- 2 days ago
Amberlynn shared an insightful post on Instagram and took Twinkie along for a visit before settling down in the bathroom, ready to answer a list of 26 questions she put together. She took a couple days off from vlogging and has many stories to tell. We take a walk down memory lane when she compares her current choice of style to her statement necklaces of the past. She claims the list consists of questions she has been avoiding. Topics include: weight loss, her adopted vocabulary, the therapist appointment that might not ever happen, lying about weight loss, the shade Eric throws, the long lost gym memberships, being behind the wheel, being in love with Destiny, surgery, getting a PO Box, tearing the scale, life with Beck, Twinkie’s nails, Dana, living with enablers, reading the comments, losing gift cards in the mail, early diagnosis, hygene issues, working with Beck from home, and finally, Youtube without the income.
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00:00:15Hey guys
00:00:17Okay, so I hope I'm in frame
00:00:20I need to try making this video kind of as fast as possible because my camera is on the verge of dying
00:00:25Hello, I am back
00:00:30I
00:00:32Have taken a small little
00:00:35Break I felt like I really really needed it because I was daily vlogging for a while there
00:00:40Everyone needs a mental break
00:00:42So during my mental break, I had such a great time. I met
00:00:45New subscribers who recognized me in public and one I remember so freaking well
00:00:50Because her reaction just made like my whole year. I feel like I love when I'm
00:00:55I meet you guys. I've gone to birthday parties and
00:00:58Just I've had
00:01:00So much fun. I went swimming in a lake Twinkie went swimming in a lake and
00:01:05It was beyond adorable
00:01:07We have my cat right there. I've been to bonfire
00:01:10I've just had great freaking time now that i'm back. Hello. Oh, and i'm
00:01:15This day I was looking I should have logged it. I was looking so good. Like i'm not even trying to be conceited
00:01:20But I like wore pink as you guys can tell I like to wear the darker colors
00:01:24ironic because i'm wearing
00:01:25This really pretty blue, but I used to be very into like statement necklaces and stuff
00:01:30Like that if you guys used to watch me back then
00:01:32Look at my baby
00:01:35Okay, let me get comfy. Okay, this is real life right now
00:01:40I have to get comfy
00:01:42Oh, let's do an outfit of the day. Okay, so i'm on my own
00:01:45Way to work and nobody liked it but me so i'd be like hey, do you want that and I just take it off?
00:01:50there try like I didn't even care hi
00:01:55Destiny and I are gonna go eat
00:02:00I'm gonna get sushi as per usual. Hey guys happy october 14 15 months ago
00:02:05Destiny asked me to be her girlfriend. Yeah, we celebrate the months Halloween's over
00:02:10That means
00:02:12It's christmas time
00:02:14What no vlog
00:02:15November there is no vlog november and my style has changed a lot like it was really funny because I put
00:02:20I posted a snapchat and then dana replied to it and she was like I miss when you used to dress like this you look so good
00:02:24And I was
00:02:25Just like like thank you. That's super sweet. So
00:02:29today
00:02:30There's been so many just like questions I get all the time on twitter or in
00:02:35Instagram as you guys know I have not been reading the comments on youtube and I know a lot of people are gonna be like
00:02:40This is stuff that's talked about in the youtube comments. It's also stuff that gets tweeted towards me
00:02:45Um dm towards me and everything else rarity keeps but her head on my hand
00:02:50Um, so I hope you guys don't mind a little cat playing around here. So i'm gonna be answering 26 questions
00:02:55I have been absolutely avoiding because it might not be things I really want to admit to or things I
00:03:00Just don't want to bring up or things that's nobody's business or you know, whatever
00:03:05There's always a reason for why people avoid things
00:03:07um
00:03:10Tweet where people were like even if you do answer these questions, we're not gonna believe you honestly i'm
00:03:15gonna sit down and make this full-fledged video write down all of the questions if i'm
00:03:20Just gonna sit here and lie like that's
00:03:22Absolutely and utterly pointless. You know how easy it would be
00:03:25For me to come on here and just be like
00:03:27Yeah, I had a great day today
00:03:30Guys, I did it. Oh my god. No, you know how easy it would be for me to come
00:03:35On here and be like, yeah, it was a bad night, but that's it
00:03:39Or
00:03:40Completely lie to you guys and be like, oh, yeah, it was good. It was fine. Yeah
00:03:45No, so all of these topics. I just want to be dropped
00:03:50Like just stop asking. It's just pointless. It's honestly pointless. The first one is do you even want to lose weight?
00:03:55Obviously, I do when you have a and it's terribly hard
00:04:00To actually succeed in your weight loss. It's possible. It's doable. Just like someone who's a drunk
00:04:05Of course, they don't want to be a drunk any longer, but it's terribly hard to
00:04:10Just get yourself together a hundred percent. I do want to lose weight. What's with your fake access?
00:04:15So this is something that people constantly message me about it's
00:04:20Not really a fake accent. I have lived in so many different places and I have
00:04:25Picked up on certain things and here in kentucky. I actually used to just joke around
00:04:30With some of my friends and it's because when people say why they're like wah
00:04:35When people say things like like they're like lock or whatever they just have a very like strong
00:04:40Ah sound like if you say cry see it's just to have it now
00:04:45When you when you say cry a lot of people say crap and I used to just like joke around
00:04:50And now it's become kind of like a habit. It's not really fake accent. It went for me just playing around with
00:04:55People to me literally actually truthfully that just comes out without even me thinking
00:05:00About it chili time
00:05:02Girl, I got no time. There's no like
00:05:04She's not
00:05:05Happy about it. Oh, no, I am. You're alive. You're alive. There's literally
00:05:10Two things I have to get now. Oh only two yeah peppers and cucumbers
00:05:15I think I have like five so whatever comes out of my mouth. I'm not trying to fake it or mess around
00:05:20If it comes out, it's obviously something I picked up on. Are you really going to see a therapist? I am going
00:05:25To be seeing a therapist when I am ready you can never make someone do something that they don't want to do but
00:05:30As you guys know, I have called around to several therapy or not therapist. Sorry nutrition
00:05:35nutritionists or dietitian places. I have been calling dietitians nutritionists like
00:05:40For the last hour i'm very frustrated like eric's been sitting there and i'm just like frustrated
00:05:45Knock knock mother fucker. Knock knock mother fucker. That was eric. Either there's no answer and i have to
00:05:50Leave a voicemail or someone does answer and the nutritionist isn't there to answer
00:05:55The questions that i need answered but the receptionist doesn't know the answers to the questions and i'm just
00:06:00like what what like i thought this was gonna be a little bit easier hey i just want to
00:06:05Make an appointment like what's up no one's really answering a few people that did
00:06:10What so i had to leave my name and my number several different times
00:06:15And it's just it's frustrating because i was hoping today i would have a clear-cut appointment
00:06:20scheduled ready to rumble so i'm just gonna do the same thing i did today tomorrow
00:06:24hopefully i get
00:06:25A call tomorrow that would be nice but i did my part and i'll let other people do theirs and i still do
00:06:30Not have an appointment because they either like the receptionist don't have any answers because obviously i want to know like the rate
00:06:35Readings i want to know what does this entail and nobody has answers or they're just not answering at all and
00:06:40I can't even tell you how many voicemails i've left so but my next thing that i'm going to be doing is definitely
00:06:45Calling around to talk to a therapist next question is did i lie about my highest weight obviously
00:06:50Not my highest weight as of now is 503.2 as you guys know i weighed in
00:06:55a 503.2 i think it's ridiculous to ever lie about
00:07:00Your exact weight there is no point in that if i was to lie about my weight i definitely would have
00:07:05Never obeyed myself over 500 pounds because so many haters were like oh you're gonna be five
00:07:10100 pounds one day and i just kept saying over and over no i'm not no i'm not no i'm not so why would i want to prove them right so
00:07:15If i was to fake a weight it would not be as high as it is are you and eric really friends?
00:07:19I know a lot of people
00:07:20Think there's some type of I know a lot of people think that there's some type of
00:07:25Like weird vibe when me and eric are in videos together and I think that's really crazy because me and eric have a lot of fun together
00:07:30I like genuinely care about him and he
00:07:35Is my friend he is not just a roommate so I think that people just like to cause
00:07:40Drama and I think that's that's really what it's about they want to nitpick and dissect every
00:07:45Word or glance or look or thing that is done in each video
00:07:49You know
00:07:50You know what i'm saying
00:07:52This is your brain
00:07:54This is your brain
00:07:55This is your brain
00:07:57This is your brain
00:07:59This is your brain
00:08:00This is your brain
00:08:01This is your brain
00:08:02This is your brain
00:08:03This is your brain
00:08:04This is your brain
00:08:05This is your brain
00:08:06This is your brain
00:08:07This is your brain
00:08:08This is your brain
00:08:09This is your brain
00:08:10This is your brain
00:08:11This is your brain
00:08:25This is your brain
00:08:26This is your brain
00:08:27This is your brain
00:08:28This is your brain
00:08:29This is your brain on drugs
00:08:29What are those?
00:08:31Staya!
00:08:32Greg's making fun of me.
00:08:34Come on, grannies.
00:08:39There's some assholes up in here, and this is the one.
00:08:41Okay, bye.
00:08:44Talkin' s**t, yo.
00:08:49I love you.
00:08:51I love you.
00:08:55Don't write on me.
00:08:57I did.
00:08:58I didn't do the side-
00:08:59I think it's worth a pack though, but we don't need to talk about it.
00:09:01We can just kind of-
00:09:02The house was already made.
00:09:03Don't let her fool you.
00:09:05Tell them everything I've ever made, you've tried and you've liked.
00:09:08Even though-
00:09:09It looks kind of questionable.
00:09:11Yeah.
00:09:12You are not making silly hug!
00:09:14What the f**k are you making?
00:09:16No, this bitch isn't making silly.
00:09:18Oh, f**k.
00:09:19I was like, yeah, the beans aren't how bad.
00:09:20And then they're like, what kind of beans are they?
00:09:23What beans?
00:09:24Why are you sitting-
00:09:28Why are you sitting-
00:09:29Why are you sitting on me?
00:09:30Oh.
00:09:31It's not the first time a guy sat on your face.
00:09:33Oh!
00:09:34Nooo!
00:09:35Eric's making fun of me.
00:09:36Eric only treats me on my iPhone where he is-
00:09:37Eric only treats me on my iPhone where he is-
00:09:38Eric's making fun of me.
00:09:39Eric only treats me on my iPhone where he is-
00:09:39around. Did you know that Ricky has a parody
00:09:42on Twitter? Of what?
00:09:43Not Ricky, I should have.
00:09:44Someone made one of him.
00:09:47I was reading it because they tweeted me.
00:09:49It's all, like, shit about me, but supposedly things
00:09:51that, like, Ricky thinks about me.
00:09:53Like, it's mean stuff.
00:09:54Like, it's like, I woke up today from an earthquake
00:09:56at 3 a.m. because my roommate went to have snacks.
00:09:59That's literally...
00:09:59He's not even here.
00:10:03He's gone before he went away.
00:10:04The shade!
00:10:07Rick's making fun of me.
00:10:08Amberlynn steals food in this house.
00:10:09It's true.
00:10:13I don't...
00:10:14She's beating!
00:10:14She's leaving my food.
00:10:16Look at her.
00:10:18I can't help you turn into a hole in a...
00:10:19The camera's on him.
00:10:20Rick's making fun of me.
00:10:24Oh, God, Aaron!
00:10:29Why?
00:10:29Oh, my...
00:10:31Oh, my...
00:10:33Literally...
00:10:34You hear the laugh out of me.
00:10:37This is Amberlynn and Becky's lunch.
00:10:39I don't know what the f*** these are,
00:10:41and I ask her what they are,
00:10:41and she doesn't even know what they are.
00:10:42It spits it all off!
00:10:44Oh, really?
00:10:46Yeah, they're potatoes!
00:10:48Oh.
00:10:49Oh, my God.
00:10:49That was gross.
00:10:51I know.
00:10:51This again.
00:10:52Savage AF.
00:10:53You see it, I know?
00:10:54John DeSalle.
00:10:54Yeah.
00:10:55Both of these things are complete.
00:10:58Aren't you proud of me?
00:10:59No.
00:11:00No!
00:11:01It's not really our rollercoaster
00:11:03of how you're feeling.
00:11:04You can one second...
00:11:04like this, and the next, you know,
00:11:06you're just like...
00:11:07...
00:11:09I'm just like over it,
00:11:11and I'm like,
00:11:11just get on my nerves.
00:11:13That doesn't mean people are off...
00:11:14their diet just because they're going out to eat.
00:11:16You can still make health-conscious decisions
00:11:17while going out to eat.
00:11:18So we're going to Sunny's.
00:11:19We're...
00:11:19We're all craving the salad bar there.
00:11:21Changed her mind on it.
00:11:22Turned it around.
00:11:23Yeah.
00:11:24Wait, what do you mean?
00:11:24I'm going to take my mind.
00:11:25Well, you're like,
00:11:26well, what's the special about this one?
00:11:27I'm like, this one's like...
00:11:28Oh, yeah.
00:11:28...the best, and you're like...
00:11:29Blah, blah, blah, blah.
00:11:29And you're kind of like skeptical about it.
00:11:31Yeah.
00:11:31It's amazing.
00:11:33It is.
00:11:34Real.
00:11:34What?
00:11:35What?
00:11:36Do you want the rails down?
00:11:38No.
00:11:38Becky and I are...
00:11:39those people,
00:11:40every time we see a cow,
00:11:41they're like,
00:11:41oh, look, cows.
00:11:43I want to cuddle a cow.
00:11:44You wouldn't cuddle a cow?
00:11:47I want to.
00:11:48They stink.
00:11:48They stink.
00:11:49It does.
00:11:49Those are so cute.
00:11:50They are so cute.
00:11:52They are.
00:11:52This is what we're meant to be.
00:11:54Because we will...
00:11:54both cuddle a cow.
00:11:56Wait, you cuddle a cow every night?
00:11:58Ah!
00:11:59Make the joke,
00:12:00but then I was like,
00:12:01no, they'll be like...
00:12:02He's throwing shade!
00:12:04I mean, yeah.
00:12:06I threw shade to myself.
00:12:07I do that every day.
00:12:08Yeah, but if someone else does it...
00:12:09it's because they're not joking,
00:12:11they're just being mean.
00:12:12Yeah.
00:12:13So...
00:12:13I didn't throw shade.
00:12:14I full on...
00:12:14launched it after me.
00:12:17Eric's making fun of me.
00:12:17You know that black,
00:12:18like, putty stuff we have?
00:12:19I was playing with it
00:12:21and I put it all in my hands
00:12:21and I was like,
00:12:22I have my soul in my hands.
00:12:24It was actually...
00:12:24It was actually pretty funny.
00:12:27He's like,
00:12:27I'm amazed!
00:12:28He's like,
00:12:28what the fuck?
00:12:29He's like...
00:12:30He's like...
00:12:30He's like...
00:12:31Anyways...
00:12:34He's like...
00:12:38He's like...
00:12:39He's like...
00:12:39I just need to remind myself tonight when the boobs
00:12:44monster decides to knock at my door to just not open the door.
00:12:49Huh?
00:12:50Knock, knock, mother fucker.
00:12:52Knock, knock, mother fucker.
00:12:53That was Eric.
00:12:54Greg's making fun of me.
00:12:54I almost just slipped under grease.
00:12:56Bitch, I mopped that up and dried up.
00:12:58I mopped it up like too.
00:12:59It's the low carb diet.
00:13:01I'm doing this here.
00:13:02Y'all.
00:13:03Y'all.
00:13:04Y'all.
00:13:05Y'all made me a five-to-one bower.
00:13:07This is not five-to-one.
00:13:09I don't know.
00:13:10I just need one.
00:13:11I know.
00:13:12This is a one bar.
00:13:13Who wants to be my cameraman?
00:13:14What are you doing?
00:13:17What are you doing?
00:13:19We're getting ready to have game night with Richard, me, and these sluts.
00:13:24That's fun.
00:13:30No.
00:13:31No.
00:13:32No.
00:13:33No.
00:13:34Eric's making fun of me.
00:13:35Bam!
00:13:36Kicking it up a notch.
00:13:37This is a lot of editing I have to do.
00:13:40It's hard to joke like that because then people are on there twisting it into something.
00:13:44Yeah.
00:13:44Than what it really is and that's something that I've always done my whole life and now
00:13:47people are reading so much into it.
00:13:49I do it with everybody but then whenever I do it with you it's oh you're so mean.
00:13:52Oh look at this secret shade he's throwing.
00:13:54I'm like no that's me joking with a friend that's how I joke with a friend like.
00:13:59What's up girl?
00:14:00You come here often?
00:14:04Eric's making fun of me.
00:14:09Awesome.
00:14:11Bye bye.
00:14:14So I think that's all that is-
00:14:19is me and Eric really are friends.
00:14:21Next question is, are you gonna go back to the gym?
00:14:23I'm going to go back to the gym.
00:14:24I pay for a membership every single month
00:14:27and I haven't gone in a couple months, honestly.
00:14:29Becky.
00:14:29Becky, me, Eric and Ricky were actually supposed
00:14:32to go get a jimber, jimber, a jimber.
00:14:34A jim membership today.
00:14:36So we're going to be doing that.
00:14:37How's the jim?
00:14:38I'm going to be honest.
00:14:39I haven't been to the gym in a little while,
00:14:42but I love going to the gym, it's fun.
00:14:44I like-
00:14:44I like doing the treadmill.
00:14:45I've not worked myself up from anything but the treadmill.
00:14:48And-
00:14:49in this very point in time, I've been having some problems with-
00:14:54anxiety.
00:14:55And I know-
00:14:56I don't talk about Amberlynn.
00:14:57I'm not even talking to Amberlynn about it.
00:14:59but-
00:15:00Do you have?
00:15:01When-
00:15:02You were telling me last night-
00:15:03Oh, last night.
00:15:04I've talked-
00:15:04I don't remember about it last night.
00:15:05That was the first time I ever mentioned anything about it.
00:15:08But-
00:15:09Maybe you can always talk about-
00:15:10I don't know.
00:15:11I'm going-
00:15:12I'm going to do it.
00:15:13I'm going to do it.
00:15:14Cause I mean-
00:15:14You know, I already have a membership and I enjoy doing it whenever I do go.
00:15:18But-
00:15:19I'm going to have to work myself up to it.
00:15:21So I have things I can do at home.
00:15:23I can-
00:15:24go for walks.
00:15:25I actually do plan on doing walk-vlogs one day.
00:15:29Which is going to be really fun.
00:15:30Or going to the lake and vlogging and like-
00:15:32You know, walking around.
00:15:33That-
00:15:34That's all-
00:15:34That sounds really fun.
00:15:35That sounds really fun.
00:15:39I know.
00:15:40I know.
00:15:41I know.
00:15:42I know.
00:15:43I know.
00:15:54I like outside if it's not too hot and the sun isn't shining.
00:15:59If it's like a cloudy day and it's like 70 degrees outside, I'm good.
00:16:03I went a few times when I first got the membership, but I haven't gone since.
00:16:08My asthma, I do have asthma, 100,000%.
00:16:11I know a lot of people are like, you still...
00:16:12No, I've always had asthma.
00:16:14That's something I've always had.
00:16:15I don't currently have an inhaler.
00:16:17And my asthma...
00:16:17My asthma has been really bad lately and I really want to build my stamina.
00:16:20I love it.
00:16:22My throat hurts so bad.
00:16:24My goal was to walk for 30 minutes.
00:16:26I couldn't make it past...
00:16:27My back was hurting.
00:16:30I couldn't breathe.
00:16:31And now my throat hurts.
00:16:34I know I used to have really bad asthma.
00:16:36When I was in sixth grade, I don't know if it's back, but holy crap.
00:16:41So, I've been back...
00:16:46For my walk.
00:16:48See?
00:16:50Sorry.
00:16:51I just, like, my breath.
00:16:52For about 20 minutes now.
00:16:55And...
00:16:56My asthma is definitely back because I used to have exercise-induced asthma.
00:17:01It was...
00:17:01It was really bad when I was in Florida.
00:17:03I did see someone about it.
00:17:04And...
00:17:04Not Florida.
00:17:05Sorry.
00:17:05Virginia Crystal.
00:17:06And I would do these exercises where I would, like, straight up, like, dance slash exercise
00:17:11for...
00:17:11Over an hour.
00:17:16Over an hour.
00:17:18I would do these exercises.
00:17:19Over an hour.
00:17:20Over an hour.
00:17:21Sorry, I just got done having an asthma attack straight up.
00:17:26So we would do that for like over an hour.
00:17:31And this would happen.
00:17:32So I did see someone about it, like Crystal's parents took me and they paid for it.
00:17:36Like I'm very grateful.
00:17:37It's exercise induced asthma, but I don't have an inhaler and I don't know why it's coming.
00:17:41I'm back right now because like in January I would walk outside.
00:17:57Look at that booty.
00:17:58I found you, Miss New Booty.
00:18:01Get together and bring it back to me.
00:18:03Pistol Plays Club.
00:18:04It's about a month or two.
00:18:05Put a tab on.
00:18:06I didn't see what I do.
00:18:07That was a nice little joke.
00:18:08Come on.
00:18:09Oh, shit.
00:18:10You're...
00:18:11What?
00:18:12Got my tennies on.
00:18:14Look at her for...
00:18:16She's going for a walk.
00:18:17Look at that baby.
00:18:19Look at that baby.
00:18:21Look at that baby.
00:18:23Let's see.
00:18:24Let's see.
00:18:25Let's meet.
00:19:03I think I see Georgie down here.
00:19:05Oh, hey, B-Y.
00:19:06Go ahead.
00:19:08Take it.
00:19:09Take it.
00:19:11Say it again.
00:19:13Say it again.
00:19:15Say it.
00:19:16Bring Twinkie over here.
00:19:18Twinkie, look.
00:19:19Watch us drop our phone.
00:19:21Hey, what's up, Pennywise?
00:19:23What's up?
00:19:24Say come on.
00:19:25Twinkie don't like it.
00:19:26Take it.
00:19:27Say it for your daughter.
00:19:29What else?
00:19:30No.
00:19:31Look at her.
00:19:32Look at her.
00:19:33Look at her.
00:19:36We would go to the gym.
00:19:37We just paid to do like a one day thing today to kind of see like how we felt, if we liked
00:19:41it.
00:19:42And I loved it.
00:19:43I enjoyed it.
00:19:44But a lot of stuff was eye opening for me.
00:19:45I got on a treadmill.
00:19:47And it just, it didn't feel like it was supporting my weight, but thankfully there were like...
00:19:52bigger treadmills behind me.
00:19:53So I went on that one and that one was like perfect.
00:19:56It was pretty sad because...
00:19:57I used to walk at like a 4.0 pace and I only could walk to a 1.8 pace.
00:20:02So...
00:20:02I did that for 10 minutes and I felt like I was dying.
00:20:05I was like, what the heck?
00:20:07So then I went and I tried this other machine that I used to do a lot.
00:20:10My hips, I couldn't even fit.
00:20:12I had to stay on it because you have to stand in between...
00:20:14I don't even know what this machine's called, but four years ago I enjoyed it.
00:20:17So much.
00:20:18You have to stand in between like these two bars and your legs.
00:20:20It's not the elliptical.
00:20:21It's not...
00:20:22It's not the elliptical because I love the elliptical.
00:20:24But you like...
00:20:25Your legs like go up.
00:20:26You have to like go like this.
00:20:27It kind of reminds you of an elliptical, but it's not.
00:20:29And I could barely do it because my hips were so big.
00:20:32So that was kind of eye opening and I can't wait until I can actually go on that machine
00:20:37again.
00:20:37And be comfortable and not have my hips be completely like too big for me to even do
00:20:42it.
00:20:42And be able to fit, but they were like rubbing against the poles and it just, it was not,
00:20:45it just wasn't comfortable.
00:20:46So.
00:20:47So that was super eye opening and I kind of just felt really out of place there, which
00:20:50obviously I am like, I'm 400.
00:20:52170 pounds or whatever.
00:20:53So it's like, but I'm super excited.
00:20:57So excited to, you know, go there and just the treadmill is amazing.
00:21:00I noticed that for me when I walk on a treadmill.
00:21:02I feel like I burn more calories.
00:21:04I get more like sweaty and like out of breath compared to just like walking on the street.
00:21:07Or something.
00:21:08That's weird.
00:21:09I know.
00:21:10But I enjoyed it.
00:21:11Becky enjoyed it.
00:21:12She, um.
00:21:12And everybody's like then morf it herself up into a sweat.
00:21:13So that's good.
00:21:14But yeah, I just kind of wanted to give a little update on that.
00:21:17Oh, and there was another machine that I did where you actually sit down.
00:21:20It wasn't the bike, but it was also another machine.
00:21:22I actually Snapchatted me doing it.
00:21:26Where you.
00:21:27Move your legs and oh, my God, I felt it in my calves.
00:21:30I felt it like in between.
00:21:32My inner thighs, I was just like, oh my God, I'm using muscles that I usually don't use.
00:21:36But yeah, I had a good time.
00:21:37So I am at the gym, actually, I'm outside of the gym.
00:21:40I just got done.
00:21:42She's still in there.
00:21:43She's almost finished.
00:21:44I just feel hopeless because back when I used to do the gym, like I could just.
00:21:47Do it for a long time and now I just feel like I can't.
00:21:50Hello, everybody.
00:21:51So I'm currently out.
00:21:52The gym, I feel so good.
00:21:55I just got done working out.
00:21:57I'm going to lose this weight, but I'm going to have extra skin, so I'm never going to be perfect.
00:22:02If losing weight, having extra skin feels as good as I feel now.
00:22:07Then I'm going to take it and I'm going to hold on to it forever because I have a fear of extra skin.
00:22:12And as you all know, I used to let that fear get in the way of my weight loss.
00:22:16I feel like in the way, I would say.
00:22:17I'm going to sabotage myself.
00:22:18I'm not going to let that happen this time.
00:22:20I just needed to get this out before, you know.
00:22:22What went away from me?
00:22:23I'm on track more than I have ever been since starting.
00:22:27I feel like adding exercise into my life has changed me drastically today.
00:22:32I did extra minutes and an extra machine, and I just feel amazing.
00:22:37Like, I don't know.
00:22:37I don't know how else to describe it, and I just wanted to, like, share this for you guys
00:22:41and let you guys know that...
00:22:42If this is possible, if I can do it, you can do it.
00:22:44I just wanted to, like, make this video for myself, too, so I'm going to watch.
00:22:47Shit and stuff, like, in the future...
00:22:49I think someone was just looking at me.
00:22:50I don't know.
00:22:51Like, I was only able to...
00:22:52I was able to do 10 minutes on the treadmill, and then I went on the elliptical for, like,
00:22:55five.
00:22:57That's just not good.
00:22:57Like, if I'm paying for a membership, I really need to build up my stamina.
00:23:00I don't normally go to the gym looking like this.
00:23:02I know this is very weird to see me, like, in full-fledged makeup, but I have plans after
00:23:06this, and...
00:23:07And my home is about 45 minutes from the gym.
00:23:09Destiny and Dana aren't too far away from here, so I'm actually just gonna...
00:23:12go walk to where they are.
00:23:14Literally, it's not that far, so I'm just gonna let Becky do her...
00:23:17own thing.
00:23:17I don't want to rush her, because that's just not right of me.
00:23:20I'm just gonna go hang out with them for a little bit and wait for Becky to be...
00:23:22done.
00:23:23We would also do workouts in the den.
00:23:24We would still have walking DVDs up here.
00:23:27field 3 points and I yap way to pick of...
00:23:29Hope you have my time but nevermind now
00:23:32and the fuck
00:23:32Oh, I'm going to fall apart.
00:23:37I'm going to fall apart.
00:23:42I'm going to fall apart.
00:23:47I'm going to fall apart.
00:23:52My girlfriend's like, let's go.
00:23:57Let's go for a walk.
00:24:01I didn't want to.
00:24:02The vlog was originally like 20 minutes and about four.
00:24:0740 seconds, but...
00:24:12I stopped at a little over halfway.
00:24:17I feel great though.
00:24:20Just doing half of that got my...
00:24:22Steps in about like 1,200...
00:24:27That was about 1,200 steps just for half of that.
00:24:31It was really fun.
00:24:32What did you think?
00:24:33It was great.
00:24:35I'm a little tired, but...
00:24:37I probably could have kept going.
00:24:38Do you want to keep going?
00:24:39You don't have to stop because of me.
00:24:40I don't know.
00:24:42I don't know.
00:24:44Yeah.
00:24:45I'm going to keep going.
00:24:46Do your thing, girl.
00:24:47Well, actually, I'm going to keep going too.
00:24:52I am.
00:24:53I am.
00:24:54Okay.
00:24:55Let's do the theme, baby.
00:24:56You want to get your music ready?
00:24:57Yeah.
00:25:02I am.
00:25:03I am.
00:25:04I am.
00:25:05I am.
00:25:06I am.
00:25:07I am.
00:25:08I am.
00:25:09I am.
00:25:10I am.
00:25:11I am.
00:25:12I am.
00:25:13I am.
00:25:14Are fun.
00:25:15I am.
00:25:16I don't really care for the student one.
00:25:17I am.
00:25:17and this never happened.
00:25:19I don't know if it's the mixture of also allergies.
00:25:22And it's just like super windy outside.
00:25:25It's scary though.
00:25:27Cause like in sixth grade,
00:25:30I think it was the worst when I ever had
00:25:32asthma, like it was really bad.
00:25:34The lowest weight I ever remember weighing is 290.
00:25:37And that was at the age of 11.
00:25:3911, first time ever on a diet.
00:25:41I tried Weight Watchers.
00:25:42At 11 years old, no 11 year old should have to go through that.
00:25:46Like we all know that I have.
00:25:47Like constant, I constantly had to get inhalers.
00:25:50I would wake up with asthma attacks.
00:25:52Like just literally sleeping, I'd wake up with asthma attacks.
00:25:55And it just sucks because like also my back
00:25:57was hurting really bad.
00:25:58And I just, I really wanted to work out for 30 minutes.
00:26:02Every day.
00:26:03And now I just feel like defeated.
00:26:07I don't know what to do.
00:26:10So it just, it sucks.
00:26:12But I'm inside now going to the gym and only working out
00:26:16for 10 minutes to me, I'm embarrassed.
00:26:17I'm thoroughly embarrassed.
00:26:18I'm usually the type of person where I'm just like,
00:26:20I don't care what anyone thinks.
00:26:21Like I'm up.
00:26:22I'm in the gym.
00:26:23Flotting my stuff.
00:26:24Don't go swimming.
00:26:25You don't go swimming.
00:26:27There's water.
00:26:28There's water.
00:26:29It's making me want to swim.
00:26:30But you don't swim.
00:26:31In real life.
00:26:32So here it is.
00:26:33The gym.
00:26:34And there's stairs.
00:26:37I don't know.
00:26:38It's really pretty gym.
00:26:39But.
00:26:40They have.
00:26:42But.
00:26:43Um.
00:26:44Slide.
00:26:45I keep begging Crystal.
00:26:47She'll go on it.
00:26:48But she won't.
00:26:49And then that's like the kids side.
00:26:50And then.
00:26:52The pool.
00:26:53Another pool over there.
00:26:54In a hot tub.
00:26:55That people are sitting in.
00:26:56So.
00:26:57My girlfriend and I are kind of like.
00:26:59Yeah.
00:27:00I'm not sure about swimming.
00:27:01But we'll see.
00:27:02So.
00:27:03We're very shy about swimming.
00:27:04In front of people.
00:27:05I think Ernie said that.
00:27:06So.
00:27:07I don't know what we're going to do.
00:27:09Okay.
00:27:10Crystal.
00:27:11You ready?
00:27:12To tell them what happened.
00:27:13So this is what went down.
00:27:14We got ready.
00:27:15To go out there.
00:27:16And.
00:27:17I mean.
00:27:18There's a lot of people out there now.
00:27:19So.
00:27:20Crystal's just shy in general.
00:27:21Like.
00:27:22She scored.
00:27:22Gorgeous.
00:27:23She's not even fat.
00:27:24So she shouldn't be shy.
00:27:25But she's just shy in general.
00:27:27I understood why she didn't want to go out there.
00:27:29But.
00:27:30This is like.
00:27:31The story of my life.
00:27:32I literally.
00:27:32Just wasted a trip here.
00:27:34I felt completely embarrassed.
00:27:35I kept going out there.
00:27:37To see if people have left.
00:27:38And I know they see me spying on them.
00:27:40So that makes it even more.
00:27:42Embarrassing.
00:27:43I mean.
00:27:44My whole.
00:27:45Our whole night's ruined.
00:27:46All because.
00:27:47I am.
00:27:47Too shy.
00:27:48To swim in front of people.
00:27:50Because I know they're going to make fun of me.
00:27:52And I know they're going to laugh at me.
00:27:53And even if they don't do it out loud.
00:27:54They're still doing it.
00:27:55Like.
00:27:56In their.
00:27:57In their head.
00:27:58And in their minds.
00:27:59And.
00:28:00People's faces that they make.
00:28:01I can read through people.
00:28:02So I just didn't want to deal with that.
00:28:03So.
00:28:04Now we're waiting for Crystal's mom.
00:28:06And we're just going to say.
00:28:07I can't wait.
00:28:08Because her mom's working out.
00:28:09Uh.
00:28:10I just saw her walk by.
00:28:11So I'm going to go see what.
00:28:12That's about.
00:28:13Okay.
00:28:14So I just recorded a bunch of shit.
00:28:15And I wasn't even recording.
00:28:16So.
00:28:17After we change.
00:28:17And came out here.
00:28:18We look back in there.
00:28:19And there's like nobody in there now.
00:28:20There's some people about to go down the side.
00:28:22And I'm going to record it.
00:28:23Oh look.
00:28:24You just saw.
00:28:25Like shot out.
00:28:26Like I don't even know what.
00:28:27Oh.
00:28:28That was funny.
00:28:29Oh gosh.
00:28:30I swear.
00:28:31Our plan.
00:28:32My plans changed more than I changed my underwear.
00:28:34Okay.
00:28:35That was awkward.
00:28:36Not really.
00:28:37I'm walking up and down the stairs.
00:28:37So that's why I'm out of breath.
00:28:38But.
00:28:39And I'm running down.
00:28:40You go girl.
00:28:42Okay.
00:28:43So.
00:28:44We're gonna swim now.
00:28:45It's empty.
00:28:47I don't know if you can tell but.
00:28:50It's empty.
00:28:51I don't know if you can tell but.
00:28:52It's empty.
00:28:52I'm not sure for how long.
00:28:53I'm kind of scared actually.
00:28:54But um.
00:28:55So we're gonna swim.
00:28:56Cause I'm like so back and forth.
00:28:57on it.
00:28:58But.
00:28:59Sorry.
00:29:00Sorry people.
00:29:01So as you can tell we really.
00:29:02did get to swim.
00:29:03It was a very.
00:29:04It was a crazy experience here huh.
00:29:07Can I show you just a little bit?
00:29:09Cool.
00:29:10Oh.
00:29:11Your bangs are already dry.
00:29:12Oh.
00:29:13You didn't get them wet.
00:29:14I was like what in the.
00:29:15Oh boy.
00:29:16Oh yeah.
00:29:17We did swim.
00:29:18And it was fun.
00:29:19Like that's how I used to be when I lived in Virginia.
00:29:21But now I'm just.
00:29:22Like super self conscious.
00:29:23And like.
00:29:24I feel like everyone's looking at me.
00:29:25And if I'm gonna go to the gym.
00:29:26I want to stay long.
00:29:27longer than 10 minutes.
00:29:28So I'm trying to build my stamina first.
00:29:29Question is.
00:29:30Why don't you drive?
00:29:31I've talked about this several.
00:29:32Different times.
00:29:33I suffer from anxiety.
00:29:34One of the things that really.
00:29:36Really causes my.
00:29:37My anxiety.
00:29:38To be insane.
00:29:39Is being in a car.
00:29:40In general.
00:29:41Even if it's other people driving.
00:29:42I get on Becky's nerves.
00:29:43All the time.
00:29:44Because I'm like.
00:29:45Slow down.
00:29:46Oh.
00:29:47Like.
00:29:47I just.
00:29:48That's just how I am.
00:29:49I don't trust myself in a car.
00:29:50I am terrified.
00:29:51That I'm not gonna be.
00:29:52Paying attention.
00:29:53Or I'm gonna run over the light.
00:29:54And crash.
00:29:55Or just something.
00:29:56I feel like.
00:29:57Something bad is gonna happen.
00:29:57If I get behind the wheel.
00:29:58And it's just an anxiety.
00:29:59It's a fear.
00:30:00And it's something.
00:30:01I know I need to get over.
00:30:02I'm so scared.
00:30:03I'm so scared.
00:30:05What is brake?
00:30:06What is gas?
00:30:07That's sweet.
00:30:10Wait.
00:30:11What?
00:30:12I'm like worn out.
00:30:12Where are we going yet?
00:30:13Oh.
00:30:14What do I need to do?
00:30:15Why do I have to be on here like this?
00:30:17What?
00:30:18Are you pressing it down?
00:30:19Babe.
00:30:20I'm scared.
00:30:21I don't know if I can do this.
00:30:22I have never been.
00:30:23Is it pressed down?
00:30:24Yes.
00:30:25Okay.
00:30:26Wait, wait, wait, wait.
00:30:27I'm actually moving.
00:30:28Move the place.
00:30:29Move the place.
00:30:32Move the place.
00:30:33Where do I die?
00:30:34Are you just going in circles?
00:30:35Oh my God.
00:30:36Oh my God.
00:30:37Oh my God.
00:30:38I need to pay attention.
00:30:39Okay.
00:30:40What happens if I...
00:30:41The hell?
00:30:42Oh my God.
00:30:43I just break it.
00:30:44Okay.
00:30:45Now if I take my foot off the brake all the way,
00:30:47How fast are we going to go?
00:30:48I'm not fast.
00:30:52That's...
00:30:53I feel like I'm flying.
00:30:55I'm not even going anywhere.
00:30:57I mean, we're running like three miles an hour.
00:30:59I have never driven before.
00:31:02Oh.
00:31:03I'm too scared to press gas.
00:31:05I'm never pressing gas.
00:31:06You're...
00:31:07I'm not going to have to.
00:31:11Just try it a little.
00:31:12Oh my God.
00:31:13I pressed gas beam.
00:31:14Oh.
00:31:15Oh.
00:31:16Oh.
00:31:17Oh my God.
00:31:18And then if I take my foot off the gas, it slows down.
00:31:20Oh my God.
00:31:21Oh my God.
00:31:22Crystal, you made me do this.
00:31:23I cannot believe you.
00:31:24Am I...
00:31:27Are you going to get in trouble?
00:31:28I don't know what you're getting.
00:31:29Oh.
00:31:30Well, you have your license.
00:31:32Oh my God.
00:31:33Can I drive every day?
00:31:37All right.
00:31:38You can stop filming.
00:31:39Sorry.
00:31:40I've been driving for hours.
00:31:42An hour and a half.
00:31:43I've been driving for legit an hour and a half.
00:31:47And I'm no longer crying.
00:31:49I'm no longer freaking out.
00:31:51Crystal's helping.
00:31:52Oh my God.
00:31:53I'm just amazed that I'm doing this because I never...
00:31:57Like, driving is a fear of mine.
00:31:59Being in a car is a fear of mine.
00:32:01Let me turn down this.
00:32:02I don't know.
00:32:03It's just...
00:32:04I don't know.
00:32:05It's like shocking and overwhelming.
00:32:07That I'm doing this.
00:32:08But it's like so much fun.
00:32:09And I really see myself getting a license in the future because...
00:32:12I like to drive.
00:32:15I mean, I've been just doing it in a parking lot.
00:32:17But the place where I'm at currently, the parking lot is probably...
00:32:23Like 10 miles big.
00:32:24I don't know how to explain it.
00:32:25Because there's like a bunch of different stores.
00:32:27And things like that.
00:32:28And...
00:32:29I don't know.
00:32:30I've been doing it for an hour and a half.
00:32:32We were gonna...
00:32:32We were gonna go to a movie and now we're not.
00:32:34Because I'm so obsessed with this.
00:32:35And Crystal's totally fine with it because...
00:32:37It was her idea for me to drive anyhow because she honestly thinks I need to grow up.
00:32:42Learn how to drive.
00:32:43And that's what she's teaching me and I'm so grateful for this.
00:32:47It's dark now as you guys can see.
00:32:52So nervous.
00:32:53I don't know.
00:32:54It feels really good.
00:32:55And I go like behind it.
00:32:57And Walmart.
00:32:58Like hella creep stat.
00:32:59But...
00:33:00I like the...
00:33:01I like the...
00:33:02I like the different environments.
00:33:03Obviously I can't drive on the road yet.
00:33:05Oh, I'm way too scared.
00:33:07But...
00:33:08Yeah.
00:33:09I just wanted to give you guys an update.
00:33:12It's scary back here.
00:33:13It is scary back here.
00:33:15And you guys should think...
00:33:17Crystal.
00:33:18Because this was all her doing.
00:33:19I would never do this with anybody else.
00:33:22So yeah.
00:33:23So yeah.
00:33:27Be proud of me you guys.
00:33:28Please.
00:33:29I'm conquering a fear.
00:33:31And I'm in...
00:33:32Enjoying it.
00:33:33And loving it.
00:33:34Thank you so much.
00:33:37For being with me for the first time that I have ever driven in my whole entire life.
00:33:42I understand that I'm 24 years old and I should have been driving for years now.
00:33:46But I have...
00:33:47I've had the biggest fear.
00:33:48I have a fear of just being in the car while someone else is driving.
00:33:51So this was a big...
00:33:52Except for me.
00:33:53And I was obsessed.
00:33:54I did it for over six hours.
00:33:55I know that's like kind of...
00:33:57Obsessive.
00:33:58But I just had a lot of fun.
00:33:59I felt really free.
00:34:00I did really good.
00:34:01I'm really proud of me.
00:34:02And I'm gonna be doing it again tomorrow.
00:34:04Practice makes perfect.
00:34:05Always start in a parking lot.
00:34:07I'm gonna drive me to go to my little area where I like to drive.
00:34:10I'm gonna do a little bit of driving again today.
00:34:12Probably not as long as normal.
00:34:14Thank you so much for being with me for the first time that...
00:34:17I have ever driven in my whole entire life.
00:34:19I did it for over six hours.
00:34:21I'm just gonna drive for maybe...
00:34:22Two, three hours.
00:34:23Obviously, one day I will drive.
00:34:25I'm just honestly terrified.
00:34:26I am...
00:34:27Extremely.
00:34:28Extremely.
00:34:29Extremely terrified.
00:34:30Like every day I wish that...
00:34:32I drove.
00:34:33It is such a huge freedom.
00:34:34I would love to drive, but I just feel like...
00:34:37I can't.
00:34:38It almost is like a paralyzation it feels like.
00:34:40Um...
00:34:42Next question is...
00:34:43Are you still in love with Destiny?
00:34:46No, I'm not in love with Destiny.
00:34:47I would not go into another relationship while still being in love with...
00:34:52an ex.
00:34:53That's stupid.
00:34:54That's just setting you up for all kinds of drama.
00:34:57And...
00:34:58Things that you just don't want.
00:34:59I think you should go on Jerry Springer.
00:35:00For what?
00:35:01I think you should go on Jerry Springer.
00:35:02For what?
00:35:02Destiny, do you hate me?
00:35:03Yeah.
00:35:04Dana, do you hate me?
00:35:05No, but I don't.
00:35:07I don't tell you.
00:35:08Exactly.
00:35:09I did.
00:35:12You don't laugh.
00:35:13So no, I'm not still in love with Destiny.
00:35:17I'm just so f***ing stuck.
00:35:19Like, the most craziest concept of...
00:35:22the world is the fact that you as a person can have your whole...
00:35:27future planned out.
00:35:28Your whole...
00:35:29everything so planned out.
00:35:30And you think you have everything.
00:35:32going for you.
00:35:33And someone can just kind of rip that away from you and completely...
00:35:37completely take that from you.
00:35:39And...
00:35:42I feel like that's what Destiny did.
00:35:45We had so much fun.
00:35:47I just wish that I would be her wife one day because that's how it was supposed to be.
00:35:52but maybe I guess not.
00:35:53I love Destiny as a person.
00:35:55I'll always love Destiny.
00:35:56Not...
00:35:57not in the way that you guys want to make it seem though.
00:35:59I care for her.
00:36:00She's someone that I'm extremely close...
00:36:02close to.
00:36:03And...
00:36:04like, that's always going to be like that.
00:36:05Becky loves Destiny.
00:36:06You know, it's that type of...
00:36:07love.
00:36:08It's like a friendship love.
00:36:09Like how I love Eric.
00:36:10Next question is, do you want to be on my 600 pound life?
00:36:12No, I...
00:36:12I do not want to be on my 600 pound life.
00:36:14No, I'm not trying to be on my 600...
00:36:17pond life.
00:36:18And I have never been contacted to be on my 600 pound life.
00:36:21But I will say that...
00:36:22that if I ever was contacted and, you know...
00:36:27if it seemed like something that I'd be willing to do,
00:36:29would I be willing to do it?
00:36:31Maybe.
00:36:32Who doesn't want free weight loss surgery?
00:36:35Um...
00:36:36Years and years and years...
00:36:37ago, I made a video why I wouldn't have weight loss surgery.
00:36:40Would you ever consider weight loss surgery?
00:36:42Whenever I'd visit my mom, I have not lived with her in a very long time.
00:36:46And whenever we'd see each other...
00:36:47we'd talk about my weight.
00:36:48She'd always bring up gastric bypass surgery.
00:36:51She'd really...
00:36:52truly believe that that was what I should do and the best, you know, for me.
00:36:56It's not that...
00:36:57that she didn't believe in me.
00:36:58It's just that...
00:36:59that's just always where her mind went.
00:37:02About, you know, a year and a half ago, I found out that I had gallstones and that...
00:37:07the surgery to get my gallbladder removed would be...
00:37:11how would I put it...
00:37:12the surgeon told me that I am at risk because of how big I am.
00:37:16He suggested...
00:37:17that I get gastric bypass surgery.
00:37:19You know, for a minute there, I was like, you know, that might be...
00:37:22my only option.
00:37:23But to be honest with you, I don't think I'd ever get it.
00:37:26If you have...
00:37:27I am...
00:37:28I am like, proud that you're not so fearful of it.
00:37:32Because that is...
00:37:33I'm fearful of surgeries.
00:37:35And on top of that, I am fearful of...
00:37:37what might happen if I ever get a weight loss surgery.
00:37:41I feel like if I...
00:37:42if I was to do this, I want to do it myself.
00:37:44Only because...
00:37:45I feel like, in a way, it's easy.
00:37:47Those people who get surgery...
00:37:49I am so amazed at the...
00:37:52the power that they have to do that.
00:37:54Because I feel like getting surgery might be the harder...
00:37:57the harder route.
00:37:58And I am like, amazed at people who do that.
00:38:00I know a lot of people who do...
00:38:02and...
00:38:03it's to each their own.
00:38:04No matter how you lose weight though, it's hard.
00:38:06It is.
00:38:07It really is.
00:38:07With surgery, I feel like the only surgery that I'll be like,
00:38:11hell yes for...
00:38:12is to remove my extra skin once I have it.
00:38:15I don't have insurance.
00:38:16I don't have...
00:38:17income.
00:38:18So I have no money.
00:38:19But I'm hoping one day...
00:38:21if I have, you know...
00:38:22I know I'm gonna have a lot of extra skin...
00:38:24so I'm hoping one day...
00:38:25down the line...
00:38:26I can...
00:38:27you know...
00:38:27have a job and save money...
00:38:28and be able to...
00:38:29do that surgery.
00:38:30Weight loss surgery?
00:38:31No.
00:38:32I never...
00:38:32ever get it.
00:38:33I do want to do this myself.
00:38:34But my opinions are completely different now.
00:38:36I think...
00:38:37I'll say what you...
00:38:38what you...
00:38:39what you buy.
00:38:40What would you buy?
00:38:42I thought it was you guessing first.
00:38:44You're supposed to say what you buy.
00:38:47And then I have to put...
00:38:48I put...
00:38:49I think you buy.
00:38:50Oh.
00:38:51Ah!
00:38:52Ah!
00:38:53Okay.
00:38:54A new car.
00:38:55I put a new car!
00:38:57Wakata!
00:38:58Okay.
00:38:59What about you?
00:39:00I would probably get weight loss surgery.
00:39:02What a house.
00:39:03Yeah.
00:39:04You have never in my life talked about it.
00:39:05You're like...
00:39:06I just want to...
00:39:07everything.
00:39:08Okay.
00:39:09I don't want to talk about it.
00:39:10Anyways.
00:39:11Weight loss surgery.
00:39:12Alright.
00:39:13This is like $14,000.
00:39:14Like...
00:39:15Honey, I...
00:39:16I...
00:39:17I don't think I got that just laying around at the moment.
00:39:22Like...
00:39:23At the moment.
00:39:24So...
00:39:25But yeah.
00:39:26Like...
00:39:27I'm not going to be on 600 pound life you guys.
00:39:30Calm down.
00:39:31Next question is...
00:39:32Next are you going to get a PO box?
00:39:33I am eventually going to get one.
00:39:34Yes.
00:39:35Next is this.
00:39:36And it's like...
00:39:37Super freaking heavy.
00:39:38Oh!
00:39:39What could this possibly be?
00:39:42Oh!
00:39:43Oh!
00:39:44Oh!
00:39:45Oh!
00:39:46Oh!
00:39:47Oh!
00:39:47Oh!
00:39:48Oh!
00:39:49Okay!
00:39:50See, this is funny.
00:39:52Oh!
00:39:53Oh!
00:39:54Oh!
00:39:55Oh!
00:39:56Oh!
00:39:57Oh!
00:39:57I didn't even notice that at first.
00:39:59Wait!
00:40:00Oh!
00:40:01There's like little...
00:40:02Pokey things.
00:40:05Little...
00:40:06This type of thing.
00:40:07Oh!
00:40:08Okay.
00:40:09So this is a cheese platter.
00:40:10Okay.
00:40:11So this is a cheese platter.
00:40:12Oh my God.
00:40:13Oh my God.
00:40:14But it's custom made and it says creamy...
00:40:17Peaky cheeses is a shimmer to an outlet.
00:40:22That is a quote by yours truly.
00:40:25That is actually a line from a...
00:40:27poem that I wrote when I was a teenager.
00:40:29Whoever did this, like this is the perfect amount...
00:40:32of like humor, but like quality gift.
00:40:35Whoa!
00:40:36It opened again.
00:40:37I'm...
00:40:37actually going to be using this.
00:40:38Like this is funny.
00:40:39This is kind.
00:40:40It's a mixture of both.
00:40:42Like and I love it.
00:40:43I wish there was a note so I could say thank you.
00:40:45But I'm going to say thank you regardless.
00:40:47This is heavy.
00:40:48Like this feels like expensive.
00:40:49Creamy cheeses is a shimmer to an outlet.
00:40:52Yes it is.
00:40:53Today we're having cheese.
00:40:55I love cheese.
00:40:57Da da.
00:40:58We love cheese.
00:40:59We love cheese.
00:41:02Da da.
00:41:03Cheese.
00:41:04Cheese.
00:41:05Cheese.
00:41:06Cheese.
00:41:07Shake it.
00:41:08Shake it.
00:41:09Shake it.
00:41:10Shake it.
00:41:11Shake it.
00:41:12Shake it.
00:41:13Shake it.
00:41:14Cheese.
00:41:15Did you...
00:41:16Okay.
00:41:17This one...
00:41:18Oh my God.
00:41:19It's so annoying.
00:41:17A lot of these are annoying.
00:41:18Let's be real.
00:41:19But more so towards the ending they start to get a little bit more like ugh.
00:41:22Did you use the tear on your scale when you weigh yourself?
00:41:26I don't even...
00:41:27I don't even know what that was at first.
00:41:28I had actually google it a couple months ago.
00:41:30A tear on a scale I guess you can add weight.
00:41:32On to it and then zero it out or something like that.
00:41:35I freaking don't know.
00:41:36I'm gonna turn on...
00:41:37I'm gonna turn it on the scale.
00:41:38Tap it like so.
00:41:42I just wanna see that I'm turning it on.
00:41:45Wait for it to turn on.
00:41:47Hurry up lady.
00:41:48Wake up.
00:41:52Hello.
00:41:53Hello.
00:41:54It's ready.
00:41:55It's ready.
00:41:56Hello.
00:41:57It's ready.
00:41:58Ready.
00:41:59Ready.
00:42:00Ready.
00:42:01Ready.
00:42:02Ready.
00:42:03Okay.
00:42:04Okay.
00:42:05No, I do not use a tear.
00:42:07I do not use a tear on my scale.
00:42:08If I was to do that I would make it to where every single time I weigh in I'm like...
00:42:12Oh I'm dropping them LBs like I'm losing that weight.
00:42:15Like let's get it.
00:42:16I wouldn't be like...
00:42:17Okay, let's use a tear on the scale but also prove that I'm over 500 pounds.
00:42:22Let's make the haters right.
00:42:23Like no.
00:42:24If I was gonna ever cheat on a weight loss thing...
00:42:27Which is ridiculous.
00:42:28Like who would do that?
00:42:30It would not say that I was 500.
00:42:32503.2 pounds.
00:42:33Never have I used the tear.
00:42:35I don't know how to use the tear.
00:42:36I had to...
00:42:37Google that shit because I was like what is that?
00:42:39So.
00:42:40Uh, next question is do you have a sex life with...
00:42:42Becky.
00:42:43Obviously I'm actually a very...
00:42:44person.
00:42:45You can ask my friends.
00:42:46I am an open...
00:42:47In the book I talk about sex and sexual things a lot.
00:42:50I don't think it's taboo or...
00:42:52anything like that so just saying the last time Becky and I
00:42:57do I really want to say this that's no one's business that is no one's business
00:43:00the last time Becky and I um you know was February
00:43:022018 um why won't you share your diary on my fitness pal I do get this question a lot
00:43:07on there I have my diary set to private because there are a lot of judgmental people out
00:43:12there I'm not saying anyone on my friends list on there is judgmental but I'm just saying
00:43:17I know there are a lot of people who would go on there and see how I record my
00:43:22or I eat and they would judge me and they would pick it apart I don't want that I'm trying to
00:43:27work on myself I'm not trying to work on myself for others I'm working on myself for me what I eat
00:43:31is private
00:43:32and if I want to share that with you guys sure but that's why I keep it private
00:43:35did Twinkie go to her grooming appointment
00:43:37this is actually something that I'm just like oh okay so Twinkie had a grooming
00:43:42appointment ready set and scheduled but someone in Becky's life really needed help and we
00:43:47had to actually cancel Twinkie's appointment and now she has a new one so that is why she
00:43:52not gotten her claws trimmed yet I'm actually taking her to the vet too
00:43:57and to the groomer soon so she actually has an appointment to get her nails cut and stuff I'm very
00:44:02happy about that because like the vet where we took rarity they seemed super sweet and nice they were really nice
00:44:07so rarity really nice to us and to get Twinkie's nails done is only $15
00:44:12a lot of people are like be a good pet owner and do it yourself well no
00:44:17I don't trust myself enough to do that I don't want to make Twinkie bleed I don't want to hurt her
00:44:22or anything
00:44:22like that like freak accidents happen all the time and I just I don't want to be the person to ever hurt her
00:44:27and I trust people who handle animals every single day to take care of my
00:44:32Twinkie star I know a lot of people worried about that but you guys do not have to worry
00:44:35I'm worried about that too I'm just too scared
00:44:37to do it by myself so that's why she does have an appointment for it and I'm just really upset that um her last
00:44:42appointment had to get uh canceled but I understand like things happen um that's just how life is unfortunately
00:44:47how many siblings do you have I actually have three younger brothers two of them were put into close adoption years and years
00:44:52years ago so I don't know where they are I don't know who they are as people but I think about them
00:44:57every single freaking day of my life are you and Dana still friends yes we're still friends but Dana actually
00:45:02lives in Florida so that's why we haven't hung out because I know quite a few people were like why don't they hang out but
00:45:07Mina Mina Mina Mina me and Dana Mina that's funny
00:45:12me and Dana actually do we do message each other and stuff
00:45:17and we just messaged each other the other day she was like I miss you and I was like I miss you too and I know Becky and Mrs. Dana
00:45:22Destiny a lot too like it was just super fun hanging out with them I always had a really good time next question is do you think
00:45:27Becky Eric and Ricky are enablers
00:45:29I know a lot
00:45:32a lot of people think this to be true but I don't consider them innate
00:45:37enablers no the best way I can say it is
00:45:40wait what are you doing
00:45:41I'm gonna beat you
00:45:42let me feed you
00:45:47let me feed you
00:45:48let me feed you
00:45:50let me feed you
00:45:50let me feed you
00:45:52As great as it was,
00:45:57we went out to eat a lot and it's like, it's fun.
00:46:02It's not even just the food, I just thoroughly enjoy-
00:46:06It's fun.
00:46:07Like it's like the experience, it's just,
00:46:10and it's like every time I take a bite of something,
00:46:12I feel just-
00:46:12It's just like major guilt.
00:46:14But here's, okay, here's my thing.
00:46:16Here's my thing.
00:46:17I don't-
00:46:17I don't see all that much going out to eat wrong.
00:46:21You're doing it all the time, of course.
00:46:22But if you do it here and there,
00:46:24there's nothing wrong with it.
00:46:26Especially if you're watching-
00:46:27what you're ordering.
00:46:28And if you choose healthier options too.
00:46:30Yeah, or you know, if you're going to get broccoli.
00:46:32Hey, do you guys-
00:46:32Do you guys mind not putting any butter on my broccoli?
00:46:34If you're eating a baked potato.
00:46:35Do you guys mind not putting any cheese-
00:46:37or sour cream or bacon on my baked potato?
00:46:40You can get your dressings on the side when you have your-
00:46:42solids and, you know, there's ways around everything.
00:46:46We went out to Texas Red House.
00:46:47with my family the other day.
00:46:49I think that was the first-
00:46:51like, when we went with Kobe and them,
00:46:52I think that was the first day we were, like, off track.
00:46:54And I think it might have-
00:46:55Yeah, I got to-
00:46:56Did something.
00:46:57Loaded sweat.
00:46:57Sweet potato that day.
00:46:58And I love sweet potatoes.
00:46:59And they can be healthy for you.
00:47:01It's just-
00:47:02I was like-
00:47:02I want marshmallows.
00:47:04That one I messed up.
00:47:05It just messed us all up there.
00:47:07I really-
00:47:07What's she doing, baby?
00:47:09You?
00:47:10You excited?
00:47:11I'm not blaming anybody.
00:47:12but myself because, you know how easy it could have been for me to say,
00:47:15Oh, no.
00:47:16I don't want to go out to eat.
00:47:17Oh.
00:47:17Or I could have been like,
00:47:18okay, I'm going to choose healthier options.
00:47:20So we're not blaming anybody.
00:47:21We just had cold stuff.
00:47:22Becky's like, don't tell me.
00:47:27Don't tell them.
00:47:28Don't tell them.
00:47:29No.
00:47:29Because I don't want to get hate for enjoying myself.
00:47:32Come on.
00:47:32Eric, will you say something to Amberlynn if you see her back?
00:47:35Okay, that's fine.
00:47:36That's fine.
00:47:37He said something to help you.
00:47:39Yeah, I asked you.
00:47:39The way you keep, like,
00:47:40crying about, like,
00:47:41how he's a man.
00:47:42Yep.
00:47:45They don't help me on my journey,
00:47:47but I...
00:47:47I don't expect anyone to help me.
00:47:49I don't expect if I ever had, like,
00:47:51a Ben and Jerry ice cream.
00:47:52I don't expect them to take it out of my hands
00:47:55and throw it in the trash for me.
00:47:56I don't expect them if I...
00:47:57I ask for a cookie for them to hand me a carrot instead.
00:48:00That's not...
00:48:01That's not their...
00:48:02I know a lot of people disagree with that.
00:48:05That's fine.
00:48:06But I do not...
00:48:07I consider them enablers.
00:48:08I don't...
00:48:09I just don't see it that way at all.
00:48:12So, I don't really know what else to say about that.
00:48:15Do you really read the hate comments?
00:48:16I know there's, like...
00:48:17conspiracy because...
00:48:18Okay, Twitter has been vile lately
00:48:20because people know I do not read the hate comments.
00:48:22So, that's the question.
00:48:23I mean, that's the answer is no, I do not.
00:48:25I've not read comments in a very long time
00:48:27and I...
00:48:27I actually prefer it that way
00:48:28but lately, since people know I don't read the comments,
00:48:30they're coming on Twitter and...
00:48:32making so many different fake profiles
00:48:35just to bash me and be hateful towards me.
00:48:37But, girl, the block button takes literally two seconds.
00:48:41Like, it's not that hard.
00:48:42Like...
00:48:42I just click you and block you
00:48:44and the fact that you sit there
00:48:45and just keep making profiles after profiles...
00:48:47that just proves how lamey you are.
00:48:49A lot of the hate comments I do see
00:48:50are just hate tweets and...
00:48:52I get the occasional, like, Instagram hate
00:48:55and stuff like that
00:48:56but I don't really read...
00:48:57Instagram comments all that much
00:48:59but obviously, I see most of my tweets.
00:49:01So, I just block you when it happens.
00:49:02But, no, I do not read the comments at all.
00:49:04Uh, nope.
00:49:06Not gonna happen.
00:49:06Next question is...
00:49:07Did you...
00:49:07scam one of your subscribers out of a gift card?
00:49:09I've actually talked about this before
00:49:11and I said, like, I'm literally...
00:49:12not gonna talk about this again.
00:49:13I sent a $50 gift card
00:49:15to the giveaway winner.
00:49:17and they said they did not receive it.
00:49:19So, I feel like it might be the other way around
00:49:21that maybe...
00:49:22they're scamming me.
00:49:23Becky had brought to my attention...
00:49:25Sorry, my nose itches.
00:49:26My eye itches.
00:49:27I'm having...
00:49:27I don't have an allergy issues.
00:49:28Like, if you guys can tell
00:49:29I was holding Rarity Hardcore.
00:49:31Like, I have her...
00:49:32her all over me.
00:49:33But, Becky brought to my attention...
00:49:34Are you sure that this person
00:49:36wasn't initially a hater?
00:49:37to begin with
00:49:38and this was their plan all along.
00:49:40I like to believe people.
00:49:41I really, really do.
00:49:42I would have sent another one
00:49:43because I am that person
00:49:44and I feel bad about it.
00:49:46But, they should have gotten it.
00:49:47This is where I'm confused.
00:49:48I go back and forth where I'm like,
00:49:49are they lying?
00:49:50Are they just trying to pin me
00:49:51as a bad person?
00:49:52Where...
00:49:52were they a hater to begin with?
00:49:53It's confusing
00:49:54and it's frustrating.
00:49:55Frustrating
00:49:56and I'm just like...
00:49:57And that...
00:49:57that breaks my heart
00:49:58if that's the truth.
00:49:59Another thing that could have happened
00:50:00was it could have been
00:50:01lost in the mail.
00:50:02So, they might have literally
00:50:04not gotten it
00:50:04but we have no idea
00:50:06because there was no receipts, obviously.
00:50:07you don't get a receipt
00:50:09when you put something in the mail.
00:50:10No, I did not scam them.
00:50:12That's horrible.
00:50:12I hate that people think
00:50:14I am that type of person.
00:50:15I am not a degrading...
00:50:17horrible person.
00:50:19That breaks my heart
00:50:19that people think
00:50:20that I actually do that.
00:50:21That's...
00:50:22That's...
00:50:22That's horrible.
00:50:23Were you really diagnosed
00:50:24with disorder?
00:50:26When I was 16 years...
00:50:27old, I have lived
00:50:28in several foster homes.
00:50:30I lived in an all-girls group
00:50:31home for two years.
00:50:32I have lived in a children's shelter
00:50:34several different times
00:50:36probably around 10.
00:50:37And one of the times...
00:50:39Oh, by the way,
00:50:39when you're a foster child,
00:50:40you have to talk to counselors.
00:50:41You have to talk...
00:50:42You have to talk to a therapist.
00:50:42You have to go to the doctor.
00:50:44You have to go to the dentist.
00:50:45You have to do all these things
00:50:46unless you decline.
00:50:47But I made sure never to decline.
00:50:48So I always went to these things
00:50:50whether it came with purpose or not.
00:50:52But when I was...
00:50:52I was 16 years old.
00:50:53That was one of the times
00:50:54that I was...
00:50:55Rarity, your tail is probably so annoying.
00:50:57Her tail just keeps going back and forth.
00:51:00That was one of the times
00:51:01that I was in the children's shelter.
00:51:02And my therapist...
00:51:04It might have been in passing,
00:51:05but she did say this is...
00:51:07Disorder.
00:51:08I never got a pamphlet that said
00:51:10oh, you have binge eating disorder.
00:51:12Or anything like that.
00:51:13But she did tell me
00:51:14this is...
00:51:15Disorder.
00:51:16And we did spend a couple...
00:51:17weeks talking about it.
00:51:19So maybe as a 16 year old...
00:51:22I took that and I ran with it.
00:51:23Now as a 27 year old...
00:51:25I want to talk to someone...
00:51:27And be...
00:51:27Pre-diagnosed or undiagnosed.
00:51:29I don't really know what to call it.
00:51:31I will say though...
00:51:32That since...
00:51:32I was a teenager to now...
00:51:34My eating is worse.
00:51:35My brain is worse.
00:51:37My...
00:51:37My eating is worse.
00:51:38Everything is worse.
00:51:40But it is 2018.
00:51:42So maybe things...
00:51:42These are a little bit different now.
00:51:43Okay.
00:51:44Oh my god.
00:51:45This question...
00:51:45To me is the worst.
00:51:46How do you clean...
00:51:47Yourself.
00:51:48You guys.
00:51:49This is funny to me.
00:51:51I don't want to sound mean...
00:51:52Because that's...
00:51:52That's not my intention.
00:51:53There are different diverse people watching me right now.
00:51:56But it's not like what you see on...
00:51:57600 pound life.
00:51:58Not for me at least.
00:51:59So when I clean myself...
00:52:00Take off my clothes.
00:52:01Take off my bra.
00:52:02Take off my panties.
00:52:03Turn on my shower.
00:52:05And I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:07And I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:08I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:09I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:10I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:11I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:12I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:13I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:14I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:15I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:16I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:17I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:18I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:19I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:20I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:21I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:22I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:23I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:24I walk in that mother f***ing shower.
00:52:25little poofy things.
00:52:27I used to, but I just don't.
00:52:28I like washcloths, I feel like they're easier.
00:52:30Before I started wiping her, she would use washcloths to wipe.
00:52:34She would set
00:52:35them on the corner of the sink and then she would turn herself around to wipe herself
00:52:40on it and then she would throw them away.
00:52:42Our roommates started to notice that their late mother
00:52:45washcloths were disappearing and they confronted her about it and she wouldn't
00:52:50want me to lie to them for her, but I didn't.
00:52:53She ended up buying more washcloths
00:52:55for herself.
00:52:56I also needed some more washcloths, so I got a set with white.
00:53:00And mint and then white and pink.
00:53:02Aren't you proud of me?
00:53:04No.
00:53:05I'm just kidding.
00:53:06And instead of throwing them away, she had me wash them in the
00:53:10sink and then put them in the washer.
00:53:12Bath and Body Works is bae, so that is the body.
00:53:15Soap that I use.
00:53:16But this is going to be TMI.
00:53:17When I use Bath and Body Works, I use it on every...
00:53:20part of my body except for...
00:53:25except for the jean and the booty, if you know what I'm saying.
00:53:28Um, I use a more...
00:53:30safer type of soap for that and it's usually a bar soap.
00:53:33I know there is a lot of...
00:53:35talk that Becky is my caregiver, that I use a stick to clean myself.
00:53:40No.
00:53:41I shower just like everyone else.
00:53:43I do it all by myself.
00:53:44There are no sticks involved.
00:53:45There is no Becky involved.
00:53:46I know for a lot of people that's hard to believe and that's sad.
00:53:50That is so sad that that's hard to believe.
00:53:52You know how easy it would be for me to come on here and be like,
00:53:54yeah, I was a bad...
00:53:55It's a bad night, but that's it.
00:53:58Or completely lie.
00:54:00I hate to you guys.
00:54:01Amber also said that I only brought her a bucket a couple of times.
00:54:05And that is true.
00:54:06It only happened a couple of times.
00:54:08But I did help her get...
00:54:10spots she couldn't reach and in between the bucket baths she just didn't shower.
00:54:14If I could...
00:54:15If I could physically show you, I would show you.
00:54:17But this is not Pornhub, honey.
00:54:19Next question is why did...
00:54:20Why did you delete your lab results video?
00:54:22I actually recently deleted...
00:54:24It was...
00:54:25It was around 12 videos because every single one of those videos had something in it.
00:54:30that I actually was not able to show.
00:54:32There was a miscommunication in my life.
00:54:35Which I'm not gonna talk about it right now.
00:54:37Which...
00:54:38It's over with.
00:54:39It's totally fine.
00:54:40I know a lot of people are gonna try to like investigate and figure out what it was.
00:54:43But out of the 12 videos, one of them was...
00:54:45the lab results video.
00:54:46Which sucks.
00:54:47It had nothing to do with the lab results.
00:54:48So if you guys don't believe me, you don't believe me.
00:54:50But I can literally re-show you the lab results if you want to.
00:54:53Because it had nothing to do with that.
00:54:54Which sucks.
00:54:55Because that is...
00:54:55This is a video I really really wanted to stay up.
00:54:57But I couldn't.
00:54:58Because there was something that happened.
00:55:00Miscommunication in my life.
00:55:01Involving around I think like about 12 videos that I had to take down.
00:55:04So...
00:55:05Yeah.
00:55:06That was just one of them.
00:55:07Who's your favorite YouTuber right now?
00:55:08Definitely Shane Dawson.
00:55:09I'm loving his series.
00:55:10I love his little squad.
00:55:11Ryland.
00:55:12Garrett.
00:55:13Andrew.
00:55:14Morgan.
00:55:15I love them all.
00:55:16They're super funny.
00:55:17Does Becky work?
00:55:18So this has been a hot talk.
00:55:20topic for a really long time.
00:55:21So Becky used to work at this wood factory.
00:55:25Where all day long like she was mainly surrounded by guys to be honest.
00:55:30But she would be on her feet all day long.
00:55:33And she would be picking up.
00:55:35Loads and loads of wood.
00:55:37All day long.
00:55:38And putting them into saws.
00:55:39I'm talking about...
00:55:40That is super, super heavy.
00:55:42She was coming home with back problems.
00:55:44Arm...
00:55:45Feet problems.
00:55:46Feet problems.
00:55:47Leg problems.
00:55:48It's just not a job that she should be doing.
00:55:50So me and her, for a while, we just talked about, you know, how would it feel if...
00:55:55Becky did YouTube with me.
00:55:56And you guys, it was not spur of the moment at all.
00:55:59Like at all.
00:56:00This took a long time of talking and figuring out and was this right for...
00:56:05Us.
00:56:06A couple months ago, she just decided, you know, that job just wasn't for her anymore.
00:56:10There's this little thing called a shift change.
00:56:11Yeah.
00:56:12Bye.
00:56:13Bye.
00:56:14Bye.
00:56:15Bye.
00:56:16Bye.
00:56:17Bye.
00:56:18Bye.
00:56:19Bye.
00:56:20Bye.
00:56:21Bye.
00:56:22Bye.
00:56:24Bye.
00:56:25Bye.
00:56:26Bye.
00:56:30Bye.
00:56:31Bye.
00:56:35Bye.
00:56:36Bye.
00:56:37Bye.
00:56:38Bye.
00:56:39Bye.
00:56:40Bye.
00:56:41Bye.
00:56:42Bye.
00:56:40like, later at night, and I come home early in the morning.
00:56:43It's on vacation.
00:56:45I had some vacation.
00:56:45That I hadn't used.
00:56:47I hadn't used.
00:56:49No, Becky doesn't work there.
00:56:51She's currently just doing YouTube with me.
00:56:53I know so many people are going to get upset with that.
00:56:55Use it against her and say mean things.
00:56:57But I know that if you guys were working somewhere that you literally.
00:57:00Hated that caused you horrible pain all day long.
00:57:03And you had the opportunity to quit.
00:57:05You would.
00:57:05It's just that simple.
00:57:06We have broke up.
00:57:08It happened Sunday.
00:57:10And it was initiated by me.
00:57:14I'm very grateful with the job that I have.
00:57:15And I'm very grateful for you guys.
00:57:17And giving this opportunity to both of us.
00:57:19For Becky and I.
00:57:20To get closer.
00:57:21And for her not to be hurting her body every single day at such a young age.
00:57:25Because in 20 years.
00:57:27How much pain can someone really take?
00:57:29Do you get what I'm saying?
00:57:30How much do you.
00:57:30Do you make on YouTube per month?
00:57:32I don't know.
00:57:33Like YouTube is confusing.
00:57:34Because I went through a time.
00:57:35Where they're like you can't tell anybody how much you make on here.
00:57:38Like contract.
00:57:39And then they went through a time where they were like.
00:57:40Like you can say whatever you want.
00:57:42Because it's your personal business.
00:57:43I'm just like.
00:57:44I don't know.
00:57:45I don't know what to do.
00:57:46Around ballpark.
00:57:47How much do I make per month on YouTube?
00:57:49It changes every single month.
00:57:50It's all about the views.
00:57:51However many views you get.
00:57:53But last month.
00:57:54I made over 10.
00:57:55$10,000.
00:57:56So it's different every month.
00:57:58But I do make a lot of money on YouTube.
00:57:59I know a lot of people don't.
00:58:00I don't believe that.
00:58:01I did make over $10,000 last month.
00:58:03And you know.
00:58:03I'm grateful you guys.
00:58:04You guys have no idea how things.
00:58:05I'm grateful I am.
00:58:06I grew up having nothing.
00:58:08Never in my life did I imagine that I would have.
00:58:10Something.
00:58:11I know I don't have much to show for it.
00:58:13I'm literally sitting in a bathroom.
00:58:15In front of my.
00:58:15Closet of clothes.
00:58:16Filming a video.
00:58:17But.
00:58:18Why are you getting on set with me?
00:58:20What?
00:58:20What?
00:58:20Why are you getting on set with me?
00:58:24I don't know.
00:58:25I'm just very.
00:58:25grateful and I appreciate you guys.
00:58:26Because I'm able to pay my bills.
00:58:28And that's why I'm able to constantly.
00:58:30Go out and do things.
00:58:31And people are always asking.
00:58:33How do you have the money to do this?
00:58:34How do you have the.
00:58:35Money to do that?
00:58:36Where do you get this money?
00:58:37It's YouTube.
00:58:38I'm very grateful.
00:58:39I love you.
00:58:40I love you subscribers.
00:58:42I love you all.
00:58:43I love.
00:58:44I just.
00:58:44I'm really grateful.
00:58:45I just have no idea.
00:58:46I could cry.
00:58:47And would I still be doing this without the money?
00:58:49100%.
00:58:50I did this.
00:58:55For three years making about $8 a month.
00:58:57Like literally the money is just like the cherry on the top.
00:59:00Last.
00:59:00The question is do you pay taxes?
00:59:01100% I pay taxes.
00:59:05So we are currently at Texas Road.
00:59:10We just got done with our taxes.
00:59:12Literally so stressful.
00:59:14And I want somewhere different this year than I do.
00:59:15Last year taxes for someone who like is self-employed or whatever is the most stressful.
00:59:20thing in the world but we're going to go eat.
00:59:23Woo.
00:59:24Um I don't do it like everyone.
00:59:25else you can do quarterly.
00:59:27You can do you know obviously yearly.
00:59:28But yes I pay taxes.
00:59:30Those are the.
00:59:3026 questions that I have been seeing.
00:59:33Twitter, Instagram you know private messages and stuff.
00:59:35Like that so take what you will run with it.
00:59:40I don't know how long this is.
00:59:42It feels really nice to get all these things off my chest.
00:59:45I hope you guys.
00:59:45Enjoyed this video.
00:59:46I love you guys all dearly.
00:59:48And I'm back.
00:59:49I'm back.
00:59:49I'm back.
00:59:50I'm back.
00:59:50I don't know about daily videos because I feel like I'm a boring boring boring person.
00:59:54I know a lot of you mess.
00:59:55You messaged me a lot of you messaged me about how much you miss me and I miss you guys too.
00:59:59So I'll see you guys in my next video.
01:00:00Bye.
01:00:00Hey guys.
01:00:03So here's a mess.
01:00:05This is literally how it looks after I shower at night and I just put it in.
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