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Temptation Island - Season 1 - Episode 07: Mixed Messages EngSub
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00:07Previously on Temptation Island.
00:10I'm still very upset with John.
00:12He said something about going bonfire to bonfire,
00:14see what his girlfriend does.
00:15He's in a really hard spot.
00:17I think it's like really tripping him up
00:19and he's having a hard time processing it.
00:21I feel like I've been torn with this decision on,
00:25you know, is John the one for me
00:26or if I'm supposed to be in this relationship.
00:28I don't feel like I kind of know the answer.
00:30If she cheated on me, it was the end
00:32and that looks like she pretty much cheated on me.
00:36Come on.
00:38Letting Morgan in has been so amazing and so great,
00:42but it's going to rip Casey's life apart.
00:51I close my eyes because I just really need to stay
00:54in a good headspace.
00:55So you need to respect the fact
00:56that I cannot watch that video.
00:58I understand.
00:59I'm telling you, I'm going to walk off.
01:01But they could have been doing anything.
01:02Walking off.
01:03Done.
01:03I'm sorry.
01:06You're not gonna tell me.
01:09You'll never forget me.
01:13You're not gonna tell me.
01:16Oh...
01:18Oh...
01:19You're not gonna tell me.
01:23You'll never forget me.
01:26You're not gonna tell me.
01:29Hey.
01:36Hi, guys.
01:38Good.
01:42It's just a roller coaster.
01:44Like, I just am thinking of the absolute worst.
01:47Like, I just don't want to...
01:49I don't want to lose it and embarrass my family.
01:53Your family knows who you are, Casey.
01:55I didn't think it was gonna go like this.
01:57I don't think you can even comprehend how hard this is for me.
02:02Like, I don't think you guys are really, truly getting
02:05how hard this is for me.
02:08When I watch the clips, like, I don't even recognize him.
02:13I thought it was gonna be different.
02:17He's getting things from other girls,
02:20like one girl it looks like specifically,
02:22and he might be ruining something
02:24that he's not gonna be able to get back
02:26if he takes it too far.
02:28Come here.
02:44Well, obviously, the bonfire tonight was pretty sobering to me.
02:48It's a little bit of a punch to the gut and the heart.
02:50I mean, I have no idea what she's thinking in her head.
02:52I don't know what broke her down to decide
02:54to allow this guy in her bed.
02:57Ugh.
02:58I don't know.
02:58It's just...it's a lot to take in.
03:01Obviously, the video of my girlfriend was a little more detailed.
03:05Inviting him into a room
03:06and having a little hot tub fun or whatever.
03:09I don't want to be with a weak woman.
03:10You know?
03:11She talks about me being, like, a weak man
03:14or a man that's not alpha enough for her.
03:16And then she goes and does this.
03:18You think I'm weak?
03:24I don't think you're weak.
03:25I'm just saying we came in with set rules, you know?
03:28I know.
03:29I came in with set rules, and I broke them.
03:31Hearing you guys talk about it,
03:33it's just kind of making me feel like how y'all feel.
03:37I've done it to Casey, and...
03:39You guys came in with a lot more of an open situation.
03:43Yeah, yeah, but we made the rule, man.
03:44Y'all know that I'm not allowed to have any girl touch my bed,
03:47and I already broke that.
03:51You know, after hearing them say,
03:52how could you let some guy in your bed
03:54knowing full well that they've seen me
03:56and I've let Morgan in mine, it's just a bummer, you know?
03:58I'm worried about what the boys think of me,
04:00and, uh, their opinion is very, very important to me.
04:03I'm not angry with them.
04:04It's just hard to hear it.
04:05You're not weak, bro.
04:07You're fighting a temptation as well as us.
04:09I feel like the weakness is in your relationship.
04:12Yeah.
04:20Did I get a hug?
04:24Yeah.
04:26You good?
04:27Yeah, I'm okay.
04:28I have lavender on my hands.
04:30It's calming.
04:32How was tonight?
04:33Oh, man.
04:35Um, well, I didn't watch my clip.
04:38I closed my eyes, but...
04:38Really?
04:39Yeah.
04:40I really wanna enjoy my time here,
04:42and watching the clips just makes my anxiety really bad.
04:48My clip, like, didn't have any talking in it,
04:50so I'm just scared.
04:51Like, he's already, like, hooked up, hooked up with someone.
04:54Like, if he's had sex with someone, then I think it's over.
04:57Oh, yeah, 100%.
04:59It should be that way.
05:01Mark told us we have, like, a chance to, like, do, like, a 30-second message to them that they're
05:06gonna see.
05:07Like, I don't even know what I'm gonna say.
05:09I wouldn't give them nothing.
05:11I'm being dead serious with you.
05:13I wouldn't give them nothing.
05:14Yeah.
05:15I mean, I know it's hard, but at some point, you gotta know when to let go.
05:20Yeah.
05:20Or when to put your foot down.
05:22I feel like a lot of your men believe that you're gonna come back home in the same situation.
05:28And it don't matter what they do.
05:30It only matters what y'all do.
05:32I don't want you to underestimate us as women as well, going back to them and saying it's not okay,
05:37and breaking it off.
05:38Like, we're realizing a lot of shit here.
05:42Like, that's deep.
05:43Exactly.
05:44And it's, like, a big deal for us.
05:46And I'm not gonna be swayed back in.
05:48Like, I'm learning shit on my own as an independent person without him.
05:52And regardless if I'm in a relationship or not, like, I'm glad I'm here in this experience with people that
05:57have experienced a level of depth that I haven't experienced before.
06:00I'm at the point now where I'm realizing all these great qualities that make me me.
06:05Like, I've realized things, and I'm gonna take that forward in my life.
06:08And I respect that.
06:08Like, I have to discover myself and identifying why I am questioning my relationship and why I'm not in that
06:16deep, deep love.
06:17I'm not gonna be afraid to, like, uncover what I've discovered here.
06:21And you wanna speak truth?
06:22Yeah.
06:23Preach.
06:27Positivity is all that I can be with.
06:33So you're hanging in there? You doing all right?
06:35Yeah, I'm good, man. Just hurt, bro.
06:37Um, like I said, I don't know what happened after that clip, but you're getting into bed with another man.
06:42Like, that's, to me, that shows weakness.
06:45We're in the same boat, man. Like, same thing said by my girlfriend and kind of same action.
06:50Both getting in bed.
06:52Me and John, we've had our ups and downs, but he's in a very emotional state right now.
06:57And so I'm not gonna push anything. I'm not gonna question anything.
07:01I think right now he needs someone he can be raw with, and I think that that's me.
07:05We apparently had the option of sending a 30-second message to our girlfriend.
07:09Do you know what you're gonna say yet?
07:11Yeah, I'm just gonna say, hey, you know?
07:13Come, come, come, come, come, come!
07:15Yeah, bro!
07:16You know?
07:17That's an awesome life to you guys.
07:18I see you, man.
07:20This is a great time!
07:21I see you, man!
07:22I see you, man!
07:23There's a lot of here in the world a little bit.
07:32I really set in on what's happening.
07:48I thought we were strong enough going into this, and obviously we're not, and I just
07:56hate to see that you've resorted to that, and, you know, I'm just gonna spill my heart.
08:05We'll make it out of here, man. We will make it out of here.
08:08Oh, man. It's tough.
08:10Hell. It's tough.
08:15Thanks for being there for me. Of course, always.
08:19John deserves a good woman. I've said it a million times, I don't think he deserves a treatment that he's
08:23getting from the other end,
08:25and I'm actually really glad that I can be here for John during this time that he's very emotional to
08:31help him cope and help him heal through this process.
08:33I wish I could say something that would, like, make it all better.
08:39I'm so sorry, John.
08:55I know you've got a thing on the side. I know you're gonna have to decide.
09:06So you're feeling okay?
09:08I don't know. Obviously, me and John saw some things we didn't want to see.
09:12Right.
09:13Having that clip in my head of Nicole getting in bed with somebody has affected me. As much as I
09:19want to get rid of that, I can't stop thinking about it.
09:21I mean, Brittany came up there, and we have to pass my bed to get to the balcony. She asked
09:26if she'd stay up there. I was like, I don't know. That's not a...I'm not ready for that.
09:30So I'll just say, because, like, I'm really close with Brittany, I think it's gonna be really important for you
09:34to explain to her that if something happens between you two, it's not out of, like...
09:39Spike? Spike.
09:40Yeah, yeah.
09:41Because she's afraid of that.
09:44Yeah.
09:45It's gonna get more difficult, and me and Brittany have had a hell of a connection, but I'm still thinking
09:51about Nicole. She has not left my mind from the day I got here. The devil's saying, do this. My
09:57angel's saying, relax. Just chill out. You're good. Don't do it.
10:21I chose to go on a date today with Johnny. He's the person I have the most connection with in
10:25the house. It takes a lot for somebody to turn my head, for somebody to kind of make my heart
10:28flutter.
10:29I never thought in a million years I'd find somebody that I have a genuine, true connection with that gives
10:34me the feels.
10:35I mean, you just make me feel, like, really alive and giddy and good and happy and warm and fuzzy.
10:42I feel like I pray for someone like you every day, and I'm here, and it's like, really?
10:47I've been praying for answers for months, and it's crazy that it happened here, too.
10:52Katie and I have been meshing well since the start, and I think that I show her the excitement that
10:57she's been missing.
10:59I bring out a side of her that she knew was there all along, but she hasn't felt that in
11:03a relationship I don't think ever.
11:04Here we go.
11:11I'll take that.
11:23Erika was a nice sweet girl. I took her on the day early on. We went ziplining, and that was
11:27amazing.
11:28So I'm gonna take her on my second date with her and get to know her a little better.
11:38I've never had a fresh pineapple.
11:40A fresh pineapple?
11:41Whoa, I'm so sorry.
11:42Oh, my God.
11:43Wow, a fresh coconut.
11:44Are you okay? Is the sun, like, hitting you too hard?
11:47Erika does impress me. She has a little spice to her. She's Latin, and she has a little attitude, I've
11:51noticed.
11:51She's kind of a little feisty in her own little way, and those are kind of some things I do
11:54like in women.
11:55I be seeing you a little bit in the kitchen, kind of like your little face and background, like a
11:59little mug in a bit sometimes, or...
12:00What?
12:01I be seeing you.
12:02No.
12:02You do have, like, little mugs. I don't know what for or who that.
12:05What is a mug? What is that?
12:06And then you're like...
12:07I'm like, ooh, I've seen that.
12:09Wait, did I really?
12:10Yeah.
12:10I am starting to, like, focus more on one or two people, and so this is gonna get a lot
12:14more serious for me.
12:15I don't wanna walk away from the experience having any regrets. Who knows where these things will go?
12:19Maybe I was looking at myself in the oven.
12:21Oh, my gosh.
12:29Hello.
12:29Thank you. You too.
12:31I'm glad I picked Justin because I feel like we both have an issue with opening up to people, so
12:36he pushes me to open up more, and we're a lot more similar than I thought initially.
12:41I know at first when I came into this initially, I was like, no, you can't have friends with the
12:45opposite sex.
12:47But now I feel like that's, like, immature.
12:49But I feel like you were like that because he made you like that.
12:52Yeah.
12:52You know what I'm saying?
12:53It comes a certain point where you learn that when you really can't control somebody, you wanna let them go.
13:00Yeah.
13:00Like, if you love something, you let it be. You let it go.
13:03Yeah.
13:03And if it's meant to be, it's meant to be.
13:06I'm becoming my own woman, and a part of that is a little fearful for me personally because I just
13:11don't wanna go too far off the deep end and not be able to come back.
13:15And that's one of my fears.
13:17If something happened, I definitely would want you to reach out.
13:19Yeah.
13:20So that's where I'm at.
13:23He's probably making friends and connections with people too, so I don't really see why that would be a problem.
13:31Feels like the walls are falling down.
13:35Things are going through my head.
13:41This is my third date with Tyler.
13:43I think he's really pulling out a side of me that isn't necessarily current in my relationship.
13:48I know that's pretty deep, but it's, like, refreshing to not be judged and really just kind of, like, be
13:55free.
13:56If you were to go home tomorrow, right, what would be the biggest thing you took out of this whole
14:01experience?
14:01I just feel like I've been trying to figure out how to do a relationship for the last couple years.
14:07And, like, I've been doing it, but I feel like I've just been doing it to one person's standards.
14:12And I feel like I'm figuring out, like, different perspectives on how much to compromise and how much to be
14:20myself.
14:26Well, this is amazing.
14:27Ooh! Look at this! Look at this!
14:31Luna's the perfect guy to pick for this date because I'm definitely struggling with, like, getting in my head.
14:37He helps me, like, really get some good perspective. He makes me laugh. He gets me out of my funk.
14:42All the girls, like, freak me out because they're always talking about, like, it's a frat house over there.
14:47Like, there's no way it's like our house, and I'm just like, don't tell me that.
14:52Well, like, you know, that's the reality, though, and to be honest, like, we're human beings.
14:57I feel like if it's hard for us, it's hard for them.
15:00Exactly.
15:00I just came into this so frustrated with Evan.
15:04I was really oblivious to the amount of anger that I still have with him.
15:07I wish I could take it back. Like, I made mistakes, too, and I could treat him a lot better.
15:12I want to, like, hold his hand and make out with him.
15:14Like, I just want to let the past go.
15:17You're not gonna fall out of love with someone in two weeks.
15:21I'm pretty sure he's still entirely in love with you.
15:24This heart has carried promises through fire and through rain.
15:30Please don't be the same.
15:53I never expected in a million years of me to go like you here.
15:57I really, really care about you a lot. And I wasn't expecting it. At all.
16:03I thought I was gonna come here and be tempted and maybe realize that I just wasn't supposed to be
16:07with Casey, not actually meet the person that I might want to be with forever.
16:17I'm gonna give everything that I have, even if I have reservations, because it seems right.
16:23And that's never happened before, so I'm just going with it and seeing what happens.
16:27Might get hurt. Might not.
16:31Well, then all I want is you. All I want, I will not let you down if you go on
16:39with me.
16:41Girl and Ollie, it's me and you.
16:56There's a song that will linger forever in our ears.
17:05Oh, hard times will come again no more.
17:12I definitely needed to get out here to relax after the last bonfire ride.
17:17You're a good man. You deserve someone good.
17:20I appreciate that.
17:22It's true.
17:23I appreciate that.
17:25I feel great with Brittany. She supported me through my emotions, what I was dealing with, with my past bonfire.
17:31A date like this is absolutely what I needed.
17:34I'm just kind of worried about you though, like, because I think it could get worse.
17:38It could get worse, but that might give me, that might be like a release for me as well.
17:42To be like, all right.
17:43Yeah, it's perfect.
17:45Yeah.
17:46Tell me why.
17:48Tell me more.
17:51You already know. I feel super connected to you. It's so crazy.
17:55It's so weird.
17:57Yeah. I mean, I am a firm believer in what happens is, you know, what's meant to be.
18:07I'm the type of person that needs physical touch, so I'm trying very hard, like, to just stay a faithful
18:14guy, to be 100% honest. It's tough.
18:17Come here and tell you something. I love you.
18:21Catch me.
18:25This might be the best date I've ever been on.
18:27I'm really happy.
18:29I feel you staring at me.
18:32You make me feel like such a creep.
18:35I'm just speaking in front of my life.
18:38What do you say?
18:39Just tell me that you wanna stay or just make it last all night and we'll stay up to you.
18:47That new age shit.
18:48Jack's on that shit, boy.
18:50Who won?
18:50I did.
18:51Thanks, Josh.
18:52How are you?
18:53Do you know that me and Katie had the longest to get ready?
18:55Katie? No.
18:58Is everybody else, like, chillin'?
19:03Give me the pillow. You good?
19:05No, I have you.
19:06Can my hand be here? You sure?
19:09I can definitely tell at this point that Tyler likes me.
19:12I didn't expect to come here
19:14and kind of reciprocate that action,
19:15but we do have a strong connection,
19:17and it just makes me realize that
19:20you really just have to go with your gut
19:21and, like, with your heart
19:22to really figure out what your next move is.
19:24I just feel like coming into this,
19:26I was just like, yes, I'm in a relationship,
19:28but seeing Casey, I'm like, damn,
19:30I didn't know that anybody could even be in love
19:32to that depth, and I just, like,
19:34I want to feel that someday.
19:36But you should, like, still always feel those butterflies.
19:39Like, you should always, like,
19:41those are shits that should not go away,
19:42and if they do, that's...
19:44that's you know. Like, you should feel special
19:47every day.
19:48If you're not being treated
19:50the way you deserve to be treated,
19:52don't make excuses for the reason
19:53and you're not being treated those ways.
19:55It's time to try again.
19:59You know what I'm saying?
20:00Yeah.
20:09You good?
20:10Yeah. I'm clean, I'm solid, I'm good.
20:13You are solid.
20:15Sorry, your ass in those pants.
20:17I just can't even.
20:19I just can't even, girl.
20:21Love you.
20:22I love you.
20:23I'm at a point where I finally feel like
20:25I'm able to be myself, and it feels good.
20:28I'm getting to know everyone,
20:30and I want to get to know everyone in the house,
20:32but at the same time, I definitely feel like
20:34me and Justin have a lot more similarities
20:36than we both realized.
20:39In general, this whole situation
20:41is just, like, a lot.
20:43It's not that it's necessarily wrong,
20:45it's just that I just don't want you to feel forced
20:48because you're in this situation.
20:51I don't know.
20:52And everybody here, you think I'm forcing it?
20:54If you met me outside of the situation,
20:57you'd feel like you would still connect with me.
20:58You're smart.
20:59You're loyal.
21:00You are all these things that makes me think
21:03you're strong enough to figure the situation out.
21:05I'm okay with having faith.
21:07Yeah.
21:07You know what I'm saying?
21:08Yeah.
21:09So that's what it comes down to.
21:11I definitely have feelings for Shari.
21:13It's tough for me to try and get to know someone
21:15who's already in a relationship,
21:16but it's a chase.
21:18I like something that's not easy to get.
21:20I feel like anything worth it isn't gonna be easy,
21:23and that is attractive to me.
21:25Stop walking around like that.
21:27Like what?
21:28You're already controlling?
21:29No.
21:30You've strutten.
21:31Literally, this is how I walk.
21:32Stride, stride, stride.
21:45This will be an interesting match.
21:47I already have some wine.
21:47Oh, no, I have to.
21:48I have to.
21:49Look how cute he is sleeping.
21:52You're cute when you sleep.
21:54Hush little Jane in the fair world.
21:56Hey, Jeffrey's gonna buy you a rockin' movie.
21:59Can I scoop in?
22:00Yeah, you can scoop in.
22:02I miss you.
22:03Did you now?
22:03I did.
22:04Good.
22:04What was your favorite date?
22:05I know what hers is.
22:06My favorite date easily was Zipline.
22:09Oh.
22:10This is your first disagreement.
22:12Which date was it that you started falling in love?
22:14Wow.
22:16You thirsty?
22:18I'm gonna get a beer.
22:19Hey, boy.
22:21Give me some brotherly advice.
22:22What's going on?
22:24I'm gonna talk about John.
22:25Do you think that she should keep her distance or try and toss him?
22:28John's girlfriend was in the bed with someone else, and I think I need to understand where
22:34he's coming from more.
22:36Because right now, there's potential for me with John.
22:39I'm gonna tell you right now that John's turned off to every single emotion right now.
22:44That's why I've given him a complete and total space.
22:47You know, he maybe, he slept about 45 minutes last night.
22:50You know, the, uh, the video messages that we're, we're allowed to send to our girlfriends,
22:55and what he can say in 30 seconds.
22:56Wait, what?
22:57You guys have something that you say to them?
23:00How does it go?
23:01We have the option to send a 30-second message and let them know, you know, what you're feeling
23:07or what you want them, just anything.
23:09You know, you got 30 seconds.
23:10When did you guys do it?
23:12I'm not doing it.
23:15He did not send her a message telling her that it's over.
23:20He is scared to pull the trigger.
23:22That bothers me.
23:23That is going to make it to where I'm not gonna fully, fully believe him.
23:28I'm not sending a message.
23:29So you have the option to or not to?
23:32Well, the three boys did.
23:33I'm not.
23:53Hello there.
23:54Hi.
23:55Hi.
23:57Hi.
23:59Hi.
23:59I'm tired.
24:01I just wanna lay with you.
24:06You have a good time?
24:07Horrible time.
24:08Terrible.
24:09The worst date I've ever had.
24:11Hm.
24:13It just feels really synchronistic with Carl.
24:16The draw is so powerful and so supercharged, but to be honest, a connection that powerful actually
24:24scares me because the last time I felt it I had my heart absolutely shredded and
24:29The guy that I was in love with chose another woman. I think we should just go sleep upstairs
24:36Where? Innocently. What? I just sleep. Where? In your bed.
24:46Just come get in my bunk with me. This is gonna be a challenge though about being able to touch
24:52you.
24:52I don't know. I'm gonna sleep. Are you sure? About what? I'm not sure about anything.
25:00Brittany and I are sharing a connection right now, but it's a major struggle knowing in the back of my
25:06head that I do have a girlfriend
25:08She's been patient and understanding
25:11But she's letting me know also. It's very tough because she feels a strong connection and as do I
25:18Be patient with me
25:19Please. I know you need to stop. Okay. Making me feel like this.
25:25Okay.
25:29It's our time now
25:33It's our time now
25:38I can't wait to have that one-on-one with with Katie and just
25:42What is it gonna change? What is she gonna- It's not gonna change anything basically
25:46I'm finally opening my eyes to that and realizing that she's been manipulating me over the course of us dating
25:53And has made me really feel like everything is my fault
25:58I know
25:59This is hard. This is really hard
26:02And like I'm thankful for you opening up to me. It just makes me feel like I can get closer
26:06to you and trust you more
26:07Every day it's like John gets more and more attractive to me. I don't believe in his relationship
26:13I believe in John. It's just like are you willing to let go of what's holding you back?
26:20I'm ready to find somebody that I'm really looking to settle down with
26:24I'm looking for an emotional connection first
26:27And obviously I'm attracted to you
26:31What do you think?
26:34What is it after every storm? There's a rainbow
26:37Girl I'm running and you're searching for me another substitute
26:41Cause I want you
26:47I want to see where you're headed before another night go by
26:50I guess I'm getting to the point where like this shit matters to me
26:54Katie is definitely the only person that I have a romantic connection with
26:58But I think over the past few days from Johnny and Katie, you know, obviously getting a little closer
27:02She's gravitating towards him a lot more
27:04But I'm still in the game and I'm not going nowhere
27:08I'm looking at it from a selfish point of view
27:10This is my life
27:11Yeah
27:12And so for us this is
27:14Stakes are high
27:16I want you to respect like what I have going on with Johnny
27:20I don't respect it enough
27:21I hope we can do a nice one and chill and just really vibe out again
27:25Let me know
27:28I think that Johnny and Wynn handle the situation with me being in the middle differently
27:34They're cool, but there maybe is a little underlining tension
27:38Is Wynn good? You guys good?
27:41Yeah, I mean I just had to reiterate it for the seventh time
27:46I'm here at the limited time with you
27:49Alright
27:50I'm pretty tired but I just want to go to bed
27:52I don't really care if the guys want to try to date her and make their run at her
27:57I mean for me it doesn't really matter
27:59I just I know at the end of the night that her and I are together
28:07At this point her and I have something pretty real
28:09And it's probably the best connection out of anybody here
28:16Come in
28:18It's Wynn though
28:19Hey
28:20What's happening?
28:22Wynn what the you got a minute?
28:24Yeah, wanna talk?
28:26Not even
28:29What's up?
28:29Hey shit, why don't you chop it up with Katie for a minute?
28:32What's going on?
28:32He said I just wanna holler at me for a minute
28:34I think it's really creepy and weird that if a grown man is in bed with a woman that you
28:38would knock on the door and come into her bedroom
28:40I was raised a little bit better than that
28:41But you know, I think at this point it's just a desperation shot
28:45I don't know why I feel obligated to come check on you
28:47He spent the night here last night and nothing happened
28:52And like he didn't even try to make a move
28:54Which I found really respectful and respectable
28:57I almost feel like he's making it a point to make a scene to come to the door
29:03To warn me about Johnny
29:05He could have warned me about him when we had a conversation an hour ago and he didn't
29:09Good night
29:10What the was that?
29:12Man, he's just trying to step it up and all that
29:15Just ignore it
29:16Yeah
29:35I think Carl brought me here to really test me
29:38And I'm very anxious to see what the message is
29:42We all have the urge to communicate with our boyfriends
29:46I'm really just curious about how his entire experience is going while we're on the island
29:58Hey, what's up, babe? I just wanted to check in quick
30:00First off, I love you and I miss you
30:03This experience has been crazy and fun at the same time
30:06I'm a little disappointed
30:08I'm kind of hurt by some things I've seen
30:10But that doesn't change how much I do care about you and love you
30:14I figure we can meet at the end of this thing
30:17And figure out what our next direction is
30:19I love you, keep having fun over there
30:21And dive into this experience
30:29I thought his message would be more like self-reflecting instead of judging
30:38I feel like being here has really taught me a lot
30:41Just about myself
30:42And I don't know if he can really understand what I've been going through
30:46I mean he brought me here to test me in our relationship
30:49But this is honestly just a test to myself
30:52To really like pull me back in to myself
30:57So I can allow my heart and soul
30:59To go out to other people in the world
31:12Seeing Nicole be in bed with someone else
31:14It's in the back of my mind
31:15I'm real tense and I'm just like, alright, what is going on here?
31:19I'm not sure if she thinks everything is all good or what
31:22But I wanted to see her face, see her smile
31:25And see where we're truly at with each other
31:30I really wasn't expecting to come into this experience
31:32But I'm really glad that we did
31:34Because it's making me realize that our relationship
31:37Through the last two years has really been surface level
31:40And these men and women here have made me realize
31:42That there's a whole new level of depth that we can really uncover in our relationship
31:46So I'm not sure where you're at and how your experience is really going
31:51But I'm excited to get home and really, you know, open my heart and soul to you
31:56And, you know, figure out if we can communicate that back with one another
31:59I love you
32:09I've been in relationships where they have been, you know, just had more substance to them
32:15So I'm aware that it can be a lot more deep
32:18And it has seemed very surface level for me
32:20So I feel as if, you know, that's something that should have came out of my mouth to her
32:33Ah, today's a big day
32:35Part of me, like, wants to see him and, like, wants to hear his voice
32:38And I want him to explain to me what's going on
32:41And then part of me, like, I just want to get through this
32:44And I don't know if seeing it will help me get through this
32:57I knew it
33:01Oh, my God
33:05I'm not gonna lie, like, I'm a little bit hurt that there's nothing in there
33:08But I think when he sees the message I left for him
33:11I don't know what he's seeing in these clips
33:13But he probably thinks I'm having fun
33:15And I think it's gonna get real for him
33:18And I think he's gonna get emotional
33:25I'm the only one of us that didn't send a video message
33:28I don't want to hurt Casey
33:30And I can't help but feel, you know, every single emotion
33:35From, you know, happiness to absolute despair
33:39I respect her too much to try and tell her in 30 seconds
33:44Even though we may love each other
33:47Doesn't mean that we're supposed to be together forever
33:53Hi, Babers
33:54I love you
33:55I really, really miss you
33:57I'm having fun
33:58I think you'd be so proud of me
34:00Just be the man I know you want to be
34:02Because I'm seeing the old Evan
34:05And I know that's not who you are
34:07And I know you want to make me proud
34:09So just please do that
34:11Because I don't want you to have to give up on me
34:13And give up on us
34:28I just could see it in her eyes that poor girls are hurting so bad
34:40I'm hurting the person that I've cared about the most for so long
34:45I know I'm gonna break Casey
34:47She doesn't deserve this
34:49I've been here for her
34:51I've won
34:51I've shared my entire life with her
34:53Little day to take that love
35:01And not having Casey here every day with me
35:04I've realized what we've been through together
35:06And why we were so close-knit
35:08Why we've stuck together
35:11I miss Casey so bad
35:14I really do
35:26F***ing man am I a scumbag
35:55I hope Javen left me a video message
35:57I mean I can't imagine him not
35:59But I'm just curious to see where his head is at
36:02And if he feels like he's grown so far in this experience
36:04My mind's just racing and I just want to know
36:14Hey baby girl hope all is well
36:16Hopefully you're hanging on there on the other side
36:18Hope you're genuinely building connections organically
36:20And get to know people
36:21I'm enjoying my experience
36:22I'm getting to know people
36:23I'm developing as a man
36:24Apart from you
36:24I'm learning a lot about myself
36:26Hope you learn a lot about yourself
36:27Hopefully at the end of the day
36:28We can come together and connect
36:29You know and just to share our experiences
36:31Miss you obviously
36:33Think about you every night
36:34And you know make sure you're having fun
36:36Loosen up a bit
36:37I'm loosening up as well
36:37And keep me in mind
36:41Javen looks like he's in a good headspace
36:43And he's doing good
36:45And I'm proud that he's doing good
36:46We're both learning to be open minded
36:49And more accepting of relationships outside of each other
36:53It's okay
36:55And I'm glad that we're both kind of having that growth
37:05Hopefully my girlfriend's having a great time
37:07I can't wait to see that message from baby girl
37:09She's beautiful
37:11Everything I asked for
37:12You know
37:13I want to see her come out there as the best woman she can be
37:15And I'm going to come out there as the best man I can be
37:17Whether we're together or not
37:23Hi my love
37:24I just want to say that I love and miss you so much
37:27I feel like I've grown
37:29I've become stronger and more grounded
37:32And I just want to let you know that you're strong too
37:35And I hope that you've grown in a positive way
37:38I'm interested to see where we go from here
37:41And I love you to the moon and back
37:43And I can't wait to see you
37:46That was nice
37:53Thank you girl
37:54She's beautiful as ever
37:55She said you know
37:56I love you to the moon and back
37:57That's something she always says to me
37:58I'm glad to see her smiling
38:00She looks positive
38:00She looks happy
38:01And yeah
38:02I love you baby girl
38:04I love you
38:04I truly do
38:13I'm really nervous
38:14I'm not sure what John's going to say
38:15I don't know where his head's at
38:17I'm sure that there are things that he's seeing that are hurting him
38:20I'm really curious and nervous to see if he's even sent me a message
38:31Oh good
38:35Oh shit
38:54Hey Katie, I love you babe
38:55I miss you so much
38:57I think this is something we didn't realize we should have signed up for
39:00At least for my part
39:02I saw some bonfire video that I was very disappointed to see
39:06And I'm very upset by that
39:10And it really hurts me to see that
39:12And uh
39:14You might have been triggered by some bonfire videos that you've seen of me
39:18I've tried to maintain my loyalty to you
39:21Faithfulness to you
39:22And um
39:23That's just all I want to tell you right now
39:34I don't want him to hurt
39:36And I don't want to break his heart
39:37And I feel like I did disrespect him
39:39I feel bad
39:40And I feel like I've made a mistake
39:43I don't know
39:44I'm confused
39:46Hold on steady
39:51I sent Katie a really heartfelt message
39:54So I'm not sure if she's feeling bad
39:56Or if she just is completely done with me or what
39:58But I have no clue what's gonna happen
40:00And if we're gonna be able to stay together
40:02With all this that's going on
40:04Or if we're gonna go on our separate ways
40:25See I was really tough not to get a video message from Katie
40:28I came here thinking we were so strong and we're gonna get through this together
40:31Whether I even was gonna propose to Katie
40:34If she could get through this with loyalty and respect
40:37And that obviously didn't happen
40:42Yeah I didn't get one
40:43I didn't get a video from Katie
40:46That's tough
40:47Yeah it's tough
40:50So you know I was thinking three options
40:52She's feeling too guilty to send me one
40:55She is angry at me for something like that she saw
40:58Or she likes this dude that was in the last clip
41:01Right
41:02Or she's just realizing she don't want to be with me
41:04You know
41:06That shit pisses me off
41:07I'm sorry like it's not a relationship
41:09That's not my girl but that shit
41:10I think you a good dude bro
41:12It's like is she even thinking about the big picture
41:15Like the fact that she's gonna have to move out of my house
41:17This guy lives in New York
41:18Like and if she can really fall in love
41:21Like in this short amount of time that we've been here
41:23Man that's just telling me a lot about how she is
41:28Evan you alright?
41:31Man my uh
41:33My clip was not hot man
41:37Um
41:38She's crying man
41:39You know just saying she's seeing some things
41:41And she's seeing the old Ev
41:43Basically and uh
41:45But telling me that I'd be proud of her
41:47And how she's conducting herself
41:51I don't want to be no monster
41:57I just don't know man
41:59I don't know man
41:59I feel like I'm just a scumbag both ways bro
42:02I'm all twisted man
42:06I feel like I'm just
42:07Just f***ing up
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