The Survivor Story Of Gloria Masters

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Today on Unfiltered Stories, we share Gloria Masters' heartbreaking experience. Gloria was born into a household that embraced sex trafficking, so her father used her for financial gain. She endured unimaginable suffering from his abuse for 16 years until the day she escaped.   #truestory #inspiring #abuse #survivalstory #trauma   Follow Gloria Masters here:  FB: https://www.facebook.com/HandingtheShameBack  YT: https://www.youtube.com/@handingtheshameback  IG: https://www.instagram.com/handingtheshameback/   Thank you for watching Unfiltered Stories! We offer a platform for our guests to speak openly about their life stories and journeys, shedding light on the challenges they faced and the resilience they've shown.   Our mission is to raise awareness about survivors by delving into their stories, exploring the impact of their experiences, and how they've managed to heal and rebuild their lives.  By sharing these stories, we aim to break the silence surrounding those challenging memories and create a compassionate environment.   🌅 FOLLOW US 🌅  Facebook ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredFB  TikTok ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredTT  Snapchat ➮ https://tinyurl.com/UnfilteredSN

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00:00Hello my name is Gloria Masters and this is my story on how I overcame 16 years of child abuse

00:08and trafficking. I was born in a western suburb in Auckland, New Zealand. I was the youngest of

00:17four children. I was a happy inquisitive child. I loved exploring and I was always a bit cheeky

00:26which I still have today. My childhood could have been, should have been safe and treasured and

00:36beautiful but unfortunately I was born into a family where child trafficking was the norm.

00:47My definition of that is being given to, rented to or leased to groups of men and other adults at

00:58times

00:59for money or goods and services. From the time I was born really my father was abusing me. That then

01:10extended to family, friends and other groups and my grandmother, his mother and one of his sisters

01:20were tasked with the responsibility of teaching me about how to be the best child worker I could be.

01:30The first at the hands of my father occurred when I was four years old and he took me out

01:38in the car

01:39and it was just him and I. And he said that if I was very good and did everything he

01:45told me to,

01:46he would buy me an ice cream later. And I remember thinking that was great because we never had ice

01:55creams or treats really in our family. And so I got in the car and we went up to this

02:01reserve behind

02:03uh, the area where, where we lived and it was there that the first began. And I remember what I

02:11was

02:12wearing. It was a little black and white dress with, back in those days, it was a little lace collar

02:17and it had daisies on it. And I remember him pushing me to the ground and me. My mother

02:27was complicit in that her absence spoke volumes. She was a classic narcissist. He was your classic

02:36psychopath. She was not present, even if she was present, if that makes sense. At the age of five,

02:44my father drove me to my grandmother's house and he said it was going to be a very special time

02:51for me

02:52and that she was going to teach me some things. When he then delivered me to her house, she took

02:59me

02:59into her bedroom and shut the door and locked it. And I turned around and faced her and said,

03:09what are we doing? I don't understand. And she said, you will do what you are told,

03:16otherwise there will be trouble. And then she told me how I was to try and perform in a manner

03:26so that

03:28daddy's friends could have some fun with me and pay him more money. She started parading around and

03:39showing me moves and how to look at men and how to teach men and where to put my hands.

03:50And I was required

03:53to mirror her and reflect what she was doing. If I didn't get it right, she would slap me across

04:01the face.

04:03One of the first times I remember going to a party where my services were being paid for was at

04:11my father's home

04:15where he had some friends come in and they each had a card in their hand and they were numbered.

04:23And what

04:24they had done was draw a number out. And that meant the order in which they would

04:31me, abuse me, hurt me. I think my father, from when I was quite young, had realised I needed to

04:43be

04:43because no one wanted to pay money for a traumatised and terrified child. And I was,

04:49I was, I was both. I would be put into a van and taken to Freemasons once a month. There,

04:59there would be other children. Satanic ritual abuse would take place. So there were many men there,

05:06and I'm not saying every Freemason was a pedophile, but I'm saying at certain levels throughout their

05:11hierarchy, they were doing this. That went on. We're now moving, I'm getting closer to 10 years of age

05:21now. My behaviour was out of control at school. I was so traumatised. I was screaming for help.

05:31The teachers didn't know what to do with me. I was sent out of the class more than I was

05:37in it.

05:38I was strapped continuously. I was punished continuously, but it was the only place I could be me.

05:48No teacher ever asked what's going on. And as I reached the age of 11, my parents lined us up

06:00in the

06:01living room and said, we are ending our marriage. You need to choose who to live with. So anyway,

06:09he offered me a horse if I stayed with him. So I said I would. There was never going to

06:16be any horse.

06:17There was never going to be anything. So I stayed with him and that's where my nightmare began. And

06:23that's what my first book is about. It's those 18 months I got left with my father and brother. I

06:32tried to take my own life three times during that 18 months living with my father and brother. Not only

06:40was I abused, I was physically abused, I was thrown against walls. I was stomped on, kicked,

06:49smacked around. I was psychologically tortured. My abusers were mainly men, but there were women

06:58women involved. And I was leased out of an Auckland nightclub, which is in our K Road, our red light

07:08district in central Auckland. I was leased out of the top floor of that. And I remember it, I was

07:16chained

07:17to a bed. The beautiful women working there, and there were some transgender people there as well,

07:25would look out for me. And they were horrified. They didn't like my father. I was an 11 and a

07:31half

07:31year old girl, very thin, very underweight, and clearly didn't want to be there. But they would

07:39sneak me in food and something to drink and they looked out for me. But it was at that nightclub

07:46that

07:47men and sometimes women would come in to abuse me. But I was novelty, you see, I was the only

07:54child

07:54being leased out of there. At the same nightclub. During the day, some weekends, I would be on the

08:03stage with other children, or maybe another girl or another boy, and we would have to perform for and

08:12with adult men and sometimes adult women. And this was all being filmed. I would have been 12,

08:2012, 12 and a half. I remember thinking, what is the point in calling out for help? There is none.

08:28The filming that took place would be during the day and would go on for most of the day. This

08:36was all

08:36filmed. And these, these were made into copies and then sold to other interested parties

08:47throughout my father's pedophile and underground rings. There is a myth out there that the abuse

08:57that I suffered must have been from lower socioeconomic impoverished sectors within New Zealand

09:09100% false. This was across all sectors of society. And I understand it's the same today. It was not

09:18specific in a group. Any and anybody would do that had money that could pay. And the more acts I

09:25could

09:25perform, the more money they could make. My parents separated at 11. At the age of 12 and a half,

09:35I came home from school one day and I saw my father in bed with another woman. That spun me

09:45into

09:46such shock because I was his mistress. In my childlike mind, I had become that for him.

09:55So I turned and fled and I ran up to my mother's house. And I think that's actually what saved

10:03my life

10:04because she rang the priest and the priest said, he is committing adultery,

10:12you need to remove her from the home. So I went and lived with my mother, but she decided she

10:21didn't

10:21really enjoy having me there. So very quickly, she decided that I would have to go back to him

10:29every second weekend. So from the ages of 12 and a half to 16, I had 12 days of relative

10:37safety.

10:38And then I would have two days at my father's. It was actually more traumatic for me. He made sure

10:45that when I was with him, I earned every cent I could for every minute I was with him.

10:52The worst experience is one that I still remember vividly to this day. He leased me out to one of

11:00the gangs. Money exchanged hands and I was to be there for a 12 hour period. By the time my

11:09father

11:09picked me up the next day, I was unrecognisable. I was so traumatised, I should have been hospitalised.

11:17My father on arriving and seeing this said these words to the gang leader,

11:24Mate, you need to be careful what you do to her, eh? She won't look as good for you otherwise.

11:32During that weekend, they had what gangs call put me on the block. And it was an initiation ceremony

11:40for a new blooded gang member, which meant their prize and their initiation was to do whatever they

11:49wanted to me to prove how tough they were and therefore to be acceptable into the gang.

11:56Now, because I was 12 and a half, maybe 13, but certainly early, early teens,

12:05I could see this man had something to prove and I decided to look away. I didn't want to see

12:13his eyes,

12:15but he had other ideas. Now, once he'd finished with me, they all lined up to have a go. Again,

12:24I was,

12:25but couldn't quite shut out all of it. My grandmother, between the ages of 11 and 16 performed

12:35forced abortions on me. No one wanted me to be a pregnant teenager. No one was willing to pay money

12:45for

12:45that. So, abortions were performed. My parents had a custody agreement that when I turned 16,

12:55I could choose whether to see my father or not. In other words, the custody agreement,

13:01the official custody agreement ended when I turned 16. The only times I ever saw my father once I

13:08turned 16 was at family weddings or funerals. I never, ever willingly saw him again.

13:15My father was not a person to give up easily. He would continually ring the family home, demand to

13:23speak to me and try and manipulate me. My mother was complicit in that. She wouldn't even

13:29advocate for me or wonder why. Why would you not want to be with him or see him? I was

13:37very grateful

13:37at the age of 16 to never have to see my father again. However, what I wasn't so grateful for

13:45was

13:46the absolute train wreck I was. And it was at the age of 32 by then I'd had my second

13:52child when the memories

13:53started flying and went and got professional help. But it still took decades of healing and workshops and

14:04reading and listening to professionals out there to try and find who was I. I had no idea that that

14:13beautiful little child who saw the light was somewhere in there. My therapist a year or so ago said to

14:22me,

14:22do you really think you went through all of that to do nothing with it? And she's right. It was

14:33in my early

14:3450s when I realised I needed to do something and I went to a global development conference. I was just

14:43pulled to it and there were 2000 people there and the group I was in had two trainers. There were

14:50about

14:5060 of us in this group. And on day one, the two trainers in charge of our group approached me

14:56and

14:56they said, Gloria, what an honour to meet you. We see you, we see your light. You can't hide this.

15:05And I

15:05think you should be talking at this conference actually, would you be prepared to do so? And I said,

15:12hell no. I didn't see myself the way they saw me. I was still trying to lift my head up

15:21and look people

15:21in the eye about this trauma. But it was big in me, this truth, you see. I needed to speak

15:28because I

15:28knew there were other survivors out there as well. And I got up and spoke and I spoke through tears

15:35and

15:35I basically gave a quick synopsis of my 16 years. When I finally ended, it was silence. And I thought,

15:45oh no, this is too much for the audience. And then I raised my head and I could see the

15:54tears and the

15:57sadness and the absolute beautiful empathy. And then one by one, people started approaching.

16:05And one man came up and whispered in my ear and said, because of your courage today,

16:10I'm now finally going to speak about what happened to me. And so it began. And that is what lit

16:18the

16:18path. And it was at that place that I got asked, told, begged, please, please write your story.

16:27The name of my first book is on Angel's Wings, My Flight from Trauma to Grace. And what it does

16:34is it

16:34depicts a girl at 11 looking down because that was me. And you can see the angel wings coming down

16:42around

16:42here. This is my second book. This is written for fellow survivors. It's flight path to healing. I now

16:52run a channel and a charity called Handing the Shame Back. I think for people watching who perhaps are

17:03newly altered survivors, never doubt your beautiful selves. You know the truth.

17:11You will always be shoulder tapped. You will always hear your inner voice give you the guidance. So trust you.

17:18Secondly, if you want to share, start with someone that you really trust. That is that ride or die friend

17:26who would never let you down. And finally, do some journaling. Sometimes what we hold in our heads

17:36and minds, if we can release it onto paper, it can show us a clear way through. Thank you so

17:43much for

17:44watching us and listening to my story. I realize it would not have been easy. And I tell my truth

17:51that it is that it will inspire and lift others to feel less alone and that they are believed.

18:00If you would like to follow my story and become part of the survivor community, please go to

18:07handintheshameback.org and also follow the YouTube channel Handing the Shame Back. The links are below to the

18:15books. And if you would like to follow us on social media, Instagram tends to be the place to go.

18:23In the

18:24meantime, I see you, I stand with you and I believe you.

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