i had my
43:13last party here
43:14and i got in so much trouble because i went over here in the trees and was kissing and dad
43:18saw through the
43:18window good memories bad memories to good memories i guess you're right bad memories to good memories huh
43:27i think we came here more for trying to get answers if do i have siblings out there what is
43:31out there we
43:31i i don't know but at the end of the day if like i have i have you and i
43:35have my dad jeremy that's been
43:37here since day one and i've never called him anything other than dad because he is my dad you know
43:43he raised
43:45me i'm just grateful that jeremy stepped in the role of being my dad and i couldn't have gotten
43:49a better father you've been through a lot a lot of trauma and i don't want to bring it up
43:54against
43:55i know it's hard to hear but like all the abuse i don't know the extent of that and that
43:58is
43:59horrible to hear and especially when he said that to like i you know i got sick for you
44:04and i feel really bad and that's um that's on me for not like you know considering your feelings on
44:08that so you share whatever you want continuing moving forward i'm not going to pry anymore well
44:14i owe you that like i understand where your your curiosity and where you want you want to know
44:19you know who your biological dad is like anybody would want to know that right
44:24it's just you know i would have loved to have have had that like family but it just wasn't
44:29gonna happen like i always just looked out for your best interest i always wanted you to be happy
44:37i just i chose not to go with them
44:42because of you we just would have went down the wrong road all three of us and it just wouldn't
44:47have been healthy you made the right decision i did i think this trip overall helped my mother
44:52and i and our relationship definitely gives me some insight on different patterns i would like
44:58to break in my family there's parallels with dakota the toxicity in the relationship the recovering
45:03being a recovering addict and mom you know finding her happy relationship her healthy relationship in
45:08my dad jeremy it's something i long for i want to find so i think you know moving forward with
45:13the bachelorette is like something i want to aim towards i appreciate you even coming out here with
45:17me i know it's been a lot all right i'm sorry for you and i'm sorry for yelling at you
45:23the way i did
45:23all the way up here i just there's yeah a lot of anger in me too i know there's a
45:27lot of anger and
45:28you don't deserve that because i think you're an amazing mom i think you're amazing mom it means
45:33a lot to be here and to feel taylor's love that makes me so happy that her dad is enough
45:40and and so
45:40am i but i want her to feel like she's enough no matter how brian felt like she just deserves
45:48better
45:50this is your story in your life i know it brings up what's your story it's your i'm a part
45:54of it but
45:54it's yours we're a part of each other that's true i love you i love you too a lot
46:03i love you so much i'm a very good mom i promise i'm the best gremler
46:33hello hi how are you good how are you good just trying to get all this food ready
46:38oh yeah that's good i know thank you i just got back from new york and jesse invited us all
46:43over
46:44to her house to have a little mom talk meeting and discuss the pleasant news of dakota and shania
46:49and how we're going to navigate that for taylor and letting her know she leaves the bachelorette
46:54in the week and i would just hate to set her back when she's done all of this positive work
46:58to be in a
46:58better headspace hello hello is that the jacket shania borrowed at stagecoach how ironic yeah no
47:05literally i know i like was good looking through my coats last night and i was like wait why do
47:10i
47:10have this that's hilarious do you guys want to take your shoes off and there's toys upstairs
47:13i'm gonna sit because it might be a long one hi hello taylor is in colorado with her mom so
47:19she's
47:20kind of blissfully unaware of like what's going on i'm wondering do we tell taylor right away when she
47:24hits back do we wait it's really tricky with taylor because if you tell her she's gonna crash
47:29out but if you don't tell her she's gonna probably crash out later we want what's best for her and
47:34we
47:34don't want her sabotaging bachelorette because that is our priority is to get her on that show
47:38so she can move on with her life i just want to eat you i know she's so cute i
47:42feel like we always
47:43have meetings here it's like i know i know so i called you guys here because i feel like we
47:47all
47:47found out about this jenny's stuff at separate times and i thought coming together to make sure we
47:51come up with a plan about taylor because i feel like if one of us tells her it's going to
47:54blow up
47:55taylor is going to be representing mom talk to a whole nother audience with the bachelorette viewers
48:00and it could have consequences for not only her but also mom talk i'm like don't don't mess it up
48:07for us taylor i am worried about dakota telling her yeah i've been curious when did you find out
48:13i only knew about the first night they hung out and like that i actually think they're both in the
48:17wrong i don't think this is all dakota i think she also should have known better it affects because
48:21now i'm put in a bad position and i'm like that's what pisses me off is you knew that this
48:25was going
48:25to put me in a shitty position i know i will be put in the middle once taylor finds out
48:30and that is
48:32why part of me is screaming you need to tell her but the other part of me feels like i'm
48:37giving dakota
48:38exactly what he wants if i tell her what was her reasoning for that like i'm just curious because
48:44like she knows how i just think the stuff that he says to these women oh he makes them feel
48:48like
48:48they are the most special person on the planet all day the guy like that it's love bombing
48:52it's like he did it to taylor and taylor's still in it four years later i know so i'm like
48:56what
48:57dakota told jordan is that him and shania had made an agreement to only exclusively sleep with each
49:01other oh he no she told me that that night that first night he goes so what if we made
49:05like a sex
49:06pact and my sex the next day she told me about it she was like i don't this feels really
49:11weird and i'm
49:15he wants everything wants his cake he wants to eat it too like he needs to have like lock him
49:19down
49:19like you only get me and then he's gonna go like screw everyone else okay i'm fine keeping this from
49:24taylor but if she straight up asks me how do i lie to her face but also it kind of
49:28sucks because
49:28she's gonna get pissed at us if she knows every single one of us knows she's going to be living
49:33to
49:33her face i think you just say like we we know and we just we're not telling you because you
49:37spiral and we can't trust what you're gonna do with the information yeah no i can't say that
49:41we're always tiptoeing around her feelings i'm like at the end of the day you have to save yourself
49:45we are all trying to save her and she's it's honestly just making her do worse things
49:53i genuinely can't decide like morally if it's better for taylor not to know her but it's better
49:57for her to find out same there's something else he did though and i feel like if he finds she
50:02finds
50:02out about shania it's gonna spiral into the other thing and i'm if she finds out the other thing she
50:06genuinely woke up what is it he hooked up with jenna and like basically almost had sex with her
50:13like a couple weeks ago jenna was the girl that dakota was hooking up with back in the beginning of
50:19taylor and dakota's relationship he lied about whatever situation ship he had with her jenna
50:26is such a huge trigger for taylor it's a complete slap in the face he was like texting me all
50:31day this
50:32day he came over to your house and he's saying thank you for letting me crash at your house and
50:35he came
50:35over that night to my house and spent the night and me so yeah oh my god this is a
50:44mess the man
50:45continues to stoop lower we thought he went to hell but hell has a basement shut the hell up
50:57if this comes out it's all gonna spiral taylor's still in colorado she's literally about to go be
51:02the bachelorette why do i get this opportunity out of all the girls that want this just because you
51:07come with some baggage some i'm sorry what do you want man i want to feel loved by my wife
51:14again
51:15what would you do then like just separate maybe we don't get back together until we can commit to
51:20our relationship i'm not trying to hurt you you're not vindictive but i do think you're selfish
51:23i just don't know what will happen i'll probably lose millions do you feel like your relationship
51:27with the whitney has improved i don't think you care about me jen i was the one that vouched for
51:31you every
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