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00:05tonight i love what you're wearing the holly sandwich oh my god girl i have an angry clown
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00:28hello everybody welcome back to another special edition of holly randall unfiltered i am here at
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01:27my guest
01:28today went from serving in the military to serving in the adult industry he's been in for about six
01:35years now and i'm very excited to get to know him i know you are too let's welcome bobby gray
01:40thank you
01:41thank you for having me i i'm honored thank you well thank you no it's it's a pleasure i i
01:46like
01:46doing these interviews at avn because you know a lot of people are in town that don't normally you
01:53know live in la which is normally where i record my podcast and i get the opportunity to meet a
01:57lot
01:58of different people and do these kind of like quick little get to know you sessions and um yeah it's
02:02just a great way to like add variety and new faces to the show so awesome yeah because you live
02:07in
02:08texas right now in austin right yeah austin is i spent a couple of um months in austin when i
02:15was
02:15shooting my playboy tv show it's a very cool city oh yes yeah it's like a mix between new york
02:20and la
02:20right now yeah it's it's beautiful it's one of the fastest growing cities too right ever since after
02:25covid yeah everybody just flooded in yeah yeah speaking of covid that's like when you got into the
02:31industry like around that time right yes yes yeah i came in in uh january 2020 and then a couple
02:36months
02:36later covid oh so like right before covid you didn't even wait for like the shutdown to get in
02:42like a lot of people you were like right before wow so now before that you were in the army
02:48right
02:48yes and you even did a combat tour in iraq that's correct yeah so how did that shift from you
02:55know
02:55being an army vet to working in the adult industry how did that happen i always wanted to be in
02:59the
02:59industry um i was actually deciding back when i was in college i was actually this close to signing
03:04the contract and going to the adult industry first but because i made a promise to my mom
03:08finished college then went to the army um but i always had in the back of my head i always
03:12had
03:12that voice calling out to me so it was it was natural for me i was pretty much ready so
03:17when i
03:17finished up in the army in 2014 i just progressed naturally right over into acting and modeling so i
03:22was doing that in korea south korea where i was stationed oh really and then went to la back to
03:26new
03:26york texas and so when i got to texas i said you know what i said let me put the
03:30acting part to the
03:31side let me give this adult entertainment an opportunity a chance so yeah i came across
03:37tadpole x studio he gave me opportunity i flew into vegas went to the hard rock hotel and when i
03:43walked
03:43in i saw everybody i was just amazed and he had promised um if i remember correctly he had promised
03:50his fans seven new guys and when i showed up he uh we get to elevator we go up and
03:55he said hey bobby
03:56he said you know thank you for showing up he's like you know i appreciate it so much and um
04:00he's like
04:00welcome to welcome to the porn industry he's like by the way you're the only guy that showed up
04:04no pressure this is all on you wow so he's really thankful that you showed up wow and i walked
04:10through
04:10the door and kendra hart my first shoot yeah oh wow yeah yeah and i was nervous i was
04:16and uh yeah she's like she took command of the room like her energy she was so bubbly and chill
04:21yeah and so how did the scene go the scene went good yeah he actually threw in to make it
04:25a group
04:25scene he threw in uh one of his friends that was supposed to shoot the next day but he was
04:29tested and
04:29everything so he just had him put a mask on yeah so he did an mfm so it was good
04:32it was really good
04:32yeah oh wow yeah yeah um why did he mention like why the other guys didn't show up do you
04:39think that
04:40it's because i will say like i get a lot of dms every woman in the adult industry gets a
04:46lot of dms
04:46from guys who want to get into the industry right yeah like in their head it sounds like a great
04:51idea
04:51but the reality of it is not the same exactly exactly do you think that that's why they chickened
04:58out i think that's a big part of it because like you said like they have this version in their
05:02mind
05:02and now when it's time to put up or shut up and whether it's you know having it out there
05:07on
05:07internet forever or i think the big part is them actually showing up and having you know the lights
05:12the camera and and all these other people possibly around you know the the manager the the agent
05:16you ever know or just extra people who are there like waiting for their shoot um i think that plays
05:22into the mind of men because again it's it's easy when you're when you're watching it and you can
05:26envision yourself in that fantasy but it's another thing now when it becomes reality so yeah um when
05:32he told me that you know we both started laughing because we both already kind of figured that's what
05:36it was now you did your first scene what was like unexpected about it what was expected about it
05:44like did you finish that thinking that's exactly how i thought it would be or where you're like
05:49that's not at all what i thought it would be well you know funny thing is i i cleared my
05:53mind
05:53beforehand i just said you know i don't want to have any expectations so when i went in and like
05:58i said
05:58i was i was uh nervous um even though i had been in the swinger lifestyle before i was kind
06:04of nervous
06:04just because again i'm going into a different realm in a sense so um i guess you could say like
06:11once i
06:12finished up like i was i was thrilled you know it was like i was proud of myself in a
06:16sense you know
06:17i actually did exactly what i said i was going to do i followed through and and i made a
06:22good
06:22impression on on tadpole and on the other folks so they kept calling me back um but yeah it was
06:28i would
06:29say it was it was eerie because i manifested that because i had prayed about it a long time ago
06:35because
06:35like i said when i was in college i like this close to sign the contract and i guess you
06:40could say
06:40divine timing so it just it happened exactly when it was supposed to happen and uh yeah yeah are you
06:46glad that you waited because a lot of people get into the adult industry early and not always but
06:53sometimes they wish they had waited for me i i am thankful that i waited uh because i just know
06:58that
06:59had i gone in at 19 um i probably would have gotten like gotten hooked up to like the wrong
07:06crowd
07:06per se um and i probably would have messed a lot of stuff up for myself and we hear those
07:11stories
07:11all the time in entertainment business you know folks that kind of go in whether at a like a very
07:16early age in their teens young adults um and they end up kind of like going like blowing through their
07:20money and getting caught up in drugs the bad crowd and i think for me not because i was a
07:24party guy too
07:25much it was just more of like i have a really good heart and that's like easy prey for a
07:29certain you
07:30know type of people out there it's easy to be influenced too at that age exactly so i'm very
07:34thankful that i did wait and and also you know i got to experience like i said going into the
07:37military uh serving my country going overseas meeting just the different uh different people
07:42going around different cultures so yeah i'm glad i waited do you think that the army gave you like a
07:47kind of discipline that helped you yes oh yeah yeah it definitely gave me structure um it definitely
07:53gave me the ability to have like that thick skin to where like when things kind of like you know
07:58uh don't go your way especially in this industry it's like a roller coaster ride you're managing so much
08:03so it's like so you got to have that thick skin where you're just like all right okay on to
08:06the
08:06next thing you know and just not allow other things to affect you too much so yeah yeah have
08:10you had to navigate changes and like how friends or family perceive you since entering porn uh
08:16somewhat um i don't have too many uh family and friends that know about it uh the ones that do
08:21super excited a best friend of mine he lives in the philippines now and every now and again he'll
08:27hit me up he'll send me messages like hey man i just showed these girls your your page and stuff
08:30when you're coming out to the philippines and then my younger brother uh we're 12 years apart
08:36um and he's he's back in new york uh and every now and again we'll talk and recently the last
08:41time we
08:42talked a few months ago he said that he's also interested in you know getting into the industry
08:46so i gave him some tips sent him some emails and all that stuff and i said you know i
08:48said pick my
08:49brain as much as you want but uh yeah the um uh the family and friends who know you know
08:53they're
08:54they were kind of shocked at first because um i didn't give off the energy of that type of person
09:00that would go you know into into the industry because uh people see me as more like the clean
09:04cut you know um guy next door type stuff so when i do tell people they're they're shocked yeah
09:11but there's obviously like a side of you that they they don't see right right how do you think adult
09:16performers are still misunderstood by people outside the industry oh great question um i mean now that
09:22you're in it and maybe the way that you saw them before you got in it right now that you're
09:26now that you're one of us exactly exactly exactly i think the big part is and it's so funny because
09:32it's like us in the industry now we we laugh at it they don't seem to realize like how often
09:37we get
09:37tested you know on the outside people have this mindset like okay i got tested in like it like
09:44they're good for a year and i have to remind them i'm like that's a test it's not a shot
09:47yeah and i was
09:49like you know we we have to get tested very often especially depending upon how many shoots it could
09:53be every two weeks um every three weeks whatever the case may be um and i think that's the
09:58misconception is that we're like a bunch of dirty people just having sex and you know we've got all
10:03types of diseases and we're running and that's far from it i mean we are and and that's that's
10:08something that definitely um opened my my mind's eye was just how um strict the industry is i mean
10:15of course because of things that have happened in the past with you know things on set with people
10:19not being tested and spreading stuff yeah unfortunately we've had to learn we've had to
10:24learn some hard lessons over the years yeah but it's made us a safer industry and it's created like
10:31also like a i think a strong sense of responsibility amongst people in the industry like i think that
10:37people who are professionals and you know who work consistently like understand the importance of
10:44testing and like nobody blows it off you know exactly and i think also the fact that they don't
10:49i guess they they sometimes forget like that we're human and sometimes i'll other places i've worked at
10:55i've worked in fitness facilities and people have known there and they were all excited and stuff
11:00and the funny thing is they don't realize just how chill and how relaxed and just how normal we are
11:05yeah um they yeah they truly believe like we are from like another planet you know it was so funny
11:12i had girth master on a few months ago and you know he's like fairly new to the industry doing
11:20mainstream porn and i asked him like what one of the things about the porn surprised him and he said
11:26there's a lot less orgies that i expected like i thought that every party i would go to there'd be
11:31orgies no one's having orgies people are just it's like a normal party people are going and like
11:36having drinks and like talking yeah yeah which i thought was so funny yeah i mean it's it's it's it's
11:41a
11:41beautiful thing to see like when you can actually just chill out relax enjoy a drink have a
11:45conversation with people um and that's something i think for me it didn't surprise me too much when
11:50i was on the outside because as i said like i wanted to be in industry for so long so
11:54when i had
11:55the opportunity to meet like sean michaels joanna angel at xbiz awards years back um i i got to kind
12:02of peek into that that world a little bit you know i got to hang out with people at the
12:05after the award
12:06shows and stuff and it was just so calming it was so relaxing it was like it was like i
12:11felt like i
12:12belonged you know i and i loved it yeah i say this so frequently that people are probably sick of
12:16me
12:17saying it but it is very much like a a big kind of misfit family yes and um mick blue
12:23actually brought
12:24a friend of his to one of the awards ceremonies and he told mick that and he was someone who
12:30works
12:31in mainstream hollywood and this like really stuck with me and he said that he couldn't believe how
12:36incredibly close everybody was and how like genuinely happy everybody was to see everybody
12:42and like the like the love and the connection between people was felt really genuine and it was
12:49like i've never seen that at a hollywood party at all and i thought about i actually went to like
12:53paris hilton's birthday party last year or something um with a friend of mine and it was
13:01very like la you know like nobody was talking to each other plastic people were just like no one was
13:09talking to each other it was like no one knew each other everyone was just standing in these little
13:12groups yeah and everyone looked so bored it was like the most boring party i've ever been to
13:17and i was like this is not the world i want to be in like it made me so grateful
13:22for
13:23working important you know yeah so you've been married twice and you now prefer a polyamorous
13:28lifestyle um what did traditional relationships teach you about yourself that i'm not monogamous
13:35that it is uh yeah it's um it's the traditional relationship lifestyle nothing wrong with it but
13:42it's just not for me i felt like i i don't know i felt like i was confined um and
13:47uh i think for me
13:49like society gives you like a guidebook and it's to learn from and create your own um the mistake
13:55i made was i was actually like following it to a t you know go to college get a career
13:59get married
14:02and it also taught me that i'm very sensual very sexual like i i love women you know i i
14:08love
14:09being sexual and i think being in a monogamous relationship at least from what i saw growing up
14:13it was it was confining in the sense that it's almost like you you you couldn't have certain
14:18thoughts you couldn't be a certain way even in your own relationship like something was wrong with
14:22you and that's what i went through in both those uh relationships um and it got to the point where
14:27i was just like you know what i the best thing to do is just to walk away we're not
14:31compatible you
14:32know and it was nothing against them wonderful wonderful women but i i knew what they needed and i just
14:36was not that um and i knew what i needed so it's uh it like i said divine timing like
14:42everything just
14:42kind of fell into place the way it was supposed to and then the point the opportunity for the
14:46industry came up and yeah can you tell us the story of how you earned the nickname mr honeyman
14:52yes uh so i was on a set for tadpole uh tadpole x studios and i don't know if it
14:57was either yes it
14:59was uh uh exotica chicago and exotica miami so uh on the set doing the gangbang scene and because i
15:08take my time i worship the woman's body i listen to her energy and that's just how i how i
15:13kind of
15:13navigate um so there was this guy uh i'm not gonna give his name good guy good guy he didn't
15:19mean
15:19anything by it so after the one in chicago he walks up to me and he's just like hey man
15:24you know just
15:24so you know um i i get your style and everything i respect it but you know this is gangbang
15:29you know
15:29we got to be like pop pop pop to the next one pop pop pop to the next one right
15:32i said no i said i
15:33completely understand and we talked for a little bit and then when i got back home he had messaged me
15:37again i
15:37guess he felt really bad so he messaged me this long you know nice message and he said uh he
15:41said
15:42yeah you know he's giving me like some more advice and so then i said to him i said hey
15:46i said you know
15:46duly noted but i said also realize is that this is the reason why tadpole keeps you know asking me
15:51to
15:51come back because uh he likes my style his fans like my style i guess it adds like a different
15:56dynamic
15:57and then also a lot of times in the past when tadpole reached out to the women and they were
16:02kind of
16:03like i don't know if i can make it then he would show them my profile and they're like oh
16:06yeah he's
16:06gonna be there i'll be there i was like okay so so it again i in my own way contributed
16:11that energy
16:12um and i that's what i also loved about it was just being on the set and seeing like the
16:16different
16:16people who have you know brought something different so then now the miami exotica shoot
16:21same thing again and the same guy is there and so everybody finishes up tadpole's standing there
16:27butt naked with the camera and he's looking at me and i'm i'm on top of uh sarah arabic
16:31wonderful wonderful performer we love sarah arabic i met her for the first time on the expo's red
16:37carpet because she did an unboxing of the strip chat merch that we gave away at the party that we
16:43did at dave and buster's so thank you sarah i will always love you for that special like social media
16:49like shout out yes she is awesome like her energy the way we connected so i'm on top of her
16:55and i think
16:56we both kind of forgot where we were so that's why i tapped over i was like hey bobby you
17:00about to
17:00finish up i was like so i said yeah one second um so just as i get ready uh the
17:05guy um he's standing
17:07there and he's has his hands on his hips short guy he has his hands on his hips like there
17:12he goes
17:13mr honeymoon and everybody starts busting out laughing and i stopped like right before i come in i look
17:18over and i was like bro thank you i'm gonna use that and i just took it and ran with
17:22it and so ever
17:25it's it's stuck because it was funny too it's like i i was looking for um a nickname for myself
17:31and boom you just gave it to me right through him so considering everything that you've been
17:36through in the last six years what advice would you give someone considering entering the industry
17:40today and we're talking about like men specifically be yourself take your time um don't feel as i was
17:49saying earlier don't feel like you have to try to do everything and be everything for everybody like
17:53really figure out and hone in on what your what your gift is um when i was in the acting
17:59side of
17:59entertainment one of my acting coaches said to me uh find what is appealing about you and sell the
18:05shit out of it so whatever that is that that draws people to you and then also i've because i've
18:10had
18:11guys reach out to me and say man how do i get into all this stuff and all the advice
18:14i've given them
18:14and i said one of the things is because i asked about like how do they they meet the women
18:18and i say you
18:19either reach out to them you know on their links or you contact whatever agency they're with but i
18:25said just make sure that when you reach out to them because some of them have had uh i guess
18:29bad
18:29experiences when they were talking to the women and i just say just be a gentleman just say hey you
18:34know i'm bobby gray i've been in the industry or i've just gotten to the industry i'm talent tested
18:39through tts or cleared um i would love to to film with you sometime um i have no problem traveling
18:44to
18:45you or flying you to me if the vibe is right um you know by all means check out my
18:49profile
18:50and guys if you have references put that in there as well say hey you know i can have i
18:54can give you
18:54references upon request um and i have no problem giving you my qr code my uh my lab results and
19:00everything like that and please check out my profile any questions i'm an open book and it's laid
19:06out right there all right well thank you so much for coming to join us it was a pleasure to
19:10get to
19:10know you can you tell everyone where they can find you online please yes you can go to x uh
19:15you can
19:15find me at bobby gray xxx my only fans the bobby gray xxx um that's where you can find me
19:22and uh you
19:23have all my links there and if for whatever reason you can also type in handsomehead.com all right guys
19:29stay tuned um i have some more interviews lined up so stick around we'll be right back
19:43want to get it down
19:46hit my face
20:15okay so my guest today went from
20:18college cam model to one of the fastest rising names in the adult industry racking up tens of
20:24millions of views landing major award nominations and building a massive fan base in record time
20:30but behind the success are some truly unhinged early stories hard lessons and a crash course in
20:37navigating an industry that doesn't always come with a manual let's welcome addison vodka hello
20:44hi i'm so happy to be here yeah i'm so glad that we could finally make the floor
20:48yes
20:50so addison um i guess let's start like i do with most of my guests we start from the beginning
20:55we
20:55always want to wonder how you ended up on the dark side yes so how does your story begin
21:01so i actually started out um back when i was a preschool teacher i was still living with my parents
21:09and i had had a boyfriend at the time who i found out was using this camming website behind my
21:18back
21:18and i had asked him repeatedly to stop because i found out that he was using it he didn't stop
21:26so when you say using it he was not a performer on it he was no he was live streaming
21:32himself on it
21:33okay for fun i guess okay so he was like as a performer okay he wasn't like a like a
21:40fan on
21:40there like tipping other girls both okay gotcha on a very small scale you know he had maybe three
21:46viewers yeah so he didn't stop when i asked him to so at that point i kind of just thought
21:53to
21:53myself well if you can do it then i'm gonna do it and i went on the website and made
21:58an account
21:59and the first night i had over 12 000 viewers and i made a bunch of money wow and then
22:07within the next
22:08few days i moved out of my parents house and i quit my job oh my god so camming like
22:16really launched you
22:18like into a whole new stratosphere just a whole different world i didn't really know what i was
22:24doing at that point in my life i was in this stupid relationship i had moved back in with my
22:29family i was just struggling all around and then it kind of gave me this new door to unlock where
22:37i felt
22:38i had some freedom you know and once it started i just couldn't really get away from it wow what
22:46surprised you the most about camming i think it was the response that i got i had assumed maybe if
22:54i
22:54logged on to one of these websites i would have five people watching me having 10 000 plus people
23:02watching you live was insane it was so hard for me to even grasp that and everyone was just so
23:10nice
23:10to me and it was so crazy to start building a fan base and i just never fathom something like
23:16that
23:16could happen were there some things that you did early in your camming career that now you are like oh
23:23i should have done that differently i think no honestly i think i really loved the way that i was
23:31just this crazy college party girl that was the vibe and it was really fun it was really natural it
23:39was
23:39just me on a laptop webcam having fun with my friends and with guys and just doing crazy stuff so
23:47i wouldn't change it i don't think so how long did you cam before you transitioned into doing studio
23:55work which is what you're doing now right yes i think i was camming for almost two or three years
24:04okay and then i started doing only fans i had started meeting more people i went to expos and stuff
24:11and
24:11then once i started doing only fans i just opened more of the world you know and then i started
24:18doing
24:18studio work which was crazy tell me about that transition from like you know you're camming
24:26then you're doing only fans these are still two things that are very much like in your control
24:30right yes and probably a lot of it was shot at your home maybe by yourself yeah um and then
24:36transitioning
24:37into doing studio works like a whole different thing so what was that move like for you
24:41so it was a little scary i had met a few mainstream porn stars um at an event in miami
24:51and i just thought it was so cool and it seemed so fun i had no idea i didn't know
24:56how to get an
24:56agent i didn't know how to do anything i just started emailing the the websites on there like
25:02scroll to the bottom email the help email yeah and one of them actually emailed me back so that's
25:09how i started shooting and the transition felt oddly very natural to me i was nervous of course because
25:16it is very different than being in the comfort of your home and just being alone but once i started
25:23doing it i was like this is really what i enjoy it's so much fun tell me about your first
25:30experience
25:30like your first studio shoot what was that like i was in florida and i think it was for
25:37new biles and they had sent me a crazy long script and i'd never done anything like that before
25:44at all i've never even read a script in my life yeah and i was so nervous i just remember
25:50i kept
25:51messing up and messing up and i felt so bad for the poor director and camera people i was i
25:57almost cried i
25:58was just so anxious and nervous and that scene haunts me to this day because my acting is atrocious
26:02but that's rough like i i i've been the director on the other side of that yeah i've also been
26:09the talent on the other side of that like when i had a show for playboy tv and i would
26:14have to
26:14i never understood what it was like being talent until i did that show and i was just a host
26:19i wasn't
26:19a performer at all right but um having to struggling with something and then still having to like
26:26project this image of like i'm happy or i'm this or you know what i mean a place that you're
26:31not
26:31feeling at the moment is tough yeah and you know what's funny is that um i am very bad at
26:38memorizing
26:39lines like very bad even if i wrote the script yeah i'll write myself lines like all of a sudden
26:45when i used to shoot for like digital playground and stuff i put myself in as a like a non
26:49-sex role
26:50just because i didn't want to pay somebody else to do it yeah so i would just do it myself
26:53but i
26:54wouldn't remember my own lines yeah my own lines yeah and like everyone's waiting for me
26:59the director hello who can't fucking do her lines and it's just like and and you get caught in that
27:05yeah in that headspace and then it gets worse and it's like yeah so hard yeah the spiral with it
27:12was
27:12definitely the worst thing yeah over time i've gotten much better at memorizing lines i think it
27:18took a little while but no that haunts me every day that's so bad okay so i mean overall do
27:26you
27:27feel like this scene was fairly successful like once you got to the sex part did that at least go
27:30better i think so i think i was also it was it was funny because that being my first scene
27:37it was a
27:38more technical type of one um they really liked to cut between each you know position and this and
27:45that so it felt very stop and start stop and start and i was just which is so different than
27:50like camming live yeah being in the moment yes and then of course later down the line i had
27:54experiences where they were like okay just go we're just gonna roll through 30 minutes go have fun
27:59so it was crazy it was it was nerve-wracking and but i think funny enough the scene people like
28:06it a
28:06lot and i think i'm just overly critical of it because you know i just know that was my first
28:12thing ever what was the hardest part of transitioning from solo camming to the larger
28:17porn industry like agents or sets or expos or lines yeah i think one of the hardest parts was just
28:29navigating the whole new world itself i mean all of those things like together you know finding an
28:36agent was scary finding just making sure that i was doing the right things um you know of course
28:44you're never always going to do the right thing but trying my best to do that just meeting so many
28:50new people putting myself in all these new crazy positions and experiences so i think all of it was
28:58pretty hard but at a point it started to flow naturally and i think that the transition just
29:05was the right one yeah the mainstream adult world can also be competitive and confusing without
29:11reasons what do you wish someone had told you early on i think someone should have told me that
29:21you know everyone has their own journey everyone goes at different paces i think it's really easy to
29:28get caught up in the comparison especially you know if you see someone that started at the same time as
29:34you and you see someone on a different path than you and you feel like you're not leveling up to
29:42that
29:42etc etc you know there's everyone has their own timeline i think that success comes at all different
29:48rates and times and to just not put so much pressure on yourself to get somewhere at a certain time
29:56right yeah right yeah that constant comparison social media doesn't help with that no either no
30:02so how do you protect your mental health while navigating like this world because the adult
30:08industry can be you know quite draining for several reasons yeah i think it's important to be able to take
30:16time away i think for me i like to go home i like to take a week if i have
30:24to just taking time to reset
30:26yourself mentally and physically and just keep time to do the things that you like to do no matter how
30:33small the time is because there's been times where i've overworked myself for weeks on end and then i
30:39go crazy so i think i've learned to kind of balance it a little more which is hard to do
30:45because i feel a lot
30:47of us are workaholics but it's important yeah and i mean really being you know being a a creator in
30:56the
30:56adult industry you're really like you are an entrepreneur yeah i mean i i interviewed melrose
31:01michaels a couple weeks ago and and she said something you know that like very much just said it
31:08in a very straightforward manner you know and i said what what advice would you give to someone who's
31:13looking to get into the industry and she said do you want to be an entrepreneur yeah that's the first
31:16question i'd ask because that's exactly what you're going to be yes and it's a lot of work you're always
31:21on even if you know it's just always in your head all the time and it's great because you know
31:28it's
31:29everything and it's what you want to be doing but it is always there yes you've experienced stigma
31:35both inside and outside of the industry how do you navigate friendships dating like public perception
31:40i mean i've had my fair share of losses and gains um throughout my time in the industry i've lost
31:47friends that i was friends with before and who didn't really want to continue being my friend
31:52throughout um it's tough i think it just comes with time i mean people are always going to judge what
32:01you're going to do and if they do that's just not the right place for them to be in your
32:07life
32:07right i think the stigma is difficult to handle sometimes but surrounding yourself with people
32:15who accept and appreciate you just for being who you are is important and makes it all better
32:23what is the one like most common misconception that you hear from people about the adult industry
32:29that we're all like suffering all the time that you all want to be rescued yes yeah someone needs to
32:39save us all that's the one i think that drives me the most crazy uh i get those kind of
32:44comments all
32:45the time they're like someone needs to save all these girls you know we're all here on our free will
32:50we want to be here yeah so there's probably not anyone that needs saving yeah i mean the that whole
32:59thing is just this automatic assumption of placing women as like victims yes and and that that whole
33:05thing always drives me insane yeah you've also talked about porn as a safe way to explore your
33:11fantasies yes can you explain that to people who may feel like that sounds contradictory to what
33:16they imagine the adult industry is like right so for me i guess when i say that it's you know
33:23i get to
33:24have the ability to be in a safe consensual i guess in a way guarded atmosphere to do these crazy
33:33things
33:34that i've always wanted to do because you know before porn i would have been on some tinder or something
33:42and meeting up with a guy and who knows that could maybe not go so great yeah and it's scary
33:49because
33:49outside of porn funny enough i feel i'm quite shy where i used to be and i always wanted to
33:56explore so
33:56many more of my sexual interests and stuff but i was just shy yeah so being able to just have
34:04it laid
34:05out for me ready to go is a lot better than just thinking about it you know what specific like
34:12sexual fantasies have you been able to play out in a scene i have been able to do a lot
34:18more bdsm
34:20stuff i was suspended for the first time not too long ago which was really fun i've always wanted to
34:25do that and i mean yeah that's a perfect example of having to make sure that you're working with a
34:30professional yeah because they have to know how to suspend you in the right way because that can be
34:34dangerous if it's not done correctly exactly and that was always something that i wanted to do but
34:39i was like i don't even know where to find someone right what do i do yeah yeah so you
34:46did a soft white
34:46belly interview yeah which gets an enormous amount of traffic yeah and it brought you a lot of mainstream
34:52attention how was that experience for you it was really just insane an insane experience uh i was a huge
35:00fan of the channel itself beforehand uh so doing that interview i was very nervous i was really nervous
35:09and people were not very kind in the comments that was the first time that i've ever been exposed to
35:16such harsh uh kickback on the internet for the first time in my life people most of the time were
35:23pretty nice to me before yeah but because you're being exposed to a whole different audience a whole
35:27different audience and i think these people couldn't handle that i was happy with what i'm doing
35:35and they they want to see someone who's suffering in a sense they want that confirmation bias yes and
35:41they were just most of the comments were just saying that i was so broken and so sad and they
35:49could
35:49feel the pain behind my eyes there's all this crazy stuff and was it about you being a cam model
35:57because
35:57i know he always is very like specific a lot of them just said you know because i talked about
36:03how i'm
36:04very happy with my porn career i'm very happy with the life that i've set up i'm happy with my
36:09job
36:09etc and i just think people can really handle that i'm happy and okay having that exposure and then
36:17obviously like just being in the industry now how do you decide what parts of yourself that you want
36:21to like protect when the internet just kind of wants everything from you i think i struggle with that
36:28a little bit i'm pretty an open book on the internet especially being a cam model you're constantly just
36:37talking to them and it feels very personal so that's sort of what i carry through the way that i
36:45use
36:45social media when i interact with my fans and everything i mean obviously i keep my very
36:51personal personal life separate but otherwise i think i share mostly everything yeah so i don't
37:01have too much that i hide from the internet which probably should hide some more but well i think it's
37:08like all has to do with everybody's comfort zone yeah i'm the same way i'm i'll like tell you pretty
37:13much anything yeah and i'm very open but like like you there's a lot of the things that i don't
37:18talk
37:18about are because i'm protecting the privacy of somebody else exactly right yeah someone close to
37:22me yes yeah um otherwise i would right but it's like it's not my like secret to share exactly story
37:30to share yeah like it directly affects me in a very strong way but it's also not like just my
37:36decisions
37:36yeah there's things that i hold back yeah but otherwise like if it's about me right you know
37:42i'm also like one of those people who like i love to talk about like my pain and my trauma
37:46if you want to like ask me like really hard questions about like things that are very like
37:51you know very emotionally triggering for me yeah i'm all about oh yeah anytime i will trauma dump on
37:57you anytime exactly i'm like i will talk for three hours if you need me to help what a terrible
38:03segue for this question um you've had some sugar daddy shenanigans yes yes i've had some really
38:11funny situations some that just i feel find their way to me i don't know how i've i've dabbled in
38:18that
38:18world but most of the time it just finds me i think one of the craziest ones was when i
38:25was living in
38:25new york city i someone had found me on twitter and i was just i was a very small person
38:32at this
38:32time you know i wasn't a name or anything just a small cam girl and uh turns out this man
38:39was a
38:39hasidic jewish man living in new york and just i don't know i was always terrified because i i never
38:48i was like you're putting so much on the line here to give me money and help me with my
38:54life
38:55he just would bring me money all the time give me a credit card like i don't even know and
39:02it was
39:02crazy because did you ever meet him in person yes we met in person many times and what was
39:09interesting about this was he it wasn't a sexual relationship at all wow not once not even
39:17text exchange just friendly it was one of the strangest things i've ever he's a great great man
39:25what was his reasoning for i don't know i think that he just saw me on the internet and i
39:33maybe
39:34wanted to help me but you know it was so what did you guys like talk about because i actually
39:40had a
39:41similar experience really a long time ago yeah yeah um and i made it clear to him from the start
39:46that
39:47i would never have sex with him yeah that was never going to happen but he called himself actually
39:51i kind of appreciated this but he called himself like a patron of mine yeah where like he appreciated
39:56my work right like my photography and stuff and he just wanted to support me yeah in that like he
40:01helped put a down payment on my equipment van yeah it was like it was kind of like unsexy shit
40:05yeah
40:06like he would want to like buy me like sexy stuff for like obvious reasons and i'm like i don't
40:11need
40:11laundry i need a down payment on my equipment right no i need rent for the next three months
40:15not a new set i don't need panties yeah i'm good yeah i mean we just were friends i guess
40:21in a sense
40:22but i always assumed you know there was the underlying yeah you have feelings for me
40:30etc because why are you doing this for some random girl putting your entire life and reputation on the
40:38line yeah but i mean eternally grateful of course but yeah that was just things like that just somehow
40:46find their way to me i'm not sure do you still talk to him we do here and there but
40:51no after i moved
40:53away it kind of dwindled out i think he maybe was like i should probably stop doing this at some
41:00point
41:01but yeah um and then you also said something else about seizures yes i actually was this wasn't too
41:10long ago i was a man had taken me shopping and we you know he's kind of similar in that
41:18sense just
41:19someone who was very generous to me and he while we were checking out um he was handing me his
41:28card
41:29and his hand was shaking and i thought like he was messing around with me trying to be like oh
41:37no
41:37don't take it yeah but no he was fully like seizing oh my god and i were in the middle
41:44of the store and
41:44i just freaked out i didn't know what to do i had to take him outside i like called the
41:48ambulance
41:49it was one of the craziest and i the worst part was while he was handing it to me i
41:53hit him like
41:54elbowed him back because i thought he was messing around with me and like come to find out
41:59he's like about to pass away on me wow so i think was he epileptic like this happened before no
42:09no i don't even know it was the craziest thing ever and i was like okay i'm never going shopping
42:14with a man ever again wow that's not happening i'm traumatized did he ever find out what was wrong
42:19with him no no he he was also very strange about it just completely played it off like
42:25acted like nothing happened wouldn't talk about it it was the craziest the craziest things ever i
42:32thought i was i thought i made it all up in my head was he like a big drinker no
42:37no i don't know
42:40interesting i know more about seizures than i should i know nothing about them and i don't want to know
42:45anymore i didn't until last year but and then what sex advice do you think that most men need to
42:52hear
42:52oh gosh i fear there is not a general piece of advice i could give because i think every man
43:01is so
43:01different is what i've come to notice i think some advice would be for everyone would maybe just to be
43:11more sensual like sometimes you know really don't just ram into it more foreplay yeah that's pretty
43:18much what i hear from almost every yeah i think that is a good general piece of advice yeah i
43:22think
43:22a lot of guys like watch porn and like you know and they kind of get straight into it but
43:27it's also
43:28just because like a scene can only be so long right and like if there's a ton of foreplay it's
43:32like
43:32yeah it takes forever right yeah and it's but yeah i think i think that is one thing that um
43:38i find that
43:40most women ask for more foreplay yeah because we're not we're so different than guys right yeah
43:45take us longer to warm us up so to speak yes and foreplay i have found also like doesn't even
43:53necessarily have to be touching yeah right it can be like auditory it can be you know like i don't
44:00know sending like sexy texts throughout the day or something like that yeah like you know it can get
44:05i think just intimacy in general you know any form of it yeah i think is a good way to
44:10foreplay yeah
44:11yeah so addison you've built a massive digital success in a fairly short amount of time what do
44:17you think fans actually connect with the most about you oh man well thank you for that also um
44:24i think i'm very personable i think that's something that from the start even way back to
44:32just in my bedroom days is that was what drew people to me just kind of my personality i guess
44:39yeah that i seem like a really normal girl per se i think that is something that people really like
44:47um i noticed that a lot especially on my websites as well when i'm talking to people they just really
44:54enjoy that it's me it's real it's not just some bot i guess yeah robot girl yeah i mean it
45:04kind of
45:04like points to how you were saying that um you know sometimes you're very much an open book right
45:10you have a hard time holding things back i think that probably resonates with people yeah i think they
45:14like the authenticity that i can give them you know they really like getting to know me on a personal
45:20level do you do custom videos and stuff like that yes yeah i do a lot of live streams too
45:24still okay so
45:26i think people really like that because i never shut up and i just talk and talk
45:30what do you find that people ask for you from you the most oh i think people really like my
45:40role play videos okay that's one of the things i get the most even custom requests people just
45:46always want me to play some type of role um what's the most common role you get asked to do
45:52oh a girlfriend okay people want me to be their girlfriend with their names and i think that was
45:59a lot of videos of mine that went kind of viral in a sense not viral but you know got
46:04good viewings
46:05on the internet so i think that's what people really like to see from me i guess yeah they want
46:12the
46:13girlfriend experience yeah i mean it sounds like they feel very connected to you yeah which is fun
46:18i really like doing that like i love doing pov stuff it's really fun to be able to make each
46:22video
46:23unique for someone you know yeah any like crazy custom requests you've gotten that you've just been
46:29like oh man either you accepted or didn't yeah i've gotten really crazy ones um just with stuff that i
46:38would never do like taking it to a whole new level like with bodily fluids of all sorts you know
46:47i can imagine yeah anything like that um really insane ones like that so i feel like that's probably
46:56the craziest stuff that i get i have had a few like kind of campy ones you know people wanting
47:01me to do
47:02like really long scripts that are pretty out there but those are fun i like those yeah but yeah just
47:10creepy ones sometimes looking ahead what does the next step look like for you like career wise or
47:17personally i think personally there's i guess they go hand in hand in a sense personally i want to
47:24further my career more so this year there's a lot of goals i have mainstream wise i would really like
47:33to be able to accomplish there's a lot of companies and things that i want to do that i hope
47:40bring my
47:41career to another level where i want to be uh i just see a lot of longevity in this realm
47:48for me it's
47:48where i want to be it's where i'm happy to be and i care so much about my place and
47:54my position
47:55in the industry that all i want is to be more successful at it so we're at the beginning of
48:03a
48:03new year it's january um any big plans for 2026 i mean i just hope to be able to do
48:10a lot more
48:13big projects i have a lot that i'm hoping to do are there any specific brands that you're like
48:19dying to shoot for uh i would love to work for browsers i think that's probably one of the last
48:26ones left on my list to knock out um i just would love to do some more movie-esque projects
48:32i had so
48:33much fun doing that this year i like features yes yeah i because you're gonna remember your lines
48:39yes i'm actually very good at it now i had so much fun doing the horror stuff i really want
48:45to
48:45lean into more acting stuff this year i i didn't think i was gonna enjoy it and do it so
48:51well so that
48:52was really exciting for me i hope to be able to do some anal this year the first time and
48:58then we'll
48:59see what happens all right sounds like 2026 is gonna be addison's year yes amazing well thank you
49:06so much for coming on thank you to connect with you um can you let everyone know where they can
49:11find you online please yes you can find me at addisonvodka.com or instagram at addisonvodkaxo
49:18and that has everything and you guys can of course find me at holly randall on instagram
49:24and on twitter go to holly links.com for access to all of my platforms thank you guys so much
49:30for
49:31joining and i'll see you on the next one
49:36you
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