00:00I did something called an inner journey and it was a weekend retreat and it was for anybody who
00:04has any issues they're trying to resolve or work through. At this inner journey there was this
00:09breathing exercise and we were lying on the ground and there was a moderator and she was
00:13you know saying okay we're going to try to get our breathing to 100 percent capacity so we're
00:17going to start start slowly okay let's go 10 percent 20 percent and the last thing I heard
00:24was 40 percent I started screaming like hyperventilating and screaming at the top of my lungs like somebody
00:31was attacking me I was completely in this panic one of the moderators or one of the workers there
00:35came running over to me she turns out she was trained in trauma and she said look at me look
00:40at me she's like it's not happening now she just kept saying that to me and I finally I came
00:45out
00:45of that panic but I kept going back and forth into it so she had to keep repeating that because
00:49I
00:49I'd look at her I'd be okay I'd realize where I was and I knew nothing was attacking me right
00:54then
00:54but I all of a sudden my eyes would close again and I'd start screaming again that was pretty
00:58powerful and that was when I really realized the level of trauma that was in me
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