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Rachel joins Pillow Talk for an open and unfiltered conversation about living with Tourette’s, navigating relationships, and handling public perception. The discussion blends humor, honesty, and vulnerability as she shares personal experiences, misconceptions people often have, and how communication and consent play a role in her daily life. This episode focuses on awareness, respect, and understanding while giving viewers a candid look into Rachel’s world beyond the stereotypes.
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00:00I don't tick during f**ks if it's good s**t because my mind and my body are too occupied.
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02:27Okay, huge episode today. Co-hosting one of my greatest friends in my world. A man that I grew up
02:33looking up to. A man that really inspired me to take the world by storm and believe in yourself
02:40with all the weirdness that I had in myself. I looked up to this man to be myself. Because this
02:45guy, back in Facebook days, pre-Instagram, was doing such crazy things. And I looked up to him. I
02:51said, wow. What a legend of rock star. And I would go to his shows. I would pay tickets, $10.
02:56Can you give me a little? Just to go to his shows and look at him and be like, wow.
03:00This guy is
03:00living the life he wants to live and I'm not. And it inspired me to be myself. So always love,
03:06Karelle. Thank you. He's also the founder and creator of the very successful call nine
03:10Assholes Live Forever. If you could slip that into your repertoire once in a while,
03:14I'd really appreciate that. Usually he brings merch for people. But this was last minute.
03:18This was last minute. Yes. But she lives in New York. I got you. So give it up for the
03:23slut
03:23whisperer, the ugly Russian Jew. Karelle was here. Assholes Live Forever president.
03:27I'm a Jew. I'm a Jew. Karelle. Okay. Boom. From New York. Both from New York. Yes. Fuck you,
03:33bitch. You didn't like that intro? I both had Tourette's. What? Good intro. It's very
03:37long. That's cute. I appreciate it. That's how I feel. Thank you. You're a big bro. I appreciate
03:42it. Fuck off. This is great. She will be my inner monologue the entire episode. Oh, she's
03:49great. Okay. What's inner monologue mean? Inner monologue is what you don't have. It's basically,
03:55you know, everything I'm thinking. It's his inside thoughts. Imagine she's a married
03:59puppet. Right. This is probably the most excited I've been to do an episode. Yeah. Yeah. I can't
04:04wait for this. Okay. Our guest today. First time ever on a podcast. Shut up. Hello, talk
04:13exclusive. We got her on the show. She's the most famous Tourette's girl in the world. Is Tourette's
04:19girl okay? Yeah, it's fine. All right. Her name is Rachel Kev. She blew up on social media,
04:23just being herself. Keat. What? Rachel Keat. Why do I say Kev? I don't know. That's
04:29okay. What's the letters? How do you spell it? Oh, you're probably thinking of my last
04:33name. Yes. Shaliff. Oh, I'm mixing Ke and F. That's okay. Shaliff Kev. I'm sorry. Shut
04:43you're good. You're good. I love it. All right. Rachel Chaliff. Rachel Ke you go short
04:51by. Yes. Okay. Give it up for Rachel Ke. Here we go. She's got Tourette's. Oh, and she
04:58does OnlyFans. You do OnlyFans. Fanfix. Ah. Fanfix. Okay. Because I saw the link in bio. I was a good
05:04boy.
05:05I didn't want to go. You didn't click on it. I didn't. I. Yes. I resisted the urge. Right. Okay.
05:11Fanfix means you're not doing. That's the text message sound. Yeah. Oh my God. Yes, it is.
05:18From like the 90s, right? Something like that. Yeah. Yeah. I have like a lot of weird ones that a
05:22lot of
05:23people recognize. They think I have some people who actually think that their phones are going off.
05:27Right. When I like do those sounds. Um, but yeah, I get like the Twitter notification. Is that even
05:33like still a thing? I don't know. I don't use text. That's the Twitter one. Yeah. Okay. Right. Okay. And
05:39if I
05:39asked you to do that sound again right now, would you even be able to do it? Or is it
05:43like only your
05:44Tourette's can do stuff? Oh, good call. I probably could. Um. We wouldn't even know. I can try it. Yeah,
05:50try it.
05:50It might trigger it even more so. Okay. Try it. That's fine. No. No good. Oh my God. But
06:00your Tourette's nailed it. Yeah. It's totally mindless. Like it's just. How about that? That's
06:05something. Well, yeah. Yeah. It's very difficult to actually fake or force a tick, which a lot
06:10of people accuse me of. Right. It's an adorable, uh, disability. Yeah. Yeah. I feel like there's
06:18like a Tamagotchi here. We have our friends. You guys want to feed you? Wait. Is that mean?
06:25I think that was mean. No, that's funny. We're being tasteful and polite. That's funny.
06:28Okay. She's telling you to shut up. No, I can, I can take a joke. Okay. I promise.
06:31Because you caught us by storm as we're hanging out backstage there and our friend Val was there
06:35and he was talking and you just looked at him and you went, shut up, bitch. Yeah. Yeah.
06:40Yeah. No, I, listen, like I understand that it's funny. I'm not going to get mad at people
06:43for laughing. It's, it is funny. As long as you understand that it is a disability and
06:48you know, disability, that's the word. Yes. It's a neurological disorder, but it is actually
06:52disabling and it is considered a disability. Shut the fuck up. Um, you can laugh as long
06:58as you get it. Right. Okay. Shut up, bitch. You know what my new vibe is? You know what I'm
07:03into? You know what I've been watching lately? Fansly. I fucking love Fansly. No cap. It's
07:09fucking awesome. You know why? Because it's the first platform I've ever seen that has
07:13a discoverable algorithm. So it's like the explore page on IG. They get to know you, what
07:18you like, your preferences, and then they recommend girls to you that you would like. So I started
07:23just doing, doing my thing. And then I saw these perfect blondes with nice booties pop out
07:28because that's what I'm into. Oh my God. Every day I'm finding new dime pieces that I'm obsessed
07:33with. No more searching all over Instagram. Boom. Fansly. Got so much shit on the site too. They got
07:38everything you can want. They even have streaming. It's fucking amazing. We dropped the link
07:42in the bio below. Go check it out. Fansly.com slash pillow talk. It's going to bring you to
07:45the explore page with a shitload of free content and you're going to get fucking addicted. I promise
07:50you that. If you're anything like me, you're going to fucking love it. Fansly is the new fucking
07:54wave. Cause you know, you know, we're not laughing at you. We're laughing cause it's like, it's
07:58fun. That's another thing. Yeah. I know that you guys are laughing with me. Right. So that's
08:02the difference. Yes. Okay. At what point did you, did you know you have
08:08Tourette's like at what age? Right. So obviously you don't, you know, but these words you, you
08:15learn. Oh, it's gestures too. Yes. That's cool. Just give you the finger. I know. So that's
08:19called copropraxia. I have coprolalia and copropraxia with, which only 10% of people
08:25with Tourette's have. And that is the obscene gestures and words that I take. So also you
08:32have two different things. So yeah. And it's, it's like the more rare form of Tourette's.
08:37The gesture one? Shut up, bitch. Yes. That's the copropraxia and the coprolalia is also
08:41rare, even though you see it a lot in the media. It's just very sensationalized. Right.
08:46Well, but you were saying, uh, when did I realize, right? Yeah. Yeah. So when I was
08:50younger, you dumb bitch. Um, I had very minor tits. It's so good. It's so good. It's almost
09:01like, I, I don't mean to sound rude. It's like, I'm kind of jealous. This is unbelievable.
09:10Shut up, bitch. You're like better than Oz the mentalist. I'm going to tell you this right
09:13now. Can I ask you a question? Yes, of course. When you're saying shut up, bitch, are you
09:17low-key? It's your inner thoughts wanting to say that? Or pulling something from me like
09:21your childhood? Is there something we don't? Like, are you low-key telling him to shut up in
09:25your head, but it comes out? No, I'm not. I'm honestly having so much fun right now. That's what I
09:28want to know
09:28about that. Are you just saying what we're all thinking? No. Okay. And that's so important
09:33to understand. Okay. Tell us. Yes. Um, otherwise people would think I'm racist, homophobic, and
09:39all these other things. I'm kind of just an overall asshole, and I'm not. Okay. I hope not. Um,
09:44well, but yeah, it's literally, I, I don't think of it before it comes out. It just comes out. Well,
09:50a lot of my tics are echolalia, which means that I hear something or see something and it, I almost
09:58copy
09:58it as a tic. Well, I don't remember where I heard shut up, bitch. It might have been me. I
10:04don't
10:04know. Your dad yelling at your mom. No, no, he's awesome. That's like your go-to. Shut up, bitch.
10:10But yeah, I don't. That one's cooking. It's interesting. And the tics fluctuate. So sometimes,
10:15you know, there's probably a period of my life where I was not ever taking that and I was taking
10:19something else more consistently. You dumb bitch. It's, you know, it's so up and down and this and that
10:25every single day. But how come it's swear words? How come it's not saying, you know, flowers or
10:30Jesus and things like that? I love that question. So that's the coprolalia. So actually like some
10:38etymology, uh, copro means shit. Lalia is like talk. Um, shut up, bitch. Why didn't they name it that,
10:45by the way? Huh? Crazy. You know, it just describes the obscenities that I tick. And that is what,
10:55uh, 10% of people with Tourette's have. And that's what I have. So I will more frequently
11:00shut the fuck up, have obscene tics. I have had tics that are very sweet and kind and cute,
11:07whatever, but typically they are pretty profane. Is there one moment of your life where you,
11:13worst time, worst place ever? Yeah. What's the worst time Tourette's moment? Yeah. Oh my God.
11:19All the time. Like record music stops. Yeah. So you ever said bomb on a plane? That's a classic.
11:27I actually haven't. That is a classic though. Um, that's like, are you terrified of that? Yes.
11:32Like what's your biggest fear? Yeah. So I actually, I carry around cards with me. I might have one
11:37right now. Um, yeah, I have like, I'm like Arthur Fleck. I carry around little cards that explain my
11:43Tourette's syndrome. I give it to flight attendants every single time. Anywhere I go,
11:47even, you know, sometimes I'll give it to the person next, fuck off next to me just to like
11:52make sure they know that I'm not, you know, um, going to terrorize anyone or whatever. So
12:00yeah, it's, um, a lot of people really, they don't understand it. So it's important that I
12:04clarify. So planes, you're good. I guess so. Cause I was a little for now. I was like,
12:08maybe we should have booked her two days before the podcast. We got our flight to come. But what if
12:13she says the bomb Tourette's thing? You dumb bitch. Right? Yeah. I would love to call a
12:18stewardess that. I am so jealous of your power. So jealous of your power. Oh my God. Hey,
12:23have you ever, here's a question. Have you ever faked it to just tell someone how you feel about
12:28them? I haven't. Oh my God. That's one of the best parts. I know. I get to say you fucking
12:34piece
12:34of shit. I've always hated you. It's sorry Tourette's. See, the thing is like, you know,
12:38when I want to curse someone out, I want them to know I mean it. So I don't really feel
12:42the need
12:42to fake it. I guess that's just me though. Oh, oh, you just, when you do curse people,
12:46you say, by the way, that wasn't Tourette's. Yeah. Basically. Oh, that's gangster. Basically.
12:52Hey, imagine she rips you apart. Then she goes, that was me by the way. Oh, that would kill.
12:58Yes. There, there it is. The Twitter. Yeah. I don't even own, I don't have Twitter. I have an
13:04account. I don't use it. Right. But I have the tick. Well, so there it is. Okay. See,
13:11the thing is you're the best PR for this disability because like you're adorable. If it was like
13:17a slob like me, you know what I mean? You'd be like, damn. Yeah. It's not cute with you. Yeah.
13:24Damn, that guy's a fucking weirdo. Listen, people think I'm weird too. It's interesting. And yeah,
13:30a lot of people, honestly, I get a lot of like interesting comments where people are like,
13:34oh my God, I think I just discovered my new fetish. And I'm like, whoa.
13:38Because it's very dumb energy, right? It's very dumb energy. I guess so. I honestly.
13:42You're dressing kind of, you're dressing. That's always been my style. Yeah. Yeah. Well,
13:45I honestly, I think it's just because like they see me take, well, and then they're like,
13:50oh, I'm attracted to that. But like, I don't. Yeah. Because you're very good looking. Thank you.
13:54Yeah. I guess that's probably why. Right. It's really interesting. Okay. I've been wanting to ask
14:01you this since the second I saw you. Shut up. Can I ask? Move it up. Move it up. That's
14:07not Tourette's.
14:08That's not Tourette's. Okay. Sex, dirty talking. Okay. Does Tourette's get in the way of that?
14:15So what's interesting about sex and Tourette's is, and I'm finally answering this. Everyone's
14:21been asking me for forever. Right. Since before I had sex. I don't tick
14:28during sex if it's good sex. Oh. Because my mind and my body are too occupied if the
14:35sex is good. Right. If the sex is shit, yes, I have ticked. And that is, it's, you know
14:42what? Shut up. It's not embarrassing for me. It's embarrassing for the other person. But
14:56so he's just fucking the whole time being like, shut your mouth. Basically, basically. Okay.
15:02Yeah. It's, um, it's interesting. So yeah, you know, I can, I can engage in normal, dirty
15:09talk without the Tourette's syndrome. There's the Lauren accent. But yeah. Oh yeah. You do
15:13a British accent sometimes? There is a Lauren accent. No. You know, some people say that some
15:17of my tics, uh, sound British. I don't. Maybe. Some Tourette's people do accents, right? Shut the
15:22fuck up. Yes. I've had tics in other languages. You're from their country. You've had tics
15:26in other languages? Yes. Because I've studied many other languages. Okay. So when your brain
15:31is locked in on Spanish, it tics in Spanish. Yes, that can happen. What's shut up bitch in
15:35Spanish? I don't know Spanish. Oh, you're doing it with a Spanish accent? You're like, hey, shut
15:39up bitch. Shut your trap, bro. Are you just applying the accent to the Tourette's or you can do
15:48it in another language? Um, what's interesting. Okay. So I actually, I study Mandarin Chinese.
15:52Um, the fuck? Yeah. Why? Why not? Yell at me. I mean, it wouldn't have been my first
15:58choice. Do you have other languages? Well, uh, I dabble. You could start with Spanish, maybe.
16:02No, I actually didn't. Mandarin? So, um, Mandarin is what I'm sticking to. Um, I, on my own,
16:08just for fun, studied Vietnamese for a little bit. Is your boyfriend Chinese? No. Nope.
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17:26Let's get back to PILLOWTALK. I think it's the most stupid language in the world. Have you ever heard a
17:30New Yorker,
17:30a white New Yorker, learning Mandarin? Shut up, bitch! Yep, thank you. Yes, I have. I agree. Yeah, well, that's
17:36what I go to school for.
17:37What? Mandarin. Like, literally learning Chinese. You want to do what?
17:41What's that? I don't know. I just like it. Okay.
17:45That's, that's, it's just what I like. I, I don't know. I'm a little weird like that. Is that the
17:48language where each word has its own logo?
17:51Yes. Wow. Yes. Yes, they have the characters. Is that annoying? And each word also has its own tone.
17:56You have to learn the four tones of Mandarin. Oh, if you say it mad or happy? Yeah, basically.
18:02Oh, cool. Yeah, it'll change the meaning. Shut the fuck up.
18:05But, um, yes, I've had tics in Mandarin. I've had tics, I had a Russian tic. Whoa, do you speak
18:11Russian?
18:11No. Oh, what's your Russian tic? I mean, do you have to add another tic? It will trigger it. I'm
18:14just, someone's gonna accuse me of faking.
18:16If I talk about this stuff. I'm Russian. Are you actually? Yeah. That's so cool. Oh my god. Okay.
18:20Um, it was, uh, Privet. Privet. Okay. Yeah, which is literally just, hello, right? Oh, that's a cute one.
18:25Meow. So, if that ends up happening, it's because I talked about it. That's sick.
18:29Mm-hmm. But yeah, I've had tics in Mandarin, Russian, Vietnamese, um, Italian a long time ago. Uh, yeah, it's,
18:37it's crazy. It's weird how the brain works. But, um, yeah, I guess it's just because I, I indulge in
18:42a lot of language learning.
18:44Meow. So I pick it up.
18:45Hey, sorry, just one more thing back on the sex question. Mm-hmm. When you cook, when you do the
18:50Tourette's turn sex, are you saying the sex is bad?
18:52Or is it just, like, your Twitter noise and stuff? It's literally just, like, whatever happens. Like, it'll be something,
18:59like, random as fuck.
19:00It's like, it's like. So have you said your dick is tiny, things like that? You have?
19:05I've, I've kind of just, like, said certain things, like, like, fuck off. And that, that's, that's pretty bad. That's
19:10pretty bad.
19:10Mid-sex.
19:11Oh, that wouldn't bother me.
19:12Yeah.
19:12Fuck off?
19:13Mm-mm.
19:14Not if I knew that you should have Tourette's.
19:16But that also means that you're bad.
19:18Yeah, because she only says it if you're bad. If you're good, she doesn't say it.
19:21I don't think you're mean enough to tell people the clue. Are you really telling guys, like, hey.
19:25I'm not actually telling them to fuck off. It'll just come out.
19:28No, no, no. But I mean, like, are you, like, hey, if we fuck tonight, here's the, like, we said,
19:31if I don't say anything, you're, like, you're not that mean.
19:35I only.
19:36Are you really revealed the secrets? Or you're, like, oh, my God, it was great. Sorry, it was just my.
19:39So, I, I honestly don't think that, um, so, okay.
19:44If we're in, like, a relationship, they know.
19:48I, I, like, we have had that talk forever.
19:50How long have you been with this guy? You have a boyfriend right now?
19:52I do. Yes.
19:53Two years.
19:54Two years.
19:55So, yeah, and it's been going well, and I haven't ticked, so.
19:59Never?
20:00During sex with him, no.
20:02Never?
20:02Never.
20:03Wow.
20:03Damn.
20:04Shout out.
20:05Okay.
20:06You must be, you know.
20:07I'm like sweating every time.
20:08Yes, yes.
20:08You're going to fuck, you're like, holy shit.
20:12No, I feel like he's confident, and I feel like that's what makes it work.
20:14Wow.
20:15You know what I mean?
20:16Like, I, you gotta be confident.
20:18Does the tick go off if you're sucking dick?
20:19Shut the fuck up.
20:19Okay.
20:23Does it go off when you're sucking dick?
20:25It has not, and I feel like that's because I'm too busy choking.
20:28Um, so, you know, again, like, it's like, so.
20:33There's a guy being like, I'll get rid of that tick for you, baby.
20:35And then, wow.
20:37Okay, that's good.
20:38Like, dudes on the internet definitely are saying some wild shit.
20:39Oh, they say some crazy shit.
20:40How do you monetize the creeps?
20:43What are you selling?
20:46Fanfics.
20:46Go to my fanfics.
20:47So why not, why not VOF?
20:49Um, I decided to do fanfics because it's more brand friendly.
20:54I have a lot of aspirations.
20:57I don't know what I'm doing with my life.
20:59I'm still, like, pretty young.
21:00Yeah, you're 20.
21:01Yeah.
21:01Yeah.
21:02Yeah.
21:02So, I figured that's what I would go with.
21:04And, you know, I think it's very unfortunate that there's, like, so much stigma around sex work, sex workers, and
21:08all of that.
21:10But, unfortunately, that's how it is.
21:11So, fanfics is brand friendly.
21:13And that's what I do.
21:14And I love it.
21:15I've been very happy, honestly.
21:17So, yeah.
21:18I'm surprised you haven't done, like, the Dr. Phil's.
21:20Eh.
21:21Yeah.
21:23And Oprah's.
21:24Well, Dr. Phil's always trying to cure, like, oh, we're not.
21:27This isn't, like, a.
21:28It's so good.
21:29Amuse of family situation.
21:31It's spot on.
21:31A. The Twitter one.
21:32Suck my dick, bitch.
21:33Suck my dick, bitch.
21:34That's a good one.
21:36Hey, what's your favorite tick?
21:38Oh, my God.
21:38How are you not selling merch, dude?
21:40You know.
21:40Like, if you had a toy, I could just zip from the back and it just does all the fucking
21:43taglines.
21:44Yeah, right.
21:45We gotta talk.
21:45He's good.
21:46He's Jewish.
21:47Wait, you're a genius.
21:47Yeah, I'm a Jew.
21:48I'm also Jewish.
21:48Yeah.
21:49But I'm not a genius.
21:50This is it right here.
21:51And you both live in New York, right?
21:52Yeah.
21:53Yeah.
21:53Yeah, well, that's where the Jews go.
21:54Yes.
21:54Yes.
21:55Yeah.
21:56Wait, what did you say?
21:57Oh, you have a favorite tweet?
21:59A favorite tick.
22:02I don't, but everyone around me always does.
22:05Okay.
22:05They always have one where it's like, that's my favorite.
22:07And I think it's so funny.
22:08Do you have a favorite?
22:09Yeah.
22:10So far, shut up, bitch.
22:11Okay.
22:11Okay.
22:11What about you?
22:12So you don't have a favorite?
22:13Yeah.
22:14I don't know.
22:14I guess I just don't think about it.
22:16Right.
22:16You hear them, though?
22:17You know what you're saying?
22:18I hear them.
22:19I know what I'm saying.
22:20Okay.
22:20But it's just like, you know, well, it's kind of like white noise to me at some point.
22:24You're used to it.
22:25Yeah.
22:25Because it's been your whole life.
22:27Basically.
22:27Yeah.
22:28Oh, yeah.
22:29So what age did you, at least your family, were you doing this as a, like, how does it
22:34happen?
22:35So when I was a very young child, I had very minor tics, you know, just like slight twitches
22:40in the face, the neck, whatever, nothing vocal.
22:43And that could not be diagnosed as Tourette's syndrome because in order to have Tourette's,
22:47well, you have to have both vocal and motor tics for over a year.
22:52And so the onset of my Tourette's occurred when I was 15, which is actually, shut the
23:00fuck up, bitch.
23:00Pretty standard.
23:02It happens to a lot of people in their early teens.
23:06So.
23:07This is like puberty almost.
23:08Almost, in a way.
23:09So can it go away?
23:11Are there cases of Tourette's fading over time, like getting worse, getting better?
23:15Like, or is it just.
23:17Shut up.
23:18So.
23:20I'm so sorry.
23:21I'm so sorry.
23:24So Tourette's cannot be cured and Tourette's doesn't just go away.
23:29You technically always have it.
23:30It's in your DNA.
23:31Shut the fuck up, bitch.
23:35It does fluctuate.
23:37So, you know, I could go a day without ticking.
23:40I could go an hour without ticking.
23:41I could go a year without ticking.
23:43That hasn't happened yet.
23:44A year?
23:44But I could.
23:45What's the longest?
23:46Probably a few hours.
23:48Well, I've never gone a full day without a single tick.
23:51Uh, since I was 15.
23:52Hey, what about when you're not talking?
23:54So let's say when you're in a movie theater.
23:56Oof.
23:56Okay.
23:57So I kind of avoid movie theaters because I get nervous.
23:59Um, that doesn't mean I don't go.
24:01I still go sometimes.
24:02Do you get offended by people that don't have it that say it?
24:05Because I, I say I have Tourette's as a joke.
24:07I mean, if you're joking, whatever.
24:10Because I don't really think before I speak, but I don't really have Tourette's.
24:13I know there's no, like, malicious intent behind that.
24:16You know, it's all about the context.
24:17But if you're, like, actually going around saying that you have Tourette's and you don't
24:20have Tourette's, you're making a fool of yourself.
24:22That's it.
24:23Right.
24:24Or, you know, like, again, it's just, like, understanding that it is a disability.
24:28It comes with its, its, uh, hardships.
24:30So as long as you understand that joke, I don't care.
24:34Right.
24:37Yeah.
24:37Cool.
24:38Yeah, that's it.
24:39It's super simple.
24:40I feel like I'm pretty easygoing.
24:42Yeah.
24:42And your boyfriend, is it almost like he doesn't even hear it anymore?
24:46Yeah, actually.
24:47Yeah, right.
24:47Like, it's like.
24:48Two years.
24:49Yeah.
24:49Yeah.
24:51Even, um, when we first started dating.
24:53He was actually, like, pretty, pretty, pretty good with it.
24:56Yeah, right.
24:57I'm already kind of getting used to it.
24:58Yeah.
24:59That's, a lot of people tell me that.
25:00They say they get used to it so quickly.
25:01Yeah, 50 minutes.
25:02You dumb bitch.
25:03Yeah, you're like, all right, anyways.
25:04Yeah.
25:04So.
25:08But, yeah, yeah.
25:09You know, so most people who tell me, uh, who are around me, uh, frequently that they
25:13don't even notice.
25:15And it's funny because, you know, so many people online will say, like, oh my God, like, no offense,
25:19but I couldn't stand being around you for more than five minutes.
25:22Okay.
25:22People say that.
25:23Likewise.
25:24Oh, yeah.
25:24Yeah, right.
25:25Yeah, like, the guy talking to you was a fucking terrible ass.
25:28No, it's so ignorant.
25:28Yeah, right, right.
25:29Yeah.
25:29Well, it's so, so ignorant.
25:32That seems to be your go-to, though.
25:33Wow.
25:34Yeah.
25:34You should have a radio show.
25:35What are we doing here?
25:36Yeah.
25:37I want one.
25:37That'd be awesome.
25:38Oh, she's pretty.
25:39Yeah.
25:40A podcast show.
25:41Yeah, yeah.
25:42Yeah, I would love, oh my God, I would love to do it.
25:43Let's set you up because you would cook.
25:45I would.
25:46Wow.
25:47Fuck you, bitch.
25:48Oh my God, that'd be so much fun.
25:49Yeah, you'd be great.
25:50Like a travel show with you and you're, you know, an old Chinese lady there and like
25:57you're in China and you're just fucking cursing her out.
25:59Anthony Bourdain with tics.
26:01Yeah, Anthony Bourdain with tics.
26:03Tics and dics.
26:05Oh my God.
26:05And you, you know, when you're ready for full porn one day.
26:08Whoa.
26:09One day.
26:10I don't know if it's happening.
26:11Okay, so how are you making money right now?
26:13Fanfics and social media.
26:15Okay.
26:16Um, honestly, like it has literally saved my ass.
26:19Growing up, I, I guess after the onset of my Tourette syndrome, I literally thought my
26:23life was over.
26:24And like, not to me it's like so down, but it's just true.
26:26Like, that's like, that was my thought process.
26:27I thought, you know, I would never be able to get a normal job, achieve my dreams, whatever.
26:33And then I started posting on social media, spreading awareness and now I'm here.
26:38And like, I'm so happy and so grateful.
26:42So in a way it's like, it's, you know, it's turned into such a positive when I thought it
26:46was like, you're a legend.
26:48Yeah.
26:48But yeah, so I make, I make my money off of social media, um, primarily fanfics subscribe.
26:57So what are we showing on fanfics?
26:59Cause I don't really get what fanfics is to be honest.
27:01Okay.
27:02So fanfics is no nudity.
27:04No nips, no puss.
27:06Basic.
27:06Yes.
27:07Yeah.
27:07Yeah.
27:07Okay.
27:07So, you know, close enough, but not that.
27:10That's what you're getting.
27:11Right.
27:11Close, but no cigar.
27:13Yeah.
27:13You're a little to the imagination.
27:14But don't you think it's better to do only fans and then have people think you might show
27:20the nips and keep teasing them?
27:22Why tell them right away, I'm on fanfics.
27:24Don't expect no nips.
27:26Aren't you kind of right?
27:27Well, you mean she's not lying?
27:29Well, yeah.
27:30All the money's made in line.
27:32I know, but she's an honest person.
27:34I am honest.
27:35What's the point of being so honest?
27:37I don't know.
27:38Right?
27:38It's just how I am.
27:40Cause a lot of my friends, the bophouse girls, for example, they go no nips, no puss.
27:44Really?
27:44Yeah.
27:45Oh my gosh.
27:45That's awesome for them.
27:46The bophouse girls.
27:47Oh yeah, they do?
27:48They go no nips.
27:49Who buys?
27:49I mean, that's crazy.
27:50And they make 2.5 million a month.
27:52Isn't that what Instagram is?
27:53I can't see a picture of you in a bikini on your Instagram?
27:55I don't have one on my Instagram.
27:58I don't think.
27:58Oh, okay.
27:59No, I don't think so.
28:00Well.
28:01But yeah, no, that's my fanfic.
28:03So I am very honest.
28:04That's what you're getting.
28:05Um, it's also, you know, like.
28:07You gotta do a laugh and just fake pretend.
28:09Anyways, I'm just.
28:10You make a lot more money.
28:12Maybe.
28:12Okay.
28:13But, um, I do, I do love fanfics.
28:14I get why you're going clean though.
28:16Yeah, it's mainly.
28:17I do because you, you are like, you're so unique.
28:19Suck my dick.
28:20That you, that you are so unique, dude, that someone would be like, this is so, like, it's.
28:27It's the brand friendly thing.
28:28You're a marketing dream for a Netflix show because they're like, dude, she could say whatever
28:32she wants under the guise of this, right?
28:34So they're like, you're just a writer's dream, right?
28:37Like where they're like, yo, let's just do a talk show with this girl and just let her
28:41run with it.
28:42Oh my gosh.
28:43What it is.
28:43You don't need to share your butthole.
28:44Don't listen to him.
28:45Yeah.
28:46What it is, is like, I do have big dreams and fanfics is very brand friendly.
28:51I think that's like actually how they market it.
28:53You're saying this into a jerk mate microphone, by the way.
28:55Yes, I am.
28:57And that's okay.
28:58I'm very family friendly.
29:00I will achieve my dreams no matter what.
29:02Even if I speak into the jerk mate microphone.
29:04No, no, good for you.
29:05Okay, cool.
29:06Yes.
29:06Okay, so what are the dreams?
29:07What do we want to do?
29:08Oh my God, I have so many dreams.
29:09Yeah, tell us.
29:12I love entertainment.
29:13I really do.
29:14Maybe one day I'll get back into acting.
29:15I used to do that.
29:16Acting?
29:17I used to act.
29:18Okay, so that seems tricky.
29:19Well, exactly.
29:20So I stopped acting after my onset of Tourette's syndrome.
29:25I stopped being in the entertainment industry entirely until I guess I got back into social
29:30media.
29:30Who knows?
29:31Maybe there'll be a place for me someday.
29:33Thinking at it.
29:34I'm trying to think of what the perfect game for you is.
29:36I'm trying to think of what the perfect game for you is.
29:36Unless you're doing live, you know, if you're doing a play, I can see them being, all right.
29:40For Fansly.
29:40Are you on Fansly?
29:41Nope.
29:42Just fanfics.
29:43Well.
29:44She's not showing.
29:46Fansly's kind of an in-between.
29:47In-between, okay.
29:48Yeah, yeah, yeah.
29:49Strangest custom request.
29:51This will be good.
29:53Oh, okay.
29:55Well, so I've had people, there was, there was like this one guy who requested like a two
30:03minute long video of me just ticking with the audio on and rubbing myself with oil.
30:08Yeah, okay.
30:09But like while I'm ticking.
30:10Yeah, in a bikini while I'm ticking.
30:12And I just, I thought it was really interesting to say like while I'm ticking.
30:15I'm like, what does that do for you?
30:16Um, I've had like lots of people, um, like just request, request for me to just like
30:21tick for them.
30:23It's like, it doesn't really work that way.
30:25Right, you can't.
30:25Yeah, because they're not, yeah.
30:26I can't really do that.
30:28Like, I can't just like, you know, be like, okay, all right, I'm going to tick and I'm
30:32going to degrade you.
30:32That's what I'm going to tick.
30:33No, that's, I just speak at that point.
30:36You know what I mean?
30:37So yeah, I've gotten like lots of weird questions like that.
30:41Otherwise, you know, I feel like they're all like the pretty normal kind of weird.
30:46Are you on Cameo?
30:48I am.
30:49That's a good one.
30:50Clean up on Cameo.
30:51Cameo would be good for you.
30:52Oh, I've gotten some interesting requests on Cameo too.
30:55People, people try to sneak stuff in, but I actually, I love doing Cameo.
31:00Yeah, I can see Cameo being a good one for you.
31:02Well, I've had like lots of people ask me to like roast their friend and whatever.
31:05And like people tell me like, don't edit out the ticks.
31:08And I'm like, I wasn't planning on it.
31:10So, and I'm not like this all the time, by the way.
31:13I am like just so high energy right now and excited.
31:16Okay, okay.
31:16So it's very enhanced right now.
31:18Oh, I would say so.
31:19Yeah.
31:19Like I am ticking so much.
31:23But yeah, you know, like there are times where like you will catch me and I'm not ticking
31:28at all.
31:29Right.
31:29Like we could have a conversation, not right now, but at some point, and I might not be
31:34ticking at all.
31:36So the nerves trigger it more.
31:38Nerves, lots of emotions, strong emotion essentially.
31:42So like right now I'm super excited.
31:43Honestly, I'm not nervous.
31:44Like you guys are really cool.
31:45You make me feel comfortable.
31:48Well, but yeah, excitement, anxious, like, you know, anxiety, even like anger, whatever.
31:55Um, um, sometimes like deep sadness, um, it just.
32:00How about when you're home alone?
32:02It happens.
32:03Yeah.
32:04Yeah.
32:04Okay.
32:04So what's so funny is like after I blew up on social media, people were accusing me of
32:09faking like crazy.
32:11And I got this like, you know, like.
32:12I thought maybe you fake it a bit.
32:13I think Uncle Tix does a bit.
32:15Really?
32:15Nah.
32:15I love Uncle Tix.
32:16Shout out Uncle Tix.
32:17I don't think so.
32:17Shout out Uncle Tix.
32:18I don't think you fake.
32:19Okay.
32:19I think you're cool.
32:20Because I think if the video is not doing what he wants it to do, he'll throw it in.
32:25He'll throw a little bomb in.
32:26It's the thing is, it's like, it's genuinely so difficult.
32:28I've never tried it.
32:30Well, I guess like before when you tried, you, you had me try and replicate the sound.
32:34It's just so.
32:34Right.
32:35Awkward.
32:35Yeah.
32:35Right.
32:36Okay.
32:36So, yeah, no, I, I really don't think that, you know, any of these content creators that
32:40you're seeing like Uncle Tix, for example, who have these, um, just very out, out there
32:47outburst in a tix, whatever.
32:50Um, I don't think that they are dramatizing it in any way because I know I'm not.
32:53And people accuse me of that.
32:55Shut up.
32:56All the time.
32:57So, yeah, it's like, it's too much brain power.
33:00I don't even know how you do that.
33:01Hey, one question that we, we yadda yadda'd over, because I think we all have ADD here,
33:05right?
33:05Shut up.
33:06Was the, the, the most embarrassing moment where you're like, fuck, I can't.
33:10Oh, yeah.
33:11Oh my God.
33:11Is there one that stands out that you're like, I can't believe that happened that day?
33:15I'm really, I'm really.
33:16Like, have you met someone famous?
33:17Have you met someone you looked up to?
33:19And said, go fucking kill yourself.
33:20Have you told your grandma something crazy?
33:22I think I'm the most famous person I've met.
33:25But, um, I, I, I've had lots of, she's too big for this podcast.
33:31Honestly.
33:31She's kind of cooked us.
33:32She's doing you a favor.
33:34Um, honestly, I, I, I've had so many, a lot of it is like, you know, in front of strangers
33:42where it's like, you know, like, I'll try and talk to a stranger or, or like a waiter,
33:46waitress, something like that.
33:47And it's like, oh, like, fuck you.
33:49And I have to then quickly explain whatever.
33:51I've also had some like crazy ass tics.
33:55Piss on me, bitch.
33:57Oh my God.
33:58That's the best one.
33:59Okay.
33:59You know that one.
33:59Cause that was one of my most viral videos.
34:01Yes.
34:02Yes.
34:02Piss on me, bitch.
34:03Yeah.
34:04There it is.
34:04That's an embarrassing one.
34:05Hey, that was cool to see live.
34:08That was like a great.
34:08Yeah.
34:09That was like, really.
34:10That was like, wow.
34:12That was a very, well, very embarrassing one that I had way more frequently a while back.
34:19And I think it just happened because I'm talking about this.
34:22It's just, it's just talking, talking.
34:24It's the, it's the long time.
34:26Orcs, orcs.
34:27Yeah.
34:27Talk, orcs.
34:28Um, but yeah, I've had that in public.
34:31I've had that around people.
34:32I don't know.
34:32Piss on me, bitch.
34:33It's hilarious.
34:34Yeah.
34:34And like, please don't piss on me, bitch.
34:35Have you ever said that like during like a quiet ceremony, like a wedding?
34:38Ooh, what about church?
34:39Yeah.
34:39So I don't go to church or anything.
34:42I have had tics in movie theaters.
34:43Then when that happens, I leave.
34:45I just, I go to the bathroom because it's like, I, you know, I, I understand that like
34:51at the end of the day, like it's a sound.
34:53People are trying to do something, like watch a movie, whatever.
34:55It's my responsibility to just like take myself out of there.
34:58I, I avoid libraries.
35:00I am a nerd.
35:01I love books.
35:02I love reading.
35:03I can't go to libraries.
35:04I love that shit so much.
35:06Like I used to, that was like my favorite thing.
35:07It would make me pretty antisocial because I'd be like, ugh, I have to be the center of
35:10attention instantly.
35:11Right?
35:11When I, well, after my onset of Tourette's syndrome, I pretty much did not go out anywhere
35:17for like a little over a year.
35:19I was so like freaked out.
35:21When you were 15, 16?
35:22Yeah.
35:22And I was also very young.
35:24Well, um, I also, you know, like I, I felt that it was like difficult for me to make friends.
35:29Like I didn't want to talk to anyone.
35:31I didn't want to go out.
35:32I just, it was scary.
35:34Were you popular or not popular in high school?
35:36Oh my God.
35:37No, no.
35:38I was, I was bullied to oblivion.
35:40Yeah.
35:41I actually, I had to switch to home.
35:43It wasn't actually homeschooling.
35:45I still learned through the high school, but it was virtual and just one-on-one sessions.
35:49Oh, because you left high school.
35:51The bullying was too bad.
35:53Oh, damn.
35:54Thank you for not shooting up your school.
35:56Fucking New Yorkers, huh?
35:57Your people.
35:58Mm-mm.
35:59And now I'm on the Pillow Talk podcast.
36:01Yeah.
36:01Yeah.
36:02There it is.
36:04Fuck you, New York high school kids.
36:05Yeah, take that, bullies.
36:06Yes.
36:07Oh my God.
36:07But yeah, it was really, really bad.
36:09Like I was just.
36:11But you're pretty though.
36:12So were the bullies kind of trying to sleep with you at the same time?
36:14You know, this one kid, he was like my main bully.
36:17I, I.
36:17What was his name?
36:20Yeah.
36:21What?
36:22Let's just rip it.
36:23Nope.
36:23Nope.
36:24Can't.
36:24Okay, let's bleep it.
36:25I just want to hear his name.
36:26I promise on my life.
36:28I swear.
36:28I swear.
36:29We always bleep every name.
36:32Yeah.
36:32So bleep that.
36:34I promise.
36:34I promise.
36:35Zach, we're bleeping.
36:35Okay.
36:36Well.
36:36Okay.
36:37Him and his friends made an Instagram account where they, they posted like that, the high
36:41school's bodies or whatever.
36:42And they made up a lie that he had sex with me.
36:46And I'm like, if you hate me, if you think I'm ugly, if you think I'm this and that and
36:50whatever, shut up, bitch.
36:52Why are you pretending like you had sex with me?
36:54Was he older or the same age?
36:55Same age.
36:56Senior?
36:56That's how guys flirt though.
36:58Okay.
36:58Come on.
36:59See, he says things too far.
37:00No, no, no.
37:01No, no.
37:02I have to lie about fucking girls.
37:04Well.
37:04Oh, no.
37:05I'm.
37:05Oh.
37:07Yeah, no.
37:07It was.
37:08It was bad.
37:09It was bad.
37:09Bullying.
37:10Like, really, really bad.
37:10And everyone believed it?
37:11Was he popular?
37:12No, they didn't believe it.
37:12Yeah, he was.
37:13Um.
37:14So, I commented under the post, even though, like, no one fucking fucked with me.
37:19Um.
37:19I.
37:20I.
37:20I.
37:21I may have this lie about how, like, his penis was so small that, like, it went into the
37:25couch and, like, he finished in the couch because it wouldn't.
37:28Oh, you cooked him right back.
37:29Oh, my God.
37:29I thought it was so funny.
37:31And, like, no one.
37:32His response was like, oh, she smelled like fish.
37:35Oh.
37:35Whatever.
37:35Because he didn't want to say, well, hold on a second.
37:37We didn't even fuck.
37:38Yeah, yeah.
37:39He had to keep going with it.
37:40Ah, you cooked him.
37:41Ridiculous.
37:42Good for you.
37:42Well.
37:43Fucking loser.
37:44These.
37:44These kids were.
37:45Oh, my God.
37:46It was insane.
37:46Ever since I was in elementary school.
37:49Like, I was.
37:50I was just bullied relentlessly.
37:51Like, I was.
37:53I did not think I would be here right now because it was so bad.
37:56Wow.
37:56Yeah.
37:57People are mean.
37:57Yeah.
37:58Well, yeah, it was bad.
37:59You know what?
37:59Let me tell you something.
38:00Shut up.
38:00Hurt people hurt people.
38:02Yes.
38:02And I thought about that.
38:03So don't hurt anyone.
38:04Yeah.
38:04I hope.
38:05I hope I don't.
38:06People confident, happy with their lives.
38:08They don't say a bad word about anybody.
38:09Ultimately, you know, like, the reason why I won't even, like, say a full name on the
38:13podcast is because, like, I just, I hope that people change for the better.
38:16He was a kid.
38:16I don't know what was going on in his life.
38:18To all of them.
38:19It wasn't just him.
38:20It was a whole group of kids.
38:22You don't know what's going on at home.
38:24Whatever.
38:25So.
38:25Everyone's got their own shit to deal with.
38:27I hope that they're just going to be so slippery slope to apologizing for Trudot.
38:31No.
38:31Diddy.
38:32Yeah.
38:32Hey, what do you think?
38:33You think that guy's answering my there, Val?
38:35Why don't we bring Val on?
38:36What's the segment called?
38:38It's called the Ukrainian problem solver.
38:42Ukrainian Russian.
38:43Oh, yeah.
38:44There you go.
38:44There it is.
38:45Oh, no.
38:45The Ukrainian tick.
38:47The Ukrainian tick.
38:48What's the war called?
38:49The Ukraine-Russia war.
38:50You just said it.
38:51That's what it's called.
38:53Okay.
38:54Let's have Val on here.
38:55How do I get on?
38:56How do I get on?
38:57Right here.
38:58You take Carol's chair.
38:59Oh, wait.
38:59Or sit on his lap.
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39:02Yeah.
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39:45Liam is one of your biggest crushes, right, Liam?
39:47I am.
39:48You can sit on Liam.
39:48Liam loves me.
39:49Oh, my God.
39:50He's handsome, isn't he?
39:51No, I don't think we should sit.
39:52My boyfriend is.
39:53I don't think we should sit.
39:54Okay, then, Carol, why don't you stop about five minutes?
39:56Five minutes, we'll get Valon.
39:57Okay.
39:59Okay, let's do this.
40:00Did you think of what you want to talk about?
40:01Oh, my God.
40:02I have so many questions.
40:04Okay, good, good.
40:04I need you to be prepared.
40:05You're my gosh.
40:06Okay.
40:06He runs marathons, this guy.
40:08I run marathons.
40:08Nice.
40:09I could never do that.
40:09And I think what you have is super awesome, me personally, because I think it brings so
40:15much individuality because it's just such a good conversation starter if you own it.
40:19And I feel like you do.
40:19That's what I try to do.
40:20Yes.
40:20I love it.
40:21I appreciate that.
40:22I love it.
40:23What was the most awkward thing you've done with your parents in a sense of, like, being
40:27in public where your parents were like, oh, my God, like...
40:29The sexual tics.
40:30Oh, kiss on me, suck my dick.
40:33But my parents, shout out to them.
40:35They are so cool.
40:36They get it.
40:36They are very supportive of me.
40:38You know, I know that they would have my back, and I'm so glad they get it.
40:41But Tourette's is hereditary.
40:43No one else in my family has it like I do, but other people in my family do have tic
40:48disorders.
40:49Well, like...
40:49Oh, like, what's another one in your family?
40:51My dad.
40:52Yeah, what does he have?
40:53It's...
40:53You would never notice it.
40:55It's a tic disorder, but, like, it's, like, you know, little things like his arms, like,
40:59maybe it's in his face a little bit, and then my grandma, his mother has it.
41:02Well, you would never, ever, ever notice.
41:05Hereditary...
41:05I'm ESL.
41:06I'm French.
41:08Actually?
41:08Yeah.
41:09Oh, that's so cool.
41:09Oh, that's so cool.
41:09Oh, that's so cool.
41:10Oh, that's so cool.
41:10I don't...
41:11Oh, no, I don't know any...
41:13This guy curled his hair in the front and he thinks he's French now.
41:16Yeah.
41:17Oh, my God.
41:20I'm in French.
41:20First of all, he's Canadian, so I don't remember...
41:21French-Canadian.
41:22First of all, you ever used AOL?
41:24No, right?
41:25Too young for that?
41:25Yeah, too young.
41:26You remember AIM?
41:27You guys remember AIM?
41:28You remember when we were all games for it?
41:29I remember on that MSN message.
41:31Oh, that's the sound?
41:32That's the sound that you would make.
41:33Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
41:34When you come in.
41:35That's what it is.
41:36Woo!
41:36Woo!
41:36Yeah, yes.
41:37Yeah, I used to have that.
41:39I swear to God, I'm not even joking.
41:40Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
41:41What's the wow come from?
41:42I don't know.
41:43I have no idea.
41:44I recognize it, though.
41:45Can you adopt a tic?
41:47Yeah.
41:48That's, like...
41:49Meaning, like, can you be like,
41:50Oh, shit, I would want to replace that with a fuck you.
41:53Oh, unfortunately, no.
41:54I, you know, a lot of people ask me, like,
41:57Oh, why can't you just switch out these words for that?
41:59Whatever.
41:59I can't.
42:00I just can't.
42:01It just happens.
42:02But can't you develop new ones?
42:03Yes, always.
42:04Oh, my God.
42:05You should really...
42:05Fandu should pay you a million dollars to learn, like,
42:08every, like, 20 minutes.
42:09Yeah, whatever.
42:10No, this one was the best.
42:11Right?
42:11That's genius.
42:12If she said penis, that was the best.
42:13You sit down in a room, just listen to the Fandu,
42:14and then eventually you're like,
42:15Dude, I'm paid by...
42:16Yeah, how do we force a tic on you?
42:18Oh, my God.
42:19Just go back.
42:20Okay.
42:20No, because I learned one thing.
42:22Vote for Pillow Talk, AVN, you know?
42:24Yeah.
42:24I noticed one thing, though.
42:26I noticed that...
42:27I noticed when you think of something
42:29that kind of maybe makes you think a little more,
42:32the tic will be a little more aggressive.
42:34Or if there's, like, dead air or something like that,
42:36I noticed that you might be like,
42:38you know, like, the piss on me was...
42:39It's great.
42:40That's the best.
42:42You shouldn't be sorry.
42:43I think that's amazing.
42:44Horrible habit I have, by the way.
42:46If you're disabled, don't apologize for it.
42:47Yeah, you shouldn't apologize at all.
42:49That's great.
42:50Real quick, quick question.
42:51For people that are dummies
42:53and are kind of a little bit ignorant to rats,
42:58like, if there was, like, a book for dummies,
43:00what would be the first thing you want them to learn?
43:04It is entirely involuntary,
43:06and it is not what I am thinking.
43:08That's it.
43:09It is not what you're thinking.
43:10Correct.
43:11And I cannot control it pretty much at all.
43:15There's something called suppression
43:16that I can kind of do sometimes,
43:18but it's difficult, it's uncomfortable,
43:20and it can trigger a tic attack,
43:22which you don't want to see that.
43:23That's not funny.
43:24But I will say, okay,
43:25he's probably the most arrogant
43:27of the three of us here today.
43:29Actually, of the four of us.
43:30She just said, no way, by the way.
43:33I feel like you've been most mean to him.
43:35What?
43:37Right?
43:37What do you mean?
43:38She just, she started with...
43:39Very kind to me,
43:40and medium to him.
43:42She started with shut up bitch to me.
43:44Yes.
43:44But that's a good thing.
43:45No, it's a bad thing.
43:46Shut up bitch is the best one
43:47that we've heard of her to say.
43:49So I actually...
43:51I feel like deep down,
43:51it kind of...
43:53No.
43:54Because to me,
43:54look, I'm your homie.
43:56I've been so nice to you.
43:58No tics to me.
43:59So you're basically...
44:00You're getting pissed on my mouth,
44:01everything.
44:02So you're basically saying,
44:03you know when the baby sees a person
44:05and the baby's warm to the person,
44:06they usually say that
44:07that's a good person.
44:08Same thing with dogs, right?
44:09Oh, I see what you're saying.
44:10I see what you're saying.
44:11If the tics get activated...
44:12She's more comfortable with you.
44:13Exactly.
44:13Ah.
44:15Which one is correct?
44:16Is it that you dislike him the most
44:18or is that that you're most comfortable with him?
44:20Neither.
44:22Neither.
44:23I think what he's trying to say
44:24is that in a very like environment
44:28where you don't have to be too excited
44:29or nervous
44:30or, you know,
44:31expect anything,
44:33you don't tic at all.
44:35No, I do tic.
44:35You do?
44:36Yep.
44:36Yeah.
44:37Even when I'm comfortable.
44:37I'm going to be honest with you.
44:38Like, I'm not nervous right now.
44:40I might look it.
44:41No, no, no, no.
44:43Cool.
44:43I'm awkward.
44:44But yeah,
44:45I'm not nervous right now.
44:46I'm excited.
44:47Um, but I feel good.
44:48Well, um,
44:49and there are lots of times
44:50where I just feel good
44:51and I'm still ticking.
44:53Now, it may not be as
44:55persistent and whatever,
44:56but it's there.
44:57Like I said,
44:58I've never gone more than like
44:59a few hours without ticking.
45:01Well,
45:02how about in your dreams?
45:04Okay, so...
45:05I sleep talk, by the way,
45:06a lot.
45:06I actually like say aggressive
45:08like Russian stuff.
45:10I like curse.
45:11I get up and I get up,
45:12pick up pillows.
45:13I walk out into my patio.
45:14I do really aggressive stuff.
45:16Like when my nervous system
45:16is in overload,
45:18my girl catches me
45:18doing some very insane,
45:20intense shit.
45:21Like I'll talk in my sleep,
45:22have arguments,
45:24and...
45:25Arguments?
45:25And you do more voices?
45:27She says that I curse
45:28like aggressively in Russian.
45:29But you speak
45:30person A,
45:31person B at each other?
45:32Dude,
45:32I woke up on my patio
45:33holding my pillow one time,
45:34bud naked.
45:35I'm not even joking,
45:36I swear.
45:37Oh my God.
45:37It's insane.
45:38You're the little guy.
45:39I'm like a little feisty
45:40little airy.
45:41So I have my own problems,
45:42you know what I mean?
45:43In a sense,
45:44where I'm afraid
45:45she goes to me,
45:46she's like,
45:46imagine we had a,
45:46like,
45:47you know,
45:48it was the 20th floor
45:48and there's a balcony.
45:50That's scary.
45:50You walk off the fucking balcony.
45:52Oh my God.
45:52In the middle of the night.
45:53That's aggressive.
45:54Yeah.
45:54Have you ever like seen a doctor
45:55or anything about that?
45:56No.
45:57But I did,
45:57I do realize that
45:58it only happens
45:59if I'm super,
46:00exactly.
46:01And when I'm super tired
46:02where I'm like super stressed out,
46:04it happens.
46:05Yeah.
46:05That means,
46:05oh wow,
46:06that's interesting.
46:08So I used to say
46:09that it had never happened
46:10in my dreams
46:11until semi-recently.
46:13I have ticked in my dreams
46:15numerous times
46:16within the past,
46:17like,
46:17two years.
46:18And it's,
46:19it's so weird.
46:20It's so,
46:21I wake up and I'm like,
46:24what just happened?
46:25Like,
46:25it feels so real
46:26and like,
46:27I don't really notice it
46:28in the dream,
46:29but I notice it when I wake up
46:30and I'm like,
46:31I was ticking.
46:32I had Tourette's in my dream.
46:33Oh wow.
46:33And I think it's because,
46:35well,
46:35I really am that used to it.
46:37Like I said before,
46:38you know,
46:38to me,
46:39it's white noise.
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47:15There it is.
47:16That was my turn.
47:17That was it?
47:18I love that.
47:19What about getting shadow banned?
47:20Do you have to bleep your words out?
47:22I.
47:22Or do they kind of give you the pass?
47:23TikTok hates me.
47:25Right.
47:25TikTok hates me so much.
47:26My account has been banned
47:27three times.
47:28What,
47:29fresh start ban?
47:31Not for,
47:31I've gotten it back.
47:32Hey, Saqib.
47:33Shut up, bitch.
47:33Hey, Saqib.
47:35I've gotten it back
47:39because I've basically,
47:40you know,
47:41said it was discrimination.
47:42Right, right.
47:42These guys are who replaced
47:44you know who,
47:45our editor.
47:45Oh, what's up, guys?
47:46Yes.
47:47And they're way better
47:47and they're fantastic
47:48and we love them.
47:50Saqib and Saqib.
47:52This is Rachel.
47:53She's unbelievable.
47:54Nice to meet you.
47:55Hi.
47:55Good luck editing this episode.
47:57Yeah.
47:57Oh, my God.
47:58You're going to love this shit, bro.
48:00Yeah.
48:00Oh, my God.
48:01Wow.
48:02Okay.
48:02So, so,
48:03fresh TikTok accounts
48:04three times.
48:05Yeah.
48:06It's,
48:06it's ridiculous.
48:08Oh.
48:09Yeah.
48:09And it's specifically
48:10TikTok.
48:11That hates me.
48:12Yeah.
48:12Well, yeah.
48:13They're the worst.
48:13Yeah.
48:13No, it's actually like
48:15so fucking frustrating
48:16because ultimately,
48:17like my account
48:17is actually pretty educational.
48:19You know,
48:20what I primarily post
48:21is Tourette's awareness
48:22and education.
48:23I answer everyone's questions.
48:25And, you know,
48:26I'm also
48:27shut the fuck up, bitch.
48:28Trying to be authentic.
48:30Yes.
48:31I'm not going to edit
48:32every single fucking tick out
48:33because then that's just not me.
48:35That's not real.
48:36Like, I actually posted a video recently
48:37where I said
48:38to edit my ticks out
48:39is to edit a part of me out.
48:41True that.
48:41Because it's such an important part
48:42of who I am.
48:43Yeah, but what if a racist person
48:44says that?
48:47Well, I think we can control racism.
48:50Right.
48:50I can't control my neurological disorder.
48:52There you go.
48:52Yes, yes.
48:54It's a part of me.
48:55Yeah, whatever.
48:59But...
48:59Being around a person
49:00you don't like
49:00and telling them
49:01shut up bitch is amazing.
49:02Yeah.
49:03Like, you should get out of the sand.
49:04Dude, you'd be like...
49:05You would be like...
49:06I would go ahead
49:06and make you ahead of PR, right?
49:08It'd just be like,
49:08all right,
49:09go do this prep conference.
49:10And someone would ask you
49:11some dumb questions
49:11like, shut up, bitch.
49:13If you were my best friend,
49:13I would send you
49:14to talk to all the people
49:15I don't like.
49:15I've been like,
49:15shut up, bitch,
49:17like 70 times.
49:18Yeah, I got you.
49:19I got you.
49:20So good.
49:22But, yeah,
49:23you know,
49:24even some of the other platforms
49:26like Snapchat,
49:27I've tried posting my video.
49:28Oh my God.
49:29I hate it.
49:31I am going to start
49:33trying out YouTube soon.
49:34So I'm excited
49:35to see how that goes.
49:36Hopefully they don't hate me.
49:38Instagram is pretty good.
49:39But what if you go,
49:40you know,
49:41like they did on Jerry Springer?
49:42So, you know,
49:43like that's...
49:44I could do that.
49:46But then that's...
49:47But once again,
49:47it's like still hiding it
49:48in a way.
49:49And it's like,
49:49if you meet me in real life,
49:50I can't just bleep it out.
49:52I can't just take it,
49:53edit it out,
49:54whatever.
49:54Like, this is just happening.
49:55You know what?
49:55YouTube is pretty good, actually.
49:56YouTube is good.
49:58Shut up, bitch.
49:58They won't pay you money, though.
49:59You can make a billion dollars, sir.
50:01Yeah, yeah.
50:01You are...
50:02You're going to be a billionaire.
50:04You're going to be a...
50:05Like, you already are a star,
50:06but you're going to be a...
50:06One of my dreams.
50:07You're going to be A-list celebrity.
50:08You are.
50:09That would be cool.
50:10Yeah, yeah, yeah.
50:10This is a question
50:11they ask everybody
50:12with a disability.
50:14If there was a cure,
50:15a magic pill,
50:16would you take it?
50:17Ooh.
50:18A magic pill that had...
50:19Just a pill that just made you
50:21no Tourette's.
50:21No side effects whatsoever.
50:23Yeah, yeah.
50:23No Tourette's.
50:24You're just like...
50:24And I don't want to say normal
50:25because what's normal.
50:26So you take it,
50:27you lose the Tourette's.
50:29So...
50:29What a question.
50:30If you asked me this
50:31when I was 15, 16,
50:32I definitely would have said yes.
50:35Right.
50:35Off the bat, yes.
50:36Yes, I'm taking that.
50:38Now, it's like...
50:40Why am I so ashamed of who I am?
50:43You know?
50:44Like, yes,
50:45it makes my life
50:46a bit more difficult
50:47in certain ways,
50:49but it's not my fault.
50:50It's just the way I'm born.
50:51You know?
50:52Like, I'm grateful I'm even here.
50:54So I really feel like,
50:56you know,
50:57even though it's just
50:57like a crazy hypothetical
50:58that's never going to happen,
51:00I still want to say no,
51:01which is so bizarre to me.
51:03Like, even myself.
51:04I have a marketing brain,
51:05so I would just say no.
51:06But, dude, this is...
51:07Yeah, like, I...
51:08No.
51:09No, I can't wait
51:10to watch your life
51:10and see how far you go.
51:11Oh, thank you.
51:12Is there any...
51:14There is no negative
51:16medical effects of this, right?
51:18Like...
51:18Yes, there are.
51:19Okay.
51:19Yeah.
51:19So there's something called...
51:21I'll just give you one example.
51:22There's something called
51:24self-injurious tics.
51:26And, you know,
51:27per the name,
51:28in self-injury,
51:29I have hurt myself
51:31pretty severely.
51:32I have a highlight
51:33on my Instagram
51:34where I show, like,
51:35little, like,
51:36a bit more, like,
51:37you know,
51:37intense Tourette's moments.
51:38And if you scroll through that,
51:39you'll see one
51:39where I actually, like,
51:41bloodied myself so bad.
51:42Because I had something
51:43called a tic attack,
51:44which is, um,
51:45just reoccurring, uh,
51:46violent, extreme tics.
51:48Violent?
51:48Yeah.
51:49What do you mean?
51:50Well, like,
51:51I punched myself
51:52in the jaw
51:52and the ear
51:53so hard that
51:54my ear, like, split.
51:55By yourself?
51:56Yeah.
51:56In your room?
51:57Yes.
51:58Yeah.
51:59And I couldn't even talk.
52:00How old were you?
52:01Uh, that wasn't that long ago.
52:02That was probably, like,
52:03a few months ago.
52:04Wait, you just sort of
52:05punched yourself in the face?
52:06Yeah.
52:07Uh, that's a tic attack, though.
52:08That does not happen frequently.
52:10Well, and that is, like,
52:11you know,
52:11the more sad
52:12and severe side of it.
52:14Oh, no.
52:14And that's, like,
52:14you know,
52:14when you say,
52:15oh, would you take the pill?
52:16You know,
52:16I'm sure, like,
52:17in that,
52:17if I was in the middle
52:18of a tic attack,
52:18I'd be like,
52:19give it to me now.
52:20Give it to me now.
52:21Oh, my God,
52:21you hit yourself.
52:22Yes, I have,
52:23many times.
52:24I've also slammed
52:25my head on things.
52:26Shut the fuck up, bitch.
52:27And you don't want
52:28to be doing it,
52:28but your body's doing it.
52:29No, I don't want
52:30to hurt myself.
52:30That's got to be scary.
52:31It is.
52:32It actually is.
52:33You know,
52:33like,
52:33lots of people with Tourette's,
52:34and I still don't know
52:35how I haven't gotten
52:36to that point,
52:37but I'm so grateful
52:38I haven't,
52:39but shut the fuck up,
52:40have ended up
52:41in the hospital
52:41because they've injured
52:42themselves so badly,
52:43and it's typically
52:44due to a tic attack
52:46where the tics become
52:47more violent
52:48and extreme
52:49and, you know,
52:50more repetitive.
52:51So, yeah,
52:53there are some,
52:54you know,
52:55like I said,
52:55it's a disability.
52:57So, you know,
52:58as much as, like,
52:58it is, like,
52:59genuinely, like,
53:00kind of funny
53:00and, like,
53:01I do love
53:02and accept myself
53:03and I'm just, like,
53:05you know,
53:05there's no shame
53:05in who I am.
53:06It sucks to deal
53:07with sometimes.
53:08Like, it really does.
53:10So,
53:12fuck you, bitch.
53:13That's my answer.
53:14That's it.
53:14Yeah.
53:15That's the best way to...
53:15Cool.
53:16Well, this almost
53:17wraps us up.
53:18Hey, congrats.
53:19You're the
53:19gang girl of the month
53:20for December.
53:21Congratulations.
53:22So, do you have
53:23any funny stories
53:24from your amazing journey
53:25with the guy
53:26that jumps out
53:26to me the most
53:27would be
53:28a sock guy.
53:29He typed everything,
53:30so, at first
53:31it was all in lowercase.
53:32Out of the blue
53:32just started talking
53:33in capital letters,
53:34speaking in the third person,
53:36so, saying, like,
53:36Emily is unzipping her boots.
53:38Emily is peeling
53:39the sock down.
53:40My eyes started to water
53:41from trying to not laugh.
53:42He said,
53:43I think Emily's
53:43getting emotional.
53:45Why don't we recite
53:46Romeo and Juliet together?
53:48Oh, my God.
53:48I love Shakespeare.
53:49Okay, great.
53:50Shakespeare.
53:50Shut up, bitch.
53:52Okay.
53:52Mm-mm.
53:53Do Samuel L. Jackson
53:54speech from Pulp Fiction.
53:56Yeah, yeah, yeah.
53:57I like that.
53:58Which one?
53:59The motherfucker one?
54:00I want a monologue.
54:01By the way,
54:01I just watched that movie.
54:03First time?
54:03Not that great, eh?
54:04No fucking way, bitch.
54:05I rewatched it.
54:05Go back to Canada.
54:06Classic this, classic that.
54:07Go back to Canada.
54:08What's so good about it?
54:09Tarantino's,
54:10he's so cringe in that movie.
54:12So cringe.
54:13The acting,
54:14his acting.
54:15When he says the N-word
54:16a bunch of times,
54:17it was so weird.
54:18As long as I'm not reciting.
54:20That was weird.
54:20Yes.
54:21And then he just acted,
54:22he was weird.
54:24Spray him again.
54:24Look at him.
54:25Spray him, spray him.
54:26He's cringe.
54:27Mm-mm-mm.
54:28The whole Bruce Willis part
54:29was boring too in the hotel.
54:30What was that?
54:32Am I wrong?
54:34Am I wrong?
54:36Yes.
54:36Stand up for Bruce Willis
54:37in the hotel.
54:38Pulp Fiction's a great film.
54:39What, you want blueberry pancakes, dear?
54:40No, I'm sorry.
54:41Gaping hole number eight
54:42is a work of art to you,
54:43but fucking Pulp Fiction isn't.
54:46Pulp Fiction,
54:47do you like Pulp Fiction?
54:48I'm not really
54:49a Quentin Tarantino fan.
54:51Me either.
54:51Because he's kind of an ass.
54:52He's a piece of shit.
54:53He's a loser.
54:54Name a good artist
54:55that isn't a piece of shit.
54:56Michael Jackson.
54:58Literally children.
54:59Oh, yeah, that.
55:00Yeah, okay.
55:00I'm so sorry.
55:02I feel like
55:03there are a lot of great artists
55:04who unfortunately
55:05don't get out there.
55:06I know a lot.
55:08Unfortunately,
55:08the famous ones
55:09are all pieces of shit.
55:11Why is that?
55:11Well, it's because
55:12power corrupts.
55:14I make art.
55:16I actually do.
55:17Oh, what do you do?
55:17I draw a lot.
55:19Like a lot.
55:20It's like one of my favorite things.
55:22You draw?
55:23Pencil?
55:24Yeah, charcoal is my favorite.
55:25Charcoal, what's that?
55:27Charcoal is like...
55:28You don't know what charcoal is?
55:29Yeah, how do I explain that?
55:31What do they have in Canada?
55:32What do you guys learn?
55:33I grew up French.
55:35You guys have artists.
55:37Genuinely, like,
55:38actually autistic.
55:39I cannot tell if you're judging.
55:41You know, see like charcoal sketches?
55:43I used to do charcoal art.
55:45Really?
55:45Yeah, I went to an art school.
55:46Oh, that's so cool.
55:47I never...
55:48I wish I did that sometimes.
55:49I dropped out.
55:49I didn't finish the show.
55:50Yeah.
55:51Hey, we got to do our segment
55:52for JerkBank.
55:53That's the reason we're all...
55:54Let's just call it.
55:55People have came
55:55enough for this episode.
55:57That was great.
55:58Shut up in.
55:59I don't know.
56:00I don't know.
56:00I don't know.
56:00I don't know.
56:00I don't know.
56:00I don't know.
56:00I don't know.
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