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00:00Previously on Sudden the Amish.
00:02You don't feel like you owe all of us an apology
00:04for how you both acted?
00:06I'm going home.
00:07I'm leaving.
00:08This community's not for me.
00:10I'm not here.
00:12You're not going to change my mind.
00:14Just accept it.
00:15I don't know if Emma left because of how James handled
00:17the Matt Kendra situation.
00:19Family split, friends split.
00:21I don't know if it's because James is giving more attention
00:24to Kendra than her.
00:25We're, like, dropping like flies here.
00:27We only have a week left.
00:28They need to make a decision.
00:30We need to make a decision.
00:31Whether to allow them to continue pursuing membership
00:34here in the Amish church.
00:36Reckoning day is a few days away.
00:38If we continue making the wrong choices,
00:41we continue reaping a wrong harvest.
00:44Right now, the mission looks kind of rough.
00:47I'm not sure yet how we're going to get back on the rails.
00:50Oh, .
00:51Judah, get it.
00:52Yeah!
00:54You know, I'm out here doing things
00:56that I never thought I would do.
00:57It's just such a big decision whether I'm going to remain here
01:00or go back home.
01:02I actually don't mind doing this.
01:04It's kind of fun for me.
01:05Aaron will be more likely to embrace the Amish lifestyle.
01:09Oh, my God.
01:10I'm so hot.
01:11The hardest part for me is the heat.
01:14I feel like I'm dying.
01:15I see this car pull up, and it's my mama.
01:18I definitely plan on taking my son home with me.
01:20If he doesn't want to go back home with me,
01:22there will definitely be a fight.
01:23A notebook.
01:25And that's kind of a easy.
01:30A notebook.
02:02What's up?
02:04What's up?
02:07Why are you in contact?
02:08What is she talking about?
02:09I ain't got no phone.
02:10Yeah, and out here, it looks like something on a scary movie.
02:15You know, this ain't the place where black people be.
02:18I've called him.
02:19I've left him several messages, voicemails, text messages.
02:22What do you got on?
02:23What is this getup?
02:25They took my clothes.
02:26What did y'all do with my son's things?
02:29My main goal was to, of course, see my son and bring him home.
02:33Well, I have kerosene on my right hand, but I'll see as well.
02:35I ain't shaking hands.
02:36OK.
02:37This is James.
02:38This is his house.
02:39There's no AC.
02:41We're using the bathroom in the outhouse.
02:43Shut up.
02:44I don't know how people can live like this.
02:47I don't cut that out.
02:48Ugh.
02:49It was like a bug, like a gnat or something.
02:51Oh, my God.
02:54Kendra and Matt have left.
02:55Emma left.
02:57House is on edge.
02:59Everybody's nervous, and it's Judah's mom.
03:03If she convinces Judah to leave, I honestly wonder if the house will crumble.
03:08Well, can I sit down?
03:09Because I'm just standing out here and got my bag like, put me on a porch or something.
03:12Like, what's going on?
03:14He's such a staple in this home.
03:17If Judah were to leave with his mom, that would shake this entire house.
03:22So my mom's here right now, and she doesn't think this Amish lifestyle is for me.
03:27I am considering leaving, because there's a lot of things going on.
03:30It's the devil on one side, angels on another.
03:33I don't know.
03:34You need to go back.
03:35Why?
03:36You look like you lost weight.
03:38Did you want something to drink?
03:40I'm not even thirsty.
03:41You know what?
03:42You can just have it.
03:43No, no.
03:43You can tell that it hasn't been opened.
03:47At least we got it at the market.
03:48Yeah, you can trust me.
03:49Y'all got me out here with cornfields and scary haunted houses.
03:55My first impression of Judah's mother was they are the same.
04:01They are twins.
04:04I'm glad Judah gets to see his mom, but my biggest concern is that she doesn't take him home.
04:09If we lose even one more person, I'm going to fall in the bad graces of the bishop, and I'm
04:14not going to be unshunned.
04:15How long do you have to be here?
04:18For me, it's about personal growth and personal development.
04:20How long do you need to grow and develop?
04:22Until I feel like I'm ready to stop growing and developing.
04:25So you're telling me I need to keep popping up?
04:26Well, that's what you feel like you need to do.
04:32I love my mama to death, you know, but I feel like sometimes she can be a little controlling,
04:36and she wants me to be who she wants me to be or who she envisions me to be.
04:42She doesn't want me to be here, clearly.
04:44Why are you here?
04:46You keep talking about you got stuff to do.
04:50Look at this.
04:51I mean, you in beautiful scenery.
04:54Like, we don't make it out of places like this, all the movies.
04:59And so we concerned about you.
05:00You better hope you make it out of here, because this ain't some place that I'll be.
05:05I haven't seen many black people here anyways.
05:08These people, when you go here, tell me, oh, they nice, they cool, they treat me like this.
05:12They are nice and they are cool.
05:13So, like, I mean, I want to see how you're living, because I am concerned.
05:16Yeah.
05:17I want to see, you know, like, what you do here.
05:19Our stove over here.
05:21Our stove?
05:22Yeah, we have a stove.
05:24Now, how does this even work?
05:26So, usually the women come out here and cook, and they do their thing out here.
05:29We have s'mores and stuff where they make chicken.
05:31You put the kerosene in here, and we drop a match, and then the fire starts.
05:36It takes like 30 minutes for it to catch fire.
05:38And so are they putting sticks in there?
05:39When we chop the wood, we give it to the ladies, and they...
05:42You chopping wood?
05:43You ain't chopping the wood.
05:44I can show you.
05:45Okay, show you.
05:46Show me how to chop a wood, because I ain't never chop a wood, chop a wood.
05:51I'm not really a master for real, but...
05:54Don't...
05:55Yeah, this ain't my calling.
05:56We just gonna leave that.
05:57When I first got here, I couldn't even aim at the wood.
05:59Now that I'm here and I've been doing my thing, I'm chopping wood with no problem.
06:03It took me a minute to do that, and now that I'm showing my mama, she's not really proud of
06:08me.
06:08She doesn't really care, so it kind of sucks.
06:11I don't really feel seen or validated by her.
06:14It reminds me, like, being back at home and the first time that my mom found out of my sexuality.
06:20My mom knows that I'm bisexual.
06:22Coming out to her was pretty rough.
06:24In the black community, it's very hard to accept that your son is gay or bi, like, the hardest things
06:32to accept.
06:33I could only imagine how it feels to know that your kid is something that...
06:39Millions of people hate.
06:58I was not in a big hurry to finish the phone shanty because I figured it would be best if
07:03they would make a clean cut with their outside contacts.
07:05That way they could focus on integrating into the community.
07:09We would have let Kendra make the first call, but she left.
07:13Ellen and Sarah talked to the bishop.
07:15It sounds like he thinks it might be the best that we get this phone shanty up.
07:21The Amish do use a phone.
07:23Just a lot of them don't use cell phones.
07:25We have an old phone.
07:27We have a black box.
07:28We have a battery.
07:33Well, I think they'll be excited to call their loved ones.
07:37Maybe I've been pushing them a little too hard to be Amish.
07:39I hope this phone shanty brings the remaining English a little bit of comfort.
07:43This may be the only way to keep them here.
07:48Okay.
07:49I'm trying to make sure I do the right thing here because I'm still shunned.
07:54The bishop kind of has the final say-so, and if he has a bad impression of me, I'm not
08:00in a good position.
08:02I really want these English to actually join the Amish church.
08:05I'm going to continue trying.
08:06I hope the bishop can see that I'm putting in effort.
08:10Okay, guys.
08:11The phone shanty is finally ready.
08:13Finally.
08:14It looks like an outhouse.
08:16Well, it is a phone shanty.
08:18Part of the purpose is to have it a little farther away from the house, so it's less convenient.
08:22That way you spend less time on the phone itself.
08:25Is there a limit on the phone line time?
08:28Well, if you're out here all the time, we might put a limit on it.
08:31No tasks, I'm assuming.
08:34I don't think so.
08:36Oh.
08:36Okay.
08:37It's real old.
08:38Okay.
08:38Who is making the first call?
08:46Hello?
08:47Hello.
08:48Hi, honey.
08:49I miss you.
08:51This is, like, the closest we can get to the modern world.
08:55I'm calling from a phone shanty that I helped build.
09:00Good to hear from you from the Amish phone booth.
09:03I know.
09:04I know.
09:04Well, maybe someday I'll build you one.
09:06I'm sure.
09:06Yeah.
09:07Yeah.
09:08Seeing Judah's mom just kind of brought back memories of my mom and it made it hard with
09:14everything that's going on.
09:15Obviously, I don't have my phone, so I hope I don't call the wrong number.
09:20I'm so thankful that I can finally use the phone shanty because I need to talk to someone.
09:25Hello?
09:27How can I help you?
09:28Hi, is this Marcy?
09:30No.
09:31Oh.
09:32That's a wrong number.
09:33Sorry.
09:33Wrong number.
09:35Be lucky I'm surviving in this heat, Mom.
09:37I know.
09:38It hasn't been easy.
09:40Please tell everybody I said hi.
09:42Okay.
09:42Billy Joe says hi.
09:43Bye.
09:44She's alive.
09:45She hasn't found a bishop.
09:47She's not married yet.
09:49Hearing my mom's voice definitely made me hyper aware that I have to make a decision soon.
09:54Yeah, it's been a lot.
09:56So they took my phone and they took my earring aids.
09:59They got me new ones which have been messing with me.
10:02They're crazy.
10:03Oh, no.
10:04Yeah.
10:05I was hoping that it wouldn't be so difficult.
10:08Wondering when you are coming back.
10:10You probably had to make that decision.
10:12Yeah.
10:14I don't know.
10:15I guess I'm...
10:17We'll see.
10:23Your call has been forwarded to an automated voice.
10:26Oh, no.
10:26I went to build voicemail.
10:28Well, I guess I'll try again later.
10:55It's loose chickens.
10:57Yeah, that's crazy.
10:57Don't be fine.
10:58Y'all are not going in there.
10:59Come on.
11:00We going.
11:00If I get attacked, you're not.
11:02I got you.
11:02I'm gonna fight.
11:03You're not.
11:03You're not.
11:03You're not.
11:04They just hit the corner.
11:05I got you.
11:05I got you.
11:06They won't attack you.
11:08When Judah first got here, he was terrified of animals.
11:12No.
11:15It's just a small chicken.
11:16Oh, God.
11:17So with meeting his mom, I can see if the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
11:23Elijah, is the chicken gonna come out?
11:24No, there's no chicken.
11:25Because you know I do not even play.
11:26Why do they like the coop?
11:27They're free range.
11:29Come on in.
11:29You're fine.
11:30They're having dinner.
11:31I'm not trying to be on the menu.
11:33Can we go?
11:34This is enough.
11:35Look at the cow.
11:36He looks like he about to attack.
11:37I'm not.
11:38They're not gonna attack you.
11:39We just got done feeding them.
11:40I bet.
11:42Can I talk to you for a minute?
11:43You mind, Allen, if we step away?
11:45That's okay.
11:47Where you wanna go?
11:48I got questions.
11:49Away from this poop, that's where I wanna go.
11:53So what's up?
11:55Why are we on this farm?
11:56I'm ready to go.
11:57You should be ready to go, too.
11:58It's poop everywhere.
11:59It's flies everywhere.
12:00The thing is, is that I came for a purpose.
12:03And everybody's not gonna understand my purpose.
12:05And it's like, it's getting pretty irritating that you keep trying to drag me away from my purpose.
12:10You already have a purpose.
12:11You have a calling.
12:12The thing is, is you.
12:13You got a purpose.
12:14You want me to have a purpose the way that you want me to have a purpose.
12:16And that's not how it's gonna be.
12:18I have to find my own purpose within myself.
12:21When with God.
12:22So if God called me to be here, this is where I'm gonna be.
12:24But you can't keep trying to drag me up out of that.
12:27This is crap.
12:31It's hard for my mama to understand the growth that I'm having because she's not used to this lifestyle.
12:37She's in the, she's from the city.
12:38That's where we are both from.
12:40So seeing me transform into this man is hard for her because I'm always gonna be her baby.
12:46But it's time to grow.
12:49So you like these people now and you trying to tell me this is what you're doing?
12:55I don't know what to tell you.
12:56This is where I am.
12:57And if you can't support that, then it might be better off that you leave.
13:20What are we working on?
13:22Today I want to show Esmola and Billy Joe an old Amish tradition.
13:28I think we're gonna be making some pads today.
13:30Making some what?
13:32Pads.
13:32Pads?
13:33Pads.
13:34Oh, like period pads?
13:36Yes.
13:37Oh, okay.
13:38If they want to know how it is to be Amish, I need to show them everything.
13:43Alright, I guess that is something we should probably know how to make.
13:46Yeah.
13:48Oh, we've got one started.
13:51Oh, okay.
13:52It's really durable.
13:53This is more of an Esmeralda size.
13:55Are you working on one that might be better for BJ?
13:59It's a little bit bigger.
13:59Oh, there we go.
14:00We need options.
14:02Oh my gosh.
14:04We took four layers of terry material and sewed it together.
14:08We use black so it doesn't stain.
14:11So this just consists of some towel and some more layers.
14:15Towel fabric, towel fabric?
14:17Yes.
14:17Okay.
14:18And that's reusable.
14:19Yes.
14:21It's gross.
14:23But if you grow up doing it, it's not really foreign to you.
14:28You know, it's like a natural thing.
14:31So are like tampons just not a thing?
14:34There's some people that use them, but I never did.
14:36Not very common, huh?
14:37No.
14:37Okay.
14:39It's actually really not that disgusting.
14:42These menstrual pads are fragrance-free.
14:44They don't contain any microplastics, no harmful chemicals.
14:48It's definitely more organic.
14:50We're using cloth.
14:52It's definitely better for the environment and probably better for us.
14:55So I might stick to using these Amish ways.
14:59Thank you, Sarah.
14:59Esmeralda, that one's yours.
15:01Keep it.
15:01Thank you, Sarah.
15:02Don't let us stop you from your good, godly work, Sarah.
15:07Danke.
15:17Okay.
15:18All right.
15:20Come on in.
15:21We've prepared quite a feast.
15:23I love the table.
15:24Y'all did a really good job.
15:27I'm excited that my mom's sitting here having dinner with all of us.
15:31I hope that everybody acts right and is on their best behavior.
15:33I want her to understand why I like being here.
15:36Why I want to be Amish.
15:38There's lemon, if anyone wants lemon, for their water.
15:41Okay.
15:42What's that, chicken?
15:43Chicken?
15:44Oh, yeah.
15:45It's why no chicken's wearing a coupe.
15:46Might be.
15:49Dinner was a lot for me to process.
15:52And, you know, they have regular things like corn.
15:55Chicken straight from chicken coupe.
15:56Not doing it.
15:57Let's have a silent prayer.
15:59Silent prayer?
16:04Do we hold hands?
16:07Sorry.
16:09My mission at the end of the day is plant a bug in Judah's ear and see what I can
16:13do,
16:13because I have to do more to get my baby back with me.
16:17All right.
16:18Oh, it smells very, very good.
16:20Oh, thank you.
16:22I'm not trying to be rude, but she don't have shoes on.
16:27How do you live with it?
16:30I'm used to it.
16:32Some days I just go without shoes.
16:34It's comfortable.
16:37You're kidding me.
16:39Well, if you ever come to Kansas City, we gonna get pedicures.
16:44I don't understand how people can live like this.
16:47God creates things for you to make it convenient, and you pushing it away.
16:52It's convenient to the devil.
16:54Like, is it easy?
16:55Like, what is it?
16:56There's that potential.
16:57I don't expect Judah's mom to embrace her lifestyle overnight.
17:01It's a culture shock.
17:02I get it.
17:02This is what you do, right?
17:04This is what you do.
17:05Make sure they behave.
17:07Okay.
17:08Because some things I get, you know, some things I don't get.
17:11A little beer from Judah.
17:12Yeah, it's really, I don't know about you, but it's really warm at this dinner table right now.
17:20I don't want her to be corrupting them.
17:23I can't have that happen.
17:24Because I really enjoy air conditioning.
17:28We fight hard against those things.
17:30Why give in?
17:34Y'all okay with this?
17:36Your son seems to be doing okay.
17:39You said what?
17:44The way James was coming on with Judah's mom, James actually does get very stubborn at times.
17:51It is actually kind of frustrating because I'm just like, get over it. Let's go on.
17:57You have to really be like mentally strong and like secure in who you are.
18:01That's a struggle, but like every day becomes a little bit easier.
18:10Hello.
18:14No, I'm not around.
18:16I'm, you know, just hanging out with some of these people.
18:22It's just a lot going on.
18:24You can't have your phone at the table.
18:26Maybe join in the conversation here.
18:29Judah's mom is not so supportive.
18:31It is a big test for him personally.
18:34But I have faith that his character and the progress that he's made will, will see him through.
18:41So in your culture, you have no phones.
18:44Like no, no way to communicate with, except for if you're not right here.
18:48If it's Izzy's not right here, I can't talk to Izzy.
18:50Pretty much.
18:52Potentially using a phone, a phone shanty.
18:55What is a phone shanty?
18:56It looks kind of like an outhouse without the restroom part.
18:59With a phone in it.
19:02Judah, you want to grab that sign?
19:08Let your faith be bigger than your fear.
19:10That's my answer.
19:12If we have things worldly, people are susceptible to idolize it, is what he says.
19:17There's that potential.
19:19See, part of the culture's goal is to live a simple lifestyle.
19:23Just to not be conformed to the world.
19:26So being, living a simple life, you don't have to worry about those bills and things of that nature.
19:31You just...
19:32Less things to stress about, sure.
19:34I'm not as accepting as he is with everybody that's around.
19:39I mean, they're good people and I accept them, but hopefully he'll accomplish what he needs to accomplish and come
19:44home.
19:45Did you get to look around the house?
19:47Did you find a place where you might want to sleep?
19:49Because we have an extra...
19:50We have an extra bed in our room.
19:52Ooh, look, that face.
19:54You got that face.
19:55You didn't come to stay.
19:56Absolutely not.
19:58We don't actually sleep at night either, typically.
20:01The flies are all over here.
20:02The flies.
20:03The centipedes.
20:04The centipedes are pretty big.
20:05Oh yeah, the centipedes are pretty big.
20:07Did the exterminators get rid of those bats yet?
20:09Oh my God.
20:10You're ready to stay at home.
20:14That's crazy.
20:15That's insane.
20:17Yeah, yeah.
20:18I know, it's crazy.
20:20We have no choice.
20:22So we're happy to be here with y'all and the bonds that we created.
20:25Good.
20:27It's only so close that you can get to people.
20:30And he's kind of taking these people in as like family and he's allowing them to lead him and he's
20:34making bonds and they're brothers.
20:36And I'm just like, are you really making these connections with these people and pushing me away?
20:43Everybody definitely loves Judah.
20:45We can't afford to lose him.
20:49I'm a single mom.
20:50So growing up, I taught my kids the best that I could.
20:55Like he cut grass probably like three times in his life ever, if that.
21:01But to see him actually out here doing manual labor, chopping wood, telling me he's getting up and doing chores.
21:07I am very proud of him for that.
21:09However, my ultimate goal is to take him home, get him out of those Amish clothes, and get him back
21:14where he needs to be.
21:15This is what you be doing all day.
21:18Oh, the brake is on the back. The brake is on the back. The brake is on the back.
21:22Oh, oh, oh.
21:25Judah really shouldn't even be alive today.
21:29There was a time where he was like grazed by a bullet like in his neck.
21:33Okay.
21:35That's like a day I'll never forget and just thinking like my son could potentially not be here.
21:40Two miles an hour.
21:42So everybody see me. Okay, this good?
21:45Come on now. Is this good?
21:47Come on, you got it.
21:49So just that made me cling on to him so much closer.
21:53So now, not having this location, not being able to talk to him, just knowing where he is, being able
21:58to reach out and connect to him, just it's different.
22:01Sorry.
22:03Watch out for the bump.
22:05Where's the brake?
22:06Go in the grass.
22:07Go to the grass.
22:11Yeah.
22:35Good morning, Prince Charming.
22:37How's it going, Cinderella?
22:39Well, the menu this morning.
22:41Chocolate chip pancakes, scrambled eggs, and regular bacon and turkey bacon.
22:47My mama went to the hotel for the night. Ain't no way she was sleeping here.
22:50I don't think it was the same one that Matt and Kendra went to.
22:52Do we need anything else from inside?
22:54Some paper towels.
22:55Paper towels? Okay.
22:57Definitely becoming a routine now of us kind of making breakfast in the morning.
23:00Sarah's the one that takes charge. I let her do all the cooking things.
23:03I cannot work the stove to save my life still.
23:06I feel like I'm more of like the runners.
23:08Paper towels.
23:10I'll just like kind of do the preparation steps, and then she handles like the big boy stuff.
23:14Could get used to this life being served to, house being cleaned and cooked.
23:19This might be why I'll go on this.
23:22I'm not mad about it.
23:26Thank you, Sarah, for making all of us breakfast.
23:28You're welcome.
23:29You want one to try one of these?
23:32Here you go.
23:34How are you guys loving the Amish life?
23:36I have so many, like, things that I'm debating.
23:39Obviously, at the front is air conditioning, as we all know.
23:43Last night was another extremely rough night.
23:48I couldn't sleep. It's so hot.
23:52I thought by now I would be more used to this, but I just really hope that it gets better.
23:59I think the people at this table, besides you guys because you're already Amish, really are considering, like, what do
24:06I do?
24:06And the good and the bad of both decisions.
24:09So without, like, a few people here that I think had already made the decision they didn't want to do
24:14this, it's even harder now because we're all so close.
24:18The mission is to help people integrate into the community.
24:23With Emma and Matt and Kendra leaving, I was hoping for a better result.
24:31What are you thinking, girl? English or Amish?
24:36I think it'll be hard to, like, go back home and just go back to, like, my everyday, like, working
24:41life and having to be on my phone all the time.
24:44So, I don't know. I think it's still, like, something I'm really debating.
24:49It just feels like a lot of, a lot of pressure because although I want to grow with the community
24:54and I want to be a part of it, it's also, like, I need to look at my own life
24:59and, you know, the decision that I truly want to make.
25:16For a while now, I've been doing, like, a trial job at the country cupboard.
25:20So it's nice to finally just get off the form and maybe have some AC.
25:24I'll go grab the broom.
25:27We can, uh, clean up and sweep, so.
25:30Sure.
25:33Working at Country Cupboard is not a hard job. It just takes commitment and willingness to do the jobs.
25:41It wasn't a huge store, but you're just going up and down the aisles and there's pins and so much
25:47dust that accumulates.
25:48It's like a workout.
25:50So Sarah did tell me that it's pretty normal, especially if you do not have any kids or a household
25:55to take care of, to have a job outside of the house.
25:59I do miss my Roomba. I feel like that'll make this job even quicker, but do you know what a
26:05Roomba is?
26:06I don't know.
26:06It's like an automatic, like, vacuum cleaner.
26:09Like a robot.
26:10Yeah, a robot vacuum.
26:12Yeah, it's amazing.
26:14Definitely suggest it would make this process so much quicker.
26:18The robot vacuum cleaner that she mentioned, I think that would never be acceptable to have here.
26:25It just takes forever to sweep the store and it's physically exhausting, especially when you're wearing an Amish dress.
26:33It's a monotonous, monotonous task.
26:36I'm a behavior analyst in my English job, so I work with kids with autism.
26:41I think it's a pretty rewarding job.
26:44So going from, you know, something that I study hard and get my master's for, to now holding a broom,
26:49to sweep floors in a country cupboard.
26:51It's such a step down.
26:58There's just been so much that has been going on that my mind's constantly just running.
27:06From the Matt and Kendra situation.
27:09Emma leaving.
27:10Judah's mom being here and trying to take him away.
27:13All of James' rules.
27:15The gossip.
27:17The jealousy.
27:18The thinkless jobs.
27:20It's basically like this Amish life is not any different from the life I left.
27:26I'm tired.
27:40I'm coming to the house to talk to my son and one final plea to get him to come back
27:45with me.
27:46My hope is that Judah will see the lights and just come home.
27:54This is what you're doing, huh?
27:56Doing my chores.
27:58So you gonna cut all this land with this?
28:02Yeah.
28:03I'm not scared of hard work.
28:06I get it.
28:07I raised you not to be a quitter and it is a beautiful place.
28:10On the surface.
28:12But I personally still don't understand why you're here.
28:15When I can't call you.
28:16When I can't see you.
28:17When I wanna see you.
28:18That's a problem for me.
28:19You out here with these strange people.
28:21I don't know if they freaky Jason's or what's going on.
28:24Son, I really, really want you to leave this place.
28:27I want you to come back with me.
28:30You gotta go all these mouths to try to make you become this person.
28:34Whoever this person is that you're trying to be.
28:38I'm your mom.
28:38I'm your only friend.
28:39I'm your best friend.
28:40Come with me because I said so.
28:42Taking him home with me will definitely be a fight.
28:45But I'm not leaving empty handed.
28:48I'm gonna make him come back with me.
28:58See, you don't see me growing.
29:00Cause back home, I would never willingly just wanna get up and mow the lawn.
29:03So look at me.
29:05Mowing all these acres.
29:07Because I value what God has given us.
29:13Before I came here, like honestly, if I be real.
29:15I didn't really like, feel like I was useful in anybody's life or as a man.
29:23And being here, I've been a voice for people.
29:25I've been a voice for people.
29:26I've stood up for people.
29:27I've been able to find my voice and help other people find their voice.
29:30I've been able to put together a phone shanty.
29:33I've cleaned a chicken coop.
29:34I've pet animals that I never thought I would see that close.
29:38I've been in the cornfields.
29:39I've done so much here that I feel like it's helped me mold into a better man.
29:49Does that make sense?
29:53I am gonna be staying here cause this is where I feel like I need to be.
30:01I still love you though.
30:05I am proud of you.
30:06I am proud of you getting up doing your chores.
30:08I am proud of you making your bed.
30:10I am proud of you being willing to help the people that you've grown a relationship with here.
30:16It's been a lot for me.
30:18But I respect that son and I respect you and I respect the decisions that you make.
30:23I appreciate that and I just want us to appreciate each other and stay knit cause like you always say
30:29we all we got.
30:34Please don't cry.
30:35I know, right?
30:42I love you.
30:43I love you, baby.
30:44I love you, baby.
30:45I love you, baby.
30:46I love you, baby.
30:46I love you, baby.
30:47Call me if I need to come put hold of hands on somebody.
30:49All right.
30:50I got these hold of hands.
30:51It'll be all right.
30:52Thought you will.
30:55I'm going home.
30:56I don't regret coming out here.
30:59My initial goal was to just yank my son out of here.
31:05Even though I failed miserably to convince my son to come back with me, I will accept that and respect
31:11that.
31:17I did not raise a quitter.
31:19I am extremely proud of the man that he is evolving, the man that he is becoming, the man that
31:24he is now.
31:25That was the hardest thing I ever did in my life.
31:41I feel like I want to grow up.
31:44I don't really know what's going on, but Billie Jo is really sick.
31:49It's so hot.
31:51It's cute.
31:52She's been laying in bed.
31:54We've been kind of having to take care of her because she does not look good at all.
32:04You'll feel better if you throw up.
32:08I'm really worried for her because she's throwing up.
32:11She's nauseous.
32:12She's, you know, pale.
32:13We'll feel comfortable.
32:25Are you dizzy still?
32:27Yeah.
32:28She wasn't doing good at all at dinner time.
32:32I would like to get you to the hospital.
32:35Last night, Billie Jo was throwing up.
32:37I'm thinking that it's just a little bug
32:38she's having from the food or from the heat.
32:40And then just to wake up this morning,
32:42she's still throwing up and not feeling good.
32:45She's crying, her head hurts.
32:48And it's not looking too good.
32:51The whole drama with Kendra and Matt
32:53has been a lot on her.
32:54She's stressed out, it's hot, it's overwhelming.
32:56And this is way more serious than I thought.
32:59I just love her and I really hope that she's okay.
33:12EJ is sick and so she's going to the hospital.
33:20Well, the Amish take care of what they can themselves,
33:23but if something is life-threatening,
33:24they do use hospitals.
33:26It must be serious if she wants to go to the hospital.
33:51I get there, they give her IV fluids,
33:54and the doctor says that she will suffer from heat exhaustion.
33:57Did you give me something?
33:59Not yet.
34:00I'm starting the fluids.
34:02You can call it dehydration.
34:04I can call it deprivation or, like, drama
34:08because everyone leaving, the heat,
34:11everything was getting to me.
34:17At this point, I already lost Kendra, Matt, my mom.
34:21If I lose Billy Joe, then I'm going to lose my girl.
34:23That's one of my main road dogs in here.
34:26Maybe I just need an IV.
34:28Dude, I already feel better.
34:31For Judah, he was like,
34:34no, no, no, I really, I need to go and check on BJ.
34:36And he didn't leave my side.
34:38I don't have friends in the outside world
34:41that would do that for me.
34:46Me and BJ bonded because we're both funny,
34:50incredibly good-looking, smart, you know.
34:53And she kind of, like, completes me.
34:58And it's just, um,
35:00I just love her,
35:01and I really hope that she's okay.
35:04I think we're okay to let you go home
35:06as long as you can drink normally.
35:07Sure.
35:07Blood work looks okay.
35:09Maybe stay out of the sun a couple of days.
35:11Yeah, do you need a special, like, note
35:12or anything like that?
35:13No.
35:14It might be like the genius.
35:16Well, I'll take my risks with him.
35:19Okay.
35:26When I was sick,
35:31Judah was hands down my best friend.
35:37He's an amazing human,
35:39and I wouldn't want to share this experience without him.
35:58You want to get that broccoli and put it in this pan?
36:01Sure I do, Sarah.
36:02Sure I do.
36:04You know, being at the hospital,
36:06I was in the air-conditioned facility,
36:09but now it's back to reality,
36:11back to the grind, you know.
36:13Laundry has to be done.
36:14Meals have to be prepared.
36:16Here, Aaron.
36:17Will you drop these on the table, please?
36:19Sure.
36:20Reckoning Day is tomorrow,
36:23and I'm a little worried.
36:26My body is struggling,
36:30and it would be a struggle every year in this life,
36:34every day in this life,
36:35and it's something I've always wanted,
36:37but I'm not sure it's something
36:39that I can physically handle.
36:44Never would I have thought to make this back home.
36:47In the Amish community,
36:49the dinner table or mealtimes,
36:52that is when a lot of our important discussions take place.
36:56Coming behind hot chicken.
36:59The whole family is gathered together.
37:01Everybody's present.
37:02It's time to eat.
37:03Let's go outside.
37:05I mean, yeah, we're eating,
37:06but yet we have time to sit and talk
37:10and discuss important topics together.
37:13Oh, that's good.
37:14There you go.
37:17Billy Jo, how do you feel?
37:20Super hydrated.
37:21Thank you guys for coming to my aid,
37:24especially Judah.
37:26There you are, my dear.
37:28Well, guys, before y'all get too comfy here,
37:33tomorrow is a big day.
37:34Bishop is going to be at church.
37:37Then he will decide if you stay or not.
37:42And if you have any last questions, ask away.
37:46He's going to decide whether we stay or not?
37:49Just him?
37:51Me and Alan could have put in a good word
37:52if we desire to.
37:54Well, would you desire to put in a good word for me?
37:57Yeah, would you desire it?
38:00Oh.
38:03There's only one night left,
38:05and James is still playing games,
38:06playing with our emotions.
38:08When does it ever end?
38:10I am very disappointed with James
38:13dealing with the English that way.
38:16His viewpoints on the Amish lifestyle
38:18is very different from mine or my brother's.
38:22He can be very, very hard.
38:26So basically, you say you're not sure about us yet?
38:28Yeah, you have talked about not staying,
38:30so I'm not sure.
38:32If he asked me, Judah,
38:33I would definitely tell him to let you.
38:37But I have to figure out what I'm going to say, too.
38:40It is scary.
38:40It's a whole lifestyle change.
38:42But it's important,
38:43and it's something that's not to be taken lightly.
38:47But Sarah and I will do our best to advocate for you.
38:51I don't know what he has in mind,
38:52but we'll cross that bridge when he gets here.
38:56I could sense that they were nervous.
38:59They wonder if they're good enough,
39:01or they wonder if the bishop will let them in.
39:05The journey is going to be ending very soon.
39:08This is a lifelong decision
39:10because it is a commitment to the community and God,
39:15and if you leave after you are a member,
39:18you would be shunned.
39:20I guess for me,
39:21I'm just a little bit scared of the transition
39:23because I feel like everything's happening so quick.
39:24I think both Ellen and Sarah
39:26have kind of seen me grow so much from day one.
39:28I didn't really know how to do anything.
39:30I was kind of grossed out by everything,
39:31but I think they've seen the growth in me.
39:33They see that I do get up in the morning
39:34and I cook and clean,
39:36and I think they'll advocate for me for the most part.
39:40I've been back and forth the whole time.
39:41How can I join the Amish community without hearing aids?
39:45I think that's a big hesitancy in me joining
39:48because it's huge.
39:49It's a giant deal for me.
39:51Do I need to get a big megaphone
39:54and put it to my ear?
39:55Like the old school cones?
39:57I need that in order to function.
40:00That would be something to discuss with him.
40:03I think this whole thing is very sobering for me right now.
40:06I mean, hearing aids,
40:08I need a pair that I can adjust easily and constantly.
40:13I mean, I don't know what that looks like.
40:15I have a problem, I would say,
40:18just because some of my best friends are gay.
40:23And I'm really concerned with the stance
40:27against the LGBTQ community with the Amish.
40:34Listen, Judah has been there for me since day one.
40:37He's my right hand, he's my go-to, he's my world here.
40:40So I'm being honest.
40:42His bisexuality in the Amish community, it concerns me.
40:46You know, if I can bring it up at supper
40:49and just kind of touch on it
40:50and tiptoe and get feelings about
40:53how everyone else takes on that,
40:56then I'm going to do it.
40:58Like, I am not gay,
41:00but I love some people that are.
41:04It's not that we're saying we don't like them,
41:07the people and themselves,
41:08and it's not biblical.
41:13So if I were gay,
41:15then I would not be able to be a part of the community.
41:18Is that what you're saying?
41:20I don't know if I'm ready yet
41:21to tell Alan and James that I'm by.
41:23It just brought back so much anxiety.
41:25So when BJ does bring it up,
41:27it makes me feel weak
41:29because I didn't step up to the plate
41:31and bring it up first.
41:32But at the same time,
41:34I feel like I either talk to them
41:36about my sexuality now
41:37or it will never happen.
41:39Okay.
41:41My thing is this.
41:45Um.
41:48Next time on Suddenly Amish.
41:52Could each of you maybe stand
41:54and say your piece?
41:56I'm just really nervous
41:57and I'm just feeling all the things right now.
41:59My life completely changes after today.
42:02If yes, I'm Amish forever.
42:04Judah, do you want the Amish life or not?
42:07I'm not willing to compromise my identity
42:10to be a part of a community
42:11who may not appreciate me.
42:12It's important that others will be accepted
42:15that will make or break my decision.
42:18Jesus said,
42:19he who lays his hand to the plow
42:20and looks back is not worthy of his kingdom.
42:22Do we or don't we accept?
42:25It's a decision for life.
42:28It's a decision for life.
42:31It's a decision for life.
42:32It's a decision for life.
42:34It's a decision for life.
42:34It's a decision for life.
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