00:00 It's not just going in there and making music.
00:01 That shit is like therapy.
00:02 Not just for me, but for the people who listen to my music.
00:04 I was at one of my shows and I just seen somebody holding like, it was like they phone, but
00:08 they put a note on it.
00:09 And it was like, "Yo, you helped me mentally."
00:11 That shit crazy.
00:12 It's okay to not be okay, you feel me?
00:14 I heard the original Doce sampling the song and I'm like, "This shit fire."
00:25 And she talking about anxiety and like, I go through that.
00:27 I know people that go through that in life.
00:30 My fan base, they tell me like, "Yo, you helped me with anxiety.
00:32 You helped me with this."
00:33 So I felt like I had to do that.
00:34 You going through a lot and you feel like you just can't get away from the bullshit.
00:47 Like the demons is winning.
00:48 It's over.
00:49 Almost like you about to give up.
00:51 It's like that give up feeling.
00:52 I just tell myself like, "It's okay to not be okay as long as the goal is to like, get
00:57 out that stage, get out that box, get out that space."
00:59 That's how I fight with my demons.
01:00 I'm more focused when I'm sober.
01:10 I've been chilling.
01:11 I've been doing all the shit I do without being a certain type of "Ah, can't buy love.
01:16 It don't come with a coupon and they'll never catch it like a nigga with no arms."
01:19 I don't mean literally buying love.
01:20 I mean like, it's no easy way out.
01:23 You just gotta own it.
01:24 Ain't no answers.
01:25 I had anxiety when I was younger too, but you think you got so much going on when you
01:36 a kid, you just doing mad shit.
01:38 This, that, you doing whatever you like, whatever.
01:40 When you get older, you realize, "Oh, I did certain shit."
01:43 Damn, I used to be feeling alone for what?
01:47 It was probably depressed.
01:48 Probably anxiety when you was younger.
01:50 You didn't really notice that shit because you a kid.
01:52 I could be in the studio 24 hours.
02:13 I work on one, if I don't like how that one song is coming out, but I like the song, I'm
02:17 just going to keep trying to do it.
02:18 I'll do 100 takes if I had to.
02:20 Go to sleep, wake up, do it over.
02:22 Just to finish that one song, just so it's to my liking.
02:25 Perfect.
02:26 I do that precisely.
02:27 Whatever you doing, it don't matter what you doing.
02:28 It's like you just stuck in a box.
02:36 You going, going, but you keep ending up at the same place.
02:38 That's how I felt when I first came home and I was in the studio all the time.
02:41 I made my songs and I'm like, "I don't like this shit."
02:44 Last line is like, "I'm stuck."
02:46 But the reason I'm stuck is because I'm trying to be great.
02:49 You feel me?
02:50 That's really what it is.
02:51 I'm trying not to fail to a me.
02:52 I feel like the world's sleeping on me because my fans make me feel like that.
02:59 They be like, "Nah, they sleeping on you.
03:01 Ah, that's that.
03:02 Yo, you supposed to be here.
03:03 You supposed to be."
03:04 It's like, "Yo, the time come."
03:12 I heard a Wu-Tang Clan song, "Old Dirty Bastard."
03:15 He said, "Jaku Stoke could never get this flow."
03:17 I just looked up the name and I seen who he was and I'm like, "Nah, I gotta make a ball
03:21 with his name in it."
03:22 I really don't like to talk about the way I feel, but through the music, it's like I
03:32 don't even do it on purpose.
03:33 It just happened the way I write the music.
03:35 You must be drunk if you think I won't drill 'em.
03:36 Praying but they know you sinning.
03:38 And you gotta lose a lot before the winning and most of the time I be stuck in my mind.
03:41 Big mistakes and don't really rewind, but fuck it, we get over shit over time.
03:45 It's like I had mad different opportunities.
03:47 Some ain't work out how it's supposed to.
03:48 It's like, "What I'ma do?
03:49 I'm just gonna cry over spilled milk or shit like that?"
03:51 Nah.
03:52 You just gotta keep pushing.
04:02 If they doing shit to sabotage your situation, just make sure you get back.
04:06 And I don't literally mean getting them back, doing something to them.
04:08 Getting back by elevating all the way, even though they trying to sabotage your shit.
04:11 You just going up.
04:13 Some people take they losses and they move like it's the end of the world.
04:18 Sometimes a loss ain't really a loss.
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