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00:07This was, like, his third or fourth birthday,
00:12and he was very happy here.
00:19If I was always stressed out, he'd come hug me
00:21and tell me he loves me and things like that.
00:25It's just sad how his life turned out.
00:28How, at that moment, you didn't think anything was going to turn out the way it did.
00:33And how you'd give anything in the world to get that back.
00:39And you're never going to get it back.
00:54Deputies say this Pasco County man is in jail for purposely running over a 75-year-old veteran,
01:00the sheriff calling him pure evil.
01:08I used to go to the roadside where he was murdered all the time and sit there and cry to
01:12him and say,
01:13I'm so sorry.
01:21Many, many nights I've sat on that roadside wishing it was me.
01:46Everybody just blamed me for raising him to be a murderer.
01:51Everybody said he was a monster.
01:55He was never a monster.
01:59He's not a monster.
02:03I can just love him because I wasn't able to fix him.
02:13He was never a monster.
02:16I was one of them.
02:18He chopped down the roadside for not being the single Animated Now.
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02:32Monster
02:51When I'm alone, I think about this.
02:54I get very, very sad.
02:55I think about the could've, would've, should've.
02:58But I don't know what I could've done different.
03:01I don't know how I could've stopped him
03:05if I knew I would've stopped him,
03:06found a way to stop him.
03:09I get very sad.
03:10I get sad that I don't get to see his future.
03:12I don't get to see his wedding, his kids.
03:16Now I get to hear about his,
03:18whatever milestones you go through in prison.
03:25I'm very ashamed because that's not
03:28ever what I would've imagined him to do.
03:38I feel like I still don't know a lot about,
03:42about what happened.
03:44That's kind of something I'm trying to learn.
03:49I feel like I still don't know a lot about,
04:00That's kind of something I'm trying to learn.
04:04There's nothing that I would find out that my son did
04:08that would ever stop me from loving him,
04:10and that would ever stop me from being there for him,
04:12because that's my promise as a mom,
04:14that I'm going to be there for my kids no matter what.
04:229-1-1, what is the address of the emergency?
04:26I'm down by Old Dixie, behind Sea Pine.
04:28I just killed someone.
04:30How did that happen?
04:32I just hit him.
04:34Hit him with what?
04:35My car.
04:37Was he walking down the road?
04:38You just accidentally hit him?
04:39No, I intentionally hit him.
04:41You intentionally hit him?
04:42Yes, sir.
04:44I don't know what's wrong with me.
04:57He sounded strangely calm.
05:01I don't know why he sounded so calm.
05:04I didn't know he sounded like that.
05:12Yeah.
05:30That's me, Justin.
05:33I was still only 19 then, so yeah.
05:36I was very young.
05:39What do you remember about that day?
05:42How blessed, how happy I was.
05:45I felt like my world was complete.
05:49Seeing him for the first time, oh my God, he's perfect.
05:55That is a deep love that I've never felt before.
05:58It's just a lifelong connection.
06:01I felt like I was doing something right for a change
06:04by bringing him into the world.
06:24I knew, like, things were off with him.
06:26I'd hate to say around the time he started school.
06:29He started what we call them night terrors.
06:35He would wander the house at night.
06:38Sometimes you could hear him walking around.
06:42One night, we were in bed, sound asleep.
06:46I'd wake up with him right in my face.
06:48We didn't know he was in there.
06:49He'd just be sitting there staring at us, which is terrifying.
06:54And I'd try to talk to him, and he wouldn't say anything.
06:59I had to wake my husband up, because I was scared, you know?
07:02I didn't know what he was thinking or what he was doing.
07:06That's like, you see that in horror videos.
07:09It was scary, very scary.
07:12But then, after a minute, he, like, just would snap out of it.
07:15And, like, I'm okay.
07:17Yeah, I'm awake.
07:17And he'd talk to me, and then go back to bed.
07:22But it was so creepy.
07:23It was so crazy to me.
07:34Justin's freakouts would be very stressful, especially when you have three kids all together.
07:42He'd get very stressed out and very angst and very angry all the time, because he couldn't just communicate what
07:50he wanted to say and things.
07:52We would play games with him all the time, but if things weren't going his way or if he wasn't
07:57winning, he would just get angry.
07:59He'd just flip the board and stomp off and scream, and I'd go and talk to him, and he'd just
08:04argue and scream at me.
08:07He'd just have complete meltdowns.
08:11I remember one specific time I had to come pick him up from school, because he got so frustrated that
08:16he bit somebody on the arm.
08:20So it was very hard.
08:23Very stressful.
08:43It was real early in the morning, and I was just, like, ripping him apart.
08:48What were you thinking?
08:49What were your plans?
08:50Like, how long did you think you were going to get away with it?
08:52And when I said that, he was like, well, I was going to get away with it, because my plan
08:57was I was going to kill all of you guys.
09:00He was going to slit all our throats, because he didn't want us running after him.
09:06My heart just dropped.
09:11My heart dropped, and I said, well, do you just not love us?
09:14Do you not care about us?
09:15And he goes, no, but that's why I wanted to do it.
09:17I wanted to kill you guys so that you wouldn't hurt.
09:22If I just killed you all, then no one would have to feel anything anymore.
09:28I felt scared.
09:29I felt anger.
09:30I felt hurt.
09:31He felt hurt.
09:33So then I felt even more hurt, because he was hurt.
09:37And I told him that it would have caused so much pain for so many other people.
09:43And I needed you to understand that.
09:45I need you to see it like that.
09:48He says, yeah, I know I see that, and I understand that now, but I didn't care at the time.
09:56A big part of me just wanted to put it in the back of my head.
10:01I didn't want to see him that way.
10:03I didn't want no one to see him that way.
10:07That's what I would tell myself.
10:08He was never going to do that.
10:10He said it, but he didn't mean it.
10:11It was just, it's Justin.
10:13He would never do that.
10:28Almost 24 hours after a driver hit and killed a pedestrian, deputies are now calling the
10:33case a homicide.
10:35The suspect, his name is Justin Pinnell, a 21-year-old male.
10:38And he absolutely admits to our deputies and our detectives that he had the intention to
10:44kill somebody.
10:45This is one of those things that when you talk to society how evil things are, this
10:49man is absolutely evil.
10:51It's almost, for him, pleasurable.
11:04After Justin did what he did, our house was on the news.
11:10So every day it was kind of scary.
11:13There were people saying that they're going to drive by our house and send bullets through
11:18our windows.
11:19We just wanted to get away and start over, start different.
11:26So we kind of left Florida, up and left Florida.
11:30Back in Florida, it kind of felt like I had a light shining down on me and everybody knew.
11:45The TV is his.
11:47There's a dresser over there.
11:50Yeah, that little lamp right there is his.
11:54I don't know why I hang on to it.
11:56It's just, it's so many memories.
11:58There's memories everywhere.
12:00I just keep things like that.
12:05I have Justin's baby book.
12:14His ultrasound pictures.
12:17His little fingers.
12:20A little head, face.
12:22His bracelet that he wore at the hospital.
12:30What I looked like then.
12:35Pictures of him, more pictures.
12:36Like his first holidays, his Halloween, his Christmas.
12:43Growing up, it was just us against the world, no matter what.
12:46He was my person.
12:47I was his person.
12:53And there's, you know, things I wrote to him.
12:57Up here, it says, Justin, always remember, no matter what, mommy will always be there for you.
13:03She may not like some of the things you're going to do, but I'll always stand behind you 100%.
13:11He had a trunk full of clothes and stuff like that.
13:13And I'll go through his clothes and hug him and be sad because it's just like, I lost him.
13:20I don't have him here no more.
13:22And I won't get rid of his stuff.
13:24Probably because he'll never even see it again or even use it again.
13:26But that's just all I have left of him.
13:28It still smells like him.
13:29It still feels like him sometimes.
13:31And I won't get rid of his stuff ever.
13:47So Justin was like 15 years old when we lost my nephew, his cousin.
13:52He was like another one of my kids.
13:54He got hit by a car.
13:57I think I was telling my daughter and she started to cry and Justin started to laugh.
14:04And I asked him, what was he laughing about?
14:06And he's like, it's not that it happened to him, but I'm just picturing it happening in
14:11my head, almost like a cartoon.
14:12And that's what makes me laugh.
14:15Were you surprised that he started to laugh?
14:20I honestly, by that time, I wasn't because it seems to be like his reaction towards everything
14:27that hurt people, honestly.
14:30He would just always find a way to laugh about it and think it was funny.
14:36There was a time we watched somebody get hit by a car.
14:40I think Justin might have been like 10 or 11.
14:46And unfortunately, like she flew in the air and he laughed about it.
14:52And he, I would just be like, what is going on?
14:57Was it clear the woman was dead?
15:00Absolutely.
15:01Absolutely.
15:02I mean, for the longest time, that's all I kept seeing over and over and over again.
15:07That just hit me.
15:08So sorry.
15:09You guys, just give me a minute.
15:10That just hit me.
15:13That, that, he saw that accident and that's what he did.
15:23It's like, you don't think all the little moments that you go through in life.
15:27Could possibly be, though, lead up to maybe the things that he did or went through himself.
15:37I don't know.
15:49I was sitting watching TV probably around the time Justin was coming home from school.
15:54I think it was like a show I was watching about kids killing animals and things like that.
16:01And I was like, I have never seen or heard of you doing anything like that, Justin.
16:05So you're good.
16:05You know, you're on the, you know.
16:06And it was like a lighthearted, you know, thing.
16:08And then he told me the story about the duck.
16:21So my dad was watching him and he, there's like a little lake down by where my dad was
16:27living and he would walk down there.
16:28And he said that he was sitting there on the log and the ducks had come up and they were
16:33just loud and, and noisy.
16:36And, and it was just too much.
16:38Like he felt like it was so much.
16:40And he just picked it up and slammed it into a log.
16:45He just kept doing it.
16:47He said, he just kept, kept doing it.
16:48And then he stopped and was like, what was I doing?
16:52Why did I do that?
16:55Like, I don't understand.
16:56Like he just said like something switched in his brain.
17:00Yeah.
17:01It created a red flag in the back of my brain that he might be a psychopath.
17:06Like something, something is not right with him.
17:11Something's not right in his head.
17:35I need Justin to call me every day because I need to feel that comfort.
17:40I need to hear his voice.
17:41I need to know he's okay.
17:45Every day I told him to call around a certain time of day so that what my husband would think
17:48he wasn't calling every day.
17:51Because it would cause fights.
17:56My husband, he doesn't like that I spent any money to talk to him.
18:05It's very hard.
18:06It's very hard.
18:06It's very hard to try and get my husband to understand why I can't just shut that door on him.
18:13Why I can't just, okay, this is what you did.
18:15Here you go.
18:16And just like close that chapter.
18:19It's very hard to explain that to my husband when he doesn't know how a maternal bond is or the
18:25feeling of, you know, of being a mom.
18:32But we have many, many talks as much as many of us had arguments.
18:36And we've come a long, long ways.
18:39And he, you know, he's more understanding of it because I've been very vocal with him about it.
18:46Because I don't want to lose my husband.
18:48And I don't want to lose my son.
18:50And I feel like the last five years has just been me having to explain why I feel the way
18:58I feel all the time with everybody.
19:05But I'm never going to stop loving my kids.
19:08I'm never going to stop not trying to be there for them the best that I can.
19:12That's my baby boy.
19:13He will always be my baby boy.
19:30I would make it a point to talk to him almost every other day.
19:33Check in with him.
19:34How you feeling?
19:35Like, but tell me how you're really feeling deep down and things like that.
19:40He would tell me, I haven't been able to sleep in days because I keep hearing these voices.
19:45And I'm like, voices like how?
19:46What do you mean?
19:47Well, they're just telling me to do things.
19:49They're telling me to hurt others.
19:51And recently, they've been more telling me to hurt you.
19:57It's scaring me.
19:58And I don't know what to think.
19:59And I don't know how to feel about it.
20:00But I feel like I could do it.
20:02I feel like I could follow through with it.
20:05And I told him I was scared.
20:07And to be honest, I'm here, Justin.
20:09I'm going to be open and honest with you.
20:10Now I'm scared.
20:10I'm scared of you.
20:14He was scared and you could see it.
20:18I felt sad.
20:20I felt sad for him because he didn't know what he was feeling.
20:31My husband was terrified.
20:33I'm terrified.
20:35My husband didn't trust him.
20:36My husband didn't trust anything.
20:39He was scared.
20:41He was scared.
20:41Justin was going to come in and kill the both of us.
20:43Every night when we'd go to bed, he'd lock that door.
20:58It's scary because you've got to go in and face these doctors that have never seen you a day in
21:03their life.
21:05And your son's saying these things.
21:09I was scared for my son because he was scared.
21:13I've never seen him so scared.
21:16So they put him on medication to help him sleep because he wasn't sleeping.
21:23But the doctors weren't concerned.
21:26The doctors didn't perceive him as a threat.
21:28No, they did not perceive him as a threat.
21:30They weren't concerned.
21:31They didn't.
21:32They told me that my daughters would be safe, that we'd be safe, that it was nothing to be afraid
21:37of.
21:49This is Justin in his JROTC uniform.
21:54He made Cadet of the Month that year.
21:59They had to wear a uniform every Tuesday or Thursday.
22:04It seems like he lived for that kind of structure, yeah.
22:08He was hoping to go into the military, and he was meeting with recruiters.
22:12My husband said, I think that you really want to do it because it's basically giving you a license to
22:18kill.
22:19And Justin told him, well, when you put it that way, yeah, maybe that is a thought somewhere in my
22:27head where it has come across as a thought.
22:34And Justin said, I don't see why there would be anything wrong with it.
22:37I mean, if they're giving me a license, basically, and a gun to do it, I would do it no
22:44problem, you know, if that's what they needed me to do.
23:06He started talking to me about his thoughts one day.
23:12I was sitting at home, and he'd come in, and I'd just ask him how his day was, and he
23:16would tell me how he had a thought of one day he would sneak into somebody's house and kill the
23:23whole family.
23:27My reaction was smacking him across the side of the head and asking him, first of all, why would you
23:31say that?
23:32Second of all, why would you think it?
23:34Like, who thinks that?
23:35Like, I don't even understand what even gets your mind to that thought, or what's going on in your head
23:40that you have that thought.
23:43We fight about it, and then he would leave.
23:49I used to always worry about him when he was gone.
23:52Every night, he'd either go for a bike ride, go work out, or go jog.
23:58He was really into working out.
24:00And there would be times where he wouldn't respond to my phone calls and text messages.
24:07So then I'd worry that maybe he's doing it.
24:11Maybe he's actually, like, following through with his thoughts or something.
24:15I was worried that I might find him on the news.
24:21My husband and I both tried like hell to get help.
24:24We reached out to the police stations.
24:26We reached out to counseling lines.
24:28We admitted it.
24:30The police station even said, I'm so sorry, but there's really nothing we can do until he actually commits a
24:37crime.
24:38And I remember breaking down and flipping out on him.
24:41And I'm like, so it's going to take that?
24:43It's going to take that?
24:43What if the crime's going to be so bad that you can't come back from it?
24:48And then it was.
24:58Reports show Pennell called 911 not to call for help, but because he had hit an electric pole and couldn't
25:05go anywhere.
25:06Detectives say that's when he admitted to dispatch that he purposely ran over a man and could see the terror
25:12in the pedestrian's eyes.
25:16Turned the news on, there's been some kind of accident and said that they found a body on the side
25:22of the road.
25:25I think my daughter was the one that found a picture of my son's car and sent it to me.
25:30And we drove to the road, and before we could even get very far on the road at the entrance,
25:35there was, you know, police everywhere that were stopping people.
25:42Then I ran up to the cop, and I was like, hey, I think that's my son's car.
25:47I think, you know, something's going on with my son.
25:49I need to know what's going on.
25:51And they asked me who my son was, and I told them.
25:54And they're like, well, just wait right here.
25:57A detective came up and told me they weren't exactly clear of the details yet of what was going on,
26:02but they believe my son hit and killed somebody, and they believe he hit and killed him on purpose.
26:12I don't know how to describe it.
26:14I couldn't make sense of my thoughts.
26:16I couldn't make sense of anything.
26:18Just one horrible dream.
26:20It's a nightmare, and none of this is true, and I didn't want to wake up from it.
26:39Hello, you have a call at no expense to you from Joseph, an inmate at Lando Lake Detention Center.
26:48To accept this call, press 5.
26:50To refuse this call, hang out now.
26:54Hi, Bobby.
26:55Hey, Mom.
26:56How you doing?
26:58Good, how are you?
26:59I'm doing good.
27:00I just wanted to let you know I'm here with everybody now, and we are being filmed now, and you're
27:05okay with that, correct?
27:08Yeah.
27:08She told me about how you guys wanted to interview her, and then you talked about showing her some of
27:14the videos and stuff.
27:16So is there anything that you're worried about her seeing?
27:19I get worried about how she might react to it, because I end up hurting a lot more people than
27:25just the Mr. Pratt family, and I do feel guilty about that at times, and I don't know how she
27:31might perceive that.
27:33There's no justification or excuse me.
27:37I'm sorry that I was in control of myself at the time.
27:41I'm sorry that you had to go out there.
27:47I mean, I know you think better of me, but...
27:53You're a better mom than I am, I'm sorry.
28:07I love you, Justin.
28:09I love you too, Mom.
28:10I miss you.
28:13I miss you, Mom.
28:23Morning, you're good.
28:25I'm on scene.
28:26There's no one 10-12 with a vehicle.
28:30I got him.
28:34Marine 2, I got him.
28:3510-12, 10-12.
28:40Hey, bro, come on.
28:41Go ahead, sir.
28:42We get a unit to meet that.
28:45Yeah, I got you, bro.
28:50I still haven't lost faith in my son.
28:53And he did do it.
28:55He did, not me, but he did kill someone.
28:58He did hurt someone.
29:01And I still have not lost that faith in him, and I can't explain it.
29:09I just, deep down inside, feel that that wasn't him.
29:13That's not him.
29:13That's not the Justin I know.
29:15That's not him.
29:38I want to know his exact thoughts.
29:39I want to know his exact thoughts leading up to it.
29:41What was he thinking sitting in the car?
29:43What came through his brain when he saw Mr. Pratt on the side of the road?
29:47I want to know those thoughts.
29:52Of course I'm scared I'm going to find something out that I don't know,
29:55or something about him that I don't know.
30:11Were you in route to somewhere specific today?
30:16No, sir.
30:17I don't want to say I'm hearing voices.
30:20It just kept sounding like I should kill someone, I should kill someone.
30:24Maybe it might make me feel better.
30:25Maybe it might make me happier.
30:29And so recently I've been driving around these roads.
30:32I know that people occasionally walk on them,
30:34looking for people I could hit while avoiding witnesses.
30:38I don't know why I want to do this.
30:41I just, I also just wanted to calm down.
30:45I ended up going down Air Pica.
30:47That's why I saw the old guy with the cane.
30:49And then I made a U-turn.
30:50He was going into the grass.
30:52He was trying to avoid me because he saw me going for him.
30:54But I just went for him.
31:02All I've got for you is what the ****.
31:05That's pretty painful to hear, yeah?
31:06Yeah, yep.
31:09He made a U-turn to hit a man, an old man with a cane.
31:14Yeah.
31:18And sped up and aimed right for him.
31:23That's what he said he did.
31:27What the **** was going through your head while doing it?
31:30And you, it's just,
31:33you could have just swore it the other way and not have done it.
31:36You know,
31:39something in your mind had that pull so tight, so strong,
31:42that you just followed through with it.
31:46I don't, I don't understand that.
31:47I don't, I could never put myself in that frame of mind
31:51because I could never do that.
31:53So,
31:55I got no words.
32:05Guy calling said he hit him on purpose.
32:07You hear that?
32:08Okay?
32:09Yeah.
32:10All right, well, let's get a sheet.
32:12All right, we'll mark it off.
32:18Did you hear him say anything?
32:20I only saw his reaction.
32:22What was that?
32:24You know, that oh **** moment?
32:26What were your thoughts like when that,
32:28when we were ready, that moment?
32:30Do you remember?
32:32I just smiled and laughed.
32:35Let's just say I answered one question I was wanting to answer,
32:39which was,
32:40how would I feel like to kill someone?
32:42And how does it feel?
32:46I mean,
32:46when I did it,
32:47I was laughing.
32:50I mean,
32:51I enjoyed it,
32:52but
32:54afterwards,
32:55after I calmed down a bit,
32:58I wouldn't say I felt regretful.
33:01I mean,
33:01to be perfectly honest,
33:02I was more ashamed that
33:03I broke the car the way I did
33:05when I killed the person.
33:14I don't know.
33:15I don't,
33:15I don't,
33:16I really can't think right now.
33:17My,
33:17my mind is just fricking.
33:28Are you more angry or worse bad?
33:34Equal amounts of both,
33:35honestly.
33:36Like,
33:37I don't,
33:37like,
33:44I don't know.
33:45This is where I feel like my,
33:46my,
33:47my brain is just trying to shut down
33:49to process it.
33:53And I'm trying to be,
33:54you know,
33:55open and honest,
33:56but
33:56I don't have it right now
33:58because I still have to process it.
34:03Because the mom in me still is feeling
34:05the hurt he's feeling.
34:07Like,
34:07he's not sounding like he hurts.
34:09He's not,
34:09you know,
34:10probably showing like he hurts,
34:11but I feel like he's hurting.
34:14It's just the mom I'm bearing to me
34:16that's always going to want to fight for him
34:18no matter what.
34:19Because I can fix him.
34:20I can fix him.
34:21and I can make him better
34:22somehow,
34:22some way.
34:23I can fix him
34:24and make him better.
34:27Can you tell him?
34:28No.
34:30I can just love him
34:31because I wasn't able to fix him.
34:42Is there anything
34:43when we go talk to your mom
34:44that you want us to like relay for you?
34:46I know you haven't had a chance
34:47to talk with her.
34:47I would recommend keeping details
34:49of the case private
34:50simply because she might get a bit emotional
34:53and that might make your investigation
34:54get hard.
34:56It's not a matter of,
34:57like,
34:59I want to tell her myself.
35:00It's just a matter of
35:03these things are a bit sensitive to her
35:05and, well,
35:08yeah,
35:08I mean,
35:09it might make things a bit complicated.
35:16Now you're ready.
35:21You had mentioned
35:22that you had thoughts
35:23of doing this.
35:24You wanted to do this.
35:25Is this the only way
35:27you imagined doing it
35:28or had you imagined doing it
35:29in other methods?
35:31Like,
35:32some other way?
35:34I mean,
35:35I'm really fond
35:36with knives.
35:37I was thinking about
35:39slicing people up
35:40and cutting them open,
35:42dissecting them,
35:43essentially.
35:43Yeah.
35:45But you've never done that before?
35:46No.
36:01That's,
36:01um,
36:03that's hard to hear,
36:04yeah.
36:07especially since it was kind of
36:08brought up in a conversation
36:10between my husband and I yesterday
36:11because
36:13I asked him
36:14what made that
36:14thing click in his brain
36:16that he was,
36:17that made him super scared
36:18or just made him
36:19start locking the doors
36:20because I never really
36:21fully understood it.
36:23It was because
36:24Justin was starting
36:25to collect knives
36:26and he was sharpening them
36:27every day
36:27and he had no reason to.
36:30but now hearing this
36:32is just
36:34insane,
36:35mind-blowing
36:36and I feel so bad
36:38for my husband and all this.
37:08it was too late,
37:09and I was like,
37:25What the f**k?
37:29What the f**k?
37:30It literally looks like a murder kit.
37:34Like, there's so much more to him that I didn't see.
37:43There's so much more to him that I didn't know.
37:54How does that happen?
37:55Like, that's my boy.
38:03That was my life.
38:27Oh, my soul is crushed right now.
38:30You talked to Justin last night.
38:35No.
38:36No.
38:36No.
38:37No.
38:37No.
38:37No.
38:38No.
38:39No.
38:39No.
38:50No.
38:53No.
39:00No.
39:18No.
39:19No.
39:20No.
39:22No.
39:25No.
39:34No.
39:40No, no.
39:42No, no, no.
39:44Go on.
39:47Doing this show is like ripping a Band-Aid off a wound and just like giving it some oxygen.
39:53And I do believe it is helping and it is going to help further on down the road.
39:58I needed it and I do feel different. I do feel like I can breathe differently.
40:04Like there's not so much of a weight.
40:08Knowing that I somehow raised a murderer is petrifying.
40:18I know it's not the hardest, but I know it's one of the hardest things a parent would ever have
40:23to do or go through or feel and think.
40:26And I'm still trying to process my thoughts and feelings right now.
40:39Well, no parent ever looks at their little kid and thinks that he's going to be a murderer someday, period.
40:45Being the parent of a murderer is, it's not easy.
40:50It can be lonely as well because people just don't understand.
40:54You think you killed somebody?
40:55No, I know I did.
40:56Up until that point, it never felt wrong to love either one of my children.
41:04I use my hands to suffocate my kids.
41:07Who did you use the belt on?
41:09The babies.
41:10Well, I'll tell you right now, if there is a God and they do forgive him, send me to hell.
41:14Because I don't want to be there with them.
41:17That was pain out the window and I was telling him, you're going to fry .
41:19You're going to fry for this.
41:21And I pray to God my son never sees this.
41:24But I was going to shoot him in the back of the head.
41:26I swear to God, and it's so hard to make anyone believe, but I was looking at a devil.
41:32Then we went to die, but not so tired.
41:33All at home.
41:34particulier.
41:35Well, you came from me.
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