00:00I'm Lucy Fink, and this is 5 Days of Facing My Fears.
00:08I recently came across the YouTube channel of Michelle Poehler,
00:11an incredible woman who quit her job one day so that she could take on a project
00:15that had her facing 100 fears in 100 days.
00:21The rest of the videos in Try Living with Lucy have me eating luxurious foods
00:26and trying cool spa treatments and traveling to different parts of the world.
00:30So why on earth, if I'm the producer of this series, would I put myself in a position to be
00:35scared?
00:36And then I stopped and I said, Lucy, stop.
00:39Not everything is easy. If you want to grow as a person, you need to challenge yourself.
00:44And now on Monday, I'm going to pull out what I have to do today.
00:48Okay.
00:48And then we'll go from here and plan the rest of my week.
00:51Okay?
00:52Alright, here it goes.
00:54Good luck!
00:55I hope it's a really scary one.
00:57I hope it's not!
01:02Oh, God!
01:05Eating crickets.
01:06Oh my God!
01:07I was hoping I didn't get that one!
01:10No!
01:10Day one, I ate crickets.
01:13And I challenged myself to eat not one, not two, but three crickets.
01:18Before I started, my cameraman ate a few just to show me that it would be okay.
01:24It's kind of like corn.
01:27Are you kidding?
01:30Holy sh...
01:31I can't do it, Andrew!
01:32I can't do it!
01:35Step one is get used to holding them.
01:38Oh my God.
01:39I don't want it.
01:40And what did it feel like?
01:41Did you...
01:41Wait, it moved!
01:44Should I throw it up and catch it in my mouth?
01:46That's fun.
01:46I'll throw it up and catch it.
01:48Wait, it broke!
01:49It broke in my hand!
01:50It's just protein.
01:51It's just corn.
01:52It's just corn and protein.
01:53Berlinade...
02:02It's down.
02:03Oh, I did one!
02:06One down!
02:09Ohhhh...
02:10Okay.
02:18the last cricket
02:26not bad but it's a cricket
02:28looking back on today's experience I was really really freaking out
02:33I mean like borderline overreacting
02:35and I know that and I'm comfortable saying it
02:37so I'm glad I conquered that fear but never ever ever ever doing that again
02:45so on Tuesday let's see what we've got
02:50oh my god
02:54biking around New York City
02:56that's scarier than eating the freaking cricket
02:59you think?
03:00when I moved here I saw everybody biking I thought it was safe
03:03so I did it and I was terrified and I went back home
03:06like after two blocks I'm like I'm not doing it
03:08I'm not dying today
03:09I have now lived in New York City for two years
03:12and surprisingly enough I've never biked here
03:16to paint you a nice New York City picture
03:17in the past three weeks I myself have witnessed
03:20three bikers get hit by cars
03:22and two pedestrians get hit by bikers
03:25this city is loud, it's fast moving
03:27people are everywhere
03:29it is wild
03:32wild
03:32and you're not allowed to bike on the sidewalk
03:34so you need to stay in the streets with the cars
03:37or in the narrow bike lanes
03:38I felt like people could tell that it was my first time riding through the city
03:42someone waved to me and was like
03:44you got this girl keep going
03:45I rode through some incredibly tight spaces
03:48scared every minute of the way that a car door was going to open up and just take me out
03:52but I made it! I'm alive!
03:55two fears down and I'm a cricket eating cyclist
03:58I kind of feel like the queen of the world right now
04:01woohoo!
04:08let's do it
04:10please be something easy
04:12no
04:14look the more uncomfortable you get the greater the video
04:17and the greater the reward
04:18you're right
04:19oh this will be good
04:20okay
04:20I'll be uncomfortable
04:22reading negative internet comments out loud
04:25wow
04:26that's a great one
04:27you guys know me
04:28I host a lot of video content here
04:31I upload it to YouTube and Facebook and Snapchat Discover
04:34and then I invite the world to comment below and give me their feedback
04:37most of the time the feedback that I'm getting from the world is awesome
04:41but when I come across something rude
04:42the last thing I want to do is read it out loud and broadcast it to the world
04:47so today I took on that fear head on
04:50did she go five days without a phone or five days without food?
04:56that's mean
04:57you are dumb
04:59what a boring self-absorbed little dweeb
05:02f*** off knobhead
05:03I find her almost constant voice fry intensely irritating
05:08sorry Kathy
05:09stupid f*** can't even go five minutes without craving attention and validation from others
05:15yes I can
05:16f*** off you dumb f***
05:18I hope you f***ing die
05:20that's a comment
05:21what a very sad loser
05:23sweetie
05:25eat a sandwich
05:26I would love a sandwich right now
05:30what are we gonna do about these people?
05:32haters gonna hate
05:32if I'm going to successfully progress in my career
05:35I need to be 100% okay with ingesting the negative comments that come my way
05:40I need to be able to read it aloud
05:42grasp my personal feelings on it
05:44and move along
05:48alright
05:50Thursday
05:52let's see what's in store
05:56speak to a psychic
05:57oh my god
05:58why are you afraid of that?
05:59psychics and mediums
06:01creepy
06:01true story
06:02I've been avoiding these people for my entire life
06:05if there's gonna be a traumatic moment
06:07or death
06:08or disease
06:08or ailment
06:10don't tell me
06:11so today I opened up my apartment to a woman named Colleen
06:14the first thing she did was sage me down to clear off my negative energy
06:18and bad sign
06:20the fire alarm went off
06:21demonic feather fan
06:23oops
06:26so all I need from you is to take some deep breaths
06:30she could sense my fear and anxiety
06:32so we did some breathing techniques to calm me down
06:35nice deep yoga breaths
06:36is spirit in the room?
06:39so my pendulum turns clockwise
06:42when it's a yes
06:43she discovered that a female spirit was in the room with me
06:47and upon further questioning of the pendulum
06:49we found out that it was my grandmother Beatrice
06:52so Beatrice is here?
06:53Beatrice
06:53interesting
06:54I have never met Beatrice before
06:56she passed away long before I was born
06:58my grandma's my spirit guy too
07:00it's very common
07:00my middle name is Beatrice
07:02well
07:02if you're a name for her
07:03of course she's going to stay close
07:05there you go
07:07at Lucy D
07:08it was kind of nice to hear that she was there with me
07:12and that she's my spirit guide
07:13Colleen told me some crazy stories
07:15she's seen and spoken to ghosts
07:17she told me some things that would make the hairs on anyone's arms
07:20stick right up
07:21but by the end of our session I was not scared anymore
07:24and I was so happy and proud of myself for getting over the fear
07:39I need to hold a tarantula
07:43ask any of my close friends and they will tell you that I am so afraid of honestly all bugs
07:48but mostly giant bugs
07:50trying to figure out where to go today I googled giant bugs and was led directly to Ryan the bug
07:57man
07:57a guy who has over 150,000 insects and brings his collection on the road for educational programs
08:04my cameraman and I rented a car and drove three and a half hours today to Pennsylvania to visit Ryan
08:10and his bugs
08:11if you stuff a tarantula in your mouth and it bites you it's not going to kill you
08:15but it's going to bite you because you stuffed it in your mouth
08:18it doesn't want to be in your mouth
08:19the first insect that I held was a scorpion
08:22oh
08:23and this is Kevin
08:24his name was Kevin
08:25Hollywood loves these
08:27when you see scorpions on TV
08:29nine times out of ten
08:31they're big ones like this
08:32because they're totally and completely heartless
08:35and none of this stuff is going to hurt you
08:37there you go
08:37Kevin, hi
08:38that's Kevin
08:40after holding him for a little while
08:41it was sort of just like a black lobster was in my hands
08:44not creepy at all
08:45he was really cute
08:46we became friends
08:48that's really all there is to it
08:49next I moved on to probably the most disturbing part of the day
08:53the hissing cockroaches
08:55okay so
08:56not such a big deal
08:57do this we'll start it small
08:58okay
09:00after he put one and then two and then seven in my hands at once
09:05I calmed down
09:06wow
09:07flatten out your hands now
09:09it's pretty cool
09:10there you go
09:11oh yeah
09:12and last but not least
09:15the tarantula
09:16these are the classic pet shop
09:18buy a pet kind of tarantula that you can find
09:21there are no deadly tarantulas anywhere on the planet
09:23really
09:24nobody ever died from a tarantula bite ever
09:27she's so light
09:28and at first I thought she was incredibly creepy looking
09:32but after she sat in my hand for a few seconds
09:34I realized how sweet and innocent and harmless she is
09:38by the end of my hour long visit
09:40I was totally BFFs with each and every creature
09:43this is Jack
09:45and I have to say
09:46this fear is the one this week that has really turned my life around
09:50I can confidently state to the internet with 100% certainty
09:54that I have gotten over my fear of spiders and all insects
10:00this week made my heart race
10:01it made me scream
10:03it made me more physically uncomfortable than I've been in years
10:06but I did it
10:08thanks so much for watching
10:09and let me know what you want to see next time on Try Living With Lucy
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