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Temptation Island - Season 5 - Episode 03: If There Were No Cameras... EngSub
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00:02Previously on Temptation Island.
00:04Yes, sir.
00:06I'm over here trying to respect my girlfriend, but at the same time, like,
00:09Christopher needs to think about himself.
00:12Okay, so what pisses me off is that fact that he picked the most stank attitude in the group.
00:18Irritating, you know?
00:20Every time.
00:23I have a hard time talking about my emotions, talking about my feelings,
00:27and it's hard for me. It's new for me.
00:30This date was pretty, pretty nice, and I'm like, oh, my God, I'm not supposed to have this much fun.
00:35She might be the test, which scares me a lot.
00:39Yeah, those three, those are my top three right there.
00:41Abby, Timmy, and Nafisa.
00:44There's eight girls in the house.
00:45Three got my attention.
00:47I don't know how this is going to play out, but I got a game plan.
00:50You're not going to tell me.
00:54You'll never forget me.
00:57You're not going to tell me.
01:00Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
01:04You're not going to tell me.
01:07You'll never forget me.
01:11You're not going to tell me.
01:22Knock, knock.
01:23Hey.
01:25Hey.
01:28What's up, y'all?
01:29Oh, look at the baked goods, though.
01:31Excuse me.
01:32It's not for you, ladies.
01:34We just came back from the dates, and I had so much fun, but I have a girlfriend, and Alexis
01:43knows that.
01:44She respects that.
01:45So, like, really all day, like, while you're going, I was like, I want to make something for you.
01:49So, it's, like, super sweet.
01:50It says, I think you're sweet.
01:52Yeah, it's good, actually.
01:53I like chocolate.
01:54Do you really?
01:55Oh, that's cute.
01:56Honestly, this is my act of saying, hey, maybe you should get to know me a little more as well.
01:59Of course.
02:00I appreciate that.
02:02One of the things I like about you is the fact that you can actually, you come up to me,
02:06and you, like, you can speak your mind.
02:08Yeah, I like that.
02:09Honestly, that's the thing about me, though.
02:11If I see something that I want, I'm, like, 100%, at least going to try to get it.
02:14And then if I don't get it, I might eventually get it.
02:18At this point, I like Rob.
02:20But I also like great as well.
02:22All right.
02:23Take care.
02:24And I'm here to get what I want.
02:26I'm here for a reason.
02:27And this isn't the steps that are taken for me to get what I want.
02:31Hey, Greg.
02:32Question.
02:33I'm just telling you.
02:34Who is you?
02:34A UNT is all right.
02:35Yeah, that's what we just told me.
02:37What?
02:37What was you just telling me?
02:38Yeah, she is.
02:39She picked.
02:40I didn't know what the f*** was going on, but she said, she feels like, hey, that's your thing.
02:45I bet I was about to take on day number two.
02:47F***.
02:48I ain't option number two, baby.
02:51Come on, now.
02:52But I have an idea of who I'm going to pick.
02:54Like, I literally have not talked to nobody.
02:57F***.
02:58Like, you know, I've been the f*** loser.
03:01Nah.
03:10So how was your day?
03:12So Christian.
03:14Yes.
03:15He was fun.
03:16I like him.
03:17My day with Christian today, it was fun.
03:20I feel like he's very gentleman.
03:22And I actually had fun more than when I have fun with Ray.
03:26Are you excited to take it to the next label?
03:28I am.
03:29Real bad.
03:30Yeah.
03:31I could see the excitement in your face when you said that.
03:35Yeah.
03:35If there was no cameras, I would suck his d***, but I can't because there's cameras, so I have to
03:41be, like, a good girl, you know?
03:42Yeah.
03:43Before I came to the house, I was already, like, married Ray, have kids with Ray.
03:48But now that I'm here, it's like, I'm getting to know everyone at the same time.
03:54And it's like, I'm a little bit confused.
03:59How was your day?
04:01I feel like now she knows that, all right, the connection is there.
04:04Okay.
04:05She knows how I felt about her before.
04:06She didn't know that you and her were the two that stood out to me the most.
04:09Yeah.
04:10So where do I stand?
04:11Because at this point, like, I just feel like you're not giving me the chance for that connection to grow.
04:16This is just frustrating because it's like, from day one, we both established it.
04:21Yeah, I, trust me, honestly, I wished you had given me a little bit more time.
04:26I was actually going to ask you if you would like to go on a date with me tomorrow.
04:32That was another thing.
04:34I'm like, okay, we're going on a date.
04:35I'm excited to go on a date.
04:37But I feel like he should have still took me on the first date, but whatever.
04:41Yes, let's explore this and see what it is.
04:45I'm happy to see the smile on your face.
04:48So, I got questions.
04:50I got an answer, bro.
04:51Go ahead, go ahead, bro.
04:52I'm open, but, like, I feel so free, bro.
04:54So, like, you see yourself staying with Vanessa?
05:03Damn.
05:05I already don't know if I'm going to leave her.
05:08I already don't know if, like, I'm going to leave this island with my person.
05:13When shit is good, that shit's good.
05:15It's gravy.
05:16But when it's bad, it's bad.
05:25So, you having fun here so far?
05:27Yeah, it's been fun.
05:28It's been fun.
05:29I just want to go on a date, so we'll see.
05:34I'm not going to lie.
05:35I'm a little salty that I didn't get picked for the first day.
05:37I thought Marisela was going to pick me.
05:40Would you go on a date with me?
05:41Of course.
05:42I feel like the first date is more, like, friend vibes.
05:46All right.
05:47You're going on my next date.
05:49I love it.
05:50Now, when you go out with me, I'm going to show you the Miami, the flair, the suave,
05:54the rico suave, Latin party.
05:56We're going to show that all.
05:56All right, Paris, just go pull in and start asking.
06:01Tajik, oh, my God.
06:04My girl Paris.
06:05You made my girl weak.
06:08You want to watch?
06:09Yes, I do.
06:10Okay, we'll watch from the side.
06:12Can you ask?
06:13No, I'm not going to ask.
06:15Um, excuse me?
06:18I feel like I'm in fifth grade.
06:20Tajik makes me nervous to the point where I can talk.
06:22I think I like him too much that I am kind of, like, running away from him.
06:27Tajik, you want to go on a date with me?
06:29Me too!
06:34These girls finally woke up.
06:35They finally woke up.
06:37They saw what was in front of them this whole time.
06:40Word.
06:41I'll see you tomorrow.
06:42Let's be right on time.
06:43Let's be right on time.
06:53So, what's up?
06:54What is he doing?
06:55Tammy, I'm over here.
06:56Is there, like, something going on?
06:57I have a date tomorrow.
06:59Oh, you want to go on a date with Tammy?
07:00Yeah.
07:01You invited me back to the room.
07:04Right?
07:05Yeah.
07:05Our first date went so good that Greg asked me to come and cuddle with him that night.
07:11So, I told him, you know, I'll think about it.
07:13You know, just tease him a little bit.
07:15You can't just have everything right away.
07:17It just seems like he's playing games.
07:21It wasn't intentional.
07:23This is just me going off the two women I'm attracted to.
07:26Well, my thing is right now, I'm not interested in anybody else in the house.
07:29It's just you.
07:31Wow, this is the first time I'm hearing this.
07:33Yeah.
07:34It's just you right now.
07:35So, I'm definitely not coming to your room.
07:37I hope you know that.
07:38Bye.
07:40Bye.
07:41Bye.
07:46I don't want your fake love.
07:48Told you I don't need that.
07:49Go ahead with your b****.
07:51You can go and keep that.
07:52You've been creeping on a low.
07:54You ain't think I see that.
07:56But AP gonna be good.
07:57Trust and do believe that.
08:08What we want?
08:09Woo-hoo!
08:10We want, we want, What, what, what, we want.
08:13wegen of the never-
08:14Yes, sir!
08:15We're outside!
08:17Vanessa is not big on the outdoor things,
08:20so it was, like, really refreshing to do this with a girl.
08:26Oh, shit.
08:27Where are we going?
08:31I am feeling excited.
08:33It's a second date, and I am feeling a lot closer to Temi.
08:38But I could tell she wants me so bad.
08:41But I don't want to give in to that temptation yet.
08:44Like, keep thinking about Paris.
08:47And just that thought of her makes it hard for me
08:50to want to open up to Temi.
08:54Come on, Temi!
08:56I said what we were about.
08:58Oh, my God!
09:02Date number two.
09:04OK, so I have a question.
09:06All right.
09:07You're 34 or 35?
09:0935.
09:0935.
09:10And you don't have any children.
09:12Mm-hmm.
09:12Mm-hmm.
09:13How do you feel about that?
09:15I am beyond ready.
09:17OK.
09:17Like, I want a little crew.
09:21I'm going to be the best dad on the planet.
09:23Mm-hmm.
09:23So now my question back to you, because I don't know if you want kids.
09:27Oh, I definitely want kids.
09:28Yeah?
09:29Mm-hmm.
09:29I've been playing family house since I was just a little girl.
09:35And yeah, I don't want to crook on that.
09:37I know.
09:38I really want Mikayla to block out the idea that I have a fiance, because I really want her
09:44to continue to get to know me for me.
09:47Yeah, it's the summer of the world.
09:52Ooh.
09:53Ooh.
09:55Ooh.
09:55Ooh.
09:56Ooh.
09:56Nice.
09:58Ooh, I'm excited.
10:00A little bit.
10:01I can't ride a bike, though.
10:03You can't ride a bike?
10:05Are you joking?
10:06No.
10:07But can you teach me how to?
10:10Yeah.
10:10Yeah?
10:11I just, okay, yeah.
10:12You seriously don't know how to ride a bike?
10:13No, I'm sorry.
10:15I'm so sorry.
10:16You can teach me, though.
10:18It's okay.
10:18It's leaning this way.
10:19Yeah, there you go.
10:20I feel like I'm falling this way.
10:22You're not going to let me go, right?
10:23I'm not going to let you go.
10:24I'm right here.
10:25There you go.
10:26Don't let me go, Tajik.
10:27I'm not going to let you go.
10:28I'm right here.
10:29There you go.
10:30Don't let me go, Tajik.
10:31Don't let me go.
10:32I'm not going to let you go.
10:32No, Tajik, please, please, please.
10:35Okay, I'm not going to let you go.
10:35Can you stop?
10:36Okay, just hit the brakes.
10:37Hit the brakes.
10:38Hit the brakes.
10:39Hit the brakes.
10:39Hit the brakes.
10:40You got to hit the brakes.
10:42I didn't think she was going to be that bad in bike riding.
10:47But we actually ended up having a lot of fun.
10:50That was actually my first time ever teaching someone how to ride a bike.
10:53So that was an experience itself.
10:56You want to go again?
10:57No.
10:58No?
10:58No.
10:59Woo!
11:02I'm a little sad, and I'm, like, disappointed in myself because Tyrik had to ride a bike
11:08by himself.
11:09Ah, this is nice.
11:11Ah!
11:13I tried.
11:1610 seconds.
11:17Oh, this is actually lit.
11:18What the fuck?
11:18I know.
11:19This feels so nice.
11:20I asked Griffin out on a date, but I know that he's interested in Caitlyn, and so he's not
11:29necessarily, like, the most satisfied that it was me who asked him.
11:34No!
11:35You catching up!
11:37No, my girl wanted a workout!
11:39You got too fast!
11:39Riding bikes with Christian is fun, but then I'm, like, kind of in my head, like, did
11:44Hall have fun today on his date?
11:45Like, what the heck?
11:46So I'm really trying not to go there and just enjoy my time.
11:51Oh, this feels so nice.
11:52Woo!
11:53I am excited about going on this second date with Sebastian.
11:56I just want to get to know him more and laugh with him because all I need right now is
12:01a
12:01little bit of laughter and happiness in my life because I miss my partner.
12:06I'm not sure how to feel, and it's a lot.
12:12So how did you feel when I asked you on a date with me yesterday?
12:16Like, were you nervous?
12:17Uh...
12:18Were you excited?
12:19Or were you like...
12:19Oh, was it?
12:20I don't know.
12:20Why you don't take things serious?
12:22Like, why are you here?
12:24I mean...
12:26I want to have fun.
12:28Right?
12:29Are you not trying to have fun?
12:30To have fun?
12:31That's it?
12:31Yeah, to have fun!
12:32Like, I mean, obviously...
12:33Not to connect with someone in the house?
12:35Absolutely.
12:35Like, not to...
12:36Every guy is saying that.
12:38Oh, I want to have an intellectual conversation.
12:41I want to connect emotionally.
12:43Like, shut the f*** up.
12:45You're not here for that.
12:45You're not here.
12:46No, I am.
12:47But it's like, I want to have fun, right?
12:49Because the circumstance is that you have a man.
12:52I mean, I am trying to take you from your man.
12:54But I don't want to, like, force it down your throat that, like, I'm the one for you.
12:59Even though I am.
13:00So my question to you is...
13:03Who do you think you're going to take on your next date?
13:07I think I want to take you again.
13:09Because I feel like I want to get to know you more.
13:11But at the same time, it's like, you're not giving me personality.
13:15So is this you asking you from the next date?
13:17Is this you asking me on the next date already?
13:20No, I have to go back home and see the other guys and think about it.
13:23Okay.
13:24My last date with Christian was actually better than the date that I had today with Tajik.
13:30And Christian is more romantic.
13:31Christian opens up more.
13:33With Tajik, he finds everything funny.
13:35And I don't like that.
13:36Watch his step, though.
13:37There's a lot of horse s*** up here.
13:39Watch his step.
13:51Okay, so we all had decent dates, except you had the worst date of your life.
13:55No, no, no, no.
13:56Don't get me wrong.
13:57Like, the bike ride, I thought it was cute.
14:00But later on, it's just like, he has no personality.
14:03You ask him, what makes you happy?
14:04I don't know.
14:05What turns you on?
14:06Man, you turn me on.
14:08It's always like, he doesn't give me an answer.
14:10I feel like he's just trying to, like, please you or like, I don't like that.
14:15He's just putting on a front to not reveal who he really is.
14:18I think he's sexy as s***.
14:19I will s*** him, but I wouldn't be with him.
14:21I feel that.
14:23Like...
14:24I can't.
14:25Ugh, so raw.
14:26I'm here for all of that.
14:27But you know, I was interested in asking Ty...
14:31Mm-hmm.
14:32...Tajik, uh, out on one of these dates, just to see if, like...
14:36What are you doing?
14:37I feel like...
14:37I feel like if anybody can pull information from him...
14:38So, I guess you guys need to sweat you.
14:39You're gonna be able to break...
14:40Oh, yeah.
14:41Like, there's no way I would tolerate that.
14:42Like, I will press the issue.
14:44I'll force the issue, you know?
14:46And so we'll see, like, where...
14:47Wait, look at me.
14:48Can you take the Jik on your next one?
14:50I don't know if I can see Bryce go out with anybody else.
14:53It might mess with me a little bit.
14:55I love Vanessa, but sometimes she blows my s***.
14:58If you're gonna flirt with everybody in the house,
15:00don't tell the other girls not to talk to Bryce,
15:03because that's kind of selfish for me.
15:05So, we all have to date Bryce?
15:08She's like...
15:09I mean, this might not.
15:11Where's my shot?
15:14Let's go!
15:23We're having a burlesque party,
15:25and I love seeing everybody get comfortable out of their element,
15:29but my brain is scrambled eggs right now,
15:32because Mikayla's shaking her booty.
15:36Ooh!
15:37Temptation Island, baby.
15:52Oh, the party popped off.
15:55It was crazy.
15:56It was sexy.
15:57Girls wearing nothing.
15:59They're taking my shit.
16:02They're taking my shit.
16:02They're taking my shit.
16:03They're taking my shit.
16:04They're taking my shit.
16:04Damn, you look good tonight.
16:07I'm a little upset that I didn't talk to you earlier.
16:11You know, we only been here a couple days ago.
16:13I know. I'm not mad. I'm not mad.
16:14I feel like I'm like...
16:16I feel like really understanding about, like,
16:19everything happens for a reason.
16:21So, give me another look.
16:22All right.
16:23All right.
16:24So, you gotta get deeper now.
16:26You know that, right?
16:31I'm hurt.
16:32Dez is my girl,
16:33and Dez literally told me
16:36she wasn't attracted to Rob at all.
16:39She said it several times.
16:40What's up?
16:42Well, like, Tia's, like, my best friend.
16:44I know.
16:45And then...
16:46It's...
16:47It's a little annoying.
16:48Because I'm...
16:49All right.
16:50Tell me.
16:50Tell me what's up.
16:51And, like, I...
16:54I just feel like,
16:55right in this moment,
16:56I honestly feel, like,
16:59so conflicted.
17:00I know, because, like,
17:01Tia's your friend,
17:02but I just want...
17:07You need to have...
17:08You need to go have the talk.
17:09All right.
17:10You need to go have the talk,
17:11because, like,
17:13I can't move forward until you have a talk.
17:15All right.
17:15You want to, like, talk together?
17:17Okay.
17:18And keep it all transparent.
17:24It was never my intention to purposely be in the middle of both parties.
17:32Hey.
17:33Hey, Tia.
17:34You want some popcorn?
17:35Can you come...
17:35Yeah.
17:36Can you come over here, please?
17:37Yeah.
17:37But it just happened organically?
17:39Hey.
17:40Mmm.
17:44It was really big of Dez,
17:46so, like, I asked for you to come over.
17:48But, like, I just wanted to tell you, like,
17:50I got, like, more of a friend bribe from you,
17:54but, like, I'm really feeling Dez.
17:56And I understood that today, which is why I was like,
17:58I'm letting you know how I feel.
18:00I am sorry.
18:01It is what it is.
18:02And I also wanted to have my one-on-one with you.
18:04I didn't want to have it in a three-way conversation.
18:06Yeah.
18:06So now I feel like I can't properly express to you how I feel,
18:08because now she's like...
18:09No, you can't, because, like...
18:10Well, it's too late now.
18:11Nah, just say it.
18:12I honestly, like, yeah, you can step out if you want.
18:15Mm.
18:18I'm really feeling Dez,
18:20but, you know, he's real close with Tia,
18:23and it's just the whole situation, and...
18:26I hate it.
18:26I do not want that.
18:28A lot of the girls aren't here to make a connection.
18:29I feel like I'm one of the few that are.
18:32I sit through all the bullshit, and it's like,
18:34I feel like, you know, I really had a deep, real connection with Dez,
18:40you know?
18:40You understand she's not looking for one, right?
18:43Hmm?
18:43Has she told you that?
18:44She hasn't told me that, and it's like...
18:47I think you should probably ask that before you make assumptions.
18:50All right, maybe I should.
18:51And it's not my place to tell you what she thinks,
18:52but I feel like you should maybe ask.
18:54All right, maybe I should.
18:55Because now, like...
18:55I'm like, all right, so I'm not giving the chance over someone
18:58who might hypothetically not even want anything from you.
19:03Yeah.
19:04Hypothetically.
19:05Yeah.
19:06Like, you know, I don't give a about anybody else but Dez.
19:11Respectfully, I get it, and I understand that.
19:14But I just still think you should give me a chance, for real.
19:17You know, the ship has sailed now.
19:22If that's what you wanna do, okay, leave me.
19:24Like, now I'm over it.
19:26Like, at this moment, moving forward, I'm over it.
19:41But I'll see you tonight, I love it.
19:46I love it.
19:51And I'm over it.
19:53I love it.
19:53I love it.
19:54I love it.
19:54I love it.
19:56But I love it.
19:57We're losing it!
19:57We're losing it!
19:58We're losing it!
20:00So tonight is the boys and babes party.
20:03I'm bringing a lifeguard vibes because, you know, I'm trying to dive in.
20:07Little sonny named Jan, met her in a long time. Everybody stars when you got your bangs up.
20:16Oh my God!
20:20Oh my God!
20:22Oh my God!
20:26Maricela's a little firecracker. I can see she loves to have fun and the way she feels shut off.
20:32That only made me more attracted to her. She's a tough nut to crack.
20:36We'll see if I can crack that shell.
20:38You coming with me, don't be looking for my halo. I got a reputation, but it's okay, though.
20:43I'm not listening like this, I'm just letting it out.
20:46Hey, oh my God!
20:50Let me check.
20:51Come here.
20:53She to back that thing up. She to back that thing up. She to back that thing up.
20:57Hold on, hold on.
20:59Paris and Tajik are already off and on. Like one minute she's like, he's annoying.
21:03And the next minute I feel like they're about to make out.
21:05They're already confusing.
21:08How did you feel about me being on a date?
21:14Why is you so supportive about this?
21:17You're pissing me off.
21:18What am I supposed to do?
21:21Yo, I missed you today. I wanted to talk to you today.
21:24I was thinking about how your date went.
21:26It's not like I didn't want to hang out like I didn't miss you.
21:29It's just like, we're random.
21:32And I feel like it'd be selfish of me to take all of your attention while we're here.
22:06Let me be very clear with you, okay?
22:08It's just getting on my nerves.
22:09But I just think it was time that I made everything perfectly clear and laid it all out on the
22:14line.
22:15Well, what if we did that and then like, I'm like, damn, I really like this girl.
22:18Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
22:19Well, then that sucks to me.
22:20That's a fact.
22:21That's a fact.
22:21That's a fact.
22:22No, that's true.
22:23And I eat that too.
22:24I eat that too.
22:24Alright, but yeah.
22:25We're good.
22:26We're good.
22:27We're good.
22:27Alright, then we're on the same page.
22:42Can I get something off my chest, please?
22:45Yeah.
22:45Go ahead.
22:46I'm having doubts.
22:49It's scary.
22:50It is.
22:50I've always been so desperate to find a woman who wants a family, okay?
23:01Caitlin is not there.
23:04I don't see the light in her eyes when I talk about kids and family.
23:09She has always come off as, I will have a family because you want to have a family.
23:16Yeah.
23:18Oh.
23:18But then here I come again.
23:22And now I'm having doubts again.
23:24And I knew this was going to happen.
23:28That's why I was scared to do this.
23:30And I told Caitlin, I do not want to do this.
23:48All right.
23:50I'm going to be open about my whole experience.
23:55Caitlin is the love of my life.
23:57Right.
23:58Yeah.
23:59But now I've met someone like you.
24:01Mm-hmm.
24:02The light you showed on your face.
24:04Mm-hmm.
24:04And the happiness when you said you want a family.
24:07Yeah.
24:07I've never seen that from Caitlin.
24:08Yeah.
24:09That's hard.
24:10And that's hard.
24:11Very hard.
24:12I can't even imagine.
24:13So when I saw you say it, I was like, oh my God.
24:17Yeah.
24:17I would definitely say if Hall was not engaged, I would allow myself to let my wall down to see
24:26if there's a potential crush.
24:28But the fact that I feel so comfortable and safe with him does make me wonder, like, damn, is right
24:38person wrong time a thing?
24:40Everything is, like, so serious and intense.
24:44What am I doing?
24:46I'm, like, sweating, crying.
24:48Abby, she keep hating me with, like, sneak, sneak punches that are just, like, how do you just know, like,
24:54what I like or what I need right now?
24:56There are parts of her personality that are lacking in my relationship.
25:00That are, for me, it's, like, wife immaterial.
25:03I'm feeling Abby in a way to where, like, maybe it could be, like, taken to the next level.
25:09I really want to see how my girl's going to take that.
25:11Like, I'm always trying to make sure she's good, but I'm not making sure I'm good.
25:15The same exact way.
25:15And, like, it just throwing me off of my game.
25:18Now watch me work.
25:22Now watch me work.
25:23Okay, okay, okay.
25:25Now watch me work.
25:27Oh, my God.
25:28Hey.
25:29Oh, my God.
25:30What's up, everybody?
25:31How are you?
25:32How are you?
25:34If you give me a second, I just want to chat with the ladies for a few minutes so you
25:36can get back to whatever you're doing.
25:38Yes, sir.
25:38All right?
25:39Good luck, ladies.
25:40Have fun.
25:43Hi, you guys.
25:45Hey.
25:45How are we doing?
25:47Hanging in there.
25:47Yeah.
25:48Okay.
25:48Okay.
25:49Let me just tell you what I came here to tell you.
25:52Tonight, we are going to have your first bonfire without your partners with you.
26:04I'm letting you know that bonfires are real to me.
26:07Whatever we see, we can handle.
26:11I'll see you guys tonight.
26:13Bye, you guys.
26:14Bye.
26:16Damn, that's a heavy bomb.
26:18I'm feeling very nervous because I don't know what is going to happen.
26:22I want to know what the hell Gray is doing in that villa.
26:25I never cried about him.
26:26Like, even when he cheated, I never cried.
26:28But, like, I don't want to see Gray having sex.
26:30You're not going to see Gray having sex.
26:41Every time I think about you That I must be around you
26:51But you treat me like I don't belong I guess I'd be way better off alone
27:01Into the fire
27:06Into the fire
27:09Walking into the bonfire, it's setting in that I'm actually going to see what's been going on in that villa.
27:16Rob better not be playing with me.
27:18If I saw him violating our boundaries, I would flip some tables.
27:23Good evening.
27:24Good evening.
27:25Hi there.
27:26Hi.
27:28Ladies, welcome to your first bonfire solo without your partners here.
27:32So, as you know, on this island, there truly really is nowhere to hide.
27:36And at bonfire is where you're going to watch a clip of your boyfriends that'll give you a glimpse of
27:42their experience here on the island.
27:44Are you guys ready to get into it?
27:45Let's go. Let's go.
27:47Okay, Caitlin, we're going to start with you tonight.
27:49Okay.
27:50All right, here's your clip.
27:53I've always been so desperate to find a woman who wants a family.
28:01Okay?
28:04Caitlin is not there.
28:06I don't see the light in her eyes when I talk about kids and family.
28:11So the light you showed on your face and the happiness when you said you want a family, I've never
28:18seen that from Caitlin.
28:19I saw you say it.
28:21I was like, I want to hug you.
28:23Yeah.
28:23I just want to hug you.
28:30Tell me what you saw.
28:31I mean, I'm glad he's opening up.
28:35I mean, it's one thing to the guys, but then it's another thing to hear it, you know, to the
28:40girl that I saw him take on a date.
28:42I'm not ready for kids.
28:43I think I have three, four years before I'm ready to start a family.
28:51Whenever I say things like that, I think it goes back to that he thinks I'm too focused on my
28:56career and not enough on the relationship.
28:59And I'm like, why can't I have both?
29:01You can have both, but can you have them both with Hall?
29:07If you play the game that you are you, not part of a couple right now, then there is no
29:13expectation except what you need to express.
29:16This is practice time.
29:18Okay?
29:19Okay.
29:20A lot to think about.
29:22Hi, Paris.
29:23Hello.
29:24Let's watch this clip and then let's talk to you, okay?
29:34You see that?
29:36That's cuter than what's earlier.
29:43I don't want to think about Paris.
29:45I just want to have fun.
29:46I just want to, like, block Paris off from my head and just focus on Nafisa and the other girls
29:51and see how it goes from there.
29:52That's how I feel.
29:55I mean, of course, he didn't want to think about me because I feel like I kind of bully him
29:59all the time.
29:59Like, I always complain about everything that he does.
30:03Are you having a change of heart about how you feel about that?
30:07I mean, I do feel bad for how I treat Gray, but he needs to be treated this way so
30:13he can, like, be a better man, in my opinion.
30:16Because I'm tired of, like, just taking care of myself since I was 17.
30:21So, yeah.
30:22Since you were 17?
30:25That's a lot.
30:26What do you want?
30:30I just want to be happy in life.
30:32What does that look like?
30:33Having a man that protects me, kind of, in a way.
30:37Why doesn't it feel safe with Gray?
30:40Because Gray is the kind of person he grew up with all his siblings.
30:45And I grew up losing my mom when I was one years old.
30:49And I didn't grow up with my dad.
30:51I met him when I was 11.
30:59I feel like with my dad, he's so strict to the point that I can't ever please him.
31:03And I just think that it's hard to find a man because every time, one day, I try to, like,
31:09please them.
31:10And when I don't, I get mad and I want to run away and I want to fight them because
31:15that's just, like, my dad reflecting towards me.
31:18I don't know.
31:18Like, you understand me?
31:19I understand you 100%.
31:22And so what happens is when you've got a man, you pick at the man, you complain about the man,
31:27you do stuff like that because you're basically doing what your father would say.
31:33What if you forgave your father for doing as good as he can do?
31:43And then go do what you need to do.
31:52I can try that.
31:54You also can free yourself from the judgment you think your father has of you.
32:00And if you want, you get to forgive him for doing the best he could and make your own choices
32:06now.
32:09Paris, I know that was so much unpacked.
32:12Thank you for sharing it.
32:15All right, Vanessa, I'm going to show you a clip and then we'll talk it up.
32:19Okay, take a look.
32:22Vanessa is always embarrassing me.
32:25She's always off her temper.
32:27She's always embarrassing me, you know?
32:30And it's like, I feel like I have to apologize to people for her temper, for her anger.
32:35I don't really care at this point because, like, I'm almost, like, entirely sure.
32:40I'm, like, leaving the island by myself.
33:02I just need to digest that for a moment.
33:06You take all the time you need.
33:08The nerve.
33:09Mark, I will walk over to that house and I will knock him upside the head with a shoe.
33:16Like, I'm not playing with him.
33:17Like, for you to come here and talk about how you plan on leaving by yourself and you had no
33:24intentions on communicating that to me before we got here.
33:26Like, that that was even a possibility is insulting.
33:29It's disrespectful.
33:30Like, who do you think you want?
33:32I'd feel hurt.
33:32I'd feel betrayed.
33:33I'd feel upset.
33:35Because if you feel like I'm stifling your growth or hindering your progression, then I will leave.
33:43Who was the last person in your life that allowed you to break down, be vulnerable?
33:49Have you ever had that experience?
33:52Mark, I'm not going to do this with you.
33:55You're already doing it with me.
33:57I'm not going to do this with you, man.
33:59You don't have to.
34:01But you're already doing it.
34:04I've had that before and it's refreshing to feel protected.
34:09To feel safe.
34:12Haven't found it since.
34:14Okay.
34:16Then I'm going to just say this to you.
34:19You get to have it all.
34:21All of you do.
34:23And that means you don't have to be a one-man band stronger than anybody.
34:28Understand?
34:29I understand.
34:31Whenever you felt the way you said you felt.
34:34When you felt vulnerable and you could just feel safe and be held and whatever that is.
34:39You're allowed, you deserve, and I'm going to fight for you to have it again.
34:43If you don't want to fight, I'll fight for you.
34:48We good?
34:49Yeah.
34:50Yeah.
34:51I'm not scared of you.
34:55Maricela, you're next.
34:58Okay.
34:58Let's watch together.
34:59Okay.
35:01This woman is so emotionally intelligent.
35:05Like, she has a trade.
35:07She has great credit.
35:09She's goal driven.
35:11She wakes up early.
35:12She's low-key a homebody.
35:16I'm just like checking off all the boxes.
35:29I've told him that I may not be the perfect person for him.
35:34I've told him that many times, and I'm just like, hey, if you find somebody that's better, go for it.
35:40That word better has come up a few times already.
35:43Yeah.
35:43With you.
35:44Is that what you think this is, that he could upgrade to a better version, to something better than you?
35:52Is that the fear?
35:54I'm not where I want to be.
35:56I'm not.
36:00Mentally, emotionally, financially, I'm not where I want to be.
36:04Okay.
36:06How much, if you're going to weigh it, are you looking for his approval of you?
36:12Hmm.
36:15A lot.
36:17Since I've been with him, it's like, hey, you could do this better.
36:21It's been, hey, you have an issue here, you should fix this.
36:25And then I go to fix that issue.
36:26And then something else.
36:27And it's the next issue.
36:28And it's like, I'm always working to be what he wants me to be.
36:37You hear that, right?
36:38I do.
36:39Good for you.
36:42How does it feel to say that out loud?
36:43It feels good.
36:45You'll be surprised how many people are willing to love you just as you are.
36:50Like, I feel like they won't.
36:54And that's, like, me, like, self-sabotaging.
36:59And maybe they will.
37:03I haven't ever considered that.
37:10That wasn't easy to talk about.
37:13But it feels good.
37:15You know that we're just scratching the surface.
37:18Okay.
37:20That's bonfire.
37:21You're off the hook.
37:22You can head back to the villa.
37:25Hearing what Rob had to say in watching the clip pissed me off.
37:30If you're so embarrassed and ashamed, then why do you stay?
37:35Like, why do you choose to still continue to be in a relationship with me?
37:46That's good.
37:49I didn't know how long to thread the atmosphere.
37:53So cool.
37:55So cool.
38:01Out of here is news, kind of like,
38:07Ended up being in me.
38:07I ampting into being in a room.
38:08I don't know if I'm ready to see what Paris is doing because I'm a strong believer of when you
38:14go looking for something
38:15You will find it
38:18Good evening, gentlemen. Hey Mark. Hey Mark. Hey Mark. It's good to see you guys. How you feeling?
38:25Oh, anxious. Anxious? Nervous. Are you ready?
38:29I'm scared to death. Scared to death? Is that what you said?
38:33Yeah. Let's go. We're going to start with Chris. Okay?
38:37Yes.
38:39Well, I took the first step. I got away from Christopher. I will finally be alone. I'm not scared of
38:49being alone. Not. I'm ready.
38:56I'm just mostly scared of disappointing everyone I love back home. That's it.
39:11Tell me what you saw and what you heard.
39:15I saw Maricela being real with herself and real with her feelings and she has no choice but to detach
39:22herself
39:23and I'm happy that she's having that time. What do you mean by that? Like she...
39:27Maricela wants to be alone at times, but when it comes time to be alone, she doesn't really act on
39:34it.
39:36Maricela just wants to be free and not have a set of rules to live by.
39:41Does she have rules for you? Absolutely.
39:44She does? Maricela has a lot of rules for me.
39:46Like what?
39:47She likes to know where I'm at, who I'm with, what time I'm coming home.
39:52So we sort of have the same rules for each other.
39:55They just apply to me, it seems, and not so much for her.
39:59So when she says, I'm finally alone, I'm finally away from Chris, you know, when I don't know you guys
40:05that well,
40:06so when I hear that, I'm like, wow, okay, that's a lot.
40:08But to you, that wasn't a lot.
40:10It wasn't a lot because leading up to being on the island, Maricela had been expressing that.
40:17But if there's conflict, if she just wants space, Maricela will sometimes just create the space without any communication.
40:28And I just want for her to say, hey, this is what I want, so that I know the expectations
40:33of me.
40:34To me, it seems it's not in her nature to share because prior to me, she felt as though she
40:42always had to be the rock,
40:43the one that was emotionless, the one that didn't express herself.
40:46And she feels as though, if she expresses herself, why burden someone else with what's going on with her?
40:55So it's really, I feel, an internal conflict.
40:59So I think you're right in that this predates you, but it has to do with you because you're in
41:03relationship with her.
41:04We see behavior in our partner.
41:07We get concerned, but mostly it's just uncomfortable.
41:10So we want a solution.
41:12So we try to fix it, which comes from a loving place, but that's codependent.
41:17Nobody asked you to fix it because we can't.
41:20What we can do is love through it, and that's very difficult.
41:24It takes practice, and it takes awareness, and it takes some real love.
41:30Anyway, that's enough, Christopher, for now.
41:34Great, you're on deck.
41:35Yes, sir.
41:36Take a look.
41:39No, dead ass.
41:40I was looking at him like, I'm ready to risk it all.
41:44Oh, hey!
41:47Yeah!
41:49She ain't enjoying that shit.
41:51She ain't enjoying that shit.
41:53If there was no cameras, I would suck his d***, but I can't because there's cameras, so I have to
41:58be like a good girl, you know?
42:00Yeah!
42:00Yeah!
42:00Come on.
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