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00:00Ready to trick-or-treat!
00:02Wow.
00:04Oh, who farted?
00:06Ew, it's gone!
00:08It's been 12 years since you came out as trans,
00:11so this girl's been getting it great.
00:14Mom, why is her belly changing and so big?
00:17What?
00:18It's not bae.
00:19We have a really big secret that we have been keeping
00:21from everyone, and that is we are pregnant with baby number
00:26four.
00:27Mm-hmm.
00:28Chloe and I are going to tell the kids the big news today.
00:32Yep.
00:32What big news, Mom?
00:36I'm a model, so I need to have some shade.
00:40I'm about to have a whole bunch of feminizing surgeries
00:43like breast augmentation, facelift, jaw, and chin surgery.
00:48We're going to restructure the bone
00:49so all the incision is going to happen inside your mouth.
00:52And I'm just really worried.
00:57It's like 315 in the morning.
00:59Dallas is supposed to be home at like 245.
01:02So I checked Dallas's location, and he's parked
01:05down the street again.
01:06Is he a girl down the street for me?
01:09Is he cheating?
01:10I mean, I just have like a really bad feeling.
01:13But...
01:26Happy Halloween!
01:27Happy Halloween!
01:29I can't do a witch laugh.
01:30We have Kennedy, a ninja.
01:36Oliver, you're hiding the other ninja.
01:40I'm Kalani.
01:41I'm 37 years old, and I live in Orange County, California.
01:46Hi!
01:47Hi!
01:47You ready for trick-or-treating?
01:48Yeah!
01:49Are you going to get a lot of candy?
01:51Yeah!
01:52My 90-day journey began with my ex, Oswalu,
01:56when we met at a resort in 2016 in Samoa.
02:00Oh, wow.
02:02We fell in love, and soon after that, I became pregnant.
02:06And our son, Oliver, was born.
02:09Hi, Buffy.
02:11And then five months later, Oswalu came to the U.S. on a K-1 visa.
02:15Lord Jesus, please, now.
02:18We are the talk of the smile.
02:23Oh.
02:25Pretty quickly, after Oswalu got here,
02:28I found out that I was pregnant again.
02:30And then Oswalu and I were married in California.
02:33You may kiss the bride.
02:40From the beginning, I knew Oswalu wasn't faithful to me,
02:44and that led to a ton of fights.
02:45Stop saying I'm crazy. I'm not crazy.
02:48You're crazy.
02:49I have expectations,
02:51and you don't like that girls have expectations.
02:54So don't call me crazy.
02:56Say that I have expectations.
02:57You don't expect too much.
03:00He told me that to make up for the multiple times
03:02that he cheated, that I could get a hall pass.
03:04But some major stuff came out of that
03:07when we went to a couples therapy retreat.
03:09Oswalu offered to let me kiss someone.
03:13So I got to know this other guy.
03:16We did kiss each other.
03:20It escalated into actual sex.
03:23Oh, .
03:24Oh, God.
03:27Ultimately, Oswalu and I decided to get divorced,
03:29and I ended up getting into a serious relationship
03:32with the hall pass guy.
03:34Matter of fact, baby, come here.
03:39I know.
03:39Hello.
03:42Hi, everyone.
03:44I was going to say hello to the camera,
03:45but you're already here.
03:46Good job.
03:48I'm Dallas.
03:49I'm 30 years old,
03:50and I'm from Orange County, California.
03:52We met when I needed help moving.
03:55I made, like, this post that I needed help moving
03:58from Utah to California.
04:00I didn't think she was going to answer to begin with
04:03when I responded to her story.
04:04But to be fair, I was following her for a while.
04:08Why were you following me?
04:10I mean, one, you're pretty.
04:12Two, I thought you and your ex-husband were funny.
04:14What?
04:16I mean, you look queer like you were disgusted.
04:21I saw that.
04:25We've been together for almost three years,
04:28and we also have a 16-month-old daughter, Masina.
04:33Oh!
04:35And look!
04:37This is Masina.
04:38Come here, girl.
04:39Masina.
04:40This is her second Halloween,
04:42but her first one that she could actually walk.
04:45I got pregnant, like, nine months into our relationship.
04:50But we were talking about having a baby, like...
04:52For the longest time.
04:53Literally, like, the first week we got together.
04:57Who's ready to trick-or-treat?
05:00Wow.
05:01All right.
05:03Last one to the car is a rotten egg.
05:05I'm going to get there first.
05:06Dressed up and ready for a wild ride.
05:10Trick-or-treat.
05:12And put a spell on me.
05:13What?
05:16Here, Grace.
05:19Oh, goodness gracious.
05:20Who do we have here?
05:23Ninja.
05:24Ninja.
05:25Cute.
05:26And a baby leopard.
05:27And a big ninja.
05:29Okay, come on inside.
05:31I am a total Halloween freak.
05:34I've loved it since I was a kid.
05:36I just had this thing with, like, witches.
05:39I could be a bitch for the day,
05:40and I could just blame it on the costume.
05:42Yeah!
05:46Oh, my God, I'm so sorry.
05:48Ooh!
05:51Hello, Sprinkle Man.
05:52That's a lot of sprinkles.
05:54That looks good.
05:56That's a big bite.
05:58Oh, Oliver, how was yours?
06:00Good.
06:01That looks like a face of not good.
06:05I think we have a stinker here.
06:06Uh-oh.
06:07I'll change her.
06:08You want to come help me?
06:10Sure.
06:10Come on, girl.
06:11Okay.
06:12Let's go.
06:14I know.
06:16I know.
06:18She's Louise.
06:19I know.
06:20I'm almost done.
06:21I'm almost done, girl.
06:24Okay.
06:25All right.
06:26You got a queen booty.
06:27Let's go.
06:30Jeez, she hates me today.
06:32Everybody said that girls are so much easier than boys,
06:35and that is a lie.
06:37And how has Dallas been with her?
06:38Oh, he's great with her.
06:40Well, that's good that he's been helpful.
06:41Yeah.
06:42How are things with you and him?
06:44Eh, could be better.
06:47You know how he works the night shift?
06:49Mm-hmm.
06:49So his hours are already, like, not great.
06:53But then, like, the other day, I woke up randomly out of my sleep.
06:57And then I was like, what the frick?
06:59What time is it?
07:00And it was, like, 20 minutes after he was supposed to be home.
07:02And then I checked his location, and he was parked down the street.
07:06He had been in the car, I'm assuming, for, like, 20, 30 minutes.
07:10So then I was like, what the is he doing in there?
07:14Right.
07:15So, I don't know.
07:18I have absolutely no clue why Dallas would be hanging out at his car at 2 in the morning.
07:23Is he a girl down the street from me?
07:25I'm trying to not be paranoid.
07:28But that's weird, right?
07:30I don't know.
07:31It's, like, I have this voice in my head that's, like, something's not right.
07:34You know what I mean?
07:35Yeah.
07:36But I didn't bring it up.
07:38Maybe if it happens again, then I'll confront him about it.
07:42I just, I don't want to make a problem if it's nothing.
07:46I've had so much stuff done to me that now I just have a really hard time trusting anything with
07:53a penis.
07:56Yeah.
07:57I mean, if my man was parked on the street at 2 a.m. and was supposed to be home,
08:02I'd be a little sketched out about it.
08:04I mean, you did have a lot of stuff happen to you that's going to make you second-guess everything.
08:10But, yeah, if you're doing it when he is undeserving of it...
08:14Right.
08:15...then that's not great.
08:16Yeah.
08:17I do have PTSD from the whole Osweiler thing, so my head tends to spin with all kinds of different
08:23scenarios.
08:24But, Talos has been such a great guy over the last few years, and I don't think he would do
08:30anything to hurt me, so I'm trying not to be paranoid.
08:33Let's go check the cookies.
08:34Okay.
08:35Okay.
08:36Okay.
08:44Oh, frick, that's bright.
08:52Okay.
08:53So, basically, what's going on is it's like 3.15 in the morning.
08:58Dallas is supposed to be home at like 2.45.
09:01So, I checked Dallas' location, and he's parked down the street again.
09:08So, I don't really know what's going on.
09:12Is someone there?
09:14Is he talking to someone?
09:16I just have, like, a really bad feeling, and I honestly feel like I'm going to throw up.
09:25This just feels like torture.
09:27Like, is he cheating, or am I just, like, making it all up in my head because of everything that's
09:32happened to me in the past?
09:33I don't want to go through this kind of thing again.
09:50Come on, Momma.
09:51What's up?
09:55Step.
10:05Come on, Scarlet Anne.
10:08I'm Emily, I'm 34, and I am from Salina, Kansas,
10:13and this is my husband, Kobe.
10:15Yeah, my wonderful husband.
10:18Kobe from Cameroon, and I'm 39 years old.
10:21Oh, he's old.
10:24You want to get in there, don't you?
10:26Whoa!
10:29Family time is so important for us
10:31because they really are only little this once,
10:34and I want to just make sure
10:35that we're soaking up all the time that we have with them,
10:40and that is even more true now
10:42because we have some really big changes coming soon.
10:47How was everybody's day today?
10:49Good.
10:50Whatever you do at school, what did you learn?
10:54Algetters.
10:55I played games on my computer.
10:58That's what you did at school?
10:59Uh-huh.
11:00Yeah.
11:01Must be nice.
11:01Guess what we did is really fun.
11:04We can't go to cap.
11:06We said chocolate.
11:09I didn't know you love chocolate and peanut butter.
11:13I don't like peanut butter.
11:16Kobe and I's 90-day journey started about seven years ago.
11:21I went to Xi'an, China to teach English,
11:25and I saw Kobe in a bar, and I was just like,
11:28oh, my gosh, this man is so hot.
11:30In my mind, when I saw her, I was like,
11:33yo, I'm taking her home tonight.
11:35Yeah, he thought I was a one-night stand,
11:37but really he was just like a smitten kitten
11:39and fell in love with me,
11:41and he proposed to me two weeks later.
11:46Oh, my God.
11:50We had a lot of sex back then at the beginning.
11:53Every relationship at the beginning,
11:55there's a lot of sex.
11:56Oh, my gosh.
11:56There is so much sex.
11:58And then we created our first baby, Kobe.
12:02Congratulations!
12:04I came back to America with all the intention
12:07of Kobe coming as well.
12:10But with COVID and the embassies shutting down,
12:14it made that almost impossible.
12:17When Kobe finally got approved to come to the U.S.
12:20after two years of being separated,
12:22it was, like, just such a heartfelt moment.
12:26Who's that?
12:27You see Papa?
12:27You see Dada?
12:29He's so cute.
12:30He looks just like you.
12:34And then a month later, we got married.
12:38I, Kobe, take you, Emily, to be my wife.
12:41Will you, Emily, take this man to be your husband?
12:45I do.
12:47And since then, we have had our baby girl, Scarlett,
12:51our little baby boy, Atem,
12:54and we have moved into our beautiful home.
12:58What's that say?
13:00Big, big sister.
13:02Good job.
13:04Wow.
13:04Can you read that?
13:05Open.
13:08Oh, who farted?
13:10Me.
13:11You stinker.
13:14Mom, why is her belly changing and so big?
13:18What?
13:18It's not big.
13:19Yeah.
13:21It's not changing.
13:21I think I just ate a lot of food.
13:23It's getting big.
13:26Okay.
13:26It is time to go to bed.
13:28Yeah.
13:29It's time to go to bed.
13:29All right.
13:30You guys have a good sleepover in Scarlett's room.
13:33So we have a really big secret
13:35that we have been keeping from everyone,
13:37and that is we are pregnant with baby number four.
13:42Our family is growing.
13:44Model of joys.
13:45Well, I'm only three and a half months,
13:47and it's a big secret.
13:49Nobody knows.
13:50And we're not going to find out the gender.
13:52Yeah.
13:52We're going to keep it as a brides.
13:54Hi, Mom.
13:55All right, guys.
13:56Bye.
13:57Love you.
13:58Love you.
14:07Bye.
14:09Bye.
14:11Bye.
14:12Bye.
14:13Hello.
14:15Yeah.
14:16That is fire.
14:17I don't want that to get out.
14:19Aww.
14:20That's a great photo.
14:21That's when we went to camera around.
14:22No, we went to camera around.
14:23So we're going to buy a frame and frame it and just hang it in the walls.
14:27I have a frame for it.
14:28You have a frame?
14:29Yeah, it's in the guest room.
14:32Do you want to grab it?
14:33Yeah.
14:34My father passed away a couple of months ago,
14:37and I just thought that in order to honor him, his memories, his legacy, and everything,
14:45I'll print a photo of him and, you know, bring it home so he can hang it somewhere.
14:51Go up. Make sure it's a little even.
14:53You're going to put a nail over here?
14:56We knew he wasn't doing well.
14:58He had had a major surgery, and he had diabetes,
15:02so his body wasn't great at fighting infections.
15:06And how old was he?
15:0775.
15:09And it was really very sad for me because I couldn't make it over there.
15:13But I think of my dad every day.
15:16He's always going to have a special place in my heart.
15:18And now he's going to have a special place in my home.
15:23See how powerful you are?
15:25That's how you are so powerful.
15:26All right, let's go.
15:27He can rip a goat's head off with his bed.
15:31No, but he was very strong.
15:35I want my kids to know that your grandpa was just an open-hearted, kind, you know...
15:41Loved everybody.
15:42Loved everybody.
15:43He really was, is, just a beautiful person inside and out.
16:01Thank you for taking my son like your son.
16:08That's the kind of man that I am aspiring to be to my kids, no matter the odds.
16:14Yeah.
16:15It looks beautiful.
16:17Okay, everybody down.
16:20That's cool.
16:29Chloe and I are going to tell the kids the big news today.
16:33So what big news, Mom?
16:35Huh?
16:36What big news?
16:38Oh, we're going to tell you later tonight, okay?
16:41Okay.
16:42Love you.
16:42Love y'all.
16:49Okay, let's go over here.
16:51Are you guys excited?
16:53Scarlett, come here.
16:54You have to go.
16:54Now it's time for the big surprise.
16:57After Kobe came home with the picture of his dad, it gave me the idea to get family photos done.
17:03I thought that would be a really fun way to tell the kids that we were expecting.
17:06So my cousin Hannah's a photographer, and she's going to take our family photos to capture the kids' reactions when
17:14we tell them that we're having another baby.
17:16We're a family of five, which is so wild.
17:21Right?
17:21Our family of six.
17:23Oh, my gosh.
17:24We're going to be a family of six.
17:26Just blows my mind.
17:28Yeah.
17:28That's why.
17:31It's time for the big surprise.
17:33Are you ready?
17:34How should we do it?
17:35Like this?
17:37Okay, are you guys ready?
17:39Guess what?
17:41What is that?
17:45No?
17:47Could there be a baby in Mommy's belly?
17:51You don't think so?
17:53You don't think so?
17:53Guess what?
17:54Mommy's pregnant.
17:57Yeah, I told you we have something to tell you.
18:00A real baby that you can hold every day.
18:03Let's go!
18:06Pretty soon you're going to be able to feel the baby kick in my belly.
18:09Yeah, very soon.
18:11Are you excited?
18:12Hi!
18:13Hi!
18:13Oh, Scarlett, come here!
18:15What is it going to be for?
18:17In May?
18:18May, very soon.
18:19The cat is out of the bag.
18:21And the reactions are literally everything I hope for.
18:25And you want it to be a baby brother or a baby sister?
18:27A baby sister!
18:29You know, it's obviously very sad that we lost Cisador, but it's special that we're having
18:34this baby.
18:35He's going to always be there for us, and he's going to meet this baby in spirit, and he's
18:41going to watch over us.
18:42Yeah.
18:44Yeah.
18:45All right.
18:46Okay.
18:47All right.
18:48Okay.
18:49Good job.
18:49And your cousin Hannah.
18:50Peace, Scarlett.
18:51Peace.
18:57Look at each other!
18:58Look at each other!
19:00You guys are just the cutest people I've ever seen in my entire life.
19:05That's him!
19:06Look at each other!
19:07Oh, my goodness!
19:10Oh, so pretty!
19:12We're good!
19:12We're done!
19:13Are you pooping?
19:14Is that what you needed?
19:16Is that what it feels like?
19:35I got the feel that's not so good now.
19:38I don't care if I lose it all.
19:42You could never go wrong with a jacket, like a nice, beautiful jacket.
19:46I think this would be really cool in Seoul.
19:49But am I going to be walking around Seoul, all bandaged up, rocking this?
19:56Probably.
19:57It's a yes for me.
20:00I'm Cleo.
20:01I'm 35 years old.
20:02I am originally from Italy, but I've lived in London for the past 16 years.
20:07Right now, I am packing to go to Seoul, South Korea, to get a bunch of feminizing procedures
20:13to give me a super womanly look, and I am so excited.
20:18These girls are getting an upgrade!
20:19Finally!
20:20About time!
20:21It's been 12 years since I came out as trans, so it was about time.
20:26I'm getting a breast augmentation and a plethora of face twigs.
20:31I'm going to be having breast augmentation, lower facelift, mid facelift, jaw-like snatching,
20:39and chin snatching, which will soften the angles of my face, eye surgery.
20:43That's a lot.
20:44Like, I'm telling you, it's a lot.
20:45I'm getting a lot of plastic surgery.
20:47I need some cardigans.
20:49Anyway, I'll get some stuff sorted, and then I'll catch up when it's ready!
20:54My 90-day journey began when I met my ex-Christian on social media.
21:00I was struck up a friendship that quickly blasted him into romance.
21:05Eventually, he came to visit me in London.
21:08Hello!
21:10How are you?
21:11I'm good.
21:13Finally being able to be together was amazing.
21:17But Christian constantly needed to get validation and flirting with other women
21:21made me insecure about whether he was really attracted to me as a trans woman.
21:26So, we broke up.
21:30After Christian and I broke up, I decided to start my medical-surgical transition.
21:35And I had my first gender-affirming surgery focusing on this part of my face primarily.
21:42And, unfortunately, a few things didn't go quite as planned with my healing,
21:46and so I had to have a corrective procedure.
21:50This time, I really want to get back on track to resume and complete my transition.
21:56You know, upper body transition.
22:02Okay, you guys, I have made it through security.
22:07I've chosen to go to Seoul because I'm going to the number one plastic surgery hospital in South Korea.
22:15I'm really excited.
22:16Of course, I'm anxious because sometimes things don't necessarily go as planned with surgery,
22:20so I've definitely had that experience before.
22:22That's all I've got to say.
22:24So, I'll catch you guys later.
22:37Hey guys, I have arrived.
22:40I am kind of really exhausted right now.
22:42I just want to find the driver and go to the hotel.
22:46Sorry, it's really heavy.
22:49Oh, this is so cute.
22:51I love it.
22:53Now, look at that.
22:54They've got PJs ready for me.
22:56Now, I'm definitely going to need some beauty rest because tomorrow I am meeting with the surgeons.
23:01And I'm so excited slash I can't believe this is happening.
23:07Even as a kid, I never felt comfortable within my body because it wasn't reflecting how I felt on the
23:14inside.
23:15So, this is another step into getting my outer body to be closer to how I feel on the inside.
23:21And, you know, tomorrow couldn't come any faster.
23:30Today, I'm going to finally meet my surgeons in person.
23:33I'm definitely taking a big risk having the surgeries alone in a foreign country where not everybody necessarily speaks English.
23:40However, I've known about these doctors and center for years.
23:43And I've been so impressed by the work that I've seen.
23:46And I know that I'm in good hands.
23:48How do you go now?
23:49You want to talk about the job?
23:50Yes.
23:50Me?
23:50Okay.
23:51I'm a model.
23:52Yeah.
23:52So, I need to have some, like, strong feature.
23:55Like, it can't be too...
23:57It needs to have some shape.
23:59Yeah, right, right.
23:59Can I cut your face?
24:01Of course, of course.
24:02We're going to restructure the bone.
24:03So, all the incision is going to happen inside your mouth.
24:06Okay, so it's cold.
24:07So, from outside, you won't be able to see the scars.
24:10And, yummy.
24:11Perfect.
24:12Alright, you'll see him tomorrow.
24:13Come sit down.
24:14Okay.
24:15I have one last surgeon to meet before I can finally go over my titties.
24:20Breast segmentation.
24:21Like, I'm literally going to go through a whole transformation.
24:25Hello.
24:26I specialize in breast and body surgery.
24:29Nice to see you.
24:29Yes, you too.
24:30Could you stand up, please?
24:32Can I measure something?
24:32Of course, of course.
24:33Why don't we just pull down the zipper for a second?
24:35Yeah, of course.
24:36Have you noticed any size differences between left and right?
24:39Because the right is a little bigger.
24:40A little bit bigger.
24:41Yes, that's correct.
24:42I started hormones about 10 or 11 years ago,
24:46and I did develop a little bit of boobies,
24:48but my breasts are still, like, an A cap,
24:51but they're also a little pointy.
24:53Like, it's giving, like, teenagers, and I'm not.
24:56So, it makes me feel really self-conscious and intimacy.
24:59I'm always, like, trying to hide my breasts.
25:02I'm really hoping that this surgery will ramp out my breasts
25:05and even out the asymmetry.
25:08So, most important is the size.
25:10It'd be nice, but I don't want to go too big.
25:12Right, right.
25:12That's how it is.
25:13So, usually, the bigger implants do make the easier cleavage.
25:17So...
25:17Yeah, that makes sense.
25:19This is the first time that I'm having work done on my, you know, top surgery.
25:23And I am so torn about choosing the size,
25:27because since I have a rather broad chest,
25:31if I get really small implants,
25:33then you're still going to see a lot of my ribcage,
25:36which may make it look a little less feminine.
25:40On the other hand, getting bigger tatas
25:43will make it so that I do have cleavage.
25:46So, I need to make a decision.
25:48Will I change the size tomorrow?
25:50Perfect. Thank you so much. It's been a pleasure.
25:52Thank you. Bye-bye.
25:56Okay, you guys. Tomorrow is my surgery.
25:59And I still don't know what size...
26:02Oops, I'm gonna get out.
26:03There's something I used to do as a kid, like, all the time.
26:10Oh, my God.
26:11All this paper, the portraits.
26:15I feel like the right side, it's giving mommy...
26:18Sorry, mommy.
26:19Like, it's giving...
26:20The guys would eat that up.
26:22Literally.
26:23But the left side is giving...
26:26She's a legend.
26:28She's a model.
26:29She's iconique.
26:31Maybe somewhere in the middle is where I'll end up.
26:34I don't know.
26:40Guys, I am here in the bathroom.
26:43I am waiting for my patient coordinator.
26:46Today is the day I am finally having my surgical transformation.
26:51I'm feeling all emotions at the same time at once.
26:55I'm nervous.
26:56I'm excited.
26:57It's a lot.
26:59I literally did not sleep last night.
27:02I was just too excited.
27:04I'm like...
27:04Yeah.
27:05And you'll be sleeping during the surgery anyways.
27:08I've decided to go for the full B cap rather than the C because I think the smaller implants will
27:16fit my frame better.
27:18We're gonna go under the breast and from today you have to lift anything too heavy.
27:24I'm literally about to have all these surgeries and I'm feeling everything right now.
27:35What if something doesn't go up as planned?
27:37What if there's issues with my healing?
27:39What if I am unhappy with some of the things and, you know, I need further surgery?
27:44Like, I've definitely had that happen to me and I'm just really worried.
27:51So we'll get ready to worry about it.
27:54Just taking a nap and everything's gonna be over.
27:56Thank you so much, doctor.
28:01You so much.
28:17Cheers, Luis.
28:19Oh, she pooped.
28:21Oh, well , well, daddy's got the diaper.
28:26I'm going to therapy.
28:28OK, bye.
28:29Bye.
28:30Bye.
28:31So I woke up the other night and saw that Dallas was parked down the street again.
28:36He eventually came inside at like 3.30, but I can't shake the feeling that something else is
28:42going on or something else is up. I haven't confronted him about it and I just don't know
28:49what to do or what to say. The only quiet place I have in the house is in the garage,
28:54so we're doing therapy in there. Let's go. I had a session with my therapist today.
29:00She's been a huge help at processing trauma in my other relationships,
29:04so I'm hoping that she could tell me if I'm being paranoid or if I should in fact confront Dallas.
29:14Good morning, Lani. How are you this morning?
29:18Hi, Paulette. I'm good. A little tired per usual, but I did want to ask you something,
29:24Paulette, about what's been going on like with me and my partner. So for the last couple of nights,
29:30I've noticed that he like parks down the street and stays in the car for like a long time.
29:38He should have been in the house like 20 minutes before that. So didn't know how to confront him
29:44or if I should. I don't know if that's worth bringing up or if that would be another thing
29:50where that's like my past trauma with my ex and like him kind of being shady with his location.
29:57Like, I just don't want to make problems, but I also don't want to be dumb. It's like
30:07way more hurtful than other things. Sorry.
30:13I like I know he's not responsible for all of my anxiety. So there's this part of me that just
30:18feels
30:19anxious that I have to always be like, what's that? What's that? What are you doing?
30:22Exactly. When you have that impulse, that's coming from the trauma. So when you have that feeling,
30:29that's when we stop for a moment and go, OK, all right, this is what I'm used to. And you
30:36want to
30:36be able to kind of ask him because why is he parked outside for this long of time? Right. And
30:44I would
30:45express that to him using your I statements. I feel a little uneasy because I've noticed that you've
30:52been staying in your car for a long time. I need to discuss it with you just so that I
30:58can like let
30:59go of it. Excellent. Paulette is right. And I need to talk to Dallas about this, but I think I'm
31:06just
31:06afraid if it is true and if it is what I think that it is, that everything's just going to
31:11be ruined.
31:12Thank you so much, Paulette.
31:14Till next time. All right. Bye.
31:18Back to the chaos.
31:32What movie do you want to watch?
31:34Something not for kids.
31:42Before we start, can I talk to you about something?
31:45Sure.
31:46A couple of times now that when you're supposed to be home, you're parked down the street.
31:52And I've like not brought it up the last couple of times it happened, but then the other night
31:57when it happened, it was like a long time.
32:05Well, I'm parked down the street and you know where I am.
32:10I can tell you, I can tell you honestly, I just sit in my car and kind of just come
32:17back together.
32:18I mean, because I work all day, so sometimes I just need a few minutes to decompress.
32:25I know, but like that late at night, don't you just want to go to bed?
32:29I mean, yeah, but sometimes I just kind of need a minute, you know what I mean?
32:34I don't really understand like what you mean by decompress and why can't you just decompress at home?
32:39I mean, I'm around people all day at work, so sometimes I just want a couple minutes of just alone
32:44time and just listen to music.
32:47Okay.
32:48But I mean, you can't just do that in the room?
32:50Well, I mean, if I decompress in my car, it just means that I'm not trying to wake you and
32:54the kids up.
32:56Yeah.
32:56So you're not having sex with a girl in the back seat?
32:59I mean, have you seen my box?
33:02What f***s are we talking about?
33:06I've never, I've seen neither.
33:07I've seen neither.
33:08Good Lord.
33:09I've seen neither.
33:15I trust you, but like the second I get triggered, I like view you from the perspective of my ex
33:21where it's like, I'm going to get f***ed over again.
33:24You're just protecting yourself.
33:25So yeah, can we just like make a deal, baby, that if you're going to be more than 15 minutes,
33:31can you just text me?
33:32Yeah, of course.
33:34I need to feel safe in this relationship.
33:37Yeah.
33:38That's one of those things where it just takes time.
33:40I know.
33:42But what, we're like almost three years in.
33:44I don't care if it takes five years or ten years.
33:51Boater alert.
33:56I mean, now that I know you're not cheating, I feel like we always end things a certain way.
34:01You know, makeup says.
34:03Yeah.
34:03You want to go right now?
34:04Mm-hmm.
34:05Cool.
34:06Okay.
34:08Okay.
34:12Okay.
34:19So we'll get ready.
34:20Don't worry about it.
34:21Just taking a nap and everything's going to be over.
34:24Thank you so much, doctor.
34:28I'm about to have a whole bunch of feminizing procedures.
34:33I'll be adding my breast augmentation and a plethora of facial tweaks.
34:38I am a little nervous because it's a lot of surgeries to be had all at the same time.
34:44And I'm just really worried.
34:46And I'm just really worried.
35:14I'm just really worried about how hard it is to have surgery alone in a foreign country.
35:27I do think that, you know, going forward, for my future surgeries, which I am planning to have,
35:37I want to make sure that there's at least one person going forward.
35:41Just to feel like, if I feel lazy, if I feel tired, if I feel fatigued, there's going to be
35:47somebody next to me.
35:56Hey guys, so I'm getting dressed in a gown.
35:58This is my final consultation with the surgeons.
36:02I'm so looking forward to it.
36:08I'm going to go ahead and relax against the chair.
36:13There's not that much swelling.
36:15Because we reduced the bone, it's going to be reduced about that much.
36:22Perfect.
36:29I am loving my snatched new face.
36:32And I also really like the way my face is feeling.
36:35I feel like especially all my lip scars are looking amazing.
36:43This is the first time I've actually seen them without a support bra.
36:47It's crazy.
36:49I have a dance.
36:50I love them.
36:53They look so natural and so beautiful.
36:56And they have a really nicely rounded shape.
36:58I'm so happy I went for a B-cap.
37:02If I went bigger, I would have 100% regretted it.
37:05You really managed to make them look so natural.
37:07And it's going to become much more natural as time goes.
37:10I mean, I'm already happy as they are.
37:12I definitely feel like more grown up.
37:15Like I feel like the whole time I had this breast that pretty much looked like a teenager.
37:21It definitely made me feel a little, like, at least physically stuck in a body that wasn't fully developed.
37:26And being softened the angles of my face, giving me a more feminine look.
37:31Like, now I definitely feel like the woman that I was meant to be.
37:36Thank you very much.
37:43I am almost ready to go.
37:46However, I do think I bought way too much K-Beauty because my luggage doesn't really close.
37:53I am going to have to take it easy for a couple of weeks because I need to make sure
37:58that all my swelling goes down and my body fully recovers.
38:01I want to say thank you to this room.
38:03I want to say especially to this room for looking after me while I was recovering from surgery and having
38:09so much anxiety.
38:10I want to say thanks to the spirit of this room.
38:14Okay, you guys, I have to rush.
38:17I'll see you on the other side.
38:18Bye.
38:19Bye.
38:20Bye.
38:22Bye.
38:22Bye.
38:23Bye.
38:29Georgina's here.
38:36Hi, girl.
38:38How are you?
38:39I'm so good.
38:41So good to see you.
38:42Thank you so much for coming.
38:44Of course.
38:45It's been two weeks since my surgery and I'm healing nicely.
38:49So I'm having my best friend Georgina coming over.
38:52We're going to do a little photo shoot together.
38:55Like a sexy, sultry photo shoot to show off my snatched new face and boobies.
39:02So these are the girls.
39:05Oh my gosh, you look so good.
39:08I can't wait to see them like properly.
39:10Properly.
39:10I feel like Korea changed me like literally, internally and externally.
39:18Okay, I think that's good.
39:29I'm loving my body.
39:30I'm feeling the most confident I ever did.
39:58I'm moving the right track.
40:02Like, oh, oh, oh.
40:03Look at Tim!
40:04Oh, my goodness.
40:08I just got back from Ireland.
40:10I've been with Ronnie for a while now.
40:12So I was 100% ready to propose to that man.
40:15I wanted to propose to Ronnie, my boyfriend,
40:18but he found the ring.
40:19And since then, our relationship status has changed.
40:23You need a man's man, and he's just not it.
40:28Cheers.
40:28One thing that I do miss is the touch and feel of a woman.
40:33You know, intimate moments and that kind of thing.
40:35Bam.
40:35Lose and relax.
40:36Back right.
40:38Let me show you something.
40:47Jen, the good times would be overshadowed by the bad times.
40:52Right up with her.
40:53Call her at her.
40:54Call her at her.
40:54You're saying call her right now.
40:55You know, since meeting Jen at the singles retreat in Mexico,
40:58it's toxic.
41:00And I know I need to break up with her.
41:02But she's not going to make this easy at all.
41:05Whew.
41:06You got it.
41:07I'm trying.