00:00Thank you
02:02Good morning, Ned.
02:04Hello.
02:05Unusual togs for a Sunday morning?
02:08You put me down for nine, Ned.
02:09I expect you'll enjoy that.
02:11Full of junior cogs.
02:13Gratis. And luck.
02:14Well, fuck you a back-up break.
02:16Oh, to hell with all that.
02:18We better go.
02:26Are you in there?
02:30Yes, darling.
02:36They've started breakfast.
02:38Oh, I'll just have a shower then.
02:40Couldn't you after?
02:42I pond fearfully.
02:43Well, we've a lot to do.
02:45I haven't started the casserole and I would like to tidy up.
02:48Oh, don't worry, darling.
02:50We'll cope.
02:55I thought we weren't allowed in a musical class, Fred.
02:57No, it's all right on a Sunday.
03:00You sure?
03:01So I'll see you there after your nets.
03:03There's something I particularly want you to hear.
03:05Hey, you two.
03:07Aren't you fagging Refag?
03:09Sir.
03:11Sir.
03:12Come on, then.
03:14How did this come about, anyway?
03:17It was a conspiracy.
03:19The wife of your oldest friend invited the wife of his oldest friend
03:23and her husband, the oldest friend, to lunch.
03:27Wanted to ruin your Sunday.
03:30Well, you didn't have to accept.
03:31I had no choice.
03:33That's not true.
03:34I had the choice of any one of the next eight Sundays.
03:39Well, then why didn't you choose the eighth?
03:42To avoid having this conversation then.
03:45Anyway, it'll get Jeremy someone to play with.
03:48Won't it, darling?
03:49I hate them.
03:53Well, then at least you shouldn't be too bored.
03:57Well, we've got a jolly nice day in store for you chaps, haven't we, Mummy?
04:01A jolly nice day?
04:03Well, we're all going to be particularly nice to Jeremy.
04:06Until he's used to us.
04:07He'll be the odd one out.
04:08Don't like Jeremy.
04:11Well, you've forgotten him.
04:12It's been such a long time.
04:13But I remember I don't like him.
04:16Nor do I.
04:19Then let's begin by pretending to like him
04:22and if we practice hard we'll end up by doing it.
04:33After that, all of that, all of the girls are stuck in the night.
04:35And then they'll be too much better.
04:35moles of the ladies are stuck in the morning.
04:37I'm going to 25 to 36 days.
04:40And then one of the girls are out.
04:40I have no idea.
04:40Right, but then we need to have a young woman,
04:49I'm going to go.
04:49Oh, you'll go.
04:51You can hang out.
04:52I'm going to go.
04:53I'm going to go.
04:58it's to be bed
05:01I know
05:21sorry
05:23I got it in specially then forgot where I put it
05:34you better look after yourself
05:38oh it's very sweet of you
06:03what are you drinking?
06:07ribena actually
06:10I seem to have acquired an addiction to it
06:12because of the children
06:28well
06:30oh
06:34there's something I wanted you to hear
06:41might amuse you
06:49one of my six formers did it
07:33one of my six formers
07:36It's jolly bloody good.
07:38Yes.
07:41Well, I liked it.
07:43Did it make you laugh?
07:45Laugh?
07:46It's very and fantastically witty.
07:50You didn't laugh.
07:51I know all the jokes.
07:53And what did you put it on for?
07:55Your entertainment, of course.
07:57And I wanted to concentrate on the grief for once.
08:17Oh!
08:19Oh!
08:19Oh, my God.
08:54I'm not quite sure whether this is part of it.
08:59The silence, I mean.
09:01It goes on for 20 minutes.
09:11May we not acknowledge it rather than listen to it,
09:14or whatever it is one does to silence?
09:20Yes.
09:22Yes, perhaps one had better.
09:28Well, I just wanted you to get a sense of its effect.
09:36Once or twice, I fancied I heard something behind the silence.
09:44But it's never the same, so I suppose it's just imagination.
09:56Perhaps that's what he intends.
10:01Well.
10:04A sixth form, then, did you say?
10:07Yes, but quite young.
10:09Just 16.
10:11A precocious lad.
10:13I have hopes he'll pull off an Oxford place at the very least.
10:17He's utterly individual.
10:22I think I told you last time we had quite a business coming to a policy on hairstyles.
10:27Oh, yeah.
10:29And decided on a completely liberal view.
10:32Well, you can imagine what we got.
10:34Hair to the shoulders.
10:35Afro styles.
10:36The lot.
10:36Except from young Ted Hurst.
10:39Young Ted Hurst went bald.
10:42Really?
10:43Disease or design?
10:46Oh, design.
10:48I'm sure.
10:51Now this.
10:53For his creative arts project.
10:57Most of the boys wrote stories, or painted, or built things, you know.
11:06But young Ted Hurst.
11:10What will you say to him?
11:12Well, the truth, of course.
11:14That I think it's very, very interesting.
11:17Well, that should do the trick.
11:20How do you mean?
11:20Well, that a bald, 16-year-old, futuristic musician
11:25is entitled to exactly the same attention as any other boy.
11:31Well, of course he is.
11:34Oh, yes.
11:38Anyway, you're obviously still enjoying school, then.
11:42Oh, yes.
11:47Last year, they tried to promote me into more admin and less teaching,
11:50but I wasn't having it.
11:52Those that can't,
11:54aren't going to have that taken away from them.
12:00By the way, did I mention I, uh,
12:02I've taken over junior colts?
12:05Soccer and cricket.
12:06Really?
12:08I thought that would surprise you.
12:10For the exercise?
12:12Partly, yeah.
12:14Of course, I have to take further exercise to keep up with it.
12:18I run every morning before breakfast.
12:21For ice.
12:22I'm up to four miles.
12:23For ice.
12:23I feel quite marvellous, Lloyd.
12:30How about you?
12:32Oh.
12:33I'm not fit enough to take exercise.
12:38But you're all right.
12:40Oh, yes.
12:40Yes, thanks.
12:42Well, you know.
12:47And publishing?
12:50Anything changed?
12:52Last time you sounded a bit depressed.
12:55Well, then nothing can have changed.
12:58I'm still editing the waste products of immigrant intellectuals.
13:02We've, uh...
13:04We've just started on a new paperback series.
13:07Mind formers of our time.
13:10Monographs on people like Marcuse.
13:13Generally written by people on whom we can do monographs in a few years' time.
13:21But you were very excited over a novel you'd received.
13:26A quite unexpected first novel, I think it was.
13:31Was I?
13:33Oh, yes.
13:35Yes, that got a few nice reviews.
13:37Nothing special happened.
13:38I suppose one or two people bought it.
13:42But you're still doing novels, aren't you?
13:44No, no.
13:45We have to keep up a list for appearances' sake.
13:48What with rising costs and declining literacy.
13:52Still, it's good that you are.
13:53Mm.
13:54For whatever reason.
13:58How about your own?
14:00You had one on the way, didn't you?
14:03No.
14:04Or rather, yes, but no.
14:06Not any longer.
14:07Don't say you've given it up.
14:10Well, I've already done my bit as publisher
14:12to add to the world's stock of unread books.
14:15I have no right to add to it as an author.
14:18Besides, it wasn't any good.
14:20How do you know?
14:23I assessed it in my second capacity.
14:25I decided it was probably worth more than a straight rejection,
14:28but that I wouldn't have recommended it for publication.
14:32In fact,
14:33I'd have probably taken the author out to lunch
14:35and gently discouraged him.
14:39Which is precisely what I did do.
14:42It was a bloody good lunch, too.
14:44Oysters, guineas, strawberries.
14:47Thus proving that I may be a poor novelist,
14:49but I'm a decent enough editor.
14:57It must have been well painful for you.
15:02That was a relief, actually.
15:05I haven't the stamina to smoke, drink, and write in the evening.
15:10Perhaps it would be worth giving up for something really important.
15:12Well, that's what I did.
15:20Under the circumstances, I...
15:24Hmm?
15:26Oh.
15:27Just something rather ironic.
15:32But it can wait.
15:36Well...
15:39The thing is...
15:46Mysteriously, Mozart from the other side of the door,
15:50while from the other side of the window,
15:53something fashionably atonal.
15:56Berg?
15:58Sir.
16:00Sir.
16:00When it should really be neither,
16:01as you're both down to fag for the seniors of Refeg.
16:05Didn't you hear the Refeg bells?
16:07Between the bag and the motor.
16:10Sir, we were just going, sir.
16:12Good.
16:12By the way,
16:14isn't there some petty fogging regulation about the musical?
16:17Is one allowed to use it before six o'clock prep?
16:22We thought on Sundays, sir.
16:25What are you two chaps up to?
16:28Lunch is ready.
16:29At least, the children have all washed their hands,
16:31and Hillary's arranging them around the table,
16:33on which I'm about to plunk the casserole.
16:35So, if you're going to get up some of our brew, darling,
16:38you'd better nip about it sharpish.
16:40Do you like homemade beer?
16:43I've been following that chap in the Guardian.
16:45Sometimes it turns out all right.
16:46Actually, it's jolly delicious.
16:50As a matter of fact,
16:52I've got a small contribution.
16:58Can I have some more bread?
16:59It's okay.
17:20Oh, yes.
17:22Thanks, sir.
17:24Good.
17:26All right, thank you.
17:27All right.
17:28I've told you before, we'll try you with something else.
17:33Wait, so does Jeremy eat her machines?
17:35Well, it's worth trying.
17:37Oh, doesn't Lindy manage her thought well?
17:41Hit this one!
17:52Ben?
17:54Mind the flowers?
18:02Stay with yourself.
18:08Some verse?
18:11Sir.
18:12Why, here?
18:13Well, supporting hers too, sir.
18:15It's the House Shield semi-finals.
18:18Oh, well, that's very keen of you.
18:23Stay with yourself.
18:25Let's hear a might of applause, then.
18:27He hasn't done anything to applaud yet.
18:29He's behind.
18:30Four love.
18:32Tell you.
18:33Five love.
18:35Then you must applaud his opponent.
18:37That's the done thing, isn't it?
18:39Sir.
18:39Well, kindly do it.
18:46...
18:47...
18:50...
18:54Kicked again.
18:55Three goals.
18:56Kicked again.
18:57Oh, Ben, get it.
18:58Two goals.
18:59Come on.
19:00Two goals.
19:01Very good.
19:01Two goals.
19:02Dan, very good.
19:03Might show Willie.
19:04Three goals.
19:06Ben, get it.
19:06But I'm not.
19:07Right.
19:09Oh.
19:11Thanks, Jeremy.
19:11It's a little embarrassing for Jeremy, his father not playing.
19:15Come on, Lee.
19:17What would be embarrassing for him if I did?
19:19Oh, thank you.
19:19Besides, he hates football, too.
19:22The lease is joining in.
19:24Kick it to Jeremy.
19:25Oh, hard cheese, Jeremy.
19:26There you go.
19:27Poor little sod had no option.
19:30You presented only pretty spectacle, I must say.
19:34I say, would you mind?
19:35Hang on.
19:36There you lot.
19:37Why?
19:39Oh, well done, Lindy.
19:43Let's do something.
19:45Marvellous, darling.
19:47Yes.
19:49Brilliant.
19:50Isn't she a clever girl?
19:56Daddy.
19:57Daddy.
19:58Daddy, Mindy's done a lovely little jobs for Peter right into her potty.
20:03Oh.
20:06Oh, what a clever girlie, hey?
20:12What do they do when she does lovely big jobs?
20:18Oh.
20:20Oh.
20:22Oh.
20:25Oh.
20:26You look a bit done in, but a chap is up to four miles in the junior coats.
20:31Oh.
20:32It's the heat.
20:50Hard luck.
20:51I pong.
20:59I don't know how you can sit there.
21:01Why not?
21:02Because I pong.
21:04That's because you've been running about, losing.
21:20I wouldn't have if you hadn't been there.
21:23What about?
21:25Not. You put me off.
21:28But it doesn't matter you losing. Master told me so.
21:47Uh...
21:49I'm sorry.
21:57I don't have to.
22:05I mean, you need to know.
22:06sorry. what? what for? oh all this. family casseroles. soccer on the lawn.
22:15homemade beer. you must hate it. of course I don't.
22:20it's the only way Alison knows of doing things. why that's a splendid way.
22:25side I didn't drink the beer or play soccer and the casserole was delicious
22:31and so was the homemade bread. the beer's not really at all bad.
22:40look why don't we meet in town for lunch sometime next week? we always decide to
22:48do that. nothing could be easier to arrange. fine. well I'll give you a ring just as
22:57soon as I've checked on my office diary. right.
23:08one gets such odd fragments of information doesn't one? from each other.
23:16usually not the sequels. yes it's very tantalizing.
23:27I mean I take it everything's all right between you and that girl. girl? the one you
23:36were having an affair with. oh yes.
23:41which one was that? the Australian. oh yes. long gone. all the way back to Australia thank
23:52God.
23:53that was a long time ago.
23:58you were worried that Hillary might find out. you thought she might make trouble.
24:04Hillary? no the Australian.
24:09oh yes that's right. she did go through a period of antipodeum bluster and she wanted to liben me up
24:17a bit. she found me rather boring when you came to it.
24:21she had some idea that adultery should be well more spectacular especially in the literary world.
24:30not least a few
24:36anyway.
24:39Hillary never did find out. oh christmas.
24:43she wouldn't have done anything under her. she was all right. she was quite nice actually.
24:48her book's done quite well too. i mean considering it came at the tail end of all that business.
24:54have you read it?
24:58well in the afterward.
24:59which she'd stuck in afterwards so to speak.
25:03there's an account of an affair she had with a married chap.
25:07who used to bring a spare pair of knickers to her flat in his briefcase.
25:12that was me.
25:15Hillary thought it was funny.
25:18but it was you.
25:21no.
25:22no.
25:23just the description.
25:25she read it out to me all bits of it.
25:28no of course i'm ashamed of the least idea.
25:32good god.
25:35what did you do?
25:37well i laughed too.
25:39it struck me as really quite exceptional.
25:41to lie in bed with one's wife.
25:44innocently reading out an account of one's adultery.
25:49yes.
25:50i can see.
25:58anyway.
26:01that's all over hmm?
26:03oh yes yes.
26:07i remember you're saying that if you got out of that one intact
26:11you'd make sure there'd never be another.
26:16did i say that?
26:17don't you remember?
26:20there've been so many since.
26:24do you mean now?
26:26no not really no.
26:29well there's one of the editor's secretaries.
26:32she's worse than me.
26:34she carries a supply of vd pills in her bag.
26:37makes me take them.
26:40highly organized.
26:42oddly enough i hear she's not a very good secretary.
26:50where'd you do it?
26:51hmm?
26:52no i'm just curious.
26:53no no that's all right.
26:55in the office at lunchtime or after hours when she hasn't got to go on anywhere more interesting or i
27:00don't have to get home for anything.
27:01isn't it risky?
27:03no not really.
27:05i lock the door and leave the key in.
27:07surely people suspect.
27:10well i imagine they are.
27:11usual jokes.
27:13as long as they don't reach hillary.
27:17you know the most depressing the most depressing thing is that i used to feel a certain amount of post
27:25-coital tristesse.
27:27well guilt.
27:29but these days i can scarcely be bothered to feel shifty when i get home.
27:35extra marital sex is overrated as pre-marital sex.
27:40or marital sex come to think of.
27:44why do you have it?
27:46i don't know.
27:49still quite fun the first time.
27:53something to go on and on.
27:54why do you?
27:57from politeness.
27:58i mean one just can't have it off and tip one's hat.
28:05but you still love hillary don't you?
28:07what?
28:07hillary.
28:08what?
28:11love hillary.
28:15christ of course i do.
28:18there's not a day at the office when the telephone rings.
28:21i mean not a day when at least once.
28:23i don't have a spasm of terror and think
28:27oh not this time.
28:29please let nothing have happened to her this time.
28:32or jeremy.
28:35you know i'm...
28:36well i'm frightened for them.
28:40i want to die before they do.
28:43at least i shan't spend my last years thinking...
28:48first me.
28:50then hillary.
28:52then after a long intermission jeremy.
28:56well that seems only fair.
29:00well except that i know that life doesn't work on fair principles which are anyway formulated by types like me
29:05and greenwich.
29:10well who knows?
29:14well who knows what?
29:16i'm...
29:20i'm frightened for her.
29:22i know she is.
29:24for me.
29:30well christ.
29:31that's a marriage.
29:36bloody hell.
29:37of course i love her.
29:38what do you mean?
29:53um...
29:54the thing is...
29:55hmm?
30:00the irony is...
30:12look.
30:23about me.
30:25that's right.
30:26didn't you recognise yourself?
30:28i thought you would as it's so complimentary.
30:31well i can't.
30:32i've only read it once.
30:33it's difficult for you standing there.
30:36well you... i mean you just stick it in my hand.
30:38i'm putting you off again am i?
30:40you can't win at games when i'm watching.
30:42you can't read when i'm watching.
30:44why don't you stop watching then?
30:47you like being watched.
30:49rubbish.
30:50what bloody rubbish.
30:54it's a lousy poem.
30:56it's just bloody rubbish.
30:57i'm glad i showed it to you.
31:00i was sure i'd get an intelligent assessment.
31:03they're right about you.
31:04what they say.
31:05you're just a pseudo really.
31:07looping about listening to music
31:09and scribbling poems not doing anything at all.
31:13the irony is that i thought you might have a touch of intelligence.
31:17the irony is that you're an extremely stupid sort of little person.
31:21the irony is that i've been wasting my time on you.
31:24then why don't you leave me alone?
31:26yes why don't i?
31:28i didn't intend it to.
31:30come out as a full length novel i had no idea.
31:34well these things happen.
31:36even now i can scarcely believe i've finished it.
31:39or whether what i've finished is something there.
31:43you know created.
31:45or therapy.
31:47or therapy.
31:47i expect you'll be able to tell me.
31:49no punches pulled.
31:52what i do know is that it
31:55in a sense
31:56saved my life.
32:01that's certainly to its credit.
32:06has anyone else read it?
32:09no.
32:10what does allison feel about it?
32:13actually she hasn't read it either.
32:17in fact i'd better warn you
32:20she doesn't even know i've written it.
32:22oh she knows i've been working on something of course.
32:25but i'd rather let her go on thinking.
32:28it's one of those Moliere translations you know.
32:31the ones i started after we came down.
32:36actually i'd rather she didn't know.
32:38well at least just yet.
32:41you'll be able to help me there too.
32:44you see.
32:47it's about us.
32:50us?
32:51well.
32:54our marriage.
32:58it's not of course.
33:00but there are certain.
33:01well.
33:05i'd rather allison didn't know that it was
33:08about us is perhaps the best way of putting it.
33:13there are inevitable similarities of course
33:15between myself and the central chap.
33:19there's a chap in a little like you too.
33:22only superficially.
33:26for one thing
33:27he commits suicide.
33:29oh.
33:30well at least he's a little unlike me.
33:33if only superficially.
33:35no no i meant the other chap.
33:37oh you mean the chap a little like you.
33:40hmm.
33:43well can you tell me why?
33:45or would it ruin the suspense?
33:48no.
33:48no no.
33:50as he commits suicide on the first page and the last.
33:53he does it twice.
33:57no.
33:59it's the same suicide.
34:03structure is complex.
34:06circular.
34:08but i hope organic.
34:13he commits suicide because he's unhappy.
34:16really.
34:16that's what it comes down to.
34:19in his work and in his well.
34:23marriage.
34:26that's the part of it that allison might not understand.
34:29the difference between autobiography and fiction.
34:33hmm.
34:34it's frequently muddling.
34:36not to you.
34:38you'll know at once.
34:40his attitude to his children for example.
34:42his wife's pregnancy.
34:44various things that he does and feels at work.
34:48what work does he do?
34:50the teacher.
34:51public school teacher.
34:52not very imaginative that i know.
34:54but in his real self he's so different from myself.
34:58anyway your real self.
35:00exactly.
35:01yes.
35:06there is one thing.
35:09one section that i'd like to clarify.
35:13where something is said.
35:14explicitly said.
35:16about his feeling.
35:18for one of the boys.
35:22his sense of.
35:26the way the word.
35:28desire is used.
35:32that is.
35:35well.
35:39you'll understand.
35:42you'll understand.
35:44about that.
35:47and about friendship.
35:51there's a passage.
35:52a meditation.
35:56he thinks about his most important relationships and.
36:01well the tone of the passage is when it's intended to be.
36:05acerbic.
36:08well don't worry.
36:10i'll read it.
36:11as a novel.
36:13i know.
36:15but i can't help feeling a little treacherous.
36:20in the sense that you.
36:23meant years ago.
36:25when you first started being.
36:28unfaithful.
36:31you said that for you.
36:34the real treachery wasn't.
36:37what you did with another woman.
36:38but what you said to her.
36:40about your wife.
36:42did i say that?
36:46anyway.
36:48that's the sense in which i feel treacherous.
36:52towards alison.
36:56as if somehow i'd betrayed a deep confidence.
37:00well on that analogy you haven't.
37:02yet.
37:04well not until i've read it.
37:05or somebody else has.
37:08don't you think you ought to reconsider letting me see it.
37:12no no you must read it.
37:13yes but only if you're sure.
37:18the real treachery.
37:20is in finding it out.
37:23i can't go back on that.
37:27the truth is that it's all there.
37:31it's no use my fooling myself or trying to fool you of all people.
37:37you'll know.
37:41it's all there.
37:44well it usually is.
37:47how do you mean?
37:49in a first novel.
37:54if it hadn't been for you i wouldn't have written it.
38:00you're the one to whom i have.
38:02always privately addressed.
38:05my most private feelings.
38:14some friendships.
38:16endure as what they were.
38:19even though they are.
38:23no longer.
38:27what they were.
38:34isn't that true?
38:39isn't it the same for you?
38:44i'm sorry.
38:53well liking me so much.
38:57because you've stopped liking me.
38:59no.
39:01well it's not that.
39:05it's.
39:06you don't like me anymore.
39:07yes yes i do.
39:11how do you know i like you?
39:17well.
39:18if you don't come eat.
39:20why don't you go?
39:24what will you do?
39:27stay here.
39:28what for?
39:37well.
39:38for how long?
39:39until i get up.
39:51the effect belt's gone.
39:54we're still on fag.
39:57come on.
39:58we better get.
40:01we're still on fag.
40:04we're still on fag.
40:06well i'm jolly bald.
40:10you're very stupid.
40:12i'm jolly bald.
40:26i'm jolly bald.
40:27i'm jolly bald.
40:34i'm jolly bald.
40:36i'm jolly bald.
40:37oh yes.
40:40well.
40:44we were just beginning to talk.
40:47naturally.
40:49well it's a long drive
40:50and jeremy gets very tired.
41:35Don't turn off. Leave the taps alone.
41:42I'll give you a ring.
41:44Ah, there they are.
41:49I'll give you a ring.
41:52At the school.
41:54Right.
41:56I was going to fix up something with Hillary.
41:59Tell her I'll give her a ring.
42:01Right.
42:03And, uh, thanks for a lovely thing.
42:05No. No, it was, uh, it was lovely.
42:08Yes.
42:10Well.
42:15He's certainly putting it on, isn't he?
42:22What?
42:23Oh, surely you noticed.
42:25His face has gone quite...
42:38Christ.
42:39I nearly forgot.
42:41I thought I had it in my hand, and I put it in.
42:46I thought I had something.
42:48No, I've...
42:49I've got it, thanks.
42:51Bye.
42:53Bye.
42:55What was it?
42:57Oh, oh, just...
42:58Some cigarettes or something.
43:01Can you check in the bathroom?
43:02I'm doing Ophelia.
43:03They're supposed to be washing their hands,
43:05but they're mucking about with the taps.
43:11All over the school.
43:13Mr. Jameson finds you in the music room,
43:16when you should be fagging, after effect.
43:19Monsieur Foussey wonders why you
43:22always sit in the back of the class,
43:24whispering passionately,
43:27over Baudelaire, he thinks,
43:30when you ought to be translating
43:31le malade imaginaire.
43:34Now Mr. Jameson stumbles across you in change,
43:38when you should be fagging at effect.
43:41Hmm?
43:42Sir.
43:42Sir.
43:46How's your chest?
43:47Still got asthma a little bit, sir.
43:49Oh.
43:50Still...
43:50Still chitted for all games, are you?
43:52Sir.
43:53Hmm.
43:55How did the shield match go?
43:58Oh.
43:58Oh, all right, sir.
44:00You won, then?
44:02No, sir.
44:03Oh, really?
44:04Hmm.
44:06What they call in sporting circles
44:07a bit of an upset, eh?
44:10Not really, sir.
44:12Hmm.
44:13I mean, I didn't mind too much.
44:14Hmm.
44:16Well, I've really got nothing more to say than this.
44:19If you are going to be caught in the wrong places,
44:21at the wrong times,
44:23could you contrive to do so separately?
44:26Sir.
44:26Sir.
44:28But it's all right to be in the music room together at the right time,
44:31and other places at the right time.
44:38There are no school regulations against boys being friends.
44:42And, er, as you're in the same house and the same form,
44:45there isn't even a convention to hold you back.
44:49Look, I think I'd...
44:51Better have a word with each of you in private, if I may.
44:54Er, why don't you run on to Matron,
44:56get your next week's chip, and then come back.
44:58Sir.
45:08You are friends, are you?
45:11Sir.
45:13What sort of friends are you?
45:17Might like it.
45:18Yes.
45:20Better be able to know.
45:22To who?
45:23To me, of course.
45:25He had his purple passage at school.
45:28He doesn't deserve another go.
45:31Now, I've settled him down as a successful failure.
45:35Well, then, let's hope it's terrible.
45:38And you can still make appropriate noises.
45:41What are the appropriate noises for not wanting to publish it?
45:44Oh, is that what he's after?
45:48You poor old son.
45:49I don't know.
45:51After all, be a reason for choosing him among so many.
45:56You see, your interests are so very different.
46:00Also, it seems to an uninvolved eye, aren't they?
46:03Sir.
46:05I mean no reflection on your academic standing.
46:09You work as hard as can be expected.
46:12For someone who has so many obligations in the Fives Courts,
46:16cricket field,
46:17I gather you've developed an off-spin of some consequence.
46:22So, I'm fairly confident that your general all-roundedness
46:27will stand you in some stead
46:29when you come to think between Oxford and Cambridge.
46:32All I mean is,
46:33I shouldn't have thought it was in the general run of your pursuits
46:37to listen to Berg
46:40or even Mozart
46:42when you should be fagging and refit.
46:45No, sir.
46:49I'm not suggesting that you
46:52give him up
46:53or anything extreme.
46:56Just that you should reflect that
47:00too much,
47:00too intense friendship
47:03can lead to too many complications
47:06for a chap who wants an uncluttered life.
47:10that I have a perfect right to be pregnant.
47:12Well, of course you have.
47:14She patronises me.
47:15I don't think she means to.
47:17What, because she can't help it?
47:18Or because I make it unavoidable?
47:20I can't find any with special caps on.
47:23Oh, there's a blue tin.
47:25How are you doing, darling?
47:26Good girlie.
47:28That boy of theirs is a sly little brute.
47:32Really?
47:33In what way?
47:34Oh, he's a mixer.
47:35Likes to stir things up.
47:37Quite unnatural sophistication.
47:39Piggy little eyes.
47:40Darling, he's only six.
47:43If he doesn't look out,
47:44he's going to have a heart attack.
47:47At six?
47:47Oh, you know perfectly well.
47:50He boozed all through the day.
47:53Oh, good girl.
47:56Look, Daddy, a wee-wee for you.
48:01Oh, there we are, sweetheart.
48:05Can you honestly say
48:06you've still got anything in common?
48:12What do you think this is all about?
48:16I don't know, sir.
48:19Well,
48:20I'm asking you
48:22to be careful.
48:23That's all.
48:24Sir?
48:27What of, sir?
48:31Of yourself
48:32and, um,
48:34and of your feelings.
48:36It's hard for you, I know,
48:38in that your health excludes you
48:39from a great deal of companionship.
48:42Although I suspect
48:43you don't very much regret that.
48:46You're very highly thought of,
48:47you know, by most of us.
48:49Even if we do find you
48:51a little frightening.
48:53Look, I, for one,
48:55I wouldn't dream of dictating
48:57the proper lines of friendship.
48:59There aren't any.
49:00But
49:01do remember, won't you,
49:02that your
49:04capacity for,
49:05um,
49:08affection
49:10deserves, um,
49:12various,
49:13um,
49:16expressions.
49:20Look, I, I, I'm not saying anything at all.
49:23It's sheer nonsense.
49:26You must find your own way.
49:29No one wishes you any harm.
49:31Please believe that.
49:32Do you?
51:11Oh, Christ.
52:18I won't be long.
52:20Jeremy's sound asleep.
52:22He's exhausted, poor child.
52:24He's not a peep out of him.
52:26Well, I won't be long.
52:30What's it like?
52:33It's bloody handwritten.
52:35That's what it's like.
52:38Another drink?
52:40You're smoking too much.
52:43Ah.
52:44That explains it.
52:46What?
52:48I've got 250 pages of handwritten novel to get through.
52:52Not tonight, I hope.
52:54Some of it tonight.
52:56Why?
52:57If you're tired.
53:17Well, I didn't ask to spend the day with your old school friend and his dull wife.
53:22And I didn't fill you full of wine all day to help you get through it.
53:26And I'm not pouring scotch down your throat to help you get over it.
53:29I know what's the matter with you.
53:32I've had enough of everything today, including you.
53:37Have you?
53:45What?
53:46Shh!
53:48Would you kindly remember that Jeremy is asleep?
53:54But you are, I can tell.
53:57No.
53:58Contemplative.
53:59Then what are you contemplating?
54:03I'm not sure.
54:05I don't think I'd fixed on a subject.
54:09I wasn't getting at him, you know.
54:13Yes, I was.
54:16I've never minded you're not liking him.
54:19You must.
54:21As long as you go on liking him.
54:25Oh, I don't know.
54:27Old friends are rather like old habits.
54:30There comes a point when it doesn't matter anymore whether you like them.
54:36They're what you've got.
54:38Is the same true families?
54:42Well, I don't keep adding to my circle of friends.
54:46But with my family, on the other hand.
54:49I love you.
54:57I can only stay for a little bit.
55:02I can't stay for a little bit.
55:03I can't stay long either.
55:08I can't stand there.
55:16I can't stay for a little bit.
55:22I'm not sure I can't stay for none.
55:25I can't stay for a little bit.
55:28I am happy to sit at my table.
55:29I'm not sure I'll be right away.
55:30How are you?
55:32I'm not sure I'll be right away from you.
55:33I can't stand there.
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