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00:00:00¡SuscrÃbete al canal!
00:00:30He's 38 years young.
00:00:34I am 22.
00:00:37Trying to roll with that whole age is just a number thing.
00:00:42I really don't know if you're ready for this one.
00:00:45You ready?
00:00:46I'm 60.
00:00:50Oh my gosh.
00:00:5230, 40, 50, 60.
00:00:54Yeah, he's 33 years older than me.
00:00:57Jorge is literally the same age as my parents.
00:01:03I never want to be surprised about something you've done.
00:01:07I came here with you not to be alone.
00:01:10I feel like you're not attracted to me.
00:01:14We're kind of in a friend zone right now.
00:01:16Okay.
00:01:18Is he the right person?
00:01:20Did I pick the right person?
00:01:22Okay, I'm really done talking.
00:01:24Okay.
00:01:25Can I get this mic off me, please?
00:01:27This connection is not going to be easy to find.
00:01:31And I know I won't find this again.
00:01:37Starting tomorrow, you are getting visitors.
00:01:41Your friends, your families.
00:01:44Sarah.
00:01:45Hi, I'm Sarah.
00:01:46I've never dated anyone this much older.
00:01:48I hope it works out well for them, but it's weird.
00:01:52It's weird.
00:01:52Being 23 and potentially having two immediate children.
00:01:58Yeah.
00:01:59I'm leaving everybody and everything I've worked for.
00:02:03What the fuck am I doing?
00:02:05I'm just exhausted and I'm overwhelmed
00:02:07because I feel like I can't be myself with you.
00:02:13Integrating a 22-year-old girl into my life
00:02:17is definitely concerning.
00:02:19Is there a future with us?
00:02:22It's decision time.
00:02:24Do you commit to taking this leap together?
00:02:29Or do you choose a different path, alone?
00:02:35It sucks.
00:02:42I wasn't fine till you came
00:02:45Into my view
00:02:47Thought I was going insane
00:02:50Till I found you
00:02:52Did you get everything out of the bathroom?
00:02:55I bet I'll check the other rooms.
00:02:57You work on your...
00:02:59I think you need to get a garment bag.
00:03:01Yeah.
00:03:02I feel nervous, anxious.
00:03:06This is the last time I'm going to see her
00:03:07before the commitment ceremony.
00:03:09Everything I can do, I did.
00:03:11I'm super nervous about my alone time
00:03:15and, you know,
00:03:16what is that alone time going to lead me to think?
00:03:20Part of me wants to commit to Vanessa
00:03:23and then part of me is like,
00:03:25is this right?
00:03:26Is this up and down too much for us to handle?
00:03:30You know?
00:03:30And my fear of commitment
00:03:33continues to be my fear of commitment, right?
00:03:36And so that's a scary thought.
00:03:41How are you doing?
00:03:42I got all your stuff ready for you.
00:03:44Thank you.
00:03:45How are you feeling?
00:03:46Okay.
00:03:46How are you?
00:03:47I'm good.
00:03:50I'm sad.
00:03:50I don't want you to leave.
00:03:52I know.
00:03:52I don't even know what to say.
00:03:54I know.
00:03:54It's been fun.
00:03:55The last few days with you has been, like,
00:03:57better than I could ever dream of.
00:04:00I mean,
00:04:01you're one of the most amazing girls
00:04:03I've ever met in my entire life.
00:04:04Thank you.
00:04:05It's hard to put it into words, right?
00:04:07But I think it was
00:04:09one of the most amazing, beautiful things
00:04:11I've ever experienced.
00:04:12And, you know,
00:04:13it's weird kind of closing this chapter.
00:04:17I feel like we're breaking off.
00:04:19This is like a breakup.
00:04:23I don't know what to say.
00:04:25What if I cry?
00:04:29Don't.
00:04:30Don't cry?
00:04:31No.
00:04:31Okay.
00:04:32You'll be okay.
00:04:34You look amazing.
00:04:36Thanks.
00:04:38No.
00:04:42Okay?
00:04:43Okay.
00:04:45You okay?
00:04:46Mm-hmm.
00:04:47You okay?
00:04:47Yeah.
00:04:48Promise?
00:04:49Mm-hmm.
00:04:52I'm here for you.
00:04:54Yeah.
00:04:55Okay.
00:04:57I just have PTSD, I think.
00:05:00What?
00:05:01I don't know.
00:05:01Just with, like,
00:05:03the history of my relationships
00:05:04not working out, you know,
00:05:06and I feel like
00:05:07this is just another
00:05:09fail out of 10, you know?
00:05:12Like, it's not you.
00:05:13I don't want to project it on you.
00:05:14It's not you at all.
00:05:16It's just...
00:05:16I've just put myself out there before
00:05:19and only to get hurt,
00:05:22and I just hope, like,
00:05:23this doesn't have the same outcome.
00:05:25It's scary.
00:05:27Something inside me is way too scared to
00:05:30care about you like this.
00:05:33coming into this with Logan.
00:05:35I had so many reservations
00:05:37because I had been so hurt before.
00:05:40So there is this guard up, like,
00:05:42I'll be okay.
00:05:43I'll be okay, you know?
00:05:44And maybe I won't be okay.
00:05:46I just hope I chose right this time,
00:05:49and I picked the right person,
00:05:51and I feel like you are,
00:05:52and I hope that you feel the same about me.
00:05:56Yeah, I mean, I do.
00:05:59It's really scary to
00:06:01not put yourself out there
00:06:02for this many years,
00:06:04get this close to someone,
00:06:06only for yourself
00:06:08to be devastated all over again,
00:06:11and for the whole world to see.
00:06:13Let's see ya.
00:06:14Okay.
00:06:15See ya soon, okay?
00:06:15Okay.
00:06:16Take care of yourself.
00:06:16To see an older woman
00:06:18with a man 20 years younger,
00:06:20like, that's rare.
00:06:21It's very rare.
00:06:22And it's like,
00:06:23am I delusional
00:06:25to think that it would even work,
00:06:27you know?
00:06:27Am I delusional
00:06:28to put my heart out there?
00:06:31I mean, he's, like,
00:06:32in the prime of his life right now,
00:06:34honestly.
00:06:40And why would he give that up
00:06:42for someone 20 years older than him?
00:06:44I'll hold out a whole lot
00:06:49But I hope you'll put me wrong
00:06:54Go back, baby
00:06:57Out of my dreams
00:06:59You're leaving.
00:07:00I know.
00:07:01I'm just trying to make sure
00:07:02I don't forget anything.
00:07:03But you're forgetting me.
00:07:06I think that we need
00:07:07this little bit of separation
00:07:09because we haven't had it,
00:07:10and this is the first time
00:07:11that I think I'm going to be able
00:07:12to look at this from the outside,
00:07:15make a clear decision.
00:07:17Clearly, me and Leah
00:07:18have had ups and downs
00:07:19since we moved in together.
00:07:21But at the same time,
00:07:22there's been much blessings
00:07:23from this relationship.
00:07:24Even during the difficult times,
00:07:26the care and the love
00:07:27for each other
00:07:27has always been constant.
00:07:29And I think that
00:07:31it's very clear
00:07:32that I care so much for her.
00:07:35So the question is,
00:07:37is that does the good
00:07:38outweigh the bad?
00:07:39And are these good moments
00:07:40enough to continue
00:07:41in this relationship?
00:07:44Give me a hug.
00:07:48Thank you for being you.
00:07:50Thank you for making me
00:07:51a better person.
00:07:52You're welcome.
00:07:54You're seriously?
00:07:58Why are you looking at me
00:07:58like that?
00:07:59Because you're leaving.
00:08:03We didn't even get to dance yet.
00:08:09Yeah.
00:08:12We have a lot of thinking.
00:08:13We both have a lot
00:08:13of thinking to do.
00:08:14I know.
00:08:17I...
00:08:19Oh...
00:08:21Oh...
00:08:21Oh...
00:08:22I'm gonna miss you a little bit.
00:08:25I might miss you too.
00:08:26I think more than you think.
00:08:28You think?
00:08:29Mm-hmm.
00:08:30You're not going to sleep now
00:08:31because you're not thinking about me.
00:08:32Maybe I don't know about that.
00:08:34What?
00:08:35I might be able to sleep.
00:08:36No, you won't.
00:08:38Give me my kiss.
00:08:42It's like bittersweet this morning.
00:08:44All right.
00:08:44I'll see you.
00:08:45I'll see you.
00:08:45With the commitment ceremony
00:08:46coming up,
00:08:47it's gonna be difficult.
00:08:48We're still debating
00:08:49on how we're even gonna make it
00:08:51work here, right?
00:08:52Let alone commit to each other.
00:08:55I know he likes me
00:08:56and we're leaving off
00:08:57in a great space right now.
00:08:59But, yeah,
00:09:00I don't want to put any pressure on it
00:09:02because I don't know.
00:09:03I don't know
00:09:04what the future holds for us.
00:09:05Because the words
00:09:06won't buffer anymore.
00:09:10How are you feeling?
00:09:12About what?
00:09:13Leaving.
00:09:15Mm-hmm.
00:09:15I feel like I've been the one
00:09:17that brings up, you know,
00:09:19some of the more challenging things
00:09:20and we don't know how...
00:09:23Yeah.
00:09:23...we're gonna communicate after this.
00:09:25Like, we've only ever been
00:09:27in this bubble.
00:09:28So, like, we don't know what it's like
00:09:30to text or call
00:09:31or...
00:09:32I've never done long distance before.
00:09:34So those things, naturally,
00:09:36I feel like are...
00:09:37are things that I'm thinking about.
00:09:39Yeah.
00:09:40I'm glad you brought it, um,
00:09:43up because I just wasn't
00:09:45even thinking about it
00:09:45that way at all.
00:09:47I think I'm just someone
00:09:48that is very realistic.
00:09:50Yeah.
00:09:50And, you know...
00:09:52Yeah, no, I understand.
00:09:53I know that this has to end
00:09:54at some point and...
00:09:55Mm-hmm.
00:09:56...just...
00:09:57you know, like, I mean,
00:09:59I wish we could stay
00:10:00in this little bubble forever,
00:10:02but, you know,
00:10:03we have to say goodbye.
00:10:05The fact that the next time
00:10:07I am going to see Andrew
00:10:08is a commitment ceremony
00:10:10gives me a little bit
00:10:12of anxiety, honestly.
00:10:13Um, I know he's in his head
00:10:15and I don't blame him too much
00:10:17because those doubts
00:10:19were in the back of my mind.
00:10:20I just wasn't really vocalizing them.
00:10:22There is a part of me
00:10:24that's afraid that
00:10:25the age gap between Andrew
00:10:27and I will just be too much.
00:10:29And, yeah, I have a fear
00:10:31that ultimately
00:10:32that will just
00:10:33be too overwhelming
00:10:35for both of us.
00:10:43Okay.
00:10:46Bye-bye.
00:10:48See ya.
00:10:50See ya.
00:10:55Bye-bye.
00:11:24Bye-bye.
00:11:27More of that.
00:11:28Aw.
00:11:32Ooh.
00:11:42Is that beautiful?
00:11:44Mm-hmm.
00:11:46Bueno, yo voy a pensar en ti cada vez que me guste.
00:11:50Yo estaba pensando en ese tiempo.
00:11:55Me encanta apoyarte y me encanta estar aquà para ti cuando...
00:12:03...es que estoy pensando en ti.
00:12:04So, I'll be thinking about you.
00:12:09Um, I'm going to have some time just to, like, think and get myself, like, more centered.
00:12:16Um, and I'm going to miss you for sure.
00:12:20We've gotten so close in such a short period of time, and living together was amazing.
00:12:27Um, I'm going to miss that for sure.
00:12:30But I think this time apart is going to be good for us, even though I hate saying goodbye.
00:12:38Um, so I'm glad I have these.
00:12:42I'm there with you.
00:12:44Okay.
00:12:49Well, thanks for being everything for me.
00:12:51Mm-hmm.
00:12:52And don't miss me too much.
00:12:57Impossible.
00:13:00I am in love with Teresa.
00:13:02The way she's allowed me to open up and be vulnerable and not put on a facade, which I've done
00:13:08in the past,
00:13:09and just the joy she brings me, like, when I wake up and I see her, and that sense of
00:13:14home feels good.
00:13:18Am I hoping that we come out on the same page and even a little stronger?
00:13:23Yeah, and I think that's a possibility.
00:13:29But there's a chance that she just gets way too in her head, and she might be a different person
00:13:43when I see her again.
00:13:45Bye.
00:13:46Okay.
00:13:46Goodbye.
00:13:47Goodbye.
00:13:57I have a huge, huge decision to make.
00:14:03There's no denying that we had a true and real connection from the beginning.
00:14:08Time is gonna let you down.
00:14:15However, I still have some doubts.
00:14:21Is this just the final call?
00:14:26It's a huge commitment to say that this person, who's 27 years younger than me, is my boyfriend.
00:14:38And that I'm going to commit to going forward with this and opening this up to the world.
00:14:48I don't know if I have the strength to see this through.
00:15:02It's cheers to this journey that we've had.
00:15:05Cheers to a big decision.
00:15:06A very big decision coming.
00:15:16How do you feel?
00:15:19I, you know, I know how I feel about you.
00:15:22I know that that doesn't always make everything A-okay and easy.
00:15:27I do understand the logistics of where we are in life.
00:15:32Geographical challenges, other challenges as well.
00:15:35So, you know, it's time to take all of that into consideration.
00:15:40Yeah.
00:15:41You know, this whole time we've kind of been like, oh, we're in a fairy tale and everything
00:15:45is perfectly smooth and we're having no challenges, which was true.
00:15:49It was true up until these last few days.
00:15:52So the fact that we're taking this time apart now, um, has me a little bit unsure
00:16:03about my decision.
00:16:06Um, a lot of questions have come up that I just have been ignoring.
00:16:09And I think I've been putting them off because I didn't want to ruin anything or have anything
00:16:15be different than what it was.
00:16:16So, like, while it is confusing and it's scary, I know that this time apart will end up benefiting
00:16:27both of us because my decision will be grounded and, um, and, like, it'll be thoughtful.
00:16:36Yeah.
00:16:37And I respect that.
00:16:41I definitely think her concerns are valid.
00:16:44But one thing that I've done the last few days is try to truly focus on her feelings and
00:16:51her emotions.
00:16:52And I've taken myself out of it a little bit.
00:16:56And obviously we're going to have some time apart to where, you know, I'm going to have
00:17:01to think that through on my side as well.
00:17:03And what does that look like?
00:17:05Because it's a big commitment.
00:17:08And can she handle it?
00:17:09See?
00:17:11We're probably just at different stages in life.
00:17:13I have my boys.
00:17:15How will that match?
00:17:16There's so many question marks.
00:17:19I'd be lying to you if I didn't say I was a little bit nervous.
00:17:23If it's not too late.
00:17:29If it's not too late.
00:17:34If it's not too late.
00:18:01I'd be lying to you if I didn't say I was a little bit nervous.
00:18:07I'd be lying to her or the stress of her kids get to her.
00:18:10Turn and face the storm.
00:18:14You know, I support her and I'm here for her.
00:18:17And my family supports, you know, our relationship.
00:18:21But I'm worried that Teresa hasn't bought in because of a lot of factors that I can't control.
00:18:28Never start you saying.
00:18:31We guided you before.
00:18:33I'm fully committed to Teresa.
00:18:36This will be my final teardrop.
00:18:40This will be our personal call.
00:18:43And I hope she's ready to take that leap with me.
00:19:01My feelings are getting much stronger every day for John.
00:19:05I have to admit that, you know, I am falling for him.
00:19:09It's almost been too good to be true.
00:19:11But there's also a piece of me that still has doubts.
00:19:22This age gap difference is huge.
00:19:25And, yeah, I'm scared.
00:19:32I have the option of walking away today.
00:19:36And, you know, I'd be walking away from a lot.
00:19:39I know that I will regret not having him in my life.
00:19:44But I don't know if it's going to be too much.
00:19:49Should we just take the easy route and go our separate ways and go back to our lives the way
00:19:58they were?
00:20:00I don't know if I'm ready for this.
00:20:03A final teardrop
00:20:33We've gone through a lot of hard stuff early on
00:20:37that I'm thankful for.
00:20:39We had to be there for each other, and that says something.
00:20:41I've never been able to be there for someone.
00:20:43I was never in the right headspace for it.
00:20:45I was never open to receive this and to support someone like I've supported you.
00:20:50I feel lucky that I get to show up for you.
00:20:56I'm confident in this.
00:20:58I'm confident in what we've built.
00:21:00I know what we have.
00:21:01And it's the feeling.
00:21:04It's the immediate sense of calmness that you bring me whenever I see you.
00:21:12Us being able to laugh in the most serious moments, most intimate moments.
00:21:20I'm looking forward to that next step, and we'll get there with the age thing.
00:21:30I need you to believe that age is just a number, but also believe in me that every day I'm
00:21:36going to show up and work on this together.
00:21:44When I decided to take this journey to find someone to share my life with, I said to myself that
00:21:55I was ready.
00:21:55When I met you, you drew me in with your smile, your energy, and your steadiness.
00:22:05You made me laugh, and you made me feel better than I ever had in the past.
00:22:16But for whatever reason, there was still something holding me back.
00:22:23When you met my kids, and I didn't tell them your age, it wasn't because I was ashamed.
00:22:29It was because I was scared.
00:22:33Scared because if I spoke it, it would be real.
00:22:38Scared because of the things we might face from the world.
00:22:45Knowing that the world is not fair, and that there is a double standard against women who date younger men.
00:22:54So it got me thinking, maybe it would be better if I walked away before it got to be too
00:23:02difficult.
00:23:07And too real.
00:23:10I'm kidding.
00:23:15It's a lot.
00:23:20It's a really scary thing for me.
00:23:24If I let myself
00:23:28be totally vulnerable
00:23:32with you
00:23:34and the world,
00:23:35it's the hugest risk
00:23:38I will ever have taken.
00:23:45I just didn't see this coming.
00:23:55Just a tall 180 from what we were feeling.
00:24:01I mean, we've shared some amazing times together.
00:24:05And you've been really patient and very understanding.
00:24:14But I just worry that it's too much.
00:24:20You're not up for the fight?
00:24:23I mean, I'm a fighter.
00:24:26I'm also just trying to protect myself and to protect you.
00:24:36There's a letter that my kids wrote to you that I want to read.
00:24:49all right.
00:24:50Dear Jon, it was really nice meeting you and watching you and our mom together.
00:25:00She just seemed so happy
00:25:02And we haven't seen her like that in a while
00:25:10Give me a second
00:25:14We don't know exactly what the age difference is
00:25:17But it doesn't matter to us
00:25:19After seeing you two together
00:25:22We just want her to be happy
00:25:26And you clearly do that
00:25:27So we support your relationship
00:25:30And are excited for whatever comes next
00:25:34Love Lauren, Richard, and Michael
00:25:45I just need to know if you believe that
00:25:48If you're up for that challenge
00:25:52And you believe and trust your kids that they support you
00:26:00I need you to wake up every morning
00:26:03And see and believe and trust that your kids support this
00:26:10And then whatever comes after that
00:26:11We can, you know, go to battle
00:26:15But it's up to you
00:26:18I've said the whole time
00:26:20The ball's in your court on if you believe that
00:26:27I mean, it makes me feel a lot more confident
00:26:30And happy to know that they wrote that to you
00:26:35I had no idea what it said
00:26:38And so I don't want to walk away
00:26:42In fact, I want to walk
00:26:45Towards something with you
00:26:48And I don't know exactly what that will be
00:26:50Or what that will look like
00:26:52But I think together
00:26:55You know, we can navigate it
00:26:58And I think if you are able to support
00:27:02Me and my crazy anxiety
00:27:06You know, we can make this into something really special
00:27:15I think so too
00:27:16And I will be able at some point
00:27:21To maybe scream it from the mountaintop
00:27:27But right now
00:27:30I'm just going to promise you
00:27:34And commit to you
00:27:36To continue to build our relationship into something real
00:27:41And something really great
00:27:49I accept
00:27:52Hilarious
00:27:54I'm excited for whatever's next
00:27:57And I'm thankful for this experience
00:28:01And I want to continue falling in love with you
00:28:07So do I
00:28:08I love you
00:28:10I love you too
00:28:13I love you too much
00:28:14So let you go
00:28:16I'm good because you don't have to
00:28:19Good answer
00:28:19All your dreams
00:28:37And all your fears
00:28:41You think those worlds collide
00:28:47I'm feeling a little nervous
00:28:49I have confidence in Derek
00:28:51And I have confidence in our relationship
00:28:53But I still have a lot of fears
00:28:56But I still have a lot of fears
00:28:57About my own future
00:28:58I mean, I'm 23
00:29:06I never imagined that I would be moving across the country
00:29:10Moving for a man who has children
00:29:13And I think the fear
00:29:15And I think the fear is just coming from a place of not having experience
00:29:18In being in that sort of relationship
00:29:21Or being with somebody who has kids
00:29:22And say, oh
00:29:24I don't want to know
00:29:26This is a big decision
00:29:28If heaven is a westland
00:29:30Essentially, I either walk away without Derek
00:29:33And I go back to my life in Seattle
00:29:35Or I leave with Derek
00:29:37And I get something extremely different
00:29:40Than anything I could have ever imagined
00:29:43When you let the love inside
00:29:46I'm conflicted
00:29:48It's like, do I risk it all
00:29:49And change everything I know
00:29:51For a man and for a relationship
00:29:53Or do I make the hard decision to end it?
00:29:57But you can't find a way to let me in
00:30:02Not in a million years
00:30:04Did I ever think that I would come into this experience
00:30:07And find such a real, genuine, authentic connection
00:30:12And you say, oh
00:30:14I don't want to know
00:30:17It feels like I'm getting married, honestly
00:30:20There's a lot weighing on it
00:30:22You know, there's a whole life change that she has to consider
00:30:24The last conversation we had
00:30:27She definitely has some question marks
00:30:29And the nerves are there
00:30:30She's scared
00:30:31And giving up her life
00:30:33Possibly changing her career
00:30:34I know that's a lie
00:30:37I'm wanting to be sympathetic
00:30:39And empathetic to that
00:30:40But I want her in Dallas with me
00:30:42But I'm not sure
00:30:43That our relationship at this time
00:30:46Is strong enough for her to make that change
00:30:49I just want to know
00:30:53Why you can't find a way
00:30:55To let me in
00:30:58That was amazing
00:30:59Thank you
00:31:02From the first date
00:31:03I didn't know exactly what it was
00:31:05But I knew I was extremely comfortable with you
00:31:07I felt at ease, at peace
00:31:10From just a quick conversation
00:31:12Like, honestly, that moment I knew deep down that I didn't want to even explore any other options at the
00:31:22retreat
00:31:24And, you know, we continued on
00:31:26And, you know, yeah, there were some nerves
00:31:31It's not easy to think I'm going to move in with someone that I just met
00:31:35But through that process
00:31:38I thought that it would be great
00:31:39But I was wrong
00:31:40Like, it was much better
00:31:42Than I could have even imagined
00:31:45So, for me, you know, the journey
00:31:47All the laughs and all the good times
00:31:49The challenges and tough conversations were just as important
00:31:54I feel like we've grown
00:31:56Every point alone is right
00:32:00From the first day
00:32:02I knew that you were special
00:32:04Despite our 20-year age gap
00:32:08I'm certain that my greatest blessing was meeting you
00:32:13I've always thought about and dreamed about the man I would end up with
00:32:17But you are far better
00:32:23Than anybody I could have imagined
00:32:28And now I can't imagine
00:32:31A future without you in it
00:32:38I've been confident in your character
00:32:40Since our first date
00:32:44But after moving in
00:32:46I'm certain that you were one of the best men
00:32:49That I've ever met
00:32:59It's been an honor
00:33:01To share this journey with you
00:33:04And the closer we get
00:33:07The more I know
00:33:08And the more I see
00:33:09Just how great of a man that you are
00:33:19Derek
00:33:20You are a phenomenal person
00:33:24Sometimes it seems too good to be true
00:33:27But it really is just who you are
00:33:30And I feel like I'm the luckiest girl
00:33:33In the whole world
00:33:35To have found you here
00:33:38Many people spend their whole lives
00:33:40Looking for what we've found here
00:33:45If I were to leave here without you
00:33:48I may regret it for the rest of my life
00:33:52But if we were to stay together
00:33:56My life would look wildly different
00:33:58Than I ever anticipated
00:34:04I would be sacrificing
00:34:06My entire life in Seattle
00:34:09My friends
00:34:10My support
00:34:12And everything I've built
00:34:14Over the last four years
00:34:21But
00:34:23Today
00:34:25I'm putting the unknowns aside
00:34:27And I'm trusting my heart
00:34:29So
00:34:30I am 100%
00:34:33Committed
00:34:34To moving to Dallas
00:34:37And starting
00:34:38Our dreams together
00:34:42Outside of all of this
00:34:48Yeah
00:34:49It was a lot
00:34:52But I promise
00:34:53I'm always going to
00:34:55Put in the work
00:34:57I'm always going to try
00:34:59I'll always protect you
00:35:01And I'll always protect your heart
00:35:03Pfeiffer I truly love you
00:35:06So
00:35:06This is
00:35:07My gift to you
00:35:12It's a key
00:35:13To our place
00:35:14That's been my place
00:35:15Thank you
00:35:17That means the world to me
00:35:19Absolutely
00:35:21I don't want you to be alone
00:35:22And I don't want you in Dallas
00:35:23In a separate place
00:35:24Literally
00:35:25My place is our place
00:35:26I feel like the luckiest person
00:35:28In the whole world
00:35:30And I have this whole time
00:35:33Thanks to all of us, babe
00:35:34I want to shine
00:35:38Just need a spot
00:35:40Somewhere
00:35:41I want to shine
00:35:45Show me the world away
00:35:48Today I'll shine
00:35:58I think I just got one more breath
00:36:02Broken heart is beating out of my chest
00:36:05Tired of running
00:36:06I just need some rest
00:36:09I came here to be able to open my heart up
00:36:12To find someone that I want to spend my life with, you know?
00:36:16When I think about my future
00:36:17I just want to be happily married to a wonderful guy
00:36:20And despite all of our ups and downs
00:36:23I think it could be Chris
00:36:25I got one hand on the edge of this cliff
00:36:29And I can't see the ground
00:36:31I'm like a hopeless romantic, you know?
00:36:34So I would like for this to work out with Chris
00:36:36We have something here
00:36:38We are finally in a great space
00:36:40But this step is big
00:36:42I'm 41, he's 26, you know?
00:36:45So, is he really ready?
00:36:49I'm not sure
00:36:50I can't give up hope, regardless
00:36:53Don't have any blood left to breathe
00:36:56I feel very uneasy
00:36:58Clearly me and Leah have love for each other
00:36:59Because we have been on an emotional rollercoaster
00:37:02If we didn't have love for each other
00:37:03As soon as it got really dark
00:37:05We wouldn't be here anymore
00:37:06The question was, and still is
00:37:08Are we in love?
00:37:12Leah is somebody that I have built such a connection with
00:37:16And a care for
00:37:17That I want to look past what we've dealt with
00:37:21And try to move forward
00:37:22At the same time
00:37:24I'm trying to figure out
00:37:25Am I ready for this or am I not?
00:37:28Because it's a decision that will affect me forever
00:37:34Logic, emotions, my head, my gut
00:37:37Which one do I listen to?
00:37:38And there's so many voices
00:37:40Whether it's outside or in our own heads
00:37:42That are telling us to do a certain thing
00:37:44And I'm trying to just ignore everything
00:37:45That society says should happen
00:37:48And listen to what I know is true
00:37:51Which is the voice in my heart
00:37:53Telling me what is right
00:38:00You look good
00:38:01You look beautiful
00:38:03I mean
00:38:09Prior to this
00:38:11Retreat
00:38:12I was praying that God would send
00:38:14Me and my person
00:38:15And I was really hoping
00:38:17Well maybe there'll be at this retreat
00:38:19And then I met you
00:38:21And then from our first conversation
00:38:24I knew we had something special
00:38:27And our first gift
00:38:28It was fire
00:38:29You lit something inside of me
00:38:31That I thought was gone
00:38:35I know we've had our fair share
00:38:37Of ups and downs
00:38:39But for me
00:38:40The good times outweigh the bad
00:38:49You challenged me
00:38:51To do and be better
00:38:53And I thank you for that
00:38:56Thank you for hearing
00:38:58Seeing
00:39:00And always telling me
00:39:02To just be me
00:39:04Thank you
00:39:07From day one
00:39:08We've talked about
00:39:09Being honest
00:39:11Being open
00:39:12And I think that
00:39:13The most important thing
00:39:15I want to highlight
00:39:15Is
00:39:17Just how honest and open
00:39:18You've allowed me to feel
00:39:20You've challenged me
00:39:21You've helped me grow
00:39:23And I hope I've done the same
00:39:25I
00:39:27Can't thank you enough
00:39:28For the experiences
00:39:29That we have
00:39:30Lived
00:39:37We've had ups and downs
00:39:38And there's no doubting
00:39:40That there's been difficult times
00:39:42And there's been beautiful times
00:39:44And I want to remember
00:39:47Both
00:39:50I think that we do need to
00:39:53Continue to be honest
00:39:54With each other
00:39:55And
00:39:57You know
00:39:58We've talked about
00:39:58Our age difference
00:39:59Many times
00:40:02And
00:40:02Maybe
00:40:04The age gap
00:40:05Was harder
00:40:05Than we thought
00:40:07But
00:40:08Here we are
00:40:09And
00:40:10I think we've both
00:40:11Made a decision
00:40:11That will impact
00:40:12Our lives
00:40:14And our families
00:40:14And I just
00:40:15Hope and pray
00:40:16That's the right one
00:40:19I think
00:40:19I just wanted you
00:40:21To be able to
00:40:23See what I see
00:40:24And I wanted to show you
00:40:25The world
00:40:26I want to see more with you
00:40:29And I want to get you
00:40:30Out of your comfort zone
00:40:31You know
00:40:33And I do want to challenge you
00:40:34In all the ways that
00:40:35I can
00:40:36And I love it
00:40:36When you challenge me too
00:40:38I can see myself
00:40:40Growing with you
00:40:41Building with you
00:40:43I know it's not easy
00:40:45I understand that
00:40:47We weren't at our best
00:40:50And it's like
00:40:50I want to see you
00:40:51Be at your best
00:40:52And me at my best
00:40:53And see how we can
00:40:54Be our best together
00:40:58I would
00:41:00Like to commit to you
00:41:05Excuse me
00:41:09So
00:41:11Wow
00:41:20So we've talked
00:41:21About our differences
00:41:22And we laid out
00:41:25What we want
00:41:26Out of a partner
00:41:26From day one
00:41:27I think we both
00:41:28Want to have a family
00:41:29I think we both
00:41:29Want to settle down
00:41:30I think maybe
00:41:31We want it
00:41:31At different paces
00:41:32I do think
00:41:33That the age difference
00:41:34Did cause an unnecessary
00:41:35Pressure on both of us
00:41:37And put us
00:41:37In a situation
00:41:38Where
00:41:42For the first time
00:41:42In my life
00:41:44I felt like
00:41:44It was hard
00:41:45For me to be myself
00:41:46Now I'm floating
00:41:49Lift me off the ground
00:41:51My heart is open
00:41:57And that's why
00:41:58Ultimately
00:41:59I feel that this
00:42:00Partnership is not
00:42:01Right
00:42:01Now I'm floating
00:42:05Lift me off the ground
00:42:08My heart is open
00:42:15And ultimately
00:42:18I can't move forward
00:42:19With something
00:42:19That I don't feel
00:42:20Is 100% right
00:42:22And I don't feel
00:42:23Like that's fair to you
00:42:24I don't feel like
00:42:24That's fair to your family
00:42:25Or mine
00:42:27So I am deciding
00:42:29To end this relationship
00:42:30Here
00:42:39Honestly
00:42:39I will cherish
00:42:40Every single
00:42:41Freaking moment
00:42:42And experience
00:42:44And I hope
00:42:45That this isn't
00:42:45The end of a friendship
00:42:46That I
00:42:48Truly value
00:42:50So seriously
00:42:51Thank you
00:42:52You're welcome
00:42:54And you are a beautiful person
00:42:55Inside and out
00:42:58Can I have a hug?
00:43:11It's nice meeting you
00:43:14Shh
00:43:24Chris didn't really
00:43:24Want to be with me
00:43:25If somebody really likes
00:43:27She really wants
00:43:27To be with you
00:43:28They'll be with you
00:43:29And they'll fight
00:43:31That's why I was willing
00:43:32To give us a shot
00:43:33And see if we really
00:43:34Could get it together
00:43:35But
00:43:36He wasn't
00:43:38I've always
00:43:39Want to be chosen
00:43:40But I wasn't
00:43:40Going to beg
00:43:41Someone to choose me
00:43:42I also can't
00:43:43Turn a boy
00:43:43Into a man either
00:43:44At least I gave my all
00:43:47I was hoping
00:43:49To find
00:43:50My love here
00:43:51At the retreat
00:43:52But I didn't
00:43:53Overall
00:43:54I think I've just learned
00:43:55Who I am
00:43:57And I'm a very strong
00:43:58Intelligent
00:43:59Beautiful woman
00:43:59And
00:44:00My future partner
00:44:02Will be happy
00:44:03To be with me
00:44:03And
00:44:04I'm excited for him
00:44:06No words left to say
00:44:09Cause I'll be okay
00:44:11I'm stronger now
00:44:26I'm definitely
00:44:28A little bit unsure
00:44:33You know the last few days
00:44:35I've definitely
00:44:35Been in my head
00:44:36I mean there's
00:44:38So much fear there
00:44:39That the age gap
00:44:41Will be too much
00:44:42Where we're at
00:44:43In our lives
00:44:43Will be too much
00:44:44The timing
00:44:45The distance
00:44:52Are we too far away
00:44:53From where the other person
00:44:56Is in life
00:44:57And
00:44:58I would be
00:44:59Lying if I said
00:45:00That that still
00:45:01Doesn't cross my mind
00:45:02Every single day
00:45:03With Libby
00:45:06There's definitely
00:45:07Two sides
00:45:08Going back and forth
00:45:10That's like
00:45:10It's not gonna work
00:45:12One's
00:45:13Going off of
00:45:14Previous experiences
00:45:15And all of the things
00:45:17That haven't worked
00:45:18And then the other side
00:45:19Of it is like
00:45:20My heart
00:45:28I'm a bit nervous
00:45:29Going into this
00:45:30Me and Andrew
00:45:31Have been so solid
00:45:32This entire experience
00:45:33I don't think
00:45:34I expected
00:45:35To get to this point
00:45:36This morning
00:45:37And be questioning things
00:45:41But the past couple days
00:45:43He's brought up
00:45:45The thing about
00:45:46Him worrying about
00:45:47Taking from my life
00:45:48And the distance
00:45:50Between us
00:45:51So
00:45:51I'm smiling
00:45:53A little bit too
00:45:54Andrew's doubts
00:45:55Are putting
00:45:56More ideas in my head
00:45:58I'm like
00:45:59Wait
00:45:59Is he right?
00:46:00Is this gonna work?
00:46:04His doubts
00:46:05Have now become
00:46:06My doubts
00:46:07And I think
00:46:09All of this
00:46:09Is really starting
00:46:10To freak me out
00:46:17I don't know
00:46:18How he's feeling
00:46:19And I don't know
00:46:21If he's decided
00:46:23That the age difference
00:46:24It's too much
00:46:25So
00:46:26I think it's very possible
00:46:27That Andrew's gonna break
00:46:28My heart on this mountain today
00:46:29Every single time
00:46:33You miss your side
00:46:35I will sit outside
00:46:39Wait for you
00:46:41So
00:46:41Thank you
00:46:43Thanks
00:46:44You look handsome
00:46:46It's true
00:46:52I came here
00:46:54Hoping
00:46:56To find something
00:46:57But I don't think
00:46:58I truly believed
00:46:59That I would find
00:47:01Something real
00:47:02There's a part of me
00:47:03That wonders
00:47:04If this works
00:47:06When we're outside
00:47:08Of the bubble
00:47:08That we've been living in
00:47:11You're 22
00:47:12I'm 38
00:47:15That's a big gap
00:47:18Your life
00:47:19Is just getting started
00:47:20You're figuring out
00:47:22Who you are
00:47:23What you want
00:47:25Where you're going
00:47:28And I'm settled
00:47:29In the life
00:47:30That I've already built
00:47:33The biggest fear
00:47:34For me
00:47:35Is keeping you
00:47:37From your dreams
00:47:40Even though
00:47:41You're a part of mine
00:47:47I understand
00:47:48What you mean
00:47:49And obviously
00:47:50I've been thinking
00:47:51About that too
00:47:52You know that sometimes
00:47:53It's hard for me
00:47:55To really
00:47:58Express how I'm feeling
00:47:59With my words
00:48:00And sometimes
00:48:02It's better
00:48:03And easier for me
00:48:04To write it out
00:48:05So I wrote you something
00:48:15Coming into this experience
00:48:17I hoped for the best
00:48:19But I truly never thought
00:48:20That I'd meet someone like you
00:48:22You have everything
00:48:23That I've ever wanted
00:48:24In a guy
00:48:25Which is incredibly rare
00:48:26Because that includes
00:48:27Some outrageous things
00:48:28Like someone who will
00:48:30Sing Taylor Swift with me
00:48:31And manifest
00:48:33You challenged me
00:48:34To open up in ways
00:48:35I never have before
00:48:37And brought out a side of me
00:48:39That not many people
00:48:40Get to see
00:48:41I love the way
00:48:42You talk and care
00:48:43About your daughters
00:48:44And the way you protect them
00:48:45In every aspect
00:48:46Shows what a great dad you are
00:48:49Hearing about your experiences
00:48:50As a father
00:48:51Has been one of the many things
00:48:52That drew me to you
00:48:53With that being said
00:48:56I know that that comes
00:48:57With a lot of weight
00:48:57And it's something
00:48:58That I don't take lightly
00:48:59And I know that
00:49:01You're worried about
00:49:03Our age gap
00:49:04And the fact that
00:49:05I'm 22
00:49:06And you think that
00:49:08There's a possibility
00:49:10That you could be
00:49:10Taking too much
00:49:11From my life
00:49:14And it has me thinking
00:49:16The last couple days
00:49:17About what it is
00:49:18That I really want
00:49:21And I really feel like
00:49:23It would only be
00:49:24An addition to my life
00:49:34I've had a lot of time
00:49:35To think
00:49:37As well
00:49:38And the truth is
00:49:45No matter how much
00:49:46I doubt
00:49:47The age gap
00:49:49The distance
00:49:50The timing
00:49:52I don't doubt
00:49:54The way I feel
00:49:56When I'm with you
00:50:00When we first got here
00:50:04You asked me
00:50:05If I ever thought
00:50:08I could fall in love
00:50:10Before the end of this
00:50:13And I remember saying
00:50:17I think someone could
00:50:19But I didn't think
00:50:21I would be that someone
00:50:25I was wrong
00:50:29Because I have
00:50:32And I do love you
00:50:36You have
00:50:38Opened up
00:50:39Things in me
00:50:41I thought
00:50:42Were shut down
00:50:43For good
00:50:44But I've been waiting
00:50:45A long time
00:50:46For something like this
00:50:48A really long time
00:50:51And I feel like
00:50:52It's finally
00:50:53My turn
00:50:55Like this
00:50:56Might actually be
00:50:58My rom-com
00:51:01Happy ending
00:51:03I know
00:51:04I'm so cheesy
00:51:04No, I love it
00:51:08I've been thinking a lot
00:51:10About
00:51:12What happens after this
00:51:15And
00:51:16I don't
00:51:17Know
00:51:19What your generation
00:51:20Calls it these days
00:51:23Hard launch
00:51:26Soft launch
00:51:28Probably
00:51:29Something way cooler
00:51:31Than what I'm about to say
00:51:33But
00:51:35I would really love
00:51:36To leave here
00:51:38With you as my girlfriend
00:51:40Do you want to hard launch me?
00:51:42I want to hard launch you
00:51:44I'm gonna need you to answer
00:51:46Before I continue
00:51:47Okay
00:51:48Okay
00:51:50I want to commit to you
00:51:52And
00:51:53I want a relationship
00:51:54With you
00:51:54Outside of here
00:51:55Because
00:51:57I also
00:51:58Love you too
00:52:09So
00:52:10So
00:52:10There is one more thing
00:52:13My daughters
00:52:15They are
00:52:16The most important thing
00:52:19To me
00:52:21With you
00:52:22You make me feel safe
00:52:24You make me feel safe
00:52:26To open up
00:52:28That box again
00:52:31And
00:52:31I would really love
00:52:33For you to come to Baltimore
00:52:35For you to meet my daughters
00:52:38Because
00:52:39I do see you
00:52:41In my future
00:52:43Forever
00:52:44That means the world
00:52:46Coming from you
00:52:48That's really sweet
00:52:50I think that
00:52:52I know how important
00:52:54Your daughters are
00:52:55To you
00:52:56And
00:52:57I want you to know
00:52:58That
00:52:59I think that that's something
00:53:01That's equally important
00:53:02To me
00:53:03And
00:53:04I think that
00:53:05If you were willing
00:53:07To open
00:53:07That part of your life
00:53:09To me
00:53:09I would be
00:53:12Happy to be
00:53:12A part of it
00:53:15I really do
00:53:17Love you
00:53:20I really do
00:53:21Love you too
00:53:41I'm in a really good place
00:53:43In my life
00:53:43I'm getting ready
00:53:45To turn 50 years old
00:53:46I've never
00:53:47Felt more comfortable
00:53:48In my body
00:53:50Financially
00:53:50Spiritually
00:53:51Everything
00:53:52And the one thing
00:53:53That is missing
00:53:54Is love
00:53:54And I know
00:53:56See you soon
00:53:59I thought
00:54:00I was never
00:54:01Going to find love again
00:54:02But
00:54:03Logan makes my heart
00:54:04Feel full
00:54:04And he gives me hope
00:54:06And he
00:54:07Makes me feel alive
00:54:09There's no more goodbyes
00:54:13To build it all with you
00:54:16Logan and I
00:54:17Have had a lot
00:54:18Of ups and downs
00:54:19We're finally
00:54:21At a really good place
00:54:22Except for the question mark
00:54:24Is he ready
00:54:24For a commitment
00:54:25Is Logan
00:54:26Going to
00:54:27Take a step forward
00:54:28And be ready
00:54:29For a commitment
00:54:30Or is he ready
00:54:31To go back
00:54:32To his party boy
00:54:33Lifestyle
00:54:34In Dallas
00:54:35And I'll go back
00:54:36To Ohio
00:54:37And start over
00:54:38From square one
00:54:46The thought
00:54:47Of going home
00:54:48Alone
00:54:48Would just
00:54:49Be devastating
00:54:50I don't want
00:54:52This to end
00:54:58I've obviously
00:54:59Fallen in love
00:54:59With Vanessa
00:55:00Our love
00:55:01Feels
00:55:02So in sync
00:55:03It feels like
00:55:05Something that I really
00:55:06To be honest
00:55:07I didn't think
00:55:08I would find
00:55:08If I could ride
00:55:12Would fuse my bones
00:55:15She loves me in a way
00:55:17That I haven't been loved before
00:55:20It's crazy that she's 20 years older than me
00:55:23But regardless of age
00:55:25I don't know if I'm going to find anybody else like Vanessa
00:55:32Going into the commitment ceremony
00:55:33The unknown is
00:55:35Am I going to be able to give her what she truly wants
00:55:38There's a chance that
00:55:40You know
00:55:41I get up there
00:55:42And see this woman
00:55:42That I've fallen in love with
00:55:44And it's picture perfect
00:55:45And there's a chance that
00:55:48I might not be able to meet those expectations
00:55:50There's a chance that
00:55:52We walk away
00:55:53Without each other
00:56:00Hi
00:56:01Hey
00:56:02You look so cute
00:56:03Good to see you
00:56:04I'm so nervous
00:56:05Yeah, right
00:56:07Yeah
00:56:10Can I hold your hands?
00:56:12It helps me
00:56:12If they're nervous
00:56:16Logan
00:56:16When I first met you
00:56:18You were such a
00:56:20Gentleman
00:56:20We had an amazing conversation
00:56:22And then
00:56:24We go out on our date
00:56:26And you tell me
00:56:27You're worried about the optics
00:56:28Of dating an older woman
00:56:29And I'm like
00:56:30What is up with this guy?
00:56:32I can't figure him out
00:56:33So I was like
00:56:35Forget it, you know
00:56:36But
00:56:37You
00:56:38Did a few things
00:56:39That were really important to me
00:56:44You apologized
00:56:45And you took accountability
00:56:47For your actions
00:56:48And
00:56:49And that meant a lot to me
00:56:50So I decided
00:56:51I really want to give this guy
00:56:53A chance
00:56:56Um
00:56:58Yeah
00:57:00I feel that
00:57:01With you
00:57:03I opened up more
00:57:04Than anyone else
00:57:05I've ever opened up to
00:57:06In my life
00:57:07I feel safe with you
00:57:09And that's something
00:57:10That's so important to me
00:57:13I was really in a dark time
00:57:15Before I came here
00:57:16You know
00:57:17I lost my mom
00:57:17And it's been almost a year
00:57:20And being with you
00:57:21You brought light back
00:57:22Into my life
00:57:23And
00:57:24I'm happy that you're here
00:57:26I'm happy to be here
00:57:30I'm happy to be here
00:57:31Yeah
00:57:32I mean
00:57:32Our journey has been
00:57:35Everything but
00:57:36Picture perfect
00:57:37Despite the whirlwind
00:57:40We found a connection
00:57:42And I think
00:57:43You know
00:57:44You challenged me
00:57:45And you asked me
00:57:46The tough questions
00:57:47And
00:57:50Wondered if I was
00:57:51Ready for a commitment
00:57:53Ready for something serious
00:57:54Or
00:57:56I was just another flame for you
00:57:57Yeah
00:58:00But the reality is
00:58:01You have made me
00:58:03Into a better man
00:58:05And
00:58:05Going on this process
00:58:07With you
00:58:08It was like
00:58:09Nothing I could imagine
00:58:10I'm glad after
00:58:12All those hardships
00:58:13That we landed
00:58:14In this place
00:58:15Of
00:58:15Peace
00:58:16And love
00:58:17And there's no more fighting
00:58:18And
00:58:19I don't want to go back
00:58:20To my old life
00:58:21Without you in it
00:58:22So
00:58:23That being said
00:58:25I would like to
00:58:26Bring you into my world
00:58:28And
00:58:29Meet my family
00:58:30Meet my friends
00:58:31And be by my side
00:58:33And
00:58:33You know
00:58:34As we move forward
00:58:35I'm hoping
00:58:36You would do the same for me
00:58:38And allow me
00:58:39To meet your friends
00:58:40And your family
00:58:41And be a part of your world
00:58:43Because I really want you
00:58:44To be a part of my world
00:58:56Is this the part
00:58:57You break up with me
00:58:59What?
00:59:03Here's the thing
00:59:11Our journey
00:59:12Has had a lot of ups and downs
00:59:15And
00:59:16The chaos
00:59:17That we found
00:59:20Is
00:59:20It's
00:59:23You know
00:59:24Is that
00:59:26Toxic
00:59:26Or was it healthy?
00:59:28Right?
00:59:30And
00:59:31It's really made me question
00:59:35Whether or not
00:59:36It's
00:59:37It's
00:59:37It's good for us
00:59:38Right?
00:59:41The time alone
00:59:44Has made me realize that
00:59:46Maybe I'm not
00:59:48The man for you
00:59:51Maybe
00:59:53I'm not good enough for you
00:59:55It's really questioned that
01:00:02It's
01:00:02It's
01:00:03It has been difficult
01:00:04And
01:00:06I don't
01:00:07Want to make promises
01:00:08That I can't
01:00:11So
01:00:18I need the promise ring back
01:00:50I need the promise ring back
01:00:53It's been a tough journey
01:00:57My first instinct is always the correct instinct
01:01:00And I should stick with my first gut instinct on someone
01:01:05And maybe I was just trying to fit a square peg into a round hole
01:01:10And my picker was wrong once again
01:01:15Yeah, but
01:01:20During my alone time, I've also realized that
01:01:24Maybe I don't have to be the perfect man
01:01:31Maybe I just needed to be the guy that was there for you
01:01:36Throughout all the good times
01:01:38Highs and lows
01:01:40Somebody that you could talk to and count on
01:01:43Somebody that would always be there for you
01:01:45Just like your mom was before she left
01:01:49And I think spending time with you
01:01:53Enjoying you
01:01:55Not realizing there was an age gap
01:01:59Has made me
01:02:02Want to
01:02:03Commit
01:02:10I don't want this journey to end
01:02:13Oh my god
01:02:14What is happening
01:02:15And you know
01:02:18It's been a crazy rollercoaster of a ride
01:02:24But
01:02:24That I'm not getting off anytime soon
01:02:27I love the shit out of you
01:02:30And
01:02:32You know
01:02:32I want to make a promise and a commitment
01:02:37You're someone who deserves everything
01:02:40What is happening
01:02:42And someone who deserves the Kobe ring
01:02:44Stop it
01:02:46No
01:02:48Is this really happening
01:02:51Vanessa
01:02:54I'm not ready to get off anytime soon
01:02:56What is happening
01:02:58So
01:03:01You want to continue this journey and do life together
01:03:10Yes
01:03:15Oh my god
01:03:16I'm shaking
01:03:19Oh my god
01:03:23It's so pretty
01:03:24So let's do it
01:03:25Oh my gosh
01:03:26I fucking love you
01:03:31Oh my god
01:03:34Oh my goodness
01:03:35You got red lipstick on yours
01:03:37Yeah
01:03:37I know
01:03:39Oh my god
01:03:40I'm shaking
01:03:41You tricked me so
01:03:45When you started attacking me
01:03:46I was like
01:03:47Oh shit
01:03:49Oh my god
01:03:51Oh my god
01:03:57Age doesn't matter for us
01:03:59As crazy as it is to
01:04:03Get engaged to somebody that's 20 years older than me
01:04:07It's
01:04:08It's Vanessa
01:04:09She's
01:04:11The one that has changed me
01:04:13And she's the one that's
01:04:14Made me feel ways that I haven't felt before
01:04:17So
01:04:17You know
01:04:18At the end of the day
01:04:20It's what I wanted
01:04:21I ran every scenario of what could happen when I was
01:04:24Coming here
01:04:25But the one scenario I didn't think of was
01:04:28Finding the love of my life
01:04:29I came into this experience
01:04:32With a complete open mind
01:04:33And
01:04:34I'm really super happy with how it ended
01:04:44I did not think
01:04:46I was going to come into this experience
01:04:48And
01:04:49Completely change my life
01:04:50What was your name?
01:04:51Derek
01:04:52Derek
01:04:52I'm Pfeiffer
01:04:53I love your eyes
01:04:54Thank you
01:04:55Me too
01:04:57It's so rare that you find somebody that you connect with like this
01:05:00And I never would have expected it to go this way
01:05:03But I'm so grateful that it has
01:05:07You want to get me?
01:05:09Pfeiffer's definitely a person I've been looking for
01:05:11She's humble
01:05:13She's loving
01:05:14All of those are like something that I've definitely wanted
01:05:18But I honestly didn't know that it existed
01:05:20I've always thought age was just a number
01:05:23And damn, yeah
01:05:25This experience really proves that it's just that
01:05:28Only love can light up
01:05:31I came here to try something completely unorthodox
01:05:34To meet people from all different ages
01:05:37And if anyone said you're going to come here
01:05:39And you're going to fall for a guy that's 20 years younger than you
01:05:42I'd be like, you're absolutely crazy
01:05:46Romeo, Romeo
01:05:49No way, isn't it supposed to be the opposite way?
01:05:52Like I think you're supposed to be up here with your hair
01:05:54But what Logan and I have is something really special
01:05:57So I am 49
01:06:02I was going to guess 29
01:06:08Why Vanessa?
01:06:09I mean, I could have connected with anybody else
01:06:12There were 19 other women at the retreat
01:06:15Some closer in age to me
01:06:16But I don't think I would love anybody else
01:06:19Like the way I love Vanessa
01:06:20She's one in a million
01:06:21Where do we go from here, you know?
01:06:24Snacks is being enjoying the night
01:06:25I thought I was going to go
01:06:29Into the last years of my life alone
01:06:32And now here I am turning 50
01:06:34And I'm in love
01:06:44I got more than everything I've ever wanted out of this experience
01:06:47I met somebody I never thought I would meet
01:06:52Andrew does see me for the real me and not my age
01:06:57He sees parts of me that a lot of people don't
01:07:00And he just recognizes it and he appreciates it
01:07:03I don't think I've ever had that before
01:07:05I'm enjoying what we have right now
01:07:07I'm waking up to you
01:07:09Yeah, well, it's probably the nicest thing I'll ever say to you
01:07:11But the more I get to know you, the more I like you more
01:07:15I really do feel like I got my rom-com happy ending
01:07:19And I don't think I could have scripted it any better
01:07:25I absolutely believe age is just a number
01:07:27Because I never would have thought that I could connect with somebody
01:07:32That is 27 years old on this level
01:07:38I'm going to go for it
01:07:40I love Teresa
01:07:41I love how she makes me feel
01:07:44Right
01:07:44And for seeing me for who I am
01:07:48And loving me and accepting me
01:07:51For the 27-year-old is a little more mature
01:07:54It's the connection that counts
01:07:56Not the candles on the cake
01:07:57Should I grab your ass?
01:08:05I see it in the new light
01:08:12I get it with fresh eyes
01:08:15I'm ready for the best night
01:08:17I see it in the new light
01:08:21I see it in the new light
01:08:29I see it in the new light
01:08:44I see it in the new light
01:08:49I get it with fresh eyes
01:08:51I'm ready for the best night
01:08:53I see it in the new light
01:09:16I see it in the new light
01:09:16I see it in the new light
01:09:18I see it in the new light
01:09:22I see it in the new light
01:09:22I see it in the new light
01:09:23I see it in the new light
01:09:23I see it in the new light
01:09:23I see it in the new light
01:09:23I see it in the new light
01:09:24I see it in the new light
01:09:32I see it in the new light
01:09:38Gracias.
01:10:08Gracias.
01:10:38Gracias.
01:11:08Gracias.
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