Baylen Out Loud Season 2 Episode 2

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00:00Colin sucked George Washington's .

00:02Colin gave Tootsie gonorrhea, and Tootsie gave Colin gonorrhea.

00:05Goddamn!

00:07My name is associated with a lot.

00:10Listen, no one's safe.

00:11No one is safe.

00:12I can tell you that.

00:14It's not bad.

00:15It just, oh my god.

00:17I have Tourette syndrome.

00:19you, bitch.

00:20Oh, no, yeah.

00:23And me and Colin are not married yet.

00:25Hey, Brian.

00:26Brian, he's ready.

00:28Do you guys let the alpacas be at weddings?

00:31We haven't started a single thing.

00:33No wedding planning done.

00:35Yeah. Nothing.

00:36So that's the first thing we're thinking about,

00:38is if alpacas are coming.

00:40Because you haven't really asked me for any help, so.

00:43That's our first child that's engaged to be married.

00:47I would love to be super involved.

00:50Can we talk?

00:51Yeah, honey.

00:52OK.

00:53This is about me and my dad, because I need clarity.

00:58I heard that Colin asked for y'all's blessing,

01:01and you said that there was no blessing to give.

01:05I mean it to be like, I'll do whatever Balen wants to do.

01:08That is my blessing.

01:09That is my like, hey, if Balen's OK, we are OK.

01:13What's really sunk in that, now it's them.

01:16It's not her, it's them.

01:18We have been talking about our marriage,

01:22and it started with some premarital counseling.

01:27I thought everything was fine, but this is definitely a curveball.

01:31So, I don't want you guys to be offended,

01:50but I think some premarital counseling would be a good tool to have.

01:55Right now, I feel weird that my parents are bringing up premarital therapy.

02:02I'm sure this wasn't the birthday gift Colin was expecting.

02:05What the hell?

02:07It's not to test your fit.

02:10This isn't like, let's see if we fit, and if we don't, we're raking up.

02:13That's not, that's not the...

02:15And you and Dad did this?

02:16Yeah, that's not the...

02:17It was a requirement to get married in the church.

02:19It was a requirement in the Catholic diocese.

02:21You know, like, we want you guys to really, like, get everything that you can...

02:27Get as grounded as possible.

02:29That's exactly it.

02:32I finally feel like things are in a better place with the DeBreeze.

02:35It's my birthday, we're all getting along and having a good time,

02:38and then premarital counseling popped up, and it's a complete shock.

02:44That's important stuff. It really is, because life is tough.

02:48Yeah, it is. You add children and...

02:50them kids.

02:52It doesn't hurt to kind of tackle some of the other intricacies

02:56that will come into play as your marriage develops over the years.

03:00I know that Alan and Julie are always just trying to help,

03:04but I just hope that they don't think Balin and I's relationship is not a healthy relationship.

03:12All right, guys, it's getting late. Thank you for having us.

03:14Yeah, I appreciate you guys for coming.

03:16Yes. I was, like, nervous about saying anything, because I didn't want you to be offended.

03:20Please don't be offended.

03:21I don't feel offended.

03:23I want you to be the opposite of offended.

03:25I want you to be like, okay, they want us, they want it to work.

03:28I think this suggestion could be perceived a little harshly, only because Al was a little

03:36tough with Colin. I'm very confident that Colin is committed to Balin, but I do have some reservations

03:43about how healthy and happy the relationship will be if you don't make sure that you're growing together as a team.

03:51Oh. So what do you think?

03:57Of the marriage counseling?

03:59Are you offended?

04:01Um...

04:04It's hard to reach you sometimes.

04:06It's our relationship, our marriage, and given the history, like, it's not always been, like,

04:14a easy pathway with your parents. You know that. It's been kind of rocky, so...

04:19Okay.

04:22I think it really just comes down to her parents being really overprotective and wanting the best

04:29for Balin, and I feel like I'm trying to do everything in my power to show that to them,

04:35that I want the same thing, that we're on the same page, and sometimes it just feels like

04:41it's never enough.

04:42I just appreciated them bringing it up, personally.

04:46Mm-hmm.

04:47Because I didn't look at it as a bad thing.

04:52Okay.

04:54I think for right now, I just want to take some time to think it over, uh, maybe talk to my parents,

05:01family members that may have done something like this, and kind of get their opinion on it as well.

05:06Good morning, everybody. Good morning.

05:25Good morning.

05:26Today, we're taking our first tour of a possible wedding venue,

05:30but before we leave, I need Colin's help putting in hair clip-ins that I bought.

05:35Claudia!

05:38Can I have some help here trying to section this?

05:41Help doing what?

05:42Do you know how to section?

05:44No, I do not.

05:45Okay. I don't know how you do your own hair.

05:47It's called, I wake up, put water in it, and I go.

05:51So a few months ago, I asked Colin to trim my hair, because I was like, you know what,

05:59she's looking a little bit dead. And that led to my hair being chopped off.

06:05You're just over here.

06:23To help my baldness, I got webbed-in hair extensions.

06:28I am now luscious Goldilocks, okay?

06:31I feel like I've just added life to my head.

06:38I was more relaxed at the salon, and so I wasn't ticking as much.

06:42But the next day, I was yanking on my extension, my weave. Goddamn!

06:48I was pulling on my hair extensions to the point where it was painful,

06:52because the webbed-in extensions is sewed into your head.

06:56I had them for a solid two weeks before I had to get them taken out.

07:01So tease the hair.

07:09Now I'm trying to clip-in extensions,

07:11which I hope don't set my ticks off as much,

07:13because I can take them out when I need.

07:16Get all that out of here.

07:27Rainy.

07:27Oh, oh, oh, oh, all right, all right, all right.

07:33Chase after the weenie.

07:36Doing Vaylin's hair and trying to put these hair clip-ins into her hair.

07:40It's a struggle.

07:41Yeah, it's a struggle.

07:42It's especially hard for me to sit still, getting my hair done, getting clip-ins.

07:47Just sitting still in general is not good.

07:51It's not good.

07:53It's not working.

07:55So no to the hair.

07:56This isn't working.

07:58We're saying no to the hair.

07:59Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

08:02Okay.

08:02Just add hair to the list of things that are more complicated when you have to wrap.

08:08I'm excited that we don't have to do this for another two hours,

08:11and we can go and see our wedding venue.

08:13First question, do you guys allow alpacas?

08:16And no, walk right out.

08:31I know we've looked at a lot of wedding venues online.

08:34I can't make up my mind with what I want and what I like, but I mean, I'm not the biggest fan of indoor.

08:41Today we're going to look at an indoor wedding venue, and I don't really know

08:48if I'm going to like it because like I want like scenery in the background while we get married.

08:54I think that we should be open to an indoor wedding venue because thunderstorms

08:59trigger Baylen's anxiety and make her Tourette's worse.

09:02If it were to somehow thunderstorm on our wedding,

09:11it would just make it easier if everything's already indoors.

09:15One of them.

09:21Trucks bald.

09:21It is actually.

09:22Okay, you bald-licious queen.

09:24Okay.

09:26Dumbass.

09:28State law bull.

09:29518.

09:31Exit.

09:34Traffic.

09:35Info.

09:35Call.

09:38I'm losing my mind.

09:40Why am I on this side?

09:41I'm just going to start looking at this thing.

09:43Oh no, I'm sponsored by Joe Biden!

09:47Look down, look down.

09:50When I see road signs and I repeat them, it's because of my Lexolalia.

09:55Lexolalia is a complex vocal tick that can also be associated with many other conditions,

10:00but also can be included in Tourette.

10:03I read something, then I vocalize it as a tick.

10:06So have you thought any more about the premarital counseling?

10:11I personally don't have a problem with trying the therapy.

10:15Yeah, it just makes me think that like your parents think our relationship isn't as good as it is.

10:21They brought up premarital therapy out of the love that they have for us.

10:27Yeah, but okay.

10:29What?

10:30If someone gets involved in our relationship or marriage too much, where does it end?

10:39There's got to be a line that's got to be drawn somewhere.

10:42Where does it end?

10:42Are they going to be over every single day, involved in our household every single day?

10:54Or are we going to be able to have our own marriage and family?

10:58I mean, I would love to have my parents over every day.

11:01I mean, I'm not even going to lie. Family is really, really important.

11:04Are you okay?

11:05What?

11:06You just said, I would love to have my parents over every single day.

11:12Is this what our marriage is going to be like?

11:14Are your tics okay?

11:19Yeah, I'm going to take my shoes off because you see how it's like around my ankle.

11:23When I hold my tics in at the venue, later on, they will all come out at once.

11:28I'm experiencing a dystonic tic in my foot and in my leg.

11:32So when my foot's locked, I'm twisting my ankle to the point where I want to snap my ankle off.

11:41Come on, Max.

11:44Come on, Max.

11:47This is actually our team mascot.

11:49The ticker.

11:50That's me. The ticker's here.

11:59You just said, I would love to have my parents over every single day.

12:04Is this what our marriage is going to be like?

12:09I know how close you and your parents are.

12:11Close, dick.

12:12But you're becoming more independent.

12:16And do you think your parents being so involved is them not being able to fully let you go?

12:26I don't think they ever will.

12:29I do think that my parents hold on a little bit more because of my Tourette syndrome.

12:37It's going to be a constant juggling act throughout our relationship.

12:41I hear you.

12:43I do see where my parents are coming also with the premarital therapy because the relationship has worked out and they've taken it.

12:54Have your parents taken it?

12:55My parents did take it.

12:57They went through the church, but they did do something similar.

13:03So I talked to my mom about premarital counseling and she thinks that it would be good for us.

13:09However, I still am on the fence about everything.

13:11I mean, what if it opens up stuff that we just aren't ready to deal with?

13:16So, I mean, let's make the best of it.

13:19And maybe it could end up being really helpful.

13:31Oh, that's it right there.

13:33Dude, it's so pretty.

13:35Just be here now, now.

13:38So Crystal View is about 30 minutes away from where we live.

13:42At this point, we really don't know what we want versus what we don't want.

13:45We're really just kind of looking at all the options to figure that out.

13:52This is even better than the website.

13:53It's so pretty.

13:56You know how to work one of those?

14:00I'm going backwards into the revolving door because I don't want to touch it because of my OCD

14:07and having a fear of germs.

14:08I'll wear, like, long sleeves to purposely, like, touch things.

14:13Or you'll just wait 10 feet back and wait for me to open the door.

14:16Yeah, yeah.

14:19Okay.

14:23Oh, my gosh.

14:28This is pretty.

14:29Where do we even go?

14:30Oh, my first impression of the wedding venue when we walk in is breathtaking because of the

14:37stairs and the flowers and everything being white.

14:39But it's very echoey.

14:42And with my tics, it just makes me very insecure.

14:46Hey, Colin.

14:48Hey, Dalen.

14:49How are you?

14:50It's nice to meet you.

14:50Nice to meet you.

14:51Nice to meet you, Amanda.

14:52How are you?

14:53Colin.

14:53Nice to meet you.

14:54Welcome to Crystal View.

14:55So we're going to...

14:56Lots of bling.

14:57Lots of glam.

14:58We love our chandeliers.

15:04I don't think we've had anybody get married here that's had Tourette's Syndrome,

15:08but we are aware of tics.

15:10And I think it's important with our knowledge to create an environment and an atmosphere

15:15that's comfortable for that individual.

15:17And that's what focused today.

15:20When did you guys get engaged?

15:21Last year.

15:22I love it.

15:23I love it.

15:23So you've had some time to think.

15:24Have you thought about colors, theme, anything for the big day?

15:27I love where it's like very colorful and very bright.

15:31And I love oranges and pink.

15:32She loves flowers.

15:33Yes, I love flowers.

15:35I'm obsessed with flowers.

15:36Perfect.

15:37I found a baby pink dress that I really, really liked.

15:40No.

15:41And I showed him and he was like, no.

15:43So I was like, okay, well, I guess that's...

15:45There's certain things that can have color and then other things.

15:47And I listen.

15:48You're not showing up in a pink dress or a purple dress.

15:51Like it's just not going to happen.

15:52But I listen.

15:53That's the thing.

15:53It's like, if he says, I don't really want to be in a pink tux, I'd be like, okay,

15:58can we have a pink bow tie?

16:00So there's different ways that we incorporate it, but I don't really want the wedding.

16:06What?

16:07Fine, I'll stop talking.

16:11So the ceremony space is really a hop, jump, and a skip from your reception space.

16:16Welcome.

16:17Okay.

16:19I call it the Bridgerton room.

16:21No, I'm kidding.

16:22Pretty much.

16:23The vow exchange is typically in between the mirrors.

16:27And then theater-style seating on both sides of the column.

16:30And then the magic fills in all the gaps with the florals and the columns and all the beauty.

16:34Yeah, that's nice.

16:36This place is really fancy-smancy.

16:39It is very blingy.

16:42Can we see the reception space?

16:43So let's head on that way.

16:44All right.

16:45You okay?

16:48I can definitely tell that Balen's holding in her tux.

16:52I don't want her to go through that.

16:54I always want her to feel free and be herself.

16:57I still want to see the rest of the venue.

16:58But this does make me think that this might not be the right one for us.

17:03Here's the ballroom.

17:04Welcome to the grand ballroom.

17:07Oh, wow.

17:09This is massive.

17:09This is definitely grand.

17:12It's really nice.

17:14I like these chandeliers too.

17:15I have a question.

17:16Yes.

17:17Have you guys ever had alpacas at a wedding?

17:19Absolutely.

17:20In the tent outside.

17:21Yes.

17:23The bride made the exact same face on that date.

17:27Have they been allowed inside?

17:28No.

17:29Collin, that's not a deal breaker.

17:30I told Collin, I said, deal breaker?

17:32No alpacas.

17:33We're having a white horse for an upcoming event.

17:35So we love animals here.

17:37We love animals here.

17:37We don't like horses.

17:38Unpatch-fried horses.

17:39Oh, okay.

17:39Okay, sorry.

17:40He's like, yeah.

17:42Let's get all the horses.

17:43Let's ride horses in here.

17:45We'll stick to alpacas for now.

17:46That would be sick wedding photos.

17:48Us on a horse?

17:50You love alpacas that love to kick people.

17:53I like horses.

17:54The one animal that I'm more than afraid of is a meaty horse.

17:58Like, your mom's a whore.

18:00Marlene's a dirty, filthy horse.

18:06Marlene's Collin's mom.

18:08I feel like I just heard Marlene and heard the word whore, and that's how we integrated.

18:13So we won't be going down to see her until the tick goes away, actually, because I don't actually want to make eye contact with her when I say that.

18:21So thank you guys so much.

18:23Thank you so much.

18:25Lots to talk about.

18:26Have a great day.

18:27I think we go up this one.

18:28Yeah.

18:31All right.

18:31How did you feel about everything?

18:33I feel like you already know what you want to say, so go ahead.

18:36Um, it's too glam for me.

18:39It was great that they allowed, like, the alpacas.

18:45Mm-hmm.

18:47But, like, I want, like, instead of, like, the place to be luxury, like, we make it look luxury, if that makes, like, any sense.

18:55I feel the same way.

18:56I think it's just a little bit too bougie for us.

19:00Boozy, bougie, dick.

19:01Boozy, bougie.

19:03Definitely Crystal View.

19:04I can, I can see the name now.

19:07Yep.

19:07The crystal, really.

19:08Crystal math.

19:10Joe Biden does crystal math.

19:13Joe Biden and JB do crystal math together in my basement.

19:20That's a crazy combo.

19:21JB is the head of photography, and he is always in my peripheral vision.

19:27So, that is where the tick comes from.

19:34Our director of photography right here doesn't do crystal math.

19:39Yeah.

19:40Nailed it.

19:43Whore, WH hockey sticks O-R-E.

19:47Ow.

19:48You okay?

19:51I'm going to, I'm going to take...

19:58Are your tics okay?

19:59Yeah, I'm going to take my shoes off, because you see how it's, like, around my ankle.

20:04When I hold my tics in at the venue, it's incredibly painful.

20:08It's uncomfortable.

20:10And later on, they will all come out at once.

20:13I'm experiencing a dystonic tick in my foot and in my leg.

20:17It's basically, like, a locking and a twisting.

20:20So, when my foot's locked, I'm twisting my ankle to the point where I want to snap my ankle off.

20:27Rainy.

20:30During the tour, did you hold your tics?

20:32Maybe a little bit, because I started ticking, and it was, like, echoing, and I was like, okay.

20:37My wedding day has been something that I've always dreamed of.

20:41And me holding in my tics would look like a disaster.

20:46Your mom's a filthy, fat whore.

20:50I could have a tic attack in front of all my guests, because it's pretty much bound to happen when I hold my tics in.

20:59Between my Tourette's, I have Tourette syndrome, stupid, and my OCD, obsessive compulsive tic,

21:03I'm not like every other bride. So, who knows what we have in store for us.

21:14Me and Colin just looked at our first wedding video.

21:19Baelin's my first kid getting married, and as a mom, I've poured my heart into her.

21:26So, a little part of me feels like a tiny bit left out.

21:33I'm not a mom, I'm not a mom.

21:36I'm not a mom.

21:38I'm not a mom.

21:46Sunshine.

21:47I feel alive.

21:49And nothing's gonna stop us now.

21:53Come on, Max.

21:54Have a good rest of your day.

21:59With my tics, I don't drive, so today I took a ride share from D.C. to Beckner's baseball game.

22:07It's his first game of the season, and I haven't been to one of his games in a long time

22:11because there's a lot of things that will set my tics off.

22:14For example, I purposely missed the beginning of the game because the silence

22:18during the national anthem is a huge trigger for my tics.

22:22I tend to just be tossing away, and everyone's just looking my way.

22:28So, there's a rhyme for the day.

22:30Oh, my God, and all that rhymed.

22:33Woo-hoo, woo-hoo, woo-hoo.

22:35you, Kevin.

22:37Hey, baby.

22:38Hi.

22:39But these are parents with Beckner's team.

22:42All of those people know my mom.

22:43All of those people know that I have Tourette.

22:46So it's a safe space, and I'm here to support Beckner.

22:51How was your trip?

22:53You shopped the whole way here.

22:55You did what?

22:56I shopped the whole way here on my phone.

22:58Of course.

22:58Shocker.

22:59Yeah.

23:00Becky's playing shortstop.

23:02Hi, Beckner!

23:05Oh, my gosh.

23:07Double-deck zero.

23:09That's where he's playing.

23:10Is he a pink glove?

23:11Yeah.

23:12Yeah.

23:12Okay.

23:13Only Beckner would pick out a pink glove.

23:14Yeah, he used to play center field, but now he's shortstop.

23:17We need to get him pink cleats, too.

23:18Mm-mm.

23:19No, he's fine.

23:19He's out!

23:20Wow!

23:21How would you describe Beckner?

23:25Loud.

23:26Confident.

23:27He's a lot.

23:28I heard you guys talk about me.

23:30No.

23:30Make room.

23:31You're going in the middle?

23:36Okay.

23:36Make room.

23:38I heard you were saying something about my confidence.

23:41What's wrong with it?

23:42Nothing.

23:43Nothing's wrong with it.

23:44You love it.

23:45Come on, Beckner.

23:48Come on, Beckner.

23:49Come on, Beckner.

23:51Oh, Beckner.

23:51Beckner, Beckner.

23:52Beckner, Beckner.

23:53Okay.

23:55Got a little star in the fan.

23:57Yeah.

23:57Did it actually hit the fence?

23:59Yeah.

23:59Did it?

24:00Oh, hoot, hoot, hoot, hoot, hoot, hoot.

24:03Oh, my God!

24:05It means a lot to me to have been at my game,

24:08because she hasn't been to one in, like, a year,

24:11so I've improved a lot.

24:12Like, I'm at top notch right now.

24:14So what's new with you?

24:17What have I been missing out on?

24:19Me and Colin just looked at our first wedding venue.

24:22It was beautiful.

24:23A little bit too bougie, too glam.

24:26Oh, my God.

24:27They had 260,000 crystals.

24:31Baylin's my first kid getting married,

24:34and as a mom, I've poured my heart into her,

24:39so a little part of me feels like a tiny bit left out.

24:43Another reason why it just really didn't work out

24:47was I held my ticks in to the point when, when I got out,

24:50my legs locked.

24:51And I don't know why I held them in other than the fact

24:56that I was, like, echoing through the whole place.

24:59Oh.

25:00Like, well, that is, that's, like, awkward, though,

25:03that you felt it necessary to be holding them in.

25:07Honestly, it wouldn't hurt to get back in to see Dana

25:11and talk to her about some of these concerns

25:13just to, like, readdress with her.

25:16Dana is Baylin's CBIT therapist,

25:19and CBIT is a technique that Baylin uses

25:21to manage her tics.

25:23When you have that urge to say an obscene word,

25:26breathe in through your mouth and out through your nose,

25:29that sensation will go away.

25:31It's just hard to, like, get there.

25:34I know that Baylin still meets with Dana virtually,

25:37but I also think it would be smart for her

25:39to plan an in-person session soon.

25:42That's a good idea.

25:43I'm gonna schedule another appointment with Dana.

25:45Dana.

25:46So, speaking of therapy,

25:48how are you feeling about premarital counseling?

25:51Well, me and Colin are gonna do it.

25:53So?

25:54Okay.

25:54It hasn't started, but, I mean,

25:56I have high hopes about it.

25:58I feel this deep sense of relief

26:00that they're going to give premarital counseling a try,

26:03and I think that they'll be glad that they did it.

26:06Ooh, it's all right.

26:08Way to hit the ball, guys.

26:11Becker's team lost?

26:12Yep, they lost.

26:13I'm so glad that you ride-shared here

26:16and came to this.

26:17I know it's not easy.

26:17I have so much fun.

26:19I know it means a ton to Beckner

26:21to have Baylin at his game.

26:23The two of them are a lot alike

26:25with their anxiety

26:26and then certain behaviors

26:28that Beckner is starting to exhibit.

26:30Thank God he has baseball right now

26:31because I think baseball really keeps his mind

26:34in a place where he can put some of that

26:37on the back burner.

26:39Come on, boo.

26:40You did so good.

26:43I assume you almost hit it out.

26:44Yeah, we did.

26:45And I love your pink glove.

26:48I know, right?

26:49Did you, like, hear her?

26:50Yeah.

26:51You did.

26:52I heard her before I saw her.

26:54You heard her before you saw her?

26:56Of course.

26:57That's our baby.

26:59This is actually our team mascot.

27:01The ticker.

27:02That's me.

27:03The ticker's here.

27:04We should change our name.

27:06Look at my birdie!

27:08What mascot would I even be?

27:12Uh, a mockingbird.

27:15Ooh, I'd be a parrot.

27:17I'd be a parrot.

27:19Do you still want to play baseball?

27:20Over and on?

27:21Yeah, I'm getting drafted out of school.

27:23One million dollar deal.

27:24No.

27:25If I ever make it,

27:26that's going to be, like, 90 million.

27:28Okay, yeah.

27:29Maybe if we make it to the car,

27:31yeah.

27:31We can make the 90 million happen.

27:34Get out of here.

27:36Only 90?

27:38That's not a lot of money.

27:39Max, you're so full of yourself.

27:42I love you, though.

27:45Do you have anxiety about therapy today?

27:47I have a little bit of anxiety.

27:49Therapy for the first time.

27:51Baylen and I are headed

27:52to premarital couples counseling.

27:54We're going in there completely blind.

27:56So it's really hard for you

27:57to express your emotions.

27:59Does it feel kind of overwhelming?

28:01Yeah.

28:03Yeah.

28:20What the heck, too?

28:22Oh.

28:24What the heck?

28:24You guys got to clean up your toys.

28:25They're all Dana's going to trip over your toys.

28:27Breathe.

28:28I'm taking my mom's advice,

28:30and I'm meeting with my CBIT therapist today.

28:32I haven't seen Dana in a while

28:34because of the engagement, moving.

28:37Some things that help manage my tics,

28:40other than CBIT,

28:41are having headphones on

28:43or listening to music,

28:45being around my dogs.

28:47However, with my wedding coming up

28:50and not wanting to say certain tics,

28:53it's so important that I meet with her

28:55to get the right tools

28:57to not have those tics happen.

29:03Hi!

29:04How are you?

29:05I'm so good.

29:07I'm good.

29:08My name is Dana Wachter.

29:10I'm a registered nurse

29:11certified in CBIT therapy.

29:13CBIT is an acronym

29:14for Comprehensive Behavioral Intervention for Tics.

29:18So I love your apartment.

29:19It's beautiful.

29:21Do you want to do a walker?

29:22That's your flair.

29:22I would love to.

29:23Okay, sweet.

29:24Okay.

29:25We have the bar stools

29:26because the backs of the chairs

29:28set my tics off

29:30to lean my head back,

29:32so instead of having anything there,

29:33it helps because I can hold on to

29:35the things.

29:36The stovetop is electric,

29:38but I also learned

29:42that I need a stove cover

29:44because I don't want

29:45to break the stovetop.

29:46Right.

29:46We also have plastic everything.

29:49Tick proof.

29:51Seeing Baylin's progress,

29:52I am so proud

29:54because I always reflect back

29:56to our first meeting.

29:57She was in tears.

29:58She couldn't control her tics.

30:00She was ashamed by them.

30:01So she's come such a long way.

30:03It's so rewarding to see.

30:05So what did you want to work on today?

30:07I would like to work on

30:09dick.

30:11My, um,

30:13my goddamn.

30:16On your goddamn tics.

30:18Yes, absolutely.

30:20I've had my

30:22tick

30:24for a long time,

30:27but I don't really know

30:28what set it off.

30:29It's either from a movie

30:30or something that someone said,

30:33but I definitely don't want

30:35to say it on my wedding day.

30:36So typically,

30:39we would recommend

30:40using a competing response

30:42whenever an urge comes on.

30:44We'll review your reverse breathing

30:47when you breathe in through your mouth

30:48and you hold it

30:50and then you breathe out

30:51through your nose.

30:52And the reason why

30:53you're reverse breathing

30:54is you're fighting with speaking.

30:57By breathing in through your mouth,

30:59it makes it impossible.

31:00How do you feel?

31:09Like I didn't need to say my tick.

31:11Beautiful.

31:12Mm-hmm.

31:12Now, sometimes what happens

31:14is if you're speaking

31:16and you feel an urge

31:18to have a vocalization,

31:20to stop and do a competing response

31:22interrupts the natural flow of speech.

31:24So it's okay to do

31:27a less intense version of the tick,

31:29such as whispering the tick.

31:31Like I can do it without saying it,

31:33but just make...

31:34Exactly.

31:36Or you can camouflage it

31:38as a yawn if you want.

31:39That's awesome.

31:40I never thought about that.

31:41I practice my SIBA exercises

31:45pretty much every day,

31:47but it's a lot to do

31:49deep breathing or masking

31:50for every tick.

31:55And there will be times

31:57where I do hold in my ticks

31:58when I feel uncomfortable.

32:00So me and Colin went

32:01to look at a wedding venue.

32:04It was completely indoor

32:05and I was just echoing.

32:07And I also did suppress

32:08to the point where

32:09when we left the wedding tour,

32:11my legs were locked up

32:13from like motor ticks.

32:14Yeah.

32:15From almost like holding in

32:16all my vocal.

32:17From hearing the echoing.

32:19Remember, we also want

32:20to eliminate triggers.

32:21Maybe go look at venues

32:22that are outdoors.

32:23Mm-hmm.

32:24So you won't have that feeling of,

32:26you know...

32:26Being like trapped almost.

32:28Yeah, just like a claustrophobic

32:29maybe type feeling.

32:30Yes.

32:30That would be eliminated

32:32if you were outdoors.

32:33I'm excited to look into that.

32:34And remember,

32:36you have your CBIT therapy

32:38in your back pocket.

32:39Yes.

32:40You can use those

32:41competing responses

32:41as you see fit.

32:43Whatever feels comfortable

32:44for you at the time.

32:46Yeah.

32:47Thank you for coming

32:47all this way.

32:48Thank you so much.

32:49You've come so far.

32:50I want you to focus on that.

32:52You live on your own now.

32:53Yay!

32:53That was big for you.

32:54So I'm so proud of you.

32:55Keep up the good work.

32:57Mm-hmm.

32:58Sometimes the CBIT sessions

33:00with Dana can be difficult

33:02if my ticks are bad.

33:03Today's went well,

33:04but I would like to do more

33:05as the wedding gets closer

33:07so I can be

33:08the best version of myself

33:10on my big day.

33:27Hey.

33:29How are you?

33:30I'm good.

33:31How was work?

33:34It was good.

33:37I just got off work

33:38and Balen and I

33:39are headed to

33:40premarital couples counseling.

33:41Yay!

33:42I'm going from

33:43one therapy session

33:44to the next.

33:45I have my CBIT session

33:48with Dana today.

33:50How'd that go?

33:51It went well.

33:52One thing that Dana

33:53reminded me of

33:54is that CBIT

33:55is all about

33:56removing triggers.

33:58And remember when we went

33:59to the wedding venue,

34:01it was kind of like

34:02setting my ticks off

34:03or making me feel like

34:04I had to suppress in a way.

34:05Mm-hmm.

34:06Now that we know

34:07that it's a trigger,

34:10I would just not like

34:11to see any more

34:12indoor venues.

34:13Yeah, no, I get it.

34:15I think an outdoor venue

34:16would probably fit.

34:18Finding the perfect wedding venue

34:20is like a moving target.

34:22Trying to

34:23avoid the triggers

34:25of thunderstorms.

34:26I have a gun!

34:27By looking at

34:28an indoor wedding venue

34:29only created

34:31more triggers

34:32that we were unaware of.

34:34So I know that

34:35we both filled out

34:36the assessment form.

34:39What do you think

34:40is going to be

34:41something that

34:42we should probably

34:42focus on?

34:44There were so many questions.

34:45Do you remember

34:45more of them?

34:47I know the questions.

34:48There's a lot.

34:49So the therapist

34:50sent over an assessment

34:52for us to complete

34:52before we got there.

34:54There was a lot of questions.

34:55There was like

34:55a hundred questions.

34:57I know there was

34:57a lot of sex questions.

34:59Okay.

35:00There was.

35:01I remember.

35:02That's the only thing

35:03I remember.

35:04I don't know

35:04how they were worded.

35:05I just remember

35:05it was like

35:06one after the other.

35:07Was it like

35:08how often are you doing it?

35:09Or like

35:09what are your problems

35:10in the bedroom?

35:11Literally.

35:11Kind of both.

35:12Both.

35:13Kind of both.

35:14Does your partner

35:15not please you?

35:16Or like

35:16do you not please

35:17your partner?

35:18Is there ever times

35:20that

35:20one person's more pleased

35:23than the other

35:24and you're upset?

35:25Or just like

35:25any type of

35:27specific question

35:28like that

35:28was on there.

35:30Is that an issue

35:31with you guys?

35:33No.

35:35Why'd you say it

35:36like that?

35:37Because I'm nervous.

35:39I don't like

35:39talking about it.

35:40This guy can

35:50a whole bag of

35:50Suck a whole bag of

35:52Colin.

35:54Sorry.

35:56Suck a whole bag of

35:57Suck a whole bag of

36:00And that's how

36:01tics start

36:02ladies and gentlemen

36:03right there.

36:04Right there.

36:06Suck a whole bag of

36:07I know you're watching.

36:14Suck a whole bag of

36:14Just don't say anything else.

36:20Suck a whole bag of

36:21I got it.

36:23Should we bring this

36:24up in therapy?

36:26Do you have anxiety

36:27about therapy today?

36:29Do I have anxiety?

36:30Yeah I have a little bit

36:31of anxiety for therapy

36:32for the first time.

36:34Are you on?

36:35No.

36:35Okay.

36:37Good for you.

36:38I'm super nervous

36:40right now.

36:41Alright.

36:41We're here.

36:43Let the therapy begin.

36:46Alan's bald.

36:47We're going in there

36:49completely blind.

36:50Like we have no idea.

37:05We're going in there.

37:07Hello.

37:09Hi Taylor.

37:10Your room is so nice.

37:12It's so nice to meet you.

37:13Can you hug?

37:14Yeah.

37:14It's so nice to meet you.

37:16Nice to meet you.

37:17Hi Colin.

37:18Are you hungry too?

37:19Nice to meet you.

37:20Sit wherever you'd like.

37:21My name is Amy Begnall.

37:23I am a licensed

37:24professional counselor.

37:25I've been practicing

37:26for the last 11 years

37:28specializing with couples

37:30for the last eight years.

37:31How does it feel to be here today?

37:33I was a little nervous before getting here.

37:36Just therapy scares me.

37:38Okay.

37:39My parents came to him and I

37:41and said that they did premarital counseling,

37:44basically kind of as, like, an avenue

37:46to grow the relationship together.

37:49So, anyway, to just make our marriage

37:51as strong as possible.

37:53Yeah, that's a really good motive.

37:55Bitch.

37:58I've never had a client with Tourette syndrome.

38:00What I know about Tourette syndrome

38:02is that it is a neurological disorder.

38:05So, Balin and Colin might have

38:07a little more of a challenge

38:09than your typical couple.

38:11But I'm really grateful for the opportunity to sit

38:14and establish a safe space

38:16for Balin and Colin to be able to open up

38:19so that they can share really vulnerable pieces

38:22of their relationship.

38:24So before you came here today,

38:26I sent you an assessment

38:28to complete a premarital assessment

38:30that was able to highlight your strengths

38:32as well as some growth areas.

38:35And I'm just curious,

38:36what were some areas of strength

38:38that really popped out for you?

38:40Do you recall anything?

38:41It's definitely not communication.

38:43Definitely not communication.

38:44It's definitely not communication.

38:45Okay.

38:46You seem pretty confident in that.

38:47Tell me more.

38:48Yes, because I'm very bad at communicating.

38:50Okay.

38:51Tell me more.

38:52Like, everything.

38:53Like, everything.

38:54Like, I don't know how to, like,

38:56express my feelings.

38:57And then I also struggle with, like,

38:59everything to do with vocally.

39:01Like, everything.

39:03So.

39:04Does it feel kind of overwhelming?

39:06Yeah.

39:07Okay.

39:08Yeah.

39:09And stressful.

39:10How frequently do you feel

39:12pretty overwhelmed?

39:13Like every day.

39:14Okay.

39:15Like every day.

39:16Yeah.

39:17Just don't get myself.

39:18It's fine.

39:19Yeah.

39:20Just bringing up some emotion for you.

39:21Yeah.

39:22Okay.

39:23Yeah.

39:24Yeah.

39:25This wasn't supposed to happen.

39:27I mean, I was on board for therapy.

39:30Of course I was.

39:31But I wasn't expecting to be in a puddle of tears

39:33in five minutes.

39:34But I guess that's what therapists are for,

39:36is to actually say something.

39:38How about you, Colin?

39:40Did anything come up for you that you thought

39:43would be important to bring up together?

39:45Um.

39:50I think.

39:51I don't know.

39:52Like, I guess like.

39:57I've been holding on to something for a while now.

40:00And it's not easy to say out loud.

40:03Because I know it's going to affect Baylen.

40:05It's something that's been a burden.

40:07And I can't keep pretending that it's not.

40:09I'm having a girls night.

40:16Girls night.

40:19With the twist.

40:20Twist that dick around.

40:21Wrap it, slap it, tap it, that dick.

40:23Holy, I look like Beckner.

40:24I look like Beckner.

40:26This is the first time that I've had a solid,

40:28tight group of girlfriends.

40:30Slap it, tap it, that dick.

40:32Holy , I look like Beckner.

40:35This is the first time that I've had a solid,

40:38tight group of girlfriends.

40:40It's great.

40:43Here soon I have to make, like, a career decision.

40:46That is a super heavy burden that I guess I could say that I have.

40:52So what's Colin's plan after he gets out of the military?

40:55He doesn't honestly know.

40:57Because he knows you can't work a normal job?

40:59I think there is some tension between my siblings and Colin

41:02because my siblings are very, very protective of me.

41:08Vaylin, I want to show you something that we got outside, okay?

41:12My dad's been bugging me to come by the house to see something,

41:17and I have no idea what it is.

41:19What are you doing?

41:21Yeah, what are we doing?

41:23Tell us that funny.

41:25No, I'm being serious.

41:29Go, home.

41:31All right.

41:32I'll see you next time.

41:34Bye.

41:37Bye.

41:38After four, come up with tomorrow.

41:40A story is going back.

41:42анич4the.com.

41:43It's not Paul.

41:44I love you.

41:45You all are saying to him.

41:46A story is sous-spbane.

41:47If a woman will bar you will shove us in head now.

41:50fünf, pon who can be two to five.

41:51Here's her.

41:52He knows you.

41:53Hold up with now.

41:54Come up with me.

41:55Now.

41:56Vamos, we are talking to family.

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