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00:08I think I finally figured out my life, my purpose, and my goals, I'm never changing now.
00:15These are the days I've seen before, I'm never changing now.
00:22I'm going to get a bite.
00:26Mmm, so good.
00:28Hi, Rooker.
00:31Hi!
00:35Hi, my little Coco Melly.
00:40Hi.
00:41Hi, Dad.
00:42Um, have you guys apologized to each other?
00:48Is everything good?
00:50Taylor asked me to go to therapy with her, and it just seems like every time we're together, we're fighting
00:59about the same things over and over.
01:01How does a parent parent their adult kid but then be like, poor me, I need to go to the
01:08hospital?
01:08Do I say that to you, or are you making it up?
01:11Can you let me explain it to her first, and then you can talk to me?
01:15Yeah, I do need to work on my approach and not be so judgmental, and so I am really sorry.
01:22No, I appreciate that, and I'm sorry, too, because I think I just get defensive, just like you.
01:26I think I, apple doesn't fall far from the tree, you know?
01:29So, yeah.
01:30My mom and I decided to finally do therapy together, and it really opened my eyes to realizing how much
01:37I still have yet to learn about my family and her past.
01:42And then the genealogist found out that I have two more siblings, was, like, shocked, honestly, like, whoa.
01:49Did they even know?
01:50I don't believe so.
01:52I've not been able to reach them yet.
01:54That is wild.
01:56I'm nervous for my mom, but I'm like, this is news to her, too.
01:59This was her past with my biological dad, you know, once her relationship, but maybe it won't be that big
02:05of a deal.
02:06So, I have news.
02:08Oh, great.
02:09I hate when you say that, because you get this smirk on your face.
02:14You do that, um, um.
02:17Well, this is, like, pretty, like, crazy news.
02:19It's not bad.
02:20Okay, well, let's hear it.
02:21Like, I, my heart's already in my stomach.
02:25I always think she's going to say she's pregnant or something to that effect.
02:31You guys ready?
02:32Oh, man.
02:33This is actually shocking to me, okay?
02:36I officially...
02:39I have two siblings, other than Aspen and Hunter.
02:43Shut up.
02:44I am shocked by it.
02:46I did hear rumors before, when Taylor was younger, that she possibly had a sibling or two.
02:52And I just didn't believe it at the time.
02:56But there's, that's always been in my mind that that's a possibility.
03:00I have a little brother and a little sister that is 22 and 24.
03:04Shut up.
03:05No way.
03:06Where do they live?
03:08Colorado Springs.
03:09All of them.
03:10That's crazy.
03:10So, the mom, it says, they all have the same address as of last time checked.
03:15The girl looks like me, a lot like you, too.
03:18But it's because she's, like, the dark hair and dark eyes.
03:20I feel like, yeah, it's scary to go down this road with her to find out, like, the truth about
03:26Brian.
03:27I've kept it to a distance just because, I don't know, I feel like some of it's my fault the
03:32way that her life is.
03:35And so, yes, I was skeptical about her finding out more.
03:39Are you going to reach out to them, or do you want to know, or do you care?
03:44Um, I, yeah, I just don't know, like...
03:47Sometimes people, like, don't want to look at it, they don't want to acknowledge it.
03:50Obviously, they're adults, so I can go directly to the children, but they could be like, I had no idea.
03:55You know, like, they could think that's their dad.
03:57Yeah.
03:58Now that I've had more information about my siblings, I have a lot of questions I want to know even
04:04more.
04:05But there is a part of me that's, like, questioning, should I even be doing this right now?
04:08Is this the right timing?
04:09Because I am about to take off, and I'm going out to the bachelorette.
04:11But I am also, like, this is precisely why I need to know so I can begin to heal my
04:17relationship with men before I leave.
04:19I feel like my trust issues come back to my biological father.
04:22There is a wound there that the one man that's supposed to love you and be by your side that
04:26didn't want you,
04:27and you kind of knew that he had a choice there and didn't care.
04:30With Dakota, I think he surfaced that wound a lot.
04:32So if I want to move forward with someone else, I feel like I just need more answers on my
04:36past and, like, who I am.
04:41Come, Jesus, come, we'reailing.
04:49Listen up.
04:51I'm the one you've been dreaming of.
04:54I've got everything you could ever want.
04:58Try me in your sleep.
05:00I'll bring you to your knees.
05:02Baby, you're gonna believe.
05:37I think you forgot who the f**k I am.
05:42I'm the original classic, fantastic.
05:44I'm like Coutini, it's magic.
05:47Okay, kiddos, let's go outside.
05:49We're gonna go eat.
05:49We're gonna go do a little picnic.
05:53Bubba's.
05:54Hey, hey, hey.
05:57Hey, Bubba's.
05:58You need to be nice to your sister, okay?
05:59No.
06:01Jen's schedule for Dancing with the Stars is a hundred times more hectic and busy than we ever expected.
06:06We thought she would have a few hours of dance practice a day, but it's been way more than that.
06:11You like Bob?
06:12No.
06:13One bite.
06:14No.
06:14How about an airplane?
06:16So I have taken on the role of being the stay-at-home dad.
06:19We're gonna call Mommy real quick and just see how she's doing.
06:22It's completely worth the sacrifice, but it's been way different than what I expected.
06:27Can you say hi to Mama?
06:28Say hi, Mama.
06:30Hi, Mama.
06:31We were just checking in so the kids could see you before we went down for sleepies.
06:35Hi.
06:35Oh my gosh.
06:36My schedule is absolutely insane.
06:38I am dancing for six to seven hours a day, and right now I'm feeling a lot of mom guilt.
06:45I am so grateful for Zach, all he's doing for me right now, but to be honest, it is hard.
06:51Love you guys.
06:52Okay, we'll see you in a few hours.
06:54Love you.
06:55Love you so much.
06:57Hey, blow Mommy a kiss.
06:58Give her a kiss.
06:59I'm nasty.
07:00That's your mama.
07:02Okay, here, you read this one.
07:05Daddy's gonna go hurry and put Peanut down.
07:13Please bless Mommy that she can get home safe from dance.
07:16Please bless Poppy and KK.
07:17And we're grateful for our home.
07:19We're grateful for our bed and for all the things we have.
07:22Like, since I left medical school over a year ago, like, I have been putting Jen's dreams
07:27in career first.
07:27And I have mixed emotions about it.
07:30Part of me is really excited for her because this is her dream.
07:34And then there's part of me that's, like, honestly, like, homesick and just, like, ready
07:37to come home to Utah.
07:38And I think I want to talk to Jen about that.
07:40But ultimately, we're kind of just in survival mode right now.
07:44Um, yeah, I just don't really know, like, what I'm doing with myself, so.
07:51Lately, I don't know why, but I find myself, after the kids are down, before Jen gets home,
07:54I find myself coming and hiding.
07:56Not hiding, but just sitting in this bathroom.
07:58It just is nice and quiet in here.
08:00Jen is on her fourth, I don't know, 14-hour day in a row.
08:04And it's a lot, I'll be honest.
08:06Kids are a lot.
08:08303 is no joke.
08:09Yeah.
08:28Ooh, I love the smell.
08:30Smells like we're going to whoop some dad talk ass out here.
08:34I want to see them cry.
08:35I started playing tennis when I was, like, five years old or so.
08:39I played D1 tennis for BYU.
08:41And then I wanted to do pro, but I got pregnant at 19, so that didn't happen.
08:46I've enjoyed playing pickleball, so much so that I put a pickleball court in my backyard.
08:50We want to use it, so we're really excited.
08:52So we decided to host a mom talk versus dad talk pickleball tournament.
08:57I feel like we need to talk about why it's important to practice.
09:00It's because we can never lose to dad talk.
09:03My ego will not allow it.
09:06Mom talk was created as an outlet for us moms to get together, make some videos, have fun,
09:11make some money, and dad talk was created to write off our coattails.
09:15That being said, mom talk needs to beat dad talk to kind of put them in their place and
09:20humble them a little bit.
09:21They're surprisingly cocky.
09:22And, like, for what?
09:23Like, you are here because of us, so remember that.
09:27Oh, wait, Taylor, this is for you, since you're not playing.
09:30Oh, hell yeah.
09:31Are you going to be the rack or something?
09:32I'll talk my shit.
09:32She's a cheerleader.
09:33She can talk shit.
09:34So you might want to practice since you can't practice pickleball.
09:37I wonder if I could just, like, barely T-Rex it, you know?
09:40Yeah.
09:40I'm pretty bummed that I don't get to play pickleball with the girls because of my breast
09:44argumentation I just got done.
09:45I'm still healing from it.
09:46But I am super excited to cheer from the sidelines.
09:49It's been fun to really get my time in with the girls before I leave for the bachelorette.
09:54Can everybody hear me?
09:55I feel like this is not loud enough.
09:56Hello.
09:57Hello.
09:57Oh, guys, I have news.
09:59What?
09:59What?
09:59I met up with a genealogist, and I have two siblings.
10:03What?
10:04On top of my other two siblings.
10:06What?
10:07Yes.
10:08And I did not know.
10:09Wait, that's so wild.
10:11Anyways, that was my news.
10:12That's crazy.
10:13That's crazy.
10:14I know.
10:14I was not expecting you to say that.
10:15I thought it was going to be something about Dakota.
10:17Yeah, me too.
10:18What guys are all coming?
10:20I think all of them besides Connor.
10:23Dakota did, like, college basketball, so he's pretty good at any sport.
10:28Okay, wait.
10:28So do we have enough boys and girls?
10:30Hey, that was hard for me to say it, so.
10:33Oh, she can't play.
10:34Wait, what do we do then?
10:35Shania is good.
10:36I pick a ball.
10:37I play with her.
10:38You can call her.
10:39Maybe I call her.
10:40Shania is my best friend, and she's also friendly with Taylor and Layla.
10:44And we had a ton of fun together at Stagecoach.
10:48Oh, my God.
10:50Here we go.
10:52Shania and I have played pickleball together on a number of occasions, and she can definitely
10:57hold her own.
10:57I don't know.
10:58I think we can.
10:58I think we'll put up a good fight against Dad Talk.
11:00I think we have a good plan.
11:01She'll call Shania if Shania can do it.
11:03If not, Macy's going to play twice.
11:04Okay.
11:05Is this love when you call?
11:09Say my name.
11:11Oh, baby, run.
11:13Is this love?
11:14I love this place.
11:16It's so good.
11:18We have a reservation?
11:20Yes.
11:20It's under Jordan.
11:21Jordan.
11:22Perfect.
11:22Follow me.
11:24It's Jordan and Mai's five-year wedding anniversary, and I'm feeling conflicted because we're trying
11:30to work on our marriage.
11:31I'm still struggling with certain things.
11:33Thank you so much.
11:34You're welcome.
11:35I left my first husband right after our five-year anniversary, so five years has always felt
11:40kind of cursed to me, and then Jordan and I got together right after my ex and I split,
11:44so I'm definitely feeling emotional tonight.
11:46Bacon wrap dates.
11:48You know, I'm excited.
11:49What are you going to get?
11:50I'm going to get the halibut.
11:53Oh, nice.
11:56I can't believe it's our anniversary yet.
11:58It's been a hell of a year.
11:59Yeah.
12:01It's been insane.
12:14I'm going to cry.
12:16What's wrong?
12:19Five is just harder for me than I thought it was going to be.
12:28My first marriage ended up right after my five-year anniversary, and I didn't realize
12:32it was going to be so tiring.
12:38I'm sorry.
12:40It was like five years, and the anniversary was kind of like the unraveling of the timeline,
12:48I guess, and then it ended.
12:50I knew it was ending for a while, obviously, but now, like, obviously, we're not in, like,
12:53an amazing place, and so it's, like, five years is, like, triggering because of that.
13:01It's tough, but, like, I'm just grateful every day to be in this and working on things and fighting for
13:10this.
13:16This dinner is kind of a weird vibe.
13:18Jordan and I have been living in limbo for a while, and that is mostly my fault because I just
13:23have not been sure about what I want, but as of right now, we're both committed to really trying and
13:28giving it 100%, and we've kind of decided that by the end of the year, we're going to make a
13:32decision.
13:33And if we're still in limbo, that means that we need to be done.
13:36For me, like, because of all the things that we've gone through and my mistakes and your mistakes, I think
13:43at some point I would love to, like, renew our vows.
13:48You know, we've just been through so much, and, like, I think that that is something that at some point
13:52I would be interested in.
13:54That is, like, my goal.
13:55Like, that is what I would ultimately like to work towards.
13:59It just feels like maybe it would be a band-aid.
14:01Like, I don't feel like we're in a place where that would feel authentic.
14:04Yeah, I'm not saying we are.
14:06No, I know.
14:06But, like, it's hard for me to even say a year from now or two years.
14:09I don't know.
14:11Even though Jordan and I are working on things, it just feels like we're never on the same page,
14:17and we can't quite get there.
14:19And I'm trying to give it time, and I'm trying to see if that can change,
14:22but I am open to the possibility that this could work out and this could make us stronger than ever.
14:28Or maybe we are destined for divorce, and that has to be a real possibility as well.
14:39Oh, oh, oh, oh.
14:41You got your claws with me, honey, like a tiger in love.
14:45I'm swinging, burning, and you're stalling me without any glass.
14:49Oh, yeah, it's all your illusion.
14:51Oh, what's up, man?
14:53What's up, guys?
14:54How's it going, man?
14:55How have you been?
14:56Hanging in there, dude.
14:57It's your vibe.
14:57Dude, I hope you're doing good.
14:59What did you guys get?
15:00What did you order?
15:00I haven't ordered yet.
15:01I'm going to get the struggle, bro.
15:05You guys coming for tomorrow for the pickball tournament?
15:07Dakota, you coming, right?
15:08I don't know.
15:09Maybe.
15:09Who do you want to be partnered with?
15:11I'm pretty damn good.
15:12Okay.
15:12I have a feeling that you're probably pretty good.
15:14I bet you'd be Dakota.
15:15You don't play pickleball.
15:16Do you play pickleball?
15:17I play pickleball.
15:18How many times have you played?
15:19How many times have you played?
15:19You need to calm down real quick, buddy.
15:21The only thing worse than Dakota's pickleball skills is that disgusting thing he calls a
15:27mustache on his face.
15:28It is awful.
15:31I went to some story the other day, and I was getting glazed for some reason.
15:35I went in there, and there was like 20 old ladies in there.
15:39They were like, oh my God, look at you.
15:41You're such a great daddy.
15:42I'm like, okay.
15:44I was just changing my baby's diaper.
15:46They're like, good for you.
15:49Jace, how's Michaela?
15:50How are you guys doing?
15:51Just chugging along.
15:53As far as our issues that we're going through, it's kind of just still in the same spot.
15:57Right now in Michaela and I's relationship, there's a lot of days where I'm feeling positive,
16:02and I wake up and I'm thinking, okay, things are going to be better.
16:03We're going to get a handle on these skin issues and these intimacy issues, and then
16:08there are days where I'm feeling like nothing seems to be working.
16:13We did go to a therapy session.
16:15How are you guys?
16:16I have to convince myself every day that she does love me.
16:19I get so frustrated that I can't even get a kiss from my wife.
16:24I just feel so guilty that I can't show up for my kids, and I can't show up for my
16:31husband,
16:31and I can't just, I feel like I just can't do anything.
16:35I think we're both feeling stuck, and we're not sure how to navigate it or where to push
16:40for movement.
16:41So like, how do you just stay cool with it if the progress isn't being made?
16:45I'm not cool with it.
16:47Wait, how long are we talking, Jay?
16:49Well, the thing is, it's not like she's saying we're not going to do this ever.
16:53It's just kind of a, if we're ever going to do this, it's not going to be for me.
16:57I'm not going to enjoy it.
16:58It's going to be just for you.
17:00And so I'm kind of like, oh, yeah.
17:02I don't want to do that.
17:04You know what I mean?
17:05That's so hard.
17:06Yeah.
17:07I'm definitely not okay with it, but like, I don't, if me, me throwing fits about it
17:12all the time and getting a punch about it, it doesn't help anything.
17:14So the only thing you can do is just kind of be patient and be there for her.
17:19Have you even just thought about like how long you could like, this can last for?
17:23Kind of in the same situation?
17:24Well, there's no progress?
17:26Yeah.
17:26I think growing up in Utah and in the Mormon culture, it was very commonplace for men
17:31to be the one in charge and the provider.
17:34Dad talk is breaking that stigma.
17:37And I think it's something that's been difficult for a lot of us because of those cracks that
17:41are created.
17:42Sometimes those cracks can turn into a lot bigger problems.
17:45Honestly, we talked about this and I would probably do like something like a separation
17:49like Jordan and Jesse did at that point.
17:51And then we try that out.
17:52And if she was like, you know what, I'm still not, I don't want to take this seriously.
17:56It's not important to me.
17:57Then, yeah, then that's that.
17:59It's just a really tough, sensitive thing that, and it's so tricky because you can't
18:03be pushed into that kind of thing or something.
18:05Anyway, appreciate us talking about it though, because I feel like talking about it is only
18:09going to help.
18:09Yeah.
18:10We've talked about separation and we've thought about if we separate, is it going to create
18:15more space for you to where you're going to feel like you can work on these issues?
18:19And that's kind of my intent behind it, because I can definitely feel hopeless at times.
18:25It's a scary barrel of a gun to look down for sure.
18:29How about, how about we have an entry fee to the pickleball tournament because everyone
18:31has to, you know, go to an hour of therapy in order to get in?
18:35I got enough credits.
18:37I got enough credits for all of you.
18:51Oh, this restaurant's called, is it Jenna or Gemma?
18:56I think it's Gemma, but we can call it Gemma.
18:59Gemma.
19:00That's cute.
19:05Well, you look nice.
19:06Yeah, thank you.
19:07I like your shirt.
19:08I got ready.
19:09I was, felt like we were going on a first date again.
19:11I was excited.
19:12Really?
19:14I wish I could say the same.
19:18I'm a rat.
19:19I stink.
19:20I smell.
19:22My body hurts.
19:24Zach and I are going on a date tonight.
19:26And to be honest, this is kind of a big deal because I can't even remember the last time
19:29we had like a full-on conversation.
19:31Our life has been so crazy.
19:32Since Dancing with the Stars is eventually going to come to an end, I'm starting to ask
19:36myself, do I want to stay in LA?
19:38You know, I kind of need to know, will Zach support me or will it be too hard?
19:42So I feel like this date is going to be really important to us.
19:45Yeah, I'm tired.
19:46You look tired.
19:48Even though I really want to sleep right now, I know this is important too.
19:53And getting time together.
19:55So I'm glad that we could have this time.
19:57I've been missing you.
19:58It's been, it's been pretty tough.
20:02Really?
20:04The experience hasn't been fully what I expected.
20:08I knew you were going to be busy, but I thought we were going to have time to do a
20:12lot as a
20:12family.
20:13And I think I realized pretty quickly after being here that that's just not what this
20:17is going to be.
20:19Like, I mean, I've never seen you work so hard and I'm proud of you, but at the same
20:23time, I'm like, I miss you.
20:26Yeah.
20:27And it's just been hard for me that, like, we never see each other.
20:32Like, we never talk.
20:35It's definitely discouraging hearing Zach talk about how hard it's been for him supporting
20:41me on this journey just because the past five years of our marriage, that's what I've been
20:46doing for him.
20:48He always focuses on what I'm not doing now and he forgets, like, what I've done in the
20:54past.
20:54It's unfair to put so much pressure on me when he had his turn and now it's my turn
20:59to go after my career.
21:00And he knows that and should support that.
21:03Especially after, like, scoring low last week, I've, like, put, like, more stress on myself
21:09because I'm like, I do not want to go home.
21:12Like, it's a dream to get that mirror ball.
21:16Like, I want it so bad.
21:18And so I'm, like, working so hard but feel so much guilt being away at the same time.
21:23It's, like, so much.
21:25And I guess I feel bad.
21:27Like, honestly, even just talking to you right now, I feel bad that it's been hard for you.
21:34Does it scare you?
21:36Like, if you were to, like, move down here and, like, I want to, you know?
21:41Like, pursue acting, singing, like, more of the entertainment industry.
21:47Yeah.
21:52Um, yeah, it does.
21:57See, I don't want you to feel mom guilt but, like, our kids do miss you.
22:01I try my best to have a nurturing side but, like, I'm not, I'm not mom.
22:05And I can't, it's hard for me to fill that void with them even when I try.
22:09Yeah.
22:10And it makes me worried for our marriage because I don't think this life in Hollywood's really set up.
22:18Like, it's not really super conducive with, like, a healthy marriage.
22:22For example, two days ago we're, you know, Jan's a great guy.
22:26I have no issues with Jan.
22:27I'm super respectful but I'm sitting there, you know, walking through Disneyland watching my wife dance in front of Cinderella
22:34Castle with another man.
22:35I'm, like, probably wasn't my plan A, you know?
22:40Yeah.
22:41Um, or plan B or C.
22:45I think everyone knows that Hollywood is probably not the healthiest place for marriages.
22:52You see a lot of these actors be in relationships, you see them get divorced multiple times.
22:56I think it's just, it demands so much of you.
22:58Like, I just want to have open conversations and I feel like Jen, instead of wanting to talk to me
23:03about these things, like, she just wants to avoid it.
23:05I do feel like you being a wife has taken, like, the back burner.
23:10I feel like it's Dancing with the Stars, Social Media Jen, Reality TV Jen, Jen as a mother and, like,
23:17Jen as a wife is not important.
23:20Do not put, the fact that you just said that, that I'm putting that before, like, being a mom.
23:26Oh, no, no, no, sorry.
23:27It's actually, like, I'm just saying, like, I'm not taking that.
23:29I'm not.
23:30I put being a mom before.
23:32I'm not, I'm not saying, I'm just saying, what I was trying to say is being a wife, I feel
23:35like takes is a back burner to a lot of the other places that are pulling your energy.
23:41This, this experience isn't for the weak, especially being a parent.
23:47It's hard.
23:48It'd be so easy if, like, Whitney and I were single, or we didn't have kids to come home to,
23:54a spouse to come home to, like.
23:56That's kind of a crazy comment.
23:57It really would be a piece of cake.
24:00Do you want a divorce?
24:09No.
24:10Did you take my comment that way?
24:12Oh, I don't know.
24:13I don't, I didn't know how to take your comment.
24:15I'm literally saying, talking to all the single people on there, when they start complaining, I literally start laughing because
24:22I'm like, you have no idea.
24:25You don't have kids to come home to.
24:27You don't have a spouse, like, you literally don't have a spouse and kids, like, you have yourself.
24:32That's all you have to think about.
24:35What it means to be a good wife in the LDS culture is, you know, to be a stay-at
24:40-home wife, to cook, to clean.
24:42I think that's still ingrained in him.
24:44That's why it's even more important I do what I'm doing because I want to be a representation that your
24:51life doesn't stop when you're a mom.
24:53You matter, too.
24:56This is a season of life.
24:58Like, just because it's a season of life where you're supporting me fully, like, doesn't mean that there isn't room
25:05for you to grow in the future or you to do your own thing.
25:09I don't think that either.
25:10And I don't, I'm not trying to get at that and I'm not trying to get at, like, you feeling
25:13bad.
25:14Like, that's the opposite.
25:15But I've literally, in a sense, given up everything to fight for our marriage and to be here supporting you
25:20in your dreams.
25:22I remember, like, for many years of our marriage was only thinking about what I had to do next, what
25:26was on my to-do list, what I was feeling that I never...
25:28You want to take in charge?
25:30Yeah.
25:30It's my turn now.
25:31Yeah.
25:33I don't know.
25:34Some days I'm like, this is too much.
25:37Yeah.
25:38To be honest, I'm very conflicted because I think it's really important that I push for my dreams and goals.
25:49But at the same time, I do prioritize my marriage and I do want Zach to be happy.
25:53And so I think that's something I'm just going to have to take step by step.
26:22Is that cute?
26:24Is that your mom?
26:26Hi.
26:27Hi.
26:28You little boy?
26:30Hi.
26:30Hi.
26:31How are you?
26:31Good.
26:32How are you?
26:32How are you?
26:33I'm leaving for the bachelorette.
26:35And honestly, all I can think of is wanting to meet my dad's family and maybe get some answers before
26:41going into that.
26:43I was thinking maybe this weekend we could go to Colorado.
26:46For what?
26:48To get answers.
26:49Did he ever want to reach out at any age?
26:51Any age.
26:52When he knew I was getting married, big milestones, graduation, things like that.
26:57Like, did he want to?
26:58Do you know that?
26:59Like, I would ask his friend or family, whoever I can get in contact with.
27:02Are the kids, do you think are his kids, one, both?
27:05Do you think he has more kids out there?
27:07Did he have any of the girlfriends after that?
27:08Like, I have so many questions I could go off.
27:10Like, I don't know anything.
27:12I think this is just really bad timing on your part because you're going to be leaving soon.
27:16And this is, like, a huge thing.
27:18I don't think there's ever a right time for this, to be honest.
27:21So have you talked to anyone from the family?
27:24Yeah, I talk to them, and nobody is willing to talk to you.
27:28Like, they don't want to.
27:30You're not going to be able to talk to, like, your maybe siblings, you know, that you have.
27:36I think it could be disruptive, and I don't want to do that necessarily to a family.
27:41I think that's why I'm trying to get on the side and just to get answers,
27:44and I don't even need to do anything with them directly.
27:46I just think that timing is, like, an issue, and then just, it can bring lots of emotions up, and
27:52I don't know.
27:55I'm obviously hesitant to go back to Pueblo to bring out the old memories of Brian
28:02and stuff that maybe Taylor won't be excited about and might be very hurtful.
28:08I want her to have a clear mind when she's going on The Bachelorette,
28:12but Taylor needs all the facts, like, today.
28:15If she doesn't get it, it makes her more anxious, and she just has to know.
28:20So it's better just to get it done and deal with it later.
28:24I mean, I want you to know, like, I want you to get the answers that you deserve,
28:28because I just think that you, I just think that you deserve, like, you know, you deserve so much.
28:41And I just, I don't know.
28:46Just being 17 and bringing a baby into the world just wasn't smart, you know?
28:51But, or at least, like, sometimes I wish, I don't know, if I, I could have gave you up for
28:57adoption
28:58and maybe you would have had a better life, I don't, I don't know, or maybe happier.
29:03I've had a great life.
29:09You don't really think that she would have had a better life if you put her up for adoption, do
29:13you?
29:14Sometimes.
29:16It was hard.
29:17Finding out you're pregnant your senior year.
29:19Not only was I young, but I was going to be a disappointment to my family, my religion, you know,
29:27the people I go to church with.
29:28And then also not being stable in my relationship with Brian.
29:34It was difficult.
29:36And so sometimes when I look at some of the choices that she makes, I, I can't help but to
29:43feel like if I would have put her up for adoption,
29:47that maybe she would have been happier.
29:51I don't mind, like, you wanting to know.
29:54I just think all these years that, like, we really didn't talk about it, you just never really asked about
30:00it.
30:00Yeah, but you, you didn't talk about it at all.
30:02And that's okay, like, I understand you trying to leave it in the past, right?
30:05But it would have been nice to do this when I was younger, for sure.
30:08Yeah.
30:09This is just hard.
30:11And I never, like, brought it to surface.
30:14Yeah.
30:16Well, I'm willing to go with you if that's what you want.
30:21Yeah, I do.
30:22I'd like you to come.
30:24There's a part of me that wonders if this will hurt my mother's and I's relationship and cause a bigger
30:31rift between us.
30:32But if I do get a lot of questions out there asking about, like, my past, I think it'd be
30:36nice to have some answers.
30:38Because, again, that could be down to the very, like, issues of my wounds and things I maybe want answered.
30:43So, I don't think it hurts to do this either.
30:46Like, I just don't know if you'll get the answers.
30:48And I don't know if it's going to be a waste of time.
30:50Well, I guess we'll find out.
31:11Liam, don't climb up the slides.
31:13That's dangerous.
31:15Go!
31:15Ah, Sedona's fast!
31:18How about you make me a strawberry sprinkle one?
31:20Ice cream!
31:21I'm looking forward to spending some time with Connor, especially with someone who's going through such a similar process.
31:26And I feel like he's been handling it super well.
31:29And so I even want some of his advice on, like, how he's coping with it.
31:32And just talk to, like, another adult human being.
31:35Can you guys cook us something for dinner?
31:36I'd love a snack.
31:37Yes!
31:38Try and make me the grossest dinner.
31:41Yeah!
31:42I feel like Zach and I, the idea of us both moving to L.A., both being stay-at-home
31:47parents, definitely felt less isolating.
31:49Feeling like there was another person there kind of walking a similar experience in life that I was.
31:55Jen and I went on our first date last night.
31:58She's just kind of like, hey, I'm loving being in L.A.
32:00And I, like, want to live here.
32:02And I want to pursue, like, more opportunities out here.
32:04Like, are you down for that?
32:06And I don't know how sustainable what we're currently doing is for the long run.
32:10And I feel like I'm going to explode right now.
32:13It's a lot.
32:14Are you enjoying a break from work?
32:16Or do you feel like you could be a stay-at-home dad forever?
32:18That's a great question.
32:19I need to have my own thing.
32:21Whitney and I were, like, having this conversation.
32:23She's like, I think it's time for you to quit your job.
32:25I feel like every time I come home from rehearsal, I'm even more overwhelmed because we're both working.
32:31There is, like, a gravitational pull around your career at the moment.
32:36And I don't think it's too selfish for you to say, hey, I could use the additional support of you
32:43just being a stay-at-home parent.
32:45Ultimately, I decided to leave my job as a technical analyst.
32:48Let me tell you, I loved my job.
32:51And being a stay-at-home parent, it's very easy to lose a sense of self.
32:55I was a little scared.
32:56Less about what other people were going to think about me and more about how I was going to value
32:59myself and how Whitney was going to value me.
33:02Like, oh, am I going to lose her respect?
33:04I've tried to take this as an opportunity for me to express myself in ways I don't think I would
33:09have had time for before.
33:10So, something I've been doing.
33:12Tell me.
33:13You're not going to believe this.
33:16Magic.
33:19Have you?
33:21I've been practicing my close-up magic.
33:23And that's given me a lot of purpose.
33:25I've gotten pretty good at it.
33:26I practice all night, so I can, like, make cards appear out of thin air.
33:30That's so funny.
33:32Close-up magic is an outlet for me.
33:34I would go to talent shows as a kid, and I would perform magic.
33:38Is that a little goofy?
33:39Maybe.
33:40But I love it.
33:41As long as you can find the things that give you value and purpose, like, being a stay-at-home
33:44parent can be not only fulfilling for your children, but fulfilling for you.
33:47I just need something where I can, like, practice and train at.
33:51I just need to stimulate myself.
33:52Yeah.
33:53And to be fair, like, Whitney and Jen, when they were stay-at-home moms, I think they felt the
33:57same way.
33:57I think that's why they started TikTok.
34:00That's exactly how they had their outlet.
34:01I know it's just a season, but a lot of times I feel like I'm Jen's husband.
34:05Like, that is my identity.
34:07That's my TikTok bio.
34:09Whitney's husband.
34:10I guess ever since, like, leaving medical school, I'm like, I want to do something that, like, stimulates my brain,
34:14where I feel fulfilled inside of me, not just as, like, a parent, I guess.
34:19Yeah.
34:19I'm sorry it's been hard.
34:21I don't think this is an easy experience, as fun as it is.
34:39You ready to play some pickleball?
34:41I'm a little nervous, because I don't know how my team's going to do.
34:44They're a little bit on the beginner's side here.
34:45And, you know, I don't like losing, so today is the first annual MomTalk vs. DadTalk Pickleball Tournament.
34:52With my tennis background, I'm obviously feeling very confident.
34:55I know I'm going to be the best one on the court.
34:57Jacob will be the second best, if I were to guess, because he's pretty good, but I'm obviously better.
35:02With me on MomTalk's side, I am confident that MomTalk will be bringing home the trophy.
35:08Oh, my gosh, she's making this, like, legit.
35:10Wow.
35:11You're, like, getting tense.
35:13This looks good.
35:15I don't think Jessie's on Macy's team like you wanted.
35:18We were trying to put you on Macy's team so she'd get pissed off.
35:21What? I wouldn't get pissed at her, actually.
35:24After our anniversary dinner, I feel like Jordan and I have just been really stuck.
35:28Because I would just hit one, I'd hit some lobster in an immediate way.
35:31I don't think I'm ready to take the next step of, like, filing for divorce at this point.
35:35Just walking away completely is terrifying to me.
35:38So I think I'm just waiting to wake up and, like, feel it in my gut that I need to
35:42leave.
35:42And I just haven't felt that quite yet.
35:44Hello.
35:46Welcome.
35:46You guys ready to win?
35:47Are you ready to lose?
35:48Wait, so it's us versus MomTalk?
35:49Yeah, dude.
35:50That's amazing.
35:52You ready to lose?
35:53Sure.
35:54Wow.
35:55Hello.
35:56Hi.
35:56Hi.
35:57Good to hear you.
35:58What's up, Ever?
35:59Hi.
35:59So you guys are playing, too, right?
36:01No, I'm not.
36:02I'm here for moral support.
36:03Taylor's not able to play today because she just got her girls redone.
36:06Love that for her.
36:07He's ready to get a good old-fashioned ass woman.
36:09So we're down a player on MomTalk, and Miranda decided to invite Shania, which I think will be a good
36:14addition.
36:16Okay, welcome to the first annual MomTalk vs. DadTalk Pickleball Championship.
36:21Woo-hoo!
36:22Yeah!
36:23Go MomTalk!
36:25There will be three MomTalk teams and three DadTalk teams.
36:28There'll be five games total, one game elimination.
36:30And there is a big trophy for the winner, and I feel like what we should do is whoever wins,
36:34they get MomTalk engraved in it or DadTalk.
36:37Whoever loses has to get MomTalk tattooed on their ass.
36:41Okay, Shania and Miranda vs. me and Jordan.
36:44Let's go, guys.
36:45Go DadTalk!
36:47Okay, let's go!
36:48Okay, let the games begin.
36:50Touch chips for good luck.
36:51Touch chips for good luck.
36:55Dude!
36:56What are you doing?
36:58Jordan!
36:59Jordan!
37:01Jordan!
37:02Jordan!
37:03Match point.
37:04Let's go, Nata.
37:05Let's go.
37:08Let's go!
37:09Shit!
37:11Oh, sorry.
37:12This is single-handedly setting back feminism by decades, guys.
37:16No.
37:16Okay, next is me and Mikayla against...
37:20Chasin' Mace.
37:21Oh, chasers.
37:22That was rude.
37:23Let's get a lead.
37:23Ready?
37:27You can sit by me.
37:28It's not a sin.
37:29I'm not trying to.
37:30Like a rule.
37:32The same.
37:33Sorry, baby.
37:34Your ears are probably just ruined.
37:37They're for me.
37:38It's for me.
37:39I know.
37:39He's like, you're not even my mom.
37:41Okay, she loves...
37:42It's a girl, and she loves...
37:43Yeah, I know.
37:43You said he.
37:44I said it.
37:45Well, why'd you say it?
37:46Because I can remember.
37:47You should see how much she smiles at me.
37:49She smiles so much at me.
37:51Okay, we'll let you know she's happy now, and let's take it over.
37:55Nice.
37:56I love how we're getting along now.
37:59Yeah, you guys good?
38:00I've always been good.
38:02All right.
38:03I'm serious.
38:03We're not gonna go that far.
38:06Got it?
38:07Nice, Mace.
38:08Nice, Mace!
38:10Woo!
38:12Great job.
38:13Yes, good.
38:13Great job.
38:14Macy and Mikayla won.
38:16Woo!
38:16The next teams are gonna be Jessie and Layla.
38:18Woo!
38:19Playing Team Jason Dakota.
38:22Oh, good luck.
38:23Okay.
38:24I am actually genuinely scared.
38:27Oh.
38:28Yeah, good first try.
38:29That was the warm-up hit.
38:31Oh, shit.
38:33Just hit it like that, but twice as hard.
38:36We are about to absolutely embarrass the shit out of MomTalk.
38:40I am not athletic.
38:41Run!
38:42I'm just not coordinated.
38:43Okay.
38:44Oh, no.
38:45I just, I don't understand.
38:46Like, I...
38:48Oh, my God.
38:50The fact that they paired Layla and I together is diabolical.
38:53Ah!
38:54Given Jessie's performance, you would never guess that she has a blast pickleball court in her very backyard.
39:00A little quicker next time.
39:02I'm just disappointed.
39:04That was it?
39:05Yeah.
39:05Good game.
39:06Hey.
39:08How are you?
39:09How are you?
39:10Sad?
39:11Yeah.
39:12Ah.
39:12Shania and I, I have been really trying to help her with her recent breakup.
39:17She does want just a friend to be like, I get you.
39:20I understand you.
39:21And I've been there.
39:21So, like, I just wanted to be there for her.
39:24Update me.
39:25What's the verdict?
39:26He blocked me on everything.
39:29And they're just acting like they're a perfect little family.
39:32He got back with his wife.
39:34They moved back in together.
39:35Oh, no!
39:36Why?
39:37Because he found God.
39:39Were they ever getting separated?
39:41I'm sorry.
39:41Were they ever?
39:42I saw paperwork.
39:43That is wild.
39:45This is why I can't trust people or anybody.
39:48Jess, come here.
39:52I'm Miranda Calder.
39:54That is so awkward.
39:56That is so awkward.
39:57No one knows, though.
39:59I am kind of wondering what's going to go down with Shania here right now because Dakota
40:04and her did DM.
40:06Oh, that reminds me.
40:07He sent Shania a DM.
40:10Wait.
40:11Saying what?
40:11It was like...
40:12Was it flirtatious?
40:15Uh...
40:16I think kind of.
40:17But it was kind of, like, open-ended.
40:19Okay.
40:19Like, it was...
40:19I'll see if she'll send me the screenshot.
40:22That's so crazy.
40:24Don't make it a thing.
40:25Like...
40:26I'm just saying, like, no one needs to make it a thing.
40:28It's just irrelevant.
40:29I don't feel like it was that big of a deal based off of what I heard, but I genuinely
40:33feel like we shouldn't tell Taylor anything at the moment because Taylor's emotions
40:37are fragile and I just don't think that this is the best thing for her to hear before the Bachelorette.
40:41Macy and Mikayla, you guys are up next.
40:44You're going to play Jace and Dakota.
40:45You ready for this shit?
40:46Okay, let's do it.
40:48You got it?
40:50Nice, Macy.
40:51Shit!
40:51Oh, sorry, dude.
40:53I know I can't miss one ball or else our team may go down.
40:56I have to be the one to carry it, but I played tennis, so this is, like, second nature for
41:00me.
41:00Let's just get this done.
41:02Damn it!
41:03Shit!
41:04Damn it!
41:04Go, Macy!
41:05Woo!
41:06You got it?
41:07Macy!
41:08Macy!
41:09I think Macy's strategy is starting to make sense and that's for me to just sit back and
41:15let her take all the balls.
41:16Just stay behind.
41:17Get my back.
41:17I'll just stand here in my mini skirt looking good.
41:22I wasn't even paying attention there.
41:25Nice!
41:26Damn it, Macy!
41:28Yep, we won.
41:29Mom talk needs to bring home the win because dad talk, so bring it on, little boys.
41:35Okay, it is time for the championship round.
41:38We have Jacob and Jordan versus me and Mikayla.
41:43Woo!
41:43Let's go, boys!
41:44Woo!
41:45Lord have mercy!
41:56Go, Eminem!
41:57Woo!
41:58Oh, my God!
41:59Thank you!
42:00Thank you!
42:03Thank you!
42:04Thank you!
42:06Oh, shoot!
42:06Nice mix, yeah, there you go.
42:07Damn it!
42:09Okay, we got this in the bag.
42:12Nice!
42:14Shoot up, shoot up!
42:16Game point!
42:22Let's go!
42:25Yeah!
42:29Get your shirt back on!
42:31Ew!
42:31This is way too much testosterone.
42:33I'm out.
42:33You guys, I am ashamed.
42:36We didn't take it home for mom talk, dad talk won, and the reason why it hurts is because
42:39the ego, they just have such big egos.
42:41Macy!
42:43Look!
42:44The one thing you've won in life, Dakota.
42:47Yeah, it's a joke and I shouldn't have lost.
42:49That's hilarious.
42:51That was depressing.
43:09Zach and I are starting to question what's next for us.
43:14I'm starting to ask myself, what do I want?
43:17What do we both want?
43:18Do I want to stay in LA?
43:20Do I want to move back to Utah?
43:21Am I going to continue going to the LDS church?
43:26How was today?
43:27It was tiring, just with the kiddos.
43:30Yeah, it can be a lot.
43:31Yeah.
43:32I don't know how we're doing this.
43:33This is crazy, what we're doing.
43:36Having a family and also trying to pursue a career is really, really tough because it's
43:40almost like someone has to-
43:42Get the short end of the stuff.
43:43Someone has to get the short end of the stuff and kind of sacrifice their life or their goals
43:47or their career, at least for a period of time for the other person to thrive and do
43:51what they want to do.
43:52So it's so hard to balance how do we find all of that and how do we both live our
43:56dreams
43:56but also give our kids what they deserve and how do we also keep our marriage healthy
44:01and happy.
44:02But it's so hard to do all of it.
44:03Like it's not possible.
44:05Yeah.
44:05Have you talked to Connor about it?
44:06Like how is he juggling it?
44:09I mean, if it tells you how he's doing, he's trying to become a magician.
44:12Isn't that funny?
44:13It's great.
44:14It fits Connor perfectly.
44:16Like he's trying to find himself and like, I'm proud of him.
44:19That's awesome.
44:19Like I was telling him today, like you've inspired me to like, try to figure out what I want
44:23to do.
44:23Talking to Connor definitely helped.
44:25And you know, whether people think it's silly or not, like seeing Connor pursue something
44:28that makes him happy also is like, made me realize like, I need to not just have this
44:32mindset of like, I'm surviving and like, I'm taking care of the kids for like a period
44:35of time.
44:36This might last forever.
44:37And so I think I need to find a way to find joy in this journey and find my own
44:41things.
44:42And so Connor kind of made me want to like, try to go find my own thing and have some
44:46stuff
44:46going for me as well.
44:48Do you realistically see us staying down here and somehow, you know,
44:55supporting me and still my dreams and goals while trying to pursue yours?
44:59I feel like our marriage has matured and grown a ton.
45:02But I have realized there's more hard conversations that need to be had.
45:07I think there's more therapy that we need to do.
45:09I think there's honestly like more, more of a connection with God because it's so easy
45:15to get lost.
45:16I mean, I think that's work that I'm 100% willing to do.
45:19And I hope we can do together.
45:21Like I wouldn't want you to turn down opportunities because of like my insecurities.
45:27Like I want to do the work.
45:28Like we can both do all the things we want to do while still making it work.
45:34Well, thank you for supporting me in all my dreams.
45:37Like I genuinely can't tell you like how grateful I am for you in this season of life.
45:42I know this is not what you expected.
45:44And I know it's been challenging for you.
45:46But like honestly, like I think there have been moments in our marriage where I've been
45:51like, I don't know if this is going to work.
45:53And honestly, like this stage of life is just reconfirmed for me.
45:57Just like how much you actually care and how much you, you love me.
46:02And I just wanted to let you know.
46:05Well, thank you.
46:08I still question if I'm doing the right thing.
46:11And I can't help but feel like a lot of guilt and shame trying to pursue my career.
46:15I know you're so tired.
46:17I worry if Zach's truly going to be fulfilled and happy in our marriage.
46:21Or would he be happier with the traditional life?
46:25I don't know.
46:25I guess we just have to...
46:26Take one step at a time?
46:28Take one step at a time.
46:40That feels good.
46:41It's nice and warm and toasted.
46:42I know.
46:43It's cold here and cloudy.
46:44It is, huh?
46:45What's up with the weather?
46:46At least Pueblo will be nice, huh?
46:48Yeah.
46:48Hopefully.
46:49My mom and I just got into Colorado and my biological dad's family is not super comfortable
46:55with wanting to be on camera and give us answers and, you know, talk about this at all, to be
47:01honest.
47:02However, we found someone that does want to and we are meeting up with my biological dad's best friend.
47:08Have you talked to Steve?
47:11No.
47:12No.
47:13No.
47:13No.
47:13If you want, I can call him right now.
47:15We can ask him if he's down to meet up.
47:17Maybe we can go meet him.
47:18He probably knows him better than anybody because they've been friends for so long, I think,
47:21up until he passed.
47:22So, I'm really hoping to get as many answers as I can through him.
47:28When's the last from you, Sean?
47:29Through Steve?
47:30Mm-hmm.
47:30A long time ago.
47:32Do you even know what he looks like?
47:33Yeah.
47:33You do?
47:34Yeah, I have my Facebook friends with him.
47:37Did you ever like him?
47:39We went out.
47:40You did?
47:40Yeah.
47:40Like, you dated him?
47:41Yeah, he was like my so-called boyfriend for like 30 days or I don't know how long.
47:46Wait, what?
47:46No, maybe like two weeks.
47:49Wait, so you dated best friends?
47:50No, that was before I dated Brian.
47:53I know, but like they were best friends so you dated him after?
47:56Oh, yeah.
47:58Homie Hopper, that's what they call it.
48:01Yeah.
48:01That's funny.
48:02Being back in Colorado definitely is giving me more anxiety about meeting with Steve, Brian's best friend,
48:10and bringing up all these emotions that I have put in the back of my life
48:14and something that I just don't want to have to bring up again.
48:18It's just overwhelming.
48:20How is Jessie and Jordan doing?
48:23Is their relationship any better?
48:25No.
48:26No?
48:27No, I think she ends up leaving him.
48:29You do?
48:30Yeah.
48:30I've always told you that.
48:32I don't know.
48:32That's sad though.
48:33I like Jordan.
48:35Ew, why?
48:36I just do.
48:37He's like Dakota.
48:39All they do is lie and play telephone.
48:40It's weird.
48:41They tell everyone everything and then they like twist it.
48:44It's weird shit.
48:45And him and Dakota, it's hard when you hear things because it's like they're both liars
48:48and now it's not, you don't even know which one.
48:50It's like, we don't need to talk about that.
48:51That's like, we're, I want to get over that.
48:53I do not want to talk about Dakota right now because she goes from zero to 100 and she
49:00gets really upset and then it gets me upset and it's just not good for anybody.
49:04And especially to bring up when we're going to meet Steve.
49:09All you do is deflect.
49:10You deflect.
49:11And I think it's weird that if he does all this stuff that you kept going back and forth
49:15with him and sleeping with him.
49:17Then you don't listen to me.
49:17And sleeping with him.
49:18Because it's a cycle.
49:19How many times have we gone over this?
49:20I've already explained that to you.
49:22Why are you asking me that right now?
49:24My mom triggers me because it's what she says, how she says it, her face, the approach.
49:28She's so judgmental about Dakota.
49:30So it's like, you're not getting it.
49:32You're not getting it.
49:33And honestly, the apple doesn't fall far from three.
49:37I already told you.
49:38I didn't think it was.
49:39I didn't care if he lied when you first dated him.
49:44I already told you that 500 times.
49:47Why?
49:47How do you not get it?
49:48This is not how I wanted the trip to start.
49:52Taylor has so much resentment and anger built up with Dakota.
49:58And I don't understand why I get to be the person that she always takes it out on.
50:03I already told you where I felt.
50:05Those were my feelings.
50:07I didn't care.
50:08You didn't care?
50:09Good to know.
50:10No, I didn't care that he dated other girls when you first dated for the first three months.
50:16It's the fucking lies the whole time.
50:18I don't care.
50:19Yeah, I cared about this.
50:20I didn't even care.
50:21I cared about that.
50:22I cared about that later on.
50:23Why did you ask him then?
50:25Why did you lie to our daughter for two years?
50:26You disgusting human.
50:27Why didn't you ask him?
50:28We didn't know he lied all that time.
50:30We knew that he lied when he first dated you and you told us.
50:33We found out that day, that week.
50:36Stop yelling.
50:36No, you can't fucking talk.
50:38Listen.
50:38No, stop yelling.
50:39You're a fucking mom.
50:40I don't care.
50:41Stop yelling.
50:43Stop yelling.
50:43Stop yelling.
50:44Oh my God.
50:45Oh my God.
50:45You don't need to raise your voice.
50:47Yes, I do.
50:47Talk regular.
50:48Why not you?
50:49I am.
50:50I'm not talking this loud.
50:52Yes, you are.
50:52No, I'm not.
50:53Stop talking and listen.
50:55That is very frustrating.
50:57The one person that's supposed to be there for you screaming at me.
51:00I feel like I definitely don't want to be here and emotionally drained too.
51:03So like, I don't want to hear it.
51:05I do want to just maybe be left alone.
51:07Oh, you're a child.
51:08You are.
51:09Goddamn.
51:09Goddamn.
51:16I have a meeting lined up with Ford.
51:18Are you serious?
51:19Layla?
51:20Nice to meet you.
51:20All of these girls are getting such cool opportunities.
51:23Like, I'm just excited that I get my chance now.
51:26We came all this way.
51:28You want to know who your biological dad is.
51:31Taylor's dad and Dakota are very similar.
51:34I chose not to go with him because of you.
51:37Have you talked to Dakota lately?
51:38He did tell me he's seeing somebody.
51:40Do I know her?
51:41Yeah.
51:41And he won't tell you who it is?
51:43He's being weird about it.
51:44We're 100% going to get to the bottom of it.
51:47Who is it?
51:47Who is it?
51:48I'm not going to.
51:49Must be someone consequential then.
51:51I've been playing a little bit with fire.
51:53Dakota, that's so bad.
51:54I just wish if you were going to do this,
51:56you would have done a hell of a lot better job at hiding it.
51:58I mean, I probably was never going to tell you.
51:59MomTalk really needs to rally right now.
52:01I called you guys here because there's something else you did though that's worse.
52:04What is it?
52:05Look, I'm so sorry.
52:07I really am.
52:09Oh, my God.
52:11This is a mess.
52:17Are you ready?
52:18I let it go.
52:20I let it go.
52:21I don't have time for any haters yeah you know.
52:24Already know.
52:25Already know.
52:27I don't have time for any haters yeah you know.
52:30Woo.
52:31Go.
52:33Go.
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