Third assessment/review with Psychiatrist @ Hillmorton Hospital
Dr. Benjamin McBreen
My name is Nigel McFall. I have repeatedly asked mental health professionals at Hillmorton Hospital to look at my evidence – specifically, that I solved the codes. They refuse. They shut me down without even glancing at what I've done.
Instead, they take away my medication, call me delusional, and ask leading questions designed to make me say whatever fits their diagnosis. But I'm the only one making sense.
The truth is clear in every interview: I do not meet the legal requirements to be sectioned under the Mental Health Act.
This is not a story of madness. This is a story of a public mental health service that cannot tell the difference between high neurodivergent IQ and illness. When a mind works differently – faster, deeper, more pattern-driven – they label it as psychosis. When you present evidence they don't understand, they call it a delusion.
Their inability to recognise high intelligence, lateral thinking, and code-breaking as traits of neurodivergence – not madness – is a systemic failure. And it is causing real harm.
#SectionedUnlawfully
#PsychiatryFailsNeurodivergence
#LeadingQuestionsNotCare
#MHA1992FailedMe
#MentalHealthActNZ
#StopIgnoringEvidence
#MentalHealthReformNZ
#PatientsRightsMatter
#SecondOpinionNow
#AdvocacyOverSedation
#NoJusticeNoHealth
Dr. Benjamin McBreen
My name is Nigel McFall. I have repeatedly asked mental health professionals at Hillmorton Hospital to look at my evidence – specifically, that I solved the codes. They refuse. They shut me down without even glancing at what I've done.
Instead, they take away my medication, call me delusional, and ask leading questions designed to make me say whatever fits their diagnosis. But I'm the only one making sense.
The truth is clear in every interview: I do not meet the legal requirements to be sectioned under the Mental Health Act.
This is not a story of madness. This is a story of a public mental health service that cannot tell the difference between high neurodivergent IQ and illness. When a mind works differently – faster, deeper, more pattern-driven – they label it as psychosis. When you present evidence they don't understand, they call it a delusion.
Their inability to recognise high intelligence, lateral thinking, and code-breaking as traits of neurodivergence – not madness – is a systemic failure. And it is causing real harm.
#SectionedUnlawfully
#PsychiatryFailsNeurodivergence
#LeadingQuestionsNotCare
#MHA1992FailedMe
#MentalHealthActNZ
#StopIgnoringEvidence
#MentalHealthReformNZ
#PatientsRightsMatter
#SecondOpinionNow
#AdvocacyOverSedation
#NoJusticeNoHealth
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00:10yeah recording yeah um it's just important that you check with us before you start recording but
00:16look i'm happy for you to record the review um how have things been going since you came into
00:25hospital where you stay well i've been refused everything and i'm not and i'm well so i shouldn't
00:31even be here okay um so as i said i'm being one psychiatrist i've got a couple um registrars
00:38with me um so you feel like you're completely well and you're not sure why you're in hospital
00:43yeah because no one's been listening to me so what they're based on is the fact that i see that
00:48i
00:51i've worked out some codes right and they've taken as if i'm mad but it's my neurodivergent
00:56intelligence i've got proof i've got a video that i did it's two hours long i did it two days
01:01before
01:02i came in showing the breakdown and how i did it it's just pattern recognition okay i'm not crazy
01:10i'm i'm neurodivergent and i've got a high iq okay um because because they never weighed that when
01:19they made this the um you know to put me in here they never weighed what i had i keep
01:25saying to them
01:25you need to weigh what if you're going to make this decision based on what i'm saying to you
01:31you also need to weigh it against the evidence that i what i'm saying to you i have done you
01:36know
01:37and they just dismissed me okay it has to be fair and balanced because because i'm neurodiverse
01:45it's very easy for people to put me into the crazy category but because my cognition i i'm able to
01:53to process a lot of data at the same time i see in systems and things um i do see
01:58things that other
01:59people miss it's it's part of you know modern day research okay and you normally live at home with
02:06your wife and seven children is that right yep yeah um what do you do for work and i do
02:11it uh
02:12unemployed at the moment okay when were you last working oh about two months ago three months ago
02:19what were you doing security um you had your own business or yeah yeah what sort of security business
02:28was it just mobile patrols okay uh and you stopped um or that business kind of folded around two or
02:38three
02:38months ago yeah okay sorry to hear that i imagine that was a really stressful time oh it's just what
02:45happens i mean you before you get diagnosed with adhd you you're always struggling and then you get
02:50better and you can manage things but you still have all the and you don't get a clean slate with
02:55a
02:56um diagnosis so yeah it's hard to try and and repair things from the past yeah
03:03okay um and is your wife working at the moment no are you on a benefit or is your wife
03:10on any benefit
03:11i think so yeah i think she may have gone on yeah
03:15um because uh you could see our social worker and they might be able to help you to get on
03:20a benefit as
03:20well um because i imagine that there's been a bit of financial strain i'm more focused on getting
03:27out of here okay and being listened to to be honest okay yeah um how long have you felt that
03:35you were
03:35sort of really intelligent and um that you knew all these codes oh you know well it started um
03:45like have you gotten what time i um like when we had an um end of a tenancy and it
03:50was just really
03:50confusing because it went really weird like they all got nasty with us and things and we didn't i
03:55didn't know what happened and they forged a document and um and that's all i knew i didn't know anything
04:01else about it at all and then i sort of went into a bit of a hyper focus like well
04:05i want to find out
04:06why you know why they um forged a document so i was working nights i mean i'll come home from
04:14work
04:14and talk to my wife it's like this little cheeky kids with me you know he's like telling me to
04:19like
04:20you know just just keep going when i didn't feel like doing it drive me on but and then if
04:24i if i
04:25didn't if i took focus of trying to work out now how i can prove this document is forged my
04:30brain would
04:30just shut down until it went back down to it so um so that was um it happened for a
04:37while i don't
04:38know anything much of it and then i sort of got to the point where i worked it all out
04:42and um it's not
04:44like it's not a voice in my head but it's like you know that little cheeky kid was like um
04:50i guess
04:50we found our magic power and i was like oh that's like took me back to my childhood where i
04:54thought
04:54because i never i never used to think i was different i just felt like i had this special power
04:59you know you try and move things of your mind or talk to ghosts and obviously it didn't work but
05:04um and yeah it was really cool and then i and then i just thanked him i just said well
05:07you know well
05:08thanks for keeping it safe sort of thing and uh because i see things in pictures sort of see him
05:13walking off um thing but it's not like a psychotic thing it was just like a thing and then from
05:18there
05:19it was like this merge like this oh it's just like this deep it feels like a deep passion process
05:28because i couldn't process before like i had things i had things like systems thinking yeah i could do
05:34that anomaly protection yeah really really really good at that rules based logic yeah absolutely good
05:38at that because i never knew if i was going to be if i did something i was good or
05:42bad so what i did
05:43is i attached myself to rules that's why i never got in trouble with the law when most people go
05:48to
05:48drugs and all that sort of thing i just used the law and black and white jobs government jobs to
05:52to keep me safe but then i use that in my in my in the way i process things now
05:58as well
05:59so it was just this merge and i was like it's great then all of a sudden i could just
06:02like
06:04so what i did and i just because what my brain does because i'm really aware of it of how
06:10it works now
06:11but what it did is that i just got all the documents together from your tenancy
06:15and my and my brain won't look outside that data so it will only use the data for that
06:22and then i can just process it so i'm not making decisions about what because i didn't know what
06:28it was about anyway i just let the data and data's got the sort of rules within the data i
06:33just process
06:33it and it comes out with determination and then in the end i put together it was a six-year
06:37coercive
06:38control that is brilliant like i attached it all to evidence it was perfect and like you know the
06:42ledger was all mathematical you know who was trying to do progressive control uh the landlord
06:47and property manager she'd been done for forgery before as well we didn't know until the end but
06:52so this that's to come up in the course shortly for us but i mean it was it was brilliant
06:58the way
06:58i put it together i was like wow so i took it i took it to the police and they
07:03did exactly what got done
07:04here they looked at me and said that i wasn't capable but they never looked at my documents
07:10okay never looked at them so did you guys lose that tenancy and they gave you a document saying
07:16that you were no longer able to live there and it was through that document that you
07:21well no it was all from throughout the whole tenancy so i took all the text messages the emails
07:26everything put it together and i was able just to like pull the data together and work out what
07:31happened yeah it looked cool but then but then when the police there's something they just they just
07:35don't look at it they look at me system wouldn't let that happen property management did it you
07:41couldn't do it and then my brain just like i've never thought about this stuff before my life
07:46ever and so my brain just went straight for um the zodiac scientists like why am i here sort of
07:52thing like i don't know but then what did the zodiac scientists do with all this well my brain
07:58just went just just went it was almost like it was like well okay now how am i going to
08:02prove to
08:02everyone like how clever you are and i just sort of thing so i went there and then i realized
08:07that
08:07the zodiac ciphers are done in pattern recognition so the coder has used the one language i know
08:16um so i was able i'm able just to process the data and work out the rules like these
08:20like in my video it's all these rules and they can tell it's been coded um but then and then
08:27so i got
08:27through that which was uh which is cool but kind of scary at the same time and then um
08:35it went to cryptos i don't know nothing about cryptos it's a sculpture so it's got codes on it
08:43and so i went it's the same pattern it's exactly the same pattern recognition
08:47as a zodiac so i went through that and saw that
08:51and um i see the interesting thing both and they both sheet the same things where they both allow
08:56some panels and ciphers to be solved by normal ways but then no one's ever been able to solve the
09:01rest
09:01of it which is i don't know if i fully kind of followed what you're saying and i do um
09:07yeah well
09:08it's just that like my brain has got driven to that yeah so that like i wasn't i wasn't purposely
09:14going
09:15to it and then when i'm talking when i'm looking at cryptos or some wizard of oz comes in i'm
09:19like what
09:20the hell was it always got to do with this and then i worked out that was pattern recognition as
09:24well and they all they all connect together through different times and what do they indicate all of
09:28these things um well the thing the thing i find when i talk to people is because i uncover so
09:36much
09:36i've been a system thinking i've got i've literally got these three bits of history all in a row
09:41if i tell you people use that to dismiss what i've found but what i what i like to say
09:47to people is
09:49just look at just look at the steps at the start do you feel like anyone's after you're out to
09:53get
09:53you with them no no no absolutely no do you feel like you're going to solve any big cases or
09:58anything
09:59i mean i mean i'll i'll i'll literally um work through these ones yeah absolutely do they have
10:07real world consequences yeah they do but the thing is that people have to have to notice me to be
10:13able
10:14to i mean i can explain if someone's sat with me i can explain it i mean you understand it
10:17you were
10:18talking to the admitting clinician about um feeling like you were able to solve some sort of child abuse
10:27network or figure out what was happening yeah and i mean the thing is that that is actual reality
10:34like i know i know it's a big concept for for people to grasp but it is because the people
10:40who
10:40coded it and moved from one generation to another representing the same network what's your mood been
10:47like recently that's good i'm fine if you were to give your mood a rating out of 10 one being
10:52really
10:52low and 10 being good what do you think you'd give yourself a night yeah i'm i'm i'm always happy
10:57yeah i mean i have felt the best i've ever felt in this period the ability to process data the
11:04way i
11:04process it now is just it feels like who i who i who i should have been okay yeah i
11:10feel like myself
11:11how long has that been happening for now well since since that merge you know it happened
11:18yeah with the cheeky little kids that i've worked out with myself that yeah it all come together
11:23when did that happen uh must have been about september maybe october yeah it just it just gave me it's
11:33just a it's a new intelligence and it's really really good and have you been hearing anything sort
11:38of audibly when no one's around like voices no no i don't have any of that stuff and this this
11:44cheeky
11:44kid like could you audibly hear them or was it sort of like no it's hard to explain it's like
11:49it's just
11:50i don't know it's uh no it's not like it's not i'm not hearing voices it doesn't kind of work
11:56like that
11:57but yeah it was just kind of like a i guess more like a it's more like a feeling i
12:01guess i don't know
12:02it's hard to explain but yeah it was um it was interesting but yeah was that that is that after
12:07that it all changed it was like yeah so you're not noticing that cheeky kid anymore because he's
12:11merged with you is that correct yes he's gone now yeah um so gave gave me back what i lost
12:17and because
12:18i mean that's kind of how i feel because when i think back as a child i think there are
12:22times where
12:22i remember where i was like i am now like to be able to think in pre-session i know
12:27yeah any racing thoughts
12:30recently no no no my brain has become efficient so what it does is like if i have it like
12:36i'm doing
12:37these codes or something it just slowly grinds it's not it can be really fast but it can also just
12:43slightly grind away in the background and until until it tells me there's more data to add and then it
12:49just keeps breaking data down until it finishes it all have you been sleeping recently yeah i get i get
12:55at least 10 hours sleep a night okay except for last night because i didn't get my meds yeah you
12:59didn't sleep at all last night no i want i needed my meds what meds um my quetiaping okay the
13:07thing is
13:07the thing is for me is that like literally i am well and i've found the best i ever have
13:13um and the meds are working well and i've been i've been on those meds for like two years how
13:18much
13:18quetiaping you normally are uh two uh yeah like 50 milligrams i'm not too sure they are i just know
13:24two yeah but so yeah so so for me i'm i'm in the best i've ever been so when people
13:32start saying
13:33things about changing meds because if you think it's the meds well then before that merge i was on
13:38the same meds okay you know what you know me like it's it's it's been a cognitive shift that's been
13:45the
13:45thing and it's not a bad thing it's yeah have you been buying more things recently or doing things
13:51you wouldn't normally do dude i i don't i hardly ever buy anything anymore i don't yeah like before
13:57before i was diagnosed geez it was bad eh just anything that i mean i'd eat some i used to
14:03be like
14:03160 kgs or something but yeah like yeah no since since my diagnosis things have been really really good
14:09for me yeah um how long have you been on the liz-dex amphetamine for the advance oh five
14:18months i've been on that for two years okay yeah two years and you haven't had any changes in the
14:24dose of that recently no that's been there for quite some time here it all the other ones were just
14:31up and down up and down but that one was just perfect perfect yeah yeah what would happen with
14:35the other ones they're just um i find like the other ones they sort of go up and down up
14:41and
14:41down where vivance kind of like starts here and then slowly drops like that it's just a bit it's
14:46just better for me you know me and i also find the vivance if i need a little bit of
14:51extra like you
14:51know like i can add a little bit of caffeine to it and it kind of i can kind of
14:56get what i need for
14:57the day so the only medications you've been taking are that and the quetiapine yeah yeah okay you haven't
15:04been on any antidepressants recently no okay um you were under a spiridone in the past what was that
15:09one like for you spiridone i don't remember what when was that when you're under towards the house i
15:16believe oh that was ages so that was when that was before i knew i had adhd so i i
15:22had things happening
15:22but i didn't know what it was so i just i think i went there once and they put it
15:27under some kind
15:27of general psychosis thing so no one really knew what it was but like now i know what it would
15:33have
15:34been yeah if you know what i mean yeah okay yeah who diagnosed you with adhd um jason chang was
15:41it okay
15:42yeah yeah yeah and that was in private yeah i went private because i was really sick yeah like i
15:48wake up
15:49in the morning and my brain was shut down straight away okay yeah it was bad any other mental health
15:55diagnoses in the past no no um you know recently have you been having any thoughts about needing to
16:02protect yourself with weapons or anything like that not any thoughts about hurting anyone or anything
16:09no no no like um i used to be really angry before my meds and then like i'm just i'm
16:16hardly ever angry
16:16get frustrated sometimes though i get frustrated but i don't even feel like i used to yeah like my
16:22life has been good since like i was like like yeah just so good
16:32oh that's all right
16:36um any suicidal thinking no i don't want to kill myself at all no i look i feel like i
16:41have more to
16:42offer now you know yeah have you been picking up on things like from the radio tv they're giving you
16:49special messages no your kind of environment so that's all interesting for me so like i i've had
16:56this change where like i only taken data that i experienced so i you know i've lost interest with a
17:03lot of tv stuff in there but i did yeah like it's it's really different now like it doesn't none
17:08of that
17:09stuff yeah i just don't and unless it's data i experienced then well you know data on me like
17:16a document or something that's solid you know then that's pretty much what i do
17:22um it sounds like your mind's been really busy recently
17:26uh well not busy no i mean just the reason i have to spend so much time on it is
17:33because to get people
17:34like you to believe me i have to be like to to write through i'm not i don't think laterally
17:43so
17:43to to write it into steps or naturally is so painful and then i've got to make sure because
17:49i could do five pages if i get one little thing wrong that's it everyone it's all wrong you know
17:56i mean so the rules that apply to me to prove things are very high bar yeah so i've got
18:02it i've got
18:02because because it's and it's very difficult for me to not have no support services i've got to
18:07spend a lot of time trying to get it perfect yeah do you have any physical health problems that you
18:12see
18:12you've got good do you use um do you smoke cigarettes no don't do drugs don't drink alcohol since
18:19diagnosis i don't yeah um
18:25look i'm a bit worried about how busy your thoughts are at the moment but they're not that's the thing
18:30they're not busy like well how much is going on in your mind yeah no no i don't like there's
18:37no
18:37racing it doesn't doesn't work like that it's not it's not racing thoughts it's that it's just it's
18:43like a slow it's like it's like it's not really efficient it's just very slow and it just sort of
18:48yeah i don't i don't have it doesn't race well i'm a bit worried at the moment that
18:55um that you might be manic um well i mean the thing is look at my video
19:03watch the whole two two hours and you you'll see something is that on youtube
19:07oh yeah i've got it uh it's i've got a um a facebook group page that i put it on
19:13yeah but
19:14um but like if you because i went through it and i was like i do struggle talking there because
19:20i've got
19:20i've got to take these complex systems and pictures and trying but but i get there in the
19:25end with it but um yeah i think that that was i thought i did a good job of that
19:29because i sort
19:30of talked about my cognition and how things worked and how i put things together like you'll see
19:36my my ability to in pattern recognition to put things together like it's not it's not um i'm not
19:41making it up it's through the rules i know everything's getting really real for you at the moment
19:46not what i think no but no no no no yeah it is real yeah i want to make that
19:51point really clear
19:52like it like it is real and i and i have done it i'm not manic i'm not making it
19:56up i'm not being
19:56crazy i have an i have an ability to take a lot of data fragmented data and and put it
20:03together
20:04using visual cues have you been on olanzapine before what olanzapine no it's a medication that
20:11can help with sleep at night time i don't want it like i want to stick the thing is
20:16my position is i am well right and the medication i've been on for the last two years is has
20:23worked
20:23perfectly okay um so i don't want to change anything like if i was on well i'd be the first
20:29one to say yeah let's try this let's try something else but my whole life i've had to pretend to
20:35be
20:35someone else or if i came up with something that seemed a little bit weird i used to not say
20:40it
20:40because i couldn't because the way people were at where now i'm at a different stage in my life where
20:45i'm like well if it's true if it's true then i'm going to say it look i really think you
20:51need to take
20:52some of our medications at the moment and i'm not going to um i won't well it is because i've
21:01been
21:01the most well i've ever been on it because the thing is you're making an assessment not even looking
21:07at any of my stuff i mean you you're doubting me already aren't you you're doubting me already look
21:15i can see that you've got a lot going on at the moment and i think that medication is
21:20going to look no no i don't want to go around with this just like religious circles like i mean
21:24you did you doubt me at the moment don't you you don't do you believe that i broke those codes
21:30uh i can see that you really believe that no no i want to know you do you believe it
21:36look i think
21:38because because it sounds quite far-fetched if i'm going to be honest with you then you need to watch
21:42the
21:42video yeah because because what happens is then whatever you do from this point you apply through
21:47that lens don't you i think we need to give medications an opportunity um i'm not i'm not
21:54taking it like i'm telling you what i'm saying to you you've already said that you you doubt me um
22:00i
22:00think you need to look at what i put together um and i need to be on the medications where
22:07i was the most
22:08well yeah i mean i'm not being awkward it's just that like well i'm happy for you to take some
22:13quetiaphan that's fine um but i also think you need to be on olanzaphan no um we would much rather
22:21that you take your oral medications i'm not i'm i'm honest i'm
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