00:00The next 13 years were hell.
00:04I dreaded going to our bedroom every night because I didn't want him to have f*** with me.
00:08I remember him talking about the things he wanted to do.
00:11He's saying those things made me feel dirty.
00:14They made me feel cheap.
00:15They made me feel uncomfortable.
00:16I didn't want to do those things.
00:18I would try to wait him out every night, hoping he'd fall asleep and wouldn't wake up so I could,
00:22you know, kind of slide into the bed.
00:24When I got a job in 2010, he said he wanted to stay home and homeschool the girls.
00:31I later learned that he didn't feed my children when I was at work.
00:35They would ask him for food and he would get mad and say he was busy.
00:38When I would come home from work, my girl's hair wasn't combed, teeth wasn't brushed.
00:41They were still in their pajamas and they were clinging to me.
00:44On the way to work every day, he would find a reason to pick a fight and he would yell
00:48and scream at me all the way to work.
00:50I would cry and fix my face and go to face my job.
00:54When I got back home, my girls would miss me.
00:56They want to be with me.
00:57And he would pry them off of me and say, your mother has been gone all day.
01:01We're a married couple.
01:02She needs to be with me.
01:04You can see her later.
01:05And he knew that hurting them was torturous for me.
01:10We never knew when a trip to the grocery store would turn into him getting mad at somebody for some
01:16imaginary thing.
01:18And then, well, that's it.
01:19We're out of here.
01:20And so my girls didn't get to go anywhere and I didn't get to have any friends.
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