First assessment/review with Psychiatrist @ Hillmorton Hospital
Dr. Benjamin McBreen
My name is Nigel McFall. I have repeatedly asked mental health professionals at Hillmorton Hospital to look at my evidence – specifically, that I solved the codes. They refuse. They shut me down without even glancing at what I've done.
Instead, they take away my medication, call me delusional, and ask leading questions designed to make me say whatever fits their diagnosis. But I'm the only one making sense.
The truth is clear in every interview: I do not meet the legal requirements to be sectioned under the Mental Health Act.
This is not a story of madness. This is a story of a public mental health service that cannot tell the difference between high neurodivergent IQ and illness. When a mind works differently – faster, deeper, more pattern-driven – they label it as psychosis. When you present evidence they don't understand, they call it a delusion.
Their inability to recognise high intelligence, lateral thinking, and code-breaking as traits of neurodivergence – not madness – is a systemic failure. And it is causing real harm.
#SectionedUnlawfully
#PsychiatryFailsNeurodivergence
#LeadingQuestionsNotCare
#MHA1992FailedMe
#MentalHealthActNZ
#StopIgnoringEvidence
#MentalHealthReformNZ
#PatientsRightsMatter
#SecondOpinionNow
#AdvocacyOverSedation
#NoJusticeNoHealth
Dr. Benjamin McBreen
My name is Nigel McFall. I have repeatedly asked mental health professionals at Hillmorton Hospital to look at my evidence – specifically, that I solved the codes. They refuse. They shut me down without even glancing at what I've done.
Instead, they take away my medication, call me delusional, and ask leading questions designed to make me say whatever fits their diagnosis. But I'm the only one making sense.
The truth is clear in every interview: I do not meet the legal requirements to be sectioned under the Mental Health Act.
This is not a story of madness. This is a story of a public mental health service that cannot tell the difference between high neurodivergent IQ and illness. When a mind works differently – faster, deeper, more pattern-driven – they label it as psychosis. When you present evidence they don't understand, they call it a delusion.
Their inability to recognise high intelligence, lateral thinking, and code-breaking as traits of neurodivergence – not madness – is a systemic failure. And it is causing real harm.
#SectionedUnlawfully
#PsychiatryFailsNeurodivergence
#LeadingQuestionsNotCare
#MHA1992FailedMe
#MentalHealthActNZ
#StopIgnoringEvidence
#MentalHealthReformNZ
#PatientsRightsMatter
#SecondOpinionNow
#AdvocacyOverSedation
#NoJusticeNoHealth
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00:17Hey Nigel, are you okay if our trainee intern A&E sits in today, or would you rather not
00:24want to hear? So nice to see you again, Nigel, and nice to meet you. It might be helpful
00:36for us to go around and we'll just introduce ourselves, because I know there are a few
00:40people in the room. So yeah, I'm Ben, the psychiatrist. My name's Amy, I'm the trainee intern. A couple
00:51of the registrar, all of the other topics. I'm Nigel. I'm Megan, Nigel's wife. I'm Megan
00:59on social work on the world. So yeah, wanted to catch up today, Nigel, to find out how things
01:07have been going over the weekend. Terrible. What's been happening? Can't think. I just
01:15have to sedate myself all the time because I can't think. I've gone back to the stages
01:19before. I didn't have ADHD medication where I can't function. Okay. And look, I saw in
01:28the weekend, Nigel, that you ended up sending me an email. Yeah. How did you manage to get
01:35my email address? Well, it's public. Google. Oh, okay. I didn't realise it was hungry. Yeah.
01:41Okay. And there's also an email. Yeah, I know, too. So I just want to know what's
01:45plan. It's like the plan for him. Okay. His medication. Like, my wife's going through
01:49it. She knows what I do is real. It's not made up. Okay. Yeah. How has your mood been
01:58over the weekend, Nigel? Oh, she's been sleeping. I can't. As soon as my brain has stopped getting
02:03the medication. Mm-hmm. All it does is it doesn't allow me to process anything. Mm-hmm.
02:10And they'll just be angry and want anything else. Okay. So I've got one other option is
02:14just to sedate myself all the time. Okay. I mean, you've locked me up in here because
02:21you say I can't do one certain thing that I have proof that I can. Mm-hmm. What do you
02:25mean? Breaking those codes. Okay. Okay. Did you watch it? We'll talk about that in a
02:32second. Um, Nigel, with your mood at the moment, if you were to put it on a scale, one being
02:37really lonely would be good. One. One. Okay. I can't think. You know, if I don't
02:43have the ability to think. I can't watch TV. I can't listen to anything on my headphones
02:48anymore. I can't do anything. Mm-hmm. You've taken everything away from me. Look, I haven't
02:53seen that two-hour video that you sent me. So how do you make your decisions without
02:58seeing that? I guess I can't just click a random link that gets sent to me. Um, I'm
03:04happy if you show me whatever it is on your phone. Um, but just, yeah, I'm not comfortable
03:10to... I'll explain it on the video. Okay. Um, but look, talking to you the other day... You
03:15can't totally get me to a point where I can't think and expect me to tell you how it
03:19works. Okay. Nigel, when I saw you, um, on Friday, you were talking about
03:24breaking these codes. You were talking about the ability to crack, um, I think you were
03:29talking about the Zodiac and you were talking about the Wizard of Oz and a lot of other
03:33sort of things that I couldn't really see the connection between.
03:36My name's the right stuff. Mm-hmm. But if you looked at my work, you'd see it. Mm-hmm.
03:41No, this is the problem. No one wants to look at my work. Yeah. You've, you've, you've,
03:46you've put me in here, giving me drugs without even looking at, at the work that I've done.
03:49It improves it. Okay. Look. No one can be bothered looking at the work. Yeah, I, I, I'm happy
03:55to have a look at it. How long have I been here? How long have I been here? Um, you've
03:58been here since, like, Thursday of last week. Plenty of time for someone to look at it, isn't
04:02it? Oh, look, I'm happy to look at the videos. I guess... You said that last time as well,
04:06you can get it done. Yeah, but I, I'm not going to follow, sort of, a link that I've, um,
04:10been
04:11emailed that I'm not entirely sure what it is. On your laptop. You totally send it to you.
04:15If you've got your laptop, that, that's fine. I can have a look at it on that. I guess, you
04:19know, you were telling us all your ideas on Friday and they seemed very disjointed and
04:23disconnected. But they're not. Okay. Um, and, look, I, I suspect that the video is going to
04:29have very similar content in it, but, um, as I said, I'm more than happy to look at that. Have
04:34you been feeling like your thoughts have been racing in your mind? I can't think, there's
04:38nothing happening. You've shut, what you've done just shut me down with the medications
04:42you've, you've given me. If I said, instead of acknowledging my intelligence and seeing
04:46what I see, going down the other path of just shutting my brain down so I can't think
04:50of anything. Okay. Do you feel like you have any special powers or abilities at the moment?
04:56No, I've never, I've never said I have special powers or abilities. Or maybe that you're
05:00more, um, intelligent or gifted than other people. I don't have, I don't have a guess
05:06to be able to do what I do, yes. Um, and you're still feeling that you could solve all the
05:13kind of crime in society and... No, I've never said that. I never once said that.
05:17Okay. Uh, the reason I have said is because that is something that you've said, um, during
05:23the admission. No, it's not. I've never said that. It was Karen Watson? Well, she put
05:30it down on, all I've said, and I can break, I break these codes, here's the evidence, have
05:36a look at it. And no one looks at it. Okay. Um, joking people without looking at all, all, all
05:45the evidence is pretty, pretty sinister if you ask me. Okay. Um, and what's the sort
05:52of outcome of breaking these codes? What does it mean? I don't know what it means. Yeah.
05:57Okay. Well, what's, what's I guess the significance of it? I won't know till it gets to the end,
06:02if you like. Okay. It doesn't matter what I say, what you do, because what you try, everyone
06:08is doing, is they're trying to get me to say things to make me seem crazy when I'm not.
06:13I'm not that good. No, you are. I know, I can tell by the questions that you keep going
06:18around, that that's what your aim is. Okay. My business position is very simple. I break
06:24these codes, I've got proof, no one's ever looked at the proof. Okay. Now that, that's where
06:29we are at. It's, it's, I'm not the problem, you're the problem. Okay. But, but what do
06:34these codes kind of mean? Like, what's the significance of breaking them? Oh, I know till
06:39they're all done, all right. Okay. But, but what sort of things are the codes telling you?
06:44Codes don't tell you, data, the data, you, it's all data. Mm-hmm. And what's that data
06:51kind of saying? Well, whatever, I, I'm, you're asking me to tell you what it says, you, you won't
06:57get off your arse and actually read the documents that actually tell me what it does. Okay.
07:03Because what you're trying to do is you're trying to get me to say something to use against
07:06me to put another drug into me, another drug into me. That's all you're, all you're about
07:10is putting drugs into me rather than listening to me. And it's, and it's, it's part of what,
07:15one of the things of being here is that I, I must be listened to. Well, I haven't been
07:18listened to the whole time. Okay. Okay. Um, you told, um, the admitting clinician that you
07:25thought you would be able to solve the Zodiac, uh, killer, the crypto statue outside the
07:30CIA, um, the Wizard of Oz and that, all of those things were...
07:36They're all pattern recognition, yes. Pattern recognition, and they're all pointing to
07:39a global child abuse network? Well, they do. Okay.
07:44Um... But the thing is, like, once again, you look and go, oh, this, this, this can't
07:49happen, so you give me more drugs or whatever. It's all there. I've got all the evidence
07:54if you look at it. Okay. And you were comparing your, um, intelligence
08:00to that of Einstein when you saw him? No. So, what I'm saying is he was, he was
08:05neurodivergent as well. Okay. Okay, so why, so why, because no one ever gave two
08:10choices. No one ever thought, well, maybe Nigel's really intelligent, and that's why he can do it,
08:15or he's mentally unwell. Okay. Everyone looks straight to mentally unwell, when, when I'm not. Okay. Okay.
08:22You've had some contact with me to our services in the past?
08:26It was ages ago, before I knew I had ADHD. What was happening for you at that time?
08:31I don't know, that was a long time ago. Okay. You were having some kind of unusual
08:36experiences, as my understanding, maybe hearing some voices, seeing some things that were
08:40unusual, and you had at that time, periods of being removed was up a bit, but also
08:46I believe that you were around particularly being a superhero, as my understanding, or
08:50something along those lines. No, that's, they've been talking about my childhood,
08:54that sort of stuff. I never thought I was a superhero at that stage, or anything like that.
08:58It wasn't like that. All I had was night terrors.
09:02Have you been experiencing any voices when no one's been around?
09:05No, I don't hear, I don't hear anything wrong with me.
09:10And what's your sleep been like over the weekend?
09:13Well, I just get sedated. I get one of my sedations to go to sleep, because my brain
09:18can't handle it anymore. More sedations to go to sleep, that's my routine while I'm here.
09:22Because the pain in my brain from not having ADHD medications is extraordinary.
09:30And is that your ongoing thing? Is that you're just not going to give me ADHD medications?
09:33I'll talk about that in a second. I just wanted to ask...
09:35I feel like this is a punishment, eh?
09:38It's not a punishment at all.
09:39Well, it is. Because if it wasn't, people would actually look at what I had produced
09:42before they started doing everything else.
09:44Now, do I need to ask, are you having any suicidal thoughts at the moment?
09:47My mental health is going downhill fast, but yeah, it's getting tough now.
09:52Is it getting to the point where you're thinking of suicide plans?
09:56No, but there's not much more I'll be able to take.
09:59Yeah.
10:01Because all the drugs you've given me are shutting my brain down faster and faster and faster and faster.
10:06Yeah.
10:07That's why, you know, I got diagnosed with ADHD. That's why I've got ADHD pills.
10:10That's why when I got them, finally I felt like I could exist.
10:15You've taken away everything from me that made me feel like a person.
10:19I'm sorry that you're getting that way at the moment, eh Nigel?
10:22Well, you're not sorry because you don't care.
10:24Um, Nigel, are you having any thoughts about, I mean, protect yourself?
10:28Thoughts about hurting anyone or anything like that?
10:30No, no.
10:32Look, in regards to ADHD medications, and I know that's something that you're wondering about as well, Megan.
10:39So look, I have had a look at the ADHD assessment that you had in 2022 by Amy Wang.
10:47Okay.
10:48Um, and looking at that, look, um, I agree, it certainly sounds like you've got ADHD.
10:54Um, I guess that...
10:57No, I do have ADHD.
10:59Yep, so that's what it looks like with this psychology assessment.
11:03I guess the thing is, is that we're concerned that, um, that you've been manic recently.
11:10It's not that...
11:10If what I'm saying is correct, how is that manic?
11:14Look, we do have some concerns that you're making maybe some connections between things that aren't connected.
11:22You're saying that.
11:23Have you seen...
11:24Have you seen the work?
11:25I'm happy to watch it.
11:26No, no.
11:26I haven't seen it.
11:27You're saying...
11:28So you're saying that now, without seeing any of my work, correct?
11:31That's why I'm saying I'm concerned.
11:32So how can, how can you make that connection?
11:35What's the concern that I have?
11:37You haven't seen...
11:38Yes, if you haven't seen the work.
11:39Yeah, I haven't seen it, but I'm still concerned about it.
11:42But, and I'm happy to watch it, as I said.
11:44Um, but our concerns based on your presentation, what we're seeing is that your mood's been,
11:52uh, irritable, or on the elevated side.
11:55My mind is reaching out for dopamine in any way it can.
11:59Okay.
12:00Yeah.
12:00I'll get hyper sometimes, because it needs dopamine, or I might get animated.
12:05Except at the moment, my brain is just, it's stretching down.
12:09It's closing down.
12:10It's the most painful thing you can ever imagine.
12:13There are concerns about you making these connections, and let's not go into that again.
12:18Um, but we, I will have a look at the...
12:20It doesn't matter what drug you give me, I'll still say the same thing, because it's true.
12:24We, we have some concerns, um, about, um, a degree of what we call grandiosity, or this,
12:32you know, belief that you're extremely intelligent.
12:33And we're not saying that you're not, but, but look, that's something that, I'm not sure
12:38if that's out of character for you.
12:40I mean, he's always been really clever.
12:42Yeah.
12:42He's very good at solving things he's doing.
12:45He's always been able to cover himself.
12:46Yeah, and when I, when I set you down, when I set you down and showed you what I was
12:48doing,
12:48you understood it.
12:49A lot of it connected.
12:49Yeah.
12:50Yeah, it did.
12:52There's no, at this moment, I'm going to set it down.
12:53I do understand it better when you look at it.
12:55Yeah.
12:56He doesn't explain himself very well.
12:58I guess, you know, with our concerns about this, about possible mania, it does mean that
13:03stimulant treatments are contraindicated.
13:06Okay.
13:07But if I'm right, if I'm right, then what you're doing is terrible, isn't it?
13:14Look, that's why we have an assessment period with the Mental Health Act.
13:18So you're under the...
13:19Not once has anyone looked at my evidence.
13:22Okay.
13:22Hey, um, I just, I guess I'm not understanding it because, well, he's a, before we came here,
13:29he was normal, like, he's been fine.
13:32He just does coding.
13:34I mean, he's always done it.
13:35He just needs...
13:37I think...
13:38No, I can't explain it.
13:39I just want to...
13:40I...
13:41My opinion, the Vyvanse and the Quintiopine together was a dose that he was on working
13:46night shift.
13:47I think maybe that it is higher now for when you're not on night shift.
13:50I don't think so.
13:51Well, no, you don't.
13:52I mean, I think Vyvanse...
13:54Those two drugs...
13:55Oh, they work for you.
13:56I've been on them for...
13:58Years.
13:59Two years, right?
14:00Mm-hmm.
14:01The shift only happened in the cognitive shift, so it's not the medication.
14:04It's the cognitive shift that might...
14:06He still functions.
14:07He showers, he eats, he plays with the kids.
14:09He still does all that.
14:10Mm-hmm.
14:10He's not different.
14:11He's just doing something that he's never done before.
14:14Well, are you okay if I just ask a bit about, sort of, what you've noticed over the last
14:17little while, and I guess what concerns you had, sort of, in the leader?
14:20Yeah.
14:20My main concern was just the amount of time he spent doing that.
14:22I don't care if he does it.
14:23He enjoys doing that sort of stuff.
14:25Great.
14:25Do it.
14:26Yeah.
14:26So, how much time was Nigel spending?
14:28I don't know.
14:29Just most of the day, but he's still got up in my dorms, and he doesn't do it for a
14:34whole
14:34constant day, but...
14:41Yeah, but he's always done that.
14:42Like, when he was gaming, he always spent hours doing it.
14:45Mm-hmm.
14:45It's just the way he'd find...
14:46Because he can't focus on anything more than nothing at once, and it's always been
14:51the way.
14:51Okay.
14:52And that's just the way his brain works.
14:54Okay.
14:55Well, before I came in here, I was feeling the best that you've ever had in my life.
14:59Mm-hmm.
15:00And that's another concern, hey, because we know that when people are manic, they often
15:04do feel the best of their themselves.
15:05Where does the manic come from?
15:06Yeah.
15:06I know she said she saw him shaking, but he shakes like that when he gets sick.
15:09Like, when he gets nervous, or in any situation, he shakes when he's trying to get his point
15:16across and not being hurt, kind of thing.
15:18I never get hurt.
15:19No, because no one ever, ever looks at my work.
15:21They look at me.
15:22And a lot of the stuff I do think stems from your childhood as well.
15:24You were never hurt as a child, and you were never...
15:26I've never been there.
15:27...listened to.
15:28Mm-hmm.
15:28So I think a lot of it, I think you'd benefit from counselling.
15:31Mm-hmm.
15:31Okay.
15:32Do you feel like there's a reality basis to a lot of the concerns that Nigel has at the
15:36moment?
15:37Mm-hmm.
15:38What do you mean by reality basis?
15:39Like, do you believe that it's based in reality, these concerns about the Wizard of
15:43Oz, about...
15:44I think I didn't at first, but when he showed me his work, a lot of it does click.
15:50Yeah.
15:50It kind of does.
15:51I'm not saying whether it's true or not, I don't know.
15:54It all links.
15:56If someone's spent time with me, I could show them how it all links.
15:58But I mean, he's not doing any harm by doing it, so that's what I'm...
16:01I mean, there's little things in there where I can get two paragraphs of one of his
16:05books, put it together.
16:07You can see that.
16:08You know, take out punctuation, blackouts, squares, and you see images.
16:12I don't know if that's wrong or true or not.
16:13I mean, it's because all three of them, all three of them use pattern recognition.
16:17The reason he hasn't been able to solve Zodiac, and the reason why no one's been able to
16:21solve Kryptos for so long, is because you need a pattern recognition monitor to find
16:26it.
16:27And he, you know, he does that sort of stuff.
16:29He always has.
16:29I'm being punished.
16:30I'm being punished for having an ability.
16:31That's something Angel was doing.
16:33So, in terms of there's sort of, you know, being no concerns about no disability to function
16:37at the moment.
16:39So, how have things been going, I guess, like financially?
16:42Oh, they were fine.
16:43I mean, the business has fallen down, but he's still looking for work and he's doing that
16:47sort of stuff.
16:47And you've been able to sort of apply for jobs, go to job interviews.
16:51Yeah, I was doing all that, but now I can't even think.
16:57I don't understand this place, though.
16:59Well, it just sounds like you've been very preoccupied by these connections that you've
17:04made and are using up most of your day.
17:06I think it's mainly because he feels like he's not being heard.
17:09Yeah, that's exactly right.
17:10So, you feel that if someone had a look at…
17:12He's always said to me, if someone just took it and dealt with it, he'd let it
17:16come.
17:16So, you feel that if we have a look at what Nigel was talking about, it's no longer going
17:22to preoccupy his mind.
17:23I don't know, but it's that.
17:24I don't know how it feels.
17:24Well, yeah, because it's that stage where I want to be able to show authorities parts
17:29of it.
17:30I want to be able to…
17:31You know what I mean?
17:32Like…
17:32So, if I have a look at it and say, well, I actually don't think that these things
17:36are connected, then I think that's your mind banter, it's on you that you'll be
17:40convinced by that.
17:41Yeah, I think if you watched the first two and a half hour video…
17:44Yeah, I guess you won't be able to spend two and a half hours watching…
17:47Well, see, that's the thing.
17:48You'd rather load any old drug into me rather than actually look at the evidence.
17:54It's just what you're saying, I mean, it sounds very consistent with what we would
17:57see in someone who is mentally feeling really good.
18:02You're describing what we would say is grandiosity, and you're making what we would say referential
18:10connections between…
18:11And maybe he's just confident in his brain.
18:12Well, yeah, because I just thought it did, but it comes out with the answer.
18:18Yeah, I don't know if it's true or false or not, but…
18:21I mean, it's not hurting anyone by them doing it.
18:24Yeah, well, just with that, I'm really confused to be honest, as to, you know, why…
18:36As to, you know, you went to your GP, and they were concerned about you weren't there?
18:41No.
18:42Before coming into the hospital, that you were making these connections, no?
18:46Or, you were concerned about…
18:48I was concerned about the time you spent on it.
18:50Yeah.
18:50Yeah.
18:51And what was concerning you about that?
18:54Just the time he spent on it.
18:56I'd rather he be in the lounge with me doing stuff rather than sitting on the computer.
19:00But he's always sat on the computer, and I've always complained about it, haven't I?
19:05He's always done that, whether it be work, when he was working, he was doing paperwork
19:09and stuff, he'd sit there for quite a long time and do it, but that's just…
19:12He was into gaming at one point, you know, it's just…
19:15So you were concerned about the amount of time he was spending on this, but I guess you
19:19were saying that the dexamphetamine and protiopine was a good combination…
19:24I didn't think they were a good combination.
19:26At one point I thought that… I didn't think they were together.
19:31I think…
19:32The medications have been consistent for the last two years.
19:36The violence is good.
19:36The violence is good.
19:37But I think with the protiopine…
19:39But I mean, it can mean something to sleep.
19:41The last two years, I've been on that.
19:44No issues.
19:44I think it's a huge dose, though.
19:46What was happening with sleep before coming into a hospital?
19:49Well, he was getting better, but I mean, he's a night shift worker and he always has
19:52things, so it's been hard to get his sleep back into the hospital, you know.
19:54What was happening with his sleep?
19:57He was getting a good…
19:59I've always got a 10-hour sleep.
20:00Some nights.
20:01Some nights you just sit up on the computer.
20:03Maybe a couple.
20:03But I mean, that's just, as I say, you've been a night shift worker for 11 years.
20:07I just need to be saying, I need someone to see what I've done, rather than feed me
20:13up with drugs.
20:15And it's like you said, you know, you haven't got time to watch it.
20:18Well, you're not doing the job properly if you're actually looking at what I'm saying.
20:28No.
20:32No.
20:34No.
20:35It is important and something that I think we need to do.
20:37I'm just going to…
20:37I'll stay here.
20:39Well, we'll either have that chat here on the ward or we'll have to go off the ward
20:42to have that chat, so it's up to you whether…
20:45Okay.
20:46It's important that we have that because we want…
20:47No.
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20:49You haven't listened to me throughout this whole conversation.
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21:47No one will listen to me.
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22:13No.
22:14No.
22:16No.
22:18No.
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