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Temptation Island - Season 4 - Episode 03: Taste of Independence EngSub
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00:02Previously on Temptation Island
00:04I like you and only you
00:05I know you have a lot to offer
00:06You know, I have been picking up on, you know, small player vibes
00:09You're what I need, you know, in whatever capacity that is
00:12I am making connections with you
00:15I feel it too
00:16It's scary to think that I could vibe so well with someone other than Luke
00:20She's not stoked about the idea of an open relationship
00:23How do you feel about that?
00:25Historically, my dating has been pretty casual
00:27I'm very physically attracted to Taylor
00:31I enjoy making contact
00:34This one actually is my promise ring with Edgar
00:38Okay
00:39I don't know if I will continue wearing the promise ring
00:43Like, what do I do?
00:44It sounds like the ring doesn't mean anything to her anymore
00:47It feels like I don't know her
00:57You'll never forget me
00:59You're not gonna tempt me
01:02Oh
01:04Oh
01:07You're not gonna tempt me
01:09You'll never forget me
01:13You're not gonna tempt me
01:27It feels like she says one thing to me
01:29And there's something else going on inside her head
01:31It feels like she's not being honest with me anymore
01:33Because, I mean, through all those months
01:35I was trying to work towards our relationship
01:37And I remember
01:39And I had done
01:44And
01:45You know, she says
01:46It didn't take away from our relationship
01:48And the love that we had
01:49But I just don't understand how you can do that
01:51And balance those two lies
01:52And still look me in the eye
01:53And tell me that you love me
01:58Just believe it
02:03Edgar
02:05That's raw
02:07It's difficult
02:09But it is absolutely clear and an honest feeling
02:12And I
02:13I'm sorry you're feeling pain right now
02:18All right, bud
02:19Thanks, man
02:22Hey
02:23Lascelles
02:27You ready?
02:29Let's do it
02:31I'm trying to figure out
02:32Why there was a connection
02:35Instantly
02:36Not a connection
02:37After four days
02:38It's a connection
02:39It's almost like
02:40I feel like I've seen you before
02:41Or something
02:41It's one of those things for me
02:43Okay
02:43And I said that last night
02:45I don't know if you heard me
02:46No
02:46I didn't hear you say that
02:47I was like
02:48I think I've seen you in my dreams
02:49I said that
02:50As I walked by
02:55Okay
02:55Laughter's a response
02:56Yeah
02:58What did you see?
02:59That's
03:00I see her make an emotional connection early on
03:02With someone that she's done to develop trust
03:04And possibly feelings for
03:07But I allowed her
03:08And she's allowing me to like feel those emotions
03:12So that's
03:13That was kind of what I was expecting coming to this
03:15What I'm asking is
03:16Because you know Ashley better than I do
03:18So you saw that clip
03:19And you actually feel that
03:21That's a legitimate emotional connection
03:23I believe so
03:24Okay
03:24But if this is the girl that
03:25You think you love
03:28Why doesn't that kind of
03:30Concern you?
03:32It doesn't concern me
03:33Because
03:34We told ourselves
03:35We're lacking something
03:37I think
03:38Because of my role in our relationship
03:39Of just being there
03:40And kind of like
03:41Stunting her growth in certain ways
03:43Then
03:44You know
03:44I'm doing her a disservice
03:46So I would like for her to
03:47Like take a step back
03:48From our relationship
03:49Which we have
03:50Talk to someone else
03:52Dig deep
03:53And see what she can learn about herself
03:55Because I messed
03:56I believe I messed her up
03:57I see
03:58So wean herself off
03:59Of dependence on you
04:00So when you see her
04:03Giggly and flirty
04:04And that doesn't scare you
04:06You
04:06It actually encourages you
04:08Is that right?
04:09Yeah
04:10It does
04:10That's how I feel now
04:12I'm not judging your feelings
04:14I'm just trying to understand you more
04:15I'm getting to know you too
04:16Yeah yeah yeah
04:17The only thing I'll leave you with though
04:18Lascelles is
04:19One of the things I'll push you to explore
04:21Is the
04:22The difference between
04:24Your head and your heart
04:25Right
04:25Don't be too much in your head
04:27Is what I'm encouraging you
04:29Specifically to do
04:30Alright
04:30Thank you Mark
04:31Alright
04:32Anya
04:34Okay
04:34Ready
04:36We're a team pal
04:37We got you
04:37Yeah
04:38Okay
04:38Let's take a look
04:42I'm very very much in love
04:44With Hanya
04:46I'm happy for you
04:47But I am a very very physical person
04:49Very
04:54I'm not the one with the open relationship idea
04:56But like maybe
04:57You know what?
04:58No
04:58I'm done
04:59You want to go get a drink?
05:01We should drink
05:26I'm a little confused
05:30Maybe even angry
05:32You know
05:33To hear her say
05:34That she's done
05:35And then see that she's
05:37Sharing a bed
05:38Even if it wasn't the whole night
05:40You know
05:40She and I
05:44Went into this
05:45With
05:47The
05:51You know
05:52The one rule of respect
05:55You know
05:56And I hear what she's saying
05:58About
06:00You know
06:01The open relationship
06:04That is my idea
06:06You know
06:06She's never suggested that
06:08Open relationship
06:09Meaning other people?
06:11Yeah
06:11Okay
06:11Being open to sleeping
06:13With other people
06:14You're
06:16Justifiably
06:16Upset
06:17And a little
06:19Shook
06:20Yeah
06:20And yet
06:23She's done nothing
06:24Other than what you have said
06:26Is perfectly okay
06:27Yeah
06:28I just haven't been
06:33Clear
06:36With her
06:36About
06:38What I want
06:39And I think I've
06:40Maybe waited too long
06:41You know
06:42Ash is
06:44Someone who knows
06:45What she wants
06:47I'm gonna suggest
06:48That you know
06:48Exactly what you want
06:49But you're afraid
06:50To stand up
06:51And say
06:51This is what I want
06:55Something to look at?
06:57Definitely
06:59Thank you for your honesty
07:01Be there for one another
07:02And you guys can
07:03Head back to your villa
07:04Right now
07:04Okay
07:05Thanks Mike
07:05Run or not
07:14I'm feeling a little afraid
07:17You know
07:17I'm coming to terms
07:19With this idea
07:21Of an open relationship
07:23Maybe being something
07:24I don't want
07:46I know the side of Edgar
07:47That's like really good
07:49Really loyal
07:49But there's also
07:51Another side of Edgar
07:52Like the side that cheated on me
07:54That's how I feel
07:55Like I feel like
07:56I'm constantly preparing myself
07:58For heartbreak
07:59Me too
07:59And it's not a good thing
08:01It's like I'm walking
08:02On eggshells
08:03This might be toxic
08:09Cause my drug is my oxygen
08:13Walking into the first bonfire
08:15My stomach is hurting
08:17And I have butterflies
08:19And my heart is racing
08:21I'm preparing myself
08:22I'm preparing myself
08:22For the worst
08:24Good evening
08:25Hi
08:26Hey Mark
08:27I mean I know
08:27It's only been a couple of days
08:29But the last time
08:30He cheated on me
08:31I feel like I wasn't
08:33Expecting that either
08:37Ladies
08:37Welcome to your first bonfire
08:41This is where we meet
08:42To talk about what's going on
08:44With you
08:44And your experience
08:45While you're here
08:46On the island
08:47It's also where you're
08:48Going to get a glimpse
08:49Of how your boyfriends
08:51Are adapting to single life
08:52On the island as well
08:53And this is the only time
08:54You're going to get
08:55Any insight into that
08:57So
08:58I'd love to hear more
08:59About your experience so far
09:00So tell me what's going on
09:02How are you feeling?
09:04Jillian
09:05What's going on
09:06With you right now?
09:07I'm okay
09:08I'm trying to stay calm
09:10And centered
09:12I really don't know
09:14What I'm about to see
09:15I'm very very curious
09:17Okay
09:18So here's how this works
09:21Each time you're at a bonfire
09:22You're going to watch a clip
09:24From your boyfriend's experience
09:25Here on the island
09:26Look I understand
09:27That this is often
09:28Difficult to watch
09:29But hopefully
09:31It's going to provide you
09:32The perspective
09:33That you say you're searching for
09:35In your relationship
09:37You ready to go?
09:39Jillian
09:39We're going to start with you
09:40Okay
09:41Okay?
09:42Sure
09:43Alright
09:43Let's take a look
09:44Right here
09:47Like I want to work on myself
09:48But more than anything
09:49I want her to
09:50Answer her questions
09:51Like
09:53Do you want to do this
09:54With me or not?
09:54Like
09:55I don't want to express it
09:56But I guess
09:56It just feels like
09:58She's been like
09:58Dragging me along
09:59You know?
10:05Tell me what you saw
10:06And what you're feeling
10:09I really do love Edgar
10:10But I have been very vocal
10:12About my concerns
10:13Ever since
10:15He cheated on me
10:16I feel like nothing's
10:17Really ever been the same
10:18And hearing the other girl's stories
10:20I'm realizing that
10:21That was actually
10:22A really big turning point
10:23In our relationship
10:25So it's
10:26I go back and forth
10:27On whether I want a future
10:29With him or not
10:30I'm so young
10:31So sometimes I feel like
10:33It's
10:33You know
10:34Kind of my time
10:35To explore
10:37What other chemistry
10:38I could have
10:38With somebody else
10:39I don't want to
10:40Blink and then realize
10:42I
10:42You know
10:43Never really did that
10:45Listen
10:46This is what this is about
10:48And there are questions
10:48That you didn't know
10:49You had
10:50Like I said
10:50At dinner
10:51That are showing up
10:51And I just
10:53Will encourage you
10:55To keep looking at
10:56What is it
10:56That you really need
10:57As opposed to
10:58What Edgar's giving you
11:00Yeah
11:00Jillian
11:02That's all for now
11:03But you're on the right track
11:05Yeah
11:07Iris
11:07Your turn
11:09Okay
11:10Okay
11:10Here we go
11:13Hey
11:13Hey
11:14Hey
11:15Hey
11:16Hey
11:18Whoa
11:19Whoa
11:20Okay
11:21Oh
11:22Whoa
11:24Whoa
11:25Whoa
11:26Oh
11:26Oh
11:27Oh
11:27Oh
11:29Help me buddy
11:30Oh another one
11:31Oh
11:39I am surprised actually
11:40I thought
11:41Things would be a lot worse
11:43For my clip
11:44That I was about to see
11:45But I also
11:46Feel a sense of guilt
11:48I guess
11:48You feel a sense of guilt
11:50Yeah
11:50Because you think
11:51The clip that he would see
11:52Is
11:53It's me building
11:54An actual strong
11:55Emotional connection
11:56With someone probably
11:58And I think that
12:00That hurts more
12:02Than what I just saw
12:04And who are you
12:05Connecting with
12:06I'm connecting with
12:07George
12:07I think
12:08George is checking
12:10Off a lot of boxes
12:11That I feel like
12:12I'm missing
12:12In my relationship
12:14And
12:14What's the biggest box
12:16His thoughtfulness
12:18He's extremely thoughtful
12:20It's something you're missing
12:21And I'm not coming down on Luke
12:23But what I'm really trying to point out
12:25Is what I'm hearing you say you need
12:26And you're not selfish
12:28To want that kind of
12:30Attention
12:31Yeah
12:33Appreciation is a better word
12:34I think
12:34Mm-hmm
12:36Okay, Ashley
12:39Here we go
12:42It's like
12:43I feel like
12:43Every time I'm talking to you
12:44I've learned something new
12:45About myself
12:46And it's
12:47Just the beginning
12:47So I feel like
12:48That makes me feel
12:49No, seriously
12:50You're like
12:52You're what I needed
12:53You know what I'm saying
12:54You're what I need
12:55You know
12:55And whatever capacity that is
12:56It's real
12:59Wow
13:03I see that
13:04He's forming this
13:06Kind of emotional connection
13:07With this girl
13:08And I want to know
13:10Like
13:10Why
13:11And I kind of feel like
13:13He could
13:15Be emotionally open
13:16Towards her
13:17That we haven't
13:19Really done
13:20Before
13:20Out of the seven years
13:21We've been together
13:23Like we never had
13:24That emotional
13:25Deep conversation before
13:26That I think
13:27I felt like
13:28I was missing
13:29And he said
13:31You're what I needed
13:32He just met her
13:33Like how do you know
13:34She's exactly what you need
13:35You know what I mean
13:37When I think
13:38I should be the one
13:39That you need
13:40How would that feel for you
13:41If you saw LaSalle's
13:43Open up to her
13:44In the way that you've been
13:45Begging him to do for you
13:47It would feel devastating
13:48Actually
13:49But you know
13:50I'm kind of realizing
13:51It's my journey
13:52To focus on
13:53I shouldn't
13:54I should worry about LaSalle
13:56But not really
13:56It's all about me
13:57I always put people first
13:58And I'm tired of that
13:59So
14:03Um
14:05When you say
14:06You always put people first
14:08You got emotional
14:12What do you need?
14:14I don't know
14:21I guess I need like
14:25Clarification
14:25More like
14:27I know there's love
14:28But like more action
14:29To show the love
14:30That we have
14:32That I thought we have
14:34You got a lot of emotion
14:38That I don't even think
14:39You knew you had
14:42Thanks
14:44Okay Ash
14:44We're going to go to you next
14:46Okay
14:47Okay
14:48I'm sort of like
14:49Out of sight
14:50Out of mind
14:51Kind of person
14:51And like
14:52I want to be in the here and now
14:53And if you're not here and now
14:55Then I have a hard time
14:56Giving you the attention
14:57And you don't want me to do
14:58Someone look it up
14:59Oh
15:00I look great
15:00Oh my god
15:04Oh
15:27I'm completely unsurprised
15:29Unsurprised?
15:31Yeah
15:31I saw Hanya being Hanya
15:33Okay
15:33In what sense?
15:35He's doing the exact same thing
15:36He's always done
15:38And how does that make you feel?
15:40All I have wanted in this
15:42Is for him to be considerate of me
15:44So what's the history?
15:46If there is a finer woman
15:49Willing to him harder
15:51This is my friend Ash
15:53Has he called you a friend
15:54In front of other women?
15:55Yeah
15:56Every time
15:57Every time
16:00How do you feel about
16:01The concept of open relationship?
16:04I'm not into it
16:09I do believe that I can
16:10Share a partner
16:12If I'm also there
16:13But
16:15Obviously I have to be there
16:18Because out of sight
16:19Out of mind
16:21It must be so freeing
16:23To be able to discard
16:24People like that
16:26If what you're saying
16:28Is
16:29The truth
16:30It is a very
16:32Uh
16:33Chilly
16:35Compartmentalizing
16:36Of emotion
16:36To be able to do that
16:39Ash
16:40Thank you so much
16:43So with that
16:44I thank you for being honest
16:46And brave
16:47And you can head back
16:48To your villa right now
16:49And I'll see you soon
16:51Thank you
16:51His behavior
16:53It was
16:54Disgusting
16:55I don't feel desired by him
16:58I don't get picked up like that
17:06This is what I wanted to know
17:08I am getting the answers
17:10I'm seeking incredibly fast
17:26It's a little bit crazy
17:29You're suddenly blurry now
17:33I wonder if anything
17:36Was real
17:38Are we in too deep
17:43The first bonfire
17:46How's a lot
17:47How are you guys feeling
17:48It's just the things
17:49That you don't expect
17:50That just you know
17:51Just get
17:52Yeah
17:54I just feel like
17:55She gave me a complete 180
17:57It's something so small
17:59Like a ring
18:00But like
18:01I just thought
18:02We were 100% honest
18:03With each other
18:04And
18:08You weren't
18:10I'm feeling all kinds
18:11Of things man
18:12You know
18:12I mean
18:14You guys saw what I saw
18:15Yeah
18:16Stuff to watch
18:17Watching her
18:18Speak to
18:19To him like that
18:21That just like
18:22Breaks my heart
18:23Right open
18:24I can't imagine
18:26A world without Ash
18:28She has been such a force
18:30In my life
18:31I do not
18:32Want to lose that
18:35I just have to be honest
18:37With myself
18:38About how I feel
18:40Somewhere
18:41Don't know
18:41If you care
18:42If you're still mine
18:44Tonight
18:45Not fine
18:46So is it alright
18:48If we just let it sit
18:50He ain't gotta tell me shit
18:52I understand completely
18:53I feel Hanya
18:55Is more committed
18:56To his own pleasure
18:57As he has been
18:58Through the entirety
19:00Of our relationship
19:01Than actually improving himself
19:04I should have built the wall
19:07My biggest takeaway
19:08From the first bonfire
19:11Is I should probably
19:13Stop thinking about him
19:14And completely think
19:15About myself
19:16It was just like
19:17One awful thing
19:18Right after the other
19:19Back to back to back
19:23I know it's a lot
19:25To have to
19:26Deal with
19:27And have just thrown
19:29In front of your eyes
19:30Which is
19:32Extremely disrespectful
19:33On his end
19:36Sorry
19:37Like I said
19:37I laugh at
19:38Uncomfortability
19:39For yourself
19:40I mean
19:40It's okay
19:41You can also say
19:42That you're laughing
19:43Because you think
19:43He's a joke
19:47I don't ever want
19:48To see you sad
19:48I don't ever want
19:49To see you
19:49You know
19:50Or hurt
19:51Growth comes
19:52From moments of pain
19:54That's all I can control
19:56You've been wonderful
19:56So far
19:58I feel comfortable
19:59I did not think
20:00I'd be this comfortable
20:01When I'm around you
20:04I genuinely feel emotions
20:06That I haven't felt
20:09Since like a teenage fever
20:14So that's big to me
20:16You are definitely
20:17The type of person
20:18That should get
20:19What you want
20:20Out of a relationship
20:21Or at least find somebody
20:23That is willing
20:24To do their best
20:25Without me axing
20:27Yeah
20:29That's a lot to deal with
20:30And like get thrown at you
20:31It's crazy
20:32He was talking about
20:34How he just
20:35Doesn't really want
20:36To be like dragged around
20:37Anymore
20:38Because I feel like
20:39The last year
20:39I've had a lot of doubts
20:42I like definitely feel
20:43Like we came here
20:44To like save our relationship
20:45And like work on
20:47A relationship
20:47But now I'm feeling like
20:51I don't really know
20:52What I want
20:54It's good that you're
20:55Having that clarity
20:55A little bit
20:57A little bit
20:57For right now
20:58For right now
20:59Yeah
20:59I guess I'm afraid
21:01Of being
21:02Alone and independent
21:03But then now
21:04That I'm here
21:06I'm kind of enjoying
21:07This little taste
21:07Of like independence
21:08Yeah that's good
21:32Oh my gosh
21:35George
21:35That's really good
21:39It got more real
21:41Last night though
21:41Like that did get
21:42A little more real
21:44I kind of slept well
21:45Last night
21:46I wasn't replaying
21:47The clip that I saw
21:48Of this out
21:49Like I wasn't dwelling on it
21:50I slept well
21:51But then this morning
21:52I was like
21:53What the
21:53Like I feel bad
21:56Every one of our
21:57Friends and family
21:57Thinks that we're gonna
21:58Like get married
22:00A little happily ever after
22:01But I've always been
22:02Like emotionally dependent
22:03On Luke
22:04And pretty much
22:05Like a lot of my
22:06Boyfriends
22:06In the past
22:07Me too
22:08It just clicked in me
22:09Last night
22:09Like wow
22:10I never really got
22:11The independence
22:12That I need
22:12To discover myself
22:14Take it just
22:15One day at a time
22:16Yeah
22:16Like
22:16Yeah for sure
22:18Yeah
22:19I've never learned
22:20How to be
22:21Happy on my own
22:22And that's a problem
22:24It's up to me
22:25To love myself
22:27And feel confident
22:28I'm gonna get away
22:30I'm gonna get away
22:31Yeah
22:32From all of this
22:33Get away
22:34Yeah
22:35Gonna get away
22:36From everything
22:37Oh my god
22:38The flowers
22:38The tweet
22:39We're being knighted
22:40Here you go
22:42So you should put it
22:43In your left ear
22:44My left ear
22:45Yeah
22:46What does left mean?
22:47It means unavailable
22:49Because you're going
22:50On a date
22:51I'm going on a date
22:55I am conscious
22:56Of the fact
22:57That I'm trying
22:58To avoid
22:58The level of comfort
22:59That I feel
23:00With Taylor
23:00So I'm hoping
23:02To get a little bit
23:03Of mental clarity
23:04Out of this date
23:05From a third person
23:06Point of view
23:07Let's do this
23:11Put that in there
23:13Watching Ash
23:14Ask Tommy
23:15On a date
23:15I literally felt
23:16My heart drop
23:17To my stomach
23:18If I
23:19You know
23:19Was really following
23:20My heart
23:21I would ask Tommy
23:22On a second date
23:23But for now
23:24Just trying
23:25To stay calm
23:27Who's Ashley?
23:28That I'm still
23:29Trying to find out
23:30Actually
23:30I don't know if I told you
23:31But my boyfriend
23:32And I have been together
23:33For seven years
23:33Yeah
23:34Like seven years
23:35I'm not going to
23:35Just throw that away
23:36Like oh
23:36Seven years
23:37Whatever
23:38You know what I mean
23:39I got to have
23:40A conversation
23:41With Ashley
23:42She's a
23:42She's cute
23:43Just from B
23:44Like honestly
23:45I felt like
23:46Deep and Steli
23:47I hope to
23:48You know
23:48Maybe continue
23:49Talking to her
23:50Like you learn
23:51A lot from love
23:51What you learn
23:52From and makes you
23:53Who you are
23:54Like right now
23:55Yeah
24:04I have never
24:06Worn my hair
24:07This long
24:08Before
24:08Well I wasn't
24:10Attracted to you
24:10Before
24:11But like now I am
24:12So
24:12I'm getting nervous now
24:13Everything is riding
24:14On this one shot
24:17I was just overthinking
24:19Everything last night
24:20I just give a lot
24:22I just need to give
24:23More to myself
24:25You have to figure out
24:25Kind of what you want
24:27And what kind of
24:27Connections you want
24:28If you want them
24:28To be platonic
24:30If you want them
24:30To be more
24:31And I also want you
24:32To not put all your
24:33Eggs in one basket
24:34Right away
24:35Because there's so many
24:37Of us
24:37That we all offer
24:39Different things
24:39You're my number one guy
24:40That I have my eyes on
24:41So I want to make
24:43That clear too
24:44No I remember
24:45I'm having a great
24:46Time with Alexa
24:48But I want to
24:49Get to know Trace
24:50A little more
24:50And kind of explore
24:52Why I'm feeling
24:53These emotions
24:54So quickly
24:54You are a catch
24:55You have everything
24:56That I'm looking for
24:58I just don't want
24:59To jump too fast
25:00Without knowing
25:00All sides
25:03I feel like
25:04I'm doing a lot
25:04I'm really trying
25:05I'm trying to be
25:06The glue of the family
25:07Build a business
25:08Maintain a relationship
25:09You have a lot
25:10On your plate
25:10Yeah
25:11Yeah
25:12But
25:12You must be exhausted
25:15Pretty much
25:16Yeah
25:17I have massive
25:19Family issues
25:20In the mental health
25:21Department
25:21It's
25:23Just devastating
25:24I feel like
25:25I've been dealt
25:25A really crappy
25:27Deck of cards
25:27In the emotion
25:28Department
25:28I can't get through
25:30And project
25:32How I'm feeling
25:32With my family
25:33And the same
25:35With Iris
25:35I can't get through
25:36To my emotional
25:37Side with her either
25:39I feel like
25:40The first time
25:41We got to
25:41Speaking together
25:42You were asking
25:43Some really cool
25:44Questions
25:44And I was like
25:45Yeah
25:46That's
25:47That's someone
25:48I want to get
25:48To know a little
25:49Bit more
25:49So that's why
25:50I kind of wanted
25:51To see if you
25:52Wanted to go
25:52On my second date
25:54Like
25:55Wait
25:55It's out of nowhere
25:57But
25:57Yeah
25:58Luke and I
25:59Had a really good
26:00Conversation
26:01I'm just ready
26:02For the date tomorrow
26:03I'm super happy
26:05I'm excited
26:05I think
26:06You're really someone
26:07I want to learn
26:08A lot from
26:09Absolutely
26:12What's up
26:14Hello stranger
26:15How you feeling
26:16I'm looking at
26:17This beautiful rainbow
26:18That is amazing
26:20That is a beautiful rainbow
26:21I think it was
26:21A perfect time
26:22A perfect time
26:24Perfect time
26:25I feel like
26:25We have a lot more
26:25Great times ahead of us
26:27Okay
26:27And I wanted to ask
26:28If you wanted to come
26:29On the second date
26:30With me
26:32Don't be shy now
26:34Yeah
26:36Yeah
26:36Thank you
26:37Yeah
26:37I'm excited
26:38I feel like
26:39I've obviously made
26:40Like a really good
26:41Connection
26:42With LaSalle's
26:43But I don't want
26:44To get my hopes up
26:46You know
26:46Especially if
26:47He is shopping around
26:49A little bit more
26:49And he kind of
26:50Just is picking
26:50You know
26:51Me for today
26:52And then next time
26:53It's going to be
26:54Whoever
26:55So I'm kind of
26:56Just making sure
26:57I stay aware
26:58Man
26:58So like
26:59I don't know
27:00How to feel
27:00I'm just getting
27:01Caught my feelings
27:02Yeah
27:03I know
27:03Yeah
27:04I just can't tell
27:05If he's like
27:05A little player or not
27:06Because he's really
27:07Nice to everybody
27:08You know
27:09And I can see him
27:10Being 40
27:10With a lot of people
27:11He
27:12I just think
27:12That he's just
27:13Really nice
27:14As of now
27:15I'm going after Edgar
27:16So Eddie
27:17I'm coming for you
27:18Definitely feeling him
27:20And I know
27:20That him and Marissa
27:22Have a cute little thing
27:23Going but that doesn't
27:25Mean anything for me
27:26I can still
27:27Go for it
27:28We're all here
27:28For a reason
27:29And I'm here
27:30To you know
27:31Make my mark
27:32And that's what
27:33I'm going to do
27:34Maybe better
27:35Get a little cozy
27:36At this party night
27:37Bring it on
27:38Mmhmm
27:54Paint us however you
27:55Feel is necessary
27:56Be careful
27:57When you touch
27:58It might touch back
27:58What are these colors
27:59So are we going to
28:00Paint each other's bodies
28:01Tonight
28:01Oh yeah
28:03Oh yeah
28:08We're painting them
28:09It's hard though
28:21This is the most fun
28:23I've had
28:24In my life
28:25Shots
28:27Everybody
28:27Shots
28:29Oh
28:31What's up
28:32Field day
28:32We're playing
28:33Flag football
28:36We're going to turn them up
28:37Because they deserve better
28:39And what better way
28:40Than the finest gentleman
28:41And the finest abs
28:46Let's go
28:47Let's go
28:50Oh shit
28:52Let's go
28:53Let's go
28:54Let's go
28:58Yeah
29:00Yeah
29:01Yeah
29:01You guys are super hot
29:02Play football
29:02Yeah
29:03We all got a little hot
29:04And spicy
29:05Yeah
29:06All those touchdowns
29:08Those dances
29:08I feel like I can like
29:10Relive this moment
29:11Again
29:11Same
29:12Fire in the pool
29:13Fire in the pool
29:15Let's go
29:16Hey
29:18Let's go
29:19Let's go
29:20Let's go
29:21Let's go
29:22Oh
29:22Oh
29:23Oh
29:23Oh
29:23Oh
29:27Ash's boyfriend
29:28I hope you see those clips
29:29And I hope it hurts
29:30I hope it does
29:32Mr. Sir
29:32You don't deserve her
29:35I do kind of wish
29:36That we were going
29:36On the second date
29:37Oh
29:37That's what the third
29:38Days were
29:39Maybe
29:39I guess I need to talk
29:41About the whole
29:41Tommy situation
29:42Which I was very excited
29:44About our connection
29:45And I hope it doesn't go away
29:46I'm still feeling
29:47Just as interested
29:48As when I met him
29:49Do you think it's a red flag
29:50That I
29:52Just like
29:52Formed a connection
29:53With you right off the bat
29:54Even when I have a boyfriend
29:56We've only been here
29:57For a few days
29:58We're getting to know
29:59Each other
29:59And a connection
30:00Is a connection
30:01We enjoy each other
30:02And we get each other
30:04That's not a problem
30:05You got my heart
30:07Nobody gonna take it over
30:09You got my soul
30:11Nobody gonna tell me
30:12Should we play truth or dance?
30:14Whatever you want
30:16I want to see Ashley
30:18Give a lap dance
30:19To
30:20Iris
30:39Good night
30:42No pillow all baby girl
30:50Taylor has been really gentle
30:53With everything
30:55And he's still being
30:56Really respectful of me
30:58He's chaotic
31:00But he has a softness
31:02And gentleness in him
31:03That I can respond to
31:12I don't know
31:13What's going to happen
31:14And I'm not trying
31:16To plan it
31:16I just hope
31:17We kind of keep
31:18Exploring what we can
31:19While we're here
31:28The question is
31:29How do we get
31:30Some one-on-one time
31:31With Chrislyn and Edgar
31:33That's the hard part
31:34His connection with Marissa
31:36Just seems so intense
31:38Like is he even
31:38Like looking my way
31:39At all
31:40No like it's fair game
31:41Anyone can come in
31:42At any moment
31:43And offer something
31:43Better than the person
31:44Before
31:44I am in a little tiffy
31:47It's like I'm definitely
31:48Feeling Edgar
31:48But you know
31:49I've just stayed
31:50On like a friendship level
31:51With all the guys here
31:52You are so clear
31:53About what you want
31:54But like you are not
31:55Getting it
31:56You're not like
31:57Going to get it
31:58I know
31:58That's my problem
32:00Go get it
32:01I feel like
32:03Physically
32:05Physically
32:05We have an attraction
32:06And I don't want you
32:07To forget that
32:08If you're on a date
32:09With someone else
32:10Honestly
32:10No I am
32:11By far I feel like
32:13The most attracted
32:14To you in the whole house
32:15So
32:15You
32:17I've done myself
32:18A disservice
32:18By like kind of
32:19Like close myself up
32:20A little bit
32:21Because I want to
32:23Make the right decision
32:25I don't know
32:25What the right decision is
32:26No matter what happens
32:27It's going to hurt
32:28It's going to hurt
32:30It's going to hurt
32:30And would you rather
32:32Continue to
32:33Sacrifice yourself
32:35To please other people
32:36Or do what's going to
32:38Ultimately
32:39Make you happy
32:40And fulfilled
32:41No and yeah
32:42You're absolutely right
32:43I realize what I'm risking
32:46Now I'm doing this experience
32:48And I'm starting to like
32:49Make connections
32:50That are stronger
32:51Than I would have imagined
32:54So it's giving me
32:55An uneasy feeling
32:57And I don't want
32:58Ash to see this
33:00And think
33:00Hey he just threw away
33:01Something for nothing
33:03She said
33:03I'm afraid of you
33:04Making an emotional connection
33:06Because I feel like
33:06I'm going to lose you
33:09And I said
33:09I don't think I will
33:10Like I said
33:11I will
33:11I don't think
33:12I'll be strong enough
33:13For me to pull me away
33:16But I feel it
33:18I feel it tugging at me
33:19Like I promised
33:21Or something
33:21That I knew
33:22I couldn't keep
33:23That's a lot
33:33Right now I'm at a crossroads
33:35Between keeping
33:36What I already have
33:38And going for what I want
33:43I just don't want to hurt anybody
33:44That's it
33:45I don't want to hurt anybody
33:47But in this predicament
33:49Someone's going to get hurt
33:50My girlfriend Ashley
33:51Or Trace
33:52Isn't that easy
33:55It's tough to make everybody happy
34:10Oh my god
34:18Here we go
34:28Are you nervous?
34:29No I ain't nervous
34:30Today is really fun
34:31I'm enjoying my date with Tevin
34:33He's super super sweet
34:34Nice
34:36I do have Tommy
34:37In the back of my mind
34:38The whole time
34:39But I'm definitely
34:40Still having a great time
34:41Oh my god
34:43Oh my god
34:44Oh my god
34:48We'll feel the heat
34:50Can't let me close
34:51Oh my god
34:53Let's do it
34:58Whip it whip it whip it
35:01I'm having the best time
35:04That's what I'm talking about
35:12Hey there
35:14Karina and I have really been
35:16Connecting over the last few days
35:17She's so smart
35:18But I'm also thinking about Ash
35:20At every moment
35:21At every turn
35:22I am all over the place right now
35:23To be honest
35:24Woo
35:29How's your time been on the island so far?
35:32As a whole
35:33Yeah
35:34Take a big chug for that one
35:36I didn't really expect
35:38The other night
35:40The bonfire to go
35:42How it did
35:43Um
35:43Which probably speaks to me
35:46Thinking too highly
35:47Of people I care about
35:48I've just felt like a
35:50Second thought
35:51For so long
35:53Sorry I don't want to cry
35:54Okay
35:55Okay
35:56Um
35:58It's been really scary
35:59Because I keep like
36:00Flopping back and forth
36:01Between like
36:02Do I actually love this person?
36:05Am I pouring into him
36:07Because I'm too scared
36:08To pour into myself?
36:09Yeah
36:09And I just keep getting
36:11More and more scared
36:12That like
36:12I've neglected myself
36:14This long
36:15Like how much love
36:16Is left in my cup?
36:18I don't know
36:19Sorry for crying
36:21The relationship
36:22That's going to change
36:23The most out of this
36:24Is my relationship
36:25With myself
36:26And I'm excited
36:27To be in love with me
36:30I know I'm going to come
36:31Out of this bigger
36:32And better than I am
36:34And my relationships
36:36Are going to change with it
36:37I said I wasn't going to cry
36:40Okay
36:48You know
36:49I hear you
36:50When you're speaking
36:51And I pick up on the fact
36:52That you want your relationship
36:54To work
36:54And you want to help Iris
36:56Achieve her goals
36:57But it shouldn't be
37:00That every time you guys argue
37:01Like stuff from the past
37:03Is brought up
37:03Because that's an immature
37:05Way to think
37:06Yeah
37:06I feel like
37:07No matter how hard I try
37:08You know
37:09To help her feel wanted
37:11For me
37:11It just doesn't get through
37:13To her
37:13Like why do we keep talking
37:14About what happened
37:15Six years ago
37:16Like babe
37:17Let's move on
37:18I'm here for you
37:19I feel like resentment
37:19Because I can't
37:20I can't feel loving
37:22When I'm straight up
37:23Being beaten down
37:24In the moment
37:25For things that
37:26I feel like
37:27Are childish
37:27To be talking about
37:28At this point
37:29Right
37:29So it's like
37:30Where can you win
37:31Like when will Luke win
37:38So tell me about
37:39Like how you've been
37:40Feeling so far
37:41I did want to kind of
37:42Be like transparent
37:43With you about something
37:44Talk to me
37:46I was like really
37:47Self-reflecting
37:48Over the past few days
37:51And as great
37:52As I think you are
37:54I feel like exploring
37:56This deep emotional
37:57Connection that we have
37:58Might not be what's
37:59Best for me right now
38:01I've always had
38:02Boyfriends since high school
38:03And I don't think
38:04I ever got a break
38:05All of these relationships
38:07Either brought me
38:08Heartbreak or toxicity
38:09It's not healthy
38:10For me to just hop
38:12From one relationship
38:13To the next
38:13You know
38:15Definitely understand that
38:17There is a gut punch
38:19To some things
38:20When you're definitely
38:20Connecting with somebody
38:21And then they want to
38:22Just put the brakes
38:23On some things
38:24And you know
38:25You have to respect it
38:26You know
38:27Especially when you
38:27Care about them
38:28And honestly
38:29I truly care about it
38:30I want you to feel like
38:31This is something
38:31That you want
38:32You deserve that
38:33Level of understanding
38:34And I'm totally
38:36Here for it
38:36Thank you so much
38:38Definitely
38:38I appreciate that
38:40Definitely
38:40If I'm too close to the sun
38:42You got it good
38:43So don't you run
38:45All you did was push me
38:46To be who I am
38:48First and foremost
38:49I would like to thank you
38:50For choosing me to go on this date
38:53I am so happy
38:54That I chose Evan
38:56As my date
38:57I felt like
38:57He is that guy
38:58Who is just confident
39:00We have that
39:01Cool connection
39:03As a friend
39:04Maybe something more
39:05But like for now
39:06I like how it's going
39:07Well you're going
39:08You're going through
39:08A very unique
39:09Experience
39:10Unique experience
39:11Very unique
39:12How are you handling it
39:13So far?
39:15Um
39:15I'm taking it
39:16Day by day
39:16Honestly
39:17You know
39:17I don't want to worry
39:18Too much about
39:19What my boyfriend is doing
39:21Because I feel like
39:21That's going to hinder
39:22My growth
39:23So what changes
39:24Do you expect him to make?
39:26So the romantic
39:26Days weren't really there
39:28I felt like
39:29Our relationship
39:29Is now
39:31Stagnant
39:33Her expectations
39:34For what she wants
39:35Her man to do
39:35Are very low
39:36I'm going to keep
39:37You know
39:37Letting her know
39:38How I feel
39:38You know
39:39Keep teaching her
39:39More about myself
39:40Every day
39:41You know
39:41All you can do
39:42In this life
39:43Is just be yourself
39:44And see where the cards fall
39:45You know
39:45I feel like
39:46I'm in a pretty good spot
39:47With her
39:48This is good
39:58How you feeling about everything?
39:59I mean
40:00I'm trying to be patient
40:01Like I really am
40:02Yeah
40:02But it's hard
40:03Like trying to get to know someone
40:05And they're like
40:05I'm not saying you're feeding me
40:07All this like
40:08Amazingness
40:08Because it's genuine
40:09And I know you care about me
40:10But at the same time
40:11It's like
40:12I'm having to dim my light
40:14Or mask my feelings
40:15To justify everyone else
40:18It's tough
40:19Because I've never
40:19Had this many people
40:21Tug at me
40:22And then I'm feeling
40:24Other pressure
40:24From the other ladies in the house
40:25Who you know
40:26I want to get to know
40:27But you know
40:28They feel like
40:29I'm giving you
40:29A lot of face time
40:32I feel like
40:34I'm fighting for something
40:36That I don't have a chance
40:37At winning
40:40I feel like
40:41You're not standing up
40:41For this connection
40:44And it sucks
40:48Seeing her
40:49You know
40:49Get emotional
40:50You know
40:51Makes me feel sad
40:52Because I do have a part of this
40:53Because I'm not being clear
40:55In my intention
40:56I don't want
40:57To be stuck in the past
40:59Or be afraid of change
41:00I'm trying to
41:01Figure out
41:02What I need in my life
41:04I don't want to go
41:05Balls to the wall
41:06And
41:07Get so emotionally
41:08Invested in you
41:09And then I see Ashley
41:10And then I go back
41:11And then imagine
41:12How you'd feel at that point
41:13You'd break down
41:14You'd never want to see me again
41:15So like I'm trying to avoid
41:16I'm trying to avoid that
41:18But at the same time
41:19I can't say
41:20Let's just be
41:21Friends
41:21In this house
41:23Because I know
41:23That I'm not going to be able
41:24To control how I feel
41:25Because I want you
41:26To be able to like
41:27Have your thoughts
41:28Have your emotions
41:29But I don't want to
41:30Keep feeling ashamed
41:31Because I have a connection
41:32With you
41:34I just feel like
41:35Everything is about
41:36Everyone else but us
41:37And it's kind of
41:38Hard to be excited
41:39And be in the moment
41:40If you feel like
41:41They feel guilty
41:42For even being there
41:44It sucks
41:45I feel bad
41:45About being happy
41:47I just think that
41:53Maybe we just need
41:54Some like
41:55Breathing room
42:00This place
42:03We don't know
42:12Some night
42:12This place
42:14We don't know
42:14We don't know
42:14We don't
42:14We don't know
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