00:00When you look back at the way you've evolved your public image,
00:02what is something that you're really proud of?
00:04And is there anything that you wish you'd done differently?
00:06So my public image, and actually, I didn't come to this realization until this past weekend
00:13because I haven't done, like, a convention in so long.
00:18And, like, the last time I did something was for AVN.
00:22It was in 2024.
00:23I, like, hosted the red carpet and did all this stuff for Showtime.
00:26But I wasn't really interacting with my peers or fans more so.
00:31Like, the interaction was very, like, calculated and, like, structured versus, like, on a casual level.
00:38So interacting with, like, my peers and fans on more of a casual level for, like, Exotica, for example.
00:45I realized that my public image is that I'm, like, a lot of people are like,
00:49wow, you're really, like, I've never heard a bad thing about you.
00:52You're really nice.
00:53Like, blah, blah, blah.
00:54Like, you get along with everyone.
00:55All I've heard is you're very professional and blah, blah.
00:58And that, to me, is so important.
01:02And because I think I wished that back in the day, my image was kind of tarnished by the people that I was attached to.
01:14Like, a lot of people have the misconception that, like, because my ex did drugs, I did drugs.
01:20Which am I, Charlie?
01:21Yeah, because, like, I was associated with that person because that was that person's lifestyle.
01:26But what they don't understand is that that wasn't our lifestyle when we were together.
01:30Like, we were monogamous.
01:31We didn't do that kind of stuff.
01:34My public image, the fact that, like, everyone knows that, like, I'm respectful, I'm nice, I'm professional.
01:40But also to my fans, I'm authentic, I'm genuine, and I'm real.
01:44And that, to me, is, like, a huge compliment because I think so many people get, like, their image in their head and they kind of become full of themselves.
01:54And it's very easy when you have people kissing your ass 24-7 and you've got 10 million followers and they're like, praise God, I don't care if you're a bitch.
02:02You know what I mean?
02:03Like, I've never been that way, and that's something that I've always really strived to be like that.
02:08But not just on a professional setting, but in, like, a real-life personal setting.
02:12Like, I've always tried to just be, like, a really good person.
02:17And I take it so personally, like, if someone doesn't like me or, like, if there's drama with somebody, I'm like, oh, my God, we have to fucking fix this.
02:25Like, we don't got to be friends, but please, for the love of God, don't hate me because, like, I just, that's just something that, like, I just take pride in the fact that I'm kind of Switzerland with everyone.
02:37And I don't know, maybe some people are like, eh, well, that's something you have to pick a side.
02:41It's like, no, I really don't.
02:42Yeah, I'm definitely with you on that.
02:45I try to remain neutral and everything.
02:46Yeah, I try to just be chill.
02:48And sometimes I feel like that works against me a little bit.
02:51Yeah.
02:51But I just don't, I really hate being involved in drama.
02:56And especially as I get older, it's something like, I don't have a lot of time in my life for things.
03:01And, like, I don't choose to live my life in, like, a state of heightened anxiety.
03:05And that is it because I've been through so much and I've had so much trauma happen to me.
03:10And excluding my young childhood, I'm talking just the adulthood aspect of life.
03:18I've had a lot of unstableness, a lot of anxiety-ridden public things.
03:28Like, I mean, I had somebody in my own home film me having a mental health crisis, literally having, like, in a full-blown psychosis and sold it to a tabloid.
03:38And I'm, like, screaming and burning things and lighting fires in my backyard.
03:43And, like, next thing you know, it's, like, on a tabloid.
03:45And I think that that really alters your brain chemistry.
03:49Yeah.
03:49Experiencing something like that because, you know, it really makes you just appreciate, like, stillness and having things be calm in life.
04:02I think that when there's, like, animosity towards somebody or just something, like, I can legitimately say, like, I don't have any enemies.
04:11I don't, like, have drama with anyone.
04:16Like, I don't dislike anyone.
04:19I mean, there's people where I'm, like, eh, I probably wouldn't spend my time with them.
04:22But, like, you know, I'm a pretty fair person.
04:25I mean, there's people where I'm, like, I don't know.
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