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00:00It may be offensive. It may contain expletives or a matter of a dark nature.
00:08When Mr. Willimon expires, you may hear what is known as a death rattle, or a snort or a cough
00:15of some sort.
00:16Some fellows bleed from the nose. It's not common, but it happens.
00:21Or he may just appear to fall off to sleep with his eyes either open or closed. It can go
00:26either way.
00:28Now, I'm sorry if this is troublesome to you folks, but if, when this is all over, you tell me
00:35Officer Paddock could happen just like you said it would, then I figure I did my job.
00:41We don't want any surprises. Any questions?
00:47There's no explanation.
00:54There's no excuse.
00:57I can't lie here to you there as well.
01:06What if anybody thinks the state of Texas is teaching anybody anything but putting this poison into me?
01:14They're even dumber and crueler than I am.
01:19And you're all gonna cry in the same wet hell that I'm going to for doing this.
01:24You're gonna eat shit.
01:26You're gonna vomit blood forever.
01:31Because this isn't right.
01:49Because this isn't right.
01:53You're all fucking pigs.
01:57You're all fucking pigs slipping out of God's ass.
02:01And I would cut all your throats if I could.
02:04I hate this mother...
02:19Hey, Nate.
02:21It's Brenda again.
02:22If you're there, pick up.
02:24You must be at work.
02:25Okay, well, if you want me to stop calling me,
02:28could you just tell me?
02:29Otherwise, I'll keep trying.
02:31I'm really worried.
02:48At 89.9, the Greater Palm Springs area
02:51at 89.3, Oxnard-Ventura-Carpinteria
02:54at 89.1,
02:56Lemon Grove at 89.9,
02:58Mohamed...
03:01But we don't want to get the paper
03:02every day.
03:04No, I know. It's not about the money.
03:06It's... Look, we don't care
03:08how free you make the paper. We don't want all that paper
03:10in the apartment.
03:12Yes, that sounds like a great deal of savings.
03:14We're not interested. Is there coffee for me, too?
03:22What the...
03:23What was that?
03:24I can't stand listening to you deal
03:26with those telemarketers.
03:27Trying to be so goddamn nice about everything.
03:30Like nails on a chalkboard.
03:31She was just trying to do her job.
03:33And you're trying to do yours.
03:33And I'm trying to do mine.
03:36This coffee tastes like shit.
03:39Keith...
03:39What?
03:40Can you hear the tone in your voice?
03:42David, please, don't start with me about that again.
03:43No, I'm serious.
03:44There is no tone in my voice.
03:46Yes, there is.
03:47It's the same tone that you use down in San Diego.
03:49I'm sick of talking about that, okay?
03:51It's the same tone you use
03:52whenever you want me to know that you...
03:53David, when are you gonna get it
03:53through your thick fucking skull
03:54that you were the one
03:55who fucked up in San Diego?
03:56You shouldn't have been involved
03:57in my family business.
03:58I stuck up for you.
03:59I don't need anybody sticking up for me.
04:02You always want to turn shit around
04:04and make it about me.
04:05Because you can't face the fact
04:06that you are out of line.
04:07Being on your side is out of line.
04:09When I don't want you on it, yeah.
04:10See, this is the difference
04:11between you and me, Keith.
04:13See, I want you on my side.
04:14I need you on my side.
04:15And it's the one thing
04:16that I never, ever have.
04:18That is not true.
04:18Yes, it is.
04:19Because everything I do
04:19is too weak or too nice.
04:25You don't really like me.
04:28You're not for me.
04:30God, I look at you, Keith,
04:31and all I think about
04:32is how I can help you be
04:33whatever it is you want to be
04:34between now and the day that you die.
04:37You look at me
04:38and all you see are problems.
04:40That's not true.
04:40I'm so fucking sick of it!
04:42God, why should I stand for this?
04:45Why should this constant abuse
04:46be what I call love?
04:47Don't touch me!
04:56Now remember nothing to eat or drink
04:57after midnight tonight.
05:00And have you arranged for a ride.
05:03I was just going to take a cab,
05:04I thought, you know.
05:06You'd prefer it
05:07if a family member takes you home.
05:08Nobody in my family
05:09would want to do that,
05:11I don't think.
05:12You sure?
05:13Yeah.
05:15Do you have a friend
05:16who could help you?
05:19No.
05:22Well, we really don't want you
05:23to drive yourself.
05:28This has been the longest month
05:30of my whole life.
05:31I can imagine.
05:33Oh yeah?
05:33Get this.
05:34I lost my job
05:35to go to my father's execution.
05:37Isn't that the most pathetic thing
05:38you've ever heard
05:39in your whole life?
05:40My stupid boss told me
05:41I shouldn't even go
05:42and I did.
05:43Where did you work?
05:44Used car dealership
05:45over on Olympic.
05:46It's okay,
05:47I'll get another job.
05:47It's just so dumb.
05:49You did the right thing.
05:51Yeah, now I'm out
05:51of a fucking job.
05:53Thank you,
05:54right thing.
05:58Work can be difficult
05:59when you're going
06:00through something like this.
06:02You don't know.
06:04And on top of that,
06:05I'm out like $700
06:07because I had to pay
06:08to ship his body
06:08back from Texas.
06:13Um,
06:14Miss Williman,
06:15will you be wanting
06:16a service for your father?
06:17Or if you prefer,
06:18we could just...
06:19No,
06:19I want a service
06:20from my dad.
06:21I talked to Father Jack
06:22about that.
06:22I thought he talked to you.
06:23No, he didn't.
06:24He told me he did.
06:26Yeah, he did.
06:27Rico,
06:28they talked to David.
06:29I forgot to tell you.
06:31He called yesterday
06:31from St. Bart's.
06:32That's my church.
06:34I'm sorry,
06:35I didn't know.
06:37It's...
06:40I don't want the fact
06:42that he killed
06:43a bunch of women
06:43to be the only story
06:44anybody ever tells
06:45about him,
06:46you know?
06:46I mean,
06:47he was a kid once.
06:48He had a life.
06:49I've seen the pictures.
06:50And he wasn't
06:50such a bad dad.
06:52I mean,
06:52my brother kind of
06:53got this shit beat
06:54out of him a lot,
06:54but he never beat me.
06:58Will you excuse me
06:59one moment,
07:00Miss Williman?
07:01I'll go find
07:02the other Mr. Fisher
07:03and we'll figure
07:03this whole thing out.
07:16I bet if my dad
07:17wasn't a murderer
07:18you'd be saying
07:19all kinds of sweet
07:19things to me
07:20right now,
07:20like how hard
07:23this must be
07:23for me
07:24and shit like that.
07:25No,
07:25I know how hard
07:26it is for you.
07:28Sorry,
07:29I just,
07:29I've been having
07:29a hard time
07:30myself,
07:30Lily.
07:37Show me what
07:38the choices are
07:39for the box
07:39while we wait.
07:41Okay.
07:55They're little
07:56people.
07:57They fall
07:58into the pipe
07:59over here
07:59and then they go
08:00down and down
08:00through the pipe
08:01and then they
08:02break apart
08:03into a bunch
08:03of little pieces
08:04over here
08:05and then
08:06they disappear
08:10and then
08:11slowly
08:13very slowly
08:13they get
08:14put back
08:15together
08:16and
08:16come out
08:17the other side.
08:23So show me
08:24the boxes.
08:26Uh,
08:28yeah,
08:28uh,
08:30um,
08:31there,
08:31there are a lot
08:32of affordable
08:32choices in here
08:33so you don't have
08:33to worry,
08:34you don't have
08:34to spend a lot.
08:36That's good
08:37because I don't
08:37have a lot.
08:38Like almost nothing.
08:43Um,
08:44I talked to David.
08:46Everything's been
08:47taken care of.
08:53I've made
08:54stuffed cabbage rolls.
08:56Anybody want some
08:57for dinner?
08:58There's a Scott
08:59new Tupperware.
09:00Thanks.
09:01Thanks.
09:02It's such a beautiful
09:03day,
09:04there.
09:05I know.
09:07You know,
09:09he's toxic.
09:09Oh dear.
09:10What?
09:11It's one of
09:11Lisa's Dr. Peppers.
09:13Lisa doesn't drink
09:13Dr. Pepper.
09:15Maybe not
09:15in front of you.
09:17Just put it
09:17back in the fridge.
09:18Somebody...
09:23I can't leave
09:24Maya.
09:24Come and get
09:25Maya in a few weeks
09:26after everything's
09:26cooled down.
09:28God,
09:28why did I ever
09:29get myself
09:29into this?
09:30You wanted love
09:32and he made you
09:32believe that he
09:33could give it to you.
09:34It's what Nate does.
09:35You've always known that.
09:36he's toxic.
09:37Yeah,
09:37I should have
09:38brought Maya
09:38with me though.
09:39Maya's on her
09:39own journey,
09:40Lisa.
09:42This is about you.
09:47It would be wonderful
09:48if someone could
09:49take her to the park.
09:51Well,
09:51I think that's it.
09:53If any of you
09:54need me,
09:55I've left the number
09:55by the phone.
10:03So,
10:04what do you guys
10:04do tomorrow?
10:05Same old shit.
10:10I'm busy.
10:11Me too.
10:12Why?
10:15Nothing.
10:18Where's mom going?
10:19George's.
10:20George's.
10:23Oh yeah.
10:27The original title
10:29of this famous poem
10:30was he'd do the police
10:32in different voices.
10:40Wasteland.
10:43That is a much
10:45better title.
10:57Well,
10:58we're still a genius
10:59even with one wrong.
11:02I knew that already.
11:04I knew that already.
11:06.
11:19No more questions.
11:23Do you
11:24move this fast
11:26with everybody?
11:26No.
11:28Well, but then I've never met anybody like you before, George.
11:31I don't want you to get away.
11:34I'm not going anywhere.
11:39I guess I do feel like the stars are moving a little faster lately.
11:44You know, like in those movies where they speed things up.
11:48And the stars stream across the sky in stripes.
11:52They're moving so fast.
12:02But...
12:07But what?
12:09My daughter-in-law has been missing for over two weeks.
12:13My granddaughter may be without a mother for the rest of her life.
12:17I'm just very aware of how important it is to enjoy what life gives you.
12:24When it gives it to you.
12:27Who knows, George?
12:29You may be my last chance at finding love.
12:33And you may be my last chance to be happy.
12:36You've been happy before.
12:41Not like this.
13:03Russ, stop calling there.
13:05I'm going to change my number.
13:20You actually hit him?
13:21No, of course not.
13:22I just, like, swatted him away.
13:26See, I don't see why you two stay together if it's always that bad.
13:29Because it's not always that bad.
13:31Yeah, but even if it's that bad for just a little while.
13:33I mean, you know, me and Vanessa, we've got the kids to think about.
13:39So gay couples have no reason to stay together?
13:41No, all I'm saying is I don't see how anybody stays together without kids.
13:44That's all.
13:45It was a compliment.
13:45It doesn't sound like a compliment.
13:52Something chunky.
13:54Clot.
13:55I don't know.
13:57All gone.
13:59Hello, comrades.
14:00Hi, Arthur.
14:03So, this is the gentleman who murdered all those women.
14:06Yep.
14:07Only to be murdered himself by the state of Texas.
14:12So you're against capital punishment, Arthur?
14:14Certainly.
14:15Not only does it fail to deter other criminals, Rico, but mistakes are often made.
14:19Innocent people die.
14:20Innocent people die because of guys like him all the time.
14:22What did he do, anyway?
14:24Well, he made one woman eat broken glass.
14:26No, don't tell me there's bad enough things like that happen when you talk about them.
14:30I agree.
14:31Well, Rico, look, if someone did something like that to Vanessa or even to you, I'd have no trouble flipping
14:36the switch.
14:36And what about the value of human life?
14:38He cashed in the value of his human life a long time ago, okay?
14:41He is a freaking Dorito.
14:43Crunch him.
14:43They'll make more.
14:45Morris.
14:47Hey.
14:49Well, I just went down for a morning nap.
14:51I'm going to head out for a quick run.
14:52Who's watching her?
14:53Claire.
14:56Who's this?
14:58It's Mr. Williman.
14:59Remember?
15:00With the daughter?
15:02So what the fuck are you doing?
15:03He came in here already embalmed, didn't he?
15:06Yeah, well, he looked like a tangerine.
15:08I thought this was a better color for him.
15:11I agree.
15:17Good God, now what?
15:22Hey.
15:24Hi.
15:26Your father's service is tomorrow, right?
15:28I know.
15:29Well, um, I wanted to, um, talk to you about flowers.
15:36Oh, well, we'll take care of that as part of the package.
15:40But, I mean, what kind of flowers do you like?
15:45Or do you think we should have?
15:50I only ask because, you know, you're a man.
15:55Uh, well, we actually, we have a florist due to us all the arrangements.
16:00It'll be a nice selection, a variety.
16:02Doesn't pink.
16:03Don't worry.
16:05Okay.
16:08Um, did you want to go get some coffee or something?
16:14I haven't eaten anything yet today.
16:17Uh, thank you, but I'm, I'm, uh, I'm kind of busy.
16:25Is your wife around?
16:27Uh, no, she's not.
16:30Look, I think you should probably go.
16:31I was just about to go out for a run.
16:35I'm sorry.
16:37You don't have to be sorry.
16:39It's okay.
16:39I don't know where else to go.
16:43I don't have a job.
16:44I just sit around all day and stare at the walls.
16:46It's okay.
16:50Look, I'll see you tomorrow.
16:54It'll look great.
16:55Don't, don't worry about it.
16:58Nothing pink.
16:58Right, nothing pink.
17:04Thanks.
17:22Get the cordless.
17:24I know. I know what you mean.
17:27Some one day it isn't charged up and you need it.
17:30This one has more torque.
17:32How much torque does a guy like me really need, though?
17:37This one feels good in your hand.
17:39Here, try it.
17:41See what I mean?
17:43I do.
17:47George, I wonder if we shouldn't just get married.
17:51Are you serious?
17:52I am.
17:52Because I've been thinking the same thing.
17:55You have?
17:56Yes.
17:57Because, George, I don't mind telling you I'm lonely, and I've been lonely for a long time.
18:00And I don't know exactly how you feel about this, but...
18:02Ruth.
18:04I think...
18:06I think it's a wonderful idea.
18:08You really do?
18:09Yes.
18:12I don't want to come to places like this alone anymore.
18:14Neither do I.
18:15That's what life is, isn't it?
18:17Coming to places like this.
18:18Yes.
18:20It's awful.
18:21I know.
18:23So let's get married.
18:24What the hay?
18:26I want to.
18:26That's what I'm saying.
18:28Me too.
18:42I've been married before.
18:44You should know that.
18:45Well, of course, you're such a grown children.
18:48More than once.
18:50How many times?
18:53Six.
18:56I'm sorry.
18:56I should have told you before.
18:57No, I'm glad you didn't.
19:10Get the cordless.
19:12I'll help you make sure I say it's charged.
19:17It's a deal.
19:29Excuse me.
19:30You didn't happen to see a dog down on the beach, did you?
19:33No.
19:34I'm sorry.
19:35Gosh darn it.
19:36You lost your dog?
19:37Not my wife.
19:38What does he look like?
19:40He's a chocolate lab.
19:41Want to see his picture?
19:42No.
19:43Let me see him.
19:44I'm sorry.
19:45Good luck.
20:01What are you doing here?
20:02I've been calling and calling.
20:04I wanted to know that you're okay.
20:06Yeah, well, I'm not.
20:08There's not a whole lot you reckon do about it, is there?
20:10So, thanks anyway.
20:12Nate, I'm trying to be your friend.
20:15I'm sorry, were you there the night that you kissed me, or is that somebody else?
20:18Yeah, that makes me feel.
20:18Do you have any idea?
20:20My wife's gone.
20:21I know.
20:22Listen, Nate, I can't imagine what you must be going through, but I...
20:26You have no fucking concept of what I've been going through.
20:28I haven't slept in days.
20:29I've been up to fucking Gavio to State Beach five times this week.
20:32I've been driving up and down fucking PCH, putting up flyers on goddamn telephone poles.
20:37Then let me help you.
20:38Help?
20:39Why the fuck would you want to help me?
20:40Because I care about you, Nate, and I can't just turn that off.
20:43Well, sure you can.
20:44You've done it before.
20:47Sorry.
20:48Just give it a minute.
20:49I couldn't get her to...
20:50Just...
20:50Thanks.
21:03Do you think you could give me a ride?
21:07I have to go get an abortion.
21:11Sure.
21:15It's so good you've kept up with this chorus of yours.
21:18Must be a wonderful outlet for you.
21:20Oh, it is.
21:22It's, uh...
21:23What?
21:25Well, there are times when you're in the midst of all these voices being carried along,
21:30and all you have to do is get to the end of the song.
21:33For a few minutes, it's that simple.
21:35Just get to the end of the song.
21:37That's kind of a relief.
21:39For the rest of life.
21:42Yes.
21:44Yes.
21:51I think Lisa's dead.
21:55I do, too.
21:57I hate to say it, but I do.
21:58I just feel like she's gone.
22:02For a while, I could imagine all kinds of things are showing up.
22:05I know.
22:07She was a part of our family.
22:10Maya's my niece.
22:11She was such a sweet person.
22:13Why should something like that happen to her?
22:15Why is life like that?
22:26Why is life like that?
22:30Thanks for the tea.
22:33David.
22:35Yeah?
22:36I've been seeing someone.
22:39George.
22:40Yeah, we've noticed.
22:41It's going pretty well.
22:43Well, that's good.
22:43He seems like a nice enough guy.
22:45He is.
22:47I've been thinking maybe I could think about even settling down with him.
22:52Don't you think?
22:53It would be time maybe to try that again.
22:57Well, that depends on what you mean by settling down.
23:00Well, getting married.
23:03Don't you think I deserve to be happy?
23:05Of course, but you've only known the guy for, what, a couple of weeks?
23:08Why do you have to rush into it so fast?
23:11Because when I'm with him, life is full of possibilities.
23:15And I haven't felt that way in so long, I've forgotten what it feels like.
23:19And I don't want to forget that again.
23:21It's your decision.
23:21I just don't want to see you get hurt.
23:25That's all.
23:37Sushi?
23:38Like what?
23:40Like spicy tuna or yellowtail.
23:43I don't like it when it gets too baroque.
23:45Like frozen spider roll of the ten thousands secrets?
23:49Yeah, I don't need that.
23:50Me neither.
23:54What else do you like?
23:57I don't know.
24:07Beautiful dreamer, wake up to me.
24:12Starlight and dewdrops are waiting for thee.
24:19Sounds of the rude world heard in the day.
24:25Love by the moonlight have all passed away.
24:33Hey, David.
24:35Hey.
24:38Do you want to get something?
24:40Lunch or a drink or something?
24:42Yes, please, please, God, thank you.
24:44Yes.
24:52Susan, Denise, Pam, Claire.
24:57See you later.
24:59I'll be here.
25:00Come here.
25:01Come here.
25:24Miss Fisher?
25:26Good afternoon.
25:27Dr. Simpson?
25:29Hey.
25:30Before we begin the procedure, I'm going to do an ultrasound.
25:43If you feel a little pressure, it won't be too uncomfortable.
26:00I see you chose Twilight.
26:03I don't know.
26:04I don't know.
26:05It's a station.
26:06You're going to be here.
26:06Oh, yeah.
26:08That's Twilight.
26:09You're not really gone, but you're not really here.
26:13That sounds good.
26:15You're going to be okay.
26:18Am I?
26:20Yes.
26:21I'm going to take good care of you.
26:23Don't worry.
26:25Don't worry.
26:44It's okay.
26:46Okay.
26:47Okay.
26:47Okay, you're fine.
26:50Good.
27:08Are you her ride?
27:09Yeah.
27:10Some instructions.
27:11No bad, no tampons.
27:13Smoltron pads and some rest.
27:15You'll feel better back tomorrow.
27:17Thanks.
27:19Mary, Hayley,
27:20Bethany,
27:21Rosa.
27:25What do you think?
27:27Oh,
27:28I think it's a wonderful book, George.
27:30You should be proud.
27:33University of Maryland Press.
27:35My alma mater.
27:36And it really is a whole different way of seeing things.
27:38Isn't it?
27:39I mean, to me,
27:40the state of California has always been here.
27:42But to you, obviously,
27:43it's just stopping by.
27:45Yeah.
27:50I'm thinking we should slow down on the marriage plans, George.
27:53I don't want anything else to change,
27:55but would that be okay with you?
27:57I know I must seem confused.
28:00It's only because I am.
28:02Ruth,
28:04I'm here if you want me.
28:06I don't have any other prospects,
28:07and I don't want any.
28:09So,
28:11there's no rush.
28:20Why isn't there a picture of you on the back?
28:23I didn't want one.
28:24It's about rocks,
28:24not me.
28:31It just feels like it ought to be the end.
28:34I'm so tired of having the same fight over and over again,
28:37you know what I mean?
28:38I hear what you're saying.
28:43I'm so bored.
28:44This kind of unhappiness.
28:46I think I'm ready for some new unhappiness.
28:51There are all kinds of things I could say, but...
28:56Go ahead, say them.
28:58No.
29:01I...
29:01What?
29:05Say it.
29:07I...
29:08I want you to know,
29:10more than anything, David,
29:12that I take you and your situation with Keith really seriously.
29:16And if you can...
29:18be happy with Keith,
29:20I want you to be.
29:22You know what I'm saying?
29:23I do.
30:05Hey, how are you feeling?
30:07A little bit better.
30:10It just feels like really bad cramps.
30:12Do you need another path?
30:14No.
30:14Another Motrin?
30:16No, thanks.
30:18So,
30:19what do you think of my new house?
30:21Kind of gross, isn't it?
30:23Oh, it's cool.
30:25And it's kind of gross.
30:27I know, see?
30:27I know.
30:29I used to wonder when I'd get there, you know?
30:31It's like a grown-up place.
30:34Almost got there with Nate.
30:37And then,
30:38here I am.
30:41You're still in love with my brother, aren't you?
30:43Yeah.
30:43No.
30:45No.
30:46Well, only in the way that I always will be,
30:49but not in the way of thinking about him like,
30:51oh, God, when am I going to see Nate again,
30:53or anything like that.
30:54You know what I mean?
30:56Yeah, I do.
30:57Yeah, I do.
30:58I'm worried about him now.
31:01I know.
31:03I'm so fucked up with Lisa being...
31:07whatever she is.
31:11You know what's weird about Lisa?
31:14What?
31:15Well, I think she really liked me.
31:17I'm sure she did.
31:18I mean, she was fucked up, too.
31:20Don't get me wrong.
31:21It was a different kind of fucked up from our family, you know?
31:23It was like a mostly friendly kind of fucked up.
31:28You miss her?
31:29I guess, yeah.
31:32Sorry, if that's...
31:33No, it's totally right.
31:36It's totally right.
31:45Well, I'm going to make some pasta.
31:49I was just going to do it with olive oil.
31:51Nothing too aggressive.
31:53You want some?
31:57No, I don't think I can ever eat again.
32:06No, I don't think I can ever eat again.
32:34No, I don't think I can ever eat again.
32:35It's Nate.
32:46Tell me when you want me to stop, but I'll stop.
32:47I don't want you to stop.
33:06I don't want you to stop me.
33:14No, no, no, wait.
33:18I'm going to get this.
33:19Yeah?
33:19Yeah.
33:21Okay.
33:35Oh, you're fucking me so good.
33:38Oh, fuck me.
33:39Shh, shh, shh.
33:39Don't let her, baby.
33:40I don't care.
33:41You're fucking me so good.
33:43Just fuck me.
33:45Oh, fuck me till I can't remember my name.
33:47Just fuck me.
33:50Fuck me.
33:52Fuck me.
33:53Fuck me.
33:54Fuck me.
33:55Fuck me.
33:55Fuck me.
33:57Fuck me.
33:58Fuck me.
33:58Fuck me.
34:12Who will separate us from the love of Christ?
34:15Will hardship, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or peril of the sword?
34:23No.
34:24In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loves us.
34:28For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor anything else in all creation can separate us from the
34:36love of God.
34:39Carl Willemann was a part of God's good creation.
34:43Susceptible to sin, yes, but worthy of grace.
34:47May his soul and the souls of those whose lives he took find peace in the infinitely complicated and eternal
34:56life of God.
35:01James, I'm sorry for you.
35:03I knew her at St. Bart's.
35:05Yeah.
35:06Yeah.
35:07She was pretty fucked up.
35:11Seems like.
35:17So I came out of the closet.
35:18And that was good.
35:19Yeah.
35:22And I'm in a committed relationship.
35:24With Keith.
35:26Yeah.
35:26That's supposed to be a good thing, too, right?
35:29That's what I've heard.
35:31So, I don't know.
35:32Shouldn't my life be better?
35:35Truth and relationships don't make life better, David.
35:38They make life possible.
35:41So you think I should stay with Keith?
35:44I think you should do whatever brings you deeper into the reality of your life.
35:49The reality of my life?
35:51Yes, but not the life you think you can have.
35:55The life you've got.
35:56The life you've got.
36:06Hi.
36:08Hi.
36:09Whatcha doing?
36:11I am just checking things out.
36:13Keeping track.
36:17I had a really good time last night.
36:21I think we should...
36:23I think we should do that again.
36:26I don't think that's such a good idea.
36:28How come?
36:29I just don't.
36:32I'm sorry.
36:50Oh, are you serious? You're going to cry?
36:53I can't help that.
36:55Come on.
36:57Have you seen what kind of fucking world this is?
37:00Huh?
37:01You see what people do to each other, what your fucking father did to people,
37:04now you're going to cry?
37:05Oh, fuck me, fuck me, fuck me, fuck me!
37:08You don't get to cry!
37:25You don't get to cry.
37:25Hey.
37:27Hey.
37:28What were you last night? I was looking for you.
37:30To watch Maya?
37:31Yeah.
37:33I was busy, sorry.
37:38Can I have these?
37:39Sure, I don't care.
37:47It's weird.
37:49What?
37:49Well, Russell used to say the whole house smelled like the color wheel.
37:53Yeah?
37:54Yeah, he liked it here.
37:57Well, somebody should get something out of it.
38:07Maybe you could give Brenda a break.
38:09I know she's only trying to help.
38:11Things between me and Brenda, it's a whole lot more complicated than you might think, okay?
38:18Yeah, I'm sure you could never imagine.
38:30So what went wrong?
38:33Well, the first one was Susie, and, um, I just got married too young.
38:39It's all, it wasn't anybody's fault.
38:41Number two.
38:43Gloria?
38:45Yeah, that one was my fault.
38:48I screwed around.
38:49George.
38:50I know better now.
38:51You better know better.
38:53Number three.
38:55She was the one I was screwing around with.
38:57Well, Tanya, we were at Rikers, my first job.
39:03Assistant professor.
39:05She cheated on me all the time.
39:09How do you not see that coming?
39:15Andrea died.
39:17I'm sorry.
39:19Um, Cheryl, that one was only for nine months, and Doris, the last one died.
39:29I'm so sorry.
39:31Well, you marry six people, a few of them are going to die.
39:34It's the odds.
39:37And you're really ready to try again?
39:39With you?
39:40Of course.
39:43Why?
39:44You don't want to?
39:46No, of course I do, George.
39:48I think.
39:52But you had all these women.
39:56Ruth, let me tell you something.
40:00One time, one time I bought a house.
40:05This was back in Massachusetts when I was teaching at Amherst.
40:09And the house was built over a stream.
40:13Literally over it.
40:16It had been a mill at one time, and then someone had taken the wheels and grinding stones out.
40:21But it was still over the stream.
40:24And after we moved in, I wanted to put a new floor in the kitchen.
40:29So?
40:31So I tore up the old floor, ripped up the linoleum, pulled up the plywood.
40:38Then I pulled up one of the original boards.
40:41This 200-year-old pine board.
40:46And there was a stream.
40:48Not two feet underneath me.
40:51And all was known it was there.
40:53There it was.
40:55You know?
40:56Really.
40:58There it really was.
41:01This live, sparkly water, flowing right underneath my house.
41:15That's how I feel about you.
41:22What?
41:24I said something wrong?
41:26I'm sorry.
41:28You make me miss Nathaniel, though.
41:30I'm sorry.
41:32It's okay.
41:34I miss a few of mine, too.
41:42And he was like, I'm paying you rent, and I bought you all this shit, and I expect you to
41:47be available to have dinner with me whenever I want.
41:49And I was like, no.
41:54I'm glad we could be here for you.
41:57Yeah, me too.
42:00But you gotta treat my sister better, Rico.
42:01Or she's gonna leave you like I left that motherfucking Anthony.
42:04She won't.
42:06You guys are out of popcorn.
42:17Oh, God.
42:20Oh, God.
42:28Oh, God.
42:29Let me just episod.
42:31Really?
42:48Okay.
42:50Oh, God.
42:51Lol.
42:52Okay.
42:52Oh, God.
42:54Oh, God.
42:54Oh, God.
43:22We have to talk.
43:23What is it?
43:25I've got to fucking leave from hell.
43:28I don't want us to be together anymore.
43:34You're breaking up with me?
43:35Yeah, I'm breaking up with you.
43:37Wait a minute.
43:38No.
43:39David, just give me a few days to find a place and I'll be out of your way and you
43:42can find
43:42somebody more whatever it is you like.
43:44Mean.
43:45We should go to therapy and talk about this.
43:47It's not a discussion, Keith.
43:49There's nothing to talk about.
43:50It's never been right between us.
43:51It never will be.
43:52That's fine.
43:53We can stop wasting each other's time.
43:55Please, don't do this.
43:56Or what?
43:56You'll hit me?
43:58No.
43:59I'm so sick of being scared of you, Keith.
44:00I hate it.
44:01I absolutely fucking hate it.
44:04I absolutely fucking hate it.
44:19I'm so sick of being scared of you.
44:37Lise?
44:51Lise?
44:54Lise, where are you?
44:58I'm right here.
45:06Where are you?
45:12I don't know.
45:15None of this turned out the way I wanted it to, Lise.
45:18You know that, right?
45:20I wanted to love you.
45:21I did love you.
45:22But I just felt like we were behind you.
45:27I know we were.
45:28I know it.
45:28I know it in my heart.
45:29And I just feel like I had this once-in-a-lifetime chance,
45:31and I fucked it up.
45:35Hey, I'm not a chance.
45:37I'm a person.
46:02I got you a person.