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00:00:18You wanna know what it was like for me, growing up in Gilead?
00:00:23I'm ashamed to say that I believed in Gilead once.
00:00:26I guess it's easier to accept a story, even a childish one, rather than believe that the
00:00:33people around you are monsters.
00:00:42In this story I'm telling, I'm not really sure what year it was.
00:00:46Sorry, it's hard to remember actual dates because girls were forbidden to have calendars.
00:00:52Just reading one could cost you a finger.
00:01:04You learn to mark time in other ways.
00:01:07I know I still had my dollhouse.
00:01:09It looked just like our real house.
00:01:13It had my bedroom and the dining room, a wife's parlor, even an attic where the Martha slept.
00:01:19They're in the bed that's looking for me.
00:01:22We're in the city getting out of the freeze.
00:01:25Put the drink box back home late.
00:01:28I'm free.
00:01:33I was a plum.
00:01:36I didn't have my period yet.
00:01:38In my world then, I made all the difference.
00:01:42It was all we wanted, and it also terrified us.
00:01:56It was all I was trying.
00:02:00I knew that I was like this.
00:02:02I knew what to do now that I've got a man like you.
00:02:22The commander doll was always doing very important work, just like my father, keeping us safe from heretics and mayday
00:02:30terrorists.
00:02:46The Martha dolls were always busy, but at night they would let the little girl doll sit in the kitchen
00:02:51with them.
00:02:52They would make her cinnamon toast and they would all talk.
00:03:03There is a wife doll, in blue of course.
00:03:07That would be Paula, who was my new stepmother then.
00:03:11Blessed morning, Agnes, dear.
00:03:13Rosa, how's your leg? Please tell me it's better.
00:03:15Yes, ma'am.
00:03:18It's kind of you to ask.
00:03:19Praise be his mercy.
00:03:22The high dusting is catching up with us, I'm afraid.
00:03:25Yes, ma'am. I'll do that after the commander's meeting.
00:03:32Thank you, Zilla.
00:03:34Zilla was new.
00:03:35Her tongue was removed as punishment before she was posted with us.
00:03:39Probably for blasphemy.
00:03:41That was a big one for some wives.
00:03:44Well, she's certainly an improvement.
00:03:46That last one we had was a chatty-cathy.
00:03:49Sometimes, when I was playing with the dollhouse, I would lock the Paula doll in the attic, which was not
00:03:55nice.
00:03:56The Paula doll would pound on the door and scream, but the little girl doll would pay no attention.
00:04:02And sometimes she would laugh.
00:04:04Is that the new skirt?
00:04:07Up then.
00:04:11Well, don't you look pretty as a picture.
00:04:17Mother.
00:04:20I was worried it would make you look gawky, but no.
00:04:29Praise be his mercy for not making me look too gawky.
00:04:35I'm an irritant to Paula.
00:04:38She wants me married and gone.
00:04:42I was born in the sinful before world.
00:04:45Please keep the counter clean.
00:04:47We don't want to get guns again.
00:04:49Yes, ma'am.
00:04:53Don't slouch, dear.
00:04:55Souching girls get a fat husband.
00:05:12What's the morning, is that?
00:05:17Under inside, a smoothie card.
00:05:18Bye, Rosa.
00:05:21Bye.
00:05:23Bye.
00:05:23Bye.
00:05:24Bye.
00:05:25Bye.
00:05:25Bye.
00:05:35Once, when we were pinks, I smiled at a boy on the playground.
00:05:39Theon's taped my mouth shut and made me stand in the dining hall for two days,
00:05:42holding the sign for a slut.
00:05:44That was for smiling.
00:05:46I wonder what would happen if I kissed one.
00:05:55Oh, it's Birmingham.
00:05:56But yeah, way behind us was still in the dark...
00:05:57... י είναι qui
00:06:24When we became plums, we started going on the field trips.
00:06:28They were fun.
00:06:30Some parts more than others.
00:06:42I got you!
00:07:05Come on girls!
00:07:08Quickly!
00:07:17Quiet, quiet, quiet!
00:07:18Dreaming, dreaming is free.
00:07:24I don't want you to live on charity.
00:07:30Pleasure's real, or is it fantasy?
00:07:39Gross.
00:07:40Hold it enough.
00:07:42God's justice is beautiful.
00:07:44I'm sorry Aunt Vidala.
00:07:46Friends, these men, do you know what crime they committed?
00:07:54Yes, Shinamite.
00:07:56Rape.
00:07:56Avidala, that's what the red X is for.
00:07:58It's for rape.
00:08:00Praise be.
00:08:01Friends, these men.
00:08:04These horrible men.
00:08:06These...
00:08:08Rapists?
00:08:08You say rapists?
00:08:10Rapists, yes.
00:08:12Thank you, Shinamite.
00:08:13I'm not rapists.
00:08:15I didn't know that.
00:08:16Friends, it's a ghastly story.
00:08:19These men stole a young girl.
00:08:21Much like yourselves.
00:08:23This young girl was a kind who liked being the center of attention.
00:08:26A spirited girl.
00:08:28That kind of girl often earns a violent end for herself.
00:08:32Praise be his judgment.
00:08:34Praise be his judgment.
00:08:35These men saw this girl.
00:08:37They were overcome by their urges.
00:08:40They came in the night and took her from her own bed.
00:08:45What about her guardians?
00:08:47Some of them were her guardians.
00:08:49The urges of men are terrible things.
00:08:52Those urges must be curbed.
00:08:54That is the burden that God has personally laid upon each of you.
00:08:58Just by existing, we were mortally dangerous to otherwise perfectly good men.
00:09:03They were helpless to resist us.
00:09:06Even us.
00:09:07The daughters of commanders.
00:09:09The most godly of girls.
00:09:31I was a precious flower.
00:09:34Then why did I sometimes feel like a prized pig?
00:09:37I was a precious flower.
00:09:52I was a jealous.
00:09:54I'm a wonderful girl.
00:09:58I just want to play a party together.
00:09:59Take care.
00:10:00I'm sorry.
00:10:05I'll be here.
00:10:06I'll be here.
00:10:07Bye.
00:10:08Bye.
00:10:09At the Aunt Lydia school, pink dresses were for little girls, plum dresses were for older
00:10:13girls like us, predestined to marry high Gilead commanders once we became eligible, which
00:10:19only happened if God blessed us with a period.
00:10:22Then, we became greens, and got pins.
00:10:28Blessed be the fruit.
00:10:30You're insane.
00:10:31The skirt looks fine.
00:10:32May the Lord open, don't bother.
00:10:34Even God knows Paul has no taste.
00:10:36Come along, friends.
00:10:39Becca was the first person I met when we moved here from Colorado.
00:10:43She was my best friend, except we weren't allowed to have best friends.
00:10:47The aunt said that best friends led to keeping secrets, and secrets led to disobedience.
00:10:51And disobedient girls became women who were immoral, obviously.
00:10:55We've been sent good weather.
00:10:57This blessing.
00:10:58You have your address for you?
00:11:00Keep moving, girls.
00:11:01Let's go.
00:11:02After lunch.
00:11:03Becca was already green.
00:11:04She was getting ready to be matched.
00:11:06She was moving on, without me.
00:11:08But we didn't talk about that.
00:11:10This will be our third seamstress.
00:11:12My mother thinks if she gets the bodice just right, everyone will forget my dad's a dentist.
00:11:17Maybe she dresses you too?
00:11:19Blessed day.
00:11:20Blessed day.
00:11:21We've been sent good weather.
00:11:22But I received with joy.
00:11:23Very, very cute hair.
00:11:25Yeah, I definitely agree.
00:11:26Thanks.
00:11:27You, Martha.
00:11:28Blessed be yours too.
00:11:29Seriously.
00:11:29My Martha's socks.
00:11:30I look like I have a bad head.
00:11:32Funamite.
00:11:32Chitter-chatter, chitter-chatter.
00:11:34Flap your tongue around and you're likely to lose it.
00:11:36Yes, auntie dolly.
00:11:37Have a graceful day, girls.
00:11:40More haste.
00:11:41Blessed be yours.
00:11:44Aunt Lydia was a legend.
00:11:46Blessed day, Aunt Lydia.
00:11:47She had been worshipped, then vilified.
00:11:49Thank you, Aunt Lydia.
00:11:50Then worshipped again.
00:11:52Blessed day, Aunt Lydia.
00:11:53In the four years since the war of Massachusetts, the purges had happened.
00:11:57As always, those remaining were able to shape history as they liked.
00:12:01Some people were hung, and some had schools named after them.
00:12:09At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived, and enslaved by all kinds of passions
00:12:15and envy.
00:12:16We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another.
00:12:20But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, He saved us.
00:12:26Not because of the righteous things we had done, but because of His mercy.
00:12:32White was for the pearl girls.
00:12:34They were new arrivals from outside of Gilead, converts to a godly struggle.
00:12:38We might become heirs, having the hope of eternal life.
00:12:41Aunt Lydia and her missionaries gathered them from all over the world.
00:12:44They were mostly runaways.
00:12:46Of course they had to be young, and possibly fertile.
00:12:51Weirdos.
00:12:58The aunts said the pearl girls came eager for a new start.
00:13:01They were even more eager to prove their godliness by telling on you to the aunts.
00:13:05We all knew someone who had been ratted out by a pearl girl.
00:13:08Amen.
00:13:10The passion of the converted.
00:13:12What a pain in the ass.
00:13:35Nice work, Constance.
00:13:51Pretty daisies, Hilda.
00:13:53Really?
00:13:55Thank you, Aunt Este.
00:13:56They're actually Black Eyed Susan.
00:13:57Should you be thanking me?
00:13:59No.
00:14:01No.
00:14:01Thank him.
00:14:02Aunt Este.
00:14:03You're making me able, and for the flowers he made of the thread.
00:14:09Pray forgive me.
00:14:10You are forgiven.
00:14:12Just be mindful around off the dollar.
00:14:17Aunt Gabbana!
00:14:18Blessed morning.
00:14:24Agnes.
00:14:25Aunt Lydia would like to speak with you.
00:14:32Come along.
00:14:35Agnes, get up, please.
00:14:37I'm sure it's good news.
00:14:39Back to work.
00:15:12By tradition, only dead people are allowed to have statues.
00:15:16I have been given one while still alive.
00:15:21Praise be your works, Aunt Lydia.
00:15:23I have been prematurely petrified.
00:15:31Agnes Mackenzie, how the time goes by.
00:15:36I have been watching you for quite a while now.
00:15:40Why, Aunt Lydia?
00:15:42Soon to be eligible.
00:15:44May God make me truly worthy.
00:15:46Ah, you will be rewarded.
00:15:48If you are free of sin, of course.
00:15:51Do you know why this statue was erected?
00:15:56So you can always be watching over us.
00:15:58Yes.
00:15:59We inspire the world with our good works, Agnes.
00:16:02Do you agree?
00:16:04Yes, Aunt Lydia.
00:16:05Excellent.
00:16:06I have good work that needs doing.
00:16:08Helping a new friend feel welcome.
00:16:17Agnes, this is Daisy, one of my precious, precious pearls recently arrived.
00:16:23Daisy may be joining your class.
00:16:27She's going to be a plum?
00:16:29Perhaps.
00:16:29I'd like you to show her around.
00:16:32Make her feel comfortable.
00:16:34Be her shepherdess.
00:16:36It's an honor for you, Agnes.
00:16:38Thank you, Aunt Lydia.
00:16:40Daisy, be a good girl and stay with Agnes.
00:16:43Lambs, don't stray.
00:16:45Yes, Aunt Lydia.
00:16:47Thank you, Aunt Lydia.
00:16:50Wonderful.
00:16:50Go in grace.
00:17:02Blessed fruit, may the Lord open.
00:17:13Painting and sketching.
00:17:22Music classroom.
00:17:29Comportments this way.
00:17:30Domestic management is upstairs with Aunt L'Oreal.
00:17:33Hospitality.
00:17:34Decorating.
00:17:35Culinary arts.
00:17:37Fiber arts, like embroidery, vase making.
00:17:40You can make a tablecloth, if you dare.
00:17:44And scripture class.
00:17:45Price be his word.
00:17:48Weirdo.
00:17:51Aunt Lydia didn't tell me much about you.
00:17:54Did she tell you anything about me?
00:17:58Nothing, Miss Agnes.
00:18:10Did she ask you to watch me?
00:18:14Of course, Miss Agnes.
00:18:17To learn how to behave properly.
00:18:22Discipline and corrections are in the on-swing.
00:18:25You only go there when you earn it.
00:18:31And lunch.
00:18:32Blessed be his bounty.
00:18:38This is the dining room.
00:18:40Very obviously.
00:18:43Let's eat.
00:18:46You cannot be mistress of a house unless you are the mistress of yourself.
00:18:52Do you understand me, girls?
00:18:54Yes, Aunt Vidala.
00:18:57It is an offense to God to waste food with poor preparation.
00:19:01If your meal is unacceptable, speak firmly to your Martha.
00:19:05Do you understand me, girls?
00:19:08Yes, Aunt Vidala.
00:19:09Friends, let us give thanks to him.
00:19:16And?
00:19:18God is great.
00:19:19God is good.
00:19:20Thank you, God, for our food.
00:19:22Highest blessings we are fed.
00:19:24Give us, Lord, our daily bread.
00:19:26Amen.
00:19:29Girls.
00:19:32You may socialize.
00:19:48What is all this then?
00:19:50This is Daisy.
00:19:51Aunt Lydia asked me to make her feel welcome.
00:19:53Hey.
00:19:56It's a blessing to meet you all.
00:19:59Get out.
00:20:09We're enjoying very fine weather.
00:20:12By God's blessing.
00:20:16It's a high-pressure system, I think.
00:20:20Daisy.
00:20:21Craig.
00:20:22Where do you hail from?
00:20:24Toronto.
00:20:25Canada.
00:20:26Myth.
00:20:27Shunammite.
00:20:29That's a beautiful name.
00:20:31It is.
00:20:34I imagine Canada is very different from Gilead.
00:20:38Toronto has been forsaken by God and defiled by Satan.
00:20:43It is suffocating in sin.
00:20:48So do you miss it?
00:20:52I pray it will be swallowed whole by the earth.
00:21:00May he hear your prayer.
00:21:08Daisy.
00:21:10Do you like soft serve ice cream?
00:21:14Food is one of his miracles.
00:21:15They have it here.
00:21:17Strawberry and vanilla.
00:21:18Hold, I will take you.
00:21:20Yeah, I can make you a swirl cone.
00:21:22I'm sort of an expert.
00:21:24Aunt Lydia urged me to stay with Miss Agnes.
00:21:27Ice cream is definitely one of his miracles.
00:21:30And you wouldn't want to insult God.
00:21:35You should get some.
00:21:37Come on.
00:21:53They stuck you with the pearl girl.
00:21:55What did you do wrong?
00:21:55She didn't do anything.
00:21:58This is unprecedented.
00:22:00So what did Aunt Lydia say?
00:22:02She said she's new here.
00:22:04I'm just supposed to be a shepherdess.
00:22:06I don't like her.
00:22:07She didn't seem very nice.
00:22:07Well, you can't trust her.
00:22:08She'll tell Aunt Lydia everything.
00:22:10She's a pearl girl.
00:22:13Becca?
00:22:14Your mark is here to collect you.
00:22:16Yes, Aunt Anna's name.
00:22:21Am I fitting?
00:22:22Pray for me.
00:22:24I wish I was green this season.
00:22:26I wish we all were together.
00:22:29It's starting to move very, very fast.
00:22:33It's a dress.
00:22:34Not a husband.
00:22:37Not yet.
00:22:38Well, I can't wait to have a husband.
00:22:39Becca, pray.
00:22:40Come along. Shake a leg.
00:22:43Go in grace.
00:22:45Angry as I go.
00:23:03You should tell Aunt her.
00:23:05You're a pearl girl.
00:23:07For what?
00:23:08Just say that she gossips or has a foul tongue.
00:23:11Sure.
00:23:11Or that she ran off to go get ice cream.
00:23:13That could be plausible.
00:23:14She'd be punished.
00:23:15You're an awful person.
00:23:17Stop.
00:23:18I didn't say to make her a gender traitor or anything.
00:23:21Just something small.
00:23:24Agnes.
00:23:26I know that you are very, very nice.
00:23:28But it's time to plumb up and get her before she gets you.
00:23:41I don't know.
00:23:50Cinnamon toast.
00:23:52Praise be his bounty.
00:23:58Is it awful?
00:24:00God never sends us more than we can bear.
00:24:03Sometimes we just get close though.
00:24:08Becca had her final fitting.
00:24:10She must be happy to be getting a new dress.
00:24:13I'm sure she looks perfect.
00:24:16She's a beautiful girl.
00:24:19She could get an offer from a commander at the dance.
00:24:23Her dad could.
00:24:25She could marry one who lives in Wyoming.
00:24:29Or anywhere.
00:24:31Not Maryland.
00:24:33She won't move far if she marries a high commander.
00:24:36They need to live near the capital.
00:24:38She could marry one who doesn't let his wife have any friends.
00:24:44Try not to think about it.
00:24:47Rosa, how did you meet your husband?
00:24:51Before, I mean.
00:24:56Only met in a bookstore.
00:25:00Almost everyone we knew then was meeting online on Tinder.
00:25:03Bumble.
00:25:05We met in the cookbook section.
00:25:08What's Tinder?
00:25:11It's not something you're ever going to need to know, Pumpkin.
00:25:15Last evening, ma'am.
00:25:20The commander will be home Thursday.
00:25:22Has some things for the Marthas to do.
00:25:25You said your leg was better.
00:25:27It is, ma'am.
00:25:30Good.
00:25:32Head up to the third floor.
00:25:33We'll start there.
00:25:37Yes, ma'am.
00:25:46I grew up riding.
00:25:48When a horse would come up late, my father would shoot it.
00:25:54It was hard.
00:25:57But it was the merciful thing to do.
00:26:00Haven't I told you that story?
00:26:03No, mother.
00:26:08They learned that sometimes you have to be hard.
00:26:13Sometimes you have to cut off weak branches and bothersome ones.
00:26:18You'll understand when you're running your own household.
00:26:23Blessed evening.
00:26:29Yes.
00:26:49It's my friend here when the llamado-
00:27:19Assembly time, I promise. Two lines. Two lines.
00:27:24Posture, Agnes. I'm sorry, Ophidala.
00:27:32Plums, please assemble in the dining hall.
00:27:35Hurry along!
00:27:36James, to your classes. Cha-cha.
00:28:03Floor, I promise.
00:28:04Listen, Dave, as I missed you.
00:28:26It was a day.
00:28:28How was it?
00:28:29May the Lord open.
00:28:31Fine.
00:28:33Shut up.
00:28:34It was fine.
00:28:35I feel like puffy sleeves.
00:28:44Blessed day, graceful friends.
00:28:47We need your energy because we have some difficult work to do today for him.
00:28:58Are you ready?
00:29:00Yes, I'm just going to stay.
00:29:11Oh, someone's in trouble.
00:29:14Good.
00:29:14He's the gross one.
00:29:16This man is a sinner.
00:29:18Hidden amongst us, he was found touching himself, abusing himself on school grounds.
00:29:25Yes, Gilead trusted him to protect you, God's most precious girls.
00:29:32Instead, he chose wickedness.
00:29:35We do not play with the power of creation.
00:29:39What are they going to do to him?
00:29:41Quiet.
00:29:42He deserves our judgment.
00:29:43Do not relish in it.
00:29:45You are not blameless, girls.
00:29:48Shame upon any of you that tempt a man.
00:29:51Now, this is your decision.
00:29:54You will have to make many difficult decisions when you are wives.
00:30:00So what do you say, girls?
00:30:03Should this man go unpunished?
00:30:05Who is it?
00:30:10Who is it?
00:30:12Who is it?
00:30:14Who is it?
00:30:19Who is it?
00:30:21Who is it?
00:30:22Who is it?
00:30:22Who is it?
00:30:24Who is it?
00:30:35I am so proud of the women you are becoming.
00:30:40I am here!
00:30:42I am here!
00:30:48I am here!
00:30:50I am here!
00:30:51I am here!
00:30:52I am here!
00:30:55Oh, my God!
00:30:59Please!
00:31:01Please!
00:31:03Please!
00:31:04Please!
00:31:05Please!
00:31:07Justice!
00:31:08Oh, my God!
00:31:10Frank, are you okay?
00:31:12I am fine.
00:31:14Please be your concern.
00:31:37Daisy?
00:31:38Daisy?
00:31:38Daisy?!
00:31:42Fuck!
00:31:43What the fuck was that?
00:31:44They broke the rules.
00:31:46They cut it off.
00:31:47I saw his arm.
00:31:49Jesus Christ, he was fucking wide awake.
00:31:51For fuck's sake.
00:31:52Jesus, what the fuck?
00:31:58I'm sorry, Agnes, Agnes, don't, don't tell, oh, sweetie, Agnes, help Daisy get cleaned
00:32:09up. How do you feel? They told us about assemblies. I didn't think it'd be like
00:32:38that. Like what? Thank you for taking care of me. When Aunt Lydia gives you an
00:32:57assignment, you do it. Miss Agnes, I am so sorry. I committed blasphemy. You were
00:33:07unwell. I took his name in vain. Agnes, there's no excuse. I know I must confess.
00:33:17Okay. Aunt Lydia is in charge of punishing pro-girls. Okay. Praise be her discipline.
00:33:31I need to learn. Do you think she'll cut out my tongue? There were stories.
00:33:45I know. Not for this. Probably not. Okay. If it's God's will. If it's God's will. If it's God's will.
00:33:59I can't. Agnes, I can't. It's okay. You don't have to. You don't have to. It was just us.
00:34:25God sees our sins.
00:34:27God sees our sins. We'll pray together. We'll show contrition. God is merciful.
00:34:40God's will. Beyond's not so much sometimes. Are you sure?
00:34:51God. Our secret.
00:35:00Shunammite said Daisy was dangerous. She was right, of course. She said you should never,
00:35:07ever trust a Pearl Girl. But that was exactly what I did.
00:35:22Blessed night, my Pearls. May God protect you.
00:35:46To be continued...
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00:36:40And remember folks, don't let the bastards cry.
00:36:45Red Dog, Green House, White Barn, you have packages waiting.
00:36:49If you're in the Paperclip Club, sit tight.
00:36:52That's it for tonight.
00:37:06Red Dog.
00:37:24Oh, my life
00:37:28It's changing every day
00:37:31Every bus of the way
00:37:38All my dreams
00:37:42It's never quite as it seems
00:37:45Never quite as it seems
00:37:51I know I felt like this before
00:37:55But now I'm feeling it even more
00:37:59Because it came from me
00:38:06Then I open up and see
00:38:09The person falling here is me
00:38:13A different way to be
00:38:39It was still cold
00:38:41But I remember the nights were getting shorter
00:38:44The shorebirds were back
00:38:45You could hear them really high up
00:38:48A sure sign of spring
00:38:51I didn't know who my mom was yet
00:38:54My real mom
00:38:57That would come soon
00:38:59I had no idea how much that would change things
00:39:04Without calendars you learn to mark time in other ways
00:39:07It was when I became eligible
00:39:10And when I met Daisy
00:39:13It was when it all started
00:39:16The aunts told us lots of girls never blossom
00:39:18Because they're disobedient and prideful
00:39:20And those girls are worthless to God
00:39:24Getting your period was like a stamp of approval from God himself
00:39:28I was one of the chosen ones
00:39:31Me
00:39:33Why me?
00:39:36There was a chance I'd be able to conceive
00:39:38I was supposed to be ecstatic
00:39:40And I was
00:39:43But I was also scared to death
00:39:45It's hard to tell one from the other sometimes
00:40:04Blessed morning
00:40:10Rosa?
00:40:13Rosa?
00:40:15Rosa?
00:40:24What on earth are you doing skulking around?
00:40:29Blessed morning, Mother
00:40:32Going out for a morning ride?
00:40:35It's too early for your manipulative nonsense
00:40:37What are you doing?
00:40:44Mother?
00:40:45Mother, as he blessed Ruth and Leah
00:40:47He has blessed me this day
00:40:50As he answered the prayers of Sarah, Rachel, and Rebecca
00:40:53He has saved me from barrenness
00:40:56By his hand he will make me fruitful
00:41:04Blessed be his miracle
00:41:08Wait for me in the parlor
00:41:15When Becca got her period
00:41:17Her mom was so happy
00:41:18She started laughing and crying
00:41:19At the same time
00:41:21I doubt Paula has ever cried
00:41:23Or laughed
00:41:24We're not telling fibs now, are we?
00:41:27You know the aunts will do their inspection
00:41:30No
00:41:31I wouldn't
00:41:36Welcome to the sacred calling of womanhood
00:41:40There's a lot of tedious bother to the whole enterprise
00:41:45These are called wings
00:41:46They go beneath your underpants and snap shut
00:41:48Like this, yes?
00:41:51Change the pads every few hours
00:41:53Cleanliness is godliness
00:41:54Especially so on these days
00:41:55You should never smell it on yourself
00:41:57Understood?
00:41:58Yes, ma'am
00:42:04I was scared my first time, too
00:42:07Thank you for your help
00:42:11It's a woman's duty to pass on this kind of wisdom
00:42:16Of course, no one bothered to do it for me
00:42:28Tabitha made this for you
00:42:29Before she passed
00:42:34It's a cover
00:42:35For your pad
00:42:40Thank you
00:42:48See if you can see
00:42:49The ring goes through the rock
00:42:50Is it translucent?
00:42:52Yeah
00:42:52Yeah
00:42:53Yeah
00:42:53As I was walking along the forest
00:42:57I came upon an enchanted castle
00:43:01I saw inside there were all these little girls locked up
00:43:06Sweet, godly girls
00:43:08They were all under the spell of wicked witches
00:43:12Luckily, I had a magic ring
00:43:15But the ring only had the power to save one little girl
00:43:19So I looked at all of them very carefully
00:43:21And out of the whole bunch, I chose you
00:43:24Is that how I'll get a baby?
00:43:30You won't need to, sweetheart
00:43:33You are going to have a baby grow inside your tummy
00:43:46Blessed morning
00:43:48Agnes has blossomed
00:43:52Praise be his mercy
00:43:54How do you feel?
00:43:57A little sick to my stomach
00:44:00It's a blessing to feel your body's miracle
00:44:04Agnes will have some appointments now
00:44:06That she's eligible
00:44:07Yes, then
00:44:08There's the new doctor, of course
00:44:10And the proper tailor
00:44:12And I'll and this doctor go for the teeth whitening
00:44:15We need to make her as appealing as possible
00:44:17Yes, then
00:44:18Congrats, Agnes
00:44:25I prayed so hard
00:44:29How about some coffee?
00:44:31Isn't that what women drink?
00:44:33Yes, please
00:44:37It's completely obvious
00:44:38I'm walking weird
00:44:40You're perfect
00:44:45You're filled with his divine light
00:44:49And then
00:44:49A husband
00:44:53Yes
00:44:54We pray a kind one
00:45:02Real young woman
00:45:04Your mother would be so proud of you
00:45:08Rosa took care of Tabitha when she was dying
00:45:13She sat next to her bed and fed her ice cubes
00:45:19I heard they're redistricting
00:45:21Enjoy your special day
00:45:22Under his eye, sweetie pie
00:45:24Under his eye, Rosa
00:45:29Would people notice the difference?
00:45:32That I was a woman now?
00:45:35Was it something you could sense?
00:45:37Like a wild animal in the grass?
00:45:40Or smell like the air before a storm?
00:45:44What's the day?
00:45:46Like a guardian walking past you in the summer heat
00:46:06Like a guardian walking past you in the summer heat
00:46:08And my heart
00:46:08And he set my feet on a rock
00:46:10And gave me a firm place to stand
00:46:13Amen
00:46:26blessed day miss agnes blessed day have you seen becca no i'm sorry i was praying while i waited
00:46:31for you you don't have to do that just go inside like a normal person where are you going curiosity
00:46:36got eve kicked out of the garden but aunt lydia said i should stay with you you can't come
00:46:43is this about yesterday
00:46:53aunt gabbana
00:47:26oh
00:47:27oh
00:47:46beautiful show the light
00:47:48oh blessed day girls up up let's go
00:47:59girls up up someone's been lost
00:48:01let's go
00:48:09oh
00:48:10oh
00:48:19oh
00:48:20oh
00:48:20oh
00:48:20oh
00:48:20oh
00:48:21oh
00:48:22oh
00:48:22oh
00:48:22oh
00:48:24oh
00:48:25oh
00:48:25oh
00:48:25oh
00:48:25oh
00:48:25oh
00:48:31oh
00:48:31oh
00:48:31oh
00:48:31oh
00:48:31oh
00:48:32oh
00:48:36oh
00:48:37oh
00:48:37oh
00:48:37oh
00:48:37oh
00:48:37oh
00:48:39oh
00:49:01agnes mackenzie
00:49:03what a day this is
00:49:07aunt vidala as he blessed ruth and leah he has blessed me this day
00:49:11as he answered the prayers of sarah and rachel and rebecca
00:49:15he has saved me from barrenness
00:49:17by his hand he will make me fruitful
00:49:20praise be his mercy
00:49:29your blessing is a blessing upon us all
00:49:39one of your own has been touched by his divine hand girls
00:49:42praise be
00:50:00take my meatloaf you need iron and folic acid and bioflavonoids
00:50:05i'm stuffed hold up
00:50:09is your menstrual paddle soaked
00:50:13no
00:50:13no
00:50:14not yet
00:50:15cool
00:50:17you're so blessed
00:50:19while green means more work
00:50:21and dancing in public and agnes hates dancing in front of people that could be a nightmare
00:50:26shut up shu
00:50:28i'll crawl into your tights
00:50:31i'm sure you'll be next
00:50:34my breasts have been feeling pretty sore
00:50:37they look bigger don't they my father always said i was blessed in that department
00:50:44i can't ask paul if i can come to your house today
00:50:48i can say it's for green stuff
00:50:50up girls
00:50:50i have another fitting
00:50:52up up quick check your tail feathers
00:50:56we need you in corrections
00:50:59come pearl girl needs your guidance
00:51:01on your special day what a drag
00:51:06corrections were done in a separate part of the school
00:51:08the aunt's wing
00:51:11this room reeked of the aunts
00:51:13what did she do
00:51:14i don't know
00:51:15it smelled like boiled wool and sweat
00:51:17it smelled of certainty
00:51:19if certainty had a smell
00:51:22this young woman made a confession this morning
00:51:26she has admitted to using the lord's name in vain
00:51:32agnes
00:51:35aunt lydia trusted you to guide this girl as you would your own child
00:51:40i'm sorry aunt padala
00:51:43you have been blessed with womanhood today
00:51:47is that a challenge you are ready for
00:51:49yes aunt padala
00:51:51then show me
00:51:53teach your strained lamb
00:51:55get up
00:51:57you don't lounge around while defending his name
00:52:04what must a sinner do
00:52:09hey aunt padala
00:52:11she must pay for her sins
00:52:13aunt padala
00:52:14pay for her sins
00:52:15pay for her sins
00:52:17tell her what she is agnes
00:52:20dirty words come from what
00:52:24a dirty girl
00:52:29corrections was our time to unleash
00:52:32when we devoured it
00:52:35i'm ashamed of how much i miss it
00:52:47whose fault is this
00:52:49we understood power
00:52:51in rage
00:52:52teenage girls appreciate rage
00:52:54in gilead as elsewhere
00:52:56you are nothing
00:52:58you're a slut from the streets of sodom
00:53:01a child of sinners
00:53:02she was there
00:53:03and she hurt my blasphemy
00:53:06i swear to god
00:53:11oh
00:53:34all right friends
00:53:38time for cake
00:53:50open
00:53:55a vessel unclean has no use in the service of the lord
00:54:04god wants you to put your shoulder into it agnes
00:54:09i expected more from you on your special day
00:54:14now clean up and get to class
00:54:31that soap is disgusting
00:54:35i heard the marthas used rendered cow fat and fireplace ashes
00:54:43by his mercy at least don't gabana speared our tongues
00:54:47but i've taught you how to stay silent
00:54:50agnes
00:54:51i had to confess my sins
00:54:54i made a commitment to god
00:54:56to be a good pearl girl
00:54:57oh congratulations you're being a perfect little pearl girl
00:55:00i didn't mean to rat you out
00:55:01but when you got all up in my face it was a lot
00:55:05corrections are a lot for you
00:55:07assembly is a lot for you maybe serving god is just too much for you
00:55:11i really am sorry why did you come here
00:55:15why don't you just go back home
00:55:19not everyone has a home to go back to
00:55:24some people have crappy lives
00:55:27a princess wouldn't get it
00:55:33vice grace
00:55:35i was granted a fresh start here in gilead
00:55:44please give me a chance
00:55:57and on this day of all days
00:56:01i think you deserved every bit of that punishment every bit
00:56:04do you agree yes
00:56:06thanks for coming mrs brighton
00:56:07please do say hello to the commander for me
00:56:10i'll go see you mrs mackenzie
00:56:12agnes will be just a moment
00:56:13grace be
00:56:18there are changes happening in your body and more on the way
00:56:22your prefrontal cortex is still developing and all the estrogen pumping through your body
00:56:26will tempt you into impulsive decisions
00:56:30dangerous ones
00:56:33womanhood is a test agnes
00:56:35a lifelong test
00:56:40the aunts didn't teach us science
00:56:43my prefrontal cortex had no idea what paula was talking about
00:56:49dr grove is ready for you agnes
00:56:57i blinked and you girls grew up
00:57:00becca's gonna be thrilled you're agreeing now
00:57:04i'm glad we're in it together there's a lot on her mind today
00:57:09becca's a worry wart it's just how she is
00:57:11open
00:57:17well praise be perfect teeth just perfect
00:57:23you know maybe you could help her through it all
00:57:27she's less anxious around you i mean you've always been so mature for your age
00:57:32thank you
00:57:36okay only an x-ray to go can i get a uh size two bite wing please
00:57:49now i hope that this isn't
00:57:54too heavy for you i imagine your breasts must be quite tender
00:58:04it's not too heavy
00:58:07lovely
00:58:09you know you really are getting to be a big girl agnes
00:58:22and that's that
00:58:24let's take some pictures
00:58:27excellent thank you
00:58:28open
00:58:32and bite perfect
00:58:42still as you can be
00:59:06that's when i started having nightmares about my wedding night
00:59:10about my husband
00:59:13a dark bedroom
00:59:17and then a smell
00:59:20and then he was in front of me my husband
00:59:24but he had no face
00:59:27i tried to run away but he always caught up with me
00:59:31wake up
00:59:34agnes
00:59:35andrea
00:59:36yes it's time
00:59:39come along
00:59:53it's a chilly night dear
01:00:20come along
01:00:21come along dear
01:00:48We gather here tonight
01:00:50as this daughter of Gilead
01:00:52comes of age
01:00:55seeking his divine protection
01:00:57and she will need it
01:01:00his protection
01:01:01for being a woman on God's green earth
01:01:04is no easy feat.
01:01:07In you go dear
01:01:09rub-a-dub-dub
01:01:19But we needn't look so far back
01:01:21to see the suffering of women, do we?
01:01:24That's why Gilead was created
01:01:27to bring women back
01:01:29to their rightful place.
01:01:38The world would be lost without you.
01:01:41Who can bring forth God's children?
01:01:43Who will populate this world
01:01:45so his divine presence
01:01:47can be multiplied?
01:01:51Who but you?
01:01:57You join your sisters now
01:01:59in this holy endeavor.
01:02:29Agnes!
01:02:30Mackenzie jettison all that came before this moment and embrace your new role
01:02:36may the generations born to your womb be worthy in his eyes blessed be the fruit
01:02:48may the Lord open a token of your passage may he bless your new path under his eye under his
01:03:08eye
01:03:26hi want some help thought I was gonna drown in there me too when I had my initiation I feel
01:03:39like I'm still
01:03:40drowning it's better that you're here now praise be I thought you were mad this was your season and
01:03:58I was ruining it I thought you didn't want me to be a green
01:04:08I didn't I didn't want this for either of us
01:04:18I don't want to get married
01:04:23I don't want a husband
01:04:35but what else would you do
01:04:41I don't know
01:04:48Aunt Lydia's and me get to leave everything behind
01:04:54everything that happened before tonight
01:04:58do you think that's real
01:05:02what would you want to leave behind
01:05:16it will be great
01:05:19pushing strollers together
01:05:21no aunts following us around
01:05:26that does sound nice
01:05:29all will be well Rebecca
01:05:32all manner of things will be well
01:05:38I'm freezing
01:05:42yeah come on let's go home
01:05:47hmm
01:05:47hmm
01:05:48hmm
01:05:53hmm
01:05:55hmm
01:06:00hmm
01:06:01hmm
01:06:03hmm
01:06:04hmm
01:06:05hmm
01:06:07hmm
01:06:11hmm
01:06:12hmm
01:06:12hmm
01:06:12hmm
01:06:13hmm
01:06:15hmm
01:06:17hmm
01:06:19hmm
01:06:22hmm
01:06:32Now, it was just a year ago.
01:06:35We're going to try the 1st of the house.
01:06:37Let's go.
01:06:39Let's go.
01:06:41Oh.
01:06:52I've been doing a long way
01:06:53and showed up this morning.
01:06:54This is a cook for 10 minutes.
01:07:05I don't know.
01:07:32I don't know.
01:07:58I don't know.
01:08:34I don't know.
01:08:38I don't know.
01:08:51I don't know.
01:09:02I don't know.
01:09:24I don't know.
01:09:29I pray you know smoking is not allowed, right?
01:09:35Yes, Miss Agnes.
01:09:38My apologies.
01:09:46Congratulations on your initiation.
01:09:54I don't know.
01:10:05Sometimes you couldn't help but one.
01:10:08Even if you tried your best to stop it.
01:10:14But there is no point to it.
01:10:17All that wanting.
01:10:25Agnes.
01:10:27Agnes, finally.
01:10:33Your father is home.
01:10:34You'll be pleased to hear of your development.
01:10:56You look so pretty this morning.
01:11:00He's in the parlor.
01:11:11He's in the parlor.
01:11:28I don't know.
01:11:31I don't know.
01:11:34I don't know.
01:11:36I don't know.
01:11:37I don't know.
01:11:52I don't know.
01:11:57Father, as he blessed Ruth and Leah, he has blessed me this day.
01:12:01As he answered the prayers of Sarah, he has saved me from barrenness.
01:12:07By his hand, he will make me fruitful.
01:12:11I know he will.
01:12:18Blessed be the fruit, Agnes.
01:12:19May the Lord open daddy.
01:12:24Going to the chapel and we're gonna get married.
01:12:31Going to the chapel and we're gonna get married.
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