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00:00:13I
00:00:14Excited very excited. I've been waiting for this forever
00:00:21I
00:00:26Haven't really felt like this about anyone. I am 38 years, you know
00:00:34I am
00:00:3722 trying to roll with that whole age is just a number thing
00:00:42I really don't know if you're ready for this one. You ready? I'm 60
00:00:50Oh
00:00:50My gosh
00:00:5230 40 56. Yeah, he's 33 years older than me
00:00:57Jorge's literally the same age as my parents
00:01:03I never want to be surprised about something you've done. I came here with you not to feel alone
00:01:10I feel like you're not attracted to me
00:01:14We're kind of in a friend zone right now
00:01:16Okay
00:01:18Is he the right person? Did I pick the right person?
00:01:22Okay, I'm really done talking. Okay
00:01:25Can I get this mic off please?
00:01:27This connection is not gonna be easy to find
00:01:31And I know I won't find this again
00:01:38Starting tomorrow you are getting visitors your friends your families
00:01:43Sarah
00:01:44Hi, I'm Sarah
00:01:46I've never dated anyone this much older
00:01:49I hope it works out well for them, but it's weird. It's weird
00:01:52Being 23 and potentially having two immediate children
00:01:58Yeah, I'm leaving everybody and everything I've worked for
00:02:03What the fuck am I doing?
00:02:05I'm just exhausted and I'm overwhelmed because I feel like I can't be myself with you
00:02:13Integrating a 22 year old girl into my life is definitely concerning
00:02:19Is there a future with us?
00:02:21I play my desire
00:02:22I play my desire
00:02:23It's decision time
00:02:24Do you commit to taking this leap together?
00:02:27I play my desire
00:02:29Or do you choose a different path
00:02:31Alone
00:02:32It sucks
00:02:52Did you get everything out of the bathroom?
00:02:55But I'll check the other rooms
00:02:57You work on your
00:02:59I think you need to get a garment bag
00:03:01Yeah
00:03:02I feel
00:03:04Nervous anxious this is the last time i'm going to see her before the commitment ceremony
00:03:09Everything I can do I did
00:03:11I'm super nervous about
00:03:14My alone time and you know what is that alone time going to lead me to
00:03:18think
00:03:20Part of me wants to commit to vanessa and then part of me is like is this right is this
00:03:27up and down too much
00:03:28for us to handle you know and my fear of commitment continues to be my fear of commitment right and
00:03:36so that's
00:03:39Scary thought
00:03:41How you doing i got all your stuff ready for you thank you
00:03:45How you feeling okay how are you good
00:03:50I'm sad i don't want you to leave
00:03:52I don't even know what to say i know the last few days with you has been like
00:03:57Better than i could ever dream of i mean
00:04:01You're one of the most amazing girls i've ever met in my entire life
00:04:04Thank you
00:04:05It's hard to put it into words right but
00:04:08I think it was one of the most amazing beautiful things i've ever experienced and
00:04:13You know it's weird kind of closing this chapter and
00:04:17I feel like we're breaking off this is like a breakup
00:04:23I don't know what to say
00:04:25What if i cry
00:04:29Don't
00:04:30Don't cry
00:04:30No
00:04:31Okay
00:04:32You'll be okay
00:04:34You look amazing
00:04:35Thanks
00:04:38No
00:04:42Okay
00:04:43Okay
00:04:44Okay
00:04:45You okay
00:04:45Mm-hmm
00:04:46You okay
00:04:47Yeah
00:04:48Promise
00:04:48Mm-hmm
00:04:51I'm here for you
00:04:53Yeah
00:04:55Okay
00:04:57I just have ptsd i think
00:05:00What
00:05:00I don't know just with like the history of my relationships not working out you know and i feel like
00:05:07This is just another
00:05:09Failed attempt you know
00:05:12Like it's not you i don't want to project it on you
00:05:14It's not you at all it's just
00:05:17I've just put myself out there before and
00:05:20Only to get hurt and i just hope like this doesn't have the same outcome
00:05:25That's scary
00:05:27Something inside me is way too scared to
00:05:31Care about you like this
00:05:34Coming into this with logan i had so many reservations because i had been so hurt before
00:05:40So there is this guard up like i'll be okay i'll be okay you know and maybe i won't be
00:05:45okay
00:05:46I just hope i chose right this time and i
00:05:49Picked the right person and i feel like you are and
00:05:53I hope that you feel the same about me
00:05:56Yeah i mean i do
00:05:59It's really scary to
00:06:01Not put yourself out there for this many years get this close to someone
00:06:06Only for
00:06:08Yourself to be devastated all over again and for the whole world to see
00:06:14Let's see ya okay okay take care of yourself to see an older woman
00:06:18With a man 20 years younger like that's rare it's very rare and it's like am i delusional to think
00:06:25that it would even work
00:06:26You know am i delusional to put my heart out there
00:06:31I mean he's like in the prime of his life right now honestly
00:06:35I've been here before darling i don't think you'll stay
00:06:40And why would he give that up for someone 20 years older than him
00:06:59You're leaving i know i'm just trying to make sure i don't forget anything but you're forgetting me
00:07:06I think that we need this little bit of separation because we haven't had it
00:07:10And this is the first time that i think i'm going to be able to look at this from the
00:07:14outside make a clear decision
00:07:17Clearly me and leah have had ups and downs since we moved in together
00:07:20But at the same time there's been much blessings from this relationship
00:07:24Even during the difficult times the care and the love for each other has always been constant and
00:07:29I think that it's very clear that i care so much for her
00:07:35So the question is is that does the good outweigh the bad and and are these good moments enough to
00:07:41continue in this relationship
00:07:42Give me a hug
00:07:48Thank you for being you thank you for making me a better person you're welcome
00:07:54You're seriously
00:07:58Why are you looking at me like that because you're leaving
00:08:03We didn't even get to dance yet
00:08:10Yeah
00:08:12We have a lot of thinking we both have a lot of thinking to do
00:08:14I know
00:08:15I
00:08:17Oh
00:08:18Mm
00:08:22I'm gonna miss
00:08:24I'm gonna miss you a little bit
00:08:25I might miss you too
00:08:26I think more than you think
00:08:28You think?
00:08:29Mm-hmm
00:08:30You're not going to sleep now because you're thinking about me
00:08:32Maybe maybe i don't know about that
00:08:34What?
00:08:35I might be able to sleep
00:08:36No, you won't
00:08:38Give me my kiss
00:08:42It's like bittersweet this morning
00:08:43All right i'll see you
00:08:45I'll see you
00:08:45With the commitment ceremony coming up it's going to be difficult
00:08:48We're still debating on how we're even going to make it work here right let alone commit to each other
00:08:54I know he likes me and we're leaving off in a great space right now but yeah
00:09:00I don't want to put any pressure on it because i don't know i don't know what the future holds
00:09:05for us
00:09:05Because the words won't buffer anymore
00:09:10How are you feeling about what what do you think
00:09:14Mm-hmm i feel like i've been the one that brings up
00:09:18You know some of the more challenging things and we don't know how
00:09:23Yeah
00:09:23We're going to communicate after this like we've only
00:09:27Ever been in this bubble so like we don't know what it's like to text or call or
00:09:32I've never done long distance before so those things naturally i feel like are are things that i'm thinking about
00:09:39Yeah i'm glad you brought it
00:09:42Um up because i just wasn't even thinking about it that way at all
00:09:47I think i'm just someone that is very realistic and
00:09:51You know yeah no i understand that this has to end at some point and
00:09:56Just
00:09:57You know like i mean i wish we could stay in this little
00:10:01bubble forever but
00:10:03You know we have to say goodbye
00:10:05The fact that the next time i am going to see andrew is a commitment ceremony gives me a little
00:10:12bit of anxiety honestly
00:10:13um
00:10:14i know he's in his head and i don't blame him too much because those doubts were in the back
00:10:19of my mind
00:10:20i just wasn't really vocalizing them there is a part of me that's afraid that
00:10:25the age gap between andrew and i will just be too much and
00:10:30And yeah i have a fear that ultimately that will just be too overwhelming for both of us
00:10:43Okay
00:10:46Bye-bye see ya see ya
00:11:18Bye-bye
00:11:27Bye-bye
00:11:27More back
00:11:29Aww
00:11:43Is there a vehicle?
00:11:44Mm-hmm
00:11:46Well i will think of you every time i look at them
00:11:50i was thinking about that this time away
00:11:55i love supporting you and i love being here for you when
00:12:03you're going through some so i'll be thinking about you
00:12:09Um i'm gonna have some time just to like think and get myself like
00:12:15more centered um
00:12:17and i'm gonna miss you for sure we've gotten so close and
00:12:22such a short period of time and living together was amazing um i'm gonna miss that for sure
00:12:30but i think this time apart is gonna be good for us even though i hate saying goodbye
00:12:36um
00:12:38so i'm glad i have these
00:12:42i'm there with you okay
00:12:49well thanks for being everything for me and
00:12:55don't miss me too much impossible
00:13:00i am in love with teresa
00:13:02the way she's allowed me to open up and be vulnerable and
00:13:06not put on a facade which i've done in the past and just the joy she brings me like when
00:13:11i wake up
00:13:12and i see her and like that sense of home it feels good
00:13:18am i hoping that we come out on the same page and even a little stronger yeah and i think
00:13:24that's a
00:13:25possibility
00:13:29but there's a chance that it's gonna be weird you know
00:13:36she just gets way too in her head and she might be a different person when i see her again
00:13:45bye okay goodbye
00:13:57I have a huge, huge decision to make.
00:14:03There's no denying that we had a true and real connection
00:14:07from the beginning.
00:14:11Time is gonna let you down.
00:14:15However, I still have some doubts.
00:14:26It's a huge commitment to say that this person, who's 27 years younger than me, is my boyfriend.
00:14:38And that I'm going to commit to going forward with this and opening this up to the world.
00:14:48I don't know if I have the strength to see this through.
00:15:02It's cheers to this journey that we've had.
00:15:05Cheers to a big decision.
00:15:06It's a very big decision coming.
00:15:15How do you feel?
00:15:19All right.
00:15:20You know, I know how I feel about you.
00:15:22I know that that doesn't always make everything A-okay and easy.
00:15:27I do understand the logistics of where we are in life.
00:15:32Geographical challenges, other challenges as well.
00:15:35So, you know, it's time to take all that into consideration.
00:15:40Yeah.
00:15:41You know, this whole time we've kind of been like, oh, we're in a fairy tale and everything
00:15:45is perfectly smooth and we're having no challenges, which was true.
00:15:49It was true up until these last few days.
00:15:52So, the fact that we're taking this time apart now has me a little bit unsure about my decision.
00:16:06And a lot of questions have come up that I just have been ignoring.
00:16:10And I think I've been putting them off because I didn't want to ruin anything or have anything be different
00:16:15than what it was.
00:16:16So, like, while it is confusing and it's scary, I know that this time apart will end up benefiting both
00:16:27of us.
00:16:29Because my decision will be grounded and, like, it will be thoughtful.
00:16:36Yeah.
00:16:37And I respect that.
00:16:41I definitely think her concerns are valid.
00:16:44But one thing that I've done the last few days is try to truly focus on her feelings and her
00:16:51emotions.
00:16:52And I've taken myself out of it a little bit.
00:16:56And, obviously, we're going to have some time apart to where, you know, I'm going to have to think that
00:17:02through on my side as well.
00:17:03And what does that look like?
00:17:05Because it's a big commitment.
00:17:08And can she handle it?
00:17:09See?
00:17:11We're probably just at different stages in life.
00:17:13I have my boys.
00:17:15How will that match?
00:17:16There's so many question marks.
00:17:19I'd be lying to you if I didn't say I was a little bit nervous.
00:17:23What is this okay?
00:17:51What's this?
00:17:53I'm sitting next to my knees.
00:17:57so today is the commitment ceremony i feel confident but i don't know how she's been
00:18:05feeling i don't know if she let the thoughts get to her or the stress of her kids get to
00:18:10her
00:18:14you know i support her and i'm here for her and my family supports you know our
00:18:20relationship but i'm worried that teresa hasn't bought in because of a lot of factors that i can't
00:18:27control i'm fully committed to teresa
00:18:44and i hope she's ready to take that leap with me
00:19:01my feelings are getting much stronger every day for john i have to admit that you know i am falling
00:19:08for him it's almost been too good to be true but there's also a piece of me that still has
00:19:14doubts
00:19:22this age gap difference is huge and yeah i'm scared
00:19:32i have the option of walking away today and you know i'd be walking away from a lot
00:19:39i know that i will regret not having him in my life but i don't know if it's going to
00:19:47be too much
00:19:49should we just
00:19:52take the easy route and go our separate ways and go back to our lives the way they were
00:20:00i don't know if i'm ready for this
00:20:02i don't know if it's a final teardrop
00:20:33we've gone through a lot of hard stuff early on
00:20:36i don't know if it's going to be the way that we're going to be able to be able to
00:20:40be there
00:20:40and that says something i've never been able to be there for someone i was never in the right headspace
00:20:45for it i was never open to receive this and to support someone like i've supported you
00:20:50i feel lucky that i get to show up for you i'm confident in this i'm confident in what we've
00:20:59built
00:21:00i know what we have and it's the feeling
00:21:04it's the immediate sense of calmness that you bring me whenever i see you
00:21:12us being able to laugh during the most serious moments most intimate moments i'm looking forward to
00:21:23that next step and we'll get there with the age thing
00:21:30i need you to believe that age is just a number but also believe in me
00:21:35that every day i'm going to show up and work on this together
00:21:44when i decided to take this journey to find someone to share my life with
00:21:52i said to myself that i was ready when i met you you drew me in with your smile
00:22:01your energy and your steadiness you made me laugh
00:22:10and you made me feel better than i ever had in the past but for whatever reason there was still
00:22:18something holding me back when you met my kids and i didn't tell them your age it wasn't because i
00:22:28was
00:22:28ashamed it was because i was scared scared because if i spoke it it would be real
00:22:38scared because of the things we might face from the world knowing that the world is not fair
00:22:49and that there is a double standard against women who date younger men
00:22:54so it got me thinking maybe it would be better if i walked away before it got to be too
00:23:02difficult
00:23:05and
00:23:08too real
00:23:10i'm kidding
00:23:15it's a lot
00:23:20really scary thing for me if i let myself
00:23:29be totally vulnerable
00:23:32with you and the world it's the hugest risk i will ever have taken
00:23:45i just didn't see this coming
00:23:55just a tall 180 from what we were feeling
00:24:01i mean we've shared some amazing times together
00:24:06and you've been really patient and very understanding
00:24:14but i just worry that it's too much
00:24:20you're not up for the fight
00:24:23i mean i'm a fighter
00:24:26i'm also just trying to protect myself
00:24:30and to protect you
00:24:34a lot to say
00:24:36there's a letter that my kids wrote to you that i want to read
00:24:49all right dear john it was really nice meeting you and watching you and our mom together
00:25:00she just seemed so happy and we haven't seen her like that in a while
00:25:14we don't know exactly what the age difference is but it doesn't matter to us
00:25:20after seeing youtube together we just want her to be happy
00:25:26and you clearly do that so we support your relationship and are excited for whatever comes next
00:25:34love lauren richard and michael
00:25:45i just need to know if you believe that if you're up for that challenge
00:25:52and you believe and trust your kids that they support you
00:26:00i need you to wake up every morning and see and believe and trust trust that your kids support
00:26:09this and that whatever comes after that we can
00:26:13you know i'd go to battle but it's up to you i've said the whole time if the ball's in
00:26:20your court on if
00:26:23you believe that i mean it makes me feel a lot more confident and happy to know that
00:26:33they wrote that to you um i had no idea what it said and so i don't want to walk
00:26:40away
00:26:43in fact i want to walk towards something with you and i don't know exactly what that will be or
00:26:51what that
00:26:51will look like but i think together you know we can navigate it and i think if you are able
00:27:00to support
00:27:01me and my crazy anxiety you know we can make this into something really special i think so too
00:27:16and i will be able at some point to maybe scream it from the mountaintop
00:27:24mm-hmm but right now i'm just going to promise you and commit to you to continue to build our
00:27:38relationship into something real and something really great
00:27:48i accept hilarious i'm excited for whatever's next and i'm thankful for this experience and
00:28:03i want to continue falling in love with you so do i i love you i love you too
00:28:13i love you too much to let you go i'm good because you don't have to good answer
00:28:34all your dreams and all your fears you think those worlds collide
00:28:47i'm feeling a little nervous i have confidence in derek and i have confidence in our relationship
00:28:54but i still have a lot of fears about my own future
00:28:58bring it on the bell i just want to help i just want to know i mean i'm 23 i
00:29:07never imagined that
00:29:08i would be moving across the country moving for a man who has children and i think the fear is
00:29:15just
00:29:15coming from a place of not having experience in being in that sort of relationship or being with
00:29:22somebody who has kids
00:29:26this is a big decision
00:29:30essentially i either walk away without derek and i go back to my life in seattle or i leave
00:29:36with derek and i get something extremely different than anything i could have ever imagined
00:29:43when you let the love inside i'm conflicted it's like do i risk it all and change everything i know
00:29:51for a man and for a relationship or do i make the hard decision to end it but you can't
00:29:57find a way to let me in
00:30:02not in a million years did i ever think that i would come into this experience and find such a
00:30:09real
00:30:09genuine authentic connection and you say oh i don't wanna know it feels like i'm getting married honestly
00:30:20there's a lot weighing on it you know there's a whole life change that she has to consider
00:30:25the last conversation we had she definitely has some question marks and the nerves are there she's
00:30:31scared and giving up her life possibly changing her career i know that's a lot
00:30:37i'm wanting to be sympathetic and empathetic to that but i want her in dallas with me but i'm not
00:30:43sure that our relationship at this time is strong enough for her to make that change
00:30:49i just wanna know why you can't find a way to let me in
00:30:58you look amazing thank you
00:31:02from the first date i didn't know exactly what it was but i knew i was extremely comfortable with it
00:31:07i felt at ease at peace from just a quick conversation like honestly that moment i knew like deep down
00:31:16that
00:31:17i didn't want to even explore any other options at the retreat and you know we continued on moved in
00:31:29and you know yeah there were some nerves it's not easy to think i'm gonna move in with someone that
00:31:35i
00:31:35just met but through that process i thought that it would be great but i was wrong like it was
00:31:40much
00:31:41better than i could have even imagined so for me you know the journey all the last and all the
00:31:49good times
00:31:50the challenges and tough conversations were just as important i feel that we've grown every point
00:31:57alone is right
00:32:00from the first day i knew that you were special
00:32:04so despite our 20-year age gap i'm certain that my greatest blessing was meeting you
00:32:13i've always thought about and dreamed about the man i would end up with but you are far better
00:32:23than anybody i could have imagined
00:32:28and now i can't imagine a future without you in it
00:32:38i've been confident in your character since our first date but after moving in
00:32:46i'm certain that you were one of the best men that i've ever met
00:32:59it's been an honor to share this journey with you and the closer we get
00:33:07the more i know and the more i see just how great of a man that you are
00:33:20you are a phenomenal person sometimes it seems too good to be true but it really is just who you
00:33:29are
00:33:30and i feel like i'm the luckiest girl in the whole world to have found you here
00:33:38many people spend their whole lives looking for what we found here
00:33:45if i were to leave here without you i may regret it for the rest of my life
00:33:52but if we were to stay together
00:33:56my life would look wildly different than i ever anticipated
00:34:04i would be sacrificing my entire life in seattle
00:34:09my friends my support and everything i've built over the last four years
00:34:22but today i'm putting the unknowns aside and i'm trusting my heart so i am 100 percent committed
00:34:34to moving to dallas and starting our journey together outside of all of this
00:34:49that was a lot
00:34:52but i promise i'm always going to put in the work
00:34:57i'm always going to try
00:34:59i'll always protect you and i'll always protect your heart pfeiffer i truly love you
00:35:06so this is my gift to you
00:35:12it's a key to our place that's been my place thank you that means the world to me absolutely
00:35:21i don't want you to be alone and i don't want you in dallas in a separate place literally my
00:35:25place
00:35:25is our place i feel like the luckiest person in the whole world and i have this whole time
00:35:32we're next to all of us babe
00:35:35i want to shine
00:35:58i think i just got one more breath broken heart is beating out of my chest
00:36:09i came here to be able to open my heart up to find someone that i want to spend my
00:36:15life with you
00:36:15know when i think about my future i just want to be happily married to a wonderful guy and despite
00:36:22all
00:36:22of her ups and downs i think it could be chris i'm like a hopeless romantic you know so i
00:36:35would like
00:36:35for this to work out with chris we have something here we are finally in a great space but this
00:36:42step
00:36:42is big i'm 41 he's 26 you know so is he really ready i'm not sure i can't give up
00:36:51hope regardless
00:36:53don't have any blood
00:36:56i feel very uneasy clearly me and leah have love for each other because we have been on an emotional
00:37:01roller coaster we didn't have love for each other as soon as it got really dark we wouldn't be here
00:37:05anymore the question was and still is are we in love leah is somebody that i have built such a
00:37:15connection with and a care for that i want to look past what we've dealt with and try to move
00:37:22forward
00:37:23at the same time i'm trying to figure out am i ready for this or am i not because it's
00:37:30a decision
00:37:30that will affect me forever logic emotions my head my gut which one do i listen to and there's so
00:37:38many
00:37:39voices whether it's outside or in our own heads that are telling us to do a certain thing and i'm
00:37:44trying to just ignore everything that society says should happen and listen to
00:37:50what i know is true which is the the voice in my heart telling me what is right
00:38:00you look good you look beautiful i mean
00:38:09prior to this retreat i was praying that god would send me my person and i was really hoping well
00:38:17maybe
00:38:17they'll be at this retreat and then i met you and then from our first conversation i knew we had
00:38:25something special and our first gift was fire you lit something inside of me that i thought was gone
00:38:35i know we've had our fair share of ups and downs but for me the good times outweigh the bad
00:38:49you challenged me to do and be better and i thank you for that thank you for hearing seeing and
00:39:01always
00:39:01telling me to just be me thank you
00:39:07from day one we've talked about being honest and being open and i think that
00:39:14the most important thing i want to highlight is just how honest and open you've allowed me to feel
00:39:20you've challenged me you've helped me grow and i hope i've done the same i
00:39:26i can't thank you enough for the experiences that we have lived
00:39:37we've had ups and downs and there's no doubting that there's been difficult times and there's been
00:39:43beautiful times and i want to remember both
00:39:50i think that we do need to continue to be honest with each other and you know we've talked about
00:39:58our age difference many times and maybe the age gap was harder than we thought but here we are and
00:40:10i
00:40:10think we've both made a decision that will impact our lives and our families and i just hope and pray
00:40:16that's the right one i think i just wanted you to be able to see what i see and i
00:40:24wanted to show you
00:40:25the world i want to see more with you and i want to get you out of your comfort zone
00:40:31you know and i do
00:40:33want to challenge you in all the ways that i can and i love it when you challenge me too
00:40:37i can see myself
00:40:40growing with you building with you um i know it's not easy i understand that we weren't at our best
00:40:50and it's like i want to see you be at your best and me at my best and see how
00:40:54we can be our best
00:40:54together i would like to commit to you excuse me so wow
00:41:20so we've talked about our differences and we laid out what we want out of a partner from day one
00:41:27i think we both want to have a family i think we both want to settle down i think maybe
00:41:31we wanted
00:41:31at different paces i do think that the age difference did cause an unnecessary pressure on
00:41:36both of us and put us in a situation where for the first time in my life i felt like
00:41:44it was hard
00:41:45for me to be myself
00:41:57and that's why ultimately i feel that this partnership is not right
00:42:16and ultimately i can't move forward with something that i don't feel is 100 right
00:42:22and i don't feel like that's fair to you i don't feel like that's fair to your family or mine
00:42:27so i i am deciding to end this relationship here
00:42:39honestly i will cherish every single freaking moment and experience
00:42:44and i hope that this isn't the end of a friendship that i truly value
00:42:51so seriously thank you you're welcome
00:42:54and you are a beautiful person inside and out
00:42:58have a hug
00:43:10it's nice meeting you
00:43:23it's nice meeting you
00:43:28and if you're with your friends and friends i want to see them to be with you
00:43:28they'll be with you and they'll fight
00:43:31that's why i was willing to give us a shot and see if we really could get it together
00:43:35but
00:43:36he wasn't
00:43:38i've always want to be chosen but i wasn't going to beg someone to choose me
00:43:42i also can't turn a boy into a man either
00:43:44I was hoping to find my love here at the retreat, but I didn't.
00:43:54Overall, I think I've just learned who I am, and I'm a very strong, intelligent, beautiful woman.
00:44:00And my future partner will be happy to be with me, and I'm excited for him.
00:44:27I'm definitely a little bit unsure.
00:44:33You know, the last few days have definitely been in my head.
00:44:37I mean, there's so much fear there that the age gap will be too much, where we're at in our
00:44:43lives will be too much.
00:44:44The timing, the distance.
00:44:46Come and drink this water, cause my carpet overflows.
00:44:52Are we too far away from where the other person is in life?
00:44:57And I would be lying if I said that that still doesn't cross my mind every single day with Libby.
00:45:06There's definitely two sides going back and forth that's like, it's not going to work.
00:45:13One's going off of previous experiences and all of the things that haven't worked.
00:45:18And then the other side of it is like, my heart.
00:45:21Can you see the shoes worn out of my feet?
00:45:27I'm a bit nervous going into this.
00:45:30Me and Andrew have been so solid this entire experience.
00:45:33I don't think I expected to get to this point this morning and be questioning things.
00:45:40Sit outside.
00:45:41But the past couple of days, he's brought up the thing about him worrying about taking from my life and
00:45:49the distance between us.
00:45:51So I'm smiling a little bit too.
00:45:54Andrew's doubts are putting more ideas in my head.
00:45:58I'm like, wait, is he right?
00:46:00Is this going to work?
00:46:02Every single time.
00:46:05His doubts have now become my doubts.
00:46:07And I think all of this is really starting to freak me out.
00:46:17I don't know how he's feeling.
00:46:19And I don't know if he's decided that the age difference, it's too much.
00:46:25So I think it's very possible that Andrew's going to break my heart on this mountain today.
00:46:30Every single time.
00:46:33You miss the sun.
00:46:36I'm a sit outside.
00:46:39Make for you.
00:46:41So.
00:46:43Thanks.
00:46:44Mm-hmm.
00:46:45You look handsome.
00:46:46It's true.
00:46:52I came here hoping to find something, but I don't think I truly believed that I would find something real.
00:47:02There's a part of me that wonders if this works when we're outside of the bubble that we've been living
00:47:09in.
00:47:11You're 22.
00:47:13I'm 38.
00:47:15That's a big gap.
00:47:18Your life is just getting started.
00:47:21They're figuring out who you are, what you want, where you're going.
00:47:28And I'm settled in the life that I've already built.
00:47:33The biggest fear for me is keeping you from your dreams, even though you're a part of mine.
00:47:47I understand what you mean, and obviously I've been thinking about that, too.
00:47:52You know that sometimes it's hard for me to really express how I'm feeling with my words,
00:48:00and sometimes it's better and easier for me to write it out, so I wrote you something.
00:48:15Coming into this experience, I hoped for the best, but I truly never thought that I'd meet someone like you.
00:48:22You have everything that I've ever wanted in a guy, which is incredibly rare because that includes some outrageous things,
00:48:29like someone who will sing Taylor Swift with me and manifest.
00:48:33You challenged me to open up in ways I never have before and brought out a side of me that
00:48:39not many people get to see.
00:48:41I love the way you talk and care about your daughters, and the way you protect them in every aspect
00:48:46shows what a great dad you are.
00:48:49Hearing about your experiences as a father has been one of the many things that drew me to you.
00:48:54With that being said, I know that that comes with a lot of weight, and it's something that I don't
00:48:59take lightly.
00:48:59And I know that you're worried about our age gap and the fact that I'm 22,
00:49:06and you think that there's a possibility that you could be taking too much from my life.
00:49:14And it has me thinking the last couple of days about what it is that I really want.
00:49:21And I really feel like it would only be an addition to my life.
00:49:34I've had a lot of time to think as well.
00:49:38And the truth is, no matter how much I doubt the age gap, the distance, the timing,
00:49:53I don't doubt the way I feel when I'm with you.
00:50:00When we first got here, you asked me if I ever thought I could fall in love before the end
00:50:11of this.
00:50:13And I remember saying,
00:50:17I think someone could.
00:50:19But I didn't think I would be that someone.
00:50:25I was wrong.
00:50:29Because I have.
00:50:32And I do love you.
00:50:36You have opened up things in me, I thought, were shut down for good.
00:50:44I've been waiting a long time for something like this.
00:50:49A really long time.
00:50:51And I feel like it's finally my turn.
00:50:55Like this might actually be my rom-com.
00:51:01A happy ending.
00:51:03I know, I'm so cheesy.
00:51:05No, I love it.
00:51:08I've been thinking a lot about what happens after this.
00:51:15And I don't know what your generation calls it these days.
00:51:23Hard launch.
00:51:26Soft launch.
00:51:28Probably something way cooler than what I'm about to say.
00:51:34But I would really love to leave here with you as my girlfriend.
00:51:40Do you want to hard launch me?
00:51:42I want to hard launch you.
00:51:44But I'm going to need you to answer before I continue.
00:51:47Okay.
00:51:48Okay.
00:51:50I want to commit to you.
00:51:52And I want a relationship with you outside of here.
00:51:55Because I also love you too.
00:52:10So, there is one more thing.
00:52:13My daughters.
00:52:15They are the most important thing to me.
00:52:21With you, you make me feel safe.
00:52:24You make me feel safe to open up that box again.
00:52:31And I would really love for you to come to Baltimore.
00:52:35For you to meet my daughters.
00:52:37Because I do see you in my future forever.
00:52:44That means the world is coming from you.
00:52:48That's really sweet.
00:52:50I think that I know how important your daughters are to you.
00:52:56And I want you to know that I think that that's something that's equally important to me.
00:53:03And I think that if you were willing to open that part of your life to me,
00:53:10I would be happy to be a part of it.
00:53:15I really do love you.
00:53:20I really do love you too.
00:53:41I'm in a really good place in my life.
00:53:44I'm getting ready to turn 50 years old.
00:53:46I've never felt more comfortable in my body.
00:53:50Financially, spiritually, everything.
00:53:52And the one thing that is missing is love.
00:53:55And I know I'll see you soon.
00:54:00I thought I was never going to find love again.
00:54:02But Logan makes my heart feel full.
00:54:05And he gives me hope.
00:54:06And he makes me feel alive.
00:54:10There's no more goodbyes.
00:54:14I'll build it all with you.
00:54:17Logan and I have had a lot of ups and downs.
00:54:19We're finally at a really good place, except for the question mark, is he ready for a commitment?
00:54:26Is Logan going to take a step forward and be ready for a commitment?
00:54:30Or is he ready to go back to his party boy lifestyle in Dallas?
00:54:35And I'll go back to Ohio and start over from square one.
00:54:46The thought of going home alone would just be devastating.
00:54:50I don't want this to end.
00:54:54There's been days when I lost myself.
00:54:58I've obviously fallen in love with Vanessa.
00:55:00Our love feels so in sync.
00:55:04It feels like something that I really, to be honest, I didn't think I would find.
00:55:08If I could ride, would fuse my bones.
00:55:16She loves me in a way that I haven't been loved before.
00:55:20It's crazy that she's 20 years older than me.
00:55:24But regardless of age, I don't know if I'm going to find anybody else like Vanessa.
00:55:32Going into the commitment ceremony, the unknown is, am I going to be able to give her what she truly
00:55:37wants?
00:55:38There's a chance that, you know, I get up there and see this woman that I've fallen in love with,
00:55:44and it's picture perfect.
00:55:46And there's a chance that I might not be able to meet those expectations.
00:55:50There's a chance that we walk away without each other.
00:55:56There's a chance that we're going to be able to meet those expectations.
00:56:00Hi.
00:56:01Hey.
00:56:02You look so cute.
00:56:04Good to see you.
00:56:05I'm so nervous.
00:56:06Yeah, right?
00:56:07Yeah.
00:56:10Can I hold your hands?
00:56:12That helps me move our nerves.
00:56:16Logan, when I first met you, you were such a gentleman.
00:56:20We had an amazing conversation.
00:56:22And then we go out on our date, and you tell me you're worried about the optics of dating an
00:56:29older woman.
00:56:30And I'm like, what is up with this guy?
00:56:32I can't figure him out.
00:56:33So I was like, forget it, you know.
00:56:36But you did a few things that were really important to me.
00:56:44You apologized, and you took accountability for your actions.
00:56:48And that meant a lot to me, so I decided I really want to give this guy a chance.
00:56:58Um, yeah.
00:57:00I feel that with you, I opened up more than anyone else I've ever opened up to in my life.
00:57:08I feel safe with you, and that's something that's so important to me.
00:57:13I was really in a dark time before I came here.
00:57:16You know, I lost my mom, and it's been almost a year.
00:57:20And being with you, you brought light back into my life, and I'm happy that you're here.
00:57:26I'm happy to be here.
00:57:31Yeah, I mean, our journey has been everything but picture perfect.
00:57:38Despite the whirlwind, we found a connection, and I think, you know, you challenged me, and you asked me the
00:57:47tough questions, and wondered if I was ready for a commitment, ready for something serious, or I was just another
00:57:57flame for you.
00:57:58Yeah.
00:58:00But the reality is, you have made me into a better man.
00:58:05And going on this process with you, it was like nothing I could imagine.
00:58:11I'm glad after all those hardships that we landed in this place of peace and love, and there's no more
00:58:18fighting, and I don't want to go back to my old life without you in it.
00:58:22So, that being said, I would like to bring you into my world, and meet my family, meet my friends,
00:58:31and be by my side.
00:58:33And, you know, as we move forward, I'm hoping you would do the same for me, and allow me to
00:58:39meet your friends and your family, and be a part of your world, because I really want you to be
00:58:44a part of my world.
00:58:56Is this the part you break up with me?
00:59:03Here's the thing.
00:59:11Our journey has had a lot of ups and downs.
00:59:15And the chaos that we've found is, it's, you know, is that toxic, or was it healthy, right?
00:59:30And it's really made me question whether or not it's good for us, right?
00:59:41The time alone has made me realize that maybe I'm not the man for you.
00:59:53Maybe I'm not good enough for you.
00:59:55It's really questioning that.
01:00:02It's, it's, it has been difficult, and I don't want to make promises that I can't keep.
01:00:12So,
01:00:18I need the promise ring back.
01:00:54It's been a tough journey.
01:00:55It's been a tough journey.
01:00:57My first instinct is always the correct instinct, and I should stick with my first gut instinct on someone.
01:01:04Yeah.
01:01:05And maybe I was just trying to fit a square peg into a round hole, and my picker was wrong
01:01:12once again.
01:01:14Yeah.
01:01:16But
01:01:19During my alone time, I've also realized that maybe I don't have to be the perfect man.
01:01:31Maybe I just needed to be the guy that was there for you throughout all the good times, highs and
01:01:39lows.
01:01:45And I think spending time with you, enjoying you, not realizing there was an age gap, has made me want
01:02:02to commit.
01:02:04Just let it go.
01:02:06Just let it go.
01:02:06What is happening?
01:02:09What?
01:02:10I don't want this journey to end.
01:02:13Oh my God, what is happening here?
01:02:16And, you know, it's been a crazy roller coaster of a ride.
01:02:25But I'm not getting off any time soon, hey?
01:02:28I love the shit out of you.
01:02:30And, uh, you know, I want to make a promise and a commitment.
01:02:37You're someone who deserves everything.
01:02:40What is happening?
01:02:42And someone who deserves the Kobe ring.
01:02:45Stop it.
01:02:46No.
01:02:48Is this really happening?
01:02:51Vanessa.
01:02:52Stop.
01:02:54I'm not ready to get off any time soon.
01:02:57What's happening?
01:02:59So, we want to continue this journey and do life together.
01:03:11Yes.
01:03:11Yes.
01:03:11I, yes.
01:03:15Oh my God.
01:03:16I'm shaking.
01:03:19So.
01:03:20Oh my God.
01:03:21Where's that?
01:03:22Oh my God.
01:03:23It's pretty.
01:03:24It's so pretty.
01:03:24So, let's do it.
01:03:25Oh my gosh.
01:03:26I fucking love you.
01:03:31Oh my God.
01:03:33It's so pretty.
01:03:34Oh, my goodness.
01:03:36You got red lipstick on you.
01:03:37Yeah, I know.
01:03:39Oh, my God, I'm shaking.
01:03:42You tricked me so hard.
01:03:45When you started attacking me, I was like, oh, shit.
01:03:49Oh, my God.
01:03:51Oh, my God.
01:03:58Age doesn't matter for us.
01:03:59As crazy as it is to get engaged to somebody that's 20 years older than me, it's Vanessa.
01:04:10She's the one that has changed me.
01:04:13She's the one that's made me feel ways that I haven't felt before.
01:04:17So, you know, at the end of the day, it's what I wanted.
01:04:21I ran every scenario of what could happen when I was coming here,
01:04:25but the one scenario I didn't think of was finding the love of my life.
01:04:30I came into this experience with a complete open mind,
01:04:33and I'm really super happy with how it ended.
01:04:44I did not think I was going to come into this experience and completely change my life.
01:04:50What was your name?
01:04:51Derek.
01:04:52Derek. I'm Pfeiffer.
01:04:53I love your eyes.
01:04:54Thank you. Me, too.
01:04:57It's so rare that you find somebody that you connect with like this,
01:05:00and I never would have expected it to go this way, but I'm so grateful that it has.
01:05:06Oh, my God.
01:05:08You want to give me?
01:05:09Yeah.
01:05:09Pfeiffer's definitely the person I've been looking for.
01:05:12She's humble. She's loving.
01:05:14I mean, all of those are like something that I've definitely wanted,
01:05:18but I honestly didn't know that it existed.
01:05:21I've always thought age was just a number, and damn, yeah.
01:05:25This experience really proves that it's just that.
01:05:28Only love can light it up.
01:05:31I came here to try something completely unorthodox to meet people from all different ages,
01:05:37and if anyone said, you're going to come here and you're going to fall for a guy that's 20 years
01:05:42younger than you,
01:05:42I'd be like, you're absolutely crazy.
01:05:46Romeo! Romeo!
01:05:48Where for out there, Romeo?
01:05:50No, isn't it supposed to be the opposite way?
01:05:52Like, I think you're supposed to be up here with your hair.
01:05:54But what Logan and I have is something really special.
01:05:57So, I am 49.
01:06:02I was going to guess 29.
01:06:08Why Vanessa?
01:06:09I mean, I could have connected with anybody else.
01:06:13There were 19 other women at the retreat, some closer in age to me,
01:06:17but I don't think I would love anybody else like the way I love Vanessa.
01:06:20She's one in a million.
01:06:22Where do we go from here, you know?
01:06:24Snacks will be enjoying the night.
01:06:26Stop it.
01:06:27I thought I was going to go into the last years of my life alone.
01:06:32And now, here I am turning 50, and I'm in love.
01:06:44I got more than everything I've ever wanted out of this experience.
01:06:48I met somebody I never thought I would meet.
01:06:52One, go!
01:06:53Andrew does see me for the real me and not my age.
01:06:57He sees parts of me that a lot of people don't.
01:07:00And he just recognizes it and he appreciates it.
01:07:04I don't think I've ever had that before.
01:07:05I'm enjoying what we have right now.
01:07:08I'm waking up to you.
01:07:09Yeah.
01:07:09Well, it's probably the nicest thing I'll ever say to you.
01:07:12Oh, my God.
01:07:12But, like, the more I get to know you, the more I like you more.
01:07:15I really do feel like I got my rom-com happy ending,
01:07:19and I don't think I could have scripted it any better.
01:07:24I absolutely believe age just as a number
01:07:27because I never would have thought that I could connect with somebody
01:07:32that is 27 years old on this level.
01:07:38I'm gonna go for it.
01:07:40I love Teresa.
01:07:41I love how she makes me feel.
01:07:44Right.
01:07:45And for seeing me for who I am
01:07:48and loving me and accepting me for the 27-year-old
01:07:52is a little more mature.
01:07:54It's the connection that counts,
01:07:56not the candles on the cake.
01:07:58Should I grab your ass?
01:07:59Yeah.
01:07:59I love you.
01:08:11I love you.
01:08:29I see it in a new light.
01:08:33I see it in a new light.
01:08:37I see it in a new light.
01:08:40I see it in a new light.
01:08:45I see it in a new light.
01:08:48I see it in a new light.
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01:08:59I see it in a new light.
01:08:59I see it in a new light.
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