00:00The first time that I really knew what was happening,
00:04I can't remember where we were, but we were in a hotel
00:09and I got woken up when his hand come under the blanket and I froze.
00:19And he did what he did and he raised me.
00:23And I was scared, but he was also crying when he did it.
00:36And it was a very, very bizarre situation.
00:43And I let him do what he wanted to do.
00:47It's very difficult when you're in that situation because your body reacts.
00:52You know, and this is where I got confused when I was growing up
00:56because I started to wonder if I was gay or if I was straight
01:04because of the way that my body reacted.
01:06And then I felt like, did I allow him to do it?
01:09But in some ways I probably felt like I did because I didn't kick off.
01:15But I was also just a child.
01:16and you'd be starting to get laid out on the road.
01:16So if there were a few changes in my head or capактиуры,
