00:00My father was abusive, but I didn't know that because he wasn't beating my mother, he wasn't
00:05yelling and screaming and cursing at her. As far as my relationship with my dad, I didn't like him
00:11most of the time because he was mean. He would say things that made me feel like I wasn't pretty.
00:16He would call you a loser if you messed up. So I grew up with thinking the best way to
00:22get along
00:22with men was to appease them, make nice with them, or stay out of their way. And so all of
00:29this
00:29conditioning, when I met my husband, it all made sense that even though it didn't feel comfortable
00:36sometimes, it felt normal. He was very doting. He was very considerate. I was sick at the time and
00:43he was very attentive and compassionate. There were times when he was very impatient and rude or snippy,
00:49but my dad acted like that. I didn't know that my dad was assaulting my sister. How did I meet
00:55Mr.
00:55Man? Well, I was 35. I was playing for a church. He walked in and he had a present. He
01:03was all of
01:04the things that I wanted or thought I wanted. So he was funny. I wanted a man who could stimulate
01:10my
01:10mind. It just turned into this whole thing of I depended on him. I remember the first time that
01:16we had an argument, I remember being confused because it seemed like it came out of nowhere.
01:21And then all of a sudden, the really sweet, kind, charming, gentle-spoken, kind person disappeared.
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