00:00In high school, I started. I did start college, but I dropped out. I was about 19 years old
00:06when I decided to become a. I was just drawn to stage. I found a friend and we talked about
00:13it.
00:13We both decided let's be. And on stage, I found my confidence and I spent three years on stage
00:19and it served me really well. There came a point that it started to the anger came back
00:27and shame started to kick in. There came a night when a gentleman came into the club
00:32and one evening he came up and he tipped me and he said, what are you doing here?
00:36You look so innocent. You look like you're someone I could take home to my mom.
00:40We began a love affair and I have no problem saying he rescued me. He taught me how to dress.
00:46He taught me how to cook and he got me back into college. When I was about 21 years old,
00:53my sibling who had me had their first child. And when I was visiting the first child,
00:59they pulled me aside and they said, I'm sorry for what I did to you when you were little.
01:03And I froze. I thought, what, what did you do to me when you were little?
01:07And instantly all the shame and embarrassment came back because I, my body responded to their touch
01:14and I started seeking them out. I took that trauma that had been reopened and I put it back away
01:19where it would stay for probably another 20 years.
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