00:00So, this is actually one of the first of many songs that I've made without using the ukulele.
00:06For me, that just means, first of all, change, and then growth.
00:09I didn't want to be stuck making ukulele songs all the time, because I feel like after a
00:14certain point, it just gets stale, and I wanted to challenge myself, experiment, and that's
00:18like, I think, in essence, what music is all about.
00:27So, Ghost has a title.
00:28I think Ghost can represent multiple different things.
00:32I mean, the most obvious thing is getting ghosted, which is not always a bad thing.
00:35But I also think Ghost can be a person, or even a relationship, where you think that
00:41something is there between two people, but there isn't.
00:44You don't know if it exists.
00:46You don't know if ghosts exist.
00:48Ghosts are also a little bit scary.
00:59So, the hook was written as a sort of response to one of my favorite songs of last year,
01:06maybe two years ago.
01:07Bad Habit by Steve Lacey.
01:09Good song.
01:10I wish I knew you wanted me.
01:12The hook for this song is, I should have told you when I had the chance.
01:16In my head, the imagery was slow dancing with this princess, and then they dissipate and
01:31see the air.
01:32I think that's symbolic of a relationship.
01:34The relationship fades away, or maybe they fade away from your life.
01:38Maybe they ghosted you.
01:46I have not been to Aberdeen, but I have been to London.
01:49The only reason I wrote that line was because of the second line, which is,
01:53from inside a coupe and from inside a private limousine.
01:55I have not been in either, but I wanted to rhyme limousine with Aberdeen, because I like
02:00the way those syllables sound.
02:02They roll off the tongue really pleasantly.
02:03It's like, limousine, Aberdeen, Aberdeen.
02:13This is a bit more personal, actually.
02:15It's sort of my view on designer clothing, or expensive clothing in general.
02:19At least for me, there's no point in wearing stuff like that, especially if there's no
02:23one to share it with.
02:29So Saint Augustine is a saint, I think, in Christianity.
02:33He, I think, popularized or created the Latin saying, creatio ex nihilo, which means creation
02:41out of nothing.
02:42I don't want to seem too narcissistic.
02:43I feel like that's sort of how my career sort of started, sort of like out of nothing.
02:53I had a song called, Two Moons, about a dream I had where I was lost in the woods, and I
02:56feel like I'm still lost, which is okay.
02:59It's okay to be lost.
03:14When I make songs, I layer it heavily, but for this bridge, I wanted to take everything
03:26out.
03:27So it's just, I think there's synths, and then there's my vocals, and there's just one
03:31line, and it's a take I did.
03:33And I really test myself.
03:35There's some scratchiness in there, but the type of scratchiness that I really, I like,
03:39scratches my brain.
03:40It bridges the two sections together, the slow, moody one, into the high-paced, almost
03:45chase scene-like.
03:47It's bridged together by the vocals.
03:59In my head, the imagery was, okay, so this person that you adore, let's say, for example,
04:05the ghost, enter the room, and it's like, holy crap.
04:08And in my head, it's like a chase scene.
04:09It's like you're running away, and they're chasing you.
04:11It's like a ghost.
04:12Ooh.
04:28I do find it hard to sleep, but not because of ghosts.
04:30But when I was younger, I used to be terrified of ghosts and all things supernatural.
04:35Very scared of the dark.
04:36Now, those two things, I'm not really scared of ghosts, because ghosts are just us, but
04:41dead.
04:43But I still find it hard to sleep.
04:57So I have been told I can be weird and off-putting.
05:00It's unintentional.
05:01It's just who I am, and I don't want to be unintentionally creepy.
05:05One of my biggest insecurities is coming off as needy or codependent, which I'm not.
05:21The ending of the outro, the verses, I wanted to add some sort of plot twist.
05:25So it was like, this ghost that I thought was chasing me, turns out I was the ghost.
05:30Not sure what that means yet.
05:32I'm sure someone will find meaning in that.
05:33In the background vocals, in that part specifically, if you listen, you hear like, I kind of just
05:37spell it out.
05:38I say, I was the ghost.
05:40It's been me.
05:43I think she thinks I'm on the spectrum.
05:46I'm pretty sure she wants to leave, and I don't blame her.
05:48So that was actually written off of, based off of real experiences I've had.
05:52So a few months ago, I was going on some dates, and there were two people in particular that
05:57they genuinely thought I was autistic.
06:00First of all, I thought that would explain a lot.
06:01I'm not diagnosed in autism, but I do think I'm neurodivergent in a way.
06:07My partner now definitely still thinks I'm weird.
06:10Maybe not off-putting, though.
06:11On-putting.
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