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Temptation Island - Season 7 - Episode 04
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00:17I stand and I know that you know I'm tiptoeing around
00:45I can't even lie I was
00:59expecting Jack to kiss me at some point in this process but this early on I'm like damn like
01:05he's really going for it I just love you Jackie his boundaries done broken gone we just went in
01:17the confessional like just me and him we just talked to the camera or whatever I don't know
01:23whether he wants to talk about it or just pretend like it never happened but I think off of what
01:27I
01:28got to experience he's a good kisser and I wouldn't mind experiencing it some more
01:35too much going on right now mid what
01:49firstly I thought that he would be the first one to break and he did so kudos to Carter if
01:57you ask me
01:57he's done like he might as well just go fully all the way I got you I got you he
02:05might want to go
02:06home with his girlfriend but after this shit I don't think his girlfriend's gonna want to go home with
02:17let's be honest Carter's a good kisser but not better than Cheyenne
02:45I don't know how they're vibing over there bro I don't think it's as close as we are here
02:48there's no way there's no way bro girls are like catfights yeah and girls like fight and like
02:53they're fighting over my boyfriend exactly that's disgusting I feel like he's doing good over there
02:58genuinely I think he's doing good over there too I think he'd be dumb if he did it to where
03:02I could
03:02like watch it I just had to scare him right before we left I told him I said if he
03:07embarrasses me
03:08your friends are no longer off limits just so that way you can't start fucking his friends
03:14like that would kill him that would break his heart is that what you're trying to do no I don't
03:20know
03:20what he's doing over there I have like a little angel over here that's like it's okay but then
03:24the devil's like he's he's fucking a bitch you know like one of the pettiest people I know
03:36how are you guys feeling about all this shit my term is like paranoia I'm always paranoid we know
03:42I worry that I'm like out of sight out of mind you know it's like you're not like in reality
03:47you're
03:48not like the only person they would ever like hook up with it you know yeah look at the first
03:52bonfire
03:52so traumatizing I'm kind of scarred from that yeah my mouth was like on the floor when I saw your
03:57clip
03:57like I don't care how much money somebody has how bad she was bashing you do you care when she
04:02like shits on you like the bonfire and stuff like do you care like does it yeah like yeah
04:05cause your response even at the bonfire was a little like my response was more loud than
04:09yours and I was confused I feel like I've gotten like almost used to it and like that's not okay
04:14that's not healthy yeah you got more to offer in life than being somebody's punching bag and that's
04:19the scary part I feel like even coming into the house dude I feel like I've held a lot of
04:24shit in
04:25mind Cheyenne's relationship has not been the most perfect thing I don't want to make her look
04:30like a bad person because at the end of the day I love her but a year or two into
04:34our relationship
04:34she went out with a friend and you know got drunk and you know kissed someone she had talked to
04:40in
04:40the past so hold on hold on hold on hold on so you're telling me so you're telling me she
04:47cheated
04:47before you cheated yeah why didn't you say that because I didn't want to make her look like a bad
04:52person you retaliated I retaliated but I ended up cheating to the full extent isn't that so unfair
04:59to just like take all the the blunts of all the wrongdoings in your relationship yeah it's crazy at
05:05the end of the day dude I want her to be happy but what about you I am starting to
05:09be a little bit
05:10happier and like I wouldn't be telling you guys this if I didn't if I was something wasn't changing with
05:14me me and Cheyenne when that all happened should have taken a break and we didn't and I feel like
05:19that's definitely where this resentment and shit didn't heal over the years I pushed my feelings to
05:24the side I mean now that I'm here this experience it's bringing stuff out that I really didn't see
05:28was wrong and like hearing the guys and like the advice they give me I kind of see that now
05:32basically your ultimate test is like are you and Cheyenne too far gone because of all that you've done
05:38to each other or can you guys make it work yeah getting some Sun had to bro yeah we're working
05:53on
05:53our tan wait so have you ever had like a girlfriend not really like I honestly went through like a
05:58ho
05:58phase when I was like 20 mm-hmm and then recently I just been like you know what I think
06:04that happens
06:04when we turn like 24 and 25 we're like this isn't fun anymore like the chase gets old see I
06:09wish I
06:10would have realized that sooner yeah I think some of Summit's friends are still not on that wavelength
06:13and that's like a problem because it gets in his head you think you'd like they do have a pretty
06:18good influence on him yeah I do not like a lot of his friends like when we broke up they
06:23made
06:23him like a hinge within like three days and it like actually made me think that he just like
06:30never cared about me because I was like why are you on a dating app it's normal to have a
06:36relationship
06:36and that can be your number one priority it's good to be in love like you're 25 years old
06:42relationships are supposed to be like the light of your day and he is sometimes but there's other
06:49weeks where he's the thing that's dragging me down the most and I'm like is this person really the
06:58father of my kids or like I don't know it just messes with my head like with the father of
07:04my children
07:04like make me feel this way my biggest fear is like being alone for the rest of my life I
07:15don't want to
07:15spend my life alone I want to have like a partner I'll be curious to see if our girlfriends are
07:27like
07:27reactive of us because if they start doing crazy shit and then we'll be like they definitely saw
07:32something in the last part I know well yeah which wouldn't have been bad but they might have assumed
07:36it well you know what I mean right I don't think Kaylee's like that but you just never know in
07:40these
07:41situations this isn't normal yeah I wrote her a letter this morning and I want to start writing
07:46more so then like I can give them to her so she can read like a day in the life
07:50right versus like me
07:51me trying to like explain everything at that yeah be like look like I was thinking this like I missed
07:56you coming back from like the restaurant and like I love you you know God what did they see
08:07I'm like a coffee connoisseur what's crazy is I'm not a huge fan of coffee but I'm gonna I'm gonna
08:12try
08:12it potentially losing Cheyenne and me making a connection with another girl in the house is scary
08:17oh these are good here's your beautiful drink perfect thank you but at the same time being with Carter
08:21definitely makes me feel like I can be my authentic self I have fun her presence is definitely making that
08:26this whole process a lot easier I want to like get you like a cool gift to remember you know
08:31just like the date overall maybe this little hat what are you feeling one to ten what do you think
08:37ten I like twelve really yeah twelve twelve in my relationship I'm not a huge romantic person at all
08:45try this on I lack taking Cheyenne on dates I lack you know getting gifts and stuff like that
08:50wow is that too big no I like it big but like that's definitely something I want to work on
08:56and I think being here I'm kind of learning that what do you think I like it I think it
09:01looks good
09:01on you this is like a once-in-a-lifetime thing when I'm with Jack it feels like I'm literally
09:07just
09:07with like one of my best friends but we have like that physical connection too I don't know it's just
09:17so
09:17flirty it kind of gives me butterflies in my stomach a little bit I like how big it is like
09:22yeah this is
09:23like my man's hoodie that's what this is giving me I think we're going in a really really good
09:29direction and I'm really excited to see what can happen in these next few days with him
09:40I don't know what's prettier the view or you stop you're playing no I'm not getting this like one on
09:48one time with you it's really nice no I really appreciate you give me the biggest hug in the
09:51world I really appreciate you you're my favorite in the house really yeah say it again you're my
09:59favorite in the house oh so why are you stressed out you and your ex no I mean sorry Sydney
10:11I'm just so
10:13scared cuz I know she has this thing where it's really a double standard where if she does something
10:21it's okay but if I do something she looks like she'll leave like she threatens to leave so much
10:26like and scared of losing her does that stem from my childhood no this is just the first time in
10:36my
10:37life I've been loyal she's the only girl I've been with for like a year is not that long no
10:43it's a year is a
10:44long time for me I was a ho so like the way I move in here is like I'm petrified
10:50so I'm petrified to
10:53flirt you shouldn't want to be with somebody like that though like y'all came here together to go through
11:01a process and experience dating other people this is the first time that Mikey said he's ever been
11:09faithful in a relationship so I see why he's so emotional but he needs to figure out if this is
11:16the person that he wants to be with because if not she's gonna break his heart even when I first
11:22had a conversation you guys like Sydney's gonna leave me like you want to be with somebody like
11:26that like you're literally saying it like you need to start writing this shit down and read it it makes
11:30sense of why you're so emotional in here because God knows what she's doing over there like yeah you
11:36see what I'm dealing with you you see me what's up everybody prepped up on you there sorry what's
11:50up everybody hey look this is an intense experience and you guys went through the bonfire and that
12:00stirs things up and you guys are trying to make connections and you're all becoming a family but
12:05I think you need to dial it back and just get a little loose and you know go have some
12:09fun so
12:10I came here to tell you that tonight there's gonna be a group outing you need a break so it's
12:19a group outing
12:29let's go y'all better be careful y'all stuck in here with me why did you say that who's
12:36the fattest who's the maddest who's the one you wanna I love going out like I love going to clubs
12:42like honestly the clubs just call my name every Saturday
12:47I wanna know I'm excited to get out of the villa and like hang out with everyone like a group
12:54setting
12:55they're teaching me what I should and should not stand for everybody's gonna have a great time about to have
13:07fun about to turn up I'm messy so I'm encouraging all bullshit for the guys to do and if they
13:12do it
13:13hey I don't see shit
13:14two so one you walk you walk
13:18tonight we out
13:21the temptation girls are hitting the island
13:25hitting the island
13:26hitting the island
13:28we're getting to fool it out
13:30like someone might hit a home run tonight
13:32we're hitting all the bases tonight
13:41it's so nice to get out of the villa I know
13:55add two to that
13:56for who
13:56you
13:58and me
13:59Jack is starting to understand what he wants and what he doesn't want in his life
14:03here he's realizing like there's no limits and I think part of him really does like that
14:09I'm a little worried for myself
14:15me and Cheyenne have hit an area in our relationship where we need to figure out who we are as
14:20people
14:20because I feel like in the course of five years you know we've both lost ourselves
14:24you know is she happy as a whole am I happy
14:26like I don't know if I'm happy and like having the conversation with the guys this morning
14:30uh has just really made me realize
14:32you know I gotta be authentic to myself
14:50the bigger checks
14:52potentially some better sex
15:00tonight we are keeping the energy high this is forever on three one two three
15:06this is forever
15:17tonight's the night the girls are looking good we're feeling good and we're looking good
15:26so you're laughing so funny
15:28I liked it
15:30the last 50
15:30other one in particular I mean Sydney's looking pretty bad
15:47I feel like we talk without saying shit and it's like it's just fun yeah because we're just like
15:53I know we get you fucking get me I don't know if it's like an age thing or like what
15:59it means
15:59it has a lot to do with it I think so we've been through similar shit yeah I'm sure you've
16:03been
16:03just through like relationships that I've been through like similar stuff there is a level to
16:08that where it's like you just can't you're at different stages that's why like we're shy like
16:12I think she means well and like she's a good girl but like there's just nothing in common in common
16:18right I think I've learned the most about myself through Bradley being here we do have great
16:25conversation and that is something that I want in my relationship with Cole I like I hope your
16:30boyfriend like does this shit like talks to girls I know that's what you need yeah what else why would
16:38you come in yeah all right everyone um can you guys hear me all right all right I just want
16:46to
16:46get up here play a little song you know dedicated to Sydney real quick hey hey hey some slice I'm
16:52slice I'm slice I'm slice I'm slice I hope you guys enjoy it it seems like Sydney has never been
17:06treated like the prize I knew for past relationships so even like when I'm without her I'm thinking
17:13about like something I can do for her wait this is like the start of the rest of their lives
17:18I'm just
17:19really blessed with the opportunity to be able to like show up for her and uh she appreciates it which
17:24I love I appreciate all y'all thank you thank you you wanted me to know that it was about
17:31me I love
17:34that what can I say wait I think I've asked you this but like what is your type in person
17:50of guy a guy I
17:53just like when a guy like views the world the same as I do and can laugh at the same
17:58thing it's like
17:59those two things but you laugh at everything it's just cuz I'm so funny you are so funny like you
18:07think really you are I think you're so funny I always think that I'm funny but sometimes I question
18:12myself I question myself too cuz I'm like no you're funny I'm officially telling you that you're funny
18:17it doesn't really matter what we're talking about I enjoy the presence of Julianne the most everything
18:26I say she's got like this clever witty little like response and it's just it's very enjoyable it just
18:34goes back to this idea of like always being attracted and drawn to like the newest next shiny item and
18:42you
18:43know it's hard to like truly fully commit to one person it's just really hard I keep trying to beautiful
18:49explore but you're just my favorite
18:56I do think you're pretty I like I do tell me again I'm not saying it again and I you
19:02know I feel like you
19:03know there's really nothing to hold back anymore because I've already said it
19:07not some real-ass shit and I'm starting to feel like I'm not scared to show that you know what
19:13I
19:13mean yeah and I kind of have to forget about the outside life for a little bit I don't really
19:27know
19:27where I where I fit in and all this you know what I'm saying and I know I fit in
19:36and having good
19:37conversations with you I like in the past like a bad guy like I'm like oh my god like I
19:49crave that
19:49attention I don't think like where did that give me Mikey's he's a good person but in terms of a
19:55relationship he is not what I genuinely want I understand that now I get that from here on out
20:03I like have a minimum list you gotta meet these you you got to meet this I'm very happy to
20:13be here
20:13with you um it's like actually like a beautiful thing to be sitting right here with you like it's
20:18actually amazing like I love it baby what you want to do
20:50the house is finally not Bible camp anymore for the first few days it was like nobody touch each
20:55other hands to yourselves but now I feel like the guys are finally letting loose a lot more wait I
21:00have Sambas that have like a pink stripe in them and they'd be really cute with that oh sick would
21:05they fit my feet though no no they'd be like yes welcome to the club man the guys are finally
21:12taking
21:12their tails from in between their legs and actually letting it waddle a little bit y'all ain't give me
21:17no
21:18compliments today bro what we've been complimenting you oh no y'all ain't glaze me enough today bro y'all
21:25with the glaze there's slow burners but do I think one of them might you know crack under pressure or
21:32might get cracked I don't know but we'll see yeah what do you want not that you want tequila yeah
21:56honestly it's been the best night so far where the hell does it come from right now I'm realizing
22:02that I am okay without Jack I'm having so much fun not worrying about him spending the time apart
22:10that we have spent apart I'm feeling good I'm having a blast honestly
22:29with Xavier I definitely feel like there's something more there um and I'm interested to explore it
22:40I love who he is as a person and I love what he's showing me and as long as it
22:45keeps heading in
22:46that direction who knows what could happen oh my gosh you're living lavish
22:53so what do you think about this tension between us
22:58the tension between us oh my god that's that's hilarious that you asked that you know
23:04I definitely feel like it's there yeah
23:10okay
23:13here you can read this I just don't want to say it out loud I'm sharing my life with you
23:17and I need
23:17you to understand that appreciate it I have a perfect smile yeah you do you do have a perfect smile
23:32no you have a really nice smile thank you with Sydney I'm being real delicate on that speed but like
23:39we're going there like the feasibility of a kiss it doesn't sound too unrealistic but seeing like
23:45the potential of like bonding like a like a genuine romantic partner who like shows up the way like
23:50Sydney does it's um it's surprising but like also like beautiful that like seems like it's within my grasp
23:59I just want to know you I just want to hear your voice again baby come closer
24:12show me who you are under that skin good night you guys love you all
24:18and I've waited for some time now just to hear you say I love you and I've waited for some
24:29time now baby would you let me love you
24:34I just want you to know like at the end of the day I look at you and I read
24:38you I could say nothing you know exactly what the fuck I'm thinking about
24:43yeah no I do Jack is about to fold tonight he's been yeah but he's about to go ballistic do
24:52you want to go to bed
24:54running from your life yeah I'm sure with me sure
25:04let's go
25:07temptation comes in everyday life and I feel like if you're going to fall into temptation you're going to
25:12probably fall into it here as much as this sounds crazy if you don't feed into this shit
25:18you're not going to find any answers for your relationship as a whole
25:22I'm answering a lot of questions for Jack he is getting to know me he is connecting with me
25:27and he feels comfortable enough to get physical with me at the end of the day
25:31close his blinds really quick
25:40like I'm in better than me as a girlfriend
26:00it's kind of fun
26:12it was a little weird sleeping next to somebody else I feel like
26:17it was different because I'm just like so used to sleeping next to Cheyenne
26:22I think that's the hard part is like you know figuring out what you need for yourself
26:27but at the same time like if I'm doing this there's a possibility she's doing this and I feel like
26:34that's you know that's hard to like process and I feel like you know yeah
26:49how are you feeling
26:52I'm feeling good good yeah I don't know why I like worry or like have so much stress
27:00back home but I freaking do I just want him to prove to me so badly that he can be
27:06open so then
27:07even if it's something little I just like lose my shit yeah I do think Cole needs to open up
27:12just
27:13a tad me too because that's like a part of our relationship where we are truly disconnected
27:19you know my friends have said it's just like really hard to get to know him
27:24and you know I want someone to where I feel like we can both like
27:29have that energy and like show up and you know be talkative and I don't want to feel like I'm
27:35like
27:35having to carry conversations
27:37I noticed that I mean in the few like interactions I had with him
27:40yeah he would just be like yeah cool yeah like and it was like this we have something to talk
27:46about
27:46yeah like I was like excited to relate you know like he's just such a solid human but it's just
27:54like figuring out all of the missing pieces that are there right now
27:58step into my world
28:01let me show you what I see
28:05I know obviously you have your boundaries
28:08yeah and none of us are going to cross it
28:09but we are here to like offer you opinions that maybe your boys couldn't give you
28:14you can be more in the experience without completely disrespecting yourself her or your relationship
28:20it's kind of the dynamic of our relationship like girls can escalate things in my relationship
28:27because she doesn't trust me so it already just kind of stigmatizes like
28:31can make things like worse you know like even how platonic it is or my intentions you know
28:37there's not a lot of grace for sure I give her a lot of grace I feel like
28:40she then needs to like just come to terms with like the past and we need to forgive each other
28:44and she that's the only way
28:46she knows that I'm apologetic about it and it is like a big deal
28:49it's like if she if she just let me if she just let her guard down and let me be
28:53free
28:53I would be more comfortable and out of fear
28:56knowing I mean yeah babe like I went to the beach and there was 10 girls there
28:59like you're telling little white lies out of fear that if you say the truth
29:03even if it's not something bad she's gonna flip out
29:06she'll get mad at me for the truth sometimes
29:08because she doesn't believe me so now I'm like I tell the truth you're mad I lie I'm mad
29:11so it's like a lose-lose for me
29:14it feels good to obviously just get like different perspectives from you know other girls
29:18girls but I'm always in a constant state of like surveillance and like when's the next
29:23bad thing she's gonna get mad about and that's like you don't want to live like that I'm just
29:28tense all the time you obviously love her so much I think you guys could have something really
29:33wonderful it's just a matter of like working through those issues
29:44what's up everybody
29:45hello how are you want to have a chat ladies
29:49sure come on let's uh go over these chairs fellas it'll only be a minute
29:55what's up guys oh shit shit I'm here tonight to tell you what's coming up
30:03so tonight it's time for another bonfire
30:11I was not expecting that I thought I thought something else was gonna be coming our way
30:15oh god that was fast
30:19look the whole point of the bonfire is to inform you
30:21not so much of what's going on on the other side of the island but how you feel about what
30:25you see
30:25at this point of the journey you've now had plenty of time to be an individual
30:30the information you may see I don't know what it is could be harder now but who you are now
30:35is
30:35different and I want to remind you that when I met you you came here as a couple and as
30:41much as
30:41you love the guys you came with it wasn't firing on all pistons so looking at the clips may be
30:49difficult but are you feeling any different about yourself having been an individual for a while
30:56I'll see you tonight okay all right thanks Mark I'll see you soon I just can only imagine what
31:06we're about to see honestly oh god I think we're going into this one with a different mindset
31:12we're not in denial of our issues anymore but it's still scary it's so scary well we got each other
31:19you
31:19know yeah I need a drink yeah me too all right let's go I don't know dude I feel like
31:30coming in here
31:31like you know I did break my boundaries overall you know I came here wanting to leave with Cheyenne I
31:38just know like based off what I've already done here you put that at Jeopardy
32:02going into this bonfire I have a different mindset if I see Jack having fun
32:07that's okay being here I haven't kissed I haven't touched I haven't done any of that and I should
32:14be able to let him experience what I'm also experiencing but still be in a healthy relationship
32:29I'm 29 years old I'm not at a place where I want to be wasting any time Cole and I
32:35came here for a
32:36reason and I'm just really hoping that he is putting in as much effort as I am to get to
32:41the
32:42bottom of our problems to grow and come out stronger
32:57my anxiety from 1 to 10 I'm going to rate it at 100 right now it's shitty to say but
33:02you know I
33:02really hope that she's done something similar I have because maybe it wouldn't make me feel so bad
33:15I remember the first bonfire went I feel like scared shitless like I don't know what she's doing
33:20and talk to her so like I'm definitely like worried
33:31I'm gonna break free it's not gonna break me not gonna break me like I just feel uneasy my heart
33:41tells
33:41me that Kaylee hasn't done anything that would really hurt me but I know I've done things that
33:48Kaylee's not gonna love to see
33:56I'm scared that she's gonna press the limits to the point where there is no return and that's gonna
34:01hurt and I don't want to believe that she doesn't care about me what's up fellas what's up what's up
34:07what's going mark how we living well you look good feel good good let's get into it we'll start with
34:18Jack okay Jack you ready uh as much as I can be all right buddy let's take a look you
34:25and Jack came
34:26here for a reason so do you feel like you are truly happy with him no no I don't feel
34:32like we
34:32are truly happy I don't trust him he knows how bad he hurt me too like whenever he went that
34:38far with
34:38her and so it's like I just don't it it almost makes me feel like he's just been filling my
34:43head
34:43full of bullshit this relationship's so fucked it is so toxic but it's just because we've been
34:51together for so long so it's like that comfort I'm realizing that I am okay without Jack I'm
34:59having so much fun not worrying about him spending the time apart that we have spent apart I'm feeling
35:05good I'm feeling like I'm having a blast honestly um you know seeing that clip I'm really not caught
35:17by surprise at all I feel like you know she's speaking her emotions and you know over the course
35:21of five years we've had a rough patch and you know I feel like that that honeymoon stage is faded
35:28in our
35:28relationship and the happiness is kind of faded as well and you know what she is saying uh it's hard
35:34to hear um but I can't agree um with a little bit of that be more specific what did you
35:42hear that you
35:42can agree with that's hard to hear we're not happy in the relationship what I've learned while being
35:48here is how to be myself again I've talked to the girls in the house and I feel like you
35:54know they've
35:54kind of made me feel a certain way about what I've been through and kind of where what I'm missing
35:59um in
36:00myself and I overall you know they've been really honest with me about you know that I've probably lost
36:05myself I feel like I have lost myself you know is there any any one particular person Jack you
36:11know I think Carter is a big one um it's something I didn't expect and uh yeah it's a little
36:18bit
36:18scary too just because you know I've been in a relationship for so long so uh I think overall
36:24like what I really have noticed is there's no judgment I feel like you know in my relationship
36:29I've you know been judged in weird ways you know these guys are getting me through it as well you
36:33know
36:33having these bonfires and kind of seeing the way that she's opening up and talking about me
36:37that just seems unfixable to me like that's kind of what I'm realizing I'm sure it's hard to hear
36:44you know the person you came to the island with kind of run you down a little bit and then
36:49in true
36:51Jack form you take responsibility for it yeah I feel like I've just kind of been walked all over
36:58and I'm just I'm just tired of it okay that's rough and I'm I'm happy you're discovering things
37:09about yourself and reigniting ways of being that you'd forgotten about all right Cole let's see
37:18what's going on in your world I just want him to prove to me so badly that he can be
37:25open so then
37:26even if it's something little I just like lose my shit yeah I do think Cole needs to open up
37:31just a
37:32tad me too because that's like a part of our relationship where we are truly disconnected you
37:38know my friends have said it's just like really hard to get to know him I noticed that I mean
37:43in the
37:43few like interactions I had with him yeah he would just be like yeah cool this is fun yeah because
37:50we're just like I know we get you fucking get me I think I've learned the most about myself through
37:58Bradley being here we do have great conversation and that is something that I want in my relationship
38:11I mean makes me feel sad we came into this island you know with a relationship that what I thought
38:19and
38:19what she's expressed to me that you know feel was really good obviously we had our problems but I have
38:25been a very loyal boyfriend and you know before coming here I have hundreds of letters from her saying
38:32how much she loves this relationship and you know how much I mean to her so yeah I mean I
38:37think that
38:37video just made me kind of sad that's what I can say about that but maybe these are the questions
38:42to
38:42ask the girls in the house why do I think things are cool and she doesn't seem to think they're
38:47cool
38:48what can you tell me about me that I may not know about me yeah and then be willing to
38:53hear it you
38:54know I've realized some things in our relationship that you know obviously I want to fix but there was
38:59some things of you know her being half in half out early in the relationship obviously she broke up
39:04with me the first time I think it really damaged you know my confidence and sense of worth which
39:10I think could have fed into like some of the white lies that then proceeded out of out of fear
39:14you know
39:15so now that you're starting to see why your behavior might be connected to a feeling of insecurity or not
39:22feeling supported now let's look at the gap between your perception of how things are and her perception
39:31of how things are it sounds like things are stirring up for you and that's the start of the process
39:37Cole
39:38so good for you yeah all right Mikey what's up what's up how you feeling feeling good how you feeling
39:46so good all right let's take a look two three oh shit like I'm super comfortable you make it so
40:04easy
40:04no I like it yeah no you make it pretty easy too we're dating like you know we're exploring we're
40:13experiencing I'm experiencing new feelings I don't know is it smooth if I plug in I love how you ask
40:23yeah now I'm big on this meeting a guy like Xavier has just like opened my eyes to all of
40:31the
40:31possibilities of what like love should look like what a relationship should look like what a man
40:37truly looks like okay she looks beautiful by the way first and foremost I love that girl I miss that
40:50girl and I'm gonna be real nothing I saw made me uncomfortable I mean you told us that we supposed
40:57to
40:57be in here to figure out some things figure out some questions and if that's the guy for her I
41:05commend her on that and if I'm not the guy for her I have to understand that and I mean
41:11that okay it's
41:13a little bit of a change from the last time I saw you which is like you know if I
41:18lose her I'll be
41:19devastated kind of vibe seeing everything right here I have no problem with this she's living in her
41:24truth and that's all she can do what if her truth ends up being that she needs to be with
41:29him and not
41:29you what can I say I'm happy for her like that's my best friend so I support her right or
41:34wrong and
41:35if that's right for her I support that straight talk it doesn't feel like you're feeling much like
41:41you're cool with it it's fine and that wasn't the emotional guy I saw about a week ago and if
41:48you see
41:48the girl you say you love to death like you do and it looks like she might be feeling somebody
41:52else
41:53and maybe be gone I'm surprised that you're just like whatever I mean what can I do you could feel
42:00something I grew up with a mother that said don't want nobody that don't want you so the day got
42:07to
42:08go on the Sun gonna come up the Sun gonna go down so look I don't disagree with anything you're
42:15saying right I just think there's something to explore about the fact that you're seeing the girl
42:19you came here with saying we're dating with some other guy and you're like I'm happy for her it's all
42:27good truthfully I wish that was me I do I I wish I was experiencing these moments with Sydney and
42:36but I'm
42:36not and that's something I got to live with um well that that statement you just said was the
42:41closest thing to something I'll buy that you've said that feels real to me yeah everything else
42:46feels a little bit like if I don't acknowledge it I'm gonna be cool right oh no not at all
42:53I'm gonna
42:53be honest if I felt if I felt some time I can't hide my emotions yeah that's true yeah I
42:59can't hide
42:59him that's true um and yeah that just I just didn't do it for me like I'm sorry like no
43:06don't
43:06be sorry that's a huge answer to a question yeah I'm growing for real I I know when to be
43:12serious
43:12when it's time to be serious I know how to joke when it's time to joke okay and big shout
43:17out India
43:17for helping me through that like my journey would not be where it's at right now if it was not
43:21for India
43:22so well that's great I'm cool okay summit yeah hopefully I can be as cool I don't know let's take
43:33a look do you want him to be something other than what he is want him to like be a
43:40fucking good
43:40boyfriend yeah like you want your partner to like love you and accept you for all of you at some
43:46point
43:46you have to realize like you are enough though like at what point does the breaking point happen
43:51because I mean all the disrespect I mean it builds up like no one should feel like they're their partner
43:57is like belittling them I I don't understand like why he does it like I don't know what he gets
44:03out
44:03of like making me feel bad about myself is this person really the father of my kids or like I
44:12don't
44:12know it just messes with my head like with the father of my children like make me feel this way
44:30um yeah I mean obviously it's on theme with the clip I got at the first bonfire
44:37this theme of me not making her feel as amazing as she is and deserves to feel and it it
44:45sucks that
44:46clearly I'm not making her feel that way it's almost like just so frustrating because I I guess I don't
44:52fully understand like what I'm doing to make her feel so unsupported like am I really such a shitty
45:01boyfriend I I guess I I have a hard time acknowledging that I think you're on the right
45:07track I think the fact that you say I don't know why she feels this way is in essence asking
45:15the
45:15question so let's talk about it it's I'm just like a very independent person I feel like and I like
45:24to do
45:24my own thing and like we don't need to like be together like be each other's absolute rock 24 7
45:327 days a week I I don't maybe I'm just not ready for a relationship still I don't that may
45:39be oh I
45:40didn't think you would say but you're you're on the right track and you know what I love about you
45:46you're trying so hard I'm trying mark buddy I get that it's foreign to you because you've had two
45:53relationships give yourself a break what relationship in your life uh parents or others have you
46:01witnessed that you thought they've got it together it wouldn't be my parents I I was raised by a single
46:09mom um yeah no dad do you have a relationship with your father do you mind me asking I do
46:15not
46:15my mom's my everything she's my rock she's mom and dad super mom my hero anytime anyone asks like
46:22who is your role model who are you the most proud of in your life it's always my mom but
46:29as children
46:29we take our cues from what we've we've witnessed you haven't really seen an example of a love
46:35relationship other than the love relationship of a mother to her son and vice versa right yeah
46:42however if you reframe it you can use what you know to create a good relationship with a girlfriend
46:48your relationship with your mom was it fair to say you'd do anything for her absolutely yeah is it fair
46:54to say you don't criticize anything even when you see things that aren't really so great yeah me and my
46:58brothers joke all the time there's things about it like I can't believe mom's nuts but you don't want
47:02to say mom I really you know what you know what the type of mom I want I want a
47:06mom like that mom
47:07oh I would never right but you're doing that with Kaylee yeah so she's not saying you're a shitty
47:14boyfriend maybe those are the words but what she may be sharing is what she needs that she's not
47:19getting from you and how much she loves you and wants you to give her that because that's a healthy
47:27relationship okay thank you mark okay thank you buddy all right I think we're done for the night
47:36you made it through another bonfire guys tomorrow and coming up will be more dates so think about who
47:42you want to go on dates with when you go back to your villa tonight you will see an addition
47:47to your villa it's called the temptation haven it's an area where you can go whenever you want
47:55with whomever you want there are no cameras in there it's a chance for you to further experience
48:02temptation or connection without everybody's eyes on you there's a temptation haven in the other villa as
48:12well whenever anyone goes into the haven a light goes on in the other house to let everybody know
48:18that somebody has entered the temptation haven you will not know who or what's going on but you'll
48:24know that something's going on and vice versa got it got it we appreciate you I appreciate you guys man
48:32this is not easy it's not it's not easy and I acknowledge that so give yourselves a bit of a
48:37break head on out and I will see you soon love you Martin good night thank you
48:43they say a window opens whenever her door closes for her to question you know if I should be the
48:53father of her children like those are just such intense words I hate this tough it's so tough not to
49:00gasp my own tires but like I know someone out there would like love me so much for me and
49:05appreciate
49:06me so much for me so if she doesn't appreciate me for me and everything I bring to the relationship
49:12I don't really know what we're doing here
49:14I heard that time can heal a wound and fix up what is broken
49:21I know the bonfire was tough for some of us
49:25you know I expect her to be having a good time but I have not and would not be saying
49:30that
49:31you know about Scarlett so I guess that's maybe what sucked the most
49:36from what I'm hearing from her side she's coming to the realization that she doesn't really need me anymore
49:41it changes my overall thought process on like where me and her stand
49:46I see that Sydney has found somebody that she cares about and I want to respect it
49:59maybe one day I'll get what I want instead of what I need
50:12this is hard to watch
50:18I just thought Sydney loved me and I thought that her love for me would have been stronger
50:30maybe one day I'll stay in my arms instead of always
50:54whatever we are shown it's like that is maybe the truth that we're looking for
51:00it's for a reason yeah yeah exactly
51:04I'm more scared for this one than the first one
51:07I feel like Cole maybe hasn't gone this deep with his emotions and feelings
51:12I'm just bracing myself
51:15guys I get nervous thinking about all of each other's bonfire experience
51:19it's like it makes me feel even more like stressed and just like emotional
51:24it just doesn't even feel real
51:27it's it's not at all
51:28I hope Summit remembers that I am on the other side of things and I am gonna see what he
51:35does
51:35if I see something that I'm really uncomfortable with
51:38I'm gonna need to take a step back and re-evaluate how I move on with the process
51:56I just want to know that we're still choosing each other every day and we're not just going through the
52:02motions
52:07I don't know how I'm gonna feel when I see my key pop up on the screen but seeing
52:12what I saw last time this time I'm like I expect the absolute worst
52:18I just want to know did I waste my time on something real or was it all fake
52:30hello friends
52:31hi
52:31how you doing
52:34good pretty good
52:36welcome to your next bonfire
52:38at this point you're in it
52:40hopefully you've learned some stuff about yourself
52:42hopefully you've had some chance to re-evaluate
52:44what's working in your relationship
52:46and what's not working
52:51I know that sometimes looking at these clips can be painful
52:55but we'll get through it together
52:58here we go ladies
53:00we're good
53:02we're gonna start with you Scarlett
53:04let's take a look
53:11I give her a lot of grace I feel like
53:13she then needs to like just come to terms with like the past and we need to forgive each other
53:17and she knows that I'm apologetic about it and it is like a big deal
53:20if she just let her guard down and let me be free
53:23I would be more comfortable knowing
53:24I'd be like yeah babe
53:25like I went to the beach and there was 10 girls there
53:27she'll get mad at me for the truth sometimes
53:29because she doesn't believe me
53:30so now I'm like I tell the truth you're mad I lie I'm mad
53:32so it's like a lose-lose for me
53:35when we do end up coming back together
53:36it's like we gotta figure out how to clean up these like trust issues
53:40but it's like if you can't get over the past
53:41I can't make you trust me
53:42no matter if I'm honest to you or not
53:45you have to just let it go and like
53:47it's like we can't keep going back on it
53:50I think it's hard to let it go
54:01when it's happened as recently as
54:04the week before we got here
54:08he says you know
54:09trust issues that are in the past
54:11but we've never worked through them
54:13so they're still present
54:14can you tell me what happened recently
54:17he told me he was going to the track
54:19with his friend
54:21and that was it
54:22that's all I ever heard of it
54:23I just had a feeling
54:25and so I said
54:26who's going to the track
54:27and he said
54:28well this girl DM'd me
54:31and you know
54:31I told her that we were going to the track
54:33someone going to the track
54:34that's fine
54:35but when we're already in such a fragile state
54:38and then it seems like that information
54:40was being withheld
54:41it's like I'm just tired of asking
54:43I don't want to have to ask
54:44to hear these things
54:45this is a tough question to ask you
54:47but do you think trust
54:48can ever be earned?
54:50I do
54:51I just need
54:52the consistency
54:54of transparency
54:56you know
54:56of course there are
54:57traits that I wish Cole had
55:00more depth
55:01deeper conversations
55:02then I also
55:03question you know
55:05would anyone ever check
55:06all 100 of my boxes?
55:09I'm going to let you in
55:10on a secret
55:12there are people
55:13that check all the boxes
55:15and part of it is because
55:17they check more boxes
55:18and there are a bunch of boxes
55:20that you don't even need
55:20to have on your page anymore
55:21when you have that connection
55:24do you understand?
55:27what I don't want to see you do
55:28is return to what you had
55:30because you're going to end up
55:31talking to your girlfriends
55:32every day about
55:33I don't know where he is
55:33and you're going to need something
55:35and he's going to need
55:36I don't know why she's always
55:37on my back
55:38I don't cheat on her
55:39I don't cheat
55:39and she's always on my back
55:40and that's not a relationship
55:42right
55:44so get your soul filled up
55:47thank you
55:47okay
55:48I appreciate you
55:53hello Cheyenne
55:55hello
55:55are you ready?
55:57I think the clips
55:58will speak for themselves
55:59so I'm just excited
56:01to just
56:03just to see
56:04what he's been up to
56:04I don't know
56:05just hearing his voice
56:06makes me happy
56:06so I'm like
56:07turn it on
56:09alright well let's look
56:10here we go
56:13do you feel like
56:15our connection
56:16like scares you at all?
56:18I mean yeah
56:19I'll be honest
56:20it's just weird
56:21how easy it is
56:22to talk to you
56:23you know things are moving
56:24so fast
56:24and I feel like
56:25we've known each other forever
56:26yeah
56:27I think
56:29we both know
56:31what our connection is
56:32and how it's like
56:33different from anything else
56:34no yeah
56:35it is
56:36you know that is
56:37truthfully how I feel like
56:38I feel like I don't really
56:38have to act a certain way
56:39yeah
56:57is this the button you choose?
56:59is this the button you choose?
57:01it is
57:06shut the fuck up
57:08shut the fuck
57:10up
57:10shut the fuck up
57:11you're so dirty
57:15do you want to get something
57:16to eat and go to bed?
57:17yeah sure
57:19with me?
57:21sure
57:23wow
57:28close those blinds really quick
57:30are you fucking
57:32hitting me?
57:34like I'm in bed
57:35with a man who's a grown man
57:38it's kind of fun though
57:43did he fuck her?
57:45what the fuck does
57:46close the blinds mean?
57:54this is what I mean
57:55I have given this man
58:00so many times
58:01to redeem himself
58:03and prove to me
58:04that he wants to be with me
58:06and this
58:06five years
58:08five years
58:09five years
58:11to fucking
58:12publicly
58:13humiliate me
58:15it's one thing
58:17to know about it
58:18it's another thing
58:18to see it
58:19and he did it
58:21knowing that
58:22I was gonna see it
58:23he's a piece of shit
58:26I'm off the shit
58:27like I'm done
58:28I'm sorry
58:29I'm sorry
58:30I'm fucking leaving
58:32is this real fucking life?
58:35no
58:36is this real life?
58:40like it
58:41this real fucking life
58:44he's a piece
58:44kind of
58:46in the dark
58:48you made of your mind
58:52were you ever mine?
58:55cause it's looking like you went too far
58:59so don't try to lie
59:02It's all come to light what you did in the dark.
59:32It's all come to light what you did in the dark.
59:33I'm going to light the light.
59:33I'm going to light the light.
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