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00:00I'm going to be giving Nick the special boudoir calendar that we made.
00:05I was just feeling a little insecure that day in my lingerie.
00:09Her negative self-talk can just kind of create a bad energy in the house.
00:13You need no armor here. Put your shield down.
00:18I have kind of been talking to someone else.
00:20I have knots in my stomach right now. I think we're cheating on her.
00:25Have you started dating other women?
00:27I went on a date with someone.
00:30Her and Angelica didn't feel right. The three of us didn't feel right.
00:33Angelica met this person.
00:33Yeah, she met her before.
00:35Wow.
00:35I find out he was dating somebody else. Now, Angelica lied to me about it. I just, I can't do this anymore.
00:43Definitely heartbroken right now.
00:46There's no coming back from this.
00:49So, do I get to meet your wife?
00:51Do you want to?
00:51Yes.
00:52Okay.
00:52Things have been going so well with Randy. I really feel like there's some type of connection.
00:57Meet me and my date.
00:59That's so weird.
01:00I think Billy is underestimating what the real emotional impact will be once this starts rolling.
01:08Oh, bonita.
01:10I've been waiting for me and Lorena to get married. This is exciting.
01:13All right. See you in a minute. Love you.
01:15I mean, it's just a piece of paper. I know that. But Simone makes me feel a little bit plus tied to Garrick.
01:23I know that. That's so nice.
01:24No other people could go in. So.
01:30Yeah. And they're going to come out Mr. And Mrs. Merrifield.
01:37Garrick and Lorena just went inside the county building here in Aspen, and they are going
01:48to come out Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield.
01:51No other people could go in, so just waiting.
01:55Lorena, absolutely, like, her and I have a great connection, and I think, like, it couldn't
02:03be any better, really.
02:06I don't want to be emotional because I know it's, like, exciting for Lorena and Garrick
02:15and all this.
02:17Okay, that's enough of that.
02:25Oh my God!
02:34Miss Merrifield, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield!
02:44Miss Merrifield, Mr. and Mrs. Merrifield!
02:55Congratulations!
02:56Lorena is going to be able to stay here in America and we're going to actually be a family.
03:05Because everything happened very quickly, like, him in my life and we're going to get married.
03:11And it's actually a dream, in fact.
03:14Yes, the penny is actually sinking in because everything happened so quickly like him in my life and is getting married.
03:24It's actually been a dream.
03:26It's kind of surreal, like, to think that after so many years, it's finally gotten to the point where we're actually living this as a family, it's real.
03:35With a future, you know, where we can actually grow a family, where more children, and every day we can actually be together, you know.
03:44Not have to take trips to see each other all the time.
03:46Yeah.
03:47That's such a relief.
03:48Oh, yo!
03:49Hi!
03:50How are you doing?
03:51Good, how are you?
03:52Good, good.
03:53My name is Frank.
03:54Frank?
03:55I'm Garrick.
03:56Garrick.
03:57Hi!
03:58Hi!
03:59Hi!
04:00How are you doing?
04:01Hey!
04:02Good, how are you?
04:03Good, good.
04:04My name is Frank.
04:05Frank, I'm Garrick.
04:06Garrick.
04:07What are you doing here?
04:08Well, we just got married.
04:09Oh!
04:10Congratulations!
04:11Great!
04:12Thank you!
04:13So which one is your wife?
04:14Which girls married with you?
04:16Both.
04:17Both?
04:18Oh, so...
04:21Okay.
04:22Which one is the first?
04:23She's the first.
04:24Oh, she's the first?
04:25Yeah.
04:26She's the second?
04:27Yeah.
04:28You have a good life?
04:30Yeah.
04:31All right.
04:32Great!
04:33I want to give you a shout for the congregation for your marriage.
04:38Oh!
04:39Who won the first?
04:40Lorena.
04:41All right.
04:42We do the one shot!
04:45Two shot!
04:47Three shot!
04:50All right!
04:51Winner!
04:52Yay!
04:53Yay!
04:54Okay.
04:55All right.
04:56Good.
04:57So you enjoy.
04:58Cheers.
04:59Cheers.
05:00Cheers.
05:01Familia.
05:02Familia.
05:03Familia.
05:04And deus.
05:05And deus.
05:06Number one.
05:07Same.
05:08Now I am Merrifield.
05:14Si.
05:15Si.
05:16Familia.
05:17I think, you know, being three months into Lorena being here is still fresh.
05:21I think there's still a lot of settling in to do, even after three months.
05:26One for all, all for the team.
05:29You know, I really want her marriage with Garrick to be blessed.
05:33I really want them to be strong, because when her relationship with Garrick's strong, then
05:38it makes mine and Garrick's relationship that much strong.
05:40And then all of us stronger together.
05:42You know, I think there is a little bit of a lingering sadness.
05:46I'm very happy for Garrick and Lorena, but like, you know, it's opening up our home and
05:51our safe place.
05:52Cheers.
05:53Cheers.
05:54Cheers.
05:55Cheers.
05:56Cheers.
05:57I am wondering how the future is going to look for all of us.
06:21You ready for some drinks?
06:23At a public playground, we started off around there
06:26and things are going really well,
06:28so I want her to meet Billy
06:30and kind of see what Billy thinks of her.
06:33I actually, I have a text from Billy.
06:37Yeah?
06:38Meet me and my date.
06:40That's so weird.
06:43I can't wait to meet her.
06:44Is she coming now?
06:45Yeah, she should be here anytime.
06:46Okay.
06:47I have never had an open relationship.
06:49I've never had a polygamist relationship.
06:53So, I am nervous to meet Billy
06:55because I want to get to the bottom
06:57of how she feels about all this.
06:59So, you want to play 20 questions?
07:01Oh, dear lord, I guess.
07:03Let's do it.
07:05So, what is the craziest place
07:08you've ever had sex to be for?
07:09The foot of the bed.
07:13I told you, I would say maybe a car, but nothing.
07:20Too crazy?
07:20Yeah.
07:21I was like a late bloomer and stuff,
07:24so where's the craziest place that you had ever?
07:28The one that sticks out.
07:29It's not really crazy, but on the beach.
07:31Mmm.
07:32It's not fun.
07:33I was going to say, a lot of sand.
07:36Man, kudos.
07:39What is a crazy sexual position you've ever done?
07:43Mmm.
07:44Okay, can I say one I don't like?
07:47The one...
07:48Oh, yeah, go for it.
07:50Reverse counter.
07:51It's because sometimes everything doesn't line up, and there you go.
07:59It can be painful.
08:01But I like everything else.
08:07So, the date is going really well.
08:11I feel like a little giddy schoolgirl.
08:13Like...
08:14Like, I don't know.
08:15Like, I haven't been on many first dates and stuff.
08:17So, like, to have it go so well, I have, like, this, like, sense of guilt, almost.
08:23Like, like, I have this dissonance of, like, okay, this is, like, this is good, but also
08:29this is, like, this is bad that I'm feeling this way.
08:31Like, I just kept feeling myself, like, look for her and be like, oh, no, is she around?
08:36Did I say that?
08:37Did she hear it?
08:38But, no, it's okay.
08:39It's okay.
08:40She's given me permission for this.
08:42Hey.
08:43Hi.
08:44How are you doing?
08:45Good.
08:46How are you?
08:47This is Billy.
08:48I'll give you a hug.
08:49I'm a hugger.
08:50It's amazing.
08:51Sorry.
08:52I'll have a seat.
08:53I hope this conversation was good.
08:55It is.
08:56And it's going to be even better now.
08:58I'm like...
08:59You'll get some tea.
09:00You'll get some tea.
09:01Yes.
09:02Yes.
09:03You guys are, like, a lot alike, and it's weird.
09:07And...
09:08A new handle, too?
09:09I don't know.
09:10Like, shoot.
09:12This is a lot.
09:14So, thanks for coming out and going on a date with him.
09:18What made you, like, interested?
09:20We were talking about kids.
09:21Raising kids is so difficult on its own.
09:24Right.
09:25I have not had the partner that I've always wanted to be there for me to help me raise the kids.
09:31So...
09:32Right.
09:33Having, like, a village.
09:34We were talking about, like, a village to raise these kids, and I love kids.
09:36She has three kids.
09:37They're all different ranges.
09:38I love it.
09:39She's got, like...
09:40Stair steps.
09:41They're, like, stair steps.
09:42They're all 17, 14, and 5.
09:43Oh, okay.
09:44I wish I would have had more.
09:45She has Bibby fever, by the way.
09:46I do.
09:47I do.
09:48Sorry.
09:49Dang it.
09:50No, I showed her.
09:51My first impression of Randy is that she's very friendly.
09:52She's very welcoming and open.
09:54She didn't seem, like, put off by me coming in.
09:57We seem to have a lot in common right now.
10:00So I think that's a good place to start.
10:02So how has it been going?
10:04Has everything been going good?
10:05You want some tea on him?
10:06You want some...
10:07I would love some tea on him.
10:09Oh, no.
10:10Give me the tea on...
10:11Or the D.
10:14Someone's getting a little...
10:15I'm sorry.
10:16Excited.
10:17Sorry.
10:18So, anyways.
10:20What do you want to know?
10:21What kind of things do you want to know about him?
10:23Well, okay.
10:24He said he was really vanilla.
10:25Okay.
10:26Yes.
10:27So does he just lay that?
10:32That's another good way to put it.
10:33It's hard to do all the work.
10:34That's a good way to put it.
10:35Or you have to change that.
10:37Yeah, no.
10:38He will if you let him.
10:39So you gotta be like, no, we're doing this.
10:41I try hard.
10:44He just needs to get .
10:46Seeing him, like, laughing and joking and, like, clearly get along was...
10:56It was good to see, because that's what you want to see.
10:58But at the same time, it makes you have some feelings inside that you're like,
11:01oh, why is it so easy for him to laugh with her already?
11:05Like, why is it so easy for you to just, like, joke?
11:09Uh-oh.
11:10So.
11:11Okay, interesting.
11:12All right.
11:13All right, so how are you gonna feel about jealousy?
11:14Like, if I'm sitting on your couch in your house and we're holding hands or something,
11:27like, is that?
11:28I've never felt it before.
11:29I've never seen him with someone else.
11:30Right.
11:31So, like, obviously him going on a date, like, today, it was...
11:34How was that for you?
11:35I won't lie, in the beginning I was like, it's kind of weird that I don't know what's
11:39going on.
11:40And so, I mean, there was a little bit of, like, intrigue to be like, is he having fun
11:45without me?
11:46Right.
11:47Right.
11:48Like, what's he doing?
11:49Whole new world.
11:50Whole new world.
11:51So, what would happen in, like, your case with jealousy?
11:54So, like, how would you react to how you feel?
11:58Because, obviously, like, she's first wife.
12:00Right.
12:01Like, would you be okay with that?
12:04You know, I am not sure because I've never done this before.
12:08Okay.
12:09Right.
12:10Would you be okay?
12:11I'm sorry.
12:12I mean, I might get jealous.
12:13I can't say I wouldn't.
12:14Billie carries herself with a lot of strength and she shows facial expressions that she's
12:24not comfortable.
12:25Maybe she was jealous.
12:27I want to believe that she won't be jealous, but we never know.
12:36I'm home.
12:39How'd it go?
12:41It was a time.
12:42I've been home all evening waiting for Matt and Shanae's date to end.
12:48All right.
12:49Come on.
12:50Tell me everything.
12:51I'm really nervous.
12:52I'm anxious.
12:53Well, um...
12:59If they left me, I would be devastated because I'm never going to find that kind of love.
13:04Things have been tense at home.
13:06I'm starting to wear a little thin on the Davises.
13:09I can't this up.
13:23I've been home all evening waiting for Matt and Shanae's date to end.
13:40How was it?
13:41How'd it go?
13:44I'm really nervous. I'm anxious. I'm, I don't know. I'm just a ball of mixed emotions.
13:51All right. Come on. Tell me everything. Let's go.
13:55You want to know everything?
13:56I want to know everything. All the details.
14:00Well, um, she broke up with us.
14:07Okay. Um, okay.
14:24I'm really sad. As soon as Matt opened up his mouth, I could already see the words coming out.
14:34And it just, it just hit me right in my heart. And I, I could feel just like a hole.
14:45I did try. What I always say, the worst you can say is no. So why not try?
14:53Do you, like, do you think there's any chance that we'd be able to, you know, get Sinead back?
15:03I don't think so. Like, uh, from, you know, what I got tonight at dinner, I just think she's done.
15:14You know, I think she's done with everything. I did tell her that, you know, we went on a date together.
15:20Um, I kind of think that might have been where she really kind of drew her line.
15:26I didn't tell her.
15:28That wasn't for you to tell her.
15:30I can definitely see how, you know, that upset her.
15:34I just don't want her to, you know, feel like I was going behind her back.
15:42I'm sorry I put you in the middle of this. She's, like, your best friend.
15:48Yeah.
15:51I wanted more years. I wanted more years. Three is not enough. I definitely wanted forever.
15:58My heart feels broken. The three of us together just made sense. And we all care for each other. We all respect each other.
16:06You know, we were able to spend time with each other outside of a physical or romantic thing.
16:14Just spend time together and just be in the moment, you know, and for me to care this much and for her this much, she means a lot.
16:24We spent all this time and energy and love trying to build something together over these last three years.
16:32You know, we've had this vision of what we all want, how our family will grow and become one unit. And now it seems like everything's just going down the drain.
16:49So where do you guys think you go from here?
16:55Where do we go from here?
16:57You know, over time, I do want to continue searching for a sister wife because it did bring a lot to our relationship and our family.
17:06I do need a little bit of time to process what I'm feeling, let the pain kind of subside, and then we can discuss, like, what we'll do next.
17:16And what's supposed to happen.
17:19The reason why I started this sister wife search was because I didn't have the support. I don't have the village. I don't have a community, but I'm hurting.
17:31I think I have to go back to basics. Let me go back to my community where I came from, see if I can get the support there.
17:39My sister Chastity is the only one in the family that knows about this. And even she has a lot of strong opinions. My mom and my aunts know absolutely nothing.
17:54My mother-in-law is very opinionated. She doesn't mince words at all.
18:01With Shanae being gone, things are definitely going to change.
18:06At this point, I'm just pretty much it. I need my family around, and I am going to take this risk and let them in to our relationship.
18:19And hopefully, you know, it is received well, and I will have a family that I can turn to.
18:27This sucks.
18:29It does, huh?
18:47Man, I'm not a pool shark, but it's definitely my happy place.
18:51I don't even know the last time I played Polteresa.
18:54Today, I'm taking my friend Brandon to a pool hall.
18:57Brandon has been my dear friend for about 20 years now.
19:01I met him back in high school, and he's always been my sounding board, and he's always been someone to really uplift me when I'm feeling low.
19:10Thank you, Brandon. You're the best.
19:12You're welcome.
19:13Wow, this place is busy.
19:15Oh my goodness, I know.
19:17So things have been tense at home.
19:20Meltdowns and the negative self-talk have become more frequent.
19:25I've had a lot of abusive relationships that I'm still healing from.
19:30And over the last several weeks, Nick has tried to come and talk to me about how I'm feeling and the concerns that he's having.
19:37And April and Jenny will say, it's okay. We're here. We love you.
19:43I think they are getting tired of me running away and not addressing the issues when they bring them up.
19:50Maybe I shouldn't have worn heels, but you know, I can bend down pretty well.
19:54I'm starting to wear a little thin on the Davises, so it's nice to get out and go see a friend and kind of vent a little bit.
20:01I don't think you made any of them.
20:04No, I didn't.
20:05When I found out Teresa was joining Nick's family and the dynamic that she was going into, I was excited for her.
20:12I don't really know Nick and his family, to be honest.
20:17I do know that they have been having some issues, but that's why I'm here today, hoping we can get to the bottom of it.
20:27Hey, look at that.
20:28So, what is new with you? What's going on?
20:30Um, you know, we've been just, it's been hard, Brandon. It's been really hard.
20:36You know, I just feel like all my past trauma and stuff is what's hindering me from having like a genuine connection with him.
20:46And then on top of it, I have a lot of healing that I have to do.
20:50Like they're always having to give me pep talks.
20:52They're always having to remind me and reassure me that I'm like, there's no reason to be insecure, especially in this type of relationship.
20:59But I don't think I'm worthy of this type of relationship.
21:05I'm just taking up so much of their time because I have so much healing to do.
21:11What do you think you need to do? What do you feel?
21:17I feel like I'm making their lives like miserable.
21:20I have seen Teresa get down on herself in the past.
21:25I've known her for 20 years and I know she has a lot of love to give, but I do know that Teresa's had a lot of trauma in her life and in her past.
21:35It's played a big role in how she goes with day-to-day life.
21:39She just needs a little bit more affirmation than other people.
21:43Are your insecurities bringing down the house?
21:46I want to hear like how you are viewing things from you.
21:51Yeah, I think I'm constantly comparing myself to Jenny and April.
21:58I feel like they're more wife material than me.
22:02I'm not as valuable as they are.
22:05And I never will be.
22:08You are.
22:09Don't ever say that. You are.
22:11I have a lot of shame, a lot of things that make me feel like I'm not good enough for a monogamous relationship, let alone a polygamous one, you know?
22:24I don't think anybody on this planet Earth is going to love me to the degree that Nick loves me.
22:29And I definitely feel like polygamy is the best route for me.
22:33But I'm still wrapping my head around the fact that Nick loves multiple women.
22:39I know that I have a lot of work to do and it's an uphill battle.
22:44My biggest fear right now is losing them.
22:50Where do you want to go from here?
22:54If I left them, I would be devastated.
22:57Or if they left me, I would be devastated because I'm never going to find that kind of love.
23:03I would be so devastated, Brandon.
23:06Like, I can't this up, excuse me, mess this up.
23:10Like, I can't.
23:16Hey, I love you.
23:19I love you.
23:40Over here?
23:41Yeah, sounds good.
23:42Okay.
23:43So, how are you doing?
23:47I don't know if I want to go to me yet.
23:49There's just so much.
23:50You want to know all the dirty details?
23:52Yes.
23:53Oh, my gosh.
23:54Give me what you have.
23:56Oh, my gosh.
23:58Samantha has definitely always been a big supporter of my marriage with Garrick.
24:03So, I'm hoping today I can just unload a little bit on Samantha and get my emotions and feelings
24:07out and hopefully feel strengthened.
24:11I was waiting outside the courthouse for like 30, 40 minutes and it was kind of like,
24:15kind of a little emotional outside.
24:17Yeah.
24:18Kind of weird, right?
24:19Yeah.
24:20Like, just knowing that he's now legally married to someone else.
24:24I think, like, it settled in my heart.
24:26Like, he still loves me and like, it doesn't matter about the piece of paper.
24:29But knowing now that he shares that with someone else, I can't ever have that with him.
24:35I think it was just a little bit, you know.
24:38That would be weird.
24:39A little bit hard.
24:40Yeah.
24:41In my heart, like, I almost wish he, like, didn't have to be legally married to anybody.
24:48Yeah.
24:49Oh, Lorena and Garrick being married, it's definitely weird.
24:53Me and my husband have questioned, like, is this what you want?
24:56Are you just doing this to make your husband happy?
24:58And she says, no, I feel like this is what God wants for me.
25:01So, I'm like, okay.
25:03You know, it's just been you and Garrick and you're sharing a bed.
25:06And now you have to, like, not share a bed with him every day.
25:09Like, how is that going?
25:10Like, you know.
25:11Honestly, it's been going really smoothly.
25:13Like, we're still altering every two days for her, two days for me.
25:18And then Garrick has off on Sundays.
25:20He's alone.
25:21Because I would think if I were ever living this lifestyle, I would want Garrick to, um,
25:26Sam to come into my bed.
25:27I wouldn't want, like, the sheets and you're being intimate and then somebody else, like,
25:31do you change the sheets, like, every two days?
25:33Yeah.
25:34Like, how do you do?
25:35Because to me, that's kind of nasty.
25:37Nasty.
25:38I wouldn't want clean sheets.
25:40So, Lorena and I are very respectful of each other, like, cleaning up after ourselves.
25:47Yeah.
25:48It would be so much easier if we had separate rooms.
25:57Because I know it's kind of a hassle for me and Lorena.
25:59Like, I leave my toothbrush in Garrick's bathroom and it's, I'm supposed to be upstairs in the
26:03sister room and then I have to, like, go downstairs and be like, can I get my toothbrush?
26:05Like, I've been keeping my stuff in a, like, a travel bag.
26:09This plural lifestyle, people live it differently.
26:11Like, I don't live that lifestyle.
26:13But for me, I'd just be, I like my space.
26:16I like my things where they need to be.
26:19Having to, like, carry my tote bag and not having it in my room.
26:23But I don't know if that's what they want to do.
26:26Wait, does Lorena want a third sister ride?
26:30We've been seeking still.
26:32She's okay with that?
26:34She is.
26:35She has her moments, I think, because she's still adjusting to so much.
26:38Yeah.
26:39She knows, like, this is the lifestyle.
26:42Like, we're not done seeking.
26:43But I think being in America, missing her family, language, she's learning English.
26:48You know, learning Garrick and me, our family dynamic.
26:51Like, feeling comfortable in the house.
26:53Seeking another sister wife has always been part of our plan for Garrick and I.
26:58And Lorena has always understood that since we first started talking to her.
27:01But with Lorena's immigration status, it could take up to two years for her to get, like, full citizenship.
27:07So, if we do find someone outside of the U.S., it may mean that we would have to wait at least two years for Garrick and Lorena to get divorced.
27:16Because we wouldn't want to risk her citizenship.
27:18I think it's a little hard for Lorena, too, because, you know, Garrick and I have been together so long, so there's a lot of established trust and understanding with each other that she's still learning.
27:31I know Lorena's a strong person, but I honestly don't think that she's fully ready to add a third.
27:37Because I feel like it's such a different dynamic coming into a relationship versus adding someone else to that relationship.
27:44How do you handle all of that?
27:45How do you handle all of that?
27:46It has to be stressful.
27:47Yeah, it's a lot.
27:48Jeez.
27:49That's the piece that is hard with potentially adding a third is that how will she handle that?
27:57How will she take that?
27:59Because that's always been a trigger point in the past for women.
28:02What happens if her and Garrick just aren't in a good spot one day, you know, and they're struggling and she's not feeling good about it?
28:08You know, what happens?
28:14I actually, I heard from Randy, she messaged me.
28:16Oh, really?
28:17What?
28:18I don't like that look.
28:19I know, maybe a little bit overwhelming seeing you guys get along so well.
28:25It's taken me for a little bit of a loop.
28:27It's super frustrating to be hearing all these negative emotions from Billie because this was her idea all along.
28:34Wow.
28:35Wow.
28:53Hi, baby, there you are.
28:55And there's an egg.
28:56Come on, baby, come on.
28:57Let's go, let's go.
28:59Come on.
29:00Oh, mom is so happy.
29:02That makes me very happy.
29:04Oh, eat that bug. Get it.
29:06Except for this.
29:07So in our household,
29:09Billy kind of does more of,
29:11we'll say, the masculine thing.
29:16She likes to change the oil,
29:18do some repairs.
29:20She likes to get some elbow grease going.
29:22We'll probably have to get a new air filter for it.
29:25I'm gonna leave that in your court.
29:28I might scare the chicken, so be careful.
29:32Reese, when it comes to typical man jobs,
29:35he runs the other way.
29:40Where were you?
29:41Come here. Come on.
29:43Yeah, his honey-do list kind of stays a honey-do list.
29:46It's never a honey-done list.
29:51So, I actually, I heard from Randy.
29:54She messaged me.
29:58What?
29:59I don't like that look.
30:00I know, maybe a little bit overwhelming.
30:03Um,
30:04cause like,
30:05walking in and seeing like,
30:07you guys get along so well,
30:09kind of, um,
30:10I guess like hit me a little
30:12harder than I was anticipating.
30:17After sitting on it for a few days,
30:19it kind of festered and I'm feeling a little off my game.
30:22I am feeling jealous.
30:24There's a bit of me that's like, oof.
30:26It's a lot seeing him, you know, getting along with another woman with the intent of, you know, dating and marrying them.
30:35Are you having like reservations about still doing this?
30:39I don't think it's necessarily like about reservations about doing it.
30:42Like, I, I feel like we've got a good vibe.
30:45Like, we all get along really well.
30:48But, it's just maybe it's like we get along too well right now.
30:52Like, how did you mesh so well and so easily that, like, I don't know, it's just, it's taken me for a little bit of a loop because I wasn't, I wasn't expecting it.
31:02Wow.
31:03This was my biggest concern.
31:05Were these going to come up?
31:07Anything that I did, was it going to make her uncomfortable?
31:10And I'm starting to see those feelings arise.
31:13It's super frustrating to be hearing all these, like, kind of negative emotions from Billie because this was her idea all along.
31:22So, I've got to ask, do you like her? Like, do you have feelings for her already?
31:28If I'm being honest, yeah. Like, there's, I know there's something there.
31:37Okay.
31:40How does that make you feel?
31:44I'm excited because this is what we've been hoping for and I'm glad that, that you found somebody that could potentially vibe with us.
31:50But it, it makes me nervous. And what if, like, you fall in love with her and you fall out of love with me?
31:58Like, are you capable of loving two women at the same time? Like, what if she is everything that you've wanted for and you leave me?
32:09You really think that I would leave you? I mean, it's a fear.
32:18You know everything we've been through. I know.
32:21We would never leave you. I love you so much. We've been through way too much.
32:26But, you know, like, it's something that's there. Right. I mean...
32:31So I wanted to tell you, like, I didn't want to lie or keep it from you, but...
32:35Well, I'm glad you're seeming more human. And because I, I knew this, I figured this would come up at some point, but it's the only way we're going to get through it though.
32:44Right.
32:45I want to kind of change the rules a little bit, um, just so that I can go on some dates too. Um, maybe like every other date so that I can get to know her.
32:58That makes sense. You know, I think maybe that might make you feel more comfortable. So that's, that's totally cool.
33:04Being new to this, we need to make sure we stay on the same page as we go through this.
33:11And, you know, like we haven't been intimate or we haven't got to that point yet. And that's a whole other level of emotions and things.
33:21So I'm anxious to see what happens when we get to that point.
33:32I do have to make it very clear that we have reached a sort of a crossroad.
33:38Well, I think I'd like to have this conversation at another time.
33:42I don't like this disruption in my house.
33:44I got you. I got you. I'm going to go take a, take a moment. Thank you.
33:48Oh, thank you.
34:08Hey. What you got going on down here?
34:09Mocktails. If, I guess you could call it that.
34:12Juice and wine glass. Yeah, yeah. No alcohol in honor of Jenny's.
34:14Look, look how fancy it looks.
34:18Things with Theresa have been steadily difficult.
34:23It's kind of wearing on us all.
34:25The repetition of having to continually have pep talks and reassure her that she deserves to be here.
34:32We're going to sit down with Theresa and try to dig into some of the conversation that we know is necessary for us to have.
34:41Theresa.
34:42Yeah.
34:43Here, come down. I made mocktails.
34:45Okay.
34:46Pour juice in the glass. What you talking about?
34:48Jen, I made mocktails.
34:52I'm not sure if Theresa is aware of how much energy it takes to put into trying to help her feel better.
35:01But it does create almost like an energy vampire type of atmosphere.
35:06Yeah, the mocktails in solidarity of Jennifer's condition. So we...
35:12Condition. Well...
35:13Keep it.
35:14But yes. Cheers.
35:17Instead of cocktails.
35:18Keep it non-alcoholic here. Yeah. The mocktails.
35:21Yeah.
35:22For sure.
35:23Mm.
35:25Oh, wow.
35:28I have to say, I think there's still some groundwork that we need to do between the four of us.
35:37You know, quite often times, Theresa, you find yourself questioning whether or not this is a place where you belong.
35:49And I know that because of the fact that that's entirely tied to the way that you feel and view yourself, it makes it a difficult situation for us to address.
36:06You know, we were really talking about how, like, confidence and self-confidence, you know, is a big part of this.
36:14And being in this relationship is just going to naturally, like, bring some of those things out.
36:19There's going to be things that you're going to have to work on.
36:25They have often times tried to talk to me about, um, my self-destructive behavior.
36:33And I run or just sweep it under the rug.
36:37I knew this conversation was coming and I was really trying to be mentally prepared for it.
36:43But now that it's here, it's terrifying.
36:46And I don't want to be here.
36:48I don't want to talk about this.
36:50I just want to shut down, to be honest.
36:53The way that you are about yourself, Theresa, it's causing disruptions in the harmony of our situation overall that, um, I mean, we just, we can't, we won't be able to function like that.
37:08Um, speaking of, um...
37:21You know, I just think, Theresa, like, how are you feeling?
37:25I don't know.
37:26Well, I think I'd like to have this conversation at another time.
37:30I'm going to go ahead and just go ahead and take a drive.
37:35Like I normally would.
37:37And, I mean, well, that's the thing, Theresa, is, like, running away from it never...
37:41Yeah.
37:42It makes it...
37:43We don't get to reconcile.
37:44We don't ever get to reconcile.
37:45And we want to reconcile.
37:46We'll get to reconcile it.
37:47I just need to have a moment.
37:48I'm sorry.
37:49Um, this is a lot right now.
37:54I do have to make it very clear that we have reached a sort of a crossroads where...
38:00I know.
38:01I got you.
38:02I got you.
38:03I'm going to go take a moment.
38:04Yeah.
38:06Good.
38:07I feel very sad and I feel very ashamed that these people love me so much and they're
38:19so patient, yet I still somehow can't get it together.
38:24But this is what always happens and then we never get to talk about anything.
38:31Well, I mean...
38:32Because she'll leave and then come back later and then act like nothing's wrong and not want
38:36to talk about anything.
38:37Right.
38:38Yeah.
38:39Every time that we've tried to have a conversation with Theresa, she basically just runs away.
38:43She avoids any kind of confrontation.
38:46It's not working.
38:47Someone needs to take the mic off of me.
38:51Off me now.
38:52This mic off me.
38:58Will you please come talk to us?
39:00No, I'm okay.
39:01I'm done for the evening.
39:03Yeah.
39:04If she's like getting in the car and going for a drive or something, let her do that.
39:08I don't...
39:09I don't know.
39:10I don't think I do want to go chase after her.
39:12I'm not going to sit up here.
39:13No, wait.
39:14No, Theresa.
39:15Don't go.
39:16We'll do it for what?
39:17I'm mad.
39:18This is upsetting to me.
39:19We're trying to get our family established.
39:21If you don't want to understand that or you don't want to work towards that, well,
39:24then just never mind.
39:25I'm sitting there trying to have an adult conversation.
39:27I'm sitting there trying to work out some things.
39:29If you want to get up and act all flustered, all extra, you just get the up and go then.
39:34Like I said, it's at a point where it's like, look, we got to get this straight.
39:39Because I don't like this disruption in my house.
39:42One thing I absolutely will not tolerate from anybody coming into this situation is the disruption of the peace in my household.
39:55Danny and I haven't really talked about what happened at that dinner with Jackie.
40:00It's a lot to deal with when you're away from what really makes you happy.
40:03Watch that one, huh?
40:04Are you mad about it?
40:05I'm a little pissed about it.
40:06It sucks.
40:09You know, maybe I could have prevented.
40:11From the ending of everything.
40:16How do I know you're not just going to run away with my husband?
40:19And how am I supposed to know that I'm not always going to be second?
40:24You put all this effort, time and energy and for it to all just kind of be flushed away is really defeating.
40:35I don't want to have that constant energy in the house of being like, oh, you know,
40:40walking on eggshells.
40:41Right, right.
40:42You know what I mean?
40:43Walking on eggshells.
40:44You know, maybe let's give her a chance and like, you know, she'll work through it.
40:50She doesn't want to do that work.
40:53We need to just let her run away.
40:55There's been some things going on in, you know, my, my house, my family.
41:06Hey, where is it then?
41:07So, Matt and I have actually been dating.
41:12You sure?
41:13You're swinging?
41:14Whoa, whoa, whoa.
41:15Listen, let her talk.
41:16Do you have a girlfriend?
41:19Help us, Jesus.
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