00:00So, in an older interview, you said that porn was not, like, what you expected it to be.
00:05How, what were your expectations?
00:07Oh, gosh.
00:08So, the only thing that I had really, I had, I think I had only watched porn, like, two or three times before getting in the industry.
00:15And it was, I remember the first DVD, it was a guy that I was kind of talking to.
00:19My friends and I were, like, in his room, and he had a zero-tolerance DVD.
00:25Oh, no.
00:26And it was Angel Dark, which she follows me on Twitter.
00:28Oh, Angel Dark.
00:29Okay.
00:29Angel Dark was amazing.
00:31So, I'm so, like, flattered by that.
00:32Yeah, she was incredible.
00:34So, you know, she's all, like, sexy on the staircase and stuff.
00:38But then as soon as it went into the sex, it was like, I turned it off.
00:41So, there was that.
00:42And then there was another occasion where one of my best friends, their family member, oddly, but through blood, through marriage.
00:53I guess it was Pornhub or something, one of those tube sites where some girls, like,
00:59putting a champagne bottle up her ass, or a football up her ass.
01:03And I'm like, oh, my gosh.
01:05Turn it off.
01:06I don't want to.
01:07A football?
01:07Yeah.
01:08Yeah.
01:08Or was it a baseball bat?
01:10It was a football.
01:11It was a football.
01:12Okay.
01:12Do you remember who it was?
01:13Some amateur thing.
01:15Okay.
01:16I think I was a little traumatized.
01:18I was like, what?
01:19Was it like a junior Nerf football?
01:22Or was it like a full-size, like, standard?
01:25Yeah, okay.
01:26So, it was like a little, like.
01:27Yeah, like half of it was, like, in there.
01:29Like a kid's football.
01:30And I'm just like, what are we watching right now?
01:33I was not even 21 yet when I saw that.
01:37So, those were the only times done.
01:40Now, AVN Awards would be broadcasted on Showtime, and I was, like, not allowed to watch that stuff.
01:47But I remember seeing, it was one year where Jessie Jane was hosting.
01:52And I was, like, oh, my God, they're so pretty, and they're so glamorous and everything.
01:58So, when I happened to get into porn, I thought I was going to be super glamorous all the time.
02:04So, when I was on set.
02:06Even after the football video?
02:08I, that was, like, Joe Schmo with a camera.
02:11Okay, I get it.
02:12It wasn't a scene.
02:14It was, yeah.
02:14Like, it was, like, some, probably some no-name girl.
02:18But how do I know when I'm not watching porn and I don't know people's names?
02:25But I think it kind of, like, went over my head because I had the FTV Girls, which was gentle.
02:33And then Miami was just, like, it was kind of, like, party vibes.
02:37Like, you know, just, like, wilding out.
02:40And then with California, it was just more, like, glamorous.
02:44So, then in California, when I didn't have more glamorous shoots, that's when I realized, like, no, it's, some houses are going to be a little grimy.
02:53Some crews are not going to give a fuck about you.
02:56And you need to bring your own shit, like, if you want to have a smooth shoot.
03:00And sometimes people are going to be in a bad mood and you're just going to have to deal with it.
03:03I mean, the industry has changed a lot.
03:05And I'm not trying to badmouth anybody or anything, but there were different sets that just had different vibes.
03:14And I just learned that it's not going to be, I'm not going to have a makeup artist every time.
03:19I'm not going to have a photographer that's going to care every time.
03:24I'm not going to have a beautiful location to shoot at every time.
03:28You're not going to get fed every time.
03:30You're not going to get fed every time.
03:31Some sets, the cleanliness isn't, like, you know, not always going to be there.
03:37So, those were the reality checks for me.
03:41Like, hey, it's not glamorous all the time.
03:42And, like, I think that was more where I just thought it was going to be glamorous all the time.
03:47Yeah.
03:48When it wasn't.
03:49No.
03:50No, it is not.
03:51Or, like, chill vibes all the time.
03:52Unless you're on a Holly Randall set and then it's super glamorous and so chill.
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