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00:02Anything they started off fighting about, he can bring it back to that.
00:05I mean, this time, it's about how my mom never puts gas in the car,
00:08and he always has to do it when he's already late.
00:10Now, and somehow he brings it back to how my school wants me to apply
00:12to all these private out-of-state D1 colleges for lacrosse,
00:15and it makes him look like the bad guy, because he can't afford any of them.
00:18Shane, I mean, your dad is the Kevin Garnett of talking shit about Bridgefield,
00:23you know, and also there's such a thing as lacrosse scholarships.
00:26The Ivy's don't have athletic scholarships, and nowhere else is going to be a four-ride.
00:29Whatever. I mean, talking about why all these schools are no-go also pisses them off.
00:33You're so lucky.
00:34Yeah, I know you think so.
00:36I'm not even talking about being able to afford Stanford.
00:38Being able to afford to buy Stanford and rename it after yourself.
00:42St. Ledger University.
00:43Hey, shut up. Shut up, dude, please.
00:45I'm talking about not having to listen to your parents screaming at each other
00:48every five minutes over something you can't change, and neither can they.
00:52Well, I mean, to want to argue about shit, you kind of got to care about it.
00:56No, it's not that difficult.
00:57Well, I mean, any time mine won't stop caring so much, that would be great.
01:01But they won't, because they can't live unless they're up my ass.
01:03My sister can't either.
01:04I mean, Shiloh moved to fucking Pawtucket.
01:06She's still trying to be my boss.
01:07All right.
01:09What I would give...
01:09Here we go.
01:10...to you for one day.
01:12Just one, just to try it, just to see.
01:13Not even for the money, just for the, like, silence.
01:22I think I might have told Paul who we'd be here.
01:25Whatever.
01:25He's not a bad guy if you give him a chance.
01:27No, you say that every single time.
01:29He's just insecure.
01:30I promise, if you hang in there, eventually he starts being such a dick.
01:34Prove it.
01:35What does that even mean?
01:36What's up, fuckheads?
01:40You gonna be okay?
01:41What's up?
01:42What's up, because I fucking ran here.
01:44You're kidding, from Bridgefield?
01:45Yeah, that's right, shithead.
01:46Wow.
01:47I know coach said you need to do more cardio, but damn.
01:53You guys are so into this place.
01:55I think it was cool for, like, you know, five minutes in middle school.
01:59Jesus.
02:00And don't you literally have, like, a massive house with a fucking helipad?
02:05There's no helipad.
02:06Why would anybody want to hang out here instead of there?
02:09Your dad have, like, no peasant rule or something?
02:12Oh, because I'm a peasant, right?
02:13A scholarship peasant?
02:14Yeah, I've been in there.
02:15Has your dad even lived in that house before?
02:18Like, even when you were a baby?
02:20Because my dad says your dad hasn't been back to Narragansett since, like, the 90s.
02:24How would your dad even know that?
02:25Well, he's in global finance too, dude.
02:27People talk to each other.
02:29Network.
02:30Who cares?
02:30All these houses are fucking freezing and none of the furniture is comfortable, okay?
02:36What the?
02:37Are you fucking kidding me?
02:38There's mosquitoes now?
02:39Come on.
02:40Is your mom in town?
02:41Is that why we can't go to your house?
02:43What's your fucking deal, dude?
02:44Uh, it's buggy and clammy here and it doesn't not smell like pee.
02:47You have a house too, dipshit?
02:49Yeah.
02:49Well, they're selling it.
02:52Because the whole divorce is my dad punishing my mom for getting mad at him for cheating.
02:57So.
02:59That's hard.
03:01I'm really sorry.
03:04Thanks.
03:07How is your mom doing?
03:08Shittily.
03:09Why?
03:10It just sucks, that's all.
03:13Makes total sense why she'd be having a tough time with everything.
03:16Yeah.
03:17Makes total sense your mom would be running her mouth again about someone she barely fucking knows.
03:22Fuck you, she knows it.
03:23Yeah, from sidelines and sport banquets, but not really.
03:26What are you even talking about?
03:27You just seem like you know something, Shane, so you tell me.
03:29Your mom's the one saying shit she heard from somebody who heard it from somebody like it's fucking real.
03:33She saw it in the paper.
03:34Who reads the local news?
03:35No one.
03:37When MPD arrests someone, it's always in the local police blotter.
03:39I'm not saying it should be, but...
03:41She didn't think she was going to need a basket, and then she had too many things in her hands,
03:44so she was going to go get one.
03:46I mean, she didn't even leave the fucking store, and now everybody thinks she's a fucking thief.
03:55You know what?
03:56I'm sorry.
03:58Yeah, I'm sorry, too.
03:59Yeah.
04:00I'm sorry your mom's a bitch who won't shut the fuck up.
04:05Man, what'd you fuck up, Rob?
04:07Fuck.
04:10Hey, guys!
04:12Guys!
04:13Fuck you!
04:15Take a sec!
04:16Take a sec!
04:18Chill us!
04:20Chill us!
04:22Who are you to wave your finger?
04:25You must've let out your head.
04:30I hold deep in muddy waters.
04:34You're proud to be raised by.
04:36Stop!
04:44K.
04:51You must've been...
04:58...
04:59You must've been...
05:05...
05:07Let's go!
05:58If I say it's self-defense...
06:00If I just tell them that it's self-defense...
06:01It doesn't work like that!
06:02They're gonna say it's self-defense!
06:04It doesn't work like that!
06:06Because it was you that did it!
06:07You weren't defending yourself!
06:11Look...
06:12We didn't go to the Narrows today after school, alright?
06:14And we didn't know Paul was gonna be there.
06:16He didn't ask me to hang out after practice,
06:18and he wouldn't have asked you anything,
06:19because you're not even fucking friends.
06:23I had to go home and babysit my sister anyway.
06:26So you gave me a ride, and then you what?
06:31Say it!
06:32I...
06:35I went home...
06:38And I studied for chem...
06:40until I got a headache,
06:42and then I...
06:43and then I went to bed.
06:52What about...
06:52What about your, um...
06:56Well, I...
06:57I wiped out during scoring drills, and...
06:59someone must have stepped on me.
07:03I'm sorry.
07:06I'm sorry.
07:09I know you were just trying to help me.
07:13Receive me.
07:15You're probably dead.
07:19Thanks.
07:46What are you doing?
07:48Nothing.
07:49Nothing.
07:52Where were you?
07:55Those are dirty.
07:57Yeah, whatever.
07:58Why are you wet?
07:59Took a shower.
08:00When?
08:01Just now.
08:02When I thought I heard something outside.
08:05What did you do to your face?
08:06Nothing.
08:07You look like you...
08:08No, I don't!
08:08Megan!
08:15Like, I followed that practice.
08:17Alright?
08:17Then I came home, and I took a shower,
08:19and I'm back in here.
08:20With you.
08:20Like I have been this whole time.
08:24Are you okay?
08:28Yeah, I'm fine.
08:31I'm hungry.
08:33You wanna make stove top swoosh?
09:19Yeah, you just did it.
09:54Hey, Oliver. I don't have him, but I maybe might this weekend.
09:58It has to be now.
10:01I'm sorry. It's really boring.
10:06I hope you think so.
10:15Hello? Can anyone hear us?
10:17We're at Shinnekenji. If you're wrong, get off.
10:20So what's so cloak and dagger?
10:22I killed someone.
10:24What?
10:26Who?
10:31Paul.
10:33Paul Swarling.
10:36You're sure he's dead?
10:45Yeah. We were at the Narrows.
10:50Oh, it's we.
10:53Me, Shane, Martin, and Paul.
10:56Who else?
10:57It was just us.
10:59Okay. Stop talking. I need to think.
11:12Hold on. I'm Detective Sheehan.
11:15My lieutenant's just getting off the call, but we can start...
11:17This is being recorded, Jerry.
11:19I'm not a custodial interrogation, so I want to make some notes, but first things first.
11:25Your lawyer here, Mr. Sykes, he filled me in a little bit on what happened.
11:29But obviously, I want to hear from you.
11:31Can you tell me about it?
11:33Just start wherever you're comfortable.
11:35If I have any questions, I'll ask.
11:40Yeah, I was, um, I was home.
11:45And I'd been studying all night because I had a midterm coming up, and I didn't really understand the material.
11:51But I, uh, I forgot to eat.
11:54So, uh, after a little while, I got a headache.
11:57And, um, I set an alarm for early so I can, uh, wake up and do some more in the
12:04morning.
12:04But then I, uh, I woke up, um, because someone was, um, was, uh, wasn't to be let in.
12:14And who was that?
12:16Um, that was, uh, Shane.
12:20Shane Morgan.
12:22Shane Morgan, okay.
12:24And this was what time?
12:27This was around midnight.
12:31Last chance.
12:32No idea.
12:33You have no idea?
12:35No.
12:36You can't think of a single thing happening they might want to talk to you about?
12:39Right, and I don't buy it.
12:40That's why I keep asking, because I want to have some idea of what kind of buzzsaw we're about to
12:44walk into.
12:45You knock out some more streetlights or steal some shit.
12:47Your buddies think it's nothing, but to regular people means real money.
12:50God, like you and your friends never gotten into anything stupid before.
12:53Except, you know what, no one at your school ever got into an Ivy League college.
12:56Probably doesn't even know what my head is.
12:57Oh, shh.
12:59So Shane's going to the Ivy League now.
13:01Wow, really?
13:02Well, when were you guys going to tell me that?
13:04After we talked to the cops, I guess?
13:05Could you have a little faith in your son, please?
13:07Could we just...
13:08Because I have no faith in my son, right?
13:09He's a good kid.
13:10So you're on with that whole narrative again that I have no faith in my son?
13:13He could have a better future.
13:21Hey, great to see you.
13:24Fabulous.
13:26Listen, I wanted to tell your father and sick.
13:28I wanted to tell you.
13:29I wanted to tell you.
13:29I wanted to tell you.
13:31I wanted to tell you.
13:34Stop!
13:35Stop!
13:35Hey!
13:37Hey!
13:37Hey!
13:37Hey!
13:38Hey!
13:38Hey!
13:38Hey!
13:40Now stop it!
13:41Hold on!
13:42Stop, stop, come on!
13:43It's wiederum.
13:44Stop it.
13:45Get outtajä!
13:46Yeah, there we go!
13:47Let's just wait to the Серг shoe.
13:47Yeah, if I can start...
13:52Okay.
13:53accessible!
14:00Hey!
14:02Hey, man.
14:03Hey, man!
14:04Hey!
14:10Oh, my God.
14:35Oh, my God.
15:17Oh, my God.
15:32Are you all right?
15:33Hey, Oliver, can you open the door?
15:35Where's my, where's my, we can need to call 911, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, I
15:44still think we should at least go to urgent care.
15:45I feel way better now.
15:48I really do.
15:51Snow, an hour ago, you were passing out in your car.
15:57Here, take two, or maybe four.
16:04Why do you just have these?
16:05Dog bite.
16:07You know, the stop and shop parking lot?
16:09Yeah.
16:10Apparently, different tail waggings have different meanings.
16:12I thought a dog wagging its tail always means friendly.
16:15It does not.
16:17Yeah, I thought that, too.
16:19Yeah, well, now we both know better.
16:30Hey, what about your mom?
16:32What if we called her?
16:33No, I think it's, uh, I think it's 12 hours ahead there.
16:35Well, still wouldn't be past 11 p.m.
16:37I don't think that there's reception.
16:38There's going to be reception at a resort.
16:40Uh, she's off the coast.
16:41It's, it's her friend's boat.
16:43Um, and the school knows.
16:45She told them.
16:46I'm going to have to mark you an excused absence.
16:48I'll say, I saw you and I sent you homesick.
16:51That's not even a lie.
16:55And I'll leave you the amoxicillin.
16:57Take a couple more nights.
16:59Look, I know.
17:03You're good friends with Shane and Paul.
17:05I know you're having a hard time right now.
17:08I wish you weren't having it alone.
17:10Go easy on yourself, okay?
17:13Understand that something terrible has happened to you, too.
17:20Try to give yourself a little grace.
17:28Oh, wait, uh, please, wait.
17:36And you're what again?
17:37Uh, guidance counselor?
17:39School counselor.
17:40What kind of background is a school counselor supposed to have in this kind of thing?
17:43Well, I'm actually a licensed independent clinical social worker.
17:48But I'm working towards getting licensed in Rhode Island as a clinical mental health counselor.
17:53And what makes you think my son needs your help?
17:57I'm not saying it has to be me.
18:03But, from the amount of detail Oliver gave me about his present headspace and what led to it,
18:10he's going to need therapy from someone.
18:13And what amount of detail would that be exactly?
18:17Clinically.
18:22It's enough to know what really happened.
18:29Every time I think there's nothing left that can surprise me,
18:33I'll put you in touch with my personal accountant.
18:45Tom?
18:47Yeah.
18:52Do you want tea?
18:55No.
19:03I understand.
19:05This may be weird at first.
19:10It's okay.
19:11You do this, too.
19:12You know, you see people outside of school.
19:15My real life goal was always this.
19:19So, I'm your first patient?
19:22Yeah.
19:23Kind of are.
19:27Don't you have to be able to come clean?
19:32Tell the truth, you know?
19:35Be honest.
19:37What are you saying you haven't been honest with me?
19:41You didn't tell me the truth?
19:44Of course I have.
19:45Yes, I did.
19:47Okay, then.
19:49It's going to work.
19:51Hey, it's already working.
19:53What?
19:53What?
19:59Hmm?
19:59Hmm.
20:10Hmm.
20:14Hmm.
20:16Hmm.
20:16Hmm.
20:17Hmm.
20:18Hmm.
20:46Shiloh, you want to meet us at the crib?
20:48No, I can't. Do a shooter for me.
20:54Hello?
20:55Hey, McGaggy.
20:56Hi, Shai.
20:58Hello?
20:59It's not Shane, Mom.
21:01Don't tie up the phone.
21:04She just talked to him yesterday, didn't she? They're not going to let him call her again today.
21:07I don't. She knows what day it is.
21:10When are you coming home?
21:1220 minutes. I'm leaving work right now.
21:15Do us all a favor and stay out of her way, okay?
21:18Okay.
21:23You're packed. You travel Tuesday, right?
21:28Boy, orientation's probably going to be pretty hectic.
21:31A lot of new people, new living situation.
21:39What? What are you thinking right now?
21:44That you were right.
21:46That I might not be ready right now to go to Stanford.
21:55that I can't.
21:58Have you talked about any of this with your dad?
22:05No.
22:09Well, you need to, Oli.
22:14Call him.
22:17And tell him.
22:19I can't.
22:21I can't.
22:22You want me to do it?
22:25Please, yes.
22:27Okay.
22:31Oliver St.
22:32Ledger, he dropped my brother off at our house in his car.
22:35Are you aware Mr. St. Ledger says he did not see your brother after school until Shane came to his
22:39house after midnight?
22:41Yes, I am, but it's not true.
22:43What the hell are you doing?
22:44Are you, are you playing at trial or something?
22:47Is it, is it supposed to be funny?
22:49No.
22:49Because it isn't.
22:51I know.
22:52I did see him.
22:54Shane didn't come right home after practice.
22:56He didn't come home till later.
22:58And when he did, I saw him.
23:01I saw him getting out of Oliver's car.
23:03I can't believe you're doing this right now.
23:04I cannot believe you can't see how wrong it is for you to do this right now.
23:09It's not like that.
23:10It's really true.
23:11It's never like that, right?
23:14Like, like when your teacher kicked you.
23:16Like when the woman in the stop and shop tried to kidnap you.
23:18It's never about you wanting attention.
23:20It's always true.
23:21The jury is deciding right now, Megan.
23:24Remember?
23:26They're all sitting in a room talking about whether they're going to send your brother to prison for life.
23:35Now, I'm sorry that we are all so terrified of that,
23:38that we can't put our attention on you.
23:40I'm sorry that this is the worst fucking thing that's ever happened in the world,
23:43and you still have to make it about you.
23:57The people of the state of Rhode Island versus Shane Martin.
24:01Verdict, count one, voluntary manslaughter.
24:04We, the jury, find the defendant guilty.
24:21Six minutes, eleven seconds, actually.
24:26Pretty good for my age, huh?
24:28Anybody's age.
24:31Where were you, last time you were in the pool?
24:34I'm 3.17.
24:36The fuck?
24:37You're going backwards now.
24:39Are you even practicing?
24:43I'm not really sleeping lately.
24:50Since the verdict.
24:53I get it.
24:55All the more reason to stay disciplined.
24:57Here's the thing.
24:59Practice.
25:00You have to do it every day.
25:02You're staying on it, mate.
25:03Rule your capacity.
25:04Your number broke.
25:06That's like anything.
25:08Just keep at it.
25:09Let me know.
25:18Sometimes I just feel like I have to call Shane.
25:21But that's stupid because you can't call.
25:23No, you can't call.
25:26I tried to go see him.
25:29To be put on his visitors list or whatever.
25:36When, um...
25:37When did you do this?
25:39I don't know.
25:39A month ago.
25:42They said he said no.
25:44Oh, well.
25:47That's understandable too, though, right?
25:52If he said yes, what, uh...
25:55So I tried to write it in a letter.
26:01I am disappointed.
26:02He didn't feel like this was something you could talk over with me first.
26:06It felt like I could start with this.
26:13Uh, but then I felt like if I send it, is he even gonna open it?
26:23And if he doesn't open it, then maybe sending it at all is still the point.
26:29I don't...
26:30I don't know.
26:31Okay.
26:32Okay, what about this?
26:34Shane knows me from school.
26:37What if I asked to be put on his visitors list?
26:41You know, I don't say why.
26:44But I take that with me.
26:46And I read it.
26:49Out loud.
26:50And whatever happens next, it's up to him.
27:02I'm just sorry I couldn't make myself do it before.
27:06And I know it won't make me a good person to do the right thing now, but still.
27:12I'm gonna fix everything.
27:16I promise.
27:23You look a little...
27:24Yeah.
27:25The food's pretty bad here.
27:26Yeah.
27:26They save it at weird times, whatever.
27:30I don't know why I didn't think you'd actually come.
27:32I don't know why it took me so long to ask.
27:34Well, I mean, we didn't ever talk all that much in school, so...
27:37Oof.
27:38I'm sorry.
27:39I'm not saying that for, like, blame.
27:40No, I know you're not.
27:41It just doesn't reflect very well on me, though.
27:46So, can I ask how you are?
27:52I'm so sorry about all of this.
27:54It's just...
27:56It's really terrible.
27:57Yeah.
27:59That's pretty terrible.
28:00Yeah.
28:03In full disclosure, and I know I should have said this up front when I first asked to come see
28:08you...
28:08Are you gonna try and write a book or something?
28:10Oh.
28:12Uh...
28:12No.
28:15I'm working with Oliver.
28:20Working with him how?
28:22Just counseling him as his therapist.
28:27So you're with him, then?
28:29Yeah, I wouldn't let him in, so he sent you?
28:31No.
28:34Although, obviously, that's a very logical first question to ask.
28:37What does he need therapy for?
28:38Huh?
28:39Does he feel bad for what he did?
28:41Actually, yeah, he does.
28:42Which part?
28:44Killing Paul?
28:45Or killing me?
28:48I understand.
28:49It must feel...
28:51Unbelievable.
28:52What must?
28:53I don't know.
28:55How the world...
28:57Just...
28:57Still turning.
29:00Like you were never even in it.
29:04Like all I am...
29:05Is this thing I didn't do, you mean?
29:08All because I was stupid and tried to help my friend?
29:12Do you guys talk about that?
29:14In your little fucking therapy sessions?
29:16What he did to me for trying to help him?
29:19Because if anything else, you're just another person getting paid to listen to him lie.
29:26Shane...
29:26It doesn't matter what Oliver's told me.
29:29My job isn't to judge what the truth is.
29:32And I wouldn't be in charge of anything, even if it was.
29:36It's more that his pain has made me think about yours.
29:41And how...
29:42I just...
29:42I can't imagine what you're going through.
29:44Or the strength I know you'll need to find.
29:47For what?
29:49I have strength.
29:50I know you do.
29:51See, I remember that about you.
29:53Like you said, we didn't talk much, but still I could tell.
29:55Yeah, character.
29:57Your integrity that...
29:58Those things matter to you.
30:05Just...
30:08Before I came to Bridgefield, I was a social worker.
30:11This was in Connecticut.
30:12And a lot of my clients were in your situation.
30:16With public defenders who were no match for white shoes.
30:19And?
30:20One of my clients.
30:22Dawn.
30:24Her husband was doing 15 to life in McDougal.
30:28Dave had a carpet laying business with his cousin.
30:31And the cousin had a shady side thing where a guy ended up getting killed over money.
30:35And the cousin took a plea saying it was all Dave.
30:40And Dave just thought, if he didn't do it, that would prevail.
30:48He did know how to stop his frustration and rage from getting him into situations that just added more years
30:53to his sentence.
30:55Or how to live.
30:56Knowing he was only in prison in the first place off a lie from someone he trusted.
31:03And compared to you, he was lucky.
31:08He wasn't up against people with enough money to make the world exactly the way they want it.
31:18So what happened to Dave?
31:21Was he still in prison?
31:25No.
31:27When did he get parole?
31:32He did.
31:34I'm not going to go into details, if it's okay, just out of respect.
31:39I'm just never, never going to forget that phone call.
31:47There was one tiny silver lining.
31:49Craziest, that is to say.
31:51Dave's family didn't think so, but I know Dave would have.
31:55There's something called the doctrine of abatement.
31:58Look, if you're convicted at trial, even for murder, and you die in prison before all your appeals are exhausted,
32:04your conviction is automatically set aside and your indictment is dismissed like it never even happened.
32:09But, when he died, because he died, as far as law and the world were concerned,
32:17Dave was an innocent man.
32:23Hey, finally no line at the vending machines.
32:26I'm going to get a soda.
32:28You want one?
32:47No, no, no, they must have, Mom.
32:48They wouldn't just say this is the prison calling, okay?
32:50Yes, they said this is ACI calling, and we're sorry to...
32:53Okay, but that doesn't make any sense, Mom, okay?
32:54So are they going to call us back?
32:56He wouldn't do that to himself, he wouldn't do it to me, he would never do that to them.
32:59I'm going to call them, and I'm going to find out who called us, okay?
33:02It's wherever the guards may be supposed to be watching.
33:06It's terrible, it's a terrible thing.
33:08It's hard to even think about, the kind of desperation behind a choice like that.
33:14Makes you think about all your own choices in life, right?
33:17All the things you've done or haven't done.
33:25Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, you know the Navy SEALs used this thing to help them calm down?
33:31They're just crazy, right?
33:32These elite warriors, they train, they practice, and still, they panic.
33:36The Navy SEALs have to make themselves remember to breathe.
33:39In for four, hold for four, out for four, hold for four.
33:44It's called box breathing.
33:45Box has four sides, you just focus on the numbers and the sides, and that's it.
33:49Four by four, do it with me.
33:50Come on, let's build the boss together, right now.
34:14Hi.
34:17Do we have a...
34:17What the fuck did he say to my brother?
34:20Excuse me?
34:20He should go up out of nowhere, get in his mind, say who the fuck knows what, until suddenly
34:24he thinks he has no way out of...
34:26Oh, my God.
34:29Can I just...
34:31I was so sorry when I heard what happened.
34:34Why were you even there, hmm?
34:35You didn't exist for Shane at school, and I know that.
34:37He never mentioned you once.
34:38To be fair, seeing that the counselor is not always going to be something a student talks
34:44about at home at home, right?
34:46You're telling me he fucking came to see you?
34:48HIPAA requirements say I can't tell you anything.
34:51I'm sorry.
34:53But whether he did or didn't, with a student body of 600 kids, being generally aware of
34:59all of them, and their various struggles, yeah, that was my job.
35:06Why did you go to the prison?
35:09To offer my supreme emotions...
35:10No, I want to know what kind of apocalyptic shit you said to him.
35:13Besides that fucking Oliver St. Ledger sees you for therapy, which is...
35:16I just don't really know how to wrap my mind around that, actually.
35:18So he told you that, but he didn't tell you what else we talked about?
35:21Okay, he's figuring things out.
35:22He's taking fucking classes, and then here you are, and a month later, he kills himself.
35:28And you think talking to me had something to do with that?
35:32I do.
35:32And I think I have a lot of questions that I'm going to ask to whoever's responsible
35:35for you having a license to talk to anybody, okay?
35:38So just know that's what's going to be happening.
35:40Well, then maybe also ask them if they think someone without a baseline of mental instability
35:44and a history of emotional detachment of the home can be goaded into suicide by one
35:48casual conversation with a sympathetic relative stranger.
35:54Oh, this is such an awful thing.
35:57Look, I understand needing to explain it away somehow, but when an already mentally vulnerable
36:04person is put into such a challenging environment at an age where they're still struggling with
36:10coping skills and with the idea that the future even exists, not to mention a support system
36:15at home that just isn't up to the task in a real life...
36:26So, as soon as court opens tomorrow, I'm going to file a temporary ex parte order of protection
36:32against you, and just to make it final...
36:35Fuck you!
36:35Okay!
36:48Did Mom go to sleep?
36:51She went to her room.
36:52Sure, she's not sleeping.
36:54Nobody sleeps in this house.
36:55Obviously.
36:57Obviously.
37:16I don't want to talk about heaven or whatever, okay?
37:20Because you don't think he is.
37:22If there is a place he is, I hope that everything makes sense to him.
37:26That he doesn't hurt anymore.
37:28Okay?
37:30Me too.
37:32Also, I wish there was a place like that for Mom to go.
37:37Yeah, I mean, Mom's still alive, but I get what you're saying.
37:44I saw him that night.
37:48What does that mean?
37:51Mom and Dad went to Holy Spirit for Spingo, and he was supposed to come home after practice
37:56and make dinner.
37:57But he didn't.
37:59So I made it.
38:01And I saw him get dropped off.
38:06By a car that I saw.
38:09Whose car it was.
38:13Okay, well, did Shane know this?
38:16Yes.
38:17When?
38:18Right when he gave me something.
38:20Okay, what did he say?
38:21He said he was home the whole time.
38:23And he never asked you to say anything later to anybody, ever?
38:28He thought he would.
38:31He was waiting, but he never did.
38:37Why didn't he want me to?
38:40You know what?
38:41Maybe he was...
38:43afraid.
38:44Yeah.
38:45Of you bringing Oliver into it.
38:47Of Oliver's family.
38:49Of what they might do to us, to you.
38:51I mean, who knows?
38:54With people who can be what they are.
38:58You feel guilty for not saying...
39:03Don't.
39:05Okay?
39:06It wouldn't have made any difference.
39:07It still would have all happened the exact same way.
39:11And you couldn't have stopped it.
39:12So please.
39:13Please.
39:15Don't let it derail your life.
39:19Okay?
39:21Okay.
39:23Okay.
39:27Okay.
39:28Okay.
39:30Okay.
39:31Okay.
39:32Okay.
39:32Okay.
39:32Okay.
39:32Okay.
39:32Okay.
39:33Okay.
39:34Okay.
39:35Okay.
39:49Ms. Martin?
39:51One of them.
39:54Which one are you?
39:57Shiloh.
39:58Is your mom Christy?
39:59Is she here too?
40:00She's not here at the moment.
40:02You live here with her.
40:04Rub it in.
40:04Why don't you?
40:06So, you're Shane's sister.
40:09Hey, can I ask a question?
40:10Yes, we are here to ask people questions about a guy named Oliver St. Ledger.
40:15Specifically about the possible revenge killing of a guy named Oliver St. Ledger.
40:19We spoke to Annette Sparling.
40:21She gave us your address.
40:22Does your sister live here too?
40:24Megan or Ciara Wise?
40:26Which one do you call her?
40:30Look, I don't know where Megan lives.
40:32Okay?
40:34I don't even know where she is.
40:37Or if she's ever coming back.
40:40Okay.
40:56Hey.
41:01I've just been sitting here watching you breathe.
41:06You're Megan?
41:09You're Shane's sister?
41:13Yeah.
41:20The day that Paul Sparling died, I saw you.
41:27And I knew that you were lying.
41:31But I was no one compared to you and your family.
41:37And there was nothing that I could do.
41:43And it just kept spinning out of control my whole life.
41:47Even so many years later, spinning out of control.
41:51And I wanted to hurt you.
41:55I really, really wanted to hurt you.
42:00And so I made a plan.
42:04And then I started to know you.
42:07And I saw how lonely you were.
42:13That I didn't need to do anything to ruin your life because you were doing that on your own.
42:22I really wanted to tell you the truth.
42:27I had so many opportunities to tell you the truth and I didn't.
42:38I'm sorry.
42:43I am sorry.
42:45He was my best friend.
42:47That your brother, you didn't deserve that.
42:53Your brother didn't do anything.
42:55It was me.
43:00I know that.
43:04I knew that.
43:09Thank you for saying that.
43:11Because I think I really needed you to say that to me.
43:22Ke'la, I'm so in love with you.
43:26I'm so in love with you.
43:28Ke'la.
43:55I'm surprised that you're a Tom Petty fan
43:58But if I hear another Tom Petty song in the next million years
44:00Could it be too fucking to me?
44:02When was Tom Petty bothering you?
44:04When I was driving and you were sleeping?
44:06Or when I was driving and you were sleeping?
44:11So do we think Meghan Martin
44:15Slash Ciara Wise
44:16Is somewhere in the world
44:18With or without Oliver Kennedy?
44:21Yeah, we all know that
44:23I said we think
44:24Not we know
44:27You do agree that that's the first road
44:28We should go down tomorrow
44:29Okay, yeah, it's the first road
44:31But it's not the only thing
44:40Wow
44:40Wow