00:00How is your story going? Because of course you, oh gosh, my name is Danny. So, you know, sometimes I'm
00:07like, damn, these men. But you seem to be struggling or reevaluating your relationship after infidelity and things like that.
00:17And also when we spoke to your friend, Jen, she, she told us, and I'm sure it's something she said
00:22to you too. She wants you to know how amazing you are. And like Carmela just needs to love herself
00:27like as she deserves and to have that love.
00:30Yeah, it was a very difficult situation because it was somebody that I loved very deeply and I truly did
00:37want to get to a place of forgiveness, but I oftentimes ignore my intuition.
00:44And there was just something like deep down that I felt like I just didn't trust in the dishonesty just
00:50continued and I called it quits.
00:53Wow. How do you feel?
00:54Good for you.
00:55Thank you. Um, I feel like a range of emotions. I feel sad. It was a 10 year relationship. It
01:03was somebody that was around my children, but at the end of the day, like I needed to put myself
01:08first.
01:09Yeah. How are your kids handling it?
01:11That part was, was hard.
01:12Yeah.
01:13Two of them have a little bit of a harder time. The boys struggle with it a little bit more,
01:18but I just felt like with the things that were continuing to happen and the things that I found out,
01:24it was not a healthy thing to put.
01:26What was the catalyst or what was the turning point? Was there kind of like one moment?
01:30Just more dishonesty.
01:31What dishonesty and infidelity or?
01:35I couldn't, I didn't get confirmation because I stopped with what I found. It was enough to where I was
01:42like, this is done.
01:43That's it. Oh my God.
01:44Going down the, I'm sorry, but I'm glad you chose yourself.
01:48You know, are you guys in a place of not no contact right now?
01:51I haven't spoken to him in months.
01:53Wow. Okay.
01:54It's yeah, it's that over.
01:55Oh gosh. And how are you feeling with that in regards to putting yourself out there again for love?
02:04Well, initially I was just like, I'm good. Like twice in a lifetime is enough for me. And truthfully, I
02:13had a lot of work to do with myself.
02:16And I did that, um, post breakup. I actually got a team of therapists. So, and I started, yeah. So
02:27I started doing some work and, um, I've struggled over the years, just suppressing pain. And I felt like this
02:36is exactly where I needed to be. And I needed to walk through it. And the only way through it
02:40is straight through it.
02:42Yeah. Who of your castmates were you able to lean on the most during the initial stages?
02:46Jen's been amazing. And Tamara's been amazing too.
02:49Oh God.
02:49Yeah.
02:50That's good to hear.
02:50Both have been really great.
02:51When did you guys decide to break up? Was it after filming finished?
02:54Yeah. It was quickly after. It's been a while now.
02:58Okay.
02:59Because I just had that, you could probably tell, and you'll see in this week's episode, like there was, there
03:05was something that was just like eating at me. Like I just knew something and then I would get talked
03:10out of it. And there was just this constant spin cycle. And it was always me that was crazy.
03:17And at the end and, and, and, and even the things that I found, it's always like, it's not what
03:21it looks like, but it never is. Right. But, but it exactly is.
03:25Was it stuff on the phone?
03:27Uh, it was beyond that.
03:29Wow.
03:29Oh, yeah.
03:30Were people sending you receipts and things?
03:32No, it was just, there were just some things that were just gravely inappropriate and, um, it just didn't make
03:40me feel good. And I just, it was time to get off, off the ride.
03:45Yeah. How is watching back this season then?
03:48Horrible.
03:49I was going to say, cause you guys are together and you're defending him a lot.
03:51Right. And that's been the hardest part. Honestly, you're so right. That's been the hardest part to know that like
03:58this ended months ago and to now watch like my life with him play out has not been the easiest
04:05thing.
04:05And there's a lot of sadness around it for me because it was someone that I loved deeply, but I
04:11have to be enough and like for myself and for him and for my children. And I can't, um, I
04:18was just never enough for him.
04:20Yeah. And that's an issue that, that's, I feel like is his issue.
04:24Oh God. Yeah.
04:25Yeah.
04:25There's nothing you could do.
04:26Baby, you are more than enough.
04:27If I could change it for him, I would, but I can't and I can't like the ship was sinking
04:32and I needed to save myself.
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