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00:05Previously on the Madison
00:10He wanted to be buried here
00:11There's a spot marked on a map
00:13I know this spot
00:15I can't remember his face
00:17If I were you, I wouldn't listen
00:20Play it
00:22Jesus, fuck
00:23Hold on, right
00:26Hey, baby
00:27Oh my God
00:30I'm going to die
00:33As much as I like sitting here
00:34It hurts more than you'll ever know
00:36So if you're wondering how I feel about you
00:38I feel enough to sit here and take it
00:40Abby, if I were you
00:42I would set my hooks pretty deep
00:44In that one
00:45They're not making any more men like him
00:52I wonder if you know
00:54How happiness would make him
00:56It would fill his heart
00:59Tomorrow
01:00We bury them
01:16I know
01:30I might not be
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02:13CastingWords
02:32That's an elk track right there
02:34Oh, oh, look, there's another one
02:37No, that's a moose
02:41How can you tell the difference?
02:43If you spend enough time tracking, you just know
02:46Huh. So do you have any questions about today? Like what? Well, asking you. Well, you're going to bury them.
03:02We are. Then what happens?
03:05Uh, then they return to the land and their bodies become a part of it. Um, and their souls too,
03:18I guess.
03:19They don't go to heaven? I think this is their heaven. Heaven is... Oh, how do I explain this?
03:30Our teacher says there is no heaven. You know, I don't know if you've already figured this out, but do
03:35not believe everything your teacher says.
03:38Heaven is your perfect place. For some, it's ice cream oceans and marshmallow mountains. And others, it's these mountains. Does
03:55that make sense?
03:57And Grandpa's heaven is here.
04:00I think so.
04:02But if you think he's here, why is everyone so sad he's gone?
04:07Well, his heaven isn't mine. And...
04:12Well, I can't see him. And I can't talk to him. And I can't hug him. And he can't hug
04:18me. And I... I miss that.
04:21Yeah. I miss it too.
04:24But that's why we have memories. We can revisit all those times that we did have. All the talks, all
04:33the laughs, all the hugs, and...
04:36You know, it's like a movie. We can... We can play it over and over as many times as we
04:45want.
04:46You know, in our minds. You know what I mean?
04:49I do.
04:52Not the same, though. As a real hug.
04:55No. It's not the same.
05:17It's not the same.
05:19Right here, huh?
05:21She marked it on a map.
05:23All right. Well, we ain't getting a backhoe down here.
05:27Might be able to get a tractor up from the river, but...
05:31I'm not sure what good that'll do us.
05:32No, these holes are getting dug the old Irish way.
05:35Yep.
05:38How the hell are we gonna get the caskets here?
05:41Swinston still feed off a wagon, don't they?
05:43That's a good idea.
05:46You gonna call or run for shovels?
05:47Nah, you call. I'll run.
05:50My gelding's just gonna follow you.
05:53Yank off that bridle.
05:55Yeah.
06:16I am aware.
06:18Yes, I am aware.
06:20We have had a death in the family.
06:23I'm pretty sure the world of girls' volleyball will survive the week without her.
06:27Yes, you are correct.
06:29I am not factoring how this affects anyone else, even a little.
06:33Fucking school.
06:35Is this gonna be okay?
06:38It's gonna have to do, honey.
06:39It's all you got.
06:41Hey.
06:45It's just us.
06:47Okay?
06:47There's nobody to be offended.
06:49What did school say?
06:51You're missing a volleyball tournament.
06:53It's okay.
06:55It's okay.
06:57Hey.
07:02It's okay.
07:18Hey.
07:28where'd you find cream same shopping center where i found the dress i gotta say bozeman
07:34impressed me i wasn't expecting to find donna karen in the mountains found a little something
07:40for you too yeah preston would prefer me in jeans i think he would find a certain victory
07:48in that he deserves a little black dress and that's exactly what i got you did the boy say when
07:53they would be ready he said to walk over at noon how are they going to get them out there
07:58i didn't
07:59ask and they didn't say i just said it was handled about two hours preston wrote a chapter on telling
08:10time from the sun's position it's alarmingly accurate
08:18the girls asked me to arrange a plane
08:23when tonight
08:27okay they need closure honey they won't get it here
08:30they have lives and they need to go live them
08:34i would very much like to plan a memorial service he has a lot of friends that deserve a way
08:39to say
08:39goodbye does he he does and you know that we could do it at the explorer's club okay just
08:48have at the apartment have corbonne cater they love that place i already called you find back too
09:02i have a very worried husband he's convinced some distant cousin of the unabomber is going to
09:07abduct me and hold me in his basement for ransom depending on the cousin i'm not completely opposed
09:14of course that's my warped romance novel version of abduction i doubt that's how it would play out
09:19lily that is how it play out my mind after two percocets
09:23you think i'm joking no
09:31i love you
09:37there is nowhere i would rather be than with you when you need me
09:40i know
09:46i have a little bottle of kalua if you would like some blood in that coffee
09:49oh well now you're talking
10:15not bad
10:17not bad
10:17ok
10:18ok
10:18ok
10:19ok
10:22ok
10:24ok
10:32ok
10:33ok
10:35ok
10:43Oh, my God.
11:05Pack the perfect dress.
11:13Is there some little black dress tree by the river that I am unaware of?
11:20Okay, girls.
11:24And Russell.
11:39And Russell.
11:42And Russell.
11:51And Russell.
12:05Where are they?
12:08Come.
12:12Sorry.
12:17Sorry, Miss.
12:19I saw it.
12:19That's fine.
12:27I'm sorry, Erin.
12:28You'll never know.
12:30I know.
12:32I know.
12:41I know.
12:53I know.
13:11Okay, boy.
13:27Watch your hand.
14:21Mrs. Glabber, I'm very sorry for your loss.
14:27Mrs. Glabber, is a preacher coming?
14:29Mrs. Glabber, this one will be San's preacher.
14:38Mrs. Glabber, what's that mean?
14:40Mrs. Glabber, means we don't have one.
14:42Mrs. Glabber, do you have someone to govern the proceedings?
14:46Mrs. Glabber, this is my first funeral here, so we're sort of winging it.
14:55Mrs. Glabber, well, this is far from my first rodeo.
14:58Mrs. Glabber, do you mind if I say something first and then give you all a chance to speak?
15:03Mrs. Glabber, I don't think my group has many speeches in them.
15:08Mrs. Glabber, do you mind a prayer?
15:11Mrs. Glabber, I do not.
15:22Lord, we stand before you with heavy hearts.
15:25With the glory of love comes the pain of loss, and we look to you for comfort.
15:32Mrs. Glabber, remind us that it is a selfish pain because you have promised a place called heaven where our
15:38departed bask in the glow of your grace.
15:42They are no longer men. They are angels who guide us through darkness, lift us when we are weak, and
15:51nourish our souls and spirits.
15:54Our pain is a selfish pain because we do not know this place heaven.
15:59We lean on our faith that it exists, and on your mercy that it holds a place for us where
16:08we may sit in your light beside our loved ones and know only joy forever.
16:14Mrs. Glabber.
16:17I'll be in.
16:20Uh, if anyone would like a word.
16:23Mrs. Stacy.
16:25It's not the first time you've given that speech?
16:28Mrs. No, ma'am.
16:30Mrs. It's a good one.
16:33Do you care to say something?
16:36Mrs. I have plenty to say, but I won't be saying it today.
16:50I guess that's it, then.
16:56Um, so what happens now?
16:58We'll take care of everything.
17:04Wait, that's it? That's it?
17:06That's it?
17:07He has nothing to say than say it, Paige.
17:08I don't know what to say.
17:11What are you supposed to say?
17:12I think that's our point.
17:18Which one's Paul?
17:29God damn you for taking him from us.
17:45I love you.
18:01Everyone deals with it different, don't they, boys?
18:05I don't think they're dealing with it at all.
18:08Not yet, anyway.
18:11I don't think they're going to blame them.
19:12Pretty sneaky, trying to have a funeral and not tell anybody?
19:15Oh, I, I, I didn't know anyone would care.
19:20We let you have the funeral.
19:22We will not be denied our feast.
19:27When they decided to build these cabins, they wanted to do it all themselves.
19:31Mill the wood, frame it, roughing the electric, the whole deal.
19:36Look at the bottom of them there.
19:37They're sitting on railroad ties.
19:39And I could not figure out what in the hell purpose that would serve.
19:42And I told them they're going to be colder than the devil in winter.
19:45And every skunk and raccoon and God knows what else is going to set up shop underneath them.
19:50Well, Preston just looked at me and nodded.
19:52Didn't say a word.
19:54And about six months later, tax assessor comes by my place and says, have you seen these cabins they built
19:59next door?
20:00I said, I had.
20:01And he asked me if I'd ever seen them move.
20:04I said, move.
20:05What do you, what do you mean move?
20:07Tax assessor says, when he tried to put a value on them, your husband said they was mobile homes.
20:14You pick them up with a forklift and move them.
20:17And asked me if I'd ever seen them be mobile.
20:19Well, I told them, yeah, they haul them all over the place.
20:23And if you look at the back of that outhouse, your husband nailed tires from a shopping cart and said
20:29that son of a bitch was mobile too.
20:32He did not want to pay any taxes.
20:34I wondered what those were for.
20:36Preston always had issues with authority.
20:39Wheels on the outhouse.
20:40Never seen anything like it.
20:42No.
20:45Indian tacos.
20:46Good stuff.
20:48Want some?
20:49How about some of those cookies?
20:51Ah, good choice.
20:54I was thinking like three.
20:58What's your mom going to say about that?
21:00My mom's not going to say anything because she's not going to see me eat them.
21:03Let's keep this between us.
21:06I think that's a good idea.
21:20Thank you for today.
21:22It means more than you know.
21:24Someone had to do it for me.
21:25I know what it means.
21:28Sorry it had to be done.
21:32We're flying out tonight.
21:33Girls have missed enough school and I have exhausted my wardrobe.
21:41But I'd like to come back or dare I invite you to New York?
21:48Well, the only way you get me to New York is if it seceded from the union and I was
21:52drafted into the army to take it back.
21:54Okay, you got to go a little easier on my city, buddy.
21:57I'm not knocking it.
21:58I'm just not going there.
22:00Fair enough.
22:02Then I'll come visit.
22:04Sure.
22:06I mean it.
22:10Okay.
22:13I mean it.
22:20I'm a sheriff's deputy who makes $52,000 a year.
22:23I have $12,000 in the bank and I'm about to spend six of it on a pretty average rope
22:28horse.
22:29Three nights a week.
22:30I'm going to load him in a trailer and drag him all over Montana trying to win back what I
22:33spent on him.
22:34In October, I'm going to take my boys in the mountains for a month and fill our freezer with elk.
22:39I ain't never laying on no beach.
22:40I'm never going to Europe or San Francisco or any city bigger than Billings.
22:46Ever.
22:48What part of that sounds good to you?
22:50None of it.
22:51Now walk me through your life.
22:53What won't you change?
22:54I don't have those kind of absolutes.
22:55Just walk me through it.
23:00Macy has gymnastics every morning.
23:04From there, I go to Pilates.
23:06From Pilates, I go to my therapist.
23:07From my therapist, I go to coffee with my girlfriends to talk about all the bullshit advice my therapist gave
23:11me.
23:12Then I pick up Macy and I get Bridget and we go to ballet.
23:15We have recitals every Friday night.
23:17Saturday morning, we have competitions.
23:19I take the girls the same parts for Christmas.
23:21Italy for the month of July, which you would love.
23:24I will point out.
23:30Who feeds the horses?
23:33Isn't there a service for that?
23:35You have to do it every day?
23:38Okay.
23:39Okay.
23:40Okay, there is no future in this, but you are tall and kind and fucking beautiful.
23:46You are tall and kind and beautiful.
23:48Okay, so can we just agree to fuck this up together and have as much sex as possible until we
23:54can?
23:55Yeah, you city girls do spell it out, don't you?
23:57Yeah, we get to the point.
23:59Yep, we do.
24:00You go from wondering when we're going to see each other to wondering when you're going to leave.
24:06I think I'd rather just miss you.
24:10I'm not gone yet.
24:11You know what I mean.
24:13So is this goodbye?
24:17I think it's best.
24:18Oh, wow.
24:22Let me just clarify that you are breaking up with me at my father's funeral.
24:28No, we aren't together to break up.
24:30No, no, no, we seemed pretty together yesterday when you were lying on top of me.
24:32Don't fucking abby me now.
24:35You want to miss me?
24:36Is that what you want?
24:38Here's your fucking chance.
24:46No, no, no.
24:47There we go.
24:53There we go.
24:54And we'll leave with you.
25:00There we go.
25:02There we go.
25:03Here we go.
25:03There we go.
25:05There we go.
25:06There we go.
25:06There we go.
25:08Anything he needs.
25:08Here we go.
25:08There we go.
25:08Here we go.
25:09There we go.记ê
25:09Barack's jerse per cent. Let's
25:09It's time to go home, isn't it?
25:13Spend time, honey
25:49When did your father die, Russell?
25:53Um, it'll be six years in April
25:56Where is he buried?
25:58My mother had him cremated
25:59The plan was to spread his ashes at our place in Montauk
26:03But he never did it
26:07I don't know why
26:09So, he's sitting in a jar on our mantle
26:12Which is an odd custom
26:15Putting ashes in a jar above a fireplace full of ashes
26:20What do you miss most about him?
26:27He used to call me every Monday and tell me a joke
26:31Really?
26:34You still remember them?
26:35Oh, yeah
26:36Tell me one
26:38Oh, no, no, no
26:38Yeah, they, um
26:40Yeah, my father had a, uh, rather warped sense of humor
26:44Yeah, well, at this point I'm pretty hard to offend
26:49Hmm
26:53Okay, um, okay
26:58So there are four nuns driving in a van
27:00And the van goes off a cliff and they all die
27:03Funny
27:04No, no, no, that's, I'm, I'm getting, sorry, this is all just the setup
27:07Yeah, I got, I got it, yeah
27:08Okay, so they're standing at the pearly gates
27:11And Saint Peter looks them over
27:12And he says to the first nun
27:14This is your last chance to confess before you enter the gates of heaven
27:18And your conscience must be cleansed before you enter
27:21So the first nun thinks about it
27:24And she says, well, I used to sneak peeks at Father Riley in the shower
27:29Mm-hmm
27:30Saint Peter says, well, you're a naughty one's sister
27:32Wash your eyes in this bowl of holy water
27:34And say five Hail Marys
27:35She does
27:37Sends her off to heaven
27:38So he looks at the second nun
27:39Asks her the same thing
27:41And she says, well, on occasion
27:43I would stroke Father Riley's member with my hand
27:46Saint Peter just shakes his head
27:49Tells her to wash her hand in the bowl of holy water
27:51Say ten Hail Marys
27:53So she does
27:54Let's her into heaven
27:55Now the third nun steps up
27:57But the fourth nun grabs her
27:59Throws her to the ground
28:00And steps up to the bowl of holy water
28:02Saint Peter says, what on earth are you doing, sister?
28:05And the nun says
28:06I'm gonna wash my mouth out in this bowl
28:08Before that bitch puts her ass in it
28:14I stand corrected, Russell
28:16I can still be offended
28:19I was very poorly chosen, I'm sorry
28:20It was the first one that came to my mind
28:22I am so sorry
28:23I, it's terrible
28:25Common denominator
28:27Where their problem seems to be Father Riley
28:30Yeah, he, uh, did get around
28:31Ah, what's in it?
28:34Bacca soda
28:35Easy on the soda
28:37God bless you
28:38The meeting's stuffing at the gym at nine
28:41If you're up for it
28:42Oh, yeah
28:44Exercise, it's exactly what I need
28:49I see things didn't end well with a cowboy
28:54How's that look about it?
28:58Paige has been quiet
28:59I think this is going to be hardest on her
29:03I'm afraid
29:05How so?
29:06When you've dedicated your entire life
29:09To gaining the attention of one person
29:13What is your purpose when that person is gone?
29:16The girls are handling it well, at least
29:18Yeah, well, they're too young to know the difference
29:21Just one less present at Christmas
29:27I know an excellent therapist
29:30I know an excellent therapist, Stacy
29:31You're my therapist
29:34You're my best friend
29:36I'm incapable of being impartial
29:38Speaking to someone who can look at the situation with clarity
29:42And with zero opinion
29:43What I need is opinion
29:46If I want to know what the book on death says
29:48I'll buy the fucking book
30:41Late session volatility underscoring
30:44Unsettled tone on Wall Street
30:46Following a new round of warning
30:50The Dow managed to modestly
30:52As well as a hundred finished little sheets
30:56After wavering
30:57I think that the tension is exactly where we are
30:59I think that the tension is exactly where we are
31:01I think that the inflation data
31:01Is this just a cause or does somebody want to be painful?
31:07I think that the tension is exactly where we are
31:21The ultimate of the payments, these are small returns, loyal efforts, and their close relatives who killed them.
31:46I ordered a charcuterie board from Ely.
31:49And the pizzas from Joe's?
31:51One of us is thinking about your cholesterol.
31:54Pizzas are for Paul. It's the one thing he misses about this city.
32:00Look at you.
32:02Look at me what?
32:03Men are such children.
32:05Well, this should be interesting.
32:07You are. You have the same look on your face, pulling out those nasty boots as an 11-year-old
32:12pulling out his baseball cleats.
32:14It's the same look you get when Gucci has a sale.
32:17That's different. That's me saving you money.
32:19You know, this is proof of the genetic distinction between men and women.
32:24Tell me, oh love of my life, all the ways how when you buy something on sale, it saves me
32:31money.
32:32I'm gonna buy the damn thing no matter what.
32:33Waiting for the sale is how much I love you.
32:38That almost makes sense.
32:39It makes perfect sense once you accept the inevitability of the purchase.
32:48Why do you do that?
32:50What?
32:52It's your little mountain mistress, the jealous type.
32:57You wanna know?
32:58I do wanna know. I really wanna know.
33:02Because I lost it once.
33:04Fell off in the river. I spent two days looking for it. I'm not going through that shit again.
33:08So if I put it right there, I can't lose it.
33:13Panicked, were you?
33:16Terrified.
33:17It's nice to see I still have that effect.
33:19Oh boy, do you ever, baby.
33:22Oh boy, baby.
34:15Madison Avenue.
34:17How did they get the name, do you think?
34:22I always assumed James Madison, the president.
34:25Yeah.
34:26Of course, that would make sense.
34:27Yeah.
34:30I suppose they named the Madison River after him as well.
34:34Where's the Madison River?
34:36Montana.
34:39Where your husband spent time?
34:42Mm-hmm.
34:46Is that where he died?
34:48No, he died on another river.
34:50Actually, no, he died on a mountain.
34:55No, no river involved at all.
35:03How do you feel when you tell me that?
35:06How do you think I feel?
35:08I don't presume to know. That's why I asked.
35:11Isn't that your job?
35:14Tell me how I feel.
35:17My job is to help you understand how you feel.
35:20Hmm.
35:22More so, my job is to help you understand the behaviors that those feelings elicit.
35:29Hmm.
35:33And how would you describe my present behavior?
35:39Hostile.
35:42Hostile?
35:43Mistrusting.
35:44Mistrusting.
35:45Which I understand.
35:48You don't know me.
35:51And yet here you are, in theory, willing to expose your most personal thoughts and intimate feelings.
36:01Trust me in my interpretation of those feelings and behaviors to guide your decision making in the future.
36:11My decision making.
36:13What, what decisions are we questioning?
36:15I'm not questioning anything.
36:17No, you are the one who said it.
36:18My husband died.
36:20The love of my life.
36:22The father of my children.
36:24My center, my soul, is gone.
36:29If you by chance have happened upon any information that might assist me in mitigating the desire to claw my
36:38eyes out with a fucking spoon to get rid of the pain, I sure would appreciate that.
36:46But I do not need you staring at me like I'm some bored housewife trying to justify her affair with
36:52her fucking tennis coach.
36:54I know those women.
36:55Plenty of them.
36:56I am not one of them.
36:58I am hurting.
37:03And I would like some help with that.
37:07If you can.
37:09If you can't, then I'll leave early.
37:16And you can keep the fucking change.
37:25You care for a drink?
37:29I would love one.
37:38Don't normally do this.
37:40Spend most of my time convincing my clients not to self-medicate.
37:47Don't mind whiskey?
37:48I don't give a shit what it is.
38:11What you need is this.
38:13A lot of this.
38:15Not this.
38:17A lot of talking.
38:19And yelling and crying.
38:21A lot of it.
38:22And often.
38:25And in time, those memories will become fond again.
38:31They won't hurt to recall them.
38:35And you'll laugh.
38:41Will you love again?
38:43Maybe.
38:45I don't have any idea if that's something you want.
38:50Will you ever be whole again?
38:52Will you feel like you did before you died?
38:58No.
39:01But you know that.
39:03But you will heal if you let yourself.
39:06You will have as much life to live as you allow yourself.
39:15Or you'll have none.
39:19You'll have no life.
39:25Does that make sense?
39:29Yeah.
39:32Okay.
39:38Why don't you finish your drink and let me have it?
39:42Seriously.
39:43Come on.
39:43Give it your best shot.
39:50You're a terrible therapist.
39:52You know that.
39:53Yeah.
39:54With that smug fucking sweater.
39:58You really like saying fuck, don't you?
40:00I know.
40:02I find it quite liberating at the moment.
40:08Good.
40:09Say it again.
40:11Fuck you.
40:12Are we going to do trust falls next, you fucking quack?
40:17It's a really good place to start.
40:19Come on.
40:19Keep it coming.
40:20Let's go.
40:21I'm serious.
40:27I'm thinking about it.
40:29I'm considering it.
40:32I know.
40:33I know.
40:33I know.
40:34I'm running away.
40:35Running away from my problems.
40:37This problem goes with me, so I'm not running from anything.
40:43Would I miss my daughters?
40:45Honestly, I don't.
40:48I don't know.
40:49And part of me thinks it would be better for them, you know, live their own lives.
40:54Maybe they could move with you.
40:57I mean, it doesn't sound like either of them are bound to the city.
41:00That's what I said.
41:01My oldest daughter needs it.
41:03I actually threatened to cut her off if she didn't.
41:08That's not very nice.
41:10Oh, what do they teach sarcasm in therapy school these days?
41:16Well, if by therapist school you mean Dartmouth, then yeah, they kind of invented it there.
41:26Do you think I should?
41:30Not my place to say, but I think you should consider it, and I'll tell you why.
41:39Because you are actively weighing your future and the consequences of your choices in that future, and that's healthy.
41:45That's good for your soul.
41:46So whether you actually do it is irrelevant.
41:49But you should seriously consider it.
41:52You should consider moving to Europe.
41:55Spend a year traveling.
41:57You've got the financial means.
41:59No responsibilities here preventing it.
42:01You should consider everything.
42:06Wish I could have met him.
42:08Must have been a hell of a man.
42:10Because you are a hell of a woman.
42:12You know who you are, and you're not ashamed of it.
42:15And this, yelling and crying and pondering, this is what you're supposed to be doing.
42:20This is grieving.
42:22This is accepting an immeasurable loss in your life, and racking your brain to try to find a way to
42:27survive it.
42:30And you will.
42:34Thank you, Phil.
42:38Oh, this has been pleasantly cathartic.
42:43I took one look at that sweater, and I had very little faith in you.
42:46But you, you overcame it.
42:50Turns out, you don't suck at your job.
42:53Well, that is wildly offensive.
42:59Same time tomorrow?
43:00I'm thinking afternoon.
43:02I still got five clients, and I'm pretty drunk.
43:05I think you are a client to end the day with, not begin one.
43:08Fine.
43:09See you at happy hour.
43:23Bye-bye.
43:24Bye-bye.
43:25Bye-bye.
43:27Bye-bye.
43:28Bye-bye.
43:28the northern plains and into the upper midwest a colder air mass is settling in
43:40who's your realtor yeah no matter what i do i can't stay here lily i can smell him
43:48hold on hold on
43:52is everything okay so um page is is is in bed and she won't
43:58talk and she can't stop crying and she's well she's hyperventilating and i feel like i should
44:03call an ambulance but i don't like i feel like that might make her worse you're right you're
44:07right it would i'll be there in 15 minutes call abby okay okay calling her now
44:38is she in the bedroom yeah
44:45uh do you have any sweets sweets okay get some ice cream rocky road and buy some chocolate chips put
44:54three scoops in a glass of milk put the chocolate chips on top and and then just bring it to
44:59me
44:59with a spoon that sounds uh disgusting i wasn't asking your opinion of it russell
45:09i got rocky road desperate times call for desperate measures grab chocolate chips shitty ones like she
45:16well looks like all we need from you is a cup russell give it to her she knows how to
45:20make it
45:21god okay
45:24hey hey hey hey hey hey it's okay it's okay it's okay it's okay it's okay it's okay it's okay
45:30you know
45:30what this is this is how much you love him and your body just doesn't know where to put all
45:36that
45:36love now okay but you don't have to put it anywhere and you don't have to stop loving someone when
45:41they're gardening in fact one could argue that you should love them more and here's a sad fact of life
45:51you will feel this way again yeah when i die when your husband dies and your friends and and someday
45:59your children will feel this way about you thanks mom i feel so much better i come bearing gifts
46:08i'm not hungry it's not food it is a drug it is sugar and chocolate in a mixture that only
46:15your
46:15metabolism can process in a way that doesn't end up on your hips and i hate you for it
46:23i used to eat this when i was like five no i used to lack five so
46:31fuck you and your bad roots no she's back i don't understand it
46:37it's the crunch with the cold and a mushy of the ice cream
46:41wait the explanation doesn't sell it page well you got her
46:49i got her but i cannot stay the night i can stay the night
47:00this is my favorite thing ever i know
47:17is she okay
47:20yeah she will be
47:24is there a decent bar near here
47:27uh there's uh there's a there's a dive bar around the corner
47:33well soho's version of a dive bar
47:37hmm
47:44hmm
47:51what's this place called
47:54um i don't know i'm not sure it has a name
48:10what's the name of this place name uh people just call it the bar or the bar down the street
48:17something like that no name not that i'm aware of no what does your paycheck say
48:22uh xt enterprises llc or some shit
48:29okay so bar just doesn't have a name no name what can i get you oh god i'm uh i
48:37am not in the mood to make any decisions
48:38mm-hmm martini oh that is a cocktail and this is the furthest place from a cocktail bar so
48:45true that uh how about an irish car bomb i have no idea what that is trust me okay what
48:52about you
48:53what kind of amber ales do you that'll be two irish car bombs yeah like your style two irish car
48:58bombs i have to work in the morning it's one drink russell
49:07oh i didn't see that coming oh gosh apologies russell this is gonna hurt
49:17all right great
49:21you gotta yeah
49:31it went down the wrong pipe
49:35i have a bad gag reflex no no i'm not i'm i'm not laughing at that what then
49:44oh life uh choices people make don't get me wrong she made a good one with you
49:55what are your dreams
49:59dreams or you know aspirations might be a better word for your life for my daughter
50:08i mean what uh you know we we just got the townhouse so yeah well that's a purchase not a
50:14dream
50:16have you two talked about starting a family you know page she just got down to a size zero and
50:24she
50:25worked really hard for it russell russell independent thoughts do you have any
50:31yeah i mean i guess i want i want to have kids
50:34mm-hmm okay i don't want to raise them and i want to
50:38i want to move out of town you know where they can have a normal
50:41you know trick-or-treat and and and play baseball and run out on the street you know
50:47no i don't know no i don't know i raised mine here
50:52well that would be my dream
50:54what about when they're grown
50:58what's the dream then i don't know i don't know i i haven't gotten that far
51:03yeah well then you need a new dream
51:08honestly i always thought of you and creston as the dream
51:14so did i russell
51:20but that dream is over
51:24well i guess we both need a new one
51:29yeah
51:30yeah
51:32yeah
51:38yeah
51:40yeah
51:40yeah
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