00:00It was the first song that we had made up until that point that felt like me and that felt
00:04like
00:04who I am as a human being and it's still a song that I like listen to pretty consistently today.
00:10No shade to all my other older work.
00:18It's just about this yearning and this heartache for somebody that you know you're never gonna end
00:26up with. Maybe you had one moment with them but you just know like it'll never happen again so it's
00:31like this fleeting uh where are you like come back to me I want you I need you um but
00:37I know I can't
00:58it's just kind of like desperation you're just begging for this delusional call delusional text that's like
01:08hey I'm coming over. I felt like I was in such a discombobulated state that the only person or
01:15only thing that was gonna calm me down was this this uh lady. The song is just like in my
01:22head like
01:22I'm just in my head the whole time and so it's either a phone either a either text you're just
01:27like almost pretending uh that this delusion is gonna come true in the middle of the night.
01:54I have a bad habit of getting so excited getting all your hopes up when it's someone that I'm like
02:01whoa you actually are making me feel feelings oh my god we're gonna get married and have you know
02:06what I mean like that's where my brain just jump starts and goes. You know that there's this chance
02:10that it's not gonna work out so you have this like pain of a potential failure and you also have
02:16this
02:16excitement and like oh my god this could literally be the love of my life for the foreseeable future or
02:23something. You're always gonna put your emotional eggs in one basket whether you want to or not it's
02:28just like you can't control that. We're having such a great time don't you feel this in the same way
02:33like I do and in this case yeah she kind of didn't.
02:52A lipstick on your face that means something good happened but you hate it because you know you're
03:05entrapped in these emotions and you know that you're like you're kind of out of control you don't have
03:11a grasp on how to like keep your emotions on check it's like I'm too far gone so that's kind
03:17of that
03:17feeling of again the desperation they like ugh like I hate that I love this so much but you literally
03:24have
03:25a control over me that I can't do anything about. I don't know it's like that hurts so good feeling
03:30that's that's the best way I like to describe it. When it kind of had a moment and started blowing
03:37up it was almost just like uh oh I've been waiting for this moment for so long we've been putting
03:42in
03:42the work we've been we've been like preparing and now is when like the real kind of work starts
03:47there's nothing I would want to change with it.
