00:10I'm trying to go forward and then every time that something happens it draws me
00:16back to where where I kind of feel like there's a lot of people trying to set me
00:23up to getting to like a lot of people against me some paranoia known how hard
00:28is it to get like we're uh nice chives ready to go if Matty Matty's ready what the fuck are
00:35you
00:38you didn't even check a mic I'm just making a pomodoro just like fresh pasta pomodoro fresh
00:47pasta pomodoro yeah this is gonna be good hey what's up everybody I'm Matty Matheson and this
00:54is just a dash I'm gonna show you how to make the greatest pomodoro ever isn't that exciting
01:00okay is that good no anyone that's not a celebrity chef can you raise your hand real quick
01:14uh so Matty tell me about your your anger issues I don't really have anger issues sometimes I'll
01:22wake up the fuck is going on dude so I haven't even started cooking yet yeah we're ready for
01:31in there we're just about done good morning morning it's gonna be a great day today on just a dash
01:40we
01:41are gonna be making something absolutely fantastic the pomodoro that was nice no 100 and 150 250 grams
01:52of all-purpose flour no it's double zero double zero flour then semolina I forget this much semolina
02:04just wait well I can put it in it will tell me the amount because I'm waiting oh yeah just
02:07do that
02:07or do you have the right amount how much is that tell me about your your anger what the fuck
02:14are you
02:14talking about you ever see that Winnebago man show you ever see that no don't slam the fucking door
02:24no more don't slam the fucking door this is the same Winnebago no more I don't think it is yeah
02:32yeah
02:32no I I'm I'm sure it is I don't have uh anger issues continuously gonna work on it because we
02:39all
02:40need to work on it I think maybe some people don't understand that they need to keep their side of
02:43the
02:44sidewalk clean you know yeah winners coming yeah winner winners absolutely we're making fresh pasta
02:51beautiful fucking pasta we got oh why would you every day seems to be the same I stand behind the
03:01counter
03:01and I'm doing the thing hold that thank you thank you and I think I'm doing good and then it
03:08just blows up
03:14did you measure that much water was stuck in the handle with that whisk I can't do we start
03:20over what the fuck do we do I don't know kind of unravel at moments it's not always nice your
03:28head
03:28structure is off it's not always the person who I want to be I need to just perform I smell
03:35so bad
03:36I just want to like try to figure out in the moment yeah they're ready for me to control maybe
03:44small
03:45outbursts scale it out there's a fucking scale in those moments I kind of lose touch a little bit and
03:55maybe act out you stupid thank you so much I'm just trying to like understand what the hell's I'm
04:03supposed to do like meditate instantly I'm closing the loop there's no chaos here I've been doing these
04:11videos for over 10 years now and it's like I've been making the same video same video hey I'm Maddie
04:19Madison hey I'm Maddie Madison I'm making this blah blah blah blah blah and then I cook something
04:27and Michelle actually making it so yeah do you feel that uh you need to state your name I never
04:35thought
04:36to do something different or I feel like if I don't say it then it's not even real
04:39if it weren't for groundhogs trying to talk about my feelings and trying to figure out like
04:45you know my part in things yeah we wouldn't have groundhog day I'm like this big extrovert
04:52and then when things aren't happening I go inwards and I don't know I get quiet and I get sad
05:01and then spiral quietly I'm a loud spiraler loud spiraler no I'm like a part of the shtick it's like
05:11a
05:11thing that I do so it's a kind of a self-perpetuated loop then maybe
05:21such a good idea that is a good idea why are these guys even in here they're part of the
05:26crew
05:27so I am making a show well I thought so yeah a good dough smells cummy so then this is
05:33real
05:34yeah it's a little cummy right you're having maybe an existential crisis then it smells bad
05:41does that smell how do you know when your dough's done you give it a little finger test a little
05:44finger test look at that we're bouncing back I understand people aren't perfect I don't want
05:48people to be a hundred percent no one's a hundred percent not even me right beside the garbage kind
05:53of where we start that's a nice one way up we have learned from our mistakes I've done this so
05:59many times spin spin spin I'm over here and like my mom says I always got my mouth okay everyone
06:06say
06:06spaghetti kiss spaghetti kiss spaghetti kiss spaghetti kiss it's the circle of strength the circle of
06:15friendship I love sharing a meal with somebody doesn't smell nice making food for somebody else
06:24and I just passionate man I'm very passionate do you ever taste your sauce which sauce I need salt
06:33absolutely but you're surrounded by people who who love you do you taste it for real
06:41I would never lie this thing's just troublesome huh and life squeezes us at all times
06:51and every time life look what happens we get a little bit longer a little bit droopier but
07:00we learn our lessons the universe will teach you a lesson until you learn it absolutely over and
07:07over again time is all we have
07:31I want to spend more time at home with my kids and my wife
07:39we'll set you up okay not today we can't go fishing today I gotta make the show and then
07:45I think I gotta leave yeah
07:53don't break her heart again
07:58okay don't break her heart
08:01well I love you
08:02I love you too daddy
08:07I just want to go home
08:09and what's keeping you from doing that
08:13I don't know
08:16I didn't see that
08:17the pressure of making videos for people
08:20Britney bitch
08:22so it's a kind of a self-perpetuated loop then
08:35oh there you are
08:36but I heard you at my door
08:41I asked for less
08:44you wanted war
08:46you could use
08:50use the phone
08:53I can text
08:55but nothing more
08:58sleep on my eyes open
09:02dreaming when I'm awake
09:05damned if I leave
09:07damned if I stay
09:10damned if I stay
09:10damned if I stay
09:11damned if I stay
09:12damned if I stay
09:12You
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