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Temptation Island - Season 4 - Episode 06: Cheers to New Beginnings EngSub
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00:02Previously on Temptation Island.
00:05I want you in my bed.
00:07All right, let's go.
00:10Julian, what the f***?
00:12I don't think I can continue to be with her because I just don't think it's healthy.
00:16Since I started dating Ash, I have slept with other people.
00:21And I've literally lied about it already.
00:24I am only romantically interested in Trace.
00:28No one else approached me.
00:29I'm only going to talk to Trace now.
01:09You don't know why, but you're thinking of me.
01:25That was a lot.
01:27Well, shit.
01:28That was a lot.
01:29I wish the best for her in life.
01:31I know I'm not, like, crying or anything.
01:34Processing, man.
01:35It takes time to process this.
01:37That's what Anya just had, dude.
01:39Yeah, you were crying at the bonfire, and I was like, oh, yeah, no problem.
01:42I go, yeah, yeah, I figured this out.
01:44F***, I...
01:52This bullshit is getting to me.
01:56It hurts a lot.
01:59A hell of a lot.
02:01Ladies.
02:02Hi.
02:03Hi.
02:04Hello.
02:05Hi.
02:06How was it?
02:07Tell us.
02:07Tell us.
02:08Tell us it all.
02:09A lot of shit happened.
02:10Okay.
02:11I can't wait to hear.
02:12Hi.
02:14Let it out, baby.
02:14Let it out.
02:15So the first clip, Jillian and What's-His-Name dancing at a party, and she pulled him in,
02:22and they started making out.
02:23And then it went to another clip.
02:26He was in her bed, and he had his shoes in his boxers, and they were making out.
02:31And it just feels like it's another layer of her not telling me the complete truth.
02:36I feel betrayed at the way she has behaved.
02:38You know, I thought we were coming to this island for a certain reason, and it just feels
02:42like it's a completely different reason.
02:44And I feel so manipulated.
02:47I'm done.
02:53I don't want it anymore.
03:01Ponyia and Edgar are really upset.
03:03This is the moment that, like, it really gets real.
03:06Like, this is what they need us for.
03:07It's not all fun and games while we're here.
03:10Yeah, you left me blinded.
03:13I've seen signs I missed, and now I'm fine.
03:16That underneath your kiss was a world full of lines of poison.
03:21I can't ignore them.
03:25The thing that was a-shaking.
03:29The crime is gone from underneath.
03:31Hello.
03:33Hello, everyone.
03:35Hi guys.
03:36Oh, we smiling.
03:38Hey.
03:38Smiley-dimey.
03:40Hello.
03:40Can you come sit?
03:41Yeah, I'll come sit.
03:42Hello.
03:43How are you?
03:45Hi guys.
03:46You good?
03:47Mm-hmm.
03:48I always like that.
03:50Okay, we happy.
03:52How's it going?
03:53Everything's good.
03:54He was crying to a girl in that, and, like, he never cries.
03:59He was just, like, literally looking at the camera,
04:01being like, Jillian, what the ?
04:04And he said that this isn't not what he wants anymore,
04:07and he doesn't really want this relationship anymore, so.
04:10Oh.
04:11I see you.
04:14You okay?
04:17He admitted that he slept with other people.
04:20Like sex?
04:21Mm-hmm.
04:22I gave so much of my own happiness trying to help him find his.
04:29It's really good to finally know the truth.
04:34It's like I received this golden key to freedom.
04:40I'm done.
04:49I was like holding my shit together in the bonfire, you know?
04:55And I had to watch her sleep with him, you know?
05:02Yeah, I knew after the first bonfire that I didn't want an open relationship.
05:09And I was like, okay, I get it now.
05:13Thanks.
05:13Mm-hmm.
05:14You don't have to do any more of that.
05:16But she doesn't know that.
05:17What?
05:18We don't have to talk about it, but...
05:20No, I'm listening.
05:21I'm listening.
05:22I mean, I need help, you know?
05:23I don't know how to deal with this.
05:25What about the times that you did that?
05:32It sucks to see Ash connecting physically with somebody else.
05:35I mean, I would be a hypocrite to say that she can't do that because I have done that.
05:42I have cheated on her.
05:45Going through this experience of like feeling those emotions on the other side and like what it means to have
05:52those types of relationships.
05:53I hope this just leaves a lasting impression so you make different decisions.
06:12Do you believe it's a break or do you believe it's a breakup?
06:20I don't know.
06:21I think it's a break, maybe.
06:23It's a breakup and that's devastating.
06:26Like, I can't think about a breakup.
06:29LaSalle's transformed into this different guy I never knew even existed in him.
06:36Part of me just wants to like, just shake him up and like put some sense into him.
06:44Because this whole time he wasn't thinking about me or thinking about us.
06:51You might want a break.
06:54And he might still be saying what you want to hear, but deep down he actually might want to break
07:00up.
07:01And if that is the case, start preparing yourself mentally for that process.
07:14Oh, it's time to jump, the tides are red.
07:18So let me see, but let me swear the more the tides are red.
07:24My heart is saying that I really want to work things up themselves.
07:36But my mind is saying to just walk away.
07:51I really want to make a book.
07:54I really want to make a book.
08:15I'm really excited about this day today because I love being in the garden.
08:20I love that connection to the earth.
08:26You gonna eat with me?
08:27No, I'm not eating that.
08:29I'll circulify it like that.
08:32Okay, we're good.
08:34Wow.
08:36Look at that.
08:40This is silly, but I'm really grateful we're here.
08:43Yeah, me too.
08:44It's a really nice just like change of pace.
08:46Mm-hmm.
08:48At first, I did feel like I had a lot of feelings.
08:53I mean, I do have feelings for you.
08:54Mm-hmm.
08:55But I think I felt them very intensely all at once at the beginning.
08:59And I do think it was me kind of like jumping into things,
09:04maybe like way too fast without actually considering like fully getting to know you.
09:09I felt the same way in the beginning.
09:12And it's just like you got to take a step back.
09:14I have to realize like why you're here and why I'm here.
09:18There's times where I'm like head over heels for him.
09:21And then there's times where I think I just get kind of scared of how fast things are moving.
09:28Thanks for being the best friend that I've had.
09:32Thanks for being my best friend I've ever had.
09:40I feel like I'm comfortable with where we're at and I don't know if I really want to like move
09:45on from where we're at.
09:47Like I think I'm good here and like I'm comfortable kissing you and, you know, having fun in the house
09:53and stuff.
09:54But I'm looking for something that's more than like just like fun.
10:01You think you're ready for that right now, right after what's going on and being here and coming here with
10:07somebody to be with somebody else?
10:09I don't know.
10:11Yeah. No, because you're saying that's what you're looking for, right?
10:15To no fault of Jillian's, I think there are expectations going on.
10:19But at the end of the day, I hope Jillian finds her independence and find out what she really wants
10:23in life without somebody else being around to guide her there.
10:26Like having our conversations and the things we've talked about, I don't think you've ever really experienced just being alone.
10:33I still enjoy being around you.
10:35But if you've never been alone and might not know how to be alone, that scares me.
10:44You know?
10:57This is like the perfect thing right now too.
11:00This is nice. I haven't been able to express my artistic abilities in quite a while.
11:07Yeah, me neither.
11:08Two perfectionists going at it.
11:10Oh, yeah.
11:11I'm really happy Megan got saved because I'm really having a great time.
11:16I know we have a lot in common from what I've learned from her at the house and I'm just
11:20trying to explore that a little bit more.
11:22Are you a good stroker, Luke?
11:24I love stroking.
11:25Great.
11:26Does some short strokes.
11:36I'm really starting to feel the independency.
11:38Yeah.
11:39And it feels great.
11:40Yeah.
11:40I've always been kind of codependent on boyfriends my whole life.
11:44Right.
11:45I felt like I tried so hard to impress my parents all the time and they didn't really think I
11:52was good enough.
11:52Right.
11:53And then I always leaned on boyfriends to tell me that I was great.
11:56Right.
11:56Or I was amazing or to text me good morning, call me beautiful, just because I wasn't feeling that from
12:02my own family.
12:03I can tell your strength that you have, you know, and it's nice to see that you're, like, recognizing that
12:09strength and you're opening up.
12:10That's awesome, though.
12:12That's awesome.
12:12Of course.
12:21With Taylor, I'm just trying to live in the moment and not exist in expectation or what will happen.
12:28So I'm open to growing with him and being with him and figuring out what this means for us.
12:36I like you.
12:38And you are patient and you're sweet.
12:43Just listening to you talk and your ability to be vulnerable and give me these really sensitive parts of yourself.
12:52I'm glad you're still here.
12:54I'm glad you revived me.
12:56Shh.
12:58I wouldn't want to be on this island without you.
13:26So how are you feeling about what you saw last night?
13:29I'm feeling a lot of pain, but I'm also, like, I'm also feeling a lot of love and compassion.
13:35After thinking about it last night and this morning, it's just, like, it's coming together for me that Ash is
13:41the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with.
13:43And I need to make sure that that's not a knee-jerk reaction.
13:46And I trust Karina to keep me solid and keep me grounded.
13:49I don't know how to describe this.
13:52You know, I've never, like, come out and say, like, I want to marry somebody, let alone know who that
13:59is.
14:00And now I know who that is.
14:03And that's what I want.
14:07I think in whatever way you can, when you do have that final conversation with her, you're expressing that you
14:14have been listening to what that is and then doing it.
14:19Yeah, absolutely.
14:21You're awesome.
14:33I'm super impressed with how you took control of, you know, the painting of the surfboard.
14:41I appreciate just kind of sitting and enjoying, like, art.
14:43Like, I love museums.
14:44I love, you know, exhibits and just expressing, you know, how I feel and just using that to kind of
14:51take over my emotions.
14:52It's kind of my thing.
14:53No, that's, and I appreciate that about you.
14:57I'm not going to lie, like, going forward, it's, like, it's going to just get deeper and deeper.
15:00And we're, like, getting down to, like, the last few weeks.
15:02And I'm just, you know, trying to wrap my head around this and see, like, what this means.
15:09Because ultimately, like, you do have to make a decision.
15:11Mm-hmm.
15:12I'm ready to, you know, let Ashley be single as well as me.
15:17I would leave single with Ash.
15:23Being single with Ashley, I don't know what that means.
15:26But to hear that she's still influencing how this is going to kind of end is very concerning.
15:36And I'm just confused because it's, like, everything we've been through and talked about.
15:42Like, I'm like, was that not real?
15:45You know, I do obviously give a lot of steps before we, you know, make that final, before I make
15:50that final decision.
15:50Mm-hmm.
15:52Is it too good to be true?
16:16I love your hair like that.
16:18It's very swampy.
16:31What's wrong with you guys?
16:32You all arguing or something?
16:34We didn't argue or anything.
16:35Oh, okay.
16:36Um.
16:37Is everything fine?
16:39Oh, no.
16:40Okay.
16:40All right.
16:41I thought it was fine on my end.
16:43I'm a bit confused.
16:44Tracy and I had an amazing date.
16:46Great conversation, great energy.
16:48And she didn't look like she's in the best of moods.
16:50It's frustrating because you just want to get, you want to get through a day without any issues and there's
16:54always something.
16:55You guys just need to communicate and that's all.
16:56Yeah, communication is key.
16:59I've been trying so hard to not have a wall up with him and to think that all of it's
17:08going to be just for him to leave single with his current girlfriend.
17:13It's very triggering for me.
17:15Hey.
17:16Hey.
17:17Um, I hope I can explain myself or whatever I did.
17:21I felt bad.
17:22I wanted to do something special for you.
17:24And so I just put something together.
17:26Um, I hope you can appreciate it in any capacity.
17:32Oh, some lovely food.
17:35Yeah, it's cool.
17:36I'm not really hungry right now.
17:39Okay.
17:40Yeah, but thank you.
17:41No problem.
17:42Can I get a hug?
17:45I just need to be by myself right now.
17:50But thank you.
17:51No problem. I'll see you later.
18:05Hey, hey, hey.
18:08Let's go.
18:09Tonight we're having a bubbles and bull tie party.
18:11I honestly don't know what that means, but I love bubbles.
18:14I love the pool and I can't wait to have a good time.
18:16Tryna dance.
18:19What are you writing, babe?
18:20I put B.B.
18:22Oh, B.B?
18:23Blake.
18:23Women shine.
18:25What are you doing, T.S.?
18:26Well done.
18:27Well done.
18:28Well let them know.
18:30The kiddies got to win.
18:31Hey!
18:32Woo!
18:34All right, D.I. boys, what's our profession?
18:38Ow!
18:38Ow!
18:39Ow!
18:40That's it, baby!
18:42Woo!
18:53We are getting Greeked up tonight.
18:57It's a toga party.
18:58I've never even been to a toga party before,
19:00so I'm really excited to let loose on this one,
19:03and I'm feeling really good.
19:05Toga, toga, toga.
19:07Yeah, Marissa!
19:17I wore my Greek briefs this evening.
19:19Yes!
19:22Oh!
19:23Cut it!
19:23Oh, how did I come?
19:24That damn thing.
19:26Oh!
19:26Oh, cool!
19:27I remember that.
19:28Ah!
19:29Cut it.
19:29Oh!
19:31Wait a minute.
19:32Who's that?
19:33Hey.
19:34Who is this?
19:36There's Deke from season two.
19:38Deke!
19:39Oh!
19:40This just got real.
19:42That's who's back to get between you and your girl.
19:46Oh!
19:47There's Deke.
19:48I'm actually a fan.
19:49I'm a fan.
19:50I decided to return to Temptation Island
19:52because my love life has been non-existent
19:55since I left the first time.
19:58Oh, my God.
20:00I didn't get the response that I was hoping for.
20:02Take someone else to clear off all my flowers on your bed
20:05and take them to bed.
20:06I guess my flowers didn't mean shit.
20:09I just wanted to come back and find love,
20:11so here I am.
20:16Oh, my God.
20:18Deke from season two of Temptation Island.
20:22I watched literally all of his posts and videos on social media.
20:26Oh, my God.
20:26I'm a fan girl.
20:27So as soon as I see him, it's like seeing a familiar face.
20:31This is not okay.
20:32This is not okay.
20:34Let's have a private girl shot.
20:35Let's go.
20:36Come.
20:36Join the girls' group.
20:38I'm already having a hard time going on dates and shit,
20:40now.
20:40This coming in here?
20:42Bro, what are you doing here, my guy?
20:45Tommy.
20:45Hey, no.
20:46Come on, Tommy.
20:48Let's take any one of these girls, bro.
20:50Okay, man.
20:51That's a joke, bro.
20:53Come on now.
20:54Come on now.
20:56These chicks immediately, they're all like touchy-feely,
20:58and I know, like, I see the connections that are formed.
21:01It's like change of plans.
21:04I am home.
21:05Daddy's here.
21:05It's like that new kid that comes to school.
21:07You know, everyone's like .
21:08But then it's like, hey.
21:10Like.
21:11It's like they're kind of scared.
21:12They see you.
21:13They are scared.
21:14Yeah.
21:14I'm a little bit shook right now, not gonna lie.
21:17I know.
21:17They're like.
21:18It's all right.
21:19I should probably go get my man.
21:20Is that your man?
21:21Wait, which one?
21:22What?
21:22Exactly.
21:25Tommy and I had this, like, whole big talk today.
21:27Now things are kind of weird.
21:31And now we're at the Bowtie and Bubble Party,
21:34and he's like back to being all over me.
21:36So I think we're fine again, but we're just hot and cold so much,
21:41it's always hard to tell.
21:45We had a party two nights ago, and I was, like, dancing on my own,
21:50and I felt so free, and I felt good.
21:52And, like, I've just been like, oh, you know what?
21:54I can be my own independent woman.
21:56But, like, watching everyone, it does get lonely.
21:58I mean, yeah.
22:01Everyone's going to bed with someone else,
22:02and I'm just like, yo.
22:03All ready?
22:04And I have the master bedroom,
22:05and I'm just like, what the ?
22:14It feels crazy doing one of these again.
22:17Oh, wow.
22:17Okay.
22:24Hey, guys.
22:26A real goddess is here now.
22:29I brought champagne.
22:30I'm champagne.
22:30I'm champagne.
22:32I figured that's okay.
22:33Hey, look.
22:34Hey, yo, who is this?
22:35I'm actually from season two, so that's why.
22:39I was just about to say, you look familiar.
22:41No, the shower.
22:42Yes, now I remember.
22:43Yeah, the shower.
22:44I'm the shower girl.
22:45Yeah.
22:47I decided to return to Temptation Island
22:49because I want to find love
22:51and maybe find my real man.
22:53I do not want to find a David.
22:55We also stayed the night together.
22:56And what happened when you stayed the night together?
22:58We had sex.
23:01I feel the love, like, maybe half the room,
23:03so this is good.
23:04No, this is good so far.
23:06Okay.
23:07Look, Aya.
23:08A.
23:08A.
23:09A.
23:09A.
23:09A.
23:10A.
23:11A.
23:12Who is this?
23:13Who is this?
23:15A little rodeo.
23:16Damn.
23:17Cheers, dad.
23:18I just want to come and have fun with you guys.
23:19Let's hang out.
23:25I could already see on their faces
23:27that they were not happy that I wasn't there.
23:31Oh, I might have, like, a little bit of fun with this.
23:35Um, cheers to New Beginnings.
23:39Yes.
23:39Here we go.
23:42The oceans are rising.
23:47Why aren't...
23:47So how do you feel about D?
23:49How do you feel about D?
23:49Oh, I'm just having fun.
23:50There's D.
23:51How do y'all feel about me?
23:52How do y'all feel about me?
23:53Love you, girl.
23:56The gentlemen are not fond of me.
23:58You know, an absolute stallion enters the room,
24:00and I would be shook, too.
24:02We all...
24:03They just had a kick the other day.
24:04They chop boys out.
24:05And we all here, as a family,
24:07to come in here, like,
24:08my goddamn dates, like, bro.
24:13Hey, but that ain't me.
24:14You just did that.
24:15Hey, hey, hey, hey.
24:15Hey, I don't come in here...
24:17I ain't gonna come in here little dick energy.
24:19What's your name? What's your name?
24:20What's your name?
24:20It's not little dick energy, bro.
24:22It's being respectful when you come in here, bro.
24:24It's not little dick energy.
24:26So let me walk...
24:36Like a bomb, I'm about to blow.
24:38Cut the red or blue wire.
24:40Oh, you don't know.
24:41I'll give you one more chance to get out my face.
24:43What's your name, bro?
24:44Come in here, man, bro.
24:45Come in here, man.
24:45Come in here, man.
24:47Come in here, man.
24:48Come in here, man.
24:48Come in here, man.
24:48Come in here, man.
24:49Stop!
24:49What are you?
24:50Taylor comes at me saying,
24:52I'm on some disrespectful stuff,
24:54and I'm not here for them, so I don't care.
24:56I can take all the smoke.
24:57Talk to me for 30 minutes,
24:59and then, you know,
25:00tell me you hate me after that.
25:02All of you, all of you are...
25:05You need to back up.
25:07All of you need to stop.
25:09It's really unflattering.
25:11Y'all think I'm playing.
25:12Y'all take all the smoke.
25:13I ain't no pussy.
25:18I am still confused.
25:21So let's sit here apart from all that shit.
25:24I have deep feelings for Trace,
25:27and the idea of losing her,
25:29even though we just met,
25:30kind of breaks my heart.
25:31It kind of tears me down
25:32because I know we have something strong.
25:34I've been walking a fine line this whole time,
25:37and I think it's very unfair
25:39if I keep playing this game
25:41because I know she's eventually
25:42gonna just lose hope for me.
25:44What I told Trace was that
25:46I would leave single with Ash.
25:49What the do you mean?
25:52Yes.
25:52That was me trying to be a safe person.
25:55I just want to know what the
25:56they talking about.
25:57Who's talking out there?
25:58Because...
25:58Because...
25:59Oh, man talk.
26:02I don't like disappointing people.
26:09I know I said...
26:11I said the wrong thing.
26:12But if you love me,
26:14and you truly care,
26:16you communicate.
26:17She is communicating.
26:22She is.
26:24This whole time,
26:25she is like,
26:26I know who I am.
26:27Do you know who you are?
26:29Are you ready for this shit?
26:32She needs to know that.
26:34And it is as simple
26:35and as complicated as that.
26:41You're right.
26:42You're right.
26:43You're right.
26:43You're right.
26:43Absolutely right.
26:50Good night.
26:51Sleep well.
26:52I will.
26:53I will.
26:54Tonight was fun.
26:55It was.
26:56It was definitely fun.
26:57I will.
27:00I will.
27:02I will.
27:03I will.
27:05I will.
27:06I will.
27:07I will.
27:07I will.
27:07In here.
27:09Hey, stop.
27:11Like...
27:12What?
27:13That.
27:14That right there.
27:15Stop that.
27:18Stop.
27:19I mean...
27:21I mean...
27:22Bullshit.
27:23We can still be something
27:25without always being around each other.
27:28And I don't think she understands that yet.
27:31Me not wanting to sit in your bed
27:32is not me saying,
27:34I don't like you.
27:38Okay?
27:39The next person
27:41that you commit to,
27:44it needs to be someone
27:46that gives you your space
27:48and takes their own space.
27:50Love isn't obsessing over someone.
27:53That's not love.
27:55It is not love.
27:57Like, if it was Edgar,
27:59I feel like he would've, like,
28:00stayed with me through the night
28:01and, like,
28:02cuddled me and coddled me all night.
28:07See you in the morning.
28:08Okay?
28:10I don't know.
28:10This man is something different.
28:12I really don't know.
28:19Talk to me.
28:22I love this journey for you.
28:24I love this journey for you.
28:26Yeah!
28:26I was sent to you,
28:27I was sent to you,
28:28I was sent to you,
28:28I was sent to you.
28:30I know.
28:30I probably messed up
28:31with how I delivered my message this morning.
28:34Yeah.
28:35I've dedicated all my time,
28:37my emotions,
28:38my thoughts to you since day one.
28:41To hear you even say some shit like this,
28:44what you said this morning.
28:45That was me protecting Ashley.
28:47I'm done with that.
28:48I'm done with that.
28:49I promise you,
28:50I'm done with that.
28:51I only want you.
28:53Forget Ashley.
28:54She's in the past.
28:55She needs to be single.
28:56I need to be with you.
28:58I need you in my life
29:00as a girlfriend,
29:02future,
29:03wife.
29:04That's without a question.
29:06And I promise you
29:07that I will do everything in my power
29:09to make that a reality.
29:11I love you.
29:13You know what I'm saying?
29:15I care about you so much.
29:18I can't see my life without you.
29:21That's it.
29:22That's it.
29:23I'm going to be there for you.
29:25Everything you dreamed of,
29:26I'm going to be there for you.
29:28LaSalle expresses that he loves me.
29:31And I'm so happy to hear that.
29:33And so,
29:34I just hope that he's really trying
29:37to progress our relationship.
29:38Oh.
29:42Oh.
30:08Do you miss LaSalle's a lot?
30:10I do.
30:11Today I miss him a lot.
30:13I miss Luke a lot today.
30:15Jeez Louise.
30:20A lot of people,
30:21especially Tommy,
30:22have been talking about
30:23how I'm afraid to be alone.
30:26I've realized now
30:27that I've had, prior to Edgar,
30:29a lot of detached situations.
30:32But now I want someone
30:33who might shake things up.
30:35I think the reason why
30:36it's scary for me
30:38to move on
30:40from my relationship
30:41with Edgar
30:41is because
30:43he was the first person
30:45I've ever been with
30:46who got past those walls.
30:48I think I can find somebody
30:50who I can be vulnerable with
30:52and I can put my walls down
30:53and let in
30:54who maybe is a better match for me.
30:57I think it's been really great
30:58for me to be vulnerable with you
31:00and I think that was like huge for me.
31:02It's good.
31:03Thanks, Tommy.
31:05You really were a big part of it.
31:07I'm glad.
31:09Good shit.
31:10Absolutely.
31:21Okay, ready?
31:22One, two, three.
31:24Come on.
31:31Eddie, my main man.
31:33Hey, Trace.
31:34How you doing?
31:34I'm great.
31:35I definitely wanted to like
31:37just keep it real with you
31:38and just, you know,
31:39talk to you about some things
31:40that I've been observing.
31:41Right now,
31:42you're kind of very sold on Marissa,
31:44but I mean,
31:47I just don't think her intentions
31:49are pure with you.
31:52I just think there's stuff
31:53that goes on behind the scenes.
31:55It's like when we're
31:56in these social settings,
31:57you know,
31:58everything looks great,
31:59but then she goes to us
32:00and she's like,
32:01oh, well, you know,
32:02I'm not trying to be serious.
32:03You know, I like him,
32:04but you know,
32:06you know, I just want to...
32:07She said that?
32:08I mean, yeah.
32:09She has clearly said
32:10she has no intention of,
32:12you know,
32:12having like a romantic connection
32:14right now.
32:15I definitely need to hear that
32:16because I accept things
32:17at face value.
32:18Right.
32:18I am not the type of person
32:19who like questions shit,
32:20you know?
32:21And I need to do that
32:22because I mean,
32:24that's what got me
32:25in my current situation.
32:26You know,
32:26it's like I just believed.
32:29So there's definitely
32:30a tug and pull from Marissa.
32:32I just hope she's not keeping me
32:35at this distance
32:37out of convenience for her
32:38because I feel like
32:41that's what Jillian did to me
32:45and can't do that again.
32:51The only thing
32:53that I want
32:55is like complete honesty.
32:57Mm-hmm.
32:59Because I just like,
33:00I mean, you tell me something.
33:02Yeah.
33:04But I've heard different things.
33:07I feel like sometimes
33:08I just get scared
33:09of like where it could
33:11like end up.
33:13I don't want my relationship
33:15with Jillian anymore
33:17because of the fact
33:18that she's been so dishonest
33:19with me.
33:20Mm-hmm.
33:21Like that me up.
33:23Mm-hmm.
33:24And it just feels like
33:26you telling me one thing
33:28and then me hearing something else
33:30feels like the same shit.
33:32You know what I mean?
33:33Mm-hmm.
33:34And I really value you
33:35as a person
33:36and as my friend.
33:37And like I have feelings for you
33:39but it's like also,
33:40I'm not trying to be let on.
33:41You know what I mean?
33:43Okay.
33:44Do you want me?
33:46It is too soon to be like,
33:49I want you to be my man.
33:51I'm not asking,
33:52I'm not asking that.
33:53I like him a lot
33:55but like I don't know
33:56what his true intentions are
33:57and I'm really scared.
33:58I don't want to be the one
34:00getting hurt in the end
34:01if this is all like a lie
34:05or just he feels lonely.
34:08Mm-hmm.
34:08Don't take a walk or something.
34:09Wait, Marissa.
34:16It just sucks
34:17because like I feel like
34:18it's like put on me
34:20to like know
34:21what I'm supposed to be doing
34:23and I don't.
34:24I've never been in this
34:25kind of situation.
34:28Yeah.
34:29You don't have to know
34:29what you're doing.
34:59I don't have to know
35:02what you're doing.
35:08When I get into your house,
35:09for book
35:10I need to know
35:10I have so many mixed emotions
35:11because I'm trying to weigh my options
35:15and I do have a lot of love for Edgar,
35:18but I think maybe I've outgrown our relationship.
35:26Hi, you guys.
35:28Hi.
35:28Hi, Mark.
35:35Ladies, welcome to another bonfire.
35:38How are things going?
35:40Good.
35:42Good.
35:42Now it's time for each of you to watch a clip
35:45of your boyfriend's experience on the island.
35:48Iris, we'll start with you tonight.
35:50Okay.
35:53She's putting all the pressure on me to change
35:56and be this new guy while she's just coasting along.
35:59And by the time I meet with her again,
36:02you know, she's still holding on to the past
36:05and she can't get rid of it.
36:06And she hadn't pulled herself out of this relationship enough
36:10to really discover herself.
36:11Because I think a lot of her dependency on our relationship
36:15is holding her back from really shining through her own life.
36:24You're nodding.
36:25What does that mean?
36:25I can agree with some of what he said.
36:30I also do think that he still thinks the past
36:35isn't the same as what I think the past is.
36:37Can you be more specific?
36:40Well, the last time he broke my trust was five months ago.
36:42I think he considers that the past already,
36:45but to me that's still pretty recent.
36:47How's it going with you and Iris?
36:49I think today I kind of just had all these issues
36:54within myself wondering, like, what my end decision will be.
37:00How do you think ruminating on the future serves you?
37:07It's not really serving me right now.
37:09I think I just need to really focus
37:13on what it is I'm here for.
37:15And I think I also have to shut out
37:19all the other people's thoughts
37:21that I think are bothering me.
37:22I feel like thinking about my parents
37:25and what they'll think
37:26and, like, our friends back home,
37:28all of that is kind of weighing me down a little bit.
37:31But I need to just shut that out right now
37:32and focus on myself.
37:34There's no way to avoid the judgment of others.
37:37Yeah.
37:38Because everybody's got an opinion.
37:40You're doing great.
37:42We're going to go to you next, Gillian.
37:44Okay?
37:45Here we go.
37:46Yes!
37:47Come back!
37:52Come back!
37:54Come back!
37:59I don't mind if he dances with a girl.
38:03I'm glad to see that he's having a good time.
38:07In all the other clips he's seen, like,
38:09it's been like he's in a lot of pain.
38:12And I think he probably still is feeling that pain.
38:15But I'm glad to see him smiling.
38:18What are you discovering about Edgar
38:20and your relationship that you're seeing
38:23maybe isn't suiting you?
38:26We're very different.
38:28And I think he mellows me out a lot,
38:31which I like to an extent.
38:35And it worked for me while I was, like, in college.
38:38But now that we're transitioning to the real world,
38:41I feel like I'd like somebody
38:43who matches my ambition and my drive.
38:46Um, we've definitely prospered and grown together.
38:51But I feel myself rapidly growing.
38:54And I want somebody who's just as hungry for that.
38:57Okay.
38:58That's a choice you have to make for you.
39:00Yeah.
39:00You know, head, heart, head, heart.
39:03Right?
39:05Okay.
39:07Thanks.
39:08Thanks.
39:10Ash.
39:10Oh, God.
39:14That may be the most honest response we've had.
39:18All right.
39:21We were at the hotel quarantining before coming here.
39:24And I got a text message from somebody that I had been
39:28that was like,
39:30hey, sir, are you up?
39:32And then wake up so you can me.
39:39And I was like, oh, I'm not there.
39:45I saw that text message.
39:47You saw the text message?
39:51Really?
39:52Mm-hmm.
39:52And he didn't know you saw it?
39:53No.
39:54And you didn't tell him you saw it?
39:56No.
39:57Okay, what's that about?
39:58I make excuses because it's easier for me
40:08to do that
40:09instead of taking accountability
40:12for why I've stayed in something
40:16that I knew was really bad for so long.
40:21You seem pretty removed from
40:25the sobbing girl I saw on your goodbyes.
40:30Um, why do you think that is?
40:34I now know and remember
40:37what it looks like
40:38to be actually wanted by somebody
40:42and not just physically.
40:46And can we put a name to that?
40:48Taylor.
40:49Right.
40:51The reason I ask this
40:52is because either that answer
40:53is another deflection by you
40:55or it's actually real
40:56and that's why I ask who it is
40:57because I'm getting the sense
40:59that it's real.
41:00Yeah, it's, it's been really enlightening.
41:04I am a fool for love.
41:06No, I'm not.
41:07Not.
41:08You're not a fool.
41:10I'm a hopeful romantic.
41:13All right, Ash.
41:14Keep going.
41:18Okay, Ashley.
41:20Yes.
41:21You ready?
41:22Yeah.
41:23Okay.
41:25I only want you.
41:27Forget Ashley.
41:30I need to be with you.
41:31I need you in my life
41:34as a girlfriend, future, wife.
41:38That's without a question.
41:39And I promise you
41:41that I will do everything in my power
41:43to make that a reality.
41:45I love you.
41:47I can't see my life without you.
41:49I'm all yours, okay?
41:50Okay.
41:51I'm all yours.
41:52You can take that to the grave.
41:57Um, okay.
41:58I'm a bit confused.
42:01I'm a bit confused.
42:14I'm a bit confused.
42:14I'm a bit confused.
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