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00:08Sincronización Andrea Oroz
00:30I just remember, like, little bits and pieces.
00:33I remember being in the shower and then just sitting in the shower.
00:38And then we were in the bed.
00:42I was blacked out for a lot of it.
00:45I didn't even feel sex happening.
00:48I just knew it was happening.
00:50And then I passed out.
00:58The next day I woke up and was like, holy shit, what the fuck happened last night?
01:06Fuck.
01:10It all fucking hit me.
01:13It just flooded over me.
01:15I just sat there and cried.
01:19I will die.
01:21It's over.
01:25It's over.
01:27It's over.
01:28You don't let this take away your spirit.
01:35Do you think that the production should have stopped it?
01:40I think when, like...
01:46I think after getting out of the hot tub and, like, whatever happened after that,
01:50I think they should have fucking, like...
01:53been like, all right, this has gone too far.
01:55Like, we gotta...
01:58We gotta pull her out of this.
02:01You remember the story with Shandy?
02:05Um...
02:06Uh, I do remember her story.
02:08It's a little difficult for me to talk about production because I'm...
02:12That's not my territory.
02:14Was there ever a sense of, like, hey, we need to turn the cameras off?
02:18You know, we treated Top Model as a documentary.
02:22And we told the girls that on day one, when they would show up,
02:25we would go over the rules with them.
02:27There's gonna be cameras with you 24-7, day in and day out.
02:31And they're gonna cover everything, the good, the bad, and everything in between.
02:34No matter what happens, while you're on camera,
02:37we're going to document all of that.
02:41I know the girls, they were doing their evening hanging with the guys.
02:46We were off.
02:47And then we got word Shandy's having sex in the shower
02:51with the guy.
02:52I was like, wait, what?
02:53And the rule on Top Model was,
02:55if you went into a bathroom alone,
02:57a camera could not follow you in.
02:59But of course, when she went into the shower,
03:01she was technically not alone.
03:03So the cameras went in and they captured it.
03:06I don't know who decision it was,
03:08but as producers do,
03:09this was a story point now,
03:11and we're gonna see it all the way through.
03:13Here's what's coming up on America's Next Top Model.
03:17A visit from some local Italian men
03:19leads to a devastating crisis for Shandy.
03:22I was about 12 when I saw Cycle 2.
03:27To see that level of drama on Top Model as a kid,
03:32I was scandalized.
03:34She just cheated her ass off on national television.
03:38Shandy cheats on her boyfriend and she has to call.
03:40I can't stand it.
03:43Why is this not a private moment?
03:45Why is this film?
03:47This is wrong.
03:48But while saying that, let's continue watching.
03:51Looking back with an adult lens,
03:54it's really disturbing.
03:55How are you?
03:57The next day, Tyra has a girl's talk,
04:01and it is not a coincidence
04:04that she starts talking about cheating.
04:08I had one guy that cheated on me in Milano.
04:10He was a male model child.
04:12And that just hurt me so much.
04:15But now, I always tell my man,
04:17like, don't cheat.
04:18Flirt so much with the girl,
04:20and then come home and do me.
04:24Of course, she's going to have producers in her ear.
04:26She is going to be kept aware
04:28of what the going's on in the house.
04:31And she comes in and stokes the fire
04:33under the guise of concerned big sis or mentor.
04:38Like, this is just a girl's talk.
04:40You okay?
04:43What you doing?
04:45Taylor?
04:46Everybody's messed up, Shandy.
04:48I'm not judging you.
04:50But I think that we have to fight
04:51against our carnal desires.
04:54I understand that people do become attracted
04:56to other people.
04:57And it's all about your relationship
04:58and how open your relationship is
05:01and how honest you can be with one another.
05:05After everything, like, I just want to go home.
05:09After that happened, I kept demanding,
05:11like, I want to go home.
05:12I don't want to be a part of this anymore.
05:14And I demanded to, like, talk to Eric,
05:16but they wouldn't give me a phone.
05:17And that's when I really wanted to go home.
05:20They tried to talk me out of it,
05:22and I was like, no.
05:24And they're like, well,
05:26now we can get you a phone.
05:29It was like, things became convenient
05:31when they needed to be convenient.
05:34Because before, I'd wanted a phone,
05:36but now they don't want to do the show anymore.
05:37Now a phone is available for me to call Eric.
05:40And they're like, well, we're going to have to film it.
05:42We're going to have to film it.
05:43And I was like, oh, well, fine.
05:48I just want to let my boyfriend know what happened.
05:50But I'm so scared.
05:53Just please tell me what you did.
05:57Just tell me.
05:58This is the worst possible thing I can do.
06:01You went fast?
06:03Yeah.
06:04Oh, my God, honey.
06:06Are you okay, man?
06:08I can't be with someone that cheated on me.
06:11Oh, God.
06:12What do you want me to do?
06:14What can I say to this?
06:15How can I hug you?
06:18You think about how we wanted to be together forever.
06:22Then he'd throw it away.
06:24You stupid bitch.
06:28I didn't do this.
06:35It was just the sound guy
06:36and the guy filming.
06:40And afterwards, I'm just, like, laying on the floor
06:42in a fetal position, just crying.
06:45And they just, like, get up to leave.
06:48And they both came up to me and they said,
06:50we're really, really sorry that we had to film that.
06:58They just knew that, like, this isn't right.
07:00Like, why are we filming this?
07:09After that, I believe, did they show it on camera?
07:12They took her to the doctor?
07:14I mean, production was responsible for her.
07:16Now, could they have sent her to the doctor in privacy?
07:20But it's reality, so now we're going to cover it.
07:23Poor girl.
07:25After I, like, talked to Eric again on the phone,
07:28they actually filmed me talking to the guy
07:31and asking him myself,
07:32did you wear any protection?
07:34Do you have any STDs?
07:35Like, I felt, like,
07:38like, why can't you just ask them yourself?
07:40Why do you have to film this?
07:43Like, you already got me on the phone
07:45of Eric calling me a fucking bitch.
07:51I will tell you this.
07:53When I went into post and saw the footage,
07:55we scaled back that scene
07:59in a significant way.
08:01I'm not head of story.
08:02That's Ken Mock.
08:03But I did become a master editor.
08:05It's important for people to know
08:07that we didn't put everything on TV.
08:09Do you know what happened?
08:11Super Bowl.
08:12Janet Jackson, Justin Timberlake.
08:15When that happened,
08:18regulations clamped down
08:20on what you could show.
08:22So then they had to rush,
08:25re-edit that scene.
08:28That was, for good or bad,
08:30one of the most memorable moments
08:31in Top Model.
08:33Made for good TV.
08:40Everybody out here
08:41wants to be America's next Top Model.
08:44Love you, Tyra!
08:46Another week,
08:48another elimination
08:48on America's Next Top Model
08:50of America's Next Top Model.
08:51I ought to watch
08:52America's Next Top Model.
08:53We're just flabbergasted.
08:56Transfixed.
08:56We now return
08:57to America's Next Top Model.
08:59I just don't think
09:00you're being fair, Tyra.
09:01The end of season two,
09:02I knew this was it.
09:04People's appetites
09:05were insatiable.
09:07They couldn't get enough.
09:09Every week it was growing.
09:10Did you like it?
09:11Well, it was,
09:12it's hard not to watch.
09:14What happened
09:14really surprised me.
09:16Donna Ostrok said,
09:18we want to do
09:18two cycles a season
09:19every year.
09:20Like, what?
09:22That was a moment
09:23where I realized
09:24that we had broken through.
09:27Casey, Halua, Amber,
09:29who will become
09:31America's Next Top Model?
09:37The show was really
09:38kind of gaining popularity,
09:39but that didn't feel like
09:41it had reached,
09:42you know,
09:43kind of the masses, right?
09:44But then,
09:46randomly one evening,
09:48Tyra, Jay, and I
09:48went to dinner.
09:49It was just the three of us,
09:50nobody else.
09:51But we were walking along,
09:52and there were some kids
09:54on the street,
09:54a girl,
09:55she said to her friend,
09:56oh my God,
09:56look, there's Beyonce.
09:58The girlfriend said,
09:59no, that's Tyra Banks
10:01because it's the J's.
10:02And I said,
10:03oh, okay.
10:05I looked over at Jay,
10:06and Jay was like,
10:08this is not gonna sit well.
10:10It was just a bit
10:11of an awkward moment.
10:13This is Tyra's show.
10:15Jay Manuel
10:15and Jay Alexander
10:17get recognized
10:18more than me
10:19walking down the street
10:19in New York City.
10:20It's crazy.
10:21I'm like,
10:21get back,
10:21still am I shy?
10:22Things are different now.
10:27At one point,
10:28we had an audience
10:29of over 100 million people
10:30globally.
10:31Our American show
10:33in 180 countries,
10:36it was massive.
10:37And they were doing
10:38their own versions.
10:39Winner of Africa's
10:41next top model.
10:43Germany's next top model.
10:44Mexico's next top model.
10:46Maureen Kosta!
10:52It was quite a behemoth
10:54to be a part of.
10:55Miss Jay Alexander.
10:57Tyra always said,
10:59you're gonna be famous.
11:00And then boom,
11:02it happened.
11:03We had words
11:04that we said
11:05on America's next top model
11:06that are now
11:06in the dictionary.
11:07Smile.
11:08Smile.
11:09Smile with your eyes.
11:10Smile.
11:12Smile.
11:13The world was smiling.
11:15The show was
11:16at an all-time high.
11:17America just can't
11:18get enough.
11:19Love America's
11:20next top model.
11:20I've done most
11:21anything to win.
11:22We did a casting
11:23in New York City
11:23at Macy's.
11:2510,000 would-be
11:26cover girls turned out
11:27for their shot
11:28at America's
11:28next top model.
11:29We shot down
11:30two city blocks
11:31in the middle
11:32of New York City.
11:33I remember looking
11:34at CNN
11:34and seeing
11:35this riot
11:36breaking out
11:37in the street.
11:38Pandemonium broke out.
11:39Girls were threatened
11:40to slash each other's faces.
11:42All these girls
11:42were on the verge
11:43of passing out.
11:44Martel Mayhem
11:45breaks out on the street
11:46in New York City.
11:47That was a moment
11:48where I realized,
11:49oh my God,
11:49I think we built a monster.
11:52As the cycles
11:53went on,
11:54there was a lot
11:54of pressure
11:55to figure out
11:56how to constantly
11:57reinvent.
11:59How do you get that?
12:01I can't believe
12:02they're doing that
12:03moment again.
12:10You have to keep
12:13one-upping yourself.
12:15Now the pressure
12:15was high for the network.
12:18How do we maintain
12:19this and grow
12:19this audience?
12:21It was a time
12:22in the world
12:23where there was
12:24a show,
12:24Fear Factor
12:25and Survivor
12:26and all of these things
12:27of like pushing
12:28the limits
12:28and all of that.
12:29And so we kept pushing
12:31and we kept creating
12:31more and more and more.
12:33You guys
12:33were demanding it.
12:35The viewers
12:36wanted more
12:37and more
12:38and more.
12:41Reality TV
12:42is a bitch.
12:43If it doesn't bleed
12:44and lead,
12:44then it doesn't work.
12:48We are going
12:49to suspend you
12:50from this ledge
12:52and shoot you guys
12:53hanging over this hole.
12:55Creatively now
12:55for the photo shoots
12:56there were so many
12:58cooks in the kitchen.
12:59So things changed.
13:00Oh my God.
13:04Oh my God.
13:05Your wardrobe today?
13:07Yes!
13:09Jay Manuel tells us
13:11that we're going
13:11to be wearing
13:12dead animal carcasses.
13:13Watching that
13:14is like mortifying
13:16on every level.
13:18Every level.
13:19So I have to wear
13:20beef panties.
13:21Oh.
13:22I don't even eat meat.
13:24I'm a vegan.
13:25Oh.
13:27This is terrible.
13:29I forgot.
13:30I do feel like
13:32I can feel
13:33and taste
13:34what people
13:35want to see.
13:36Hello.
13:37Hi.
13:38I feel like
13:38I kind of know.
13:40I'm so sorry,
13:41you guys.
13:41I don't mean to
13:42be all weak
13:43in front of you,
13:43but I'm just
13:44so lightheaded.
13:45Oh, no!
13:47Take her home.
13:49I'm okay.
13:52Today,
13:52you guys are going
13:53to worry about acting!
13:56Inappropriate
13:57and awkward
13:57and funny as hell.
13:59I have a pigeon
13:59on my head.
14:00Yes, you do, baby.
14:01But they're on a toilet tray.
14:02Don't worry.
14:04Visions are flying rats.
14:05They eat rats.
14:07They probably eat me
14:08if they could.
14:09Why are we doing that?
14:11Why are we doing that?
14:12This has to be
14:13the funniest challenge ever.
14:15With each passing season
14:16of A&TM,
14:17the challenges got
14:18crazier and crazier.
14:26Pure chaos.
14:28I just want to tell you
14:29that some people
14:30have war
14:31in their countries.
14:33I feel like
14:34they would take
14:35the girls' spears
14:36and then turn it
14:37into a photo shoot.
14:40They were posing
14:41with tarantulas,
14:44cockroaches,
14:44walking in 10-inch
14:46high stilettos.
14:48They had to walk
14:49on water,
14:50so they had to, like,
14:51pull off
14:52Jesus feet.
14:54We cannot forget
14:55when they pretended
14:56to be homeless,
14:57inspired by Tyra's stint
14:59as a homeless person
15:00for a day.
15:03They had the girls
15:04pose with real
15:06unhoused people
15:07in the background.
15:09I have to say,
15:10I think this is one
15:10of my favorite pictures
15:11because I think
15:12your face
15:12is just so heartbreaking.
15:14It looks stunning.
15:16There were some ideas
15:17that were wrong
15:18and were not good
15:19to have
15:19and were silly,
15:21you know,
15:21quite frankly.
15:22For some reason,
15:23no one really
15:23seemed to see it.
15:25Yeah,
15:26there's some dumb shit.
15:27I mean,
15:28it's dumb.
15:28I'm like,
15:28what the hell?
15:30Sometimes,
15:31creative would come up
15:32where you're just like,
15:33oof, wow,
15:34okay, well,
15:35I've got to work
15:35with this now.
15:36Today,
15:37we're actually going
15:37to do a photo shoot
15:39about the horrible
15:40impacts of smoking.
15:41This is hideous.
15:46I don't know
15:47how we ended up there,
15:48but it's crazy.
15:50Do you remember
15:51outrageous moments
15:52that you were
15:54thinking to yourself,
15:55okay,
15:55like,
15:56can we air it?
15:57No,
15:57I never thought about,
15:58you know,
15:59can we air it,
16:00can we air it?
16:00Good television
16:01is good television.
16:02We're gonna bring you
16:03some little fish
16:04and some seaweed.
16:06We have dead fish
16:07attached to us.
16:09How's it smell,
16:09Danielle?
16:10I just threw up
16:11in my mouth
16:11a little bit.
16:12Absurd.
16:14Absolutely absurd.
16:17Fish juice.
16:19Fish juice?
16:20Work with it, girl.
16:23This is not
16:24real modeling,
16:25right?
16:25And after that,
16:26it was just
16:27a fucking free-for-all.
16:33I grew up in
16:34Little Rock, Arkansas.
16:37We were in this
16:38little three-bedroom home
16:39with black mold
16:41and roaches
16:43and all the things
16:44that I wanted
16:45seemed unattainable.
16:47When I graduated
16:48high school,
16:49I knew I wanted
16:50to model
16:50in New York.
16:52My brother,
16:53he was like,
16:54you should do
16:54America's Next Top Model.
16:56I was like,
16:56I would fucking never.
16:57He was like,
16:58why?
16:58I was like,
16:59is this fake modeling?
17:00Do they humiliate
17:01girls on that show?
17:02And he was like,
17:03girl,
17:03this could be a ticket,
17:04a free ticket out.
17:05We don't have money
17:06to get you to New York.
17:08Top Model
17:09was a one-way ticket
17:10for me to get out
17:10of my hometown.
17:12If I get on this show,
17:13I'm out.
17:19First name
17:19that I'm going to call?
17:22Joni.
17:23When they called my name,
17:24I was like,
17:25oh my gosh,
17:26yes,
17:26I'm on this show.
17:28Like,
17:28I can't believe it.
17:29It's gonna happen.
17:30I quit my job.
17:32I worked at American Eagle
17:33in the mall
17:34and I went in
17:35and I told my boss,
17:36I'm like,
17:36I really can't tell you
17:37what's happening,
17:38but I'm on a TV show
17:39and I have to quit.
17:40It felt so good
17:41to be like,
17:42I quit.
17:43I'm moving on.
17:44Next name,
17:45Danielle.
17:49Thank you so much.
17:51This is the moment
17:52I've been waiting
17:53for my entire life.
17:55It was that moment
17:56of, like,
17:57pinch me,
17:57like,
17:58girl,
17:58you did it.
17:59You got out.
18:00You actually got out
18:01of Little Rock.
18:01Now you gotta keep going.
18:03But I had no idea
18:05how hard it would be.
18:09You're now standing
18:10in the building
18:10of one of the most
18:11influential ad agencies
18:12and you're going
18:13to have the opportunity
18:14to meet the most
18:15sought-after creative director
18:16in the world as well.
18:18And I see you got
18:18a nice little gap
18:19right there
18:20between the teeth
18:20and check you.
18:21Even though I said
18:22thank you,
18:23I'm like,
18:24I think she bad-mouthing me.
18:26As far as my gap,
18:27she can hang down with her.
18:28The gap is staying,
18:30so.
18:31The gap.
18:32The infamous gap.
18:34Lord Jesus.
18:36Today we're dealing
18:37with perfection
18:38and beauty.
18:40So Tyra has an extra
18:41special treat for you guys.
18:43That day,
18:44after the challenge,
18:45they put us in a group
18:46and they said
18:47that we were going
18:47to the dentist,
18:49but that Joni and I
18:49were going first.
18:50The dentist is gonna
18:51do something about
18:52that snaggle tube
18:53and for that gap tube
18:54and perfect your smile.
18:57I was like,
18:58whoa,
18:59this is actually happening.
19:00I'm happy, right?
19:01Your tears are joy.
19:04That's so cool.
19:05I can never afford
19:07anything like that.
19:08I mean,
19:08come on,
19:09it was like winning
19:09the lottery.
19:10I was like,
19:10I'm down to do it
19:11because I was always
19:12really self-conscious
19:13about my teeth.
19:14I'm like,
19:15okay, let's go.
19:16I feel like up
19:17until that point,
19:18a lot of the makeovers
19:18were very based on hair.
19:20That was the first time
19:22you see the girls
19:22going to a doctor's office
19:25to get a medical procedure
19:27as part of a makeover.
19:32So we pull up
19:33to the dentist
19:34and the guy
19:35keeps asking me
19:36if I want to get
19:37anything done
19:38to my teeth.
19:38So,
19:39is there anything
19:39that you don't like
19:40about your smile?
19:41My gums are receding
19:42up here,
19:42like on my front tube.
19:43What about the gap?
19:44I love my gap.
19:45The gap,
19:46I love the gap.
19:47The signature gap
19:48is staying in my mouth.
19:49That's who I am.
19:50I was like,
19:51no,
19:51I don't want to close my gap.
19:52That's not your right
19:53to tell me
19:54what to do
19:55with my body.
19:57And poor Joanie.
19:58My God, Joanie.
20:00The shit that girl
20:01went through,
20:03horrific.
20:05We're willing to remove
20:06these four?
20:07Today?
20:07We're going to remove
20:08them today.
20:08Oh, ho.
20:10I was young
20:11and kind of just
20:12along for the ride,
20:13but I had to sign
20:13a separate release
20:14right then and there,
20:15too.
20:16Couldn't talk to my mom
20:17about it,
20:17couldn't call a lawyer
20:18or anything like that.
20:22I didn't know
20:23it would go all night.
20:26That was really intense
20:28what Joanie went through.
20:29Oh, Lord.
20:30Insane.
20:33I have them, actually.
20:35Here they are.
20:36This one used to be
20:38right here.
20:41Oh, girl.
20:43But yeah,
20:43they pulled these
20:44all out of my mouth
20:45and then they shaved
20:46from here to here.
20:49She was in the dentist's office
20:51for hours on end.
20:53Oh, my God.
20:54There were gobsmacked moments
20:56where you watch
20:57and you're like,
20:57oof.
21:00Okay.
21:01I'm going to go have
21:02all my front teeth
21:03grinded down to
21:04Pencil Point.
21:06Oh, my God.
21:07I still remember her
21:08looking for the camera
21:09and saying,
21:10look at what they're done.
21:11Look at my teeth.
21:14It was insane.
21:16Bless her soul.
21:18When I was over,
21:18I said,
21:19oh, my God,
21:21she turned her teeth.
21:22Oh, it's fabulous now.
21:25The next photo shoot
21:27that we did
21:27was actually the one
21:28where we were crying.
21:30I was like,
21:31I am in pain.
21:32This isn't hard.
21:33I was so miserable.
21:35Sometimes you have
21:36to go through pain,
21:37you know,
21:37to be beautiful.
21:49Close your eyes
21:51have a great issue
21:51and those issues
21:54will never be resolved.
21:55It was fucked up,
21:56but at the end of the day,
21:58I was a grown adult woman
21:59with teeth I thought
22:00I would never fix,
22:01so I felt like
22:02I won the lottery, really.
22:04But Dani's work
22:05was pretty different.
22:08So, Danielle,
22:09you went to the dentist,
22:10but you refused
22:11to have your gap closed.
22:13Do you really think
22:13you can have a covergirl contract
22:14with a gap in your mouth?
22:15Yeah, why not?
22:16This is all people see.
22:18Easy Reef's beautiful covergirl.
22:19It's not marketable.
22:20I don't want to
22:22completely close it.
22:23Well, I guess
22:24she just left a gap
22:25wide open
22:26for another girl, baby.
22:27I agree.
22:28When Tyra called my name,
22:30she was like,
22:31so if I decide to keep you,
22:33are you going to get your gap closed?
22:35And then that's when I was like,
22:36so what you're saying to me is,
22:38if I don't get my gap closed,
22:40you're going to send me home.
22:41Get them teeth done?
22:43All the way?
22:44Completely close?
22:44I think all the way.
22:47Congratulations.
22:48You're still on the running
22:49towards becoming
22:50America's next top model.
22:52And when I went back to the house,
22:53I called my mom immediately
22:55just because she was always
22:56my voice of reason, always.
22:58And I was like,
22:59this is what's happening.
23:01Like, what should I do?
23:03She said to me,
23:04I'll be here to welcome you home
23:05if you don't get your gap closed,
23:07but you know you're going to come home
23:07if you don't get your gap closed.
23:09Like, is it worth it?
23:10Basically, it's what my mom was saying.
23:13There is no ifs, ands, and buts about it.
23:15There is no going home for me.
23:16I did not come all the way
23:17from little bitty Little Rock, Arkansas
23:19to get turned around and go home.
23:21That's not an option.
23:23And so I decided to play the game,
23:26and I got my gap closed some.
23:31It's my life,
23:32and it was toyed with consciously.
23:36And me saying no,
23:38and them going against that,
23:40it's invasive.
23:43With Danielle and the gap
23:45between her teeth,
23:46I myself was like,
23:48I don't think that's a good idea.
23:50I just thought she looked great
23:52with the gap between her teeth,
23:53and that perfection is boring.
23:56Yeah, not my decision,
23:57but it's the decision, you know?
24:00I get suggesting it,
24:01but forcing it,
24:03that is an insane thing
24:04for them to essentially demand from her.
24:06It just shows how out of touch Tyra is.
24:09And the irony is that a few seasons later...
24:11We love your teeth.
24:12Tyra's like,
24:13we're going to widen that gap.
24:15We'd love to exaggerate that
24:17and take you a little bit more
24:18to Lauren Hutton.
24:19Make it as big as you want it.
24:21She already had a tooth gap,
24:23and then they went in
24:23and surgically widened it permanently.
24:26Getting that done
24:27for a reality competition TV show
24:29is just insane.
24:30People have told me
24:31one season that she got
24:33a gap created in a girl's night.
24:35Girl, that is absolutely ridiculous.
24:38What?
24:40I've actually apologized
24:41for the issue with Dani
24:43and what happened.
24:45That was between a rock
24:46and a hard place for me,
24:47because there were agents
24:49that would tell me
24:51she will not work with those teeth.
24:53It's just not going to happen.
24:54That's what they told me.
24:56And again,
24:57I could have just been quiet
24:58and let them handle it.
25:00But that's...
25:01Hindsight is 20-20 for all of us.
25:02It just so happens that
25:04a lot of the things
25:05that are 20-20 for me
25:06happened in front of the world.
25:09Bull fucking shit.
25:10Me getting my gap closed
25:11is not opening any doors for me.
25:15You knew what you were doing
25:16for the show.
25:17You were making good for TV
25:18at my expense.
25:21It was great TV.
25:23I honestly thought
25:24Bree was going to fall flat.
25:25But also, like,
25:26we're people
25:27and we're afraid.
25:29And we're all too young
25:30to, like,
25:31to verbalize,
25:32I'm scared.
25:34The girls were rewarded
25:36and applauded
25:37for putting their health
25:38on the back burner.
25:39Bravo!
25:40Bravo!
25:42It's a very dangerous situation.
25:44And then a girl
25:45inevitably gets very sick
25:47and the show
25:48just milks it
25:48for TV drama.
25:50We need a medic here, guys.
25:51Tell them it's an emergency.
25:53The cameras were always rolling.
25:55It was really scary.
26:00Oh, I might be dying.
26:01The models are very underfed
26:04and they're overworked.
26:05They're not hydrated enough.
26:07When you're modeling,
26:07you don't really want
26:08to eat too much
26:09because you don't want
26:09to be bloated.
26:10I am so hungry,
26:11I think I'm going to pass out.
26:15Oh, my shit!
26:15Oh, my God!
26:17Oh, my God!
26:18Oh, my God!
26:21She looked dead.
26:23Like, it was scary.
26:24It was a crash course.
26:26It was a crash course.
26:28From now on,
26:29as thin as you are,
26:30you know,
26:31and as hot as it is,
26:33like, tomorrow,
26:33you have to eat.
26:34I think I just pushed myself
26:36way past my limit.
26:38The biggest disaster ever
26:40is always the best thing.
26:41People have
26:42104-degree temperature.
26:43They're throwing up.
26:44They need IVs.
26:45That's the best news
26:47I could ever have.
26:48Hypothermia in a pool.
26:50How does that happen?
26:51They've accepted that,
26:52okay, my health
26:53is second
26:55to this competition.
26:56I'm actually shocked
26:57that this was allowed to air.
26:59Can't get enough
26:59of the drama, can I?
27:00No.
27:01It's a TV show to you guys,
27:02but this is my life.
27:06We arrive at the Alexandria Hotel,
27:09and we go upstairs
27:10to the 12th floor.
27:11You girls are all gonna be
27:13crime scene victims.
27:16Can you make that right hand
27:18look a little more
27:19kind of broken?
27:21There you go.
27:22They created
27:23these wild backstories.
27:24My crime scene is
27:27Whitney stole all of my organs
27:28and then stitched me back up.
27:32One was strangled to death.
27:33One was pushed off
27:34a high building.
27:36Dion was posing
27:37as if someone had
27:38shot her in the head.
27:44When I was a kid,
27:45my mom was shot,
27:46and she was paralyzed
27:48from the waist down.
27:49When I was six years old,
27:51my mom was shot
27:52by this guy.
27:53He was jealous
27:53that she was getting married,
27:55and she was actually
27:55trying to help him
27:56get off of drugs,
27:57and he ended up
27:59shooting her.
27:59That's why mom is paralyzed.
28:01They knew about it
28:02from the application process,
28:04but they still chose
28:05to have me
28:07do this particular
28:08photo shoot.
28:09that involved
28:10gun violence.
28:13I thought it was
28:14a coincidence
28:14at the time,
28:15but I don't think it was.
28:18Dion took a little while
28:19to warm up,
28:20and she really didn't take
28:21much initiative
28:22to improvise.
28:23I think they wanted
28:25to see some type
28:25of mental breakdown
28:27or, you know,
28:28to see me crumble.
28:29I'm just glad
28:30that they didn't get
28:31the reaction
28:31that I feel like
28:32they were hoping to get.
28:35It's a great picture.
28:36The look in your face
28:37is just extraordinary.
28:38I mean,
28:39very beautiful
28:40and dead.
28:41Was there ever
28:42a moment in which
28:43you were like,
28:43wow, this came out
28:45horrible?
28:46No.
28:47Funnily enough,
28:48you know,
28:48I mean,
28:48I think now,
28:50looking back,
28:50yes,
28:50I would say that,
28:51but at the time,
28:53I really didn't think that.
28:55I love it
28:56because her ankle
28:56looks broken.
28:58It looks like
28:58you're taking a nap.
28:59You needed to look
29:00like you were
29:00brutally killed.
29:01Yeah.
29:03I take full responsibility
29:05for that shoot.
29:06That was a mistake.
29:07I look back now
29:08and I think
29:08it was a celebration
29:10of, like, violence.
29:11It was crazy.
29:12That one,
29:13I look back
29:14and I'm like,
29:16you are an idiot.
29:21The race is on.
29:23Be ready to show
29:24your true colors.
29:26The shoot that I had
29:28the most difficult time
29:29with was
29:30this race-swapping shoot.
29:32This week,
29:33we've learned
29:33all about makeup
29:35and the power
29:35that it has
29:36to transform people.
29:37We are doing
29:38this shoot for Got Milk.
29:40Now there's a twist.
29:42My parents are
29:43from South Africa.
29:44They grew up
29:45during apartheid.
29:46I'm very aware
29:47of that history
29:49and I just said,
29:50like, race-swapping?
29:51Wow.
29:52So I first asked
29:54to be excused
29:55from the photo shoot
29:56and Tyra said to me,
29:57I will handle this
29:59on camera
30:00with the girls
30:00judging and da-da-da.
30:02Just go and do your job.
30:04I recognized
30:05that my role
30:07was starting
30:09to have limitations.
30:11That shoot
30:11was happening
30:12regardless.
30:13We are actually
30:14going to switch
30:15your ethnicities.
30:17The challenge here
30:19really is
30:20taking on
30:21the person...
30:22If you really look
30:22for it,
30:23you can see it
30:23on my face.
30:24Especially the setup
30:25for the day
30:25where I tell the girls
30:27what we're doing.
30:28I could tell
30:29I was just, like,
30:30double swallowing
30:31and...
30:32But I just had
30:33to do my job.
30:34Tiffany,
30:35you're going to be
30:36Native American.
30:37Brittany,
30:38an African-American woman.
30:40Kenya, Korean.
30:42And Noelle,
30:43we're making you
30:43into a traditionally
30:44African woman
30:46with a head wrap
30:46and everything.
30:47Wow.
30:49Of course, you know,
30:49we can't always make it
30:50easy, easy, easy, right?
30:52All you girls
30:53are going to have
30:54a little three-year-old
30:55with you in your shot.
30:56Aw.
30:57So they're, like,
30:58cradling these, like,
31:00heavy, like,
31:00three-year-olds.
31:02He's fighting them.
31:03It's not about comfort.
31:04It's about
31:06while they are
31:07essentially in blackface
31:08and brownface.
31:10I didn't think
31:11it was controversial.
31:12I was in my own
31:13little bubble,
31:14in my own little head.
31:15If this was my way
31:17of showing the world
31:18that brown and black
31:19is beautiful.
31:20Sister,
31:21you look like
31:22a black girl, girl.
31:23I was feeling it.
31:25Oh, I loved it.
31:26But then we put it out there
31:28and the world was like,
31:29are you crazy?
31:30Have you lost your mind?
31:31What the fuck is that?
31:33They dead-assed blackface.
31:36What is the goal
31:36with this photo shoot?
31:38What is it?
31:39It's hard to wrap
31:39your head around
31:40how this actually
31:41managed to get on the air.
31:43I'm calling my best friend
31:44at commercial break,
31:45like, girl,
31:45did you see that?
31:47What the hell
31:48is going on?
31:50Did the industry
31:50make them do this?
31:52Did the industry
31:52make them come up
31:53with this photo shoot?
31:54What I don't hear
31:55a lot of people
31:56talking about, really,
31:57is the fact that
31:59they did it again.
32:01Erin,
32:02you're going to be
32:03Tibetan,
32:04like the Dalai Lama,
32:06and...
32:07Egyptian?
32:08Egyptian!
32:10All of us girls
32:11have to be painted
32:13and plastered
32:14with different colors.
32:15I feel like
32:17I really looked exotic.
32:19Brittany,
32:20you are going to be
32:21Native American
32:22and East Indian.
32:25Looking at the show now
32:26through the 2020 lens,
32:29it's an issue,
32:30and I understand
32:31100% why.
32:33Think about Egypt,
32:34the people,
32:35what they've been through.
32:37Tyra wants to challenge
32:39the fashion industry's
32:40ideals around
32:41what is beauty,
32:42but is also still
32:44upholding ideologies
32:46and attitudes
32:48that oppressed her.
32:49Much as I hate
32:51and preach about
32:52models not having
32:53to be stick-skinny,
32:54we have to face it
32:55that we are
32:55in the fashion industry.
32:57Well, let's start
32:58from the beginning,
32:59shall we?
33:02Someone here
33:03is America's
33:04next top...
33:06I'm looking for girls
33:07that are beautiful
33:08on the outside,
33:09but I'm looking for
33:09their beauty
33:10on the inside.
33:11I just felt like
33:13I could do this.
33:14I can do this.
33:15We need to kind of do
33:16weights and measures.
33:17Miss J is here
33:18to take our measurements.
33:20Oh, shoot!
33:22I had, up until that point,
33:25only been made fun of
33:26for being really thin.
33:28See who is torn
33:29and who's considered
33:31sad who thinks he's sad.
33:33In school,
33:35I was bullied
33:35for being slim and tall
33:37and braces and glasses.
33:39I wasn't curvy
33:40in all the things
33:41that a lot of
33:42the other girls were.
33:43You almost shake
33:44like a boy
33:44minus the breasts.
33:46Thanks!
33:46So to go into
33:48this world where
33:49now my weight
33:50is an issue
33:51was really confusing
33:53for me.
33:56We've got lust,
33:57sloth,
33:58gluttony, envy.
33:59We did the
34:00seven deadly sins
34:01and they gave me gluttony.
34:03It's just like gluttony,
34:05like, ah, I'm greedy,
34:06I'm hungry, like,
34:07argh!
34:08I just thought,
34:09okay, seven deadly sins,
34:10like, I'm gonna make
34:11this casket work,
34:12I gotta make it work.
34:13Don't hold your tummy
34:14like you're pregnant!
34:15I really didn't think
34:16anything of it,
34:17I just wanted to go
34:17with it,
34:18I knew that it was
34:18a quirky show
34:19and I just had to
34:20make it work
34:20and make it fabulous.
34:23Gluttony looks like
34:23Dumpy.
34:24It's like piggy chic.
34:26I don't think
34:27you look like a model,
34:28I would've liked to see
34:28the donut hanging
34:29out your mouth.
34:31You know,
34:32in hindsight,
34:32it's just kind of like
34:33they had to find
34:35something as a part
34:36of the narrative.
34:38And so by the time
34:39we got to Africa,
34:40we had to model
34:42and be different animals.
34:44You're gonna be
34:45a giraffe!
34:46You're gonna be
34:47an ostrich.
34:47Cheetah.
34:48A giraffe.
34:49Cheetah.
34:50Virginia,
34:51you get to be
34:51the elephant.
34:52I don't know how
34:53we all want to do that.
34:54One week it's gluttony,
34:56next week it's an elephant.
34:57Why?
34:58That's when I knew,
34:59okay, this is intentional.
35:03The stomach is exposed
35:04to the highest extent.
35:07It's bloated
35:08and it doesn't look
35:09good at all.
35:10I have to just try
35:11to suck it in
35:11and work it.
35:13This photo's
35:14really beautiful,
35:14Kenya,
35:15but I hate to say it,
35:16they had to do
35:16a lot of body work
35:18on you in retouching.
35:19If you're sporting a gut,
35:20then you turn to the side
35:22and disguise it.
35:23I would love
35:24to change the rules,
35:25but until that happens,
35:26I think it's all
35:27about choices, Kenya.
35:28You can get a burger
35:28and take the bread off.
35:29I'll make it work
35:30when I have to.
35:31Thank you.
35:31To see that
35:32that was gonna be
35:33my entire narrative,
35:34it just felt unfair
35:36and just felt
35:37kind of dirty.
35:38Kenya needs to lose weight.
35:40Kenya needs to lose weight.
35:41Kenya needs to lose weight.
35:44Kenya, she has gained
35:45about 10 pounds.
35:47The girl can smack
35:49like no other.
35:50I don't think Kenya
35:51is watching what she eats.
35:52That's what the judges
35:53keep telling her.
35:54That's what they keep
35:54complaining about.
35:56And I really don't see
35:57that much progress.
35:59It was a little bit
36:00damaging to see them
36:01editing me eating
36:03the same bagel,
36:05for example,
36:06showing me eating it
36:07as if I've eaten
36:07three different bagels,
36:09but it really was
36:09the same one.
36:12She's really gaining
36:13a little weight.
36:14You can see that.
36:14No?
36:15Yeah.
36:16She should be careful
36:17of that.
36:17Just try and pull it
36:18in a little more.
36:24It was definitely
36:26hard to see that maybe
36:27when I was just
36:28enjoying myself,
36:29having no idea
36:30that the cameras
36:31were really zooming in
36:32on certain areas,
36:33it definitely was
36:34a little bit damaging
36:35to watch with all of America
36:36to see that narrative
36:38play out.
36:41When it comes to weight,
36:46back then,
36:47the fashion industry's
36:48beauty standards
36:49were so narrow.
36:52That's the world
36:53that we lived in.
36:58Tyra has also been
36:59criticized for her body,
37:02for her weight,
37:03for her body type,
37:03being curvy.
37:05To all of you
37:05that have something nasty
37:07to say about me
37:08or other women
37:08that are built like me,
37:10kiss my fat ass!
37:14And yet,
37:15she's perpetuating
37:16this same message
37:17onto these women
37:18and fat-shaming them.
37:20Kenya,
37:21when we look at you,
37:21we don't see a model.
37:23And as much as
37:24I hate and preach about
37:26models not having
37:27to be stick-skinny,
37:28we have to face it
37:28that we are
37:29in the fashion industry.
37:31If you don't fit the clothes,
37:32you don't work.
37:34She's just real thin.
37:36I love it.
37:37What are you eating?
37:38Um,
37:39I have gained
37:40a little bit of weight,
37:40yeah.
37:41You live as a model,
37:42it's your job
37:43to maintain your size.
37:44Okay.
37:45Someone who's a size 6
37:46is a plus size.
37:47It's like,
37:47no, come on.
37:49She's not fat.
37:50There was a lot of that.
37:51There was a lot of
37:52body shaming.
37:53But then again,
37:53we have to remember,
37:54this is 25 years ago.
37:56Like,
37:56we were different back then.
37:58I feel like
37:59her body type
37:59isn't plus size
38:01and it isn't model size.
38:02I think that she should
38:03gain weight
38:04and become a plus size model.
38:05Were there eating disorders
38:06on the show?
38:07Yes.
38:08Yes, they were.
38:08You want to do
38:09anything you can
38:10to get to the next round.
38:12Anything you can.
38:13She gained a lot of weight.
38:16It just really shocked me today.
38:18I'm seeing
38:19such a huge change
38:20physically.
38:21I know people say
38:23it was irresponsible
38:24to have these discussions,
38:26but they were very relevant
38:28to the time.
38:30I think there was
38:30a very difficult balance
38:31to strike.
38:32A lot of the girls
38:33developed some really
38:35unhealthy habits.
38:36Is that all your lunch?
38:37That's all you're eating?
38:39I'm using startups.
38:42You're going to get sick
38:43if you eat like that.
38:44It was very common
38:45to live on Diet Coke
38:46and cigarettes.
38:47It was like the
38:48Karl Lagerfeld
38:48Chanel diet.
38:49Look at this waist.
38:51You have the smallest waist
38:52in the world.
38:53There's something about her
38:54that I like.
38:55And the only people you saw
38:56didn't look like you.
38:58Plus size modeling
38:59did not exist.
39:00I mean, that wasn't
39:01even a thing.
39:03My name is Whitney
39:05and I'm from
39:05Atlantic Beach, Florida.
39:09I represent
39:10a healthy American woman,
39:13which should be
39:13the ideal American woman.
39:16When we started filming,
39:17I was a size 6.
39:19I was 5'10
39:19and weighed 115 pounds.
39:21I thought that I looked good.
39:23And then you go on TV
39:25and you're like,
39:25oh, shit.
39:26Uh, maybe not.
39:28Okay, I got it.
39:30I know that's really good,
39:31actually.
39:31It's perfect.
39:32I look skinny.
39:32It was a big juxtaposition
39:35to go into this
39:36fashion world
39:37where people are like,
39:38oh, my God,
39:39you're such a fat cow.
39:40This is size 10.
39:41A size 10
39:42we wouldn't use
39:43for the runway.
39:44So usually runway
39:45is too...
39:47I completely...
39:47Yeah.
39:48It's definitely frustrating
39:49because obviously
39:50I'm discriminated against
39:51because I'm not a size 2.
39:54It's just sad to me
39:54that it's so, like,
39:56you don't want to be a size 2.
40:02Filming with a bunch
40:03of other size 00 models,
40:06I suddenly felt
40:08a lot more self-conscious.
40:09I don't want to get fat like you.
40:11Perhaps you meant P-H-A-T.
40:13I would go to set
40:15and they would have nothing
40:16that would fit me
40:17and they would have to cut open
40:18the back and clamp it.
40:20I don't know
40:21if they're really prepared
40:22for my size
40:23because these are sample sizes.
40:24And sample sizes
40:25are size 2
40:27and I'm not size 2.
40:29It just makes you feel like shit,
40:30you know,
40:31to not be the right size.
40:32It was just demeaning.
40:34But there was a model
40:35named Akara
40:36who was on previously
40:37and she went to set.
40:39They didn't have clothes
40:40that fit her
40:40and she kind of, you know,
40:42let them know
40:43how she felt about that.
40:44You can't find something
40:45in my size.
40:46I'm supposed to feel bad
40:46because...
40:48You're taking everything
40:49as a negative.
40:50I don't think
40:51that you realize
40:52how this whole modeling
40:52thing works.
40:54And she got cut that week.
40:56They could easily
40:57have gotten clothes
40:58that were my size
40:59but that was a choice
41:00that they made
41:01and I dealt with that
41:03as well as I could
41:04because if they see weakness,
41:07they're gone.
41:11I later found out
41:13that there are women
41:14who developed eating disorders
41:16from comparing themselves
41:18to what I was looking like
41:20and what the judges
41:22were saying.
41:25Tyra tells me,
41:27you know what,
41:27this picture is beautiful
41:28but we have to retouch
41:29the heck out of your stomach.
41:31This one clip
41:32was enough to spiral
41:33my disordered eating
41:35into an ED for decades.
41:38I remember when I was a kid
41:39back then
41:40and I would watch shows
41:42like America's Next Top Model
41:43and you would basically
41:45see Tyra Banks
41:46telling women
41:46how their bodies
41:47are not acceptable
41:48and they were tiny as hell
41:50to like skinny petite girl.
41:51It just blows my mind
41:52because look how petite
41:53this woman is.
41:54I don't want her fans.
41:56I don't want to shame anybody
41:56but she looks like a wig.
41:58You know the kind of
41:59psychological damage
42:00that does on a bench?
42:01It showed me a lot
42:02of things that weren't
42:03I am beautiful
42:04when I was young.
42:05Look at...
42:07I think there's just
42:08some level of responsibility
42:09to the viewer
42:10knowing that there are
42:11so many young women
42:12watching this show.
42:14There's an insensitivity
42:15towards what it would do
42:17for their self-confidence.
42:18You can get a burger
42:19and take the red off.
42:20I wish I could say
42:20shaming my body
42:21was the end of it
42:22but the production
42:23didn't stop there.
42:29I'm in South Africa.
42:30We're down to the last girls.
42:32I can feel
42:33that I could possibly
42:34win this show.
42:36On today's show
42:37you're going to be dancing
42:39with three hot guys.
42:41I remember getting on set
42:43and like
42:44one of the male models
42:45Bertini
42:47was
42:49very aggressively
42:50hitting on me.
42:53Bertini is a very
42:54interesting person.
42:55Before we go on
42:56to the shoot
42:56like he's very, very flirty.
42:58She only gave me
42:58a number.
42:59I don't have one.
43:00It was very awkward.
43:01You give me that massage.
43:03He wants a massage from me.
43:05Sorry, gotta go
43:06ride the wardrobe
43:07out after that.
43:08On set
43:09no one's really
43:10paying much attention
43:10to it at all.
43:11I have to pretty much
43:13fin for myself.
43:14It's space now.
43:15I gotta
43:16I gotta
43:17break this out.
43:18I need some space.
43:20Okay guys, get close.
43:21Music.
43:22The male models
43:23were supposed to dance
43:24around us.
43:26Mind you,
43:26they all have just
43:27this teeny tiny
43:29little piece of loincloth
43:30covering their members
43:31and
43:32Bertini was like
43:33touching me,
43:34grabbing me.
43:36I really felt
43:37that he was just
43:38taking advantage
43:39of the moment
43:40to
43:41touch me.
43:43I remember
43:44thinking to myself,
43:45what would Tyra do
43:47in this situation?
43:48Tyra would
43:49politely and professionally
43:51stop the shoot
43:51and just let everyone
43:53know that she feels
43:54a little uncomfortable.
43:55And so that's
43:56exactly what I did.
43:57What's the issue?
43:58I know it's not about
43:59feeling comfortable,
44:00but
44:02hearing moaning,
44:03it just threw me off.
44:04Moaning where?
44:05Like on me,
44:06like I'm sorry,
44:07I just didn't feel comfortable.
44:10I didn't get the response
44:11that I thought
44:11I was going to get.
44:12The looks on their faces
44:13were just like,
44:15how dare you
44:16stop our production?
44:18We're here
44:19in a professional situation.
44:20There are like
44:2050 of us
44:21sitting here on set.
44:22Right, right.
44:23We're going with the flow.
44:26To be on a TV set
44:28in front of so many people
44:30and still not be protected
44:34is some pretty dark stuff.
44:38There is a line
44:39that I feel was crossed
44:41and I hope that doesn't
44:42come out in my picture
44:43when I go to the panel.
44:53Thank you.
44:56Welcome, ladies.
44:58Hi.
44:59Now it's time
45:00to make our 11th cut,
45:02which will bring us...
45:03I recall that
45:03that judging panel,
45:05there was a real discussion
45:07around what happened.
45:08Pina,
45:09here is your best shot.
45:11It's a good shot.
45:13It's not a slamming shot.
45:14I would have liked
45:14to see more neck.
45:15Yeah, more neck,
45:16more movement.
45:17The thing is that
45:18this male model,
45:20Bertini,
45:21he was swinging with me,
45:22he was grinding on me.
45:23I feel like he...
45:24Wait, can we stop it?
45:27The fact
45:29that
45:30the photo that was chosen
45:32is a photo of Bertini
45:33literally grabbing my legs.
45:35Are we going to really choose
45:37the shot where he's grabbing her
45:38in the shot?
45:40I mean,
45:40the receipts
45:41are right there.
45:43It's wild
45:43that that got passed
45:44however many people
45:45it got passed.
45:47There has to be a way
45:49that you can handle it.
45:49You know,
45:50you have to be able
45:50to be in control.
45:56Some of those things
45:56are also kind of
45:58the reality of the world.
45:59You know,
45:59unfortunately,
46:00in the fashion industry,
46:01there's always been
46:02a lot of issues
46:03with, you know,
46:04sort of harassment
46:05in every sort of shape or way,
46:07whether you're a male model
46:08or a female model,
46:09actually.
46:10You know,
46:10not everyone is going to
46:11handle the same situation
46:12in the same way,
46:13but you as an individual
46:14should be able to stand up
46:15for yourself and say,
46:16hey, no,
46:16this isn't working
46:17or, you know,
46:18or figure it out
46:18and just get the job done.
46:20I mean,
46:20there's people
46:20and cameras everywhere.
46:21Like with your feminine wiles,
46:23like,
46:23boy,
46:23you best to back up
46:24before I knock you
46:25on the side of the head.
46:26But you do it
46:26in a fun way
46:27where he knows
46:28to back the heck up,
46:29but it doesn't really
46:30put static in the air
46:31because then it makes
46:32you uncomfortable.
46:33I was trying to empower her
46:35with the information
46:36that I had
46:37to say,
46:38you tell him to back up
46:40and da-da-da
46:40and don't we mess up much.
46:41You know,
46:41that's kind of what I was saying,
46:43not verbatim,
46:44because I felt like
46:45that was empowering her
46:46based on the information
46:48that I had.
46:50I thought that was
46:51the best advice,
46:52but it should have been
46:54stop down.
46:55And that's what
46:56would happen today.
46:57We now all understand
46:59the protections
47:00that women need.
47:02And so I say to Kenya,
47:04Boo-boo,
47:04I am so sorry.
47:06None of us knew.
47:07Network executives
47:09didn't know.
47:10And I did the best
47:11that I could
47:11at that time.
47:12But she deserved more.
47:14She did.
47:18I can see how someone
47:19watching the show
47:20would feel upset.
47:23There was a time
47:25when the creative
47:27of the show
47:28started to shift.
47:30We were supposed
47:31to be showing
47:31the behind the scenes
47:33of what the fashion world was,
47:35helping change
47:37the industry.
47:39But the show
47:40had evolved
47:41in a way
47:42I'd never expected.
47:44I really struggled
47:45over some of the things
47:47that happened.
47:48I have never in my life
47:49the order to grow like this!
47:50And that was something
47:51that was slowly
47:53depleting me,
47:55chipping away
47:55at my soul.
47:57I just don't think
47:58this is, like,
47:58great for me.
47:59I don't want to do it.
48:00I want to go home.
48:01Don't you think
48:01any job interview?
48:04It was time
48:05to tell Tyra
48:06I wanted to leave
48:07the show.
48:22I want to go home.
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