Second assessment/review with Psychiatrist @ Hillmorton Hospital
Dr. Benjamin McBreen
My name is Nigel McFall. I have repeatedly asked mental health professionals at Hillmorton Hospital to look at my evidence – specifically, that I solved the codes. They refuse. They shut me down without even glancing at what I've done.
Instead, they take away my medication, call me delusional, and ask leading questions designed to make me say whatever fits their diagnosis. But I'm the only one making sense.
The truth is clear in every interview: I do not meet the legal requirements to be sectioned under the Mental Health Act.
This is not a story of madness. This is a story of a public mental health service that cannot tell the difference between high neurodivergent IQ and illness. When a mind works differently – faster, deeper, more pattern-driven – they label it as psychosis. When you present evidence they don't understand, they call it a delusion.
Their inability to recognise high intelligence, lateral thinking, and code-breaking as traits of neurodivergence – not madness – is a systemic failure. And it is causing real harm.
#SectionedUnlawfully
#PsychiatryFailsNeurodivergence
#LeadingQuestionsNotCare
#MHA1992FailedMe
#MentalHealthActNZ
#StopIgnoringEvidence
#MentalHealthReformNZ
#PatientsRightsMatter
#SecondOpinionNow
#AdvocacyOverSedation
#NoJusticeNoHealth
Dr. Benjamin McBreen
My name is Nigel McFall. I have repeatedly asked mental health professionals at Hillmorton Hospital to look at my evidence – specifically, that I solved the codes. They refuse. They shut me down without even glancing at what I've done.
Instead, they take away my medication, call me delusional, and ask leading questions designed to make me say whatever fits their diagnosis. But I'm the only one making sense.
The truth is clear in every interview: I do not meet the legal requirements to be sectioned under the Mental Health Act.
This is not a story of madness. This is a story of a public mental health service that cannot tell the difference between high neurodivergent IQ and illness. When a mind works differently – faster, deeper, more pattern-driven – they label it as psychosis. When you present evidence they don't understand, they call it a delusion.
Their inability to recognise high intelligence, lateral thinking, and code-breaking as traits of neurodivergence – not madness – is a systemic failure. And it is causing real harm.
#SectionedUnlawfully
#PsychiatryFailsNeurodivergence
#LeadingQuestionsNotCare
#MHA1992FailedMe
#MentalHealthActNZ
#StopIgnoringEvidence
#MentalHealthReformNZ
#PatientsRightsMatter
#SecondOpinionNow
#AdvocacyOverSedation
#NoJusticeNoHealth
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00:04yeah recording yeah okay um it's just important that you check with us before you start recording
00:10but look i'm happy for you to record the review if you're planning to do so um
00:17how have things been going since you came into hospital yesterday
00:22well i've been refused everything and i'm not and i'm well so i shouldn't even be here okay
00:27um so as i said i'm being one psychiatrist i've got a couple um do you feel like you're completely
00:36well and you're not sure why you're in hospital yeah because no one's been listening to me so
00:41what they're based on is the fact that i see that i i've worked out some codes all right and
00:48they've
00:48taken as if i'm mad but it's my neurodivergent intelligence i've got proof i've got a video
00:53that i did it's two hours long i did two days before i came in showing the breakdown and how
01:00i did it it's just pattern recognition okay i'm not crazy i'm neurodivergent and i've got a high iq
01:11um because because they never weighed that when they made this the um you know to put me in here
01:17they never weighed what i had i keep saying to them you need to weigh what if you're going to
01:22make
01:23this decision based on what i'm saying to you you also need to weigh it against the evidence that i
01:28what i'm saying to you i have done you know and they just dismissed me okay it has to be
01:36fair and
01:37balanced because because i'm neurodiverse it's very easy for people to put me into the crazy category
01:44but because my cognition i i'm able to to process a lot of data at the same time i see
01:50in systems
01:50and things um i do see things that other people miss it's it's part of you know modern day research
01:59and you normally live at home with your wife and seven children is that right yeah
02:04um what do you do for work and i do it uh unemployed at the moment okay when were you
02:09last working
02:10uh about two months ago three months ago okay what were you doing security um you had your own
02:19business or yeah yeah what sort of security business was it just mobile patrols okay
02:27uh and you stopped um well that business kind of folded around two or three months ago yeah
02:33okay sorry to hear that i imagine that was a really stressful time oh it's just what happens i
02:39mean you before you get diagnosed with adhd you you're always struggling and then you get better
02:45and you can manage things but you still have all the and you don't get a clean slate with it
02:50with
02:50a um diagnosis so yeah it's hard to try and and repair things from the past yeah
02:58um and is your wife working at the moment no are you on a benefit or is your wife on
03:05any benefit i
03:05think so yeah i think she may have gone on yeah um because uh you could see our social worker
03:13and
03:13they might be able to help you to get on a benefit as well um because i imagine that there's
03:18been a
03:18bit of financial strain i'm more focused on getting out of here and being listened to to be honest
03:24yeah um how long have you felt that you were sort of really intelligent and um that you knew all
03:33these codes oh you know well it started um like have you got the work time eh um like when
03:42we had
03:43that um end of a tenancy and it was just really confusing because it went really weird like they
03:46all got nasty with us and things and we didn't i don't know what happened and they forged a document
03:51and um and that's all i knew i didn't know anything else about it at all and then i sort
03:57of went into
03:58a bit of a hyper focus like well i want to find out why you know why they um forged
04:05a document so i was
04:06working nights i mean i'll come home from work and talk to my wife it's like this little cheeky kid
04:11with me you know he's like telling me to like you know just just keep going and when i didn't
04:16feel like
04:16doing it drive me on but and then if i if i didn't if i took focus of trying to
04:21work out now
04:22how i can prove this document is forged my brain would just shut down until it went back down to
04:26it
04:26so um so that was um it happened for a while i don't really think much of it and then
04:33i sort of got
04:34to the point where i worked it all out and um it's not like it's not a voice in my
04:39head but it's like
04:40you know that little cheeky kid was like um i guess we found our magic power and i was like
04:46oh
04:46that's like talking back to my childhood where i thought because i never i never used to think
04:50i was different i just felt like i had this special power you know try and move things
04:54of your mind or talk to ghosts and obviously it didn't work but um and yeah it was really cool
05:00and then i and then i just thanked him i just said well you know well thanks for keeping it
05:03safe sort of
05:03thing and uh because i see things in pictures sort of see him walking off um the thing but it's
05:11not
05:11like a psychotic thing it was just like a thing and then from there it was like this merge like
05:15this
05:17oh it's just like this deep it feels like a deep pattern process because i couldn't process before
05:25like i had things i had things like systems thinking yeah i could do that anomaly protection yeah
05:29really really really good at that rules based logic yeah absolutely good at that because i never knew
05:34if i was gonna be if i did something i was good or bad so what i did is i
05:37attached myself to rules
05:39so that's why i never got in trouble with the law when most people go to drugs and all that
05:43sort of
05:43thing i just used the law and black and white jobs government jobs to to keep me safe but then
05:49i use
05:49that in my in my in the way i post these things now as well so it was just this
05:54merge and i was like it's
05:55great then all of a sudden i could just like i mean so what i did is i just because
06:01what my brain does
06:02is because i'm really aware of it of how it works now but what it did is that i just
06:07got all the
06:08documents together from a tenancy and my and my brain won't look outside that data so it will only use
06:15the data for that and then i can just process it so i'm not making decisions about what because i
06:22know what it's about anyway i just let the data and data's got the sort of rules within the data
06:26i just process it and it comes out with determination and then in the end i put together
06:30it was a six-year coercive control that is brilliant like i attached it all to evidence and it was
06:36perfect and like you know the ledger was all mathematical you know who was trying to do coercive
06:40control uh the landlord and property manager she'd been done for forgery before as well we didn't know until
06:45the end but so that's now to come up in the court shortly for us but i mean it was
06:51it was brilliant
06:52the way i put it together i was like wow so i took it i took it to the police
06:56and they did exactly what
06:58got done here they looked at me and said that i wasn't capable but they never looked at my documents
07:05never looked at them so did you guys lose that tenancy and they gave you a document saying that you
07:11were no longer able to live there and it was through that document that you well no it was all
07:16from the throughout the whole tenancy so i took all the text messages the emails everything put it
07:21together and i was able just to like pull the data together and work out what happened yeah really
07:26cool but then but then when the police there's something they just they just don't look at they look
07:31at me system wouldn't let that happen property management you couldn't do it and then my brain
07:37just like because i've never thought about this stuff before my life ever and so my brain just
07:42went straight for um the zodiac ciphers like why am i here sort of thing like i don't know but
07:48then
07:48what did the zodiac signs have to do with all this well my brain just went just just went it
07:54was almost
07:54like it was like well okay now how am i going to prove to everyone like how clever you are
07:58and i just
07:59sort of thing so when then then i realized that the the zodiac ciphers are done in pattern recognition
08:06so the coder has used the one language i know um so i was able i'm able just to process
08:13the data and
08:13work out the rules like it's like in my video it's all these rules and like you can tell it's
08:18been coded
08:19um but then and then so i got through that which was uh which is cool but kind of scary
08:26at the same
08:26time and then um it went to cryptos and i'm like well i don't know nothing about cryptos it's just
08:34it's a sculpture outside it's got codes on it and so it's the same pattern it's exactly the same
08:40pattern recognition as a zodiac so i went through that and saw that and um see the interesting thing
08:47both of them they both shared the same things where they both allow some panels and ciphers to be
08:52solved by normal ways but then no one's ever been able to solve the rest of it which is i
08:58don't know
08:58if i fully kind of follow what you're saying and i do um yeah well it's just that like my
09:03brain has got
09:04driven to that yeah so that like i wasn't i wasn't purposely going to it and then when i'm talking
09:11when
09:11i'm looking at cryptos all the time wizard of oz comes in i'm like what the hell was it always
09:15got to
09:16do with it and then i worked out that it was pattern recognition as well and they all they
09:19all connect together through different times and what did that indicate all of these things um
09:24well the thing is the thing i find when i talk to people is because i uncover so much i've
09:31been
09:31system thinking i've got i've literally got these three bits of history all in a row if i tell you
09:37people use that to dismiss what i've found but what i what i like to say to people is just
09:43look at just
09:44look at the steps at the start do you feel like anyone's after you're out to get you with them
09:48no no no absolutely no do you feel like you're going to solve any big cases or anything like
09:53i mean i mean i've i've literally um worked through these ones yeah absolutely do they have real world
10:02consequences yeah they do but the thing is that people have to have to notice me to be able to
10:08i mean
10:08i can i can explain if someone's sat with me i can explain it i mean you understand it you
10:13were
10:13talking to the admitting um clinician about um feeling like you were able to solve some sort of
10:20child abuse network or figure out what was happening i mean i mean the thing is that that is actual
10:28reality like i know i know it's a big concept for for people to grasp but it is because the
10:34people who
10:34coded it in moved from one generation to another representing the same network well what's your
10:40mood been like recently that's good i'm fine yeah if you were to give your mood a rating out of
10:4510
10:46one being really low and 10 being good what do you think you'd give yourself a nine yeah i'm i'm
10:50i'm
10:50always happy yeah i mean i have felt the best i've ever felt in this period the ability to process
10:58data
10:58the way i process it now is just it feels like who i who i who i should have been
11:04okay yeah i feel
11:05like myself how long has that been happening for now well since since that merge you know it happened
11:13yeah with the cheeky little kid that i've worked out with myself that yeah it all come together
11:17when did that happen uh must have been about september maybe october yeah it just it just gave me it's
11:27just a it's a new intelligence and it's really really good and have you been hearing anything sort
11:32of audibly when no one's around like voices no no i don't have any of that stuff and this this
11:38cheeky
11:39kid like could you audibly hear them or was it sort of like no it's hard to explain it's like
11:44it's just i
11:44don't know it's uh no it's not like it's not i'm not hearing voices it doesn't kind of work like
11:51that but yeah it was just kind of like a i guess more like a it's more like a feeling
11:55i guess i don't
11:56know it's hard to explain but yeah it was um it was interesting but yeah was that that is yeah
12:01after
12:01that it all changed it was like yeah you're not noticing that cheeky kid anymore because he's merged
12:05with you is that correct yes he's gone now yeah yeah um so gave gave me back what i lost
12:12and because i mean
12:12that's kind of how i feel because when i think back as a child i think there are times where
12:16i
12:17remember where i was like i am now like to be able to think in pre-session yeah any racing
12:24thoughts
12:24recently no no no my brain has become efficient so what it does is like if i have it like
12:31i'm i'm
12:31doing these codes or something it just slowly grinds it's not it can be really fast but it can also
12:37just
12:37slightly grind away in the background and until until it tells me there's more data to add and
12:43then it just keeps breaking data down until it finishes it all have you been sleeping recently
12:48yeah i get i get at least 10 hours sleep a night okay except for last night because i didn't
12:53get my
12:53meds yeah you didn't sleep at all last night no i want i needed my meds what meds um the
12:59thing is the
13:02thing is for me is that like literally i am well and i've found the best i ever have um
13:08and the meds
13:09are working well and i've been i've been on those meds for like two years how much
13:12do you normally have uh two right yeah like 15 milligrams i'm not too sure that i just know these
13:19two
13:19yeah but so yeah so so for me i'm i'm in the best i've ever been so when people start
13:27saying things
13:27about changing meds because if you think it's the meds well then before that merge i was on the same
13:33meds you know what you know like it's it's it's been a cognitive shift that's been the thing and
13:40it's not a bad thing it's yeah have you been buying more things recently or doing things you wouldn't
13:45normally do it do you i i don't i hardly ever buy anything anymore i don't yeah like before before
13:52i was diagnosed it was bad eh just anything i'd eat some i used to be like 160 kgs or
13:59something
14:00but yeah like yeah no since since my diagnosis things have been really really good for me
14:04yeah um how long have you been on the listex amphetamine for the advance oh five months i've
14:13been on that for two years okay yeah two years and you haven't had any changes in the dose of
14:18that
14:18recently no that 70s been there for quite some time here all the other ones were just
14:25up and down up and down but that one was just perfect yeah yeah what would happen with the
14:30other ones they're just um i find like the other ones they sort of go up and down up and
14:36down where
14:36vivance kind of like starts here and then slowly drops like it's just a bit it's just better for me
14:41you know me and i also find the vivance if i need a little bit of extra like you know
14:46like i can add a
14:47little bit of caffeine to it and it kind of i can kind of get what i need for the
14:52day if you know
14:52what i mean so the only medications you've been taking are that and the quetiapine yeah the same
14:57too yeah okay you haven't been on any antidepressants recently no okay um you were under a speridone in
15:03the past what was that one like for you speridone i don't remember what when was that when you're under
15:09talk to the house i believe oh that was ages so that was when that was before i knew i
15:14had adhd so
15:16i i had things happening but i didn't know what it was so i i think i went there once
15:20and they put
15:21it under some kind of general psychosis thing so no one really knew what it was but like now
15:27i know what it would have been yeah if you know what i mean yeah okay yeah who diagnosed you
15:31with
15:31adhd um jason chang was it okay yeah yeah and it was in private yeah i went private because i
15:41was
15:41really sick yeah like i wake up in the morning and my brain was shut down straight away yeah it
15:46was bad
15:48any other mental health diagnoses in the past no no um you know recently have you been having any
15:56thoughts about needing to protect yourself with weapons or anything like that not any thoughts
16:01about hurting anyone or anything like that no no no like um i used to be really angry before my
16:08meds and then like i'm just i'm hardly ever angry i get frustrated sometimes though i get frustrated
16:13but i don't even realize i used to yeah like my life has been good since like i was like
16:18like yeah
16:19it's just so good
16:26oh that's all right um any suicidal thinking recently no i don't want to kill myself at all
16:34i feel like i have more to offer now you know what i mean yeah have you been picking up
16:40on things like
16:41from the radio tv they're giving you special messages no your kind of environment so that's
16:47all interesting for me so like i i've had this change where like i only taken data that i
16:53experienced mm-hmm so i you know i've lost interest with a lot of tv stuff in there but i
16:59did yeah like
17:00it's it's really different now like it doesn't none of that stuff yeah i just don't and at least it's
17:07data i experienced then or you know data on me like a document or something that's solid you know
17:13then that's pretty much what i do um it sounds like your mind's been really busy recently
17:20uh well not busy no i mean because the reason i have to spend so much time on it
17:27is because to get people like you to believe me i have to be like to to write through i
17:35don't i don't
17:36think laterally so to to write it into steps or later is so painful and then i've got to make
17:42sure
17:42because i could do five pages if i get one little thing wrong that's it everyone if it's all wrong
17:50you know what i mean so the rules that apply to me to prove things are very high bar yeah
17:56so i've got
17:56it i've got because it's and it's very difficult for me to know i have no support services i've got
18:01to
18:01spend a lot of time trying to get it perfect yeah do you have any physical health problems that you
18:06see you've done no do you use um do you smoke cigarettes no don't do drugs don't drink alcohol
18:26it's like it's like it's like it's not really efficient it's just very slow and it just sort of
18:33yeah it's not it's not racing thoughts it's that it's just it's like a slow it's like it's like it's
18:40not really efficient it's just very slow and it just sort of yeah i don't i don't have it doesn't
18:46race well i'm a bit worried at the moment that um that you might be manic um well i mean
18:54the thing is
18:55look at my video watch the whole two two hours and you you'll see something is that on youtube
19:02oh yeah i've got it uh it's i've got a um a facebook group page that i put it on
19:07yeah but
19:09um but like if you because i went through it and i was like i do struggle talking there because
19:14i've got
19:15i've got to take these complex systems and pictures and try but but i get there in the end with
19:20it but
19:21um yeah i think that that was i thought i did a good job of that because i sort of
19:24talked about my
19:25cognition and how things worked and how i put things together like you'll see my my ability to
19:31and pattern recognition to put things together like it's not it's not um i'm not making it up
19:36it's through the rules i know everything's getting really real for you at the moment look i think no
19:41but no no no no yeah it is real yeah i want to make that point really clear like it
19:46like it is real and
19:48i and i have done it i'm not manic i'm not making it up i'm not being crazy i have
19:52an i have an ability
19:53to take a lot of data fragmented data and and put it together using visual cues
19:59have you been on olanzapine before what olanzapine no it's a medication that can help with sleep at
20:06night time i don't want it like i want to stick the thing is my position is i am well
20:13right and
20:14the medication i've been on for the last two years is has worked perfectly okay um so i don't want
20:21to
20:21change anything like if i was on well i'd be the first one to say yeah let's try this let's
20:25try something
20:26else but my whole life i've had to pretend to be someone else or if i came up with something
20:32that
20:32seemed a little bit weird i used to not say it because i couldn't because the way people react
20:37where now i'm at a different stage in my life where i'm like well if it's true if it's true
20:42then
20:43i'm going to say it look i really think you need to take some of our medications at the moment
20:48and i'm
20:48not going to um i won't it's just the right medication for you well well it is because i've
20:55been the most well i've ever been on it because the thing is you're making an assessment not even
21:01looking at any of my stuff i mean you you're doubting me already aren't you you're doubting me already
21:09look i can see that you've got a lot going on at the moment and i think that medication is
21:14no no no i don't want to go around with this just psychological circles like i mean you did you
21:19doubt me at the moment don't you you don't do you believe that i broke those codes
21:25uh i can see that you really believe that no no i want to know you do you believe it
21:31look i think
21:32what because because it sounds quite far-fetched if i'm going to be honest with you then you need to
21:36watch the video yeah because because what happens is then whatever you do from this point you apply
21:41through that lens don't you i think we need to give medications an opportunity um i'm not i'm not
21:49taking like i'm telling you what i'm saying to you you've already said that you you doubt me um i
21:55think
21:55you need to look at what i put together um and i need to be on the medications where i
22:02was the most well
22:03yeah i mean i'm not being awkward it's just like i'm happy for you to take some quetiaphan that's
22:08fine um but i also think you need to be on olanzapine no um we would much rather that you
22:16take the oral
22:16medications i'm not i'm i'm i'm i'm taking the two medications that i've taken for the last two years
22:24because that worked in
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