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The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives Season 4 Episode 10
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00:04We're not friends?
00:08What the fuck is going on?
00:11What the fuck?
00:12You just said that to me, that you don't feel like we're friends.
00:14Okay, then fuck you.
00:16Holy shit.
00:43What the fuck is going on?
00:48I'm going to send Whitney my bill after this conversation.
00:52When did she tell you?
00:54Zach told me last week.
00:56Oh, and you just haven't said anything?
00:57And I just haven't texted her.
00:58I've told her in person, but she's upset that I didn't tell her when I knew.
01:03If someone posts, I'm literally terrified to not comment on somebody's post.
01:06Because I feel like we have this expectation now.
01:08If I'm not showing complete, and it's probably that.
01:11I mean, I don't want to hear it.
01:13It's my fault.
01:14This Whitney and Jen drama definitely makes me feel like I'm back at the CMA drama from last year.
01:19I posted about my CMAs.
01:22Not a single one of my friends from MomTalk said a single thing about it or commented.
01:26To hear nothing, like, what the fuck?
01:28I think all the cool opportunities we're getting are great, but I also think it has potential to pull us
01:33away from why we're in MomTalk to begin with and make us lose sight of the genuine friendships.
01:38It's hard to balance it all, but if we don't have our friendships, what is this all for?
01:44I see where Whitney's upset, but to be honest, I don't feel like our friendship has been genuine.
01:49To be honest, I think it's very much been transactional and fake, and I feel like in order to protect
01:56my energy, I've been just being cordial this whole time because I don't have the time.
02:00None of us do.
02:02There's a lot of competition and jealousy between Whitney and Jen right now, and that's where this is all stemming
02:06from.
02:07But MomTalk does not need to be dealing with this right now.
02:09As we kind of grow in popularity, we're getting more and more offers, like Taylor with The Bachelorette coming up.
02:15And when we start getting more exposure and more opportunities, I do worry it may drive us apart.
02:20It's all transactional.
02:22She's saying, like, I don't care about her.
02:24I'm like, you don't care about any of us either.
02:26You only came back for Dancing with the Stars.
02:29I am feeling, like, so heated right now.
02:32I don't even know if people are backing me up or people backing Jen up.
02:36But if there is one thing that I have learned being a part of this group is that something is
02:41bound to happen, but the show must go on.
02:44I am feeling, like, so heated right now.
02:49Come ye saints and come ye savers, hallelujah.
02:57Listen up, I'm the one you've been dreaming of.
03:03I got everything you could ever want.
03:07Try me in your sleep, I'll bring you to your knees, baby, you're gonna believe.
03:12Try me in your sleep.
03:24Try me in your sleep.
03:27Try me in your sleep.
03:28Try me in your sleep.
03:32Try me in your sleep.
03:33Try me in your sleep.
03:34Try me in your sleep.
03:34Try me in your sleep.
03:34Try me in your sleep.
03:35Try me in your sleep.
03:36Try me in your sleep.
03:39Try me in your sleep.
03:48would you love me when i'm broken and i'm hopeless when the rain starts smoking
03:59i know me too dude
04:05after finding out about dakota and shania i feel completely fucked over and not only that but
04:11i am on empty this is not the headspace i wanted to be walking into the bachelorette i think it
04:15was
04:16very deliberate i need to start packing though so i'm gonna grab jenny's cases i mean dakota knew
04:21what this would do he's not fucking stupid uh it's just it's yeah it sucks hey oh yep get on
04:31in
04:31you're going with me huh what what's uh your expectations are you nervous it's okay to be
04:37nervous i'm nervous for you i don't have any i don't have any going in that way it's like
04:43whatever happens is gonna happen there's a part of me that even wonders if i'm capable of doing this
04:48given the recent events and then there's another part of me that's like well you already said you're
04:52gonna do it you need to do it so pull through so kind of very chaotic in the head for
04:57sure
04:58which is no secret to anybody i guess at this point i'm so excited for you this is gonna be
05:02something like so fun and challenging and emotional too and i just hope that you can
05:09yeah you can be able to handle handle all of it honestly like i can't imagine
05:15more chaos than i'm already living so i'll never say that
05:41before the study said he takes my soul
05:47good morning good morning what's up how are you feeling oh i need to stay off my phone
05:53yeah you really need to stay off social media right now yeah i know you've cried most the night
06:02last night i got eliminated and to be honest i am devastated and very much surprised the couple
06:10going home is
06:15jen and yon
06:19just like it's like a pit in my stomach like
06:22dreamt of this moment like my whole life and the fact that it's like over just like that it just
06:31it feels just like weird yeah like the positives even hurt more because it's like those memories and
06:36yeah you can be sad but you also you have to be proud of yourself because you wanted to inspire
06:43people and you accomplished that you did this eight weeks postpartum
06:49i'll never forget like finishing my dance and looking over looking over at you and nora
06:59and just saying how proud you were i really gave it my all
07:03yeah you gave your heart to it and you have to be proud of that
07:08oh man i think i'm still trying to process
07:12you should be really proud of yourself thank you
07:16yeah for for sure thank you thank you
07:19you made it to what week seven you're right
07:23you know i should be proud of myself so proud of yourself jen
07:29whitney has been blowing up my phone apparently she wants to have conversation
07:34which is you think she wants to apologize for how she
07:37yelled and screamed at you or no
07:40you think she wants to apologize for laughing when you got eliminated
07:43no okay fam it looks like whitney is laughing when jen gets kicked off
07:48do you think that she's happy she's safe or do we think that she's actually happy to see jen going
07:53home
07:54hit me up at the comments let me know what you think
07:56i think she's worried about she's thinking about her and being in the competition and she didn't like
08:03what i had to say on live and so i'm sure about you not voting for her yeah
08:08and i would be rooting for a former mom talk person but we won't get into it
08:14okay well i'm out of this shit
08:19whitney only cares about whitney and her not getting eliminated and she knows that i hold power
08:24when it comes to that just because if i say anything more it could hurt her
08:30hello um i just want to apologize for overreacting and yelling
08:35so i'm gonna say hi to you when i see you at the studio
08:38and watch you look um but yeah i just want to listen sorry for treating you that way
08:43she knows she effed up you want to act like everything's okay
08:46i'm tired of being fake and i've done that a lot and i'm tired of doing that and i'm not
08:50doing that anymore
08:51and if that means the whole group is against me because i'm not friends with
08:56whitney who's currently popular and that's the cool thing to do right now
08:59i don't care and i think it would be good i mean just to have like a cordial conversation and
09:04just
09:04like hey this is my perspective that's her perspective you guys can just talk it out
09:09you think you think i should go talk to her yeah i think someone needs to hold her accountable
09:15i know you feel like this is the end of the world but this is just the beginning i know
09:20it doesn't
09:20feel that way but you're gonna go do way bigger things this journey of dancing the stars jen was
09:25gone all the time and so like our marriage did get neglected at the same time like it was one
09:30of
09:30the coolest happiest fun experiences and i feel like pretty sad for her but i also feel really
09:34grateful that she got as far as she did i've really learned i have to cherish every second
09:38i get with her and it's also helped me realize like i have a lot more respect for stay-at
09:43-home
09:43parents getting away from whitney and going back with some of your other friends could be good too
09:48if you don't have a lot of friends whitney's down here i'm yeah i should probably get out of
09:53here but hey she's gonna be in chicago new york it's new york the place called chicago
10:02i'm dead
10:11hello hi gorge
10:14wait this is new that's cute so much love her did you get that in new york slay love her
10:21slayla
10:22with all of the shania and dakota and taylor drama going on i haven't really had a chance to check
10:28in
10:28with leila and see how she's doing and i'm so excited to see how her meeting went with ford models
10:32because i know this is a huge opportunity for her and it's a dream of hers okay so you haven't
10:37told
10:37me any update on ford uh yeah oh yeah what did how did that go they didn't find me um
10:45so just going
10:46to give you a little bit of an update um so i've spoken with my team here in new york
10:51unfortunately
10:51not everyone is really aligned or on the same page so we're gonna have to pass at this time
10:58so i'm just like embarrassed i feel like i'm like don't be like you're gonna get yeses and you're
11:02gonna get no and every supermodel literally will tell you no they have literally plenty of nos
11:07i don't think you guys like getting rejected by modeling agency like that means there's something
11:12wrong with me that they didn't choose me so i feel like i've been like the last couple days i've
11:15been
11:15like struggling so hard with like confidence and i'm like i weigh too much or my face isn't
11:21symmetrical and i'm like i'm literally the ugliest person ever like you're not at all i know but i
11:25think it just like stems back to like just like me never feeling like i'm like enough if that makes
11:29sense and just like i don't know just like having someone like look at you and like look at your
11:33face
11:33and be like yeah like we don't want you you know like it is kind of like it sucks and
11:38i feel like
11:38everyone's always told me like you should pursue modeling like you're built for you built for i'm
11:41like maybe i'm not i've struggled with body image issues and an eating disorder since i was in high
11:49school how you stab anorexia and then i got pregnant with my first son when i was 19 and naturally
11:56i mean there's a baby inside of me that i have to care for so i feel like i kind
12:00of healed for a
12:01little bit and then i got pregnant again and i didn't spiral then but after me and my ex separated
12:07that's when i feel like i started to go back into those old ways and those old habits and i
12:12feel like
12:13i've been battling it for the last four years now silently you know that that's not true because
12:20first of all you have a mirror that you can look in and you have eyes that work
12:23but all they also have a brain that tricks me and says yeah but you also have so many other
12:29modeling deals i just feel like every girl is getting such awesome opportunities and i'm so
12:33proud of them but i definitely you know you get a little hard on yourself and you hope that you
12:38know
12:38you can achieve things outside of mom talk as well and rejection hurts you wouldn't even have the
12:43you wouldn't have made it in the door at ford if you weren't a beautiful like accomplished person
12:48that had a lot of potential i feel like i'm trying to look at positives in the situation that
12:54if i did get it i would have to move to new york for three months and that would definitely
12:57be hard
12:58with my babies and with mason and figuring all of that out but it's just a hard toss-up because
13:03it's something that i want so badly not the only big agency like there are others i don't think i
13:09mentally can handle another now you know i think i just wanted it like so bad
13:33i felt really bad the way that i handled jen and i's argument no matter what's happened no one
13:38deserves to be yelled to like that so i don't want things to be awkward with us i've asked her
13:42to
13:43meet up with me and hopefully we can move past this
13:52what the fuck why is zach here and where is jen
14:05hello how are you doing good i'm uh i'm gonna be filling in today filling in for jen
14:15i decided to go talk to whitney because jen asks me to i wanted to go kind of just
14:21uh defend jen i don't care whitney screams or yell at me like i'm i'm not scared of whitney
14:26she didn't want to come why i mean the truth is she's hurting right now she's sad she's grieving
14:32i think just like you would be yeah of course i'm yeah i'm so sorry she got eliminated it would
14:37suck
14:37i don't know if you are i hope you are um i think she's just i think she needs time
14:42to process
14:43her journey and to be honest i think she's probably scared to come here and get yelled at by you
14:49you do that a lot yeah you know what else i did i voice memoed her an apology for yelling
14:55at her
14:55yeah whitney it was a bullshit fake apology i heard it myself you know what it wasn't a
15:01bullshit apology i really did feel bad for yelling and i said i'm so sorry let's be friends again
15:06because i don't want this exposure to the media i'm gonna get voted off no i didn't i'm a mean
15:10girl
15:11that's the truth whitney i'm not even i'm not even gonna defend myself for that she said she
15:17didn't want to be friends and i didn't know that that hurt my feelings and i overreacted
15:20i apologized i love the transparency but you don't i will not stand is for you to go on live
15:26after you get eliminated to then say i'm not voting for whitney what's the objective there
15:32i'm in a competition i think the objective is she thinks there's people who deserve it
15:37more than you that's fine you could have said who you were voting for not who you're not voting for
15:43you know what that to me is cruel and it's mean because what do i have to deal with now
15:49this hate
15:50online it's overwhelming and then on top of it all of the news media outlets saying oh my gosh jen's
15:56not voting for you whitney's not montauk because i have that narrative that's manipulation that's an
16:01objective that's calculated and that's why do you think the whole world all of social media
16:05thinks that about you because people can see your true colors if you had gotten eliminated would you
16:11be voting for jen absolutely and absolutely complete bullshit i don't even believe that one person and
16:16you know what zach you don't have to because even when i had a conversation with jen the way that
16:21she
16:21thinks is she thinks everybody's calculating everyone's strategic and the world's up no she thinks
16:25you and me are it's weird that you two happen to be best friends first of all i don't appreciate
16:30that because i know who i am i am a great fucking person and i put in so much effort
16:36in that
16:37relationship the difference between jen and me and jen is i'm gonna be straight up and honest and
16:41that's actually probably the biggest lie that's come out of your mouth jen is actually the least
16:46calculated person therefore she gets herself in bad situations yeah that's not true this isn't easy
16:49for anyone zach all of us are mentally unwell i can tell and i don't think she should have said
16:57that online but i think there's a part of jen that wants the world to see your true colors
17:00because she's sick of it she's sick of you being fake to her on camera for the show for your
17:06own gain
17:07and then in real life she knows you're not a genuine this is the most delusional woman i've ever met
17:14winnie's friendship with jen has been fake from the beginning anytime when he's been frustrated or
17:19things haven't gone her way she screams or she runs away from mom talk she's hurt you i've never
17:24hurt whitney and then runs away i'm gonna start my own mom talk i'm sorry they're like oh whitney's
17:32only back filming because she wants dancing with the stars they're not wrong just think it was a
17:36very transactional friendship she's not the main star whitney is not interested in it when someone
17:42goes on a live and decides to create more shit for me to deal with that's fucked up and i'm
17:49i'm sorry for that you're not i don't want to hear your apology i want to hear jen's but guess
17:54what she doesn't she doesn't think she did anything wrong no i don't think she thinks she i don't think
17:59she cares to give you an apology of course she doesn't care thank you you want to shout it to
18:03the rooftops of course she doesn't care okay do you have anything else you want to say
18:10i don't want to talk about it anymore that's so i'm sorry i wish you guys the best thank you
18:15i'm not going to sit here and try to convince you the perspective that i have i'm not going to
18:20sit
18:20here and try to convince you that what your wife did was unwarranted how she's treated me as
18:25unwarranted you are not my friend you are not in my circle and i do not trust you okay
18:31hey oh no whitney zach showed up instead of jen oh my god they're just every time i talk to
18:42them i
18:42just feel i feel so manipulated and then i hate fucking crying because then the world is like oh
18:49she's being the victim i like i can't ever fucking win and then for you to sit there and be
18:54like jen
18:55has done nothing wrong it's you that's not a good friend i'm like what the fuck and then he's saying
18:59like basically that i deserve all the hate i'm getting it's like go fuck yourself i'm gonna rip
19:06that man's head off my biggest fucking pet peeve with me is when men try and make women feel
19:12fucking small well guess what i feel that way and i hate so fucking much that like i let it
19:18get to me
19:18i don't know where i'm at after this but what i can control is not having jen and zach a
19:25part of my
19:25life a part of my circle and that's what i'm deciding
19:28she wanted you to feel like shit mission accomplished zach i hope you feel like a big
19:33strong fucking man right now what a fucking loser
19:50hello how are you good how are you oh good to see you i know you too i'm excited for
19:55this
19:55i feel like we all need it you guys look so cozy and cute i know i'm so glad we
20:00all went like
20:00lounge i was like am i gonna look homeless oh never you're carrying your six thousand dollar product
20:05homeless mom talk has a lot going on right now and taylor's leaving for the bachelorette in a few
20:11days and then after that i'm hosting my annual halloween party you should talk about the guest list
20:15though because with taylor gone i'm like okay who are we inviting we can actually have alcohol
20:20because taylor's gone which will be fun open bar okay so i have mom talk on the list obviously
20:25who's left of it dakota i think shania has been invited because jordan invited everyone at red west
20:30but i don't know if she would actually show up we've been so busy lately and i'm so excited to
20:35just go and have fun and relax today with miranda and leila at the spa
20:38you can do anything for 30 seconds you know i will be the burpee then you were married to chase
20:43you
20:44you can do it that was a frozen tundra straight out like ice cap frigid temperatures
21:12i don't know i feel like i'm trying to like keep my expectations low i feel like i put a
21:17lot of
21:17my self-worth into my image having someone say that like they didn't want to take me on even though
21:23they didn't say anything physically was wrong with me i feel like my brain automatically was like oh like
21:27i'm not small enough or i'm not pretty enough but i think more of it was just like i feel
21:31like i
21:31weighed too much i'm sure your sample size is not smaller i don't look at myself that way though
21:37i weighed myself like two days ago when i was 99
21:43and you're like 5 10 5 9
21:46i mean do you know that that's not super healthy and when i say healthy like it doesn't mean
21:55okay you know like healthy is strong yeah
22:02i just feel like i really can't i don't know i just feel like it does don't i don't think
22:07i'll
22:07ever be like small in my head and i know that it's affecting me and like i'm so exhausted all
22:12the
22:12time because i don't and my body hurts every night when i go to bed what do you mean like
22:17i like
22:17literally like lay down like if my like knees are touching each other it like hurts because i don't
22:22have any like fat on my body like pushing it like i know that it's going too far and i'm
22:26taking it too
22:27far but i can't stop do you think uh are you open to stopping trisemite
22:34i have been using weight loss drugs glp ones now for about a year i would say i initially got
22:43on
22:43them because i feel like i just had stubborn weight that i couldn't get off but the thing is that
22:48people
22:48don't talk about how addicting this is and how hard it is to get off and it's just this
22:54ever-living thing that's so negative and especially negative here in utah people are obsessed with how
23:00they look it's a very negative part of the utah culture i can't even count on both hands how many
23:06people i know abuse glp ones like myself and it's a real problem for sure when's the last time you
23:13did it
23:13last week that's what scares me is i don't think you need to be actively losing it's hard
23:19and i feel like everyone like obviously everyone's starting to notice what it looks like in my
23:23comments like i can't post this single video right now like every single person saying something
23:28that like you need to eat or you're not gonna be able to show up for your kids like you're
23:31being
23:31a bad mom blah blah blah like all these things like i'm not trying to like i yeah it's not
23:36like
23:37well i've noticed your comments have switched from like you're something and your arms are so long
23:41to now like are you okay and i think that's kind of the sentiment we're all thinking is that like
23:47just are you okay i feel like for a long time there people calling me ill or saying that i
23:52look sick or
23:53too thin it was almost a dopamine rush for me because i feel like with an eating disorder
23:58okay someone's noticing all this work that i'm putting in to look this way and like it's paying
24:02off in a way but now i can't even post a simple ad to make money to support my family
24:07without
24:08there being a bunch of comments on and it's actually starting to get a lot that i don't
24:12even want to post right now because i can't run away from it
24:18and i don't know like how to stop but obviously like you've always had to have such a strong friend
24:23growing up the way that you grew up and i think when so much is out of control
24:28it's easy for you to cling on to one thing you can't control yeah and i want you to know
24:33that like
24:33you do that you have to have a hand
24:37we're here for you and we love you okay i'm glad i'll help you and you don't like we can
24:45help you
24:46be in control like you don't have to do it by yourself
24:48stay
24:48like a threat that starts and i believe
24:55and all the pieces never seem to fit
25:00when you feel you can't breathe
25:07when you're lost in the dark i'll be here in your heart
25:11hi buddy
25:21this is taylor's last night before she flies out for the bachelorette
25:24and i'm just dropping ever off this is kind of like the last
25:28like our our last time like actually kind of seeing each other
25:32before she goes away and uh yeah it kind of feels surreal
25:37there's part of me obviously where i want to go over there because like i know she's leaving
25:41like and i'm not going to talk to her i think for like two months
25:45so yeah i'd be lying if i didn't think there was a piece of me that just kind of wanted
25:48to go
25:50i don't know like see her be with her like possibly the last time like i don't know
26:14i'm walking on fire my debt is in pay i'll take myself higher so i'm feeling okay
26:23taylor's leaving for the bachelorette today dakota what happened last night
26:30um
26:49aspen and i are at taylor's house getting ready to leave to california for the bachelorette
26:56and we're supposed to leave in two hours
27:00taylor
27:04it's 8 40
27:07she is not ready she is still in bed and she is not feeling well
27:13what do you think we should do we're supposed to be leaving here like any minute
27:19by nine she's still sleeping you're her mom
27:22no you can talk too because i'm always the one that's like a the b
27:25do you talk to taylor yeah what'd she say
27:27she says she just doesn't feel like she just not feeling well she says she can't get on the plane
27:32and that you guys can go and she'll just have to meet me there
27:37she's just she's like there's no way i can get up right now and go
27:42this is ridiculous
27:44i'm very frustrated right now with taylor she has this huge opportunity and i feel like
27:51a part of me is like she's not gonna go
27:53i know that you have anxiety i know that there's a lot going on
27:56that's not why i know you're sick i know
27:59the same
28:02this is a commitment that you made
28:05i don't want her to blow this opportunity to possibly find love
28:09and also to get on with her life aspen and i are gonna get on this plane and i'm hoping
28:15that taylor will meet us there in california i expect you to be there tonight
28:25okay you two are sitting in the very back right here
28:28yeah oh my gosh do we have everything we're gonna miss our flight
28:38on our way for the first week of bachelorette
28:41who's not even coming with us who's a no-show
28:43mom you're crazy huh
28:48so so fresh and so fine
28:52when our hands dry the pot stays
28:55i always know i'm not scared
29:04i'm not scared
29:05me and the girls are at the airport ready to surprise taylor
29:07we decided to make signs for her new adventure she's been through so much
29:11kind of send her off on her little mission to the bachelorette because in our church when someone goes
29:15on a mission usually when they come home people have signs welcoming them back so you'll see that a
29:20lot at salt lake airport so we're sending her off to her mission to the bachelorette and we're ready
29:24for her to be away from dakota and find her real man we're already getting close it's great
29:29it's 9 45 it leaves it leaves at 11. where is she was she with dakota last night yes 100
29:36she was with dakota last night so i am genuinely stressed that she like told him like
29:40i'll stay for you this morning jordan heard from dakota taylor slept with dakota again last night
29:46go self-sabotage jesse tells us that jordan told her that dakota slept with taylor last night
29:52oh my god i thought i couldn't get more disappointed right when we're like yes she
29:58sees it she sees her worth it's like she's going to the bachelorette she's ready to start this new
30:03journey we're so excited for her she's back sleeping with dakota again and i'm so disappointed
30:07i'm so disappointed i'm definitely disappointed in taylor i don't think that this was a smart move
30:11to do right before the bachelorette to be frank if i was one of these guys and i found out
30:15that she
30:15after baby daddy the day before meeting me i would be extremely upset and pissed dakota's trying to pull
30:21off his cards because he's desperate like he's doing anything he can to get her to not go
30:27like i'm shocked but i'm not shocked at the same time i'm just tired i'm so over this i'm just
30:31hoping
30:32dakota doesn't sneak there at some point i'll be happy in the check luggage let's be honest
30:36is that ben that's not bad weird no that's bad shut the up do you like my sexy socks i
30:43was just
30:43going to comment on your sexy socks wait that's not them that's not oh it looks exactly like it
30:52i about died you guys she only has 40 minutes 40 minutes until boarding ends wait she's right
30:58there coming down right there she's right there i could see that rat's neck for a mile away you guys
31:03wait until that's aspen okay okay i'm gonna yell okay that's her mom that's her mom there's aspen
31:08wait where's taylor she's right there wait where is she
31:13but that's asking her mom where's taylor taylor's not even there what the hell where's taylor
31:19asking's gonna be the bachelorette oh my gosh look at that wait where's taylor oh yeah where's taylor
31:28she's not coming she's not for real not she's not coming you're joking no i'm being dead
31:36is it because of dakota oh no we don't know why what's going on she slept with him last night
31:42no sir
31:43for real no sir you guys are freaking kidding me you're joking right no no no no no no no
31:49why the
31:52hell are we going and doing all of this oh my gosh it makes me actually very sick that she
31:58would put
31:58this whole deal on in jeopardy why isn't she here she wouldn't get up we could not get her up
32:05and she's
32:05like i'm not going right now i can't do it you guys and then she's like you guys get on
32:10the flight and
32:10go okay no she's gonna send you without going like what's the point of that hey i need you to
32:15call
32:15me like asap i hate dakota and taylor i'm like i love my sister but i'm like pull it out
32:22of your
32:23ass and you can't be this mad at shania and then give him a pass and like i'm so i
32:26cannot
32:29i freaking hate him don't forget to drop your baggage yeah
32:35she's allowing it i know i'm sorry i'm sorry leanne come here give me a hug i'm sorry
32:41this is so bad you guys taylor not showing up at the airport is not only a bad sign for
32:47her and her
32:47journey in the bachelorette but also for mom talk like she's gonna choose dakota who's been kind of
32:52ruining her life for the last three years over something that is a fresh start like all of us in
32:57mom talk we've all tried so hard to help her and we've all been there for her but i think
33:02it backfired
33:02on us i'm like so frustrated i'm so pissed i don't even want to get on the plane no this
33:06is
33:06well you guys shouldn't if she's not coming she has to go she has to she's already announced it
33:11i'm gonna go this flight and she better be there today or i'm cutting her freaking off
33:16do you want us to go to her house and drag her out of bed tell her she better get
33:20you could go ahead and tell her if she doesn't get up and go that she's losing everybody her help
33:25i'm done she'll be done i'll be done this is so bad taylor is like an addict when it comes
33:33to dakota
33:33we're just trying to help her we spent hours making these signs we showed up early at the
33:38airport to be there and send her off but seeing her mom and kids come to the airport without her
33:42and saying she's not coming i'm like great my worst fears have come true she's going to sabotage
33:46this entire experience for dakota and she's never going to get better i love you i'm sorry
33:54yeah go to her house okay go to her house we need to go take these to her door and
33:57be like
33:58look we were here to support you we stomp him
34:10she's not going to let us in you guys i don't give a i'm going to break the window by
34:14her bed
34:15it's a sunday i should be in church praising the lord and here i am does anyone know her door
34:21i don't care but i know there's a big rock by her window we can slap this i'm just not
34:26sure how to
34:26approach this yeah let's approach it angry or like i just don't know she's not going to answer you guys
34:33do you have a text sent out almost okay you guys should go around back yeah let's go
34:42tap on the window oh hey what about this one no it's locked i thought it wasn't it oh wait
34:48it got
34:48in but there's something there is it dakota oh my god what is all of this now that we've successfully
34:54broken into taylor's house i think we can officially add breaking entering to our resumes
34:59should i wink i can't wink i've been working on it is she gonna be so mad at us well
35:07leanne told us
35:08to do this there's her bag like half packed it's half packed yeah oh my hell taylor i think it
35:15looks
35:15like she didn't fully go you guys what do i do we're already in here guys now we can't leave
35:20so we have to
35:20just like pop your head in just don't like don't say anything unless she's awake because i don't
35:25wake her up taylor yeah i'm here mom talk your mom sent us i mean why are you here
35:44taylor you have a responsibility why aren't you on the plane
35:50why won't anyone be alone i mean you were with dakota last night you weren't that sick
35:57i mean if you don't want help we'll leave but we're just trying to
36:03get you on top because you said yes to bachelorette you should have said no you're not well
36:10i'm feeling definitely sick exhausted drained my friends want the best for me and they're you know in
36:16my house trying to get me to go and i really appreciate it i'm just to a point where it's
36:19like
36:19so low that i don't even want them to help me like i'm sorry but i'm just sick of supporting
36:24you when you keep doing this your mom's pissed your sister's pissed like you're sending them
36:28to la with your kids and you can't show up like just say no to the bachelorette sucks that we
36:33woke
36:33up at 6 a.m to be there for you so over it all of us girls are honestly going
36:38through a lot right now
36:40mikaela and jace's marriage is going through a really hard time jesse's contemplating divorce every
36:45day i'm dealing with my eating disorder and the last thing that we need is our leader taylor to
36:50be falling apart as well i just feel like she's kind of the glue to this group and if she's
36:55not
36:55doing well then mom talk is not doing well either let's just go and let her deconstruct on her own
37:01okay we'll leave taylor but we hope that you make one of the later flights today
37:05go talk to dakota because you can talk to him and not us
37:24thank you for talking to whitney for me yesterday are you eventually interested in talking to her are
37:29you just done with this friendship i don't owe her anything i literally told her i said whitney
37:35if anything jen's the least manipulative calculated person i know in fact she's so
37:40not calculated that like she gets herself in trouble jen wasn't planning on doing a live if
37:44she wanted to expose you for the way you've treated her she would watch the live it was very much
37:49i should i've said that no someone asked me if i'm rooting for her and i say no and now
37:54i owe her
37:55an apology that's what i told her i said i'm sorry i'm not rooting for you were you not just
38:00saying f you to me last week do you see yourself ever being friends with whitney again
38:10holy you well i mean whitney's to me 2.0 like i have no interest in being friends interacting i'll
38:24always be cordial but like it feels like whitney ruined enough of the experience and it's sad to
38:30me that now that it's over we're still talking about it and it feels like it feels like she's
38:34like a parasite and no matter what thing we do it always like we can never just enjoy the experience
38:39for what it is and take the positives like and i just want to like focus on what you accomplished
38:43and the positives you took away you becoming a better dancer you growing as a person like
38:47that's what i wish we were talking about not whitney and her drama yeah when i got eliminated
38:53honestly i was so sad gosh i think the hardest part about leaving dancing with the stars
39:05was how much it brought back my authentic self and so when that journey was over i felt like it
39:13was
39:14almost stripped from me and so i just remember praying to god just being like oh please don't
39:19let that person of myself go away things are ever going to go wrong whenever talking to whitney
39:27to be honest i think that's why i want to go back to utah's i want to regroup
39:32go back to my family and friends and just really figure out what it is that i want i think
39:37we need
39:37to go do something fun we need to get out of the house and just go go to the beach
39:41yeah we need to
39:42go to the beach
39:58this is the thing with being a part of mom talk is there are going to be relationships that ebb
40:03and
40:03show up i'm so slow but which are not even bothering to show up it seems that my friendship
40:07with her is officially coming to an end can i still be in this group and have jen in the
40:12group
40:12absolutely because i'm actually a mature adult right now my focus is on bringing home that mirror
40:17And then I need to pack for New York City.
40:22And what's in New York City?
40:25Roxy Hart.
40:28It's official.
40:29I booked the lead role in Chicago and I'm heading to Broadway.
40:51I am scared to find a guy that will love me back and also be willing to deal with a
40:57couple baby daddies and kids.
41:00But I think if I don't take this step, I do stay stagnant in where I'm at.
41:04This is not only like an opportunity, I think, for just finding someone.
41:08This is an opportunity to get away from the toxicity I'm in here and I want out of it.
41:17You're running, all wanting, bad American dream.
41:23Just fly, you're wild, wanting, sweet nothing.
41:29I got a later flight.
41:31I am in L.A.
41:33I am exhausted, but I'm here and I'm happy that I made it.
41:37I am sorry, love you, love you, love you.
41:46Hello.
41:47Hi.
41:48Hi.
41:50Did you make it?
41:52I did.
41:53How was it?
41:55Good.
41:56I'm just really tired.
41:58Yeah, I bet.
41:59So Taylor just landed, and I feel like this is the last chance they'll be able to kind of, I
42:05don't know, even express to her.
42:07how I feel. Essentially, just the fact of, I've always wanted you. I do just want to say sorry
42:16for everything that I did. I know that that caused a lot of problems.
42:22Can you be more specific what you're talking about?
42:23With Shania.
42:25For doing what? What did you do?
42:27Even with you. You know what I did, for hooking up with her.
42:30Well, be specific if you're going to apologize about it.
42:32Well, I think everybody knows that.
42:34I want to hear it.
42:36I want to hear how sorry you are for what you did.
42:38I know. I am. Taylor, I'm sorry for what I did. I'm sorry for hooking up with Shania.
42:44Was it dumb of me? Yes. Well, could I pick someone else? Yes.
42:48Like, who it was matters, and that's where I think I went wrong.
42:52And I picked somebody that, I mean, obviously, yeah, it was going to come with problems.
42:58And I think that was, like, very shitty of me to do.
43:04I'm going to put you in a shitty spot, and I know that hurt you really bad.
43:07The apology is just words like it always is.
43:10How many times can he do this where you believe it and you suck back into it and it's not
43:14true?
43:15Wake up.
43:16I think there's a lot of pain.
43:17I think there's a lot of things we've done to hurt each other.
43:20But overall, I still think we love each other.
43:23It's toxic. That's the issue.
43:24I know it is toxic. I agree.
43:26But that's the thing is, I also, it doesn't have to be this way.
43:30We make it toxic.
43:31It doesn't have to be that way.
43:33This would be the best thing for us, regardless of, like, what happens.
43:36Yeah, I agree.
43:42I just feel like, I don't know, like, I am, I'm happy for you.
43:49Like, I want you to be happy.
43:50And if you, and that's what I'm saying, if you do find someone, like, great.
43:53But all I'm going to say, save a rose for me, okay?
44:00Like, if you don't find someone, like, I know I've been acting like such a dumbass.
44:05And I've kind of just, like, fell completely away from who I am.
44:09And, like, that's, that's why I love you.
44:12It's like, like, you're the only person that could help me see that sometimes.
44:17I'm just like, hey, like, this isn't who you are.
44:23It's just not.
44:24I think it's not secret to anybody, Dakota.
44:27What?
44:29Say it.
44:31That there's feelings there, obviously.
44:33Can you just admit that you still love me?
44:37I love you and I hate you.
44:39I think talking to Dakota is not a good idea.
44:43But it's a hard pill to swallow that it's done and I need to move on.
44:46It hurts to say it.
44:48Like, oh.
44:50At the end of the day, I do think it's an opportunity to get away from him.
44:53Absolutely.
44:53It's like a dream come true.
44:55Okay, they're about to film me getting away from that.
44:56Okay, save me a rose.
44:58Say it.
44:58Save me a rose.
45:03So just let me know.
45:07Okay, bye.
45:08Bye.
45:11Bye.
45:13Bye.
45:14Bye.
45:17Bye.
45:17Bye.
45:18Bye.
45:18Bye.
45:23The night is finally here.
45:25It's my annual Halloween party.
45:26Last year at the Halloween party, there was a lot of rowdiness.
45:29I have no idea how this is going to go down.
45:31But this year, I'm hoping that tonight we can just have a chance to relax and maybe have
45:35one night of fun.
45:38I am so happy to hear that Taylor finally caught a flight to LA for The Bachelorette.
45:42Things with Taylor and MomTalk feel a little unresolved right now, but I feel like The Bachelorette
45:47is going to be like an eight-week detox where she can't talk to Dakota and it couldn't be
45:51coming at a better time.
45:53Are you Blair?
45:54I'm the new Queen Bee, obviously.
45:56I should have known.
46:00Look at it.
46:00She's Blair.
46:02Ew.
46:02Wow.
46:04Wait, you look so hot, though.
46:06I'm, like, obsessed.
46:07Where's Jace, though?
46:09I have no idea.
46:10What?
46:10I'm like, I think he's coming.
46:12Oh, okay.
46:12You just drove separate?
46:13Yeah.
46:14It's still kind of awkward because I still haven't told the other girls kind of the state
46:18of where Jace and I are at, and they don't know that the two of us are living separately
46:23currently, and Macy's the only one that knows.
46:26I like my alone time for sure, but also I'm, like, I don't like being alone at the same time.
46:31I'm just hoping it gets better.
46:34And I just don't want this information in someone's hand, like Jordan, who has a big mouth.
46:39Jeff Bass is here.
46:40Whoa.
46:42Whoa.
46:42Hi.
46:43I think it's definitely hitting me, the gravity of being separated and what that looks like.
46:49I think there's part of me that is definitely scared to lose him because I don't know how
46:54long it's going to take, and I don't know how long he can be patient for.
46:59Yeah.
47:00I don't know.
47:01I don't know how to feel about it.
47:07Dan Humphrey.
47:08Hi.
47:09Hi.
47:09You're coming here.
47:11Yes.
47:35I'm very grateful for Jesse and Miranda and how supportive they've been for me throughout
47:39this hard time.
47:41Sometimes when you're in the midst of an eating disorder, it feels like you're never gonna
47:47be better and you're never gonna, like, overcome it.
47:51However, Jesse found one of the number one eating disorder facilities here in the U.S., which
47:55is amazing.
47:57Hi.
47:57Hi.
47:57Guys.
47:58Hello.
47:59Hi, Layla.
48:00Thank you so much for coming.
48:01I'm a little nervous, definitely.
48:03I feel like I don't know what to expect.
48:05We have all options.
48:06We have 24-hour care.
48:07We have outpatient.
48:09So we'll just kind of see what kind of fits your needs, what you're looking for.
48:12I was definitely anxious going into the center.
48:14They kept telling me that they weren't gonna check me in and have me be inpatient, but
48:19that didn't happen.
48:19So that's good.
48:29I'm actually shocked to hear that Mason read my book and he was saying how much he loved
48:33it, which I was like, wait, what?
48:34I like, sorry, I didn't know guys like read books.
48:37Maybe that's so horrible of me to say, but like, despite everything going on in MomTalk
48:40right now, the reason why I wrote this book was to inspire.
48:44I think that's what keeps me fighting to save my friend group, to save MomTalk and keep
48:48them away from all these toxic men, because I've been through a lot of challenges, heartbreaks,
48:52hardships, and I just want my friends to be happy.
48:54I just want us to thrive.
48:55And that's a big purpose behind what I do.
49:05It looks like his type, so.
49:07We're like, we're like, we're trying to figure it out.
49:12Hi, you came here.
49:15You're great.
49:24So Shania shows up and, uh, damn, this is a tough spot.
49:30So it feels a little awkward, obviously, like seeing her.
49:33The last thing I want is for us to have some shit show happen, like the last Halloween.
49:38Why is he talking to Shania?
49:40They're back together.
49:42He's so dumb for doing this right now.
49:44I'm glad we made a sex pack for sure.
49:46That was cool.
49:46Yeah, that was badass, huh?
49:48I want, to be fair, I also thought it was going to last a lot longer than what it did.
49:54You broke it, not me.
49:55I know, but hang on.
49:56Wait, I know.
49:57No, no, no, no.
49:58Oh my gosh, okay.
50:00Technically, okay.
50:01Oh, fuck.
50:03Dakota!
50:04I didn't even, well, I never got the chance to even tell you this, so, uh, yeah, you're
50:11going to fucking hate it, but you already know, probably.
50:16It was freaking Taylor.
50:18The truth is, this right now, okay?
50:23This is what I am right now.
50:24I'm like, I'm just emotionally, like, I think a little bit more of myself than I thought.
50:29I thought I could maybe do it.
50:31I would love to be with Taylor.
50:32I would love that opportunity, and maybe there's a chance that this could be something that she
50:36needs.
50:37If she goes out and dates, like, 30 handpicked men for her, and ends up choosing me at the
50:42end, I feel like that's also maybe, like, a good sign for her.
50:45Like, maybe that would help her.
50:48Yeah, but I'm also, again, I'm in a position to where I don't think I can sit and rely on
50:52that either, of having that hope.
50:55I do want to, you know, I really did care a lot about, like, how everything went down,
51:00and that was really hard to watch.
51:03And I'm like, sorry, you had to go through that.
51:05I just don't ever wanted to come back on brand, and that's my only thing that I care about.
51:10Being back in MomTalk, it's no secret that Taylor and I have kind of been through hell.
51:15I mean, it's been one thing after the next, it seems.
51:20You think Taylor should still be leading MomTalk?
51:23Personally, you know, maybe we just raw dog MomTalk, no leader.
51:29We have come so far in just the last few years, especially here in the Utah Mormon culture,
51:39because MomTalk has flipped typical gender roles.
51:41We're breadwinners, not trad wives, with Taylor being bachelorette, Whitney and Jen doing Dancing
51:46with the Stars, Macy in her book event, Layla in modeling.
51:49We all have so many cool things happening for us.
51:51Oh, I love it!
51:53It really is true that in life, what you do doesn't matter.
51:56It's who you spend your time with.
51:57So having a good, supportive group of friends makes your accomplishments even better.
52:02I'm not here, because I need to cry.
52:04Okay.
52:06I needed to talk to somebody about this, because, like, it's kind of been freaking me out a little
52:10bit.
52:10But, like, Taylor told me, like, the last time that we did it, that she was, like, ovulating.
52:21So she could be pregnant.
52:22Like, Taylor, randomly in bed, she goes, she's like, I haven't had my period yet, okay?
52:26And I was like, I was like, from, like, when?
52:29Like, and then she told me, I was like, whoa, hang on, okay.
52:31Or I could ask you this.
52:32Is she going to be a pregnant bachelorette?
52:35That's what I'm freaking, but, because they took her damn phone before I could ask her
52:39and say, hey, have you, did you start your period, or what's going on here?
52:42This is a movie.
52:43Deep down, like, you have symptoms, you know if you're pregnant.
52:46Oh, my God.
52:46Like, especially.
52:47What's weird, too, is, like, Dana was trying to think about, like, how emotional, kind
52:49of, she's been lately.
52:50She's been a little erratic.
52:52Yeah, like, a little bit more.
52:53It's where I was like, hmm.
52:53God, Dakota, this is so bad.
52:55And then she was, like, sick a few times.
52:56Like, I remember telling me she felt sick a little bit.
52:58And I was like, holy God.
53:02Can you fucking imagine, you guys?
53:04Like, she's the bachelorette and she's pregnant.
53:06Like, that's never happened.
53:07I don't feel like they could keep her on.
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